#I’ve been thinking about this scenario FOR MONTHS I want to write it sooo bad 😭

[binarisunset]

modern au snowjanus where Sejanus brings Coriolanus to one of those big family gatherings for the first time (maybe a quinceañera, or someone’s wedding, or just a family reunion for the sake of it) and Coriolanus is introduced to all of Sejanus’s aunts and uncles and cousins (why are there SO MANY???) and he’s subjected to the latino culture first hand

[bakusdumptruck]

Bakusquad Crack Post

Sup bitches 🤩how’s your day been? hope its been good! Anywayyy i was listening to a “Rolling joints with Sero Hanta” playlist and this popped up in my mind sooo here’s a little Bakusquad scenario 😏

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Pairing: aged up Bakusquad x GN Y/n

Warnings: Use of marijuana, swearing, injuries

Summary: A smoke session with the babes turned into a chaotic mess 

Ights sluts lets get into it 😈

Sero Hanta is the stoner of the group. Period. 

He taught everyone how to roll up just incase he was too high to function and wanted to smoke more

One night he texted the gc asking if everyone wanted to have a smoke sesh before they had to study for exams 

You all agreed and went over to his dorm together

All except Bakugou.

He called all of you “idiots” and “dumbasses” for getting faded before studying, but all Sero had to say for him to come was

“Ight bakubro, if you can’t handle it you could’ve said that instead of making excuses 🤷🏻‍♂️”

Bakugou showed up within 5 minutes.

Once everyone was together, tape boy had everything set up

There were 4 joints lined up, hella snacks, drinks, video games, and movies

He even had the LED a n d Galaxy lights on

Lordy it was gonna be a long ass night

NOW ON TO THE FIRST ROTATION 🤩

You know how I said Sero is the stoner? yup uhuh he got the MF GAS.

The rotation was Bakugou, Kiri, You, Mina, Denki, then Sero

You all have a high tolerance so after you saw Bakugou coughing up a fucking lung, yall knew you were in trouble

Everyone coughed... except Sero. He just busted a lung laughing💀

So the joint is finished and you’re all feeling fuzzy

yes you’re high, BUT its not enough to get you guys staring at the wall thinking about space and aliens

Just high enough where time is slowed down and your body feels light

Denki randomly shouted to play video games and everyone agreed

Guess what you’re playing 👀

Ju-on. The fucking grudge game. 

Why did Denki choose this game? oh he just wanted to see if it’d be a scarier experience if you’re all faded

It was 😃

Kiri volunteered to play the first stage to show off his Manliness 😤

So there he goes walking into the abandoned building 

yall know how you can use another wii remote to trigger jumpscares? 

yeahhhh Kiri didn’t know about it... and Bakugou was in charge of that

Everyone was chillin, lowkey feeling at edge to prepare themselves for anything about to pop up

Here comes the scene where he opens the door and scary bitch is on the other side waiting to grab him 

K: “Uhhhh this doesn’t feel right... am I supposed to go this way?

B: “No shit dumbass, its telling you go that way isn’t it? What are you scared or something 😏 I thought you were too manly for this game”

K: “I-I’m not scared... just making s-sure.”

M: “Hehe you’re stuttering kiri”

K: “...I’m just cold”

Right before he grabbed the door handle (I kinda forgot how the game went oops 😅) bakubitch tiggered a jumpscare

K: “Okay here I g- what the fuck 😃”

It didn’t work.

K: “Oh that wasn’t too bad! The games gonna have to try harder if it wants to scare m- JESUS FUCKING CHRIST WHAT THE HELL IS THAT”

Scary bitch popped up outta no where and grabbed him

S: “DUDE FUCKING RUN AWAY”

Y/N: “KIRI THE BITCH IS RIGHT THERE WHY AREN’T YOU DOING ANYTHING”

K: “FUCK- CAN’T YOU SEE IM TRYING”

B: “BITCH SHAKE THE CONTROLLER. YOU HAVE TO SHAKE THE CONTROLLER”

K: “AHSJHS WHY ISN’T SHE LETTING GO”

D: “I-IT”S TELLING YOU HOW TO SHAKE IT. GO LEFT, NO NOW RI-”

Kiri accidentally punched Denki in the face 🙃

All: “...whAT THE FUCK AHAHAHSHAH”

yeahhh so thats how the game ended 😭

Denki was laying on the floor staring at the ceiling wondering what the hell just happened and why everyone was laughing at him

D: *in his head* “I just got punched square in the face 😃 and they’re laughing at me 😃 This is fine. 😃”

K: “B-bro are you okay 😭 iM sorry AHAsh its- its just everyone was screaming and AhahhAHAHA IM SORRY 😭”

Sero let him start the second rotation as an apology for laughing instead of checking up on him 

Honestly yall don’t know if you can go on to the third

Everyone was hella faded at this point

Eyes red, dry mouths, and hungry stomachs

Mina ordered TacoBell knowing everyone was gonna want to eat more than the snacks and you all sat on the floor munching away

You all started talking about stupid stuff:

S: “So like... what happens when we get scared half to death twice”

M: “👁👄👁”

B: “👁👄👁”

D: “👁👄👁”

Y: “👁👄👁”

K: “👁👄👁”

D: “I’ve been scared half to death multiple times... im fucking immortal.”

After a few more high conversations Mina suggests to make tiktoks 

Have yall seen the tiktok where Mina and Y/n do the trend where they wink at the camera and all the boys are watching and Baku comes up to kiss Y/n? 

yup you do that BUT

When Bakugou grabbed your cheeks and went in for the kiss he missed and fell flat on his face 💀

*Cue everyone falling on their asses crying*

Best believe the tiktok went viral 🤩

After the third joint yall decided that the room was too suffocating and went out for a walk 

It didn’t seem like a bad idea... until you all got outside

Denki and Sero were singing “Milkshake” at the top of their lungs while wall twerking on the trees

Kiri and Bakugo were racing to see who’s the fastest but kept tripping over their own feet

You and Mina were recording everything those dumbasses were doing.

All of a sudden yall found yourselves in a clear area a bit far from the dorms

Bakugou laid in the grass staring up at the stars and you all joined getting into a little cuddle pile

At this point the effects of the joints hit at once and everyone was out of their heads

They felt like their spirits were floating out of their bodies

*BOOM*

M: “...did you guys hear that”

All: “yes”

M: “should we go check it out?”

B: “Hell yeah. What if it’s a villain? I bet I can beat their ass in less than a second”

Y: “First, thats literally impossible. Second, We can barely fucking move. How do you expect us to fight a villain 🙂”

A Nomu popped up in front of you

D: “Uhhh aye Bakubro... you think you can beat his ass in less than a second?”

B: “FUCK YEAH WATCH THIS YOU FUCKING EXTRAS.”

...

HE FUCKING MISSED Nomu: “ERRHSJAKFjhuSGHD”

Y/n: *shoots up on their feet then falls over immediately* “DAMNIT I CAN’T STAND UP STRAIGHT WHAT DO WE DO”

Everyone started to use their quirks

Sero shot tape to the nomu

Denki sent 1 millions volts

Mina just kept shooting acid out

Kiri hardened up and threw punches like his life depend on it

Bakugou was screaming “die” and kept exploding shit

and You were also using your quirk to the best of your ability

K: *heavy breathing* “guys... i think we got it”

B: “Ofc we did... we literally went bat shit crazy on it”

When the smoke cleared it was still standing in front of you guys... unharmed...

AND IT MULTIPLIED

K: “😶RUN AWAY”

you all started running back to the dorms

well, tried running back to the dorms

Everyone was bumping into each other and tripping

S: “WE’RE GONNA DIE”

Y/n: “WE’RE NOT GONNA DIE JUST KEEP RUNNING... FUCK THEY’RE GETTING CLOSER

Denki ended up facetiming Aizawa in hopes that he would help

A: “Denki, its 4am what do you w-”

D: “SENSEIIII NOMUS ARE CHASING US. SEND HELP.

A: “Why are you guys out of the dorms? aND WHY ARE YOU CALLING ME USE YOUR QUIRKS. YOU HAVE YOUR HEROS LICENSE FOR A REASoN”

D: “WE TRIED. WE MISSED AND IT MULTIPLIED. WE’RE ALSO HIGH AS FUCK BUT WE’RE NOT GONNA TALK ABOUT THAT”

A: “... did you say you were high?”

D: “IRRELEVANT. SENSEI WE’RE GONNA DI-”

The nomu caught him.

A: “Denki... Kaminari... hello?... *sigh* you guys are gonna be the death of me.”

You all ended up getting knocked out by the nomus and taken to the League of Villains hideout 

B: “...Never thought i’d be here again”

S: “ I still have the last joint in my pocket... ya’ll wanna smoke?”

Dabi and Shiggy stared at him like he was crazy but agreed anyway 🤪who’s gonna pass up a free joint? not them. 

So everyone got high again and chilled until the Pro Hero’s saved your asses :)

Oh and also don’t think Aizawa let you guys off the hook. 

You all got house arrest and extra BRUTAL lessons for the next 2 months 

The End :)

Yeahhh idk what this was but I hope you all enjoyed it!! I really wanted to write something angsty but as I was writing I couldn’t take myself seriously and ended up making jokes 😭

[megumis-lashes]

Hi can I request Megumi with a very touchy crush

Megumi with a touchy crush HCs!

Fushiguro Megumi x Reader ^^

An: Hello! Sorry for the late response but I hope you can enjoy this anyways! Since it’s not specified I made this headcannons since that was easier! If you want anything different in future requests please specify at least: format, POV and gender! If you don’t I’ll just do whatever ^^

Contains: Touchy reader/physical contact, Megumi x reader, written with a female reader in mind but generally left as gn!, angst if you squint lol, possibly mistakes as my genius self is writing this at like 12am, just fluffff :) oh and you’re shorter than Megumi lol. (Oh and sorry if Megumi is a tad OOC in the drabble cuz his reactions can be tricky to write for 😅)

Word Count: 1.7k (I got carried away once again lol)

Soooo.... Megumi with a touchy crush? Sign me up!

Now we all know that Megumi is rather reserved and pretty straight forward so I think at first his reaction to your touchiness may be a bit awkward

Not awkward in the sense that he’s uncomfortable being around you but more as in he’s a bit.... shy

He’s not adjusted to receiving a lot of physical contacts so initially, he wasn't quite sure how to react 

His overall awkwardness really depends on how long he’s known you 

If he just met you during high school he would probably be a bit shocked at how comfortable you were with casual physical affection

While you would think nothing of it and treated practically everyone you knew (and were comfortable with) like this, Megumi would still be surprised 

While Yuuji and Nobara would adjust to your touchiness quite quickly, Megumi would probably stay blushy about it for a month or so until he wouldn't think much about it anymore 

it’d be a bit different if he knew you for a while or even knew you as childhood friends

Typically being touchy doesn't become a habit overnight sooo he’d be a lot more used to it and barely think about it 

I don’t see him as one to openly accept or adjust to physical affection without being a bit shy 

He’d probably tease you or question you about it from time to time and be one to begrudgingly accept affection 

Totally be one to act really annoyed by your touchiness but in reality, he treasures the soft moments away from danger 

All of this would change when he realizes he has a crush on you though :0

Cue blushy, awkward Megumi and oblivious you featuring another oblivious idiot, Yuuji, and an all-knowing Nobara 

Megumi isn’t one to develop crushes immediately or overnight since he must value that person’s personality most of all 

He thought of you as purely platonically within these first few months of knowing you untilllll his brain just clicked 

He was like.... ‘Oh shoot... I have a crush....”

