#I'm excited tho so no sad feelings here hehe

[mewcrossing]

enjoying the last days of summer 🌻🍑

[slayter-kinney]

i've been trying to formulate how i feel about wad and this era of phandom since i finally got the chance to watch wad all the way through with my girlfriend last night and after sobbing violently following the smash mouth credits i think i have some semblance of a train of thought. long ramble incoming after the read more hehe

for context, i've been watching dnp for about 10 years, which for some of you is an extremely long time and for others is piddly. regardless, a decade of my life has been spent in varying amounts watching dan and phil and interacting with the phandom. and part of what i was trying to express to my gf after watching the show was that it really is a sense of pride to see the sad clown poster child for being, well, sad, to open up about his mental health struggles, to coming out, to making we're all doomed. i think this is a very similar reaction to the pride a lot of us feel for dan.

for me too, though, it's been the phandom (hi guys lol). I was really active in the phandom from like 2014ish-2017 (at which point i still watched videos as they were posted but i also just wasn't on tumblr as much and i had ~college~ to focus on), but that time was very formative teenage years for me during which i was going through similar mental health struggles, struggling with sexuality, regular ol' teenage demons, etc. and this sort of phandom revival has been making me feel this ridiculous nostalgia for those teenage years (even tho i was fighting for my life the whole time lol). i can sooo distinctly remember where i was when certain videos were uploaded, the feeling of being curled up in my bed at midnight in the summer with my iphone 5c catching up on the previous years' videos, making subpar edits on my phannie instagram while i was on a plane for my family's summer vacation.

having both the boys and the phandom (more) active again gives me that nostalgic feeling but with the feeling that everything feels So Much Better Now. i get the same excitement and rush watching new videos, sharing around edits and gifs, being insane with you all, but with the knowledge that i am older and i am better now. in a lot of personal ways i'm literally living the life i so desperately wanted when i was a teen and now i get to live it but with the same things that brought me joy when i was a sad 15 year old. despite the nostalgia, i dont think i would choose to go back to that time, but getting to look back on it now, and watch videos where dan and phil are unapologetically gay and happy and soulmate-y, see dan living his theatre kid dreams and is so so proud of his work, and to have this community of you all where we're all old(er) and queer and so proud of our dads (sorry). it's indescribable despite my best efforts to describe it. and yes i know i don't actually talk to a lot of you that's cause im awkward and bad at replying but if you've made it this far this is your open invite to start a convo with me in dms/ask box. anyways. i love you all. i love our boys. im grateful to be here with all of you.

[wrens-versus-the-world]

Intertwined With the Inhuman

Hehe :D Heres the first chapter!

Cross posted on wattpad under Dontjudgemepels

chapter one: and so it begins

(next chapter: 2)

as I looked at the letter for the fifth time today, I still couldn't believe it.

I, Y/n L/n, got a free ticket to japan and a free ticket back as well. I am so happy that I kept entering into those raffles!

I packed up my bags and prepared every thing that I may need while in japan. Another thing that I'm happy about is that, since I kept entering into the raffles I have quite a lot of yen, as well as a free hotel room and some free- non- expiring tickets to various events, which makes my life as a college student extremely easy, and my summer all the more fun!

I texted my group chat:

three best friends in a room:

depression (jerry), Cat lover(you), and smart one (cherry (cher for short))

Cat lover:

I'm so excited, but I'm also sad, since I won't see y'all and I cant afford to pay for the out of county wifi. D:

Smart one:

Well, that part sucks but japan is a safe country, and plus It'll be a good way to relax after the school year. those finals were rough

Depression:

thats for sure, those finals fucked me up, I didn't sleep for four days to study and then right after them I slept for two and a half days straight!

Smart one:

...

Jerry that's not safe.

anyways...

Y/n take lots of pictures, get us souvenirs and have fun! that's the best thing you can do okay! And if you ever feel unsafe just call the cops on a public phone, okay?

Cat lover:

see this is why you're my smart friend, And I'll try to keep that in mind... Anyways, I have a flight early in the morning, love y'all I'll try to take lots of pictures and get you gifts and food lol! ttyl

depression:

...

I thought i was your smart friend too...

Cat lover:

You are!!

depression:

yea sure, anyway, have fun loser, we'll miss you

smart one:

...

cat lover:

...

depression:

?

cat lover:

awww you'll miss me :D

*depression has logged off*

cat lover:

pft...

Smart one:

ignore him, he's right tho, we will indeed miss you! so you'd better have enough fun for all of us! love you, and get to bed

*Smart one has logged off*

I turned my phone off smiling to myself, my friends are so great!

Time skip: the next day (3: 30am)

I ran around the house making sure I had everything, seeing that I did, I called my uber and let them know to pick me up.

I walked out the door, and brought my suitcases out with me, and sat at the curb to wait.

while I waited I decided to play some honkai star rail, since I wouldn't be able to play it in japan (no wifi and all)...

the sound of a car pulling up brought be back to reality, and a girl with rich dark skip stepped out, "are you, Y/n, the cat lover?" she asked.

"yes, are you Trina...?" I asked unsure.

"yes! yes I am, okay hop in, let me help you with your bags." she beamed.

the ride to the airport was nice, the time flew by as I talked with trina, she was a really nice person. As we talked I found out that she also played star rail and we bonded over that, at the end of the ride we made sure to exchange ids (in game).

I made my way into the airport after saying goodbye to trina.

After checking in, checking my bags, and going through security I went to sit at my gate (for the flight).

Time skip: In japan

the voice of the flight attendant woke me up:

"Welcome to japan, and thanks for flying with our airlines!"

and she said that i looked out the window, to see the airport in japan, it was quite something (especially knowing i went across the globe to come here).

"we will now begin un-boarding."

Time skip: at the hotel:

the hotel was beautiful, the pictures did it no justice. The hotel was supposed to be a more modern twist on a traditional japanese design.

There was a closet, a bathroom and plenty of other things in the suite.

I unpacked some into the room, putting my clothes into the closet, my toiletries into the bathroom, and organizing everything else.

after I was settled in and had showered I looked at my To-Do list

1- go to a shrine

'seems simple enough' I thought to myself as I changed into a modest outfit, and grabbed the map, smoothly making my way out the door.

