#I'm fuckinf living for this

[ballad-of-birdy-lamb]

REAPER WASNT GONNA KILL LUCY GEAY IN THE BLOODBATH HE WAS GOING AFTER ANOTHER TRIBUTE TRYING TO KILL DILL

[sga-owns-my-soul]

it's 2am and i just woke up from a dream about my ex-best friend/cousin where she was sobbing and asking why i hate her and why i don't care that i'm hurting her and my response in my dream was "why should i"

i'm too emotional for this

[zhongli-lover-69]

disney has GOT to stop sucking ass + then dick + then ass again

[debaucherries]

I love being so sad it makes me want to vomit. I think that's a really fun sensation that adds to the general mood of grief and despair

[loverboybrightsideghost]

kinda re: my last reblog, but the "you DON'T need romance to be happy and fulfilled in life >:(" as a child to "wait. shit. fuck. i think i'm aro??????" pipeline as an adult is. apparently real!

[confinedinthisflesh]

god if you're out there, you're a real asshole you know that?

[boysbeware2]

all the old tptm girl journal entries w the new (if anyone wants to see them again and compare them)

please proceed with caution as many of these could be upsetting to read

disposable girl (jordyn)

(old)

i cant fucking stand this. i try so goddamn hard to make friends, to be attractive to people, to be even somewhat appealing to them etc etc. it never works. i thought it would get better the older i get. thats what i was told. guess what! i was fucking lied to!!! im alwasy left out of EVERYTHING i never get invited to shit and my own friends ignore me all the time. everyone looks at me weird. i cant go in public anymore im so fucking terrified of everyone. nobody fuckinf wants me, man. im so close to doing something stupid i feel so gross and ugly and dumb i should actually just die id be doing everyone a favor LOL

(new)

man, i havent been on here in forever. the internet is kind of dumb. what is there to say? my friend group celebrated our outpatient graduation anniversary the other day, that was pretty nice. we’re all trying to figure out housing stuff, nora’s been helping with that. freyja + mayra + kairi found a place already (how are they so responsible??) and the rest of us are trying to find places near them so we can visit more often. i never expected to have such a big group of friends. if you told me 2 years ago that i’d be living like this, i wouldn’t believe you. it’s still surreal to me. i’m not sure what i did to deserve them. same goes for my girlfriends. i don’t wanna say who just yet, we’re still figuring things out, but i’m just so thankful for them. i feel so lucky to have a second chance at life. i really didn’t believe people when they said it would get better, and then it did. how funny…..

irreverent girl (kairi)

(old)

I do not want God to see me anymore. I do not want anymore eyes on me. This is near unbearable. I have no one to turn to. My mother is in the church. Many of my friends are in the church. They would tell me to find hope through Christ. They would tell me to pray to Him. They would tell me that He will save me. He must not remember He made me, and if He does, He simply does not care. I know this is unbecoming of me, and I don't mean to be dramatic. I am simply depressed, nervous, and I cannot tell what's real and what isn't anymore. I know I'm supposed to hear God speaking to me, but I do not, and I am tired of straining my ears. I just want to see a doctor. I want some kind of tangible solution. I do not want to pray anymore. Praying hurts. I only do it when I am afraid, but I am afraid much of the time. I don't want to be unheard anymore. I do not want to hold out hope for someone who does not act like they're there. I am hurting. I am hurting. I am hurting. Belief is hurting me. The idea of God is hurting me. I need an out. I am hurting.

(new)

When I have a job and money and I can move away from my shitty Mormon parents

splitter girl (tahira)

(old)

theres something so broken in me thats beyond saving. so i dont know why i keep trying to be saved. i meant to kill myself when i was 18. i didnt. all ive wanted to do lately is kill someone or something. i havent. im too much of a pussy to plan anything concrete, no matter how much i hate everyone around me. no matter how much i get off to videos of people dying or how much i love cutting myself i cant actually take action against other people. i am fucking purposeless. i was born from evil and i will always be evil and i cant even live up to that. i hate myself i hate myself i HATE myself and the universe hates me too. i dont know what to fucking do at this point. i talked to one of my friends about wantingto die and they said smthn about hospitalizing myself. maybe. i dunno. i dont know what else there is for me/. my eyes are fucking burning from lookign at my computer for so long adn not getting any goddamn sleep. i am not a good person. i dont think i can be helped but i just dont wanna fucking keep goign to school and being around people and pretending like everything is norma;l. i cant keep doing it. what the fuck is wrong with me whagt happened. why cant i be loved or feel love for other people when did something change in me that switched the aggression and affection parts of my brain. im hyperventilating ill be back. maybe