Having a crush is refreshing for Megumi but also quite distracting with how touchy you are

Instead of just ignoring the affection or casually playing it off, Megumi forgets how to react 

Now he knows that deep down he really likes receiving affection from you cuz he realized how he likes you more than just a companion or classmate  

Cue Megumi being 10 times more awkward than usual 

Normally if you were to walk up to him and throw your arm over his shoulder playfully or something like that he’d either ignore it, pretend it's not happening or just playfully shove your arm off his shoulder 

Now he just freezes and is like ‘oh what to do’

Would be that person who googles ‘how to act normally around your crush’ but at the same time think its stupid and stop reading the article like five minutes in lol

He’d probably have one of two reactions: 

Cease to function and just stand awkwardly still or

Awkwardly pull away 

...

Now as much as Megumi pretends to hate your touchiness, you do know that he’s okay with you playing around so this reaction is pretty unusual

You probably are a little confused as to why he’s acting like this 

Like huhh????? I thought we were good?????

Cue Megumi continuing to be awkward for a while 

Everyone became more awkward than usual since that day because the friendly atmosphere was put off due to Megumi being even more closed off than usual

He practically avoids you at this point

Ofc you start to feel bad about it

Like did you do something wrong??? Take it too far?? 

Touchiness has always been in your nature and seeing someone react so sharply to it makes you feel insecure about your habits so you lessen the touchiness within the friend group

and everyone notices

Yuuji misses your playfulness and Megumi is simply overwhelmed and lost within his own thoughts and emotions 

Nobara is the most.... suspicious 

While examining Megumi lately (not in a weird way she swears) she noticed the sudden change in behavior 

That’s when she realized ‘Does the Fushiguro Megumi have a crush????’ 

Ofc her curiosity gets the best of her so she just has to question Megumi 

So she does

After a small mission the team had gone on, she asked Megumi to talk 

‘So promise to answer truthfully.’

‘Yes I promise” 

‘Do you have a crush on Y/N?’

“Huh’ Megumi deadpans. This came out of nowhere 

As much as he wishes to play it cool and dismiss the girl’s thoughts, he physically cannot and instead goes into blushy cannot function mode

Nobara takes notice to this immediately

‘Aha! So I was correct! Take that Yuuji!’

Yes they totally made bets on this 

Once again Megumi is lost 

‘Huh? Bets on what?”

‘Bets on what?”Are you seriously that oblivious? On your crush! It’s so obvious it’s painful!” She sighed dramatically

Now Megumi is even more lost 

Like sure he was confused about where his crush stands but he wasn’t aware that he was obvious????

Nobara goes on to explain how stiffly he reacts to your touches and how his blush doesn’t really go unnoticed 

She also explains how you were moping around lately cuz you thought you made him uncomfortable

Shocked at this new found information he rushed out of their real quick to go... idk possibly confess but be more focused on apologizing 

AN: Here’s a quick scenario in first person of how that would go since I have zero self-control :0 

I was settled on the small bed in my school dorm room. Placed upon a stack of pillows was my laptop, through which played whatever random Netflix show I chose. It didn’t really matter what it was as the media was quickly discarded by my mind and treated as background noise. My mind was swimming with rather..intrusive thoughts. As much as I wanted to relax and shut off my mind for the night I simply couldn’t. My thoughts continued to drift back to a certain ravenette and the issues that had circled around him for a while now. Fushiguro Megumi, a boy I met a few years back when beginning jujutsu. We were friends... or at least I considered us friends and I had taken quite a liking to the boy. Despite his distant and rather closed off personality, I had developed a casual and comfortable bond with the male... or so I thought. All changed when he started acting strangely, almost as if I had hurt him or bothered him a little too much with my habits. Admittedly I was a bit hurt over Megumi’s actions but I was more confused. I had always been touchy, so why the sudden reaction to it? 

As if the world was messing with me, a knock sounding from my dorm room door shook me from my train of thought. 

“Coming!” I quickly pushed the blankets and began walking towards the door. The person behind that door was definitely not who I was expecting. Behind the door stood Megumi Fushiguro, pacing lightly as his hand slightly ruffled his hair.

“Megumi?! Did you need something?” It was strange to see Megumi at my door as it was nearing 9 PM and he was usually one to avoid unnecessary intrusions. 

“Oh hi Y/N. Sorry to bother you so late but I’ve come to apologize..” He explained, carding his hand through his hair nervously.

“Apologize for what exactly?” I questioned.

“For how I’ve been acting lately..” He stated. I shook my head. 

“Ahh about that... I’ve been meaning to ask you something..” I mumbled. “Megumi.. do I uhh.. make you uncomfortable? I mean I know I’m kinda touchy and I’ve noticed that you uh don’t-”

“No no no! That's what I’m here to clear up about... Look it's not what you think! You don’t make me uncomfortable I’ve just been too focused on my own thoughts to realize why you may think that...’ We’re both way too oblivious’ or at least that’s what Nobara says..” He trailed off. I sighed in relief. I was happy, albeit a bit confused but still happy that he didn’t despise me. 

“Ok ok.. I’m glad you don’t hate me at least!” I smiled, throwing my arm around his shoulder as I did in the past. “I do have one question though!”

“Ask away.” He quietly chuckled, finally at ease in my touches. 

“What do you mean ‘we’re both oblivious’? And what does Nobara have to do with this?” I questioned, leaning my head onto the taller male’s shoulder. His eyes widened a bit as he glanced away awkwardly. 

“Well, you see... I don’t really know how to say this but..” 

“Just spit it out already!” I playfully slapped his back. 

“I have a crush on you...” He mumbled looking away. 

“....huh” I deadpanned. “That’s why you were awkward all of a sudden? All because you like me? Wait you like me?!” I shook my head, leaving the casual embrace we had settled into. 

“Yeah... that’s not a bad thing is it?” He questioned, once again rubbing at his neck nervously.

“No no of course not!” I waved dramatically. “I’ll let you know that I like you too! Quite a lot actually!” I chuckled thinking of Nobara’s words. “Now I understand what she was saying about obliviousness... Now that I think about it you were sooo obvious! I'm ashamed that I didn’t notice sooner.” I sighed, coming down from my small laughing fit. 

“ Hey well, I didn’t know how to act! I was trying my best ok....” He mumbled. I leaned forward and pressed a kiss to his left cheek, chuckling at his blushy reaction. 

“Don’t worry about it! I mean we cleared everything up didn’t we?” I pondered.

“So uhh.. do you wanna be my girlfriend then?” He questioned, looking as flustered as ever. 

“I’d love that!” I smiled. Glancing at my watch my eyes widened. 

“Hey, it's getting late! Why don’t you come watch Netflix with me yeah?!” I pulled the ravenette into my dorm, leaving him little time to respond.  That night we drifted off together surrounded by the noise of old Netflix movies and warmed by the feeling of love. 

[reverienne]

Sooo you've finished the first Ace Attorney game, right? What case was your fave? Were there twists and turns that you totally didn't see coming? Who's your favourite character till now? I'm so so curious about your opinions 😁

Hi. Thanks for reaching out! I've finished the first game last month and though I haven't started the second one just yet, I've grown to like the series a lot so I'm always down for a chat. <3

My brain tells me that my favourite case was "Turnabout Goodbyes" (which, imho, feels the most poignant and the most well-written of them all, not to mention wildly interesting - both in terms of the plot, the characters' interactions and development), but my heart chimes in that my actual favourite is probably "Turnabout Samurai" (not because I find "Turnabout Goodbyes" lacking in any way, but this particular case makes very emotional and I'm not always feeling up to that - in the terms of sheer enjoyment and replayability, "Turnabout Samurai" is the clear winner, especially as I love its music theme so much).

My least favourite case is... I really want to say that it's "Rise from the Ashes". It has taken me ages to go through this case, it was such a drudgery, and I've found Ema annoying, not endearing, the whole time. While I appreciate the contrast this case provides to "Turnabout Goodbyes", while I like bits and pieces of it, and while I actually got a bit teary-eyed at the finale, it's still one of the cases I wouldn't want to replay in the nearest future. That being said, if there's this one case I'd rather not revisit at all, it would be "Turnabout Sisters". Not because I find it bad in any way! I've just latched onto Mia the second I saw her, I was pretty sure we'll get at least one more case with her as Phoenix's mentor and when she got attacked in "Turnabout Sisters", I genuinely wished her to recover... so when she didn't, I became so salty as to write my own AU in which Mia survives but ends up incapacitated for a while and Phoenix and Maya face a slightly different set of trials.

I was making many theories during each and every case so, predictably, I had my share of wrong guesses. I think that my biggest surprise was "Turnabout Samurai" because I've always pegged the case as a sort of deliberate murder? Or just half accidental, half deliberate murder but never a pure accident. I was also a bit surprised that I would laugh and cheer so much at the finale of "Turnabout Goodbyes" - honestly, to this day I can't think about a metal detector with a straight face... As for some other surprises, I was pleasantly surprised by Phoenix's sense of humor! It's amazing and I wish I got to hear his remarks about things more often. I also never expected for Angel Starr, Neil Marshall and Bruce Goodman to win so much of my respect or to just... feel for Lana and Ema! Though I guess that my biggest surprise was the Lana/Mia spree I went on a few weeks ago. They've got a single line of content (and I never ship like that, I always require a ton of canon build-up which is a bit of a fallacy of mine) but somehow they've became as canon to me as Miles/Phoenix and ¯\_(ツ)_/¯.

My favourite character is - to no one's surprise - Miles Edgeworth. I've just had a type since junior high and he fits the bill perfectly. He's such a nuanced character with a lot of development still ahead, and I find him very interesting. Not to mention that his relationships with other characters have such a wide range, going through wild (Larry), sweet (Gumshoe), sweet and heartwrenching (Phoenix, Gregory Edgeworth), and sad and heartwrenching (Manfred von Karma, Lana) that it's just... impossible not to find something there that you wouldn't like? Honestly, having him in such a major role was the hook that made me keep playing through "Rise from the Ashes" even when my motivation was low. Seeing him and Phoenix work as a team almost made up for certain things I didn't enjoy. My second favourite, almost ex aequo with Miles, is, of course, Maya! I missed her dearly in "Rise from the Ashes" and my negativity towards Ema was surely a bit fueled by my fears that they wanted to replace her. She is such a good bean and such a fun character as well! The best little sister that Phoenix could hope for and I genuinely can't wait to see their reunion. The third place is probably still Mia's because I'm being petty, but maybe things will change once Franziska comes over? I'm very curious about her. Though a more probable scenario is that I'll keep Mia on the third place and Franziska's introduction will either made her replace Phoenix on the fourth (I like him a lot, I swear!) or possibly end up after him.

