#I'll always be bitter over bellarke the end!!

[userlaylivia]

all the quotes from other people regarding bellarke make me sob like a baby! because if they were never supposed to happen what was the reason???!!!! we all know they were supposed to happen and be endgame they were building towards that until jroth was a pos who did a total 180 ugh "kill the hostage taker and his girlfriend." even diyoza who didn't know them or their relationship thought she was his girlfriend!! he had way more romantic moments with clarke than his actual gf lol sorry but I'll never ship becho their the only ship on the show I despised with a passion!

[bellamyblake]

hi!! I’m a former HUGE fan of the 100 and bellarke, but after the final season completely shattered my heart and destroyed my trust in showrunners 😀, I haven’t been able to really return to the show or ship at all.

Did you have a similar experience? How do you still enjoy it without the sting?? 💔 Just curious, thank you!!

I understand that this is how it is for most fans, that everyone pulled away because of the ending and I understand and respect that.

I think for me, it's simple, i'll be honest that I never expected Bellarke to happen as much as I wanted it and for me the simple reason why was because of the way things happened back in season 3 with Lxa and everything else. I wanted it, of course, I was hopeful for it, especially after 6x10 and I wished for it to happen but when we found out Bob needed time off, I understood that decision and I understood why it won't happen. Yes, I still think that it was just JRoth being absolutely bitter making that ending, they all admitted it, even the writers that for example Levitt's ending where he gets hurt in the final episode was supposed to be Bellamy but that didn't happen because Bob needed that time off. And yes, I am pissed because of the fact that she killed him, I don't think I'll ever get over it but I just...find it to be absolute bullshit and that is because of the way Clarke's character is ruined to me rather more so than Bellamy's.

I know people talk about him being OOC in s7 and him never doing that, never believing Cadogan, I get that. I do agree that it is somewhat OOC. BUT

I have always been a person to look at all sides about this and that is why I survived season 3 and the way fans were back then (may I remind you the bellarkers hated Bellamy and people were awful to him) and I do think that I find it i my mind the reason why he chose that side. I have my own theory about Bellamy's choices about season 7 but I won't indulge here in that because I'm sure I'll bore you to death (It's a Jasper-Monty-Bellamy meta that I have talked about before I think and for me they are still the only three characters who reached a sort of understanding of how to survive/not survive in this world but who separated themself from the cicle or wheel that Clarke talked about in s7 and who saw things for the way they were, as grim and sad as they happened to be at the time-again, another meta if you want me I can indulge).

But the truth is I have always been realistic about Bellarke and them not happening (Not that it didn't hurt me that they didn't happen, i catch myself wishing I saw a kiss) but I also cannot say I was too surprised. For me, and people talked again a lot of shit about Bellamy in s5, but I do think Clarke is a lot more different in s5 than she was before and I think from there on now we don't see the character we first saw, just glimpses of her. The problem with s6 as much as I like it and find it interesting is that we don't see Clarke much in it since she's kidnapped and I hoped we did saw her in s7 but I feel like she wasn't really herself back there.

So...anyway I can talk a lot and probably bore you to death, but I don't want to do that. The simple truth is that I CAN thankfully separate myself from the show and what I love. I know it was shitty what happened, I cried and still cry when I think about my boy Bellamy dying (Because I will be honest, I was always a Bellamy fan first and Bellarke second, I even write more familial fics with Bell than I do Bellarke, that's how I am) but I can find my reasons behind his actions and no, I'm not blindsided by my love for him, I know his mistakes, I can point them out and I can explain why they happened.

I really have no other simple explanation other than I chose to enjoy what I love and have always loved and ignore the last part. I know most people can't and I do not judge them. He brings me joy. Bellarke do bring me joy still, I love think, headcanon and meta about them and just because someone was bitter and because they didn't really show any understanding and BECAUSE and let's be honest, he didn't want to make Bellarke because Bob and Eliza happened and he refused to play into the narrative of actors being married in real life and indulging fans in the fantasy one, is not my problem.

I often think about JRoth and how shitty he was on more than just the Bellarke occassion (that's another meta) but just how much he, because he is an a**, hates religion for example, so he absolutely demolished it and made fun of it and then used it to show stuff in the most awful of ways just like not just with the deciples btw, but starting from season 1 where he crucified the kids on the trees, how he made fun of the grounder's religion and the commanders, everything JRoth did was a mockery caused by his own inability to deal with his problems so ...honestly WHY would you give away something you love to that guy? I think that's just bs.