(new)

getting myself onigiri from this one good boba place 2nite bc im 8 months clean…… its the little things~ ^^

fainéant girl (freyja)

(old)

i know i dont hate being disabled... i just hate being disabled in a society that makes existing difficult... but sometimes i really just dont want to be disabled anymore. i dont want my family to lecture me about how i could be helping out more, or how i should get a job. i dont want teachers to keep asking me whats wrong or the fuckin uni counselor to try to get me hospitalized. i dont want to be in so much pain anymore, to feel so exhausted that i cant even do so much as prepare food for myself, let alone do anything meaningful or fulfilling. its not fair. i shouldnt have to stay inside and sit in the dark all day,. i should be able to have friends. to talk to people and to go out with them and to feel like i am alive. its lonely and traumatic to suffer through this and on top of that no one around me understands, and they never fully will. i am tired of trying to justify my existence to everyone, to explain the pain that i am in and why i shouldnt have to experience it. i know the problem isnt me. i know i live in a world that isnt built for me. but if the world cant change then sometimes i truly feel that i should just stop living in it. my lifespan is already shorter than everyone else's anyways. what difference does it make

(new)

my qpps didnt seem to appreciate me playing Alien Kids Alien Rap for them. Do they even love me

caliber girl (nora)

(old)

唉～It is 3 AM and I should go to sleep but I can’t. I have a work zoom meeting early in the morning and I gotta hit the gym also because I haven’t done leg day in like… weeks. Oh well, it doesn’t even matter. My value is depleting but I don’t think I care anymore. The turnaround date for my code is also in a couple of days and I haven’t made any progress. I keep getting the same error and I’m too tired to figure out what’s wrong. I might get fired at this rate LOL(笑). If that happens, I think I’ll just consider ending it all. Not that anybody will miss me. God I sound so weak and pathetic right now. When did it get like this. How did it get like this. I’m sure I’ll be fine. I’ve been through worse before and this is nothing. Ugh, why is it so hard to breathe? My chest hurts and I feel like something is wrong but I don’t know how to make it go away. Should I call someone about this? No. No one is awake or around to help. I’ll be fine. I’ll just sleep it off. Shake it off… shake it off…

(new)

My Tamagotchi beeped during a meeting fml

chocolate box girl (morgan)

(old)

i thought i was doing better but i cant stop thinking about them. their touch, their interests, their smile, everything. the worst part is that i miss them, after all of what they've done to me. i was 13. i dont even feel justified calling it rape since our relationship was so muddy... they never yelled at me or was angry at me, they just got so sad when i tried to speak my mind, and got all my friends to hate me when we finally broke up. i never said no so i feel like im insulting actual survivors by feeling violated. i wasnt even trying to get into a relationship with them, it just happened... i feel like everyone around me wants me in the same way they did, even though im an adult now and i dont even try to make myself appealing. i wish i could trust people not to take advantage of me, and i feel disgusting and selfish for feeling like everyone has ulterior motives of getting me to fall in love with them, or worse. that's so self centered of me. i dont know how long i can keep doing this

(new)

girl help i cant stop looking at anime figures on japan yahoo auctions !!!!!

taxidermy girl (mayra)

(old)

I don't remember ever not having a sex drive, is that normal ? I was born and then it was all downhill from there, something happened to me sexually i think, I don't know what happened, because I don't remember much, but something happened and I was beaten for it and yelled at and my mother hated me, and now I am an adult and I try to have sex, and I'm not there mentally, even if my body is participating, I feel like I am in the past again, being beaten and yelled at . I want to keep trying, I want to have fun, to feel safe in someone else's arms, to reach the heights of pleasure, but my mind scares me so much, I haven't been able to eat anything today because I feel so horrified by my body . If I was good I would have been born as a nonsexual being, no parts, no desires, no instincts, a blank slate, too empty to be enjoyed . Do you know what it feels like, to have your mother tell you people want to sexually abuse you when you are a child, and then to be made fun of by your peers for being so ugly, to have your middle school and high school classmates joke about how much they don't want to have sex with you ? I am illicit and undesirable at the same time, I am everyone's last option, I am nothing and still too much, rotting deer meat on the side of the road . I wish I had been born as something beautiful and pure, I wish I could start over, that whatever that initial sin was had never been committed .. I want to start over

(new)