As for my least favourite character - so far I only dislike Ema, though I must admit that she got my respect once I learned of her ties to the DL-6 case and I realize that I should've cut her some slack even before that. She is a child, after all, even if the one-year age difference between her and Maya makes me look at her in a bit harsher light than I normally would. I can't help it, though, her comments have been grating on my nerves throughout 80% of the case so... yeah. My unpopular character opinion.

Anyway, what are your favourite cases? Your favourite characters? I would love to read your opinions. :D

[bonelesswords]

a study of souls | alex høgh andersen au

Chapter five: Loser 

gif credit: @lol-haha-joke​ 

- masterlist

Warnings: Language, sexual content, mentions and using of drugs, mentions of a toxic relationships, grammar mistakes (english is not my first language)

Note: HERE IS IT, FINALLY. It took me so long but now I'm on vacations for like three months so I have sooo much time to write. If you like it let me know and if you didn't let me know as well(??, I looove feedback 💖

I know in advance how toxic is for me to expect bad things and imagine the worst scenarios before something good happens. But when the clock starts approaching at 9:40 and there is no possible way for Alex to tell me if he is on his way or not, it is a bit inevitable.

My mind wanders, in a tortuous way, in the possibility that he has forgotten that he invited me out, or simply does not want to come. I imagine the horrible situation of having to tell Grandma that, in the last moment, the boy I talked about will not come. Or even worse, I imagine having to see Alex's face after that.  

Grandma has already gone to bed and I am the only person in the living room, with the only company of the dim light of the lamp on the small table next to the sofa, unlocking and locking the phone, forgetting that Alex doesn't have my number and that he won't send me any messages.

Despite all the thoughts that crossed my mind a few seconds ago, I can't help feeling totally nervous, I didn't want to call that a date out loud, but between me and myself that was what it seemed, and it was scary. I haven't had a date for a long time, And I wasn't sure if the things we had with William were dates, they didn't look anything like that. However, I have a fuzzy memory of high school, although almost nothing; during the first years all the girls talked about that, if the boy did not kiss you on the first date, he wasn't interested in you or he was a loser, that was the most effective way to know.

I think that at fifteen everything was easier, I didn't think too much and had fewer first dates than the rest of the girls, but now, at twenty-one, it is even difficult for me to be completely sure that Alex is going to show up or not.

It's not until 10:05 that the sound of the bell rings in my ears, scattering all the silly thoughts in my head. While I get up from the couch I can't help feeling a little, maybe too dumb. I wait a few seconds before walking to the front door with the key in my hands. When I put it in the lock, it seems to echo throughout the house.

I open the door and see Alex in the darkness of the porch of the house, dressed completely in black, with his hands buried in the pockets of his pants. Suddenly, I feel his gaze travel me from top to bottom, to return to my face directly, with a smile a little playful in his face. The nervousness explodes in my stomach but it's fine, I'm fine.

"I see we are matching tonight." He says, meaning that I am also dressed completely in black, in tight jeans and a simple hoodie.

"It looks like we're going to rob a bank. "I respond leaving home and closing the door behind me.

"Maybe to rob a bank is where I'm going to take you tonight."

"That's fine for me." I shrug with a smile on my face, he smiles back but doesn't say nothing for a few seconds.

"Hi June, by the way."

"Hello Alex, I think you are more punctual than I thought."

"I am, actually. Plus, I didn't want you to think I wasn't coming." Confesses, as if he had read my mind. I laugh, maybe it's late for that.

I start down the porch stairs while he follows me, I hear him take a bunch of keys, and when I see from the corner of my eye that they are car's keys.

"Ah, June, I forgot. I introduce you to my car." Alex says with a mocking smile on his lips and points to the only black car that is parked in front of the house.

"Uhh, he looks good." I joke, even though Rory works with cars all the time, I didn't know anything about them, nor about brands or models. My most detailed description of Alex's car is that it is a very pretty black car.

"I bought it a few weeks ago." He explains, going around the car and opening the pilot's door. When he is inside I see him stretch to open the door in front of me.

I get in the car and after putting on my seat belt, I look at him, but this time I look at him fully, under the light of the car I can stare at him better. Only in that moment I realize that the blue and violet bruises have almost disappeared from his face, making me see him almost different because, from the first time I saw him until the last, he still had a black eye.

"He has no mame?"

" You're obviously Rory's sister." He says with a smile on his face, making me laugh loudly.

"Of course I am! When he started working at the garage, I used to go and visit him after school. We named every car" I explain "Yours should have a name."

"Like what?" he inquires, now a little interested.

"You have a nice car, cute cars have ugly names." I tell him but he frowns.

"Who says?"

"Well, me" I answer and he lets out a loud laugh.

"I won't give it an ugly name, June. It has to be a cool mame, like Max."

"Max is boring! You're not naming it Max" I protest shaking my head, but sighs while looking at me smiling, is it so wrong to think that he has a beautiful smile? It is obviously not wrong, the problem is that I would think about it all night.

"You tell me, then. Why does it look like?"

I cross my arms and look around the car as if I were examining it, but I also try to visualize how it was on the outside. I am sure it was recently washed. It is not too bright or too dull, and it is fine. I like it.

"It's Billie" I give my verdict but he looks at me as if he couldn't believe that the most basic name in history has just come out of my mouth. With narrowed eyes and shaking his head, he protests:

"It doesn't look like Billie" He crosses his arms, turning slightly towards me. "Billie is a weak name!"

"You got a weak name!" I try to fight back and Alex laughs, despite complaining, he looks resigned to my choice of name.

"Fair enough, it's Billie, then, just because I can't think a better name." He says and directs his eyes to the front to start the car, I giggle but I say nothing more. Alex continues to look straight ahead, but looks sideways from time to time. "You're not vegan, right?"

"I'm not, why?"

"Because yesterday when I left the bakery I kept thinking about where to take you today, and I tried to remember all the times when Rory talked about you but I couldn't think of anything, besides that Rory talks about you as if you were fourteen or something, sometimes I forgot." I Instantly notice that Alex is quite expressive with his hands, he flips the wheel often only to make a gesture with his left hand. "Because he says" my little sister this, and my little sister the other ", but anyway, I thought that if there is something that is impossible that you do not like are the hamburgers, unless you are vegan."

"Vegan burgers exist, though"

"I know, but I'm not going to take you to eat a vegan burger, June. I'm going to take you to eat the third best burger I've ever had in my life." He tries to fake some mystery in his voice, but fails.

"That sounds promising but, hey, the third one? What happened to the first two places?"

'Well," he begins to explain, "The first place is in a food stand near the subway station, the second is in a small supermarket near home, neither of them are open at this time. Besides, I'm not going to take you to those places."

"Okay, I'm going to believe you for now, but I'm going to have to check it out later."

The car advances for minutes with the windows low, Alex talks about the music that plays, is connected from his cell phone and I tell him that I am glad that he plays his own music because I would hate that he was that kind of person who enjoys listening to the radio, just as Rory is, and that I would hate to tell him that I hate the music of the radio. Alex laughs, he laughs at all the bad jokes I make and makes me wonder if they actually make him laugh or he does just for convenience, but I try to push those thoughts as far as possible.

I recognize this part of the city because it's close to Alex and his brother's bar, but not so much. He parks in front of a restaurant with large windows that allow me to easily see people sitting in chairs. When we got closer, I realize that the place looks like those old bars that were on the routes in the middle of nowhere and I like it, I had never been on that side of the city. I can tell that it is also a café and a bar.

"I made a reservation today." He says opening the door of the place, with a smile on his face.

"Seriously?" I ask laughing.

"No, I have just come here to say that I was coming at night and if they could keep me a table." He explains to me as we approach the bar where the cash register is located. "I used to work here a few years ago, the owner and I get along."

I sit down and wait a step behind him when he rests his arms on the counter, standing on his toes to see who is in the kitchen behind the bar. A red-haired girl who shouldn't be under sixteen comes up with a yellow apron tied around her neck and a big smile on her face when she sees Alex.

"Oh, hi Alex! My mom told me you were coming today." She says, with the small eyes of so much smiling. Alex smiles almost the same way as her, although not with the same enthusiasm she shows.

"Nice to see you Annie, why are you working this late?"

"It's barely 10:30, but yes, I'm helping mom. Saturdays are usually long nights."She explains and only then she realizes my silent presence, her smile fades a little, but when she looks back at Alex, she takes the same strength as before. I had not seen anyone smile as much as she did. "Who's her?"

"Ah, June. This is Annie, my friend when I used to work here." I take a step forward and greet her, although Annie doesn't have the same enthusiasm as before.

"Okay, it's the same table as always. The menu should be there." Alex nods and thanks her before he starts walking towards a table in the back of the place, located next to one of the windows that overlooked the street.

He slides in one of the red chairs to the wall and I do the same with the chair in front of him.

"You really are the most enchanting person, aren't you? How is that i haven't met you before?" I ask as I put my chin in the palm of my hand.

"I guess I have to recognize it, but why this time?"

"I'm talking about that girl, who looks like you've made her day just by coming here, oh but believe me, you've ruined it in two seconds by bringing me."

"Now I'm not following you at all, little June." Alex approaches the edge of his chair, frowning but intrigued.

"What I'm saying, dear Alex, is that that girl is so into you that i'm surprised her face doesn't hurt from smiling so much." I explain but he remains silent for a second, with his eyes wide open, until he begins to shake his head repeatedly.

"That's impossible, because she just turned seventeen, June. I'm pretty sure she knows I'm twenty-five, in fact, for my birthday she gave me a scone." He begins to speak quickly, almost stumbling over his words, but his last sentence makes me let out a laugh so loud that I'm sure it was heard from outside.

"And? I am not saying that you are going to be with her, that's obvious, she is a teenager. I'm just saying that it is very silly of you not to have noticed before and bring me here" A glow of disappointment makes presence in his eyes when he realizes what I am talking about.

"But I just wanted to bring you to eat the third best burger in the world. What should I do? I mean, you're a girl, you should know." Concern sneaks into his voice, and despite the feelings that Annie obviously has for him, I know he doesn't want to upset her.

"Nothing, Alex. She's seventeen, she will remember you as the guy eight years older than her that she used to like in high school. She'll get over it, we all do it."

"Are you sure?" He asks again.

"I'm sure." I try to convince him. "But I mean, come on, how do you guys don't notice things like that?"

"I notice those things." Alex tries to look offended, but he can't hide his characteristic arrogant smile. "I mean... you?"

"I don't like you." I lie, just to bother him.

"Of course you like me, you always blush, it has to mean something."

"Oh, believe me, that doesn't mean anything. Does Annie blush when you talk to her?"