Saying goodbye to the staff as I left and letting them know that I'd be out. (Y/n speaking no japanese the staff thankfully speak english too)

the staff were even nice enough to point me in the direction of the shrine that I wanted to go to.

thanking them, I ran out the door, eager to get there! I made my way down the roads following their directions.

after a while, I found myself lost.

"that's okay I have my phone, Gps is good for this." I said to myself as I pulled my phone out.

"no wifi"

"...l-I forgot about that." I said as I read the error message that showed up as I tried to use the gps app.

as I was cursing my luck a blue haired male bumped into me causing me to drop my phone.

"Sorry miss, here let me get it for you" he said as he bent down and grabbed my phone. handing it to me when he stood back up.

"oh don't worry about it, thanks." I responded

'he's so nice'

I looked up at him to meet his eyes only to be met with a mask covering them.

"say, sir, I'm lost do you mind giving me directions to the shrine." I asked, inwardly hoping that I wasn't bothering him.

"Why of course." he said as he continued to give me the directions

"Thank you so much" I said as he finished, " I really owe you one-"

I was about to offer to buy him coffee but I was interrupted by the shout of a mad in a black coat and glasses, with black hair.

"Dottore! we're going to be late." he shouted

'oh'

"I'll let you get going, sorry to take up so much of your time, thanks again." I said to him as I made my way to the shrine, finding it much easier now that i had clearer directions.

Time skip: at the shrine

I got a fortune slip, and some pictures for my friends. and on the way to the shrine I happened to see a traditional dango stand... so I had to get some

it was very good, Jerry would be very jealous.

The sun started to set, so I finished up my time at the shrine, concluding it by ringing the bell three times and praying.

time skip: at the hotel

It was so fun, as I came back into the suite room I set down my shoes and got ready for a shower, where I washed up for bed.

after the shower I put some of the things I got for my friends into my empty suitcase, before getting into the bed.

Sighing contently, I turned to the lamp next to me and turned it off. trying to get comfortable in the bed (you're wearing a robe to sleep in btw).

as I let my eyes wonder I was met with some lifeless blue eyes.

a small 'ah' left my lips as I shot up from the covers.

the eyes just stayed there, neither of use made an attempt to move.

"wh- what do you want?" I questioned quietly, almost a whisper.

as I said that the man began to move towards me , soon the bed dipped as he crawled towards me. we were face to face, I began to lean away from him, my body leaning into the mattress as his towered over me and leaned in closer.

if we had been lovers the position would have been romantic, but I had never seen this man.

I soon had no where to lean now and he was awfully close to my face. I turned my head away from him, which in turn gave him access to my neck, to which he buried his nose into, and he seemed to be swelling me.

"you smell so good" the ginger haired male said in a deep voice as he attempted to bury his head further into my next, where my neck met my collar bone.

when i suddenly felt something wet on my neck i reflexively pushed him, causing our eyes to meet once more.

"you're quite the interesting human, I wonder." he said as I shook slightly

"who-"

"why do you smell like dottore?" the ginger growled

at the name of the man I'd seen earlier I relaxed some, although i'm not sure why.

"huh, are you perhaps in some sort of relationship with that man?" he asked his voice laced with venom as he mentioned him. "Your body relaxed when I said his name."

I wanted to reply, I just couldn't find my voice.

'who was this man?'

"childe I do suggest you don't go marking that which isn't yours." a deep voice interrupted.

the two of us turned our attention to a grey older man, who was illuminated by the moon light.

the man's above me, childe, obliged and got off of me, which allowed me to sit up and scoot away.

looking at the grey older man once more, I noticed that he had some sort of mask covering half of his face. and I also noticed his eye and how it seemed to glow.

I gazed back to childe and noticed how he looked like dog following its master's rules.

"I do apologize about his behavior, it is almost the full moon and he must not have been able to control himself." the older man said.

I opened my mouth to speak, but ultimately didnt know how to respond, " Uh, I suppose it should be okay... as long as it doesn't happen again..." I said, unsure the entire time.

suddenly I saw a flash of blue and heard a thud.

childe was on the ground four feet from the bed, i suddenly felt two arms wrapping themselves around me, I looked around and I couldn't tell who's arms they were.

childe was on the ground and the older man's was still standing.

the person behind me began to lean down to where my neck met my collar bone.

"it's okay, it's just me" Dottores voice whispered against my skin and he loosened his grip on my waist, allowing me to turn around to see him.

In my fear ridden state I clung to him, my arms wrapped around his neck, and in turn his arms tightened around my waist.

"I'm sorry" I whispered to him, so quietly, that he almost didn't catch it.

he rubbed his hand on the small of my back and glared at childe, and said, "I don't know why you're apologizing, but if anyone should apologize it should be me."

His sudden confession caused me to look up at him, only for him to lean down into my exposed neck (the robe was now slightly disheveled now thanks to childe) and bit down, causing me to gasp in surprise.

a deep sense of sleep soon took over me, as I began to hear dottore gulp , and my vision faded in and out, before faded to black. 

A/n:

>:D 

How is everyone liking it so far? 

also, im glad people here (tumblr) are enjoying this far more than the people on wattpad (which is a little surprising to me, but anyways.)

[fatuismooches]

FUCK I TOTALLY FORGOT TO SEND YOU AN ASK ABOUT THE FIC... i just got hit full force but like 89831 different fucking projects all at once MY BAD POOKIE BUT UGHHHHHHH oh my god.... part 2??? yes.. all of it is soooo YESS

YESS you visualized everything what you've been talking about how reader would react when they first wake up after centuries and honestly hella realistic EVEN THOUGH I JUST WANNA HOLD READER AND KISS THEIR FOREHEAD 😭😭😭

reader interacting with the segments has my HEARTTT oh my god.. especially omega.. he's SUCH A DEVIOUS MOTHERFUCKEGUJK,,, also reader naming the segments UGHHH i adore that idea so much pleaseee ,, i love how the segments who didn't give a shit suddenly changed their minds when reader said they wanna give them names... THE SWITCH UP AND THE IMMEDIATE DENIAL...

