#I'm glad even if people don't enjoy stuff they can still read my garbage and enjoy that

[timeoverload]

I have been anxious about literally EVERYTHING today. Sometimes I just can't calm myself down. I am going to try. I woke up at 4am because there was a fox fighting with another animal. I couldn't see them but it was loud. I couldn't go back to bed after that.

I shared a post this morning that was talking about how tattooed people should be more employable because they are able to sit and get poked with needles for hours which is comparable to sitting at a corporate meeting. I wasn't trying to say that I don't enjoy spending time with you, Maxwell. I really do enjoy seeing you and I don't want you to think otherwise. I didn't mean to confuse you. I was just thinking about how getting tattooed is painful in general. It had nothing to do with you. I'm not expecting anyone to console me or make me feel better in this situation because it's my own fault. I acknowledge that my reading comprehension is poor when I am sleep deprived. Sometimes I post shit without thinking about it enough so I apologize. Maybe I shouldn't get on here immediately after I wake up.

My day was stupid and busy as usual. I had 29 cases. I did get some help so that was nice but I was still running around a lot. The morning team lead finally decided he wanted to learn how to do my job. I was happy that he actually took the initiative to ask me after I had been trying to get him to do it for months. I was teaching for like 4 hours so my brain is fried. I was doing a lot of talking. I am just glad that another person knows how to do my job now. I got frustrated because I had to keep tearing everything down and cleaning because there were a lot of patients that had infectious diseases. I had to do that 5 times today. I have to disinfect everything as much as I can. I was also grumpy because I had to deal with bed bugs again too. I am surprised that I got off work on time. I am just glad the day is over. I would do anything to get out of going to work on Monday. I don't want to think about it anymore.

I wanted to get food after work but I couldn't even focus on the road so I decided it would probably be safer to just go home instead. I have some stuff to eat so it's not the end of the world I guess. I think I am going to eat soon and then I'm going to bed. I don't want to stay up late. I would like to get some stuff done tomorrow if I don't feel like garbage. I really hope I can calm down and that tomorrow will be better. I am sorry I am a mess.

I hope everyone else has a good day tomorrow. 💖💖💖

[wyrmmaster]

i decided to drop DitF after the most recent episode. the one before it was great, i loved it but then it dropped the ball (imo) too hard so i gave up. im not trying to be one of the "meh i dont like the show, stop liking it" and im sure youve seen enough jokes and bashes on the show, im just curious why you're enjoying it? what things are grabbing your attention? p.s. i hope it continues to be a fun adventure for you, its fun to see you gush abt it and get excited

Honestly, it’s been weird. The main draw for me is Hiro and Zero Two’s relationship, for good or bad.

I watched the first episode the day it came out on a whim, a little drunk, and loved it. Rewatched the first episode sober twice.

There was a super huge grab for me from the “inherently dangerous woman plucks unsuspecting dude in a depressive rut” aspect.

That’s what it stems from  mostly, but it branches our into a huge ass tree from there when you get to just how goddamn complicated Zero Two is, and the debate to whether she’s one-dimensional or not just adds to her depth as a fictional character. The writers have done an extremely good job at keeping her real motives and feelings ambiguous, even in her monologues and reactions.

We don’t know if she really cared for Hiro or not, we don’t know if she knew he was the same person that freed her or not, we don’t know what exactly she wanted to say to him in the most recent episode. We just have speculation that can go either way.

I could go on for quite a while at her mannerisms, too. 

A big example being in episode 14, when Hiro catches her bludgeoning the squad, one of her last lines is “Ippai.. ippai hanashio-shio”. “Ippai hanashio”, “Let’s talk a lot” would’ve worked, but she repeats the first word because she’s nervous, and adds a second ”-shio” almost like a child would. The subs made it “let’s talk lots and lots…”, which almost manages to convey it. It’s really, really childish. She knows she got caught doing something bad, and she’s trying to convey her feelings through that.

The series baits you into thinking she’s the most mature character among the children but she’s…. really not.

 “Make it rain now!” 

“I can’t…” 

“… Oh.” Then she sulks. And so on.