Went to a kink event the other night and everyone was so nice … The low lights were fucking with my vision so one of the hosts helped me navigate the place . I ❤️ you random disabled ally with a pup mask on

chemical girl (joy)

(old)

LMAOOOOO im too angry and miserable to be around. i think i just need to give up at this point because theres clearly like. something broken inside me that cant be fixed. that has 2 be it because i try to talk and i just sound cold, i try to make a joke and it comes out overly edgy and unfunny, i try to be like everyone else but its too much. i cant even be a collection of the positive traits i see in others, i try to replicate it and it comes out warped and wrong. im either fucking enraged or in abject misery or way too happy and nobody can keep up with me. the thing is i dont even blame them. i wouldnt want to be around me either. do u know what thats like? being someone you wouldnt want to know? i keep hoping that one day ill wake up and suddenly be normal, the mood swings will be gone and everyone will like me and i wont do stupid shit that pisses them off. but i know that day isnt coming. theres no hope for me and i want to say sorry to everyone who has ever had the misfortune of knowing me but i know it wouldnt do anything. theres nothing i could ever do to make myself right

(new)

i need to convince my gf to take me to Round One again soon

refraction girl (nataana)

(old)

i don't want to do this anymore. i'm going somewhere better

(new)

talked with my psych and i’ll be starting TMS soon, it’s some thing where they put magnets to ur brain and it’s supposed to treat depression.. trying to temper my expectations bc i’ve tried so many treatments that just do nothing for me, but i’d be lying if i said my hopes weren’t riding on this. i want to confidently say i’m glad to be alive. i feel like i’m getting closer to that

nurse parallel/machine girl (xiomara)

(old)

I am so excited... Tomorrow my experimental outpatient treatment plan begins!!! I'm beyond delighted. I have complicated feelings about my DID being in remission, but it's nice to feel stable enough to be in charge of something this big, and to not have terrible gaps in my memory anymore. I still don't remember everything that happened to me, but maybe I don't need to. At this stage of my life, I feel content. I can confidently say everything was worth it. I want to help others feel that way, too. I think I can.

(new)

I’m meeting up with a new friend tomorrow… I feel nervous, but it’s a good nervousness, I think!

[bloodblossomtree]

guess who just arrived in the FUCKINF MAIL!!!!!

He's such a cutie I love him so! Soon he shall sit with wally and Barneby but for bow he haunts the living room

I'm probably gonna draw this guy soon XP

[tengenscvmbvdd1]

{𝕄𝕪 𝕓𝕣𝕒𝕥𝕥𝕪 𝕗𝕠𝕦𝕣𝕥𝕙 𝕨𝕚𝕗𝕖}

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The worst thing about being Uzui Tengens fourth wife, Was the fact that you were the brattiest. Not even, U were just a live soul and believed that you were an independent woman, But the god of festivals said way different, Everytime you and him got into the littest of arguements, And u stopd up for yourself, he'd always try and have the utmost respect and support, But it really did irritate him at times. The other wives, Hinatsuru, Suma, Makio all tried to warn you, "You're really pushing his buttons Y/n, And he's always respectful and showing you love and support, But this nasty attitude...u dare to defy him y/n and im afraid the punishment will be the worst one yet..." U never listened to their rambles, Because You wouldnt dare believe non-sense from the most loved ones in the house, But you knew they were loves because you were a defiant little shit, a brat. Not that you cared....right?..

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Today was any normal day, Just you minding your business while him and the other wives went out to get food or find something to do. U never really minded, U preferred to be left alone at the house. U just cleaned, and maybe cooked here and there for them and then disappeared into your room, but today...oh today...

today he was talking to you about how you were gaining weight, It irritated you, Because one, You're a black girl...(or whatever you are) We're naturally thick and curvious girls. He was saying how we was worried about u eating right and how "I just want to make sure my fourth wife is alright...and not gaining...too much weight.." He'd say staring you up and down. So immediately ur attitude was off the hook, Ur facial expression and body language says it all. His eyes narrowed in frustration, and rubbed his temples starting off "Y/n dont start this, I'm not saying you're gaininng wei-" you interrupted angrily, interjecting, "Are u fucking serious Tengen-sama. Ur questioning my weight? U shoulda already knew once u were arranged to marry a COLORED girl, I was gon be curvy and thick? If u cant handle it this, then divorce me, Got me fucked up."