Again, I am sad and devastated, I always will be but I choose to separate myself from this narrative, enjoy my Bell and writing about him, enjoy reblogging gifs and making gifs in our now little circle, I enjoy seeing new fans of the show too and them reblogging our stuff. That's basically it.

My love for Bellamy Blake is stronger than JRorth's bs.

[firelxdykatara]

the 100 for the asks <3

ahhhhhhh, the Numbers Show my beloathed

blorbo (favorite): Clarke Griffin and Bellamy Blake. They can't be separated, I refuse--they're the heart and soul head of the show, it just doesn't WORK without them, and the proof is right there in that dumpsterfire of an ending. I love them both so much, and I happily ignore the way jrot tried to destroy them, and I hope he never works again--he had gold in his hands and squandered it, but at least the bellarke fandom has managed to spin it into endless beautiful tapestries.

scrunkly (my baby): MONTY GREEN. He's friend-shaped and I love him so much, and if nothing else at least he got to have a long life with Harper (and didn't have to witness that shitheel of a final season). He always deserved so much better than the show or fandom gave him.

scrimblo bimblo (underrated fave): WELLS FUCKING JAHA. He was only in four episodes but I've never gotten over his death, he deserved SO much better and there was a chance for the show to at least pay lipservice to understanding how foundational he was to the show by having him appear to Clarke in the finale but no jrot had to suck up to the cl*xas instead and I'm still bitter about it.

glup shitto (obscure fave): Anya kom Trikru. She should have been the Commander and I WILL die on this hill, and her potential was utterly wasted by having her killed and replaced with Lexa (and clanya would've been a much better story but that's another discussion), and I'll forever be bitter about it, especially since the show immediately forgot she ever existed (and most of the fandom did too). Also, how do you have a goddess like Dichen Lachman on your cast and squander her SO badly, I Do Not Understand.

poor little meow meow (problematic fave): John Murphy, hands down. I actually really loved his growth through the seasons, and a lot of shit was done with his character that I did not like, but at the end of the day I think he was at his best when he was being a complete and utter jackass who still would do the right thing if push REALLY came to shove.

horse plinko (punching bag): Echo. For Reasons.

eeby deeby (superhell bound): Lexa. Also For Reasons.

ask me about blorbos from my shows!

[userlaylivia]

listen I understand why some wanted t100 to end with s4 but if it had ended then we would've never gotten 6x10 which was an amazing episode especially for bellarke!!!! it definitely should've ended with s6 no question but I would've been mad af if we didn't get s6 because we had some amazing bellarke moments in s6!! and sorry but a better showrunner would've made them endgame!! all that buildup and that journey wasted because jroth was a petty pos! they were supposed to be endgame the actors themselves said it and I'll always be bitter over it!!!! they are my biggest ship robbery, I was so sure they would be nobody could convince me otherwise ugh

[userlaylivia]

Hiiii! Mizzie,Cangel,Forwood,Klamille,Malydia,Steferine,Clexa.

these won't be very long because I really just woke up lol

mizzie:

I really liked them together!! I ended up not caring about their relationship after s2 because they dropped it on the show but I did like these two a lot but I ended up being more hizzie tbh!

cangel:

my babies!! I loved these two so much and I'll forever be bitter over them!! they had so much chemistry and I genuinely loved them and their buildup they should've been endgame!!

forwood:

babies!!! I loved these two so much!! how she helped him through becoming a werewolf and through his transition, how they became so close and the chemistry they had gah!! they loved each other so much and would do anything for each other and they threw them away for fanservice I'll never be over it ugh yes I ship steroline but these two are my otp as well and I'll always be bitter ugh

klamille:

babies!! klayley is my otp but these two are as close to one as they could be!! I loved them so much!! how she brought out the best in him and he learns to be better because of her (unlike a certain someone!!), how he protects her and would do anything for her and their buildup!! they are my babies and I'll forever be bitter over them and their ending!!

malydia:

i.loved these two and their friendship!! they had so much chemistry and honestly I ship shelley with anything and everything!! my baby girls!!

clexa:

bellarke is my otp and they'll always be my otp let me be clear lol but on my last couple rewatches I started to like/ship these two as well! they have chemistry and though I still think their too fast and rushed I really do like them now and completely understand why their shippers were so mad over it (not comparing a wlw to a m/f but that's how I felt about bellarke and their ending ugh) but yeah I loved them and they deserved better!!