#I'm also putting off the 10k I need to write today to meet my goals

[steamishot]

last work week

it's the last working week of the year aka no one is working. i just had my last meeting of the year (academic affairs meeting with dr. martin). i always feel a little awkward when i'm in LA but have to pretend like i'm in NY. they don't ask about when i'm coming home because they know it's personal. but they sometimes ask about the weather and i have to recall from memory lol (the most surface level and acceptable).

emotional health: this past half year has looked like a hump in terms of emotional health. the Y axis is my emotional distress, and X is time. i reached the most emotional distress in october/november. i felt funky, anxious, worried, my appetite was low, didn't feel like seeing people because my mood sucked, i felt like crying all the time (and actually cried a lot). now i'm riding down on the wave. i'm more emotionally stable, i'm more social, my appetite is sorta normal. i'm currently back at 116 from 110 when i was feeling depressed.

job search updates: matt had a 5 hour interview with UCI (chatted with 7 different people individually) last wednesday. he had just come off from a week of night shifts that ended on tues morning. his life is roughhh. he thought the interview didn't go well and they asked very tough questions/had very high expectations for their candidates. on thursday, he had two 30 min phone calls with city of hope and UCLA. the UCLA guy was actually more down to earth and friendly. these are the four jobs that he actually likes and they have pretty good work conditions. i really, really hope one of them comes through. i think my first choice is LA general (previously USC) though their pay is the lowest because it offers the best work-life balance. city of hope may come in second. then UCLA and lastly, UCI. overall, i've been feeling better about this because he now has opportunities that are superior to the redlands one. staying hopeful but grounded.

coffee setup: i've become the barista for my family. my parents' kitchen is now equipped with a coffee grinder and espresso machine. i made 5 lattes today. in NYC, i always make iced lattes because my apartment is consistently warm. but it's cold in LA during the winter so i've made all hot drinks.

therapy: i had my first intake call today with monica. yay for kaiser covering my insurance. off the bat, the intake call seemed a lot more professional than any betterhelp sessions i've been to. i also don't have to stress about if the therapy session are "worth" paying out of pocket. she asked a lot of questions for the assessment and wrote everything down. it seems that betterhelp doesn't have a consistent method in providing therapy. i'll be able to do two therapy sessions while i'm in LA, but she won't see me when i'm in NYC due to licensure.

interests: to be less tunnel-visioned in this job search, i've been consistent in playing chess and learning japanese on duolingo. B added me on chess so it's been nice playing with a friend as a way to keep connected. recently watched salt, fat, acid, heat (and purchased the book to read) on netflix, and checked out dr. death.

goal setting: my work mom B has consistently gifted us planners as christmas gifts the last 5 or so years. i admittedly am not great at using planners and i lose the consistency after a week or so. however, i do see the benefit of writing down a general to-do or goals list. i have a tendency to dream small, or not too big, but i need to put on my big girl "i can" pants so that i can level up. i learned from the rock solid relationship podcast that it's not a bad idea to have goals that you may think are insane (i.e. make 30 million dollars in my business). my long-term goals are what's dictating my day to day habits and short-term goals. so, of course i'll feel purposeless if i don't even identify what my long-term goals are. and of course i'll be bored if i'm dreaming too small so here:

have a 7 figure net-worth by 35

become a CPA

run a 10K in less than an hour

run a 5k in less than 27 min

run a <8 min mile

be a homeowner by age 35

be an expert at chess

be an expert at cooking

be an expert at drawing

be able to speak/read chinese and japanese

be able to do a crow pose and headstand in yoga

move to LA by summer 2024

have a six figure salary by age 34

reach 120lbs (healthy weight)

run my own successful business

make a (good) tulip in latte art

[bosstoaster]

Rules:

tag followers you want to get to know better! I was tagged by a very bored @butteredonions it seems

Name:

Bosstoaster/[Redacted]

Nicknames:

Boss, BT, Chao

Gender:

This gif:

Star sign:

Capricorn

Sexuality:

Bi

Height:

5′4″

Hogwarts House:

Ravenclaw know what’s up

Average Hours of sleep:

6, probably?  Thereabouts

Dogs or cats:

Yes (but dogs)

Number of blankets you sleep with:

Currently 2, but it’s about the time of year I add on a third

Dream trip:

Italy!  I am the only member of my family (on one side) that has not been.  It’s an Obligation and it’s annoying I haven’t managed to get out there.  I would also accept one of those Mediterranean cruises

Dream job:

Working for an advertising agency rather than in house.  Alternatively, whatever job lets me use my obscene knowledge of fandom history to talk about current fandom events.

Followers:

Almost to another milestone : )

Why I made a tumblr:

Glee fandom.

I’m not proud of it

Reasons for url:

In a game I was playing, I was roleplaying as the lore’s god of productivity and lightning, known affectionately as ‘Boss’.  I was then turned into a toaster by my own stupidity.  On the day of the festival celebrating that god.

‘Bosstoaster’ stuck.

Tagging: @demenior @sassafrassrex @velkynkarma @red--shift