READER MEETING BABY ZANDY ,,, FUCKINGG hell got me sooo soft i wanna hold baby zandy and treat him soo nicely 🥹🥹

ALSO YESS omgg,,, this part has me sooo fucking soft like reader making friends??? with the other harbingers??? i love it... omg they'd be such good besties with columbina,, i think pantalone helps reader adjust to present time as well, especially with it comes with money or the economy (if you ever ask him about it)

but oh.... to top it all off nicely, you gotta sneak in some subtle angst!!! smh... (im so proud of you tho!! like yasss sis feed me sad shit >:333) poor scara and reader :( i think they would've gotten along if reader wasn't dottore's lover n' scara wasn't dottore's experiment ,,,

ALL IN ALL. fuck you pookie im not excited for the next two parts (im kidding I AM IM JUST... NOT READY... pleas epost it next year so i'll be ready enough thank you /jjj) NO SERIOUSLY THIS TIME,, THIS WAS SOOO GOOOD and i love it so much, really popped off honestly (evil laughs because it's dottore)... like im soo happy to see how much you've grown esp thru writing !!!

have a good day pookie, im going back to my grave where i died for the next few days 💗💗

ALSO I WAS GONNA SEND IN ANOTHER DOTTORE IDEA but i fucking forgot again. FUCKS SAKE i hate not writing shit down...

POOKS DONT EVEN WORRY!! Just make sure to take care of yourself ok?? School can really be an ass i understand-

BUT OMG GRENFRG AHHH YOU'RE MAKING ME SMILE TOO MUCH POOKIE AHHWQ I'm so happy you liked it 🥺 BUT NGL I WANNA GIVE READER THE BIGGEST HUG TOO 😭 i put them through too much don't i 😭 dw they will be getting Dottore comfort next chapter!!

Bro i love writing Omega as a devious mf so much 😭 IM SO GLAD U LIKED THAT PART BC I WAS GIGGLING TO MYSELF ABT HOW THEY DGAF ABT THINGS BUT THEN SUDDENLY THEYRE INTERESTED WHEN UR A PART OF IT

AND YESSSS READER MAKING FRIENDS RAHHHH that part was probably really long for a Dottore fic but. i feel like having friends is so important and fragile reader really deserve some niceness in their lives 🥺 AND OMG NOW THAT I THINK ABOUT IT. Fragile reader would be freaking blown away from inflation. i don't know how prices were four hundred years ago but they would probably be shocked to their core when they see how much expensive things are now?? imagine fragile reader trying to stop Dottore from buying things for them because of how expensive things are now, and they're having flashbacks to being a broke Akademiya student 😭 And Dottore is just honestly finding it amusing to see you freak out and beg him to save his money (it's okay, he's a Harbinger he's loaded) (as long as he's not spending it on experiments)

BUT YEAH MAYBE IN AN ALTERNATE UNIVERSE... reader and Scara could have been friends :( we'll never know... but yasss i will continue to feed you sad shit >:) hehe I CANT WAIT TO POST THE FINAL PART!! ngl the ending of the fic was like. the first thing i wrote for it because it hit me and i was like i CANT forget this. im telling you pookie its gonna be pretty juicy. BUT THANK YOU YOU'RE BEING SO KIND AHHH it's really sweet of you. thank you for being here for so long in my writing journey (and my descent into Dottore madness) ily 🥺

[the-ultimate-pie-family]

Copper encounter with the pie family part 4

"Copper power turned on, but she heard fighting already she peeked out of the room." Hello? Get back here, Belle pie. I'm not done with you yet. "Belle ran past copper as blood was right behind her." Grandma pinkie!!!!! "Copper was confused." Oh hi B, what's up? My dad woke me up for school he woke all of us up, B..... "The rest of bloods kids started walking downstairs. Some looked older than others, but she saw the tiniest mare with a broken horn, an alicorn wings. " What you looking at puke? Hahahah "Don't mind her copper. Isn't she an alicorn? supposed to be, but something happened where she couldn't take the thorne, oh? that must've been terrible. One would say copper, but that's another story, but who's the flame alicorn? That day breaker pie my adopted sister her memory isn't good..... that's because I made her not remember what had happened to her, oh daddy, how long were you there? Enough your grandma isn't gonna be happy, you know? "Blood looked at B," sir? Hmm? Yes, copper? Are you blind? Because I see you're a vampire pony, why yes, I am blind but I can still see with my god vision my two eye ball are cursed glass see "blood popped one of his glass eyes out copper saw shocked of excitement she got out her note pad and and wrote down three names on her research list B eat and get ready for school please yes daddy "B walked downstairs worried about copper" so what's on your little note pad my dear? Hmm? "Blood asked interested." oh uh just research. I'm gonna try and do on some of your kids and your mom and you if that ok with you, sir? One stop with the sir shit I'm blood. You are copper, yes? Yes? "Copper answered the question, and then his mom called for him for breakfast." Coming copper? Yes, si blood. "Copper followed blood downstairs as his kids were already gone for school but not midnight or day they were doing ponyville College work at home." Good morning, mom. Good morning, son,"they hugged, then blood got his blood coffee." Morning, miss copper morning miss pie. So I heard you have my record in your robot pony brain, hmm? Y-yes? Good, but how do you know if I'm that Pinkie pie? All pinkies are different in every way, my dear. W-well, how about I get to know this pinkie pie then? Ok, but not now son grab my list and get my numbers. Copper and I got some research later, hehe. "Pinkie chuckled sinisterly. Copper felt a little scared, which is odd for her to feel scared. " Gotcha mom

"Blood teleported away, so copper day broke the silence and said," So copper, i heard you are doing some research on a couple of us? yes, I am, but I don't know who to start with, tho, not me, "said Pinkie. then midnight said soon, " What you know on me copper I have time before my other classes "copper got out her note pad" everything please? Well, I never knew my real parent, but blood has been there for as long as I can remember he made sure I would have a life and I can never repay him for what has done for me and for my siblings, day dad made sure we would all be taken good care of, right mid like I said he gave me the chance to actually have a family and I'm not ruining my family that I have now "day hugged midnight in joy" eww sis stop!

