#I'M SO FUCKING TIRED BUT I SURVIVED 🥹

[graveyarrdshift]

I'M SO HAPPY YOU GOY TICKETS YOU DESERVE THEM I AM SO HAPPY FOR YOU <33333

THANK YOU SO FUCKING MUCH 🥹 THIS IS PROBABLY THE BEST DAY OF MY LIFE 😭

[witchwhaat]

hiii

[comfortabletextiles]

I have bought a second hand knitting machine. And it was a PROCESS I tell you.

I bought a yarn subscription for 3 months, to soothe my tired soul, and as a treat for surviving a truly wretched march. Wich will be 3600m in hand and plant dyed yarn. (Below the first of three months and the pattern that started my need for a knitting machine)

Of course I have to see if the yarns to that well together. But also that is a pattern for a passap knitting machine.

So my hunt for a knitting machine started!

First I found one by "brother" complete with pattern magazines and FUCKING PUNCH CARDS . I wanted that one so bad. But we're talking about 270 bucks and I got scammed before so I asked if I can use PayPal business instead of family and pay a bit more so he doesn't loose any money, because I got scammed before and thats a lot of money. And he was PISSED . How DARE me accuse him of being a scammer, his reviews are STELLAR (well, so where the ones of the scammer?)

So no brother for me.

Then I found a Passap! For FREE! But no shipping (now that I have one I understand, it's a heavy creature, and things could get broken easily if you're not careful)

But she lived way to far away.

WAIT her husband travels a lot because of his work maybe he can bring it some day! BUT we are to far south...

So no free Passap for me.

The I Found TWO machines! One for 250 completely with everything AND prodigal package from 1968! 1h drive from us! Husband already said he'll drive! Parallel I wrote with someone who has a Passap for 80,- in my city! That I could have visited and looked at the machine! I wrote with both, had a lovely Saturday and then had a mental breakdown... So at 2 in the night I wrote both, that I can't buy them, because reasons. I felt very terrible... (Especially because I basically wrote the woman 8h before we came that we won't make it...)

I couldn't stop thinking about the machine though, but felt deeply ashamed how I handled everything ... BUT

I wrote the lady with the 1h drive that I talked to the husband, and that we decluttered, and if she gives me a chance I REALLY like the Passap, for real this time!

And she was absolute incredible and kind 🥹🥹🥹

So, fast forward yesterday evening we got itnto the car, and needed 70 minutes JUST THROUGH THE CITY the whole ride in total should have taken 50min!!!! At this point I truly believed this project cursed!!

BUT. It worked out, I gifted her some chocolate as a thank you for dealing with my sorry ass, she went down with the price a bit, and BEHOLD

A knitting machine

Took some time to figure out where to place her, and even longer to figure out how to work her... But, we're getting used to each other!

So there is a happy end!

Bonus story: it's her father's machine, and later in live, before he died, he knitted only socks with her. She had some tears in her eyes when we took her (said my husband) I feel really honored that I'm able to give her a second live :')

[vonlipwig]

Not to be a bitch but there's a certain, modern breed of 'animal lover' who make me want to chew off my own arm. You see them all over local facebook groups hand-wringing and begging others for help because they've found an injured blackbird and need it taken to a vet (by someone else, of course, they're far too busy right now). Well-meaning but feckless, they're applying levels of anthropomorphised individualism to wildlife heretofore unseen by humanity. The sort of people who chase foxes away from the pigeons they've rightfully caught for their tea, or carefully cradle fledglings they've found on their back lawn in teatowels, or (and this is absolutely real, I have proof) pick up a single bumblebee that looks a bit tired from the pavement, and drive them all 15-20 miles away from their respective habitats to a wildlife rehabilitation centre then demanding constant updates on their care.

I'm not talking about members of endangered species who would not otherwise be injured were it not for humanity (owls caught in wire fences, hedgehogs with broken legs because of domestic cats, and so on), I'm talking about the sort of intervention that reveals that the person doing so is so utterly divorced from the natural world that they ardently believe saving a wild wood pigeon from being eaten by a fox is net positive because they 'just wuv animals soOoOoOo muh-huh-huch 🥹🥺😭.' In reality, these people have an Aesop's Fables-level of understanding of the animal kingdom where some animals are Good™️ (e.g., hedgehogs, mice, and most small birds) and deserve as much human help as possible, while some are Evil™️ (e.g., foxes, wasps, and most birds of prey) and should have their efforts to survive stymied at all costs.

It is baffling and I find it so, so fucking frustrating.

[khaleesiofalicante]

Damn I feel like it's been forever for some reason lmao. Last week's hell is finally over and I get to relax this week! I'm going out with some friends on Friday and I've also cleared my phone and organized my notes!!! It feels so good😭 Now I have some thoughts about last chapter BECAUSE WOW

First of all fuck Mallory, I hate her and I will never get tired of saying this and I am now divided between wanting to read the next chapter so bad and dreading it with my whole being 🙂

My heart broke into a million pieces with the first part!!! Rafael's fear for Max is shown so damn well and Max's thoughts are messy and all over the place and the way you can see him moving in and out of reality is overwhelming!!

I kinda guessed the "why isn't he smiling?" part but fuck if it ripped my heart 😭😭

"Tears of grief" Max loving him so much he literally recognizes his tears and knows these ones too.... And saying he looks as if he is grieving something that was his everything, not knowing David was grieving him. Grieving them. The life they had built. Gone.