As for 14 itself, I was disappointed because we didn’t get the huge reunion… and that’s what was supposed to happen, near the end of the episode. But Hiro’s got his memories back. He’s the Old Hiro™, and old Hiro gets shit done. Just so happens this was a bad time for Old Hiro to be around.

You can clearly see Zero Two struggling with herself over her feelings, she’s shown to be pretty angsty when Ichigo mentions the squad, and she remembers it when she’s alone; her dismissing sounds like a teenager trying to convince themselves they just joined the wrong clique in high school. 

“I never cared anyways…” 

Yeah, alright, sure you didn’t, sport.

And that’s not bringing Hiro himself into it.

This huge falling out was one of two options: they talk it out and rebel against society, or this, and while I would’ve preferred the former, this option isn’t so bad, and it was done really well. Everything makes sense.The forced love triangle feels forced because Ichigo’s desperately forcing it, in character. Hiro’s calling Zero Two on how she’s acting because she deserves it. Zero Two’s mirror-breaking murder freakout was lessened from episode 12 levels because she has something else to focus on besides her self-hatred at not being human, but when she feels betrayed, straight back to the murderous rage. Instant chill when Hiro shows up, because he’s the one thing left she cares about, more than she ever cared about herself.

[intrepidmare]

MARE'S RECAPS ~ THE MANDALORIAN: CHAPTER 9 "THE MARSHALL"

Oh wow! It's been a while since I've done something like this. Last year, I caught up with season 1 about 2 days before the finale, so I didn't have the opportunity to write reviews/recaps. This season, though, I'm going to 😀 so here it is the first one! 

For the folks that haven't seen the premiere and don't want spoilers, scroll past this, fast and furious, because it's full of them. If you want to blacklist tags to avoid spoilers from me, I suggest that you add #mando spoilers, #the mandalorian season 2 spoilers, and #mare's mando recaps to the list.

I've seen the episode a few times (yeah, I'm that obsessed with the show) so some of my reactions are more visceral than others since I was too excited the few first times I watched it and I missed a lot of details (another reason to rewatch the episode more than once). This recap is loooooong, which is an indication of how amazing it was.

So this my final warning to those avoiding spoilers. Stop reading, right now. The rest of you… enjoy and let me know if you share some of my opinions. I'm always open to chat 😊

Chapter 9 ~ The Marshall

So it begins! It's so exciting!

I knew that Mando and baby Yoda walking in the street at night was going to be the opening scene. I started to think about it after watching the second trailer, and I'm glad that I was right.

It turns out that the red-eyed creatures were not jawas as I saw some people saying.

Baby Yoda was not happy with the little excursion to the fighting arena. Not walking on the streets nor inside watching the fight. I still laughed when he locked himself up in the pram, even if I've watched the trailer like a gazillion times by now and I knew he was going to do it.

And talking about the baby, he's getting more vocal I think. He's making a few new noises, whimpering more, which I'm not sure if it's a good or bad thing. That he complains more means that he feels safe with his buir and isn't afraid of retaliation for it as he probably was with others in the past and the reason he didn't cry much in season 1. But it breaks my heart that he is stressed. And that child is anxious, I can tell you that much.

The fight with Gor Koresh's thugs was awesome! The gamorrean flying to squash Mando and failing had me cracking up. And omg! Din'd moves! Using his helmet as a weapon and throwing his vibroblade. And leaving Gor Koresh to be eaten! Man of his word, he didn't kill the guy.

On a side note, I would've never guessed it was John Leguizamo who gave voice to Koresh until I saw the credits. Of all the actors who could play the part, I never thought of him.

Umm, I'm curious about the time Mando has spent in Tatooine, which according to him it's been a lot and it makes sense since he knows so much about the Tuskens, their language and culture. I'm guessing he spent a while among them. He had to learn all that somehow. 

When I speculated that Mando was going back to Tatooine after watching the trailers, I said that I was going to riot if he didn't visit his favorite mechanic. Thankfully, I didn't need to worry. I loved Peli in episode 5 of season 1 and I loved her even more now remarking on Din's dislike of droids and trying to keep the baby for herself. Not to mention she complaining about not getting good help these days 🤣

And I ADORE the (improvised?) Birikad Din got for the baby. Of course, the baby is safer in the pram, right (guessing that's why he used it when he met Gor Koresh), but there's something sweet watching him carrying his son so close to him.