Awww, so cute siblings' love is so adorable, but blood, i mean my dad made everything possible for us even for me even though I'm adopted i still consider blood my real dad were don't have a mom, yet day remember yet, right grandma, copper you guys don't have a mom? Some of us did, but they ran from us or abandoned us. That's so terrible. "Copper started crying oil feeling days sadness which is odd for her to feel feeling

Mod pie: it's the new magic battery. The upgrade is making copper notice more things and feeling things no robot pony can

Tag: @ask-coppertop

[taegularities]

Hello lovely Rid 💕💕

I'm so so so unbelievably excited for cmi11!!! I can't wait to see simp Jungkook and all the fluff that comes with it (and the little bit of angst perhaps still?) I don't know when I'll be able to start it though, since it's shaping up to be a busy weekend for me, but I definitely will devour it at my earliest convince.

I really hope you're feeling better health wise, Rid!! I got sick last Sunday and am still trying to battle it all, haven't been to class all week 😭😭😭 I'm hosting something at mine on Sunday night though (at which my crush will be present 😔) so I have to get better until then!! Please wish me luck lmao I might need it.

Sending you all of my love and energy for finishing up the editing process, Rid!! You've got this and I'm completely sure that this chapter will be amazing 💞💞💞

ivi, my sweetheart, the way it broke my heart to read that you've been sick :') i guess it's that time rn, bc so many i know aren't feeling well :(( i hope you've been resting and hydrating and eating well and taking your meds!! you better not overwork yourself or do anything taxing during that time!! and gosh, i get being sad about not attending classes bc work piles up and the feeling of unproductivity is eh :') health has priority tho, so take care >:O sending you so much energy to get better by sunday, like.. our ivi needs to get that man 💅🏽 i'm feeling better, love, thank you. still coughing a bit and been having bad headaches since yday, but it's gotten a lot better!!

and don't worry 🥺 whenever you do read it, i'll be here, waiting to get cosy to read your review. there is so much to cry about, so i'm extremely curious — i feel like you'd like this one hehe but do take your time 🥺🤍 all my love and hugs for you 🫂

[theharrowing]

Ahh thanks for the update!! I was going to comment but I guess my comment was too long so I’ll just send it here. This chapter was so angsty my heart is torn for everyone but especially mc :(( she’s going through all these different emotions & is being shut out left & right but then being coddled at the same time.. I wonder if this rift will lead her to taking up Jin’s suggestion. & if it does how would the guys react, joon & yoongi specifically. “Do you think you can fall for someone like me?” Omgggg idk what this means for the relationship jk & mc have .. could they end up falling in love? Is that allowed? How would Tae feel? I personally think mc is so strong to adapt to the relationship between joon & yoongi. It’s so intimate and something the everyone is aware of, they have major history too. I’d personally feel way too intimidated by their love, I’d feel incapable of joining in because I think I’d feel like a third wheel for the entirety of the relationship. What they have is deep and I feel so sad when mc catches glimpses of their interactions when it’s just them two alone. She’s truly understanding for knowing that they deserve their own moments but my heart still breaks for her. At times I feel like they love each other more than they do her but this could just be me projecting my own insecurities & being dramatic hehe. I’m so excited to see what’s to come & what’ll happen between all these relationships. I’m just taking a huge wild guess but I can see a “breakup” happening & mc running off to get away but also getting entail for Jin. I love angst so sorry for the theatrics + I think my periods coming soon so I’m extra sappy 💀 loved this update tho!! <33

anon, hello!!!

since your message contains a lot of what i would consider to be semi-spoiler content, i have been waiting to respond so that more people get a chance to read. if you ever want to comment but it's too long, you are also more than welcome to just spam the comments with long thoughts, i genuinely do not mind that at all!!! i have a couple friends who will leave 2 or 3 comments in a row after reading, and it brings me joy, i promise.

the relationships and the love they all share is definitely a complicated thing. (and then there is jungkook, but i am not factoring him in to this bit.) it's not fair to say they love someone more or less than the other, though. i take issue whenever someone says that. instead, look at it as loving someone differently. you aren't going to have identical love/feelings for two people; even mc has different ways in which she feels and shows love for namjoon and yoongi, whether that is completely obvious to the reader or lot (i try to make it a little clear in her observations and thoughts but i also can't force people to read things exactly how i hope they do.) they are still at an early enough stage to be figuring it out, and needing to have space some times, or struggling to communicate it all part of the process. it's definitely understanding to see the history yoongi and namjoon have and feel intimidated, but if someone is going to view themself as an outsider in a relationship with people who clearly care about and love them, then this type of relationship is likely not going to be good for them. sorry, i hope this explanation doesn't come off as too crass, but i get very defensive of these fake people who live inside my head lol. if people are reading this as "so-and-so loves this character more than that one," it feels like i am failing as an author to tell this story the way i want to.

i'm so glad you're loving the story!!! we'll see what happens next!!! 💜

[yourdemiurge]

hello mady i am extremely late i just finished reading erik's chapter! this week's been so busy! I saw that you had updated and i was ripping my hair out because i couldn't find time to read but i finally did it today. I am proud to say that reading it has only made me rip out more of my hair I am confused, terrified, heartbroken, angry, gobsmacked, jumping out of the balcony because WHAT IS GOING ONNN AAAAA

the scene about the bird really had me screaming wtf!!!  I was so confused why wille told erik he didnt love simon that one day and now it makes sense oh my god- (i really hope im not clowning) i had to go read chapter 4 again and the way wilhelm asked erik "why did you do that" makes sense nowwww I love how the everything's coming together this is so exciting MADY

THE CONVERSATION BETWEEN ERIK AND SARA TOOO OH MY GOD (again hope im not clowning that'll be very embarrassing when the fic comes to and end)

getting more insight about the characters is so interesting, loved the part about erik's hillerska days. I hate him now but that's okay he deserves it.