He stared at you with hurt and anger. The arguement was on now, He stands up towering you as he raises his voice, "Are you seriously going to disrespect me like this? I'm worried about u!" You'd say, "About me eating? Ur a fucking dumbass bro!" The wives quickly leave the room, as the arguement gets out of hand, Y'all screaming and accusing each other of certain accusations, From cheating, from picking favorites, from being a pain in the ass, to you finally ending the screaming fest with "I want a got damn divorce from yo sorry ass."

The room fell in silence for a few seconds before you're beinf halled over his shoulder, and a loud !!!SLAPPP!!! Was put to ur ass, U cried out in pain, Tengens voice came out with anger and hurt. " A divorce? Really? Thats not my flashy wife i know i married. You should know by now, U ain' goin' no where."

U were thrown onto the bed, Ur body bouncing off the bed softly. With swift movement, he plopped u over his huge muscular thighs, ur ass in the air, As u throw protest, before he covers ur mouth, and a loud "!!!!!!SLAPPPPP!!!!!" Was put to your ass, He says loudly with anger and amusement, "Beg for forgiveness. U dare defy me, I'm ur husband" Another loud slap and a loud cry of pain heard "I keep you fed! A roof over ur head, Clothes on ur" !!!SLAPPPPPP!!!! "Ass, And u dare get a fucking attitude with me?" SLAPPPPPP "Ur fuckinf over ur got damn" SLAPPPPPP "Head. I'm tired" SLAPPPPP "Of this got damn attitude." SLAPPPPPP!

Ur now crying and whining, Ur ass stained red with huge hand print. He rubs ur ass, before one last slap, which causes u to yelp in pain, a strained screech. U knew u were wrong to ever defy Your husband. But u were in general a very very naughty bratty girl, but the way he is dominating ur poor ego, it's sad and pathetic. "Get your ass on the got damn bed." U knew he wasnt playin w/ yo ass, So u quickly get onto the bed, "All fours, U know the got damn drill." Indeed you did, Indeed u sadly did, Although u received a spanking, Ur not recieving a riding crop, And these bitches create fucking welts. He swings back, and slaps the riding crop hard across ur bottom, U cry out loud "Aaahhhh! Fuckkkk!" It came out whiny and pathetic..U begged loudly for mercy, but it never came except for more and more pops on her ass, She can feel the welts and bruises that will be there in the mornin' "Please daddy! I'm so- MMM!!! Ahhhh!!"

"Shut the hell up."

He said seriously, Throwing the riding crop to the side and ripping her tight little boyshorts,Plunging 2 digits in her tight pussy. "Nghhhhn!!!" She cries out in pleasure, as he streches her far and wide, Her pussy clenching his fingers, Making sure she feels the strech before adding 3 more fingers, grabbing her wrist with the other hand, and making her fall face first into the bed, Her ass in the air. He loves her ass so much, so plumped, soft, His face winces in hurt and affection for his wife, knowing he didnt want to spank her like that, he doesnt want to punish her, period, but he has too, She has to learn to respect him, He enjoys her moans and sobs, Thats the only thing fueling to his erection, making him harder than a teenage boy, her pussy about to cream as he curls his fingers.

"Youn get to cum? Fuck you thought this was...After that unflashy ass attitude u had wimme? U think u cummin? Hell nah hold that shit in."

He slides his pants down, his bobbing erection coming out, as he doesnt even hive her time to think, Plunging himself deep, All 9 inches into her, Not caring. He pulls her up to his chest as he fucks her deep, wrapping his Veiny hands around her neck, Pulling her into a chokehold while digging her guts out, ballsdeep, shes gasping her air, clawing at his arm, Moaning and crying, but enjoy every last minute of it, she cries hard as shes being forced to edge herself.

"You like disrespectin' me? Huh?, U wanna keep disrespecting daddy? Hm? Tell me?" He says strained and hoarse, as he feels her pussy clench "U wanna keep acting like a fuckin child? U wanna keep actin like daddy ain' teach yo ass how to act? Hm? Let me tell u- Fuck this pussy is so good, U fucking slut..- Tell yo ass sum- Damn!!" He groans feeling how good her pussy is, He reels his hips all the way back, now going in with precision, Shes csreaming at this point, He still has her in this chokehold, She feels like she may pass out. But no, She ain, She just in immense pleasure.