"No, but that's because I don't say to her the same things I say to you."

"Oh, you're so full of shit." I roll my eyes, causing him to laugh.

"No, but really. When I see someone I might like, I notice. But ... Annie? She could be my little sister, she's seventeen! But you know what do I do when I like someone?"

"You're not supposed to tell me that." I interrupt him.

"I take her to eat the third best burger in the world." He ignores my protest and I nod repeatedly, although my heart skipped a beat, I manage to have the same composure as before.

"So are you telling you bring every girl you like here?" I inquire, crossing my arms over my chest, he tries to stay serious, opening his mouth to speak but closing it automatically. He raises his index finger, as if trying to defend himself but I took him off guard.

"That's not when I was trying to say..."

"I have an idea of what you were trying to say." I interrupt him again and he shakes his head, almost resigned.

"Anyway, did you just tell me you got over your Alex?" Alex moves on his chair until he gets a little closer to the table, a little closer to me.

"Of course I did, except that I had a little more luck with my Alex, but my hopes were too high. His name is Hugh and he is now in rehab." I start telling him and he opens his eyes wide, getting a little closer to the tip of his seat.

"The guy the lady was talking about yesterday, right? Your ex boyfriend?"

"Yes, but he wasn't my boyfriend, his grandmother knows me because sometimes we went to his house, but I never talked to his mother, I don't know her. The lady thought I was his girlfriend because we used to see each other, but if so, Hugh would have perhaps too many girlfriends. "Alex nods slowly, understanding my point.

"And he broke your heart." He says, half as a question, half as an affirmation.

"Yes, something like that. At seventeen it felt like he had done it."

"And now?"

"Not so much, at that moment it felt that way, but then you grow up, you realize that there are worse things than believe that someone have broken your heart."

"Like what?" he asks again while a half smile starts to appear on his face.

"I don't know, that someone breaks it for real"

In that moment, a waitress approaches our table and asks if we have already decided our order, but neither of us has touched the menu that is on the table that separates us, but he already knows what to ask for. Alex makes the order, the girl writes it in a small notebook and when she finishes, she turns around and starts walking towards the kitchen again.

I still feel as if a lot of stones had settled in my stomach but he doesn't look anything like that, on the contrary, his back is resting completely on the seat while he looks through the window. I follow his gaze until I find his car, it is badly parked, the front wheel is too close to the sidewalk lane and the rear wheel is too far away, but he doesn't seem to care or doesn't seem to notice.

"Maybe it does look like Billie, you know?" He looks at me again smiling, which makes me smile as well.

The burgers take a long time to arrive and Alex explains that it is because there are many people today, besides, to make such a burger, you have to take the time to do it, that's what he said. Meanwhile, he asks me about the trip Grandma gave me to New York, and suddenly and to my bad luck, he starts to be a little too interested in the subject.

"And how is it that your grandmother gave you a trip to you but to Rory nothing? If Luke would go to New York, at least, he would have to take me with him." He raises his eyebrows, while shaking his head in disapproval, making me laugh.

"Grandma can be very stubborn at times." I explain "so much that she may think that there are things that can be fixed with gifts like that."

"Are you telling me that New York didn't fix anything for you?" He asks joking.

"Almost, I wish that it did actually. I mean ..." I pause, trying to find what to say next. "Have you seen gossip girl?" My question is too serious, but not so much, because he throws his head back, closes his eyes and starts laughing, causing me to do the same. "I'm serious!" I exclaim in laughter.

"Sure, sure, sorry." He apologizes, trying to calm his laughter and make a serious face, I roll my eyes. "I have to confess, I have watched Gossip girl."

"Seriously, it seems too cheesy but when you're there, you think it wasn't as cheesy as you thought and maybe the movies were right. It has its magic, suddenly, the idea of returning home becomes too sad. " I start to wander and when I realize, I can't help feeling a little embarrassed, but when I look him in the eye again he is paying attention to what I say and once again, I fail. My face is totally red. "I don't know, it's different."

"Different in which way?"

"Different in a way that, the mornings are different, the sunsets and well, the nights are something else ..." My voice goes out when I see the waitress who ordered us to approach with a tray and two burgers whose size I am not sure I can finish.

Alex laughs at my surprised face when the waitress puts the hamburger on my plate, and when I raise my gaze to see him again, he raises his eyebrows, signaling that I must begin.

I drop my back in my seat, sliding a little down, letting out a big sigh. Alex looks at me with a radiant smile.

"That's it, I can't finish it." I confess, reaching out to reach the glass with coke on the table.

"You're weak." reproaches leaning his arms on the table.

"I'm a normal person with a normal stomach, I don't know what are you. But this isn't going to stay that way. I'm going to wrap it up and I'm going to take it home."

He laughs for the thousandth time at night and after seeing me squirm for a few seconds, he talks.

"So...?" I straighten up and get close to the table by leaning my arms on the table in the same way he did.

"Well, it's fair," I start "It has no lettuce, but it does have tomato, and bacon and lots of cheese. It's fair."

"Can it get in your burger top?" He asks, wrinkling his nose.

"Unlike you, I had not paid much attention to the burgers I have eaten throughout my life, but yes, it could be. And since I am not a critic of burgers and I settle for very little, I will give it a ten" I state and he raises his fist shaking it in victory.

"Well, then I guess you won't be up for an ice cream."

"No if I don't want to vomit when I arrive home, thank you anyway." I say nodding.

"Next time I guess." He lets out a big sigh.

"Next time, that sounds interesting."

"Have I passed the test?" He asks raising his eyebrows and I remember when I told him that if I had a good time, I wouldn't tell Rory that his best friend invited me out.

"Yes, I think. The burger actually did you the favor, and the music in your car maybe too. "

"So did I make up for you?" A half smile begins to dance on his lips as he gets a little closer to my face.

"You did, I hope you next party won't be as messy as the last one"

"I hope so too."

After paying I stay for a while talking with him at the table before we leave. Alex is much calmer when what comes out of his mouth is not just flattery, and although most of the time he doesn't say things that make me blush, he does it anyway, like when he looks at me paying close attention or laughs in a joke what I do. However, it seems that there is nothing that removes that arrogant smile from his face when my face turns completely red, it is part of him. I notice that he doesn't need to try to be charming at all, he just is like that, winking when he knows what I'm thinking, smiling sideways maybe too often. It is natural.

We left the place a while later, jumping around and talking about when he started working in the restaurant, he opens the passenger door and lets me in.

"Tell me something, what's up with the thing of holding the door for you, ladies?" He asks funny, but I wrinkle my nose.

"Well, do you do the same for your male friends?" I inquire

"Mmmm, no, I don't think so." He responds by frowning.

"You know, men usually excuse themselves saying that is just good manners, but they only do that with women. Start doing that with everyone and then I'll believe you it's good manners." Alex sighs, denying with his eyes closed. "But hey, I'll tell you a secret."

"What?" He asks curious.

"That's not the worst thing men do to women." I stare at him for a few seconds, he looks at me like I'm about to kill him, until I start laughing and his worried face disappear.

"Man, it's just so hard to be a man these days" He jokes and after I let out a laugh, he starts the car back home.

The car advances with low windows and the autumn wind crashes in my face as he keeps talking, he seems not to run out of conversation, which is good, because I almost always make a fool of myself trying to talk something new, but he notices that I'm lousy at talking first, so he does it. He tells me that he has a dog in his house, says that Luke did not approve when Alex talked about adopting one a couple of months ago, so he hid it from him for a while until one day he forgot, and when Luke visited him at his house, he got a big surprise.

"Where do you keep him when you throw parties?" I ask, remembering that when I went to his apartment I didn't see any black dogs.

"He has a little house in the patio of the bar, when there are parties the bar is closed and he stays there. He likes music anyway"

"I imagine." I respond laughing. I direct my eyes to his profile, his eyes are fixed to the front on the road and both arms are stretched towards the steering wheel. His jaw tenses when he realizes I'm watching him and looks at me amused.

"What are you seeing so much?" There he goes, that stupid smile again.

"Your bruises are almost healed" I explain

"Ah, yes, that. Sometimes I forget, but yes, it's almost as if nothing had happened to me. I wish I could say that the other guy got worse, but that night I was a little drunk."

"A little?" I ask laughing.

"A little too much." He affirms.

"At least you learned the lesson?"

"I would like to say yes, but you know, June. Sometimes, people get the worst of me." He jokes and I can't help feeling a little curious about the subject, so I allow myself to inquire a little more.

"He or she?" I let out. He looks at me smiling naughty, a sign that I have not offended him.

"So you've heard the gossip, huh?"

"Sure, it was impossible not to do it" I answer, but I wait with hopes that he will continue speaking.

"I guess she, but I told you, she's angry because I don't pay more attention to her. Besides, I don't want to get back into a fight like that. Luke always gets mad at me and ugh, your brother, don't get me started. This time they said it was the last one that they would stand me in that way. So, yes. As long as I don't get someone to offers me a place to crash when they hit me until almost unconsciousness, I won't be able to do it again." He takes a long breath after giving me another fleeting look and looking back at the road.

"Well, you know my adress already." I joke and he laughs shaking his head.

"Don't joke like that, I might take it seriously."

Alex parks in front of my house and the street is so desolate that it is almost scary. The sound of the engine stops, and suddenly, the tension could be cut with a knife. The silence feels too loud when I look into his eyes, his gaze seems anxious, as if, for the first time since I met him, he didn't know what to say. Alex doesn't look like the type of person who runs out of things to say, but at this moment, he does. He opnes his mouth, but then closes it.

"So..." I try to start talking, nos sure what to say next.

He clenches his lips and my heart skips a beat. It is too obvious that his gaze is on my lips and mine on his. I know that I could approach and kiss him myself, I know it would be very easy but the uncertainty and my insecurity are much stronger than my impulses. I close my fists on my lap and it almost feels as if my hands are burning, the tips of my fingers tickle. He approaches me and gives me the security of approaching me too, being almost at the edge of the seat, Alex returns to take a momentum, with his lips slightly open and I look forward to it, too much for my bad luck, because when I hear the sound of the safety belt lock he seems to lose all the security he had only two seconds ago. His gaze makes his way to my eyes again and he knows it, me too. We fucked it up. He fucked it up.

"It's Julia's birthday next friday, She told me she wants to see you there." He whispers slowly, as if nothing had happened just a second ago. I feel a horrible sensation in my stomach, as if the cravings had transformed into disappointment from one second to the next. I unbuckle my seat belt and nod, trying to smile.

I feel pathetic.

"I guess I'll see you there, then."

"I hope so." Answer, I look down and nod again.

"Goodnight, Alex. Thank you for everything." I finish and when I open the car door I hear him say goodbye too.

"Good night June..."

I walk to the porch feeling my heart beating in my mouth. I close the door behind me as I enter and let myself fall to the floor with my hand on my chest. Fuck it, he was a loser.