I legit wasn't suspicious of erik as much as i was in august but good lord you've just plucked my pea brain out and tossed it into an endless pit. i literally sat still staring at the wall for like 5 minutes after reading the chapter. I already had trust issues they are multiplied now.

the conversation of a royal wedding made me cry btw that was very heart wrenching i did not want that today (do it again i love sadness)

almost forgot to mention that i absolutely am in love with the chess metaphor! your writing is so freaking goooood

as usual, can't wait for more mady! i can't even imagine how good it'll feel to re-read the whole fic again once it's finished and find that the clues were there all along! 

i also did a little something because i had time today 👉🏼👈🏼 I've been thinking about doing this for a while because i really love tdlp and i so badly wanted to make a cover! im not good but i tried! there's two with only a tiny difference, im leaving both of them here because i am extremely indesicive. they are really choppy tho rip my butter fingers (i legit had to give sara rhinoplasty because I accidentally erased half of her nose and noticed it a little too late💀) i also didn't add marcus i swear i thought about it i just couldn't bring myself to do it- anyways, hope you like them hehe💜 take care of yourself!

Hello, it's so nice to see you back in my asks! Your message has me 😭

I don't really know how to thank you enough for all the love you've shown for my works, especially TDLP. I mean, just look at this reaction! And those wonderful edits! You're amazing and very talented. I wonder if you have Twitter? I was hoping to share this.

But seriously, thank you so much 💜💜💜

Your interpretation of Erik is right so far, and I'm glad you read his very first POV chapter because it all relates to each other. Brace yourself for the next chapters, we've just gone up the rollercoaster and we're about to take the plunge soon.

[sunmoonjune]

Hi, moonie!

Anytime I see you post something even if it's an answered ask, I always find myself reading them. You're simply a lovely person and so easy to like❤️

When it comes to ltm, I don't really mind either option. My impatience wants it now, but my feels want everything at once (probs so I can cocoon myself in blankets as I read it)🤭

That said, I listened to that song and it's a sad kind of soothing which in my opinion really matches ltm. If that's the vibe of the next chapters I'm sure I'll love them as much as I loved the last chapters🤗

Does Bug finally get an answer to the 'weird feelings in her chest' which all of us know what they are except her?

Also! I can really see the song 'safe and sound' by Taylor Swift with Bug. I think the lyrics and soft vocals would make all of them cry, though😗

Hope ltm gets updated soon (but whenever you're ready)!

Sending lots of love❤️

- 🪷 anon

🪷 anon my beloved!! how are you my dear? <33

stop I'm blushing omfg you're so sweet <3 you guys are too kind

LTM chapter fifteen is almost here! I'm finishing the last scene today but it's getting quite long so proofreading will take me a bit :( but!! I'm so excited to get it out to you guys so I'm working quick <3

it will probably be the longest chapter yet I think! originally I would have cut the last scene to put in the next chapter, but I think it fits better here (and I've already promised you guys four scenes, so four scenes you will get!! :D )

home is indeed a soothing song!! I've been searching for songs that feel like coming home to the arms of someone you love xD I needed more sweet, comforting vibes for bug's return and I think it fit well!

(and we will have to wait and see if she will ask san or yun about her little tingly feelings hehe xD she might have to wait until after reunions have been had >:)) )

safe and sound is a good fit for the next chapter too!! omg this song reminds me so much of my hunger games phase tho LMAO,, but the soft vocals and gentle tone is definitely what I'm looking for so it will for sure get added to my bug playlist <33

thank you so much my love <33 kiss kiss I hope you have a wonderful day!

[boyfhee]

manifesto was definitely one of the best eras of enhypen, i love them. it still doesnt feel real that they are coming back with their full length album :( my bois grew so well...

i watched true beauty and i lost interest in it during its finale time.. you right that it was clear + i havent watched 20th century girl but the clips were definitely heart breaking and worthy to watch, ill give it a try. speaking of business proposal, i love that one scene, he takes his glasses off, it's done for me. the second lead couple are married in my head 😌 and the manhwa??? they have kids?? what 😭😭😭😭 i will read it if you just tell me where ?? and i want to read manhwas but i dont know where to read them.. tell me the websites or apps you use to read manhwas 😊👍🏼

hmm, i didnt read manhwas but i definitely read webtoons back in 2020... i discovered them when i got into kpop soo, even i lost interest in them, i used to read opertion true love and stopped reading it due to exams + these two webtoons: the guy upstairs and hello baby, i like them... i really havent discovered much of webtoon since i lost interest, but shorely i want to get back into reading them, hehe.

i listened to a few exo songs and listen to nct once in a while, i dont know the members but i think the sasaengs should leave him alone but he is doing a good thing by reveal them :) but sm did something saying renjun actions were lame?? idk... pls tell me if i am wrong tho- and for jay, i fell for him in iland, the ras leader 😌 i too have a lot of reasons hehe but i fell for his stubbornness (similar to my dad, hehe.)

i agree with you but pls dont scold me but i havent watched haikyuu despite it being a huge hit, maybe it's just not into my interest... maybe in the future i might watch it soo.... and i also did not watch forest of fireflies, it is sad and the sole reason was i did not want to cry days remembering the scenes, but i will defnitelg watch it and tell you, sweetheart :) and i should tell you, the historical romance — my happy marraige is so cute 😭😭😭😭 like kiyoko is so gentle with miyo... you watch the rest, i recommended you to watch it and can't believe seasosn2 is in the works 🫶🏼🫶🏼

hmm, if i were you, i would have bought the album, i recently got into books because of bookstagram :0 the reels are so hot but most of the books are 18+ so i need find fluff + romance, that is why i want to read classics at the moment haha...

— lover club anon <33 take your time to answer, muah

apologies for the extremely late reply, i didn't want to rush and give a half-assed answer TT i miss you and i hope you've been well :] manifesto didn't get the love she deserved :< it's truly one of their best albums, and i'm super excited for romance : untold omg ><