"Daddy please!" She managed out "I'll be ur good little b-bitch!" She cries out "M' pussy hurt!!" He didnt give a fuck, he reaches down circulating her clit, "Take this shit, take it. U hurt me with the way u act Ma, I want u to be my good girl, Not daddy's disobedient girl, That's so unflashy of you baby, I hate hurting daddys girl..." He coos, "But it's embarrassing when my comrades ask me- Fuck! Fuck! Yea! I'm filling you! in the most! Flameboyant and fucking flashiest way ever! Ur pussy! Filled up with my kids! Oh yeah! Take this shit Y/n U better fucking take it!" He growls in her ear, before spilling deep inside of her, he didnt let her cum that night, Slapping her ass one last time before kissing her. "Maybe next time, When u wanna be daddys good girl again, I'll let that sweet pussy squirt, But for now? Ur ass ain getting to cum."

May be short, But a bitch on a time crunch..

[verdemoun]

I'm still thinking. Hosea is a grandfather. A grandpa, if you will. There's Isaac, the boy he barely saw before timewarp, the boy he actually *watched* grow up. And Jack. Oh, Jack. (I am so normal about him.) The bright boy running around camp, turned into this. Just as emotionally fucked up as John and Arthur were at his age. And then there's timewarp kids, and then he figures out Jack had a younger sister. How does he handle THAT???

yes. y es i thought abt jack and hosea. because yes i fuckinf think jack would happily put up with hoseas bs. that is his grandpa and grandpa loves him.

oh fuck you you can't attack me in the feels like that and not expect an immediate reply covid has your brain cOOKING. sorry john + abigail jack is actually my son my baby my blorbo

If dad Hosea is intense, papa Hosea is willing to resort to the lowest honor tactics to protect his grandbabies. Like mama grizzly bear to the extreme: he might look the part of sweet old man but he will murder someone with his bare hands if they even LOOK at his grandbabies wrong.

He actually prefers being called Uncle Hosea because he loathes reminders of how old he is (even though growing old is something he is very, very grateful for). Isaac looked him dead in the eye when Hosea tried to correct him and said 'no I am calling you Pa and that's that'. He also calls Bessie Meemaw. Everyone else calls him Uncle Hosea but Isaac has that Morgan stubbornness.

Also Isaac is finally old enough for the 'yeah your dad was an outlaw and all those strange timewarp people are fellow gang members' and is immediately eyes sparkling. Knows outlaw bad but also how cool is that?? He will excitedly sit at Hosea's feet to hear stories about the old days and of course Hosea loves telling very true and not exaggerated tales of their adventures.

Between having no understanding of modern currency and economics and also the excitement of having a grandchild he gets to see whenever he wants because not running for lives anymore, Hosea is the worst when it comes to spoiling his grandbabies second only to Bessie.

Isaac, going from being raised by a 90% of the time solo parent to having such a massive family in the gang, loves all of them so much. Suddenly having grandparents for school events and those dumb family tree assignments. Isaac also inherited the theatrics genes. He's doing a video interview about Hosea's career and of course Hosea is just telling stories about scams and cons he ran but Isaac's in full old timey interviewer garb newsie cap on microphone and clipboard.

Isaac slamming the door at Arthur's fuck you I'm going to Pa's house when he's grounded. Arthur calling to say he's grounded do not spoil him send him home asap and Hosea merrily agreeing only to cut to Isaac getting cake and coffee while they play dominos. Hosea blindly agrees that Arthur is taking him getting suspended a second time far too seriously.

Old man bawling getting to hold baby Maeve. Sean trying to tell him to stop because he's going to wake her up but Hosea is the softest bastard when it comes to babies.

Emotionally ruined to find out Jack has a younger sister but also she was the first Marston to die and so young. He is always the first to offer to babysit and it was a very common occurrence to find her sitting on his lap drifting off as he reads to her. Practices her reading with her and plays tea parties with actual tea and does voices for different characters obsessed with playing with his smaller grandkids.

BUT HOSEA AND JACK. Hosea has been through the emotionally fucked teen outlaw gig so many times he is an expert. He knows when Jack needs space or to talk or company before Jack does.

As easy as it is to focus on that damage all that trauma and emotions and just darkness Jack carries with him, Hosea still sees their little prince.

The sheer emotion of knowing how much reading came to mean to Jack. The hurt but comfort of knowing that Jack, even if he didn't remember Hosea as clearly as Hosea remembers him, held onto something Hosea helped him with and gave him so tightly. How he read so much Abigail teased him despite how proud she was of the life he was going to have before everything turned to shit.

When Jack is still adjusting and understandably awkward and also mentally not coping, Hosea showed him their expansive private collection of books and saw the way Jack's eyes lit up. They both finally have someone to talk to books about.