And I tell you, Mando has been spending credits lately in baby stuff. I mean, he got a new pram (which I initially thought it was the original that he had somehow retrieved from the garbage in Nevarro, but no, it's not the same, and neither it's the one that Kuiil made) and he also got the bag/birikad thing, which looks brand-new. I wonder what else he bought.

Watching the droids doing maintenance of the Razor Crest makes me think it's all for nothing, knowing that in a few episodes (it might be even in the next one) Mando is going to crash the ship. More than once perhaps.

😆 The baby still loves speed! I think riding on the speeder bike was the only moment that he truly enjoyed in this episode. Look at that happy face 

When they arrived at Mos Pelgo and Din went into the cantina, leaving the baby outside, I was like: Din! That's not responsible. How can you leave your son out in the inclement sun, alone! Then baby Yoda peeked in and I went: never mind. I take back what I said.

Oooh. Cobb Vanth! I love him! For a moment, I thought it could actually be Boba but it seemed illogical and that's what Mr. Feloni and Mr. Favreau wanted us to think. I was correct.

My gawd! Din's shock when Vanth took the helmet off. I just knew he would freak out the moment Cobb asked for drinks and I said to drink they need to remove their helmets and Mando is going to lose it when this guy does. And the standoff! Was so good! "Take it off or I will" is going to become a quite popular phrase in fics from now on, not in the same context, but yeah…

The krayt dragon… oh shit! Or rather Dank farrik! We can't see Mando's face or expression but I can imagine which one was when he saw the dragon eating the bantha the first time.

Oh my goodness. The baby hiding in the pot! Too adorable! 

I know every hardcore SW fan lost it watching Vanth modified speeder because is a callback to the Phantom Menace and Anakin but my first thought was: is he compensating for something? Sorry, I couldn't help it 

The dog-lizard creatures were kinda scary at first but then became adorable. Almost as much as baby Yoda getting out of hiding

Baby Yoda doesn't like dog-lizards things. He looked afraid to be eaten I think. Poor little guy.

And look at that! Din showing such growth! To think he was the one incensing others in negotiation 😆 this is a total callback to the jawas in Arvala-7. And I gotta tell you, Din freaking loves his flamethrower. He doesn't waste the opportunity to use it.

The krayt dragon eating the Tusken raider instead of the bantha was quite of a plot twist 😆

When they were planning the attack on the dragon, Cobb Vanth's face when Din told him that the bones and pebbles were to scale, and then when he had volunteered the villagers to help… priceless! 

I like the fact of banding together with others for a greater good, relying on others to accomplish something is going to continue being the theme of this season. It started last season but I think it's going to be stronger this time around along all of the episodes.

😳😲😳😲 this thing vomits acid?! What. The. FUCK?!!!

Cobb: I don't think it's dead

Mando: me neither

Me, at the same time as Din: yeah, nope it's not dead

Oh yeah! Teaming up with jetpacks!

When they showed the bantha with the remaining explosives my first thought was why didn't they use all those before?! That's why they didn't kill it!! Of course, it was just an excuse to grant Din a more grand win in the end, but you know, it's stupid not to use everything you have to kill the monster on the first try. Just saying

Wait, what? Din! What are you going to do? No! Taking care of the child is your responsibility, not Cobb Vanth's! I hate this plan of yours, Din Djarin!! Whichever it is!

Oh! Nice callback to the flaw on that jetpack. But makes me wonder, do all the rising Phoenixes have the same flaw? Cuz unless Din knows Boba in person and that it's his armor with that particular flaw, it means it's a common problem for all and I don't like it.

Get away, Din! Get away, Din!! FLY AWAY!! AAAAAAAHHHHHH! NOOOOOO! 

There he is! Damn, Mando! Don't scare me like that! Altho, it was a nice move.

Okay, but now I want someone to explain something to me. If the dragon's acid melted people at contact before, how the hell is Din so whole? I mean, sure for argument' sake let's say his beskar armor provides some protection, but he's not entirely covered in it. His cape and undersuit seem just fine, albeit sticky. Where's the logic in that?