AND YES business proposal, what's wrong with secretary kim, sixth sense kiss, see you in my nineteenth life, marry my husband— they all have manhwas and they are better than the shows in my opinion. also .. the second lead couple of business proposal are actually married in the manhwa :D they have kids too ^_^ i won't spoil much, but you can read it here. omg now i'm going to read it again tonight .. i miss my babies >< also if you need manhwa recs please let me know. i have so many amazing ones i would like you to read and then gush about with me :>

i need to catch up on otl TT i started guy upstairs and hello baby too but i got bored. i'm more into this office / historical setting hehe you should read webtoons / manhwas if you have time :O they're cute and fun .. unless you get addicted and start binge reading which i do :">

i haven't been keeping up with nct so i only know that renjun has been pretty vocal about sasaengs lately which is a good thing, but i don't know anything about sm's response TT fuck it if they say it's lame, renjun did the right thing by exposing them :/

and it's ok if you haven't watched haikyuu !!! i used to think anime was so lame but my friends talked about hq all the time so i gave it a shot and how i'm six ft deep in the hole TT it's cute and funny, also very endearing so i would definitely recommend it .. however watching it or not is your choice >< also, there was this phase when i was so obsessed with anime movies ?? i watched forest of fireflies, your name, kiki's delivery service, howl's moving castle, a whisker away, weathering with you, five centimeters per second ( all time fav .. made me cry so much ) and i have a lot more i want to watch :D

i love my happy marriage so much it's so adorable >< also one of my favourite tropes / genres .. i will definitely watch the rest and i'm super excited for the next season ^_^

i don't take recs from bookstagram or booktok O_O mostly because they talk about romance with smut and i don't read romance novels. i mostly read murakami, osamu dazai, fyodor dostoevsky, or simply any crime / psych / thriller novelist ^^

[lilyyx0]

(previous nonnie) !! first off, i relate so much to how you feel. it sucks so much to feel this way, like you're not pretty, not worthy of being loved and stuff like that. :(( but know that u are loveable !! just because you think that way of yourself, doesn't mean others think the same. your brain is just bein' mean to you. and it sucks sm to feel this way but know that you're not alone !! and hey, ain't your username "abby's pretty girl?" :3 u r pretty !! <33 and you seem so sweet !!!

for artists you mentioned, i've only listened to montell fish once or twice but definitely will listen to some more! i love billie eilish as well !! and 'm so excited for her next album hehe. i also like salvia plath. lana, i do like her music but like – born to die era !! < 33 🍒 never heard of saint avengeline but will def check them out !! :3

and i'll listen to the songs you mentioned !! hehe. personally, been obsessed with rizha's last ep. mostly "bella swan" !! also looove "mutt" by sophie meiers. :3

i will watch the semmelsweis movie ! never heard of it, but why not !! and you said you're interested in medicine? do you wanna work in that field? if so, that's so cool !! and if not, it's cool too. i like movies that involve medical procedures tho i don't know shit about medicine stuff haha. and those movies are so good ?? white chicks is one of my favs as well. my favorite movie 4ever will always be la la land tho. :(( also i need to watch the new mean girls.

also um. don't judge me. but i never actually watched a twilight movie 😭 and no harry Potter either (cause i don't like the world, but thats my opinion.) never watched glimore girls either. i need to watch arcane tho !! also. you're the first person i met who watched feel good <33 mwaaah !!!

i need to read the twisted series but first, need to read the two books on my tbr !! (truthfully yours by caden armstrong is my next read.) and do you have a favorite poetry book? or favorite poem? :))

ALSO TULIPS. mwaaaah !!! tulips for u !! 🌷🌷🌷💌 they're my favs too !! love them sm. they're so prettyyyy. <33 and from your name, i would've thought lilies were also your favorites haha. ;3

anyway !! sorry this is so long but i want you to know that i'll gladly listen to you ramble about your day or books anytime !! (tho m anonymous, cause im actually shy to text haaa >_<) btw, can i be 🌷 anon? :3 mwaah !!!! bisouuuus

I'm gonna cry, u r so fckin sweet:(

did you read the rolling stones article in which billie gave an interview? I was like OH LORD.

aww, I listened to "mutt" by sophie meiers, cute music, but still sad, it is really from a dog's vision? :( (ANYWAY, ARE WE TALKING ABOUT THE SAME MUSIC? I HOPE SO, BC IF NOT.. THEN I'M A LITTLE EMBARRASSED)

I don't really know what I want to do, I'm really interested in medicine, but I'm too lazy to study (and too scared to fail).

if you watch the movie Semmelweis, I'd be interested in your opinion about it, so if you're interested, by all means write how you liked it!! <33

I've heard of la la land, but I've never seen it, but maybe I'll watch it!

everyone has their own opinion, it's totally fine if you don't like Harry Potter that much, everyone has different tastes <3

Arcane is so FCKIN AMAZING, I've watched it like four times, can't wait for season 2 omg I'm sooo excited!!! about feel good.. I loved it, Mae and George were so cute:(

omg let me know if you manage to read the book you want! <3 here are my favorite poetry books, and there are two more books that I forgot to mention, but they are about fashion:

(I wanted to buy them in English, but unfortunately I didn't think of ordering online😭)

fashion books:

TULIPS ARE THE BEST!!!🌷💕

I also like lilies, but their scent is too strong for me:/

IT'S COMPLETELY OKAY, I LIKE WHEN PEOPLE ARE TALKING TO ME, REALLY!! :)

thank you so much again, I'm glad that someone will listen to me ramble about some fandom stuff ^^ (don't worry, I'm also a shy people!)

Of coursee, you're my 🌷 anon from now on!

XOXO

[geldiaries]

[ AUG022023 ]

This is probably one of the most emotional moments I had with Ate Dane.

Ever since I knew she would be taking the Board Exams, I already planned in my head that I will go to her and make salubong. So I did.

I actually have been planning it since March this year when the review season got really tough for her. I promised and told myself that I will try my best to be her support system. I don’t know the feeling of being anxious and tired because of the review, self doubts, and other negative things that are basically the effects of the review season, but I know it is hard. I understand how much she pressured and pushed herself into reviewing almost 24/7. She doesn’t even sleep or rest. She wakes up feeling like she’s going to throw up, she’s dizzy, lost her appetite, like her body really manifested the anxiousness in her mind. I hope she knows that even during those days, I’m proud of her. Like so much. I’m so proud of my Ate Dane even by just choosing to wake up and prepare herself to go to the Review Center.

Fast forward to Day 1 of her Review, I didn’t really message her much. I just sent her my “Good luck” and tried to ask her about her day because I know it was tough. I honestly wanted to go and wait for her outside SanSeb for Day 1 and 2 but I realized that it’s not the right time for that, so I didn’t. I got really sad when she told me that she broke down that day hehe so I kinda regret not seeing her even for five minutes on the first day. Then during Day 2, I was excited to see her. I want her to know that I’m proud of her for finishing the exam strong. I want her to know that she’s doing great and that she’ll pass the exam. So there, after I got her coffee I went straight to see her. It was funny because I don’t know where SanSeb was so I had to ask and let my two Uni friends to accompany me tho I was the only one who got off the jeep.