Not only Jack lighting up a little like a candle being exposed to oxygen again but actually laughing as Hosea starts stacking books he recommends in his arms. Hosea being excited to talk about books without spoiling them also also just so excited to see that bright little boy is still in there.

Catching Jack curled up on what is usually his reading chair, book still in hand but fast asleep. Remembering the first times Arthur, and John, and Tilly and all those troubled young outlaws they picked up along the way felt comfortable enough to sleep around him, and knowing deep down Jack is going to be okay.

[rainofthetwilight]

I'M KILLING MYSELF ACTUALLY WHAT DO YIU FUCKINF MEAN THERE'S GONNA BE A NINJAGO LIVE ACTION .

[starheirxero]

WE WERE RIGHT- WE WERE FUCKING RIGHT- THEY HEARED OUR PLEADS-

SOLAR WOULD'VE COME BACK WRONG- HE WOULD'VE COME BACK NOTHING MORE THAN A SHELL OF HIMSELF-

EVEN THOUGH HE LOOKS LIKE SOLAR, HE STILL WOULD'VE BEEN BLOODMOON UNDERNEATH IT ALL!!

EVEN MORE SO, HE WOULD'VE BEEN MORE LIKE THE ORIGINAL, WHO DEPENDED ON BLOOD TO LIVE- WHO NEEDED THIS-

HE WOULD'VE BEEN MORE BLOODMOON THAN V2 BLOODMOON THEMSELVES!!!

I AM GOING INSANE/POS-

This entire situation is so raw!!!

He would've been nothing more than a ghost. A ghost of someone long past, longer than himself-

And he would've been hungry. So unbearably hungry. It would've eaten him up inside, until eventually, he would've snapped. Until he would realize, he isn't Solar anymore, not really. Maybe he never was to begin with.

The way he screams at Nexus, demanding to know, why he brought him back, as his voice twists into that of the bloodied demon-

G O D THIS IS EVERYTHING!!!

And his words!

Nexus was so focused on bringing one brother back to life, on saving who he couldn't save, that he pushed his family away.

Too focused on his mistakes, too focused on fixing them, that he didn't know what he lost, until it slipped right through his fingers.

It didn't just cost him one, but two brothers!

And he didn't even cry. He didn't scream for Sun the same way he screamed for Solar. He didn't fall to his knees, begging him to wake up, grief in his voice.

Instead, he was just angry. Furious, even. Yet, not in the same way.

His anger towards Solar wasn't this raw thing, that threatened to burst. Not like it was with Ruin.

It felt more like anger at his failure, more than anything else. Instead of crying for his brother, of checking if maybe, just maybe, he's alive, he used that time to justify himself to the monster in his lost one's skin.

And he simply kills him, less anger felt and more frustrated than anything else.

He has already lost his grip, his care. Whatever has turned him into who he is now, is already there, just not as prominent, not as bloodthirsty.

OH GOD, I HAVE SO MANY FEELINGS- I AM ABOUT TO BURST!!!

I LOVE THIS SO MUCH, ACTUALLY!!!

-Stardust

I'M SO LATE 2 THIS BUT YESYEHSYEHAYAHSHAHHA!!!!!!!!

THIS IS THEE MOST STRIKING "CAME BACK WRONG" SCENARIO ON TSAMS YET AND YEUAYAYAGS HE WOULDA BEEN MORE BLOODMOON THAN V2 BLOODMOON LITERALLY!!!!!!

Yesyesyes I am nodding SO FURIOUSLY AND EVERYTHING YOU'VE SAID!!! Everything Solar said made my heart squeeze because of just how we never heard those sorts of tones from ever before and Nexus being honestly more ashamed or embarrassed that it all went wrong instead of grieving the loss of his two brothers..... it's just SO. ITS SO AUAGAJAGAJSHSHD

IT'S SO INHERENTLY TRAGIC ALL AROUND. THERE WAS NO OTHER WAY FOR IT TO END THE MOMENT NEXUS'S PLAN SUCCEEDED. THEY WERE FUCKINF DOOMED AAUAUAAGGGGHHHHHHH

[huh-1260]

You know what. Fuck it. I don't have enough patience to fully type out all the roles and archetypes I will be using for my LU yugioh lore au, because there is a fuck ton of cards and lore and I will only be using like half of it plus some minor tearlaments lore for a possible what if timeline, if I choose to not make it Canon to my au. So I fucked up Wild's original lore I had planned out so I present Pre-Calamity wild aka, before the plot which the first War which Wild's first death happened. (Tbh I'm not sure if I should ramble about the au/lore with the art I made of this to explain but please let me know)