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Die Another Day - #24WeeksofBond

24 Weeks of Bond hits the low point this week with Pierce Brosnan’s swan song as 007 in “Die Another Day”.  Oh man, there is just so much to say and unpack about this movie, it’s hard to put into summary every which way this film fails to deliver.  This film came at a cross-roads for film goers who still loved Bond, but were starting to grow a little tired of the hokey-ness and sleaze of James Bond and were wanting something a little rougher.  “The Bourne Identity” had come out just a few months prior to high praise for it’s hard hitting, intense, stripped-down style...it was fresh.  A few months later “Die Another Day” comes out with an older Pierce Brosnan, some god awful writing and cartoonish cinematography.  Change needed to happen, and this movie would mark the end of the sex puns, over the top gadgets, and far fetched scenarios.

Listen, I LOVE Bond.  I really have a hard time saying a Bond movie is bad...but this movie. is. bad.  This is a tale of two films. The first half is an action packed drama that is gritty, and dark and the second half is like watching a Joel Schumacher Batman film (the one where Batman has nipples).  The plot is also a rip off of “Diamonds Are Forever” and constantly goes for the cheap pop - bringing out all the old gadgets and familiar looking scenes for the 40th anniversary of Bond.  There is just so much trash talk to shell out here, but let’s start with the good stuff.

Die Another Day actually starts out quite promising and delivers a thrilling pre-title sequence with Bond infiltrating a North Korean Army base where he has stolen the clothing of a man trading African Conflict Diamonds for some weapons with a Colonel of the North Korean military and his stooge Zao.  Bond is eventually found out but manages to escape the firing squad to chase down Colonel Moon on a HOVERCRAFT!  Pretty neat.  Colonel Moon eventually runs out of road and takes a fall appearing to be slain, but Bond is caught again by Moon’s dad and for the next 14 months, Bond will be held prisoner and tortured.

I always liked how they utilized the title sequence to take us through Bond’s captivity (even though we are forced to listen to Madonna’s over produced and just flat out weird song...what’s the deal with the random “Sigmund Freud” lyric?).  Though the song is hard on the ear drums, it does a great job in providing an aura of despair and pain in the torture aspect of the title sequence...maybe because the song is torture?

We come back from Madonna, and Jesus Bond is now being traded for Zao who has diamonds permanently implanted in his face from Bond’s intrusion.  This makes Bond angry and makes him question why MI6 would give Zao up.  M is also pissed about it, it appears that there is someone who is playing MI6 for fools.  M is so mad that she essentially burns Bond and relieves him of his 00 status, but this doesn’t stop Bond from forcing himself into cardiac arrest to escape and find out who is behind all of this.

See?  Starts out great!  If only they can keep this momentum going...(spoiler alert: they can’t)

Another positive about this movie is a great fencing scene with Bond and Gustav Graves (Toby Stephans).  I've just always been tickled by how much this scene escalates from a little game of fencing to an all out sword fight.  It is one of the few highlights of the film, complete with a cameo made by Madonna...something I’m sure she negotiated to sign on for the Bond theme.  Get that payday, Madonna!

Well thats about all the positive I can muster for this film.  It’s time to take the gloves off.  Die Another Day’s wheels start to come loose when Bond is in Cuba looking for Zao...during this time, he meets Jinx (Halle Berry), and the dialogue that will unfold, sounds like the writer brought in his perverted nephew, who is just out of high school, looking to write a scene to get his friends to laugh when they watch it in his parents basement.  Halle Berry is the victim of poor writing, and possibly poor directing, yes, but she also tries WAY too hard to be a cool, witty, and deadly agent.  I’ll give Berry the benefit of the doubt to an extent, but I really think she just over acted here.

On top of that - Brosnan and Berry have absolutely ZERO chemistry.  Brosnan is no spring chicken anymore, so we are supposed to believe a woman like Halle Berry would welcome the advances from a bird watcher in his mid-50′s who says Mojito really weird?  Come on.  And the obvious dick jokes and creepiness from Bond who is foaming at the mouth, desperate for sex after being tortured for over a year makes this scene so uncomfortable to watch.

But we later come to find out that Jinx is more than just a reincarnation of Honey Ryder from Dr. No...she is also a secret agent that seems to never take anything seriously and in the face of death by laser, still has time for jokes.  We find out Zao is trying to do gene-therapy treatment to change his identity to someone else.  Much like Colonel Moon had done, turning himself into the man we will come to know as Gustav Graves.  The adrenaline filled, publicity junky, billionaire with an eye for diamonds.

Speaking of over acting, Toby Stephans puts out a good effort with the Gustav Graves character but he is just so over the top with his “evil” looks that there is no denying that he is indeed the villain.  Some of the best villains in cinema and television are villains that get you to like them.  They play to your emotions, let you in on their dark secrets, give you a smile and a laugh, maybe even make you connect with them in a twisted way...but Graves lets you know by his nostril flares and angry glares, that you couldn’t possibly like him if you tried.

Graves invites Bond to his party in Iceland, (isn’t Greenland the icy one?). This is when the movie goes off the rails completely, the second half of the film that looks like the props, sets, and lighting design were borrowed from the Power Rangers.  This ridiculous ice palace accompanied by the super ridiculous revelation of the “Icarus” - a satellite made out of diamonds (exactly like Diamonds are Forever) is just so off-putting. The Icarus shoots a beam as powerful as the sun and can also be used as a freakin sun beam death laser from the sky.  Yes, you heard that right.  At one point Bond is involved in a chase where he is being tailed by a sun beam death laser from the sky.  This leads to the most cringe worthy scene in all of Bond...Bond escapes by CGI surfing.

I’ve said before, one of the aspects of the Bond films that makes the series so successful is the heavy emphasis on real stunts.  REAL STUNTS.  Director Lee Tamahori thought it would be fun to amp up the CGI because he thought that CGI was the future of the Bond franchise, oh was he sorely mistaken. He also thought it would be a good idea to insert a bunch of slow motion shots throughout the movie, they were going for the ‘Matrix effect’ but it did not play well.  It’s choppy and pixilated and just ruins any momentum they managed to build up - it just ends up being annoying. 

If that wasn’t bad enough, Q Branch comes out to “Jump the Shark” by delivering an invisible car.  Really?  This is just another example of the theme of this film taking everything one step too far.  But maybe you could argue that that is what we needed in order to know what our threshold as a Bond audience is.  You could say that maybe Die Another Day was the most important film in the canon for that reason.  Maybe Die Another Day was the sacrificial lamb to fall on it’s own sword to prevent us from going in that direction again, maybe...this movie SAVED THE BOND FRANCHISE??

Eh, Now I’m just devil’s advocating myself.  This is thee worst Bond movie of all time and anyone who says differently has no idea what they are talking about, or are just trying to be ‘Ironic’, or whatever.  This film ends with Gustav Graves becoming an electrifying super-shredder villain whose design was probably stolen from the Mega-Man video games.  The final battle taking place on a plane that is crashing due to a window being knocked out and is also being destroyed by the Sun Beam death laser from the sky.  In other words...more CGI.

And to top it all off, we end on another uncomfortable scene with Bond and Jinx again, spitting out blatant toilet humor dialogue making us think that they are getting busy, but it turns out Bond is just putting diamonds in her belly button (which she really wants to leave in for some reason).  Traditionally, a Bond movie would end with some witty pun being the last bit of dialogue you would hear before credits, but this...I still can’t figure out how this left the writer’s table. 

Bond: “I'm still not quite sure how good you are.”

Jinx: “I’m sooo good...”

Bond: “Especially when you’re bad.”

huh??  It’s not even a pun, it just doesn’t make sense.

Honestly, you can tell Brosnan is thinking “who the hell wrote this shit?” while he is delivering that final line.  sigh.  The good news is that we can only go up from here!  This would be Brosnan’s final performance as James Bond, even though he publicly announced he was going to do another one.  Didn’t quite work out that way, the film studio eventually phased him out, leaving Brosnan at curbside.  Probably for the best, Brosnan was great for that time, but the pressure was on for change.  And change we would get - with Daniel Craig.

That’s all for me tonight, let me know why you hated this movie!

Reviews from Friends:

Tyler Dahlgren

See I like Toby’s Graves. That guy plays despicable well (Black Sails anyone?). It’s the redeeming part of the movie for me. That and the car. I love the Aston Martins, let’s stick to those.

Andrew Albertsen

I think the whole movie should’ve just been about Bond’s incarceration and torture and eventual escape.

My Mom

Sam you don’t mention Rosemund Pike in your review. I thought she made an outstanding ice queen. This had its moments and I do love Pierce Brosnan as Bond but this film was way too long and too much continuous action. A person tunes out.

Jake Benrud

The end of an era. All the gadgets and the over the top villains complete with "diamond face" and a genetically modified psychopath with daddy issues. I don't understand why he needed to drive his car in the ice palace in the first place. Also, that was an epic dive by Halle Berry.

24 Weeks of Bond will return next Monday with - 

Quantum of Solace

[marypoppinswasmyfatherbitches]

Oh my goodness, I didnt see the link to your fanfic account! I am dumb. So ignore my previous ask and instead answer this one for the meme. 13, 3, 14, 1 and 2 for Happiness goes on? (I shall leave reviews on your beautiful fanfic soon I promise, they are good.)

(Hiii, sooo…this whole reply is late because I actually typed up ALL OF THIS last night, and then accidentally “x”-ed out of my browser and lost it all, because I am very very stupid. And then was too tired to retype it up before going to sleep. I hope I remember roughly everything, and apologies for that mistake.)

Oh! Haha! Alright then! Thank you! Don’t feel dumb at all for not realizing which AO3 account is mine or for your previous ask(which for others who are curious, said: “1 - 5 for all your fics! Just talk about your favs!”). I was prepared to choose 3 fics (including “Happiness Goes On” since that’s definitely the one I’m most proud of, so I guess that’s closest to a “favorite” right?), and go through the first 5 questions for each, though I won’t lie and say it wouldn’t have taken some time to answer.

BUUUT…since you said to scrap that first ask, I’ll answer these individual ones for “Happiness Goes On.” And your compliment and promise for a future review means SO goddamn much, thank you sincerely.

(WARNING / REMINDER: This is about my fic that deals with the subject of child molestation, and I do reference that a little bit in this reply. Don’t read further if it makes you uncomfortable, which I entirely understand and respect.)

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13: What music did you listen to, if any, to get in the mood for writing this story? Or if you didn’t listen to anything, what do you think readers should listen to to accompany us while reading?

HA! Well, American Pie obviously, for a majority of it. While brainstorming / writing / editing the epilogue? A lotta Billy Joel. ;)

The idea to use American Pie bounced into my brain when it came on the radio at the thrift shop where I volunteer, one of the rare times my own music speaker battery died. Usually a disaster, because our store radio is pretty crappy, but the sound quality wasn’t too bad that day, and I rediscovered how much I love that song and ‘Why isn’t this on my ipod again?’. Listening to the lyrics, I realized how much some of them fit the Guardians in general, and this story specifically, which I have Gamora mentally note in the fic. I was sitting and casually chatting with the manager while also thinking, ‘Google what year this came out when you get home, but I’m sure it’s the 70′s. Peter would know it, and it could be the Zune. I think it could work.’ I’m proud that I was able to reference the song so many times without actually naming it by title, but I assume most readers knew what it was, it’s just that famous. (I also couldn’t resist the light-hearted joke, later when things calmed down, of Gamora saying “This…is the longest song…I have ever heard.” and Peter smiling without even looking at her and giving a cheeky “I know.”)