Then there when I arrived, I called Ate. Lowkey regretting I didn’t film the first part of that meet up because she almost ran to me, and she hugged me so tight. We both needed that. And I know we both missed each other that much. Before that meet up, the last time we saw each other was last February 03. Fucking 6 months. She can’t believe it and it was so funny because her voice became soft like she was about to cry. I was too. She had no idea how much I missed her and how much I longed for that moment.

After that, we went to St. Judes. It was our first time going to church together. We talked there and it was also the time when I finally told her in person that I'm proud of her and I hugged her again there. It was funny because when we were walking on our way to the church, it was raining, and I asked her to open her umbrella, but she only said "Mababasa kasi" and we laughed at that. She's just like me for real. So, we walked there under the freaking rain that's why we were soaking wet.

After that we talked again and catched up though I think a day would never be enough to talk when it's the two of us because even if we make kwento over the phone, we never ran out of things we talk-- and that makes us, us. We're just really talkative and we're that comfortable with each other.

When we're on our way to the LRT station, I got really sad because I know the time was short (tho we only agreed to see each other for good 10-15mins lol scam). I still want to be with Ate and I know she still wanted to just as much as I do.

But here..,

Hello, My Ate Dane

I know you won't be able to see this but I just want you to know that I'm so proud of you. I'm beyond proud of you. Congrats on finishing the board exams strong. Thank you for not giving up. I'm already claiming the "RPm" after your name. I know you'll get that (balikan ko 'to after results for another entry!). I love you so much! I will always be here to support you, in all ways. You know I got you, right?

Palagi.

[boba-beom]

I am so happy to know that you feel better!! I will always be there to reassure you that’s what I’m here for <33

Okay but you’re wayyyy cuter!!! Oh wow that must be so exciting for you! I know you won’t be as active but I will miss you. I hope you enjoy your time with your family.

Ice cream is good! I actually have never tried that flavor.

I found it through Hulu so that’s why I’m watching it in there. Otherwise I always use a anime website. Do you have a favorite anime?

I Will say this I love the main male lead he’s such a good actor. I am so happy to see him take on a main role.

Kevin is such a sweetheart. Being a dad at an earlier age than his brothers must’ve changed that for him. But he just radiates such sad energy (not a bad thing tho). WHEN I SAW HIS FIT!!! I was like excuse me why are you looking so good for? Yeonjun definitely has those vibes to him. That’s our It boy for yah.

That’s fair I definitely get that! OMGG I HAVE NOT SEEN STARSTRUCK in so long. I should go back and watch it! My favorite Disney throw back and this one is a big clue so watch out.. but High School Musical. When I tell you I WAS AND STILL AM OBSESSED!!!!

I grew up a Disney kid so I have more but I’ll stick with my all time favorite.

Fun fact when I get married I want to play “can I have this dance” during the slow dance segment of the wedding.

What’s your favorite Disney Tv show?

Until next time

Love anon 🧡

thank you so much again <3 I think you should try phish food if you're a fan of rocky road ice cream, just in this case there's no raisins (just bc I know the rocky road ice cream in philippines sometimes has raisins 😭)

I think my favourite has got to be demon slayer, funny story actually.. I started watching it after I matched with a cute guy on tinder and he recommended it so I watched it so I could talk to him about it and by the time I was up to date he wasn't on tinder anymore and I never asked for his socials,, anyway lmao. I also love romantic killer I find it witty and ngl I've grown attached to the characters already hehe 10/10 would recommend!

PLS the typo had my head turning, but yes I always really saw kevin more of the dad type among the jonas brothers which makes sense bc he's the oldest. I'm going through a heavy rotation of going through each txt member T^T

YES GO BACK AND WATCH IT ‼️ it's so fun to reminisce and try to see how much you remember the songs :> I did love wizards of waverly place but the laughs in the background was starting to get to me when I rewatched it 😭

I wanna marathon and rewatch all the hsm movies I love them so much,, OMG YOU AND I ARE SO SIMILAR!!! I loved can I have this dance so much :') that song made me feel all sorts, I would love to dance in the rain with a s/o in the rain as well :((

my favourite disney show... hmm suite life on deck was always a favourite so I'll say that one, but in terms of movies, definitely starstruck!

what music do you listen to anonie? kpop / non-kpop idm!! I'm intrigued <3 until next time <3

[wooahaes]

Not "Layton anon," but "Take care! ❤ anon" here. But I almost cried real tears when the new Professor Layton game was shown in the Nintendo Direct. I was in the middle of class when I found out, and I'm still completely shook considering "Professor Layton and the Azran Legacy" came out on February 28, 2013. I was excited for some of the other games shown, but this took the cake for me immediately. What game(s) are you most excited about from the Direct? Also, hope you're doing well. Take care! ❤

omg hi lovely!!

aaa dont remind me that its been ten years since azran legacy 😭 i was so BABIE then… i should rly replay the series sometime. the layton series is so special to me since thats where i first started writing fanfic!! lol fun fact those fics are still up (from when i was 11 writing self insert first trilogu fanfic) somewhere but ill literally never tell where im taking tht info to the grave

im super excited for fantasy life!! the first game was special to me as something i used to play w former friends a lot so im honestly kinda hoping to get it and have fun hehe 💕 god am i hoping they maybe add romance options since i think it was sad the original game didnt let you do that 😭 straight up taunted u with it too…

i barely remember the rest of the direct so im googling to see if theres something else im missing lmao those were the standouts for me tho!

ooo pikmin 4 was exciting!! also kirby 👉👈 OOO ALSO the dontnod game!!

ive never played ghost trick but it honestly looks super up my alley so 🤔 maybe ill look into the game!! fashion dreamer also looks super cute hehe

ALSO RAIN CODE!! straight up thought we were getting a new dr game for a minute ngl lmaoo but im def interested. makes me wanna replay the dr series tho

theres so much now that im seeing it all in an article wow :0 !!

ty for asking! feel free to share what ur looking forward to as well 🥰

[aotvfilm]

Holiday Pal is here! Bringing you presents and good cheer! :D So sorry about my late replies, my late asks.... grrr. I would like things to mellow out, now!