So, to explain pre main plot wild. Wild is a member of the Ice Barrier tribe, which outside of this au is one of the many members of the residents of Duel Terminal. Wild is based off of (for now) Georgius, swordsman of the Ice Barrier along with the mystic tunic. The ice barrier tribe live in a ice land (some can consider it to be a frozen waste land) guarding their ultimateweapons the three dragons of the Ice Barrier. (To be honest I was going to to post Sky first but Wild is like super easy to do because I don't really have to work as hair to find a color scheme but Sky is slowly going to be finish!) The ice Barrier tribe for this au will have alot of members because a lot of people die and Im not really sure how much ice barrier members die. Changing the original idea of this au to this, i was prepared to murder every character. (Sorry y'all, it's just how it works in Yugioh card lore, everyone dies or it's super cute and its a toxic meta deck). Now I'm not sure of Georgius's original lore purpose was (pretty sure he's apart of the new Ice Barrier support due to the art style change with the original ice barrier cards and I'm too lazy to look it up and something in my house is making the internet freak the fuck out and it didn't affect Ao3 so I was just mostly chilling all day reading ao3 while my Tumblr was freaking the fuck out along with my Google.) But I decided that because I choose Wild to formerly be Georgius, swordsman of the Ice Barrier, I choose the uh, more interesting route for Wild. Wild was connected to one of the Ice Barrier dragons, more specifically Trisula (which shall be hinted my me, to be a named character guess who), and during the War against, uh man I fucking forgot, FUCK! Okay so while I figure it out, it's before Cia's awakening. Which I shall explain once I get to Warriors because he is a big fuckinf tie in for speeding up the original lore aka waking her up. So one by one, the Ice Barrier tribe released its dragons, kept in their ice barrier prisons. Two main families that run the Ice Barrier tribe, were arguing in releasing the final third Ice Barrier dragon. Because in lore Trisula, dragon of the Ice Barrier was the most hateful mother fucker ever (yes this is some what of a joke but Trisula was the most violent out of the three ice barrier dragons.) And from this two families were childhood friends who didn't want Trisula to run the world in ruin, so they tried a Ritual that shall bring up another monster as an alternative to releasing Trisula, the Calamity. The two friends were Aurora and Hyrule. And with the failure of the Ritual, Aurora died, and Hyrule's mind was left plagued with the the Evilswarm (Calamity) that escaped from the earth. Now how does that relate to Wild? So Wild was in the splash zone of Cia's awakening, and Wild was injured by the explosion, and died to his wounds in First's (gem knight Crystal's) arms. Which his sword became the sword First use to fuse (yes Gem knights are the better Gems from Steven universe fight me bitches- I'm joking on the fighting part but Gem knight are the peace keepers of Duel Terminal, noble knight of Duel Terminal that protect the weak, which honestly better than Pre era three of the gems in SU) to become Gem knight Master diamond, which Wild's sword would become the goddess sword. Which after First dies the sword gets passed on to Sky/Gem knight lazuli to become the Master Sword of this au. Now how does Wild's death affect Trisula(in this au)? Well Trisula is fucking pissed because her favorite human (I will eventually reveal Trisula idenity and her reasons) died before he could see her be released. So trisula goes on a rampage and the other two ice barrier dragons join. So basically Wild's role as Georgius was to die and eventually become a puppet/Shaddoll like creature reborn Cia as his soul is trapped in a shell that barely mimics his old body to watch the outlier of the War, the one who doesn't belong to this space and time.

Warriors.

Wow dramatic am I right? Okay so here's the unfiltered version nd the original reference card art. But, Konami has a hard time remembering to credit artists, and I would have to stalk the entire internet to try and find the original artist for all of thr cards I will be using for this au, and honestly? As much as I would rather credit the original artist and hope they have a Tumblr I don't think this series of art works would get done if I start scrambling for the original artist for every single card I will be using/referencing for lore on every single platform that exist. But if I stumbled across them in the future, the master post of this au will have the credit go to them for their original work

[thesillyguyy]

I haven't even been on this world for AN HOUR

NOT EVEN 30 MINUTES

So I spawn in a desert, and I think "well I'm fucked" because I have little to no experience in living in a desert.

I eventually come across a village after a bit of wandering, lucky.

This.