In terms of using Billy Joel for the epilogue, I’m just a Billy Joel fanatic. The use of him for this story began just from the We Didn’t Start the Fire joke toward Rocket at the bar (I thought it was clever, Peter!), and later on I saw how The Longest Time fit romantically for Starmora, and some of the lyrics matched the healing themes of the overall story, and I thought ‘Maybe they’ve been playing BIlly Joel since that night; maybe that can be the joke.’ Why shouldn’t his Greatest Hits albums (at least) be on the Zune? I struggled a lot over what song should be the final one Gamora comments on before they switch artists to appease the group. I never specify which romantic Billy Joel song Peter and Gamora slow danced to during their “date night” in that six-week summary, but I like to imagine it was Just the Way You Are. I considered Keeping the Faith or Vienna for the final one, but I thought they deserved something more fun and naughty to analyze this time, so Only the Good Die Young it is. :D

In conclusion, I listened to The Longest Time, and the entire An Innocent Man studio album, a lot (as if I needed an excuse).3: What’s your favorite line of narration?

The portion in italics is my favorite line, but I’m including the entire sentence for context purposes: “She would need to grow used to him viewing Yondu as a caring parent who was extraordinarily protective of his boy, and would have hunted down this pervert to whistle a glowing arrow through her skull.”14: Is there anything you wanted readers to learn from reading this fic?

Ohh geez, wow, that one is tough. I don’t know if it’s accurate to say this story was intended to educate, but just to explore the idea with fictional characters. I have no expertise on the subject, and would never claim such, or talk down to those who do. I didn’t intend to create a PSA. I suppose all of the “lessons” for Peter (if they can be called that) I hope all readers already know and agree on (basically a collection of “it wasn’t your fault” and “this doesn’t define you” and “trauma isn’t a competition, someone else suffering worse doesn’t invalidate your experience” and “you should feel comfortable talking about anything without judgement or shame” etc.).

Slightly lesser scale messages, there’s also reminders about the importance of communication, trusting each other, letting the other person speak in an argument, not letting one’s jealousy/instincts/bad mood interfere with fairness, not running away from a fight or staying angry, respecting boundaries and privacy, all that healthy relationship jazz that these two are still figuring out. 1: What inspired you to write the fic this way?

This post is already very long, and I could probably talk for hours about the decision-making process for many scenes (of my GotG fics, this took the longest to write and publish, over 2 months), so I’ll try to condense this to a few bullet points that probably don’t fit the “inspired” criteria.

- It was originally going to be in two parts, 4 scenes each, when I thought the epilogue would be much shorter. But as the lil’ wrap-up got longer (because we needed a fluffy conclusion, dammit!), I decided to make it a separate “chapter.”

- I think the concept probably started as one of those strange, angsty “what if?” scenarios I make up in my head at night that I still can’t believe I created into a full-fledged work. I liked the idea of Peter and Gamora having this conversation and her comforting him, but I knew if I was really going to throw it out there for other fans, it had be more balanced with happier moments, too. I just know I was always going to make the offender a woman - both because it would lead to the misunderstanding that she was a past consensual hook-up when Peter was an adult to spark some irritation and jealousy in Gamora, and because it’s realistically different from other sexual assault stories, since women can be pedophiles and child predators too, and they’re just as horrible. :(

- The fanfic idea of “Gamora accidentally starts a fire while trying to cook, and Peter falsely accuses and lashes out at Rocket” was in my head before, but there were two key differences. 1) It was the entire plot, not a light-hearted subplot in the shadows of something bigger, 2) Meredith’s letter was either fully or partially burnt as a result of the fire. By the end Gamora was going to confess it was her fault, that she was trying to surprise Peter by cooking spaghetti, and he would apologize both to her and to Rocket for losing his temper and getting so angry. I hated that idea later and found it too sad (he’s already lost the Walkman and second cassette tape, why would I want him to lose even more from his mother?), and in “Spark My Memory” (the Christmas fic I wrote for “12 Days of Starmora”) the Guardians put his mother’s letter in the photo album gift for Peter, completely safe and unharmed. I like to keep all my fanfics canon-compliant and non-contradictory from each other, so the letter is fine, no burning it.

Yet “Gamora started a fire cooking” still seemed fun to me, as I like the idea that she’s so badass and skilled and intelligent, but failed at something so domestic and simple. Kinda cute. I was so excited to insert it into this, because I think it worked on multiple levels. It’s a driving force for the plot (the reason the team go to the restaurant and they stumble upon that particular waitress), the reason Gamora was already in a bad mood during her fight with Peter, it could be used as a metaphor/comparison for Peter’s anxiety and Gamora’s guilt, it was something for the Guardians to put at a higher priority to tease and mock Gamora for while oblivious to the main story, something for Peter to just break down into giggles over once they changed the subject (because he earned a good laugh after that heartbreaking and vulnerable childhood trauma story), an excuse to give Rocket so many funny lines, an overall silly and sitcommy-style subplot to fall back on, and a sweet “victory!” for Gamora to have (sort of?) conquered by the epilogue. ^_^2: What scene did you first put down?

This is easy. I’ve written all but one (8 out of 9) of my fanfics in order, except for “Just Like Everybody Else.” So ya, I wrote the opening scene first, Baby Groot’s magic trick lesson and Peter’s oh-so-cruel “can only be seen once” deception. I needed to ease readers (and myself) into the angst and heavy shit to follow, and that cute idea had also been in the back of my mind for a while. ^_^

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PHEW, OKAY, ALL RE-TYPED! Thank you again SO MUCH for the lovely ask and wonderful questions, your actual interest and curiosity thrilled me! You see I wasn’t kidding about the incessant babbling. :P

Thank you also for the kudos you left on AO3, and take care!~

[bts-is-my-life-as-always]

Jungkook scenario to fighting with you and breaking up.

(Credits to gif owners)

So this would mark the end of this mini series, hope you enjoyed, and request away, oh and I have a request brewing up, so hope you enjoy that too.

You always lacked that attention from jungkook, you missed him, when you missed him, it was bad, you would be gloomy constantly, all you wanted was to hug and kiss him.

You would call him, or at least try, he would never pick up and when you texted he replied simply with

“K” or “yh”

You had nothing against them but just when you missed him you wanted nothing but a simple.

“I love you” or “I miss you”

“Jungkook, are you coming home tonight?”

You texted hoping he’d come to your shared apartment at least today.

“No, I’ve got practice”

He replied simply, this had been going on for days, weeks and months, he seemed to slowly be drifting away.

“Okay, do you want me to bring anything for you?”

Still you were worried about him

“Actually, I’m starting to run out of clothes to wear in the dorm, Could you bring me some?”

You lit up, finally you could meet him,

“Sure” you typed away, and quickly got up to get dressed and pack more clothes for him, you made sure to put in a spare water bottle just in case, you packed a few instant ice packs, because you knew how sore he would be, you got up plugged in your earphones and walked all the way to his studio, jungkook loved dancing, and sometimes he liked being alone, so he had his own small private dance room.

You called him to ask him to come and open the door, he opened the door and looked so tired,

“Babe? Have you been getting any sleep? I’m worried” as soon as you got in, you closed the door, leaning against the wall, you pulled him towards you, your bodies touching, you reached your hand up to his face, and caressed his cheeks, he looked so fragile under your touch, you wrapped your arms around him and hugged him, he automatically leaned down and placed his head onto your shoulders,

“I missed your touch y/n” he said, you could feel him smiling, you removed him from your shoulders to look him in his eyes

“I missed you too, my little prince” you whispered, he leaned in and pecked your lips, you smiled against his lips, giggling at his actions.

The memories of how jungkook used to be around you, scared you, because he was no longer like that, he was so far from you, and he was so distant, he would usually avoid your touch, and he was better with strangers than with you.

You were tired, tired of being treated like you didn’t exist, he was on tour for 5 months so you missed every bit of him, you missed his good nights and his morning kisses, he entered the house, with no emotion, you hated it,

“Jungkook, I missed you” you wrapped your arms around him, unlike the last time, he pulled your arms off,

“Y/n I’m tired” you were already feeling like such a burden, but you loved him so much, you missed his affection just so much, that you could burst any moment.

He fell asleep so fast, maybe in the morning he’ll be less tired to talk, you woke up earlier than usual, you opened your eyes, and The sight of jungkook sleeping by your side, the sight of him, making you forget about last night and made your heart flatter, you snuggled up to him, not wanting to wake him up, the more you tried, the colder you felt, the more you waited for him, the more you felt lonely.

You got out of bed, and decided to do something today, you planned the day slightly, and when jungkook woke up, you told him what you wanted to do today, it was simple, you wanted to go on a walk with jungkook near the han river, it would be quiet today since it was during the work days, while you were aimlessly walking with jungkook, his hands in your hands, and him beside you, you ran into someone,

“We’re so sorry” apologises the strangers,

Before you could even respond jungkook was apologising to them for them bumping into you

“No it’s fine, she was in the way” you slightly smiled at them, signalling for them to just walk away, you walked home, fully upset.

You entered your apartment, the atmosphere was coated with a thick sense of hurt and pain.

“Jungkook, do I mean anything to you?”

“Y/n what are you on about, of course I do”

“It doesn’t seem like it, you don’t even tell me you love me anymore”

He looked at you confused, irritated even

“Y/n I don’t have time for this, I’d rather go practice than argue with you”

“So I mean nothing, I’m just a waste of your time”

“That’s not what I mean, why are you twisting things? You know what, I can’t right now, not now”

He walked out, you didn’t know what to do, your heart was in so much pain, and you felt so abandoned, but you needed answers and you wanted nothing more than just a bit more of his attention.

You ran out looking for him, not wanting to loose him, he was across the road, without even thinking, you called out for him

“Jungkook?!” A cross between a whisper and a scream, you didn’t look where you were going, you crossed without thinking, nothing came to your mind, but him, but you were sure there were no cars there, you turned your head as others gasped, the car was out of control, the last thing you remembered was a bright light, and an overwhelming, feeling of pain, but then, peace.

Jungkook was just as impatient and hot headed as you, when he heard you call his name it irritated him, he turned around to look at you cold, but when he saw you in the middle of the road, and then at the blink of his eyes, you were on the floor, covered in blood, his gaze went from irritated to worried out of his mind.

