#I'm glad it's behind me but if this post can bring anyone self awareness I'd be grateful.

[lady-shadow-and-darkness]

"I have no friends 😔"

I don't know who needs to hear this, but friends would like to be talked to everyday (ideally). You have no idea how many people have ignored me for days, weeks, MONTHS on end and then showed up again with 0 explanation, multiple times.

I'm a person too. I'm not just your friend, you're my friend too. I would like to be talked to as well. I would like attention and conversations when I can have it as well. I would like a person to share my day with as well.

I don't believe people should always talk to you/respond to your texts right away, there might be multiple reasons why they can't do that. But when it becomes repetitive and remorse-less, YOU'RE GOING TO LOSE FRIENDS. DEAL WITH IT.

"I'm studying for an exam" So am I.

"I'm busy with college." So am I.

"Oh well I'm working." .....and you think I'm just chilling unemployed at home?

"I'm studying, I can't talk" for three months? I can see you talking to others.

The MINIMUM I ask for is once every week, and a conversation about things that aren't exclusively about you and genuine interest in my life. That's what a friend is to me. And no, I don't care what you think otherwise. For me personally, I need to talk to a friend at least once a week for them to BE CONSIDERED my friend.

People I've met in passing? No relation. People I know at school? Classmates. People I talk to occassionally at school about school? Acquaintances. People who know a little more than acquaintances? Friendly acquaintances. People I've had friendly interactions with online? Mostly mutuals.

The term friend has been overused and I'm sick and tired of it. I don't deserve to be treated like some sort of digital personal assistant who you can talk to whenever and expect a cheerful and enthusiastic response.

I don't currently know anyone like this. But by God believe me, I used to, and it SUCKED. ESPECIALLY IRL. So I stopped. I don't talk to people who treat me like a listener anymore. I have two friends and I enjoy talking to them (when we're both available of course).

Oh and to the people online who may have treated me like this in the past, who are for some reason not blocked, if I've ever ignored you, it's because I'm giving you a taste of your own medicine. Because I'm busy too. I work everyday. I'm studying for my competitive exam everyday, I cook everyday, I do chores and dishes everyday, I do assignments and records and study for school tests every damn day. And I still make time for you. You know why? Because I give a damn. I think you're worthy of deserving a response as soon as I'm available. I enjoy talking to you.

So PLEASE, for me at least, if anyone wants to call themselves my friend, THIS IS THE REQUIREMENT. You may require more time and space, but communicate that beforehand before I start thinking of the potential things I might've done wrong or said wrong to upset you. You may very well take months to respond, but find a friend who'll be okay with that. Because I'm not them.

[punkscowardschampions]