"I wanna see daddy" WHEN I TELL YOU I WAS SCREAMING INTERNALLY ON MY FLOOR!! When we first saw on the first chapters I was so confused and now that the dots connected I am in pain 😭. And you wrote that scene so beautifully, their pain and horror and how you see Max slowly losing himself because it's just too much. The pain is too much. Losing David, Lance's pain, his job, his home...

And the scene with Magnus!!! GOING TO MY FAVE COLLECTION 🥺. Also him giving the band to AJ later, because Magnus said he could give it to someone else when it hurt just a little bit less HOLY SHIT😭😭

I can go on a three hour analysis so Imma stop jdhdjdjkd. BUT THE PRESENT TOO JFC

Max's growth. That ends me everytime. Seeing how much he has changed and how he survived through all of this. Thinking of the was Alec told him how proud he is of Max because he made it. Not the way he planned. But he did it. He got so far, and that took so much strength but he still survived. Same Alec, same🥹

But also the fucking parallel:

"He was careful now (...) Just in case. Just in case he'll get his heart broken all over again."

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Not without an explanation. Not without getting his heart broken into a million pieces one last time.

Then, just like everything else in life, things slowly got better. This whole fic is a prove of it and I can't even-

YES LANCE CALL HIS IDIOTIC SELF OUT!!! TELL HIM DAVID LOVES HIM MORE THAN LIFE ITSELF!!! I WILL NEVER GET TIRED IF HIS SASS BTW

You once said that tlnd was was about acceptance and healing, but IALS is about forgiveness, about learning to forgive the people we love, but mostly about learning to forgive ourselves (I have the receipts don't @ me) and this scene portrayed that so well. Even though Max knows it wasn't his fault he still blames himself. Because knowing is not the same as accepting it. As Max said, shit is hard to internalize.

THIS GOES TO MY TOP 10😭😭 LANCE AND MAX TALKING TO EACH OTHER IS EVERYTHING I KNEW I NEEDED FROM THE VERY START I AM SO EMOTIONAL!!! Also Lance and Max's detective skills together??? ✨ Iconic✨

Tell me how to love you as you want to be loved and I'll do it to give you the comfort and safety you deserve is something I'll never get tired of😭😭 istg I could go on a whole speech about this part because it's so true. Sometimes parents don't love us the way we want to be loved, but that doesn't mean there's no love there. It's just different of what we expect. And sometimes people go their whole lives not knowing of that love and that's just sad.

That is one unproblematic child,” Max noted. “Really doesn’t fit into this clusterfuck of a family.”

“I’m waiting for him to set Hollywood on fire,” Lance informed. “Don’t lose hope yet.”

HOLY SHIT I JUST REALIZED I'M THE ARTHUR OF MY FAMILY. WHAT DO I DO WITH THIS KNOWLEDGE???

I have so many feeling about that apartment and Harry and them but I will not unpack them bc this shit is already long enough 🙂

Their conversation. The way they've both changed so much. Talking about how they wished they were there for Lance and for each other. I was in TEARS

Everything of the last scene was *screams internally* David fucking pushing Max to the wall, stronger than hate. "He's scared of something". Fucking Mon ange, *what did Mallory do to you?"

I just want you to know I will combust into confetti or tears in the next chapter. Probably both...

Anyway this turned long and I better go. Take care and drink lots of tea!!!!

💙.💙.💙.

This made me so 😇😇😇😇 and gave me some motivation to write the next chapter 😭😭😭😭 Thank you 💚💚💚

This is Lance sleeping in Arthur’s room 🥰🥰🥰

[songsofwaterandnight]

Bayonetta was super fun and I'm honestly surprised that there were so many things that were still fresh for me despite it being a 13 year old game that so many of you have talked about extensively. I've even played as her in smash but her representation there is barely a shadow of the actual gameplay. Things that were fresh for me(if you're like I was and haven't played the game yet but plan to then skip this post):

The combat system. Smash really does not come close to how fun it actually is. Shooting out of combos? Wicked weaves? Witch time? The overall smoothness of it? All amazing and unparalleled by any other game in this genre(yes even DMC5)

The weapons. No one told me she gets a sword!! She gets rocket launchers she can put on her feet!! ROCKET LAUNCHERS on her FEET. Laser guns???? A LIGHTSABER.

The story and cutscenes. I already knew a good amount of it because it's a decade-old game and some of it was obvious (the baby Cereza hints were super heavy-handed lol). Nonetheless, I still enjoyed it from the start to the finish. I cried a little when Bayonetta put baby Cereza back in the past and gave her that little talk and I got chills when Jeanne saved Bayonetta at the end(The unbrainwashed delivery of "Our left eye, our precious left eye will NEVER fall into the hands of another. It is the pride of the Umbra Witches!" and "I am here to reclaim my Umbran sister!" go so hard 🥹). It's also very camp in the best ways; I never got tired of Luka(who shares a voice actor with Sasuke Uchiha👁️👄👁️) and Jeanne surviving in the most impossible ways.

The music slaps hard.🎶 FLY ME TO THE MOON AND LET ME PLAY AMONG THE STARS🎶

There were some parts where the age showed like the piss filter, a few bugs and the two fuck you stages (driving stage and flying stage, my beloathed) but all in all it's an incredibly stylish game and definitely one of my favorites, if not my favorite.