He didn’t care if anyone was staring, at this point that was the last thing that he cared about,

“Y/n?” He ran towards you, you grabbed your lying body, and cried,

“Please, y/n wake up, open your eyes, please” he whispered,

“I love you, I really do, I didn’t mean anything that I said, I’m sorry, please tell me your okay, please”

He begged and begged, but you were gone, you didn’t respond, you didn’t respond with your soft hugs, or your reply with

“I love you too, my prince”

The surgery took hours, naturally his fans were suspecting his relationship with you, but that was the last thing he cared about, he sat there by himself until his members came by

“Hey, jungkook, I’m sure she’ll be fine, god why are you crying so much?” Asked jimin not knowing what happened

“Hyung, I.... I hurt her, she’s like this because of me, I... it’s my fault”

“Jungkook don’t say that, what would y/n think if you say that, think about her, nothing else okay?” Yoongi said

“Yeah buddy, don’t worry she’ll be fine” reassured rapmon.

The surgery was a success and you were out, he held the handle of your door, and stayed there, what if you didn’t want to see him, what if you really did hate him, but tae being tae, pushed him into your room and closed the door.

All you could see was black, every inch of your body was in so much pain, the moment your eyes opened, there was an annoying blinding white light, right in front of your face

“Y/n? Your awake? Your okay, your fine”

“Oppa?” You looked around, missing his voice already

“Yes, I’m here, do you need something, if you do I’m right here”

“I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have tried to fight with you, and I’m sorry I worried you”

“Y/n, I should be the one apologising, I’m sorry, I’m so sorry, for making you so lonely, I won’t ever do it again, I love you”

You smiled, the one sentence that you wanted to hear desperately, he walked towards your hands and cupped them with his own. “Go back to sleep princess, I’ll be here when you wake up” slowly drifting back to sleep, you whispered

“I love you too my prince”

Sooo hope you liked this scenario series thing, request some of you want, if not I’ll try to come up with a new series that I can write, anyways I’ll soon release the requested reaction so stay tuned for that,

Byeee~~~

[pinksausageduo]

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR 1K+

IM SCREAMING WTF YOU GUYS ARE AMAZING genuinely can’t believe i have more than 1000 of you actually liking my blog to the point of following me??!!! I have really bad updates LIKE REALLY BAD like for 2 and half months i’ve been on tumblr i’ve probably only been posting for 1 month and a bit. AND THE FACT YOU STILL ALL LIKE MY WRITINGS AND FOLLOW ME IS CRAZY!! i seriously mean it when i absolutely adore each and everyone of you following my blog like i love you guys so so much. and please don’t be afraid to ever talk to me whether it’s on anon or message whether it’s about how annoying your life is, ranting, my writing, advice, questions, literally anything. i just love you guys sooooo much like wow i never even expected more than 100 followers like i’m mind blown.

so since it is a milestone and usually most blogs do something, i did prepare a present for my followers and another one for my mutuals because i love you all.

FOR MY FOLLOWERS: A NEW SERIES!!!!!

i know i have still my enemies to lovers series that i need to complete and i will do that but there will be a new series and YOU GUYS GET TO CHOOSE which one I write first either;

Heirs 

located in an expensive private school, wanna one is known as the Heirs. they’re all extremely rich, good looking, talented and basically the kings of the school. each guy will have a girl that catches their eye, those girls will be you! from the quick witted and sassy scholarship student to the extremely rich ice princess who no one wants to even approach to the shy sweet nobody, one member will fall for you. choose to find out!

so will you choose the heirs??

Bodyguards

wanna one is a team of bodyguards assigned to people who need protection. over the years each and every one of them finds themselves falling for someone on the job. but falling in love isn’t part of the job or is it? they’ll fall for you! from the president’s daughter to another intelligence agency’s spy to even a princess, one member will fall for you. choose to find out!

so will you choose the bodyguards??

HOW TO CHOOSE

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comment below

reblog with which one

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CHOOSING WILL CLOSE IN AROUND 2 WEEKS ON 11/11/17 

please vote!!! i’ll love you all forever if you do!!!! 

FOR MY MUTUALS/PEOPLE I ADMIRE & FOLLOW: FOLLOW FOREVER/RECS/DESCRIPTION

WANT TO GIVE OUT A HUGE SHOUTOUT TO MY MUTUALS AS WELL AND IT’LL BE KINDA A FOLLOW FOREVER/RECS (it’ll be long asf (like REALLY long) so i’ll put it under keep reading) this will be in all three person sorry :( 

EVERYONG: i love y'all sm we all so so crazy and we occasionally talk about writing but eh it’s really just a mess but making our gc was one of the best decisions i made on tumblr AND IM SO SORRY if i don’t have you down below but i’m giving you all my love and appreciation rn here!!! BUT JUST LOVE YOU ALL!!

FIRST OF ALL SHOUTOUT TO DIAMOND @woojiniee FOR ENCOURAGING ME TO START THIS BLOG I WOULDN’T BE HERE WITHOUT YOU. lol it’s weird how my blog started from helping you w your english homework on harry potter lmao. i genuinely love you so so much and i admire you, your works and your blog and just thank you for everything!

ALSO A HUGE SHOUTOUT TO JAS @perkwoojin!!!! MY ABSOLUTE LOVE AND MY BEST FRIEND!! jas you’ve been here for me whether it’s irl problems or tumblr problems and you’ve never judged me for anything i’ve done. you are so so so special to me and i just love you soooo much i genuinely can’t imagine not meeting you on tumblr. we hit it off right from the start and we’ve only gotten closer. while the time difference may be annoying we still talk often and just thank you so much for always being there for me, love you loads!!!

MY SENPAIS (the people who inspired me to write and start this blog, i would literally check your blog for updates everyday before starting this blog) :

@imagineproduce101 genuinely think carina is the queen of writing in the pd101/wanna one fandom, she’s blessed us with so many fics on such a regular basis i’ve never talked to you personally and you probs have no idea who i am but just want to say thank you so much for inspiring me to write, your fics always made me feel so soft and fluffy i wanted to make other people feel that way so thank you!!! 

fic recs: rivals (pleaseee do pt 2), what are you waiting for, let me love you, banana milk love, red bull, new beginnings, all of mafia aus, all of hp aus, all of vampire aus 

@woojiniee i’ve already mentioned diamond^ but gonna mention her again cause she is one of my senpais LITERALLY SOOOO GOOD WRITING LIKE WTH PLEASE LET ME LIVE she’s less busy now so IM WAITING FOR UPDATES GIRLL but seriously check out all of her fics will not be disappointed

fic recs: alpaca boy saves the day, crushing on you, jaehwan soulmate au, dating a park at a park

@wanna-request-one​ such great paragraph writings mine will never live up to theirs writing is so amazing just so great if you want detailed long writing the best blog to go to all of them are AMAZING WRITERS congrats on 1.8K!!

fic recs: seongwoo soulmate, seongwoo brother’s best friend, jaehwan college, I HATE YOU IM YOUNGMIN (literally so in love w this fic)

@wanna-one-scenarios amazing writer!!! so so so niceeee she’s starting college rn so v busy i miss youuu we never get to chat but its okayyy BUT LIKE SHIT WRITING IS SOOOO ON POINT LIKE WTH just go through her whole master list won’t regret it

fic recs: DANIEL PRINCE AU!!! (like if y’all haven’t read this missing out on sm), jongyun father au, sewoon enemies to lovers au

@wannaonestars love reading her writing such great bullet points and really good ideas ALSO SO JEALOUS that like short bullet points BUT CAN MAKE ME FEEL SO FLUFF like that is a skill ppl 

fic recs: all of boyfriend series (like so fluff) ESPECIALLY SEONGWOO’S, jihoon soulmate, minhyun office au

@jsioos (was heochannies) MEIKE IS SO PRETTY AND NICE AND AN AMAZING WRITER LIKE WHAT HOW CAN YOU BE SO BLESSED has such a diverse range of works from scenarios to mtls to reactions so genuinely impressed with her blog like goals

fic recs: all of boyfriend series FOR EVERY SINGLE GROUP like she’s amazing at those, and movie night with seongwoo

@ukulelewrites ALSO LONG ASS FICS AMAZING BLOG seriously such amazing writing love so many fics of hers DESERVES MORE ATTENTION AND FOLLOWERS and super sweet as well 

fic recs: cherry picker’s club, a fanta-sea, homerun and ephiany (it’s nct ten BUT SUCH AN AMAZING FIC NEED TO PUT IT ON HERE)

@kanggdaniell STEPH IS SO BEAUTIFUL AND SO NICE AND RLY BUSY AS WELL but amazing writer just love her writing so much she isn’t as active as before but still should definitely check out master list cause so many amazing scenarios

fic recs: TSUNDERE (FUCK FUCK READ IT RN BEST SERIES FOR ME ON TUMBLR WOOJIN STANS COLLECT YOUR BOI), always in my heart, all of breakup scenarios, all of bad boy scenarios

ANOTHER SPECIAL SHOUTOUT TO IRIS AKA @alliwannado-w1 LITERALLY RELATES W ALL MY WRITING PROBLEMS ON A PERSONAL LEVEL IS THE ABSOLUTE SWEETEST CARES SO MUCH ABOUT HER WORKS, BLOG AND FOLLOWERS I LOVE HER WRITING AND ADMIRE HOW DEDICATED SHE IS TO POST SO REGULARLY just i rly should stop writing in caps but like just genuinely she is the princess of writing in the pd101/wanna one fandom and she’s just so so amazing and all her writings are always so much fun to read like i love her so much but like no offence iris but you’re fucking crazy in the best way possible like to have so many wips like GIRL YOU NEED A BREAK 

fic recs: FUCKBOY SERIES (iris got all her fame from here lol jk), daniel werewolf au, jihoon soulmate au, jihoon vampire au, woojin youtuber au, woojin policeman au, jinyoung barista au, sewoon soulmate au, youngmin youtuber au gonna stop there cause i’ll be listing her whole master list soon ;)

AMAZING WRITERS (just to give heads up have liked these recommended fics on another private account so if you like look at the likes and i’m not there that’s the reason):

@daehwifi​​ GENUINELY LOVE THESE TWO SO SO MUCH AND THEY’RE BOTH RIDICULOUSLY TALENTED and hella sweet like cutest married couple ik TIFFY thank youuu for always making me smile and MAE for being the sweetest angel but YOUR WRITING IS ALSO HELLA GOOD like great bullet point fics and regular updates 

fic recs: bandaid guanlin scenario, movies ongniel scenario, skype calls jinyoung scenario 

@deepdickdaniel​​ ARIANE EVERYONG GC MOTHER (aurora’s dad now) and the ultimate HOE for daniel but got guys chasing after her constantly SMH and all our gc is beautiful because of your genes ANYWAYS you’re also a good ass writer and if anyone wants bomb ass daniel fics FOLLOW ARIANES BLOG YALL

fic recs: doormat, all her soulmate aus especially taste, hiking w daniel

@dong-hyucks​ oKAY so jade has only like one fic on wanna one BUT SHE’S SUPER TALENTED AND SHE DOES SO MANY GROUPS like mutlifandom ASF AND I LOVE HER ALOT 

fic recs: daniel soulmate au, na jaemin spy au, i’m with you taeyong

@donghyxns​​​ IF YALL WANT MXM SCENARIOS/CONTENT THIS SHIT IS RIGHT HERE also has a lot of wanna one scenarios but maddie is the biggest donghyun fan ik and super sweet even though we haven’t talked much!