Gen 2 Youngers Group Chat

Ali: 👽👽👽 Ali: noissim terces pot Ali: ?in s'ohw Drew: 🍑dial? Caleb: 👽👌👍 ni em tnuoc!👽 Drew: 🤔😵 wtf Carly: 💊dial Meena: I think they're trying to communicate 🖖 Meena: we come in ☮ Ro: it's clearly written backwards, what's important is what am I theoretically agreeing to? If I indeed choose to Drew: Glad one of us has 🧠😊 Marlene: Fair point, what shit are you trying to sign me up for, dollface Ali: Recon, chiefly; but adventure, always Ali: you know me 😉 Carly: 💙🔮🌠 Ro: Because I do know you, elaborate please! Marlene: not to side with your sister again, like, but 🤞 behind my back until you're more forthcoming Ali: 🐯💕🐰 Ali: Oh, ye of little faith! 💔💔 Ali: You'll both like it for entirely different reasons, trust me Ali: you all will so shut up for one sec so I can brief you Marlene: no effect on my heart these days but go ahead, floor's yours 🎤 Carly: ha Drew: 🍿👀 Meena: Shh Drew Carly: yea boy my girl about to speak k Ali: Children, children! Settle down and behave, I know I'm the great love of ALL your lives, like Ali: 💘 declarations aside, you all know I'm Ghoul #1 at the haunted house in town this year Ali: Self-appointed title, yes, before the joke is made but with great power comes great responsibility and shits gonna be LAME if I don't take it upon myself to up the game up 1000% Ali: but that doesn't mean this won't be THE most fun of all time because I'm thinking, HUGE scouting trip of all the abandoned places this country inexplicably has Ali: I'm talking the manors, the castles, the barracks, the gaols, the hospitals, the launderies, the asylums, EVERYTHING Ali: I'll get all the 📸 inspo I need but like, Posy, the HISTORY, Meena, the STORIES, Drew and Caleb, the cool graffiti there always is in these places and free-running you could do Ali: Marlene and Carly, I know you're both down for adventure, right? Ali: so, what do you say lads Marlene: I'll drive you children if I get to pick the music & who rides shotgun Carly: baby u can just say u want me up front its k 🖤 Carly: ali wont mind Drew: 😏 Ro: Hmm, seating arrangements aside and to be determined, when is this escapade set to happen and how much trouble are we likely to get into for trespassing? I'm very much on the fence Caleb: not me man, I've checked out a few places before & it's a good time, up for more whenever Ali: 'Course, driver's prerogative 🖤 Ali: I ain't hearing any nopes 🙌 Ali: and like, seriously none, everyone does it, tourists even, they'll fully abandonned like no windows no doors style, there's nothing or no one stopping us at this point Ro: Okay, it does sound undeniably appealing Meena: I'm in Meena: sounds inspiring Drew: I don't think you should come, Meens Meena: Why not, I'm one whole year younger than you, I'm not a baby Caleb: bruv let her ride with us she can share the night vision goggles ain't no thing gonna happen Caleb: it'll be chill Drew: I guess Drew: but I'll be keeping a close eye, okay Meena: 🙄 Marlene: me first, you bunch of underage idiots Marlene: no blood or tears in my car Ali: awh mammy Ali: we're all in then Ali: there's so many places about, so just whenever we're all free, yeah? Ali: I've got a list, like Caleb: I've got mad 👻searching gear, no joke Caleb: leave room in the whip Ali: we'll bring the 📻 Ro: And our spirit board Ali: 🙌 Ali: love it when a plan comes together Ali: so, this weekend, yay or nay Ali: cancel all less important and boring plans, duh Ro: Of course Meena: 👍😊 Ro: We don't have to stay until 4am though, do we? I'm aware from midnight until then is peak supernatural hours but I'll be dead on my feet! Carly: I can go all night Marlene: 🙄 Drew: 😂 Ali: We should do that at least once, at one of the really old sites Ali: but we can do plenty in the day too Ali: have a car to nap in, if anyone needs it, could bring a couple of tents if we're committing, like Caleb: ✌✌ putting myself in charge of snacks Ali: Yes, Cavante Ali: no requests but make it delicious Caleb: I got tents too Ali: this needs to be a whole roadtrip moment Ali: can spot you petrol, Lene Ali: treat you when I get my first 👻 paycheck Carly: I'll get my da's card baby, I got you Carly: we can party Ali: look at you, big spender 😍 Carly: u kno Marlene: Won't be much to fill the tank, this country ain't that big all over Marlene: Cheers though Carly: now she loves me 🖤🖤 aw yay Ali: There's loads of mad shit in Cork so I reckon we'll aim for there Ali: bore you with the directions privately Lene Carly: 😉 Ali: u kno Ali: 💕 Carly: add me i wanna entertain her privately too Drew: Yous lot are mad Carly: u kno boy Meena: I'm peacing out before this gets to an unacceptable level of weirdness Meena: Keep me posted, I'll dig out my sleeping-bag! Meena: 💛 Ro: Me too, my student will be here for piano lessons in a little while Ali: 💚💚 Ali: Feel free to broach this with mother, Ro Ali: don't wait for me, like 🤞 Ro: Oh how convenient! You know I'd rather spend the night alone in a crypt than ask Tess for anything Marlene: I'll do it. Still her favorite Carly: 💔😢 i thought we were playing nice Ali: Let her babe Ali: we don't wanna Ali: 🖤 rekindle that 🔥 Carly: ha Ali: you home btw Carly: me or your ex? Ali: you, of course Ali: she's got a hot date with my ma, right Marlene: True Carly: yea im there where r u Ali: coming to you 😇 Carly: aw ur sweet & i miss you Ali: not for long Carly: yay Drew: We invited too or what Carly: yea k Caleb: bro you are meant to be coming work with me 😂😂 Ali: 🏃 along boy Drew: 😒 seriously bro Caleb: you gonna make me handle that delivery on my own? keep it peaceful & do it for avó Drew: you gonna help me with mine after Caleb: I got your back Drew: fine Drew: dry but fine Caleb: safe Caleb: gotta go walk Marley before ✌☮ Drew: 👌 Ali: Laters then lads Caleb: 💚 Carly: hes so cute Carly: same 😇 energy Ali: Bless him