BUT THATS NOT EVEN THE BEST(worst?) PART

BECAUSE AFTER MORE WANDERING I COME ACROSS THIS

BUT WAIT, THERES MORE

I FUCKING TURN AROUND

WHAT THE SHITTTTTT

LIKE WHAT

HOW

A97UFASTIPURPSO7TSOUFS9URARU

@iceiscondemnedtogaybabyjail @gummy-axolotl @theautumnalcat @sh4tt3rg1rl @arden-in-space LOOK AT THIS SHIT

HOW

ACTUALLY FUCKINF HOW

[aracelysdelusion]

Kaveh strikes me as someone who is just desperately trying to avoid being a protagonist. Like, even canonically, yknow?? The fact that he just so happened to be away when everything suddenly went tits up in Sumeru?? Alhaitham being like “where were you when Sumeru needed you most?” Like! Hiding! Hiding from being the protagonist! And then later on during the Inter Darshan Championship, when he won the competition and was getting possessed by the Diadem, Sacchin was like “I’ve been searching for many years for a successor, and I’ve FINALLY found one, it’s YOU” and in response Kaveh fucking smashes the Diadem because he is NOT having this protag shit. And finally the fact that Nahida herself says that Kaveh’s ideal of Wisdom and stuff is literally PERFECT?? He’s got so much protagonist energy and he’s doing everything he can to avoid it. So goddamn funny I love this guy

ONE HUNDRED PERCENT LIKE bro is just tryna live his life alhaitham is all "ohhh the sages are corrupt and that puts my comfortable job at risk so im gonna fuckinf fix shit on my own" LIKE BRO??? THATS MAIN CHARCATER SHIT??? I'M NOT TRYNA BE ON THAT. like bro fr dodged a bullet chilling in the desert while shit went south. He does NOT want to be the main character!!!

i think i can say this because i changed this part of aiug lore but oh my god that quote of nahida saying kaveh having an almost perfect grasp of what sumeru being a nation of wisdom means had such an impact on the old lore i had in mind like thats some real shit right there.

on a similar note, I FINISHED CHAPTER FIVE GUYS GO READ IT ITS LIKE 20K WORDS LONG CAUSE ALHAITHAM THINKS TOO MUCH. hopefully i'll finish chapter six in time to post it before my birthday in less than two weeks but we'll see!? I have higher hopes for finishing chapter 6 sooner cause kaveh is wayyyyyy fucking easier to write than haitham

[queerplatonicshipshowdown]

Round 3, Match 2

John Doe and Arthur Lester (Jarthur) from Malevolent vs. Rosé, York, and Grendan from Drawtectives!

Propaganda for Jarthur:

The inherent intimacy of having a guy (John) inside your (Arthur) head who you don't know the history or goals of but still bond over the atrocities you go through in your shared body. And sometimes he's an arsehole but you know that he wants the best for you and it's so much more than any other relationship they could have and in the end they always have eachother and I'm jealous of a sad British man and the voice in his head. They're friends and each others world and everything and I want what they have. OH DID I MENTION THAT ARTHUR IS FUCKINF BLIND AND JOHN IS HIS ONLY ACCESS TO SIGHT? IT'S BEAUTIFUL. Like John always takes such care to describe their surroundings (no seriously he starts waxing poetic). I mean yh he withholds it sometimes but every door has its issues. Anyways yh I love them and they deserve the world.

They are extremely close, both literally and figuratively. John is inside of Arthur's head, and they often fight in ways that have been referred to by the fans as 'divorce moments' but they still very clearly care about and love each other, in a way that is explicitely non-romantic. Their love is desperate and aching and they're not just friends, but they are definitely not dating, and a LOT of the fandom interprets them as queerplatonic.

Oh, the special kind of affection and friendship that can only bloom between a 1930s private detective and the eldritch entity that ends up possessing his eyes and left arm. 95% of this show is Arthur (the detective) bickering with John (the eldritch entity) like an old married couple, and falling in and out of trust with each other. Despite that they are both fiercely loyal to the other and by the point the podcast is at now they seem to trust each other implicitly - Arthur has to rely on John to guide him since John can see out of the eyes of their body and Arthur can't, but when they fall into an abandoned mine and are reunited (long story) they immediately fall back into that old, trusting rhythm. They share a body and their initial goal in the podcast is to be separated, but by the point we're at now they're not too fussed about it. They're making plans to go out to dinner and the movies. Also, Arthur is aro-coded - there's a big emotional arc that involves him accepting the fact that he never had romantic feelings for his wife, even during the birth of their child or her death, and how that doesn't make him a bad person or diminish the love he felt for that child.

Propaganda for Rosé, York, and Grendan:

they live together, work together, no romance, adopt a son together