#I'm having a mental breakdown

[deathblossomm]

Neil on his instagram stories

[juliasesame]

Rare vent post on this account...

I don't normally vent on this account, but I had reality set in, and I just realized how fucking bad my situation is. Due to financial issues, my mother and I are currently living with my grandmother. Both of them are horrifically transphobic, which has made every day a living nightmare. My mother knows about my identity but refuses to acknowledge it, instead choosing to go down the detransition rabbit hole and try to guilt-trip me into not being the real me. My grandmother doesn't know, and honestly that's probably for the best. I'm going to try to set up some kind of intervention for my mother with my therapist because I don't know if she realizes how much suffering she's putting me through and that what she's doing is not normal. I'm going to try to set that up for tomorrow. I'll have my phone on me, recording the audio so that if she decides to say something overtly transphobic I can actually have evidence to give to social services. Then again, I don't know if social services would actually do anything, considering they did nothing last time. Currently, I don't have a source of income, so affording an apartment is out of the question. And living with anyone else in my family would lead to more transphobia and pain. If I knew I could get away with it, I'd kill my mother and grandmother in cold blood and run away. I want to feel safe in my own skin. It feels like everything around me is slowly falling apart, and I'm helpless to stop it.

[alex-is-the-king-11111]

@captain-fishface777 don't gatekeep how tf did you get your parent to love you.

[luxlitemidnight]

*skeletor voice* the dread and guilt are inescapable, He-man!

[foul-milk]

"retire the car"

[poorly-drawn-miewlk]

pt (1/2)

[m10domedia]

Okay, so I just found out that stalemate apparently exists in checkers??

What??

When was someone going to tell me this??

[goldenandhappy]

Wow, sure as hell nothing feels satisfying

[framblebee]

INTERVIEW WITH THE VAMPIRE 1x2 | 1x3 | 1x4

[hinamie]

tiger lily

[juliasesame]

I don’t normally vent on this account, but I feel like given the subject, this has to be posted here instead of my alt.

I really feel like a failure right now.

I have plans for multiple projects that I need to make, but I either don’t have the energy or I’m forced into using programs that are completely out of my depth.

I know some of you are probably thinking, “oh, you idiot, what are you doing? Just learn Godot or something, it’s easy” but I have put more energy into learning how Godot works than I am willing to admit, and I still barely understand it.

Frankly, I wish I didn't have to understand it, I just want my art to be out there in the world just like how I have it envisioned in my head.

As much as I wish I had a team of people who could help me with my projects, I wouldn't even have a way to pay them.

[alex-is-the-king-11111]

@aaron-stewart-official apologise for killing Joseph.

[plastilinabana]

90 american dollar discless steelbook.....

1 800 mexican pesos for a piece of steel with stickers and shit is just SHIT IS SHIT

[prettylilsoull]

going back to school in a week...hehe..exciting..

[meinewellemeinstrand]

@dandysnob Näd how am I supposed to help you with this. This is the very first time I see/hear this and I think I'm pregnant now.

Either that or I'm going to die

Remember when Richard sang “Sexy Motherfucker” during Du Riechst So Gut?

I was there 3 years ago, at Pinkpop. 

[c0smicfern]

why won't you let me die. let me die. let me die. let me die. let me die. let me die. let me die.