fic recs: royalty au donghyun, actually all the royalty aus,  TIC TOK WOOJIN SOULMATE AU, youngmin as your boyfriend

@ennergetics​​ RAE my favourite drunk aunt ever like super funny and nice and talking about bts is always great with you RAE YOU ALSO LIKE AN AMAZING WRITER and make me feel all sorts of stuff when i read your works

edit: fuck me im so sorry rae lmao idk if it was the fact i wrote this at 3am or I'm terrible speller originally or it was auto correct IDEK BUT ILYSM DONT HATE MEEEEE

fic recs: bad first dates, prince aus, woojin college/barista au

@fromwannaone​​ ANNIE A COMPLETE UTTER SWEETHEART WITH WRITING SKILLS which put me to shame and fic ideas are always sooo good too just fuck meeeee i love youuu and your writing 

fic recs: ALL HER SCHOOL SERIES which is like all members basically sooo, on rainy days, sweet like candy

@hiyawoojin​​ RISSAAAA MY BABY MY PRECIOUSSSS I WANT TO PROTECT YOU AND HUG YOU AND LOVE YOU FOREVER but genuinely rissa is the sweetest person ik on tumblr and her sweetness is as equal to her writing BUT SINCE SHE’S A NEWBIE EVERYONE GIVE HER LOVE

fic recs: ALL OF THEM since there’s about 4 but i like the woojin and the minhyun in particular hehehe

@hwinkinghwi​​ XUAN WE BONDED INSTANTLY YOU ALWAYS MAKE ME SMILE AND LAUGH and we talk about the weirdest things but it’s still heaps of fun and xuan has short sweet bullet point fics which will warm your heart

fic series: both baejin fics: chicken first cuddles later, florist jinyoung, baker woojin, ___ as your boyfriend (all of them)

@jeonjeonggukks​​ I LOVE ALEX SM SERIOUSLY SO SO SO FUNNY LIKE WTH and sooooo easy to slander BUT SHE IS MY MOTHER (well one of them) AND I LOVE HER SO SO MUCH AND SHE’S ALSO AN AMAZING ASS WRITER so y’all should read her writings

fic recs: shipped jonghyun scenario, our necklaces sungwoon soulmate au, why her why him woojin

@jihoonslattee​​ AHHH WE JUST STARTED TALKING CHI BUT I ALREADY LOVE YOU AND JUST WOW YOUR WRITING IS INCREDIBLE WISH I COULD BE YOU AND HAS SOOOO MANY FICS DONE LIKE IM SO IMPRESSED wow i did that in all caps but like JIHOON STANS WHO WANT JIHOON FICS like chi’s blog like 100% recommend also does reactions SO CHECK HER OUT 

fic recs: jihoon prince au (this was sooo good), daniel CEO both parts, seongwoo boyfriend au, jihoon soulmate au

@mongniel​​ AURORA OUR SALTY ASS MOTHER/FATHER who leaves us regularly and is a daniel seongwoo stan (she says so at least) BUT LIKE GOTTA APPRECIATE HER ABILITY TO MAKE ME FEEL SO MUCH SHIT WITH HER ANGST also if y'all love angst daniel fics AURORA’S BLOG IS THE ONE FOR YOU

fic recs: BROKEN RECORD (heart BREAKING), no chance no way, in his dreams, no answer

@peachiejihoonie​​ SAYS IN DESCRIPTION SHE’S BAD AT WRITING BUT THAT’S RIDICULOUS her writing is sooooo good like not too many fics up BUT ALL OF THEM ARE AMAZING like what??

fic recs: demigod series, daniel fuckboy 

@perkwoojin​​ IVE ALREADY MENTIONED JAS CAUSE SHES MY ONE ETERNAL LOVE but genuinely wtf so talented I AM SHOOK she does EVERYTHING like gifs, reactions, scenarios AND SHE HAS TWO OTHER BLOGS for the boyz and stray kids fans CHECK THOSE BLOGS OUT TOO

fic recs: basically everything but in particular wanna one as prom dates, wanna one reacting to you how to solve a rubix cube, and all her series which include: boyfriend, fallen angel, AND check out woojin badboy pt 1 & 2 and now ive literally listed her whole master list whoopss

@playfuldisaster​​ CHRISTINE IS SUCH A SWEETHEART LIKE WOW genuinely like an angel AND I LOVE TALKING TO HER but she also has so many works up! WHICH NEED MORE ATTENTION cause they’re so good

fic recs: and i’m here seongwoo, attention baejin, my boy lollipop baejin, sorry kang daniel

@producedwannaone​​ SO UNDERRATED LIKE WHAT HOW EVERYONE WAKE UP also honey I NEED A MASTERLIST like need to stalk your blog easily yooo but seriously such a great writer and a sweetheart x 

fic recs: wanna one seeing their donsaeng in their t shirt, naps with guanlin

@starrywinters​​ SHEENA YOU HAVE SHARED MY PAIN OF HAVING SEONGWOO AS A BIAS WRECKER but like other than that you mean so so much to me you are positively brilliant in every single way AND DON’T TELL YOURSELF OTHERWISE seriously AND IT INCLUDES YOUR WRITING SKILLS 

fic recs: cute bandaids, minhyun college au, 7 minutes in heaven jihoon, hugs woojin, guanlin soulmate/vampire au

@wannabeone​​ just dammnnnn girl your writing is SO GOOD LIKE WHAT?? always makes me feel all nice inside just love reading your works fic recs: all of best friend lovers (like you will not be disappointed), kissing cuddling hugging wanna one

@wannamoon​​ JUJU IK YOU’RE ON HIATUS AND YOU HAVEN’T REPLIED TO MY MESSAGES CRI but i miss your baejin fangirl squealing and your posts which will be filled with sadness cause it’s you lmao BUT COME BACK SOON I MISS YOU AND I LOVE YOU but juju has such a good mix of fluff and angst fics and super unique and heart warming ideas

fic recs: crumble both parts guanlin, ALL HER LIFE AUS LIKE FUCK SUCH GOOD FLUFF, halcyon seongwoo, jihoon soulmate au

@wannaonescenarios​ SERIOUSLY SUCH GREAT SHORT FLUFF WRITINGS LIKE WHAT HOW I WISH and has a long ass masterlist WHICH IS AMAZING TO GO THROUGH just like go right now to her blog amazing writings IS AVAILABLE

fic recs: SOULMATE AU SERIES, dating series, college series (even tho it’s only youngmin), daniel cat cafe owner 

@wannasoftimagine​​ OMG SUCH AMAZING FICS BUT DOES ANYONE KNOW PHI WENT?? like she hasn’t updated in 2 weeks? or replied to messages? like does anyone know?? but if she’s on an hiatus without mentioning well idrk but phi’s works make me feel so so soft like super duper fluffy and always read them for a cheer up 

fic recs: ALL SOULMATE SERIES, classmate woojin, boyfriend woojin, and all of wanna one _____

@wannasseu​​ CYN CYN OMG I LOVE YOU SO MUCH PEOPLE CYN IS THE QUEEN OF ANGST if anyone says otherwise FITE ME drown in my tears whenever i read one of her angsts WHICH IS LIKE ALL THE TIME ugh cyn what are you doing to me BUT CONTRARY TO THE ANGSTY FICS SHE WRITES cyn is such a FLUFFY person 

fic recs: ALL HER EX BOYFRIEND SERIES especially seongwoo’s (i ranted to cyn for a straight hour about that fic lol), custard kisses, arranged marriage 

@wannatales​​ GREAT SHORT FLUFFS THAT YALL WANNA READ RECOMMENDING FOR STANS OF MAKNAE LINE since writings are only maknae line works always makes me feel all fluffy and gooey insideeee

fic recs: JACKET GUANLIN (fuck such a cute scenarios can’t deal), fool woojin, milk jihoon

@wannawrite​​ SO MANY FICS FOR SO MANY FANDOMS but like the wanna one master list IS HELLA LONG haven’t ever talked to admin N BUT I LOVE YOUUUUU LAETITA DATITA RISEEEE (is that how to spell it i can’t even remember) BUT ANYWAYS soooooo good fics like always love reading them just genuinely great writings 100% of the time

fic recs: FLOWER BOY SERIES LIKE YESSS, vamp series, i latte you very much minhyun, bffs to bf daniel, colourless soulmate au woojin, this isn’t part of the plot guanlin

@wanna-17​​ CATH OMG MY OLDER FUTURE TWIN IDEK i love you so so much and chatting you is always fun BUT you have so many mtls like wow I'm mind blown BUT YOUR FICS ARE ALSO SUPER GOOD 

fic recs: wanna one first meeting series, and any of the mtls you want to know about

@whatabrightplace​​ AHHH TINA PLEASE PLEASE WRITE FOR WANNA ONE YOUR WRITING IS ALREADY AMAZING AND DON’T BE SCARED JUST TAKE A LEAP OF FAITH wow I'm being rly dramatic but idc i want to see you produce wanna one writing content (did you see what i did there ;) ) ANYWAYS i also wanted to tell you i love youuuu

fic recs: HER RECENT DANIEL SCENARIO FUCK stars + you for our precious mother ariane and basically everything on her masterlist even tho it isn’t wanna one or pd101

@101scenes​​ JUST CUTE ASF SCENARIOS (at least the ones i’ve read) got me squealing and SOFT like such great writing 

fic recs: LATTE ART daniel scenario, guanlin soulmate au, ceo jihoon

TEXT BLOGS (not gonna do fic recommendations cause they’re texts and it’s harder to choose specific ones):

@laignlin​​ LILY I LOVE YOU AND I WANT TO TALK TO YOU MORE LIKE TIME DIFFERENCE AND SCHOOL SUCKS but our chats are always the best and it’s always hella nice talking to you BUT YOU’RE ALSO A GREAT WRITER AND AMAZING TEXT MAKER so i ended up putting you in text author lol also IM STILL YOUR PROM DATE but everyone just read through all of lily’s texts and scenarios cause they’re all on point asf

@pwjins​ I GENUINELY ADORE ALLISON BUT SHE HATES ME AND WE HAVE THIS BITCH FEUD THING GOING ON BUT WHATEVER I LOVE HER ALOT AND IK YOU GOING THROUGH A TOUGH TIME AND NEED A BREAK BUT LIKE I’M HERE FOR YOU TUMBLR HERE’S FOR YOU but i love allison’s texts they always make me smile and laugh and like my heart literally warms SHE ALSO WRITES occasionally so check those out and i don’t have any in particular but like the gc texts are always good and the CHANGING THE NAME LIKE LMAO that’s also amazing just check it all out BUT I LOVE YOU SO MUCH ALLISON 

@texts101 YOUