#I'm fine. I am and I will be fineeeeeee

[rejoiceandcomplain]

maybe I just need a nap and I'll be fine

[euclydya]

man c'mon

[kuiinncedes]

;-;

[fandomwe1rd0]

Reasons why I kin Morty starting with the least concerning then moving up to most concerning

I mean I did one with everyone's favorite toxic old man sooo might as well do our precious baby boy, especially since I relate to him more1.

I look younger than I actually am

2. I have a similar fashion sense

3. I am very socially awkward

4. I used to stutter

5. I am introverted

6. I am bad at math

7. I've got one friend

8. I got bullied at school (Junior year at high school fucking sucked-)

9. I am anixiety personified (I've got generalized anixiety disorder babyyyy)

10. Nobody notices when I'm gone

11. I have very low self esteem

12. I have bad luck with romance

13. I am the punching bag of my family

14. I don't stand up for myself

15. I don't like confrontation

16. I was emotionally abused (I'm fineeeeeee)

17. Mr. Jellybean.

18. I think everyone secretly hates me (I'm FINE)

19. I was forced to grow up too fast

20. Lost my innocence at a young age (I'M FINE I'M OK I'M FINE)

21. I care about people even when I shouldn't care about them

22. I care too much about what others think

23. I push my anger down

24. I am sick of my abusers shit but am not doing anything about it.

25. Self loathing babyyyyy

26. Suicidal thoughts babbyyyy

[namuneulbo]

week one hundred and twenty seven

okay.

i've been playing so much stardew (and reading ao3)!

did my weekly grocery shopping on monday and also picked up a vinyl for my sister that i had ordered and managed to get myself a puberty 2 vinyl as well while browsing the store hihi.

on thursday i had a presentation together with my classmates d, e and o. d's so pretty and smart *dies*. she had dyed her hair (or well, retouched it) and it looked so nice. i think i MIGHT (!) be developing a crush. i don't know. TRUST ME I DON'T KNOW EITHER HOW I CAN MOVE BETWEEN PEOPLE SO QUICK!!!!!!!! only thing is that she's very short which had always for me been like... a thing i don't really like. LIKE I KNOW IT'S NOT GOOD TO BE VISUAL LIKE THAT but... it's okay to have a few visual preferences... right? or am i problematic?

i have however always thought she was pretty during the online lectures back in the fall too. literally after my first day i remember thinking about how pretty i thought she was and how i'd like to be her friend... or something along those lines...

right... presentation. we had about influences in k-pop and i had about queer influences but i was so nervous TT d like... nodded and hummed and agreed and stuff throughout the thing which in a way helped but you know, i was still stumbling over all words and repeating information and only looking at the floor and my hand was super shakey... like to the point where o mentioned it when she was trying to comfort me afterwards TT she was like "oh no, you did well, one could tell your hand was shaking but other than that it was really good!"

on the brighter side, i received a lot of questions afterwards, which i now realize could just be because i explained it poorly, so that was nice. however i once again got nervous and like... couldn't perfectly explain things so d jumped in for me and answered and gave shorter and more concise answers. i'd like to think she did it because she noticed how uncomfortable i was. i was impressed how much she knew about the subject but i guess it makes sense since her part of the presentation was about black influences in k-pop and you know, black and queer culture have a lot of history together and queer history includes mainly people of color. it was still impressive though.

i talked briefly with her and s after class and i walked home feeling like i might have some friends soon. so that's exciting!

on friday i went shopping with m. it was a lot of fun but i spent so much money... we went to some stores then had food then more stores then a sweet treat then beer. i'll list a quick haul: halfaxa vinyl, maroon nail polish, foundation, eyeliner and a hair repair oil thingy.

we also... kind of planned a trip to dublin for funsies... to see twenty one pilots next year... we might fuck around and go... we have over a year to save up for it so you know... it's fineeeeeee. i'm so glad we both love ireland.

yesterday was my sister's birthday. i gave her an orville peck vinyl and a shirt with pedro pascal on it. her two fav things, country and pedro. i was nervous she wouldn't like the shirt but she ended up wearing it for when her (our?) friends came over, a, j and l. we had white people taco night and then played mario kart and mario party. it was a lot of fun!

our shower drain is clogged so today's laundry day so i can wash the bathroom rug that ended up being... quite nasty after the shower that made us realize the drain was clogged. i had to do my laundry soon anyways so it's fine.

i used to really like doing laundry but now it feels like such a hassle. i booked the same machine twice today so i had more time to wash everything since i think i wanna wash the rug seperately from my clothes and then i obviously have to do seperate color and white washes. so much work.

sotw: babymetal - mirror mirror

[ishikawayukis]

me at the start of the year: yeah im losing inseong and youngbin sometime, but daehyun is getting discharged in may so it evens out the heartbreak.

me now, sad and being the fool i am: it does not even out the heartbreak.

in short, it is sad city at my place tonight

it really doesn't even out it LMAO last year when yonk had to leave i was like well i'm getting sungjaeandhyunsik soon i'll be fineeeeeee. i was not fine at all LMAO

a sad week for fantasys pouring one up for all of us right now