The tuskens getting the pearl reminded me of the jawas and the mudhorn's egg, chanting zukka, zukka (or however egg is spelled in Jawa).

That's quite a piece of meat. The baby is going to be happy eating off it for days🤣

😮😮😳😳 BOBA FETT!!!!! Yesssssss!!

Okay, I've seen other people's thoughts and some think that Boba was after Cobb Vanth because he had the armor, but I don't know. If that was true then why he hadn't gone to Mos Pelgo and got it? It seems to me that it's more likely that Boba is following Din somehow because it's the second time in as many Mando's visits to the planet that they sort of cross paths. Could they know each other? Have some score to settle? It's possible. Din has spent much time on Tatooine -his words, not mine- so it wouldn't be so out of consideration that they actually know each other. That if Mando knows Boba is (fake?) Mando, I don't know. Probably not, but who knows?

Extra thoughts

I gotta say that Ludwig Göransson is killing it with the score music! Oh. My. God! So so so so good! I could tell from the trailers that it was going to be awesome this season but it astounded me in chapter 9. Gorgeous, absolutely gorgeous! My favorite piece is when they're going to the dragon's cave to kill it. The orchestral sound of the already familiar music blew my mind!

[imagining-in-the-margins]

TB&TB 🐇 Anon Answers 1 of... something. There are a lot. Sorry 😅

1. Heheh, I giggled when I wrote it! And I agree... very telling 😛

2. Now is when I out myself as a weirdo and admit I don't really picture things in my head, and when I do, they are very vague. Most of the time, I see the characters as cartoonized or animated versions of themselves. Bunny in particular, I change her appearance in my head regularly. I do this to ensure that I take all of my Readers into account when describing her, and because I can't ever seem to make up my mind.

I can try to do a couple Picrew versions of her, if anyone is interested!

Also, thank you so much and I am so glad you are here and enjoying yourself!!!

3. Thank you so much, friend! I love when people send me quotes from my writing; it really helps me improve and it's a joy to read people's reactions.

I love and appreciate you ❤️

4. Domestic is definitely a good word for them! They stay that way the rest of the fic, too 😚 But yes... Kyle certainly poked the bear a bit too hard this time. Not a side of Spencer that Bunny has ever seen.

5. Aaaa I wrote that scene first because I was so excited for it! I love dopey lovesick Spencer so much. He just loves her and wants her to be safe and happy so badly.

I checked my AO3 link and it was working for me, but those links are notoriously finicky. If you can't get it to work, my AO3 should be listed in my Masterlist of Links (pinned post) as well!

6. Heheh, people are taking it much lighter than I anticipated... I'm not sure how much more possessive Spencer there will be, but I imagine he'll bleed through a few times at least. That scene was a showing of weakness for him, so it's something he actively tries to avoid.

7. Make sure you take breaks! Absence makes the heart grow fonder 😜

8. So bad. He'll get there, though. He knows. I do not intend to dance around that topic.

9. Awwwe it's so nice to know people think about this series as much as I do, lol! I do miss focusing on my oneshots, but the regularity of it is nice. I'm definitely a sucker for a schedule. But yeah, it would've been way too hectic to try to do it this week. I don't think I'll finish before next week, either and I'm pretty bummed about it 😬

Best of luck with the health related struggles, though. I hope you get some relief soon, and then you can enjoy TB&TB without that stuff on the backburner!

10. I'm so glad to hear that you relate to my writing and it makes you feel even a little bit better about yourself. I promise you, we think that people care about these things more than they actually do. I knew and know multiple women in their mid to late twenties (and some in their thirties!) who are virgins, and it doesn't phase most people.

Trust me when I say that it is much more preferable, in my opinion at least, that you wait until you're comfortable with yourself before you pursue a sexual life. It would have saved me from a lot of dangerous situations.

That being said, the idea that you "have to love yourself first" before someone can love you is complete garbage. People will still love you with your faults. That's part of loving someone... accepting their flaws. You're going to find someone that makes you happy however you need, and you will live a great life.

Best of luck!

Thank you everyone for your patience on my vacation! I'll try to line up those Blurbs to post soon! 🥰

also i still have a bunch of asks to answer, sorry!