It was quite a short rainstorm, unfortunately! Rain is my favorite too-- do you enjoy doing anything in particular when it rains outside?

I am sorry to hear about family things; not too serious on my end, just that my mother is freaking out over the holidays and my sibling and I must do a lot to make sure things go smoothly for her. I hope that when the holidays are over, I can be here for you if you ever need to vent or just want to chat! :Dsdlkjfskjf!!

I am going to read this fic ASAP it looks so amazing, thank you Becky!!! <3 I have something for you toooo x wish i was good at art, but I was wondering if I could write you a little drabble for when I reveal myself! And that could be a little Christmas gift for you!

If you might be so kind as to tell me some favorite tropes or some prompts, I'd love to give you something genuine and full of love!

Questions!!

Cinnamon or ginger? I loveee ginger, so ginger haha! I did buy nutmeg and cinnamon today for something special hehe!

Jam or buttercream? Buttercream because it's really wonderful-- it's the frosting on certain types of cake!

Favorite kinds of food, either savoury or baked goods? CAPRESE IS SO GOOD OMG! How do you prepare it? Yes riceeee!

My answer is so different lol, because I very much like savoury foods and I like meat a lot ! But veggies are really good too, so I'd say anything salty with meat and potatos and veggies

4. Do you bake/cook any special meals for the holidays? I'm so sorry about your neighbour, that is a truly kind gesture! Yeah, for me it's gingerbread and cranberry sorbet which takes a full day to make, ummm potatoes au gratin, and this year is beef of some kind for the central dish. I did want to make a yule log but I always get shot down because it's "too much work!" haha!

Are you listening to any good music right now or podcasts? How are you feeling about the holidays coming?

Sending you more love, and that you can expect better and quicker answers from me!

<3 <3 <3 xxx

HIII HOLIDAY PAL IVE MISSED YOU <<<<3

i love when it rains because it’s cloudy and dreary and idk it just feels right to me. maybe that sounds sad but i’m a mellow person so the whole atmosphere feels nice. i’m jealous that you had a rain storm! we’ve had an awful lot of snow lately. i love snow too but rain is my favorite.

hopefully everything calms down for you & your family! it’s so sweet that your sibling & you try to make the holidays easier for your mother. have you done all of your holiday shopping?

i hope you enjoy the fic!! :) and oh my gosh i would love a drabble!!! you are the sweetest ever. i’ll have to spend some time thinking of a gift back to you! as for my favorite tropes: i love famous/famous or famous/non famous. i also love any iteration of exes/friends/enemies to lovers! or anything canon that gives like a little peak into what life might be like or was like for h&l. but really i’m willing to read anything though so don’t feel constrained! i’ll be more than happy to read whatever you write x im so very excited :)

what did you buy nutmeg & ginger for? are you making a treat? 🍩 🍰 🧁

i think i’ve only had crappy store made buttercream frosting. i bet homemade is much better though!

i love caprese sandwiches! i toast part of a baguette the put pesto & argula & mozzarella & tomato & balsamic glaze! now i’m craving one haha

haha, we’re complete opposites with our favorite foods! i dislike anything salty & im a vegetarian. what’s your favorite type of meat though? i always loved fish (ik ik not technically a meat but im counting it. i don’t eat it anymore tho ): )

ooo, a cranberry & gingerbread sorbet. i have never had anything like that. send me some in your next ask, ok? and go for the yule log!!! it’ll be a fun experience and maybe a new tradition for you!

as for podcasts/music: i struggle with finding podcasts i like! my favorite is ancient history fangirl though. i’m a history nerd! how about you, what podcasts do you listen to? any recommendations? not gonna lie, i listen to fitf about once a day. when i’m not listing to louis i’m usually playing sam fender. he just released a new live album so i’ve loved hearing some of my favs recorded live. oh and i’ve been listening to a band called mac saturn! i just bought tickets to see them in february so i’m excited. have you been listening to holiday music?

for me it doesn’t really feel like the holidays are coming. my partner & i exchanged gifts already so all that’s left is to give a few to my younger family members. plus, i work the 24th & 25th so it’s like ehhhh. i miss being little & looking forward to christmas so much. are you excited & ready to celebrate yule? :)

sending you all of the love back x i cant wait to hear from you! and i’m so excited for your drabble. xx

also i just reread my answer before posting it and it made me laugh how all over the place it is. we have so many lines of conversation going - i love it!!

[eddiediaaz]

hello, psc anon here – I'm probably going to be posting your gifset in the next couple of days now the exchange window is open so this might be my last anon ask!

about the 2023 releases: that's the perfect description for how I watch marvel lol they're definitely my no thoughts just vibes movies. I'm looking forward to bridgerton s3 too, I've not read the books but a lot of people seem to love polin and I'm always a fan of a good friends to lovers story 🥰 also I am actually yet to watch lone star so that's top of my list next time I'm starting something new!

my final question to end on a positive note is: what has been a highlight or something good from your past year (whether it's big or small)?

it's been fun chatting to you for the past couple of weeks and I hope you'll like your gift and have a great christmas! 🎄🎅

hiiii! omg I'm excited hehe, I can't wait to see it!

I haven't read the bridgerton book series either but i find polin really really cute and also i can relate to the shy, short, and plus size penelope 🥹 we don't often see characters like her as a main in a love story, so i'm quite excited to feel represented a bit. and definitely watch lone star!! the vibes and characters and dynamics are so amazing (except maybe owen lol, I don't really care that much about him).

the highlight of my year hmmm... is it sad that I can't even think of something? oh wait no that's not true. okay so i think i have to say finding the 911verse fandom. watching the shows back in june, finding amazing fics, and then coming back to tumblr a few weeks later after being gone for a full year, it's been great. i've been pretty lonely, but i met amazing people and reconnected with old friends and it's just been really great for me. and making gifs again! having that creative outlet again has been good. tho i know I've been too addicted to tumblr in the past months lol, rip

thank you so much for your lovely asks psc anon, you are awesome and i hope you have the most amazing holidays that you deserve! 🥰🎄