#I'll probably trigger out our sleeping alter anyways soon by watching his source

[im-the-mastermind]

For some reason the system has booted me, the ED symptom holder into front alone (minus some random blurry mess behind me who probably couldn't easily front), at night when everyone knows I refuse to eat.

And we have to take meds. This wouldn't be an issue. I still drink water. But our meds require food.

And my partner isn't in cocon like he normally is when i front. He's like one of the few guys who can SOMETIMES convince me to eat. And if I won't he'll take front from me and do it for me.

Why does our system do things like this. Whoever controls who fronts is a fucking dumbass lol. Weirdly our (KNOWN) gatekeepers don't. It's probably the innerworld itself (it's alive and is a sysmate of its own. That's a long story for another day), or maybe an unknown alter.

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We're NOT ED positive. This is actually the first we've posted about ours I believe publicly. I'm just talking about experiences we have. I'm adding this disclaimer cause I know some folks will get the wrong idea.