#I'll go wherever in this ship even when it becomes titanic

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Bc there's a Gintama announcement of an anime special, my okikagu heart is craving for content

Also, this is from the official twitter account of Gintama

See those two at the center?

That's my ship right there

With matching bottles

[slamncram]

Thorki and "I'll wait" please!!

These past few days have been nothing but a procession of numbness,watching the grief and disbelief on the faces of his friends andtheir allies, knowing he, too, should feel it, but that would beopening himself to too much.

He had said to Rocket that grief was a great motivator, but there isnothing to motivate him, right now. They lost. Despite everything,despite the attempts they had made, and everything they had lostbefore Thanos had snapped his fingers and taken an even higher toll,they had lost.

They were Avengers. They didn’tlose.

It didn’t seem fair. Not aftereverything that his people had suffered, not after the destruction ofhis home world. There had been plans, and the Asgardians had hadhope. A new day, a brighter day, was coming, and they simply had toget to Earth and meet it.

But the universe had felt that wastoo simple.

T’Challa’s home was devastated,too, and much of the post-battle effort was going towards restoringWakanda and bringing respect to their dead. There wasn’t time tostop and feel his grief, there was no time for Thor to mourn thelosses of Heimdall and the others.

There simply wasn’t time for himto grieve Loki, right now.

All of that had pushed him forward,and had sustained him, up until the moment Thanos had snapped hisfingers.

What was there, now?

They had no idea where he was, orwhat they could do to reverse this. How could they undo somethingthat never should have been possible in the first place? It wassimply too large a task. Instead, they recuperated, and accepted thata time may come for their next move, but they were all simply tooworn down to dive headlong into it, now. There were efforts to see ifthey could find out what happened to the rest of the Guardians, ifanyone knew anything of Stark’s whereabouts, but those were thingsin the background to Thor’s every day. And his every night.

“You need to at least try tosleep, buddy.”

Steve’s voice was a welcomerespite from the things he was replaying in his head, while he stoodat the large, plate glass windows, and looked out over Wakanda.Despite everything that had happened here, the city was still sobeautiful, and when he looked at it, lit up in the night, Thorthought he could try and fool himself into something resemblingpeace. It was difficult, but, while the city and his friends slept –in the case of the latter, in shifts – he stayed awake with hisgrief, and looked at the city lights.

“I don’t need sleep.”

In the reflection in the glass, Thorcould see Steve’s smile. That sad, broken thing. He hadn’t smileda real one once since Thor had been back.

“I know you don’t. But… You’vebeen through a lot.” His hand came down on Thor’s shoulder, andwith it, the weight of everything he had seen in these past weeks.“Just… Listen, go to the room T’Challa gave you. Lay down. Tryand get just an hour of sleep. It might help. Not much, but itmight.”

Turning, Thor could see the truth inSteve’s expression. It didn’t help much, but there was a reasonhe laid down for a few hours every night. The weight of their griefcould become overwhelming if they didn’t take a moment and try tolessen it in whatever way they could.

It was for that reason that Thortook his advice, but, two hours later, he was still laying in thebed, comfortable, warm, and quiet, staring at the wall, and hearingLoki’s voice, over and again.

I assure you, brother.

Had Loki known, then? Thor doubtedit. There had been such hope that the Hulk would be enough to beatThanos, that they would be able to expel the Black Order from theship, and get away without losing more than they already had. Thorhad been disappointed, angry; Loki had brought the Tesseract fromAsgard, and brought this down on them. He hadn’t meant to, though.How many years had Loki hidden from Thanos? Maybe it had seemedsimple for them to get away, off his radar, especially when the newshad gotten around that Asgard was destroyed.

Had Loki known that everything wouldbe for nought?

Thor suspected he hadn’t, notuntil the moment he had faced Thanos with nothing more than one ofhis daggers, and a last-ditch attempt at putting an end to the MadTitan. He’d said his peace, his oath,to Thor, and Thor had understood.

Loki had always been a little mad,but the madness he’d embraced with that final attempt had been morethan Thor had ever witnessed. It had been Loki’s undoing, but ifLoki hadn’t tried it, who knew what would have become of them both?

He’d died for Thor, and thatknowledge was what kept Thor awake, the tears from his one true eyesilent while he clung to the memory of Loki’s voice.

The sun will shine on us again.

It sounded like a promise. Everytime Thor replayed those words in his head, he made one of his own,hoping that wherever Loki was, be it Valhalla or some other plane, hewould hear it.

I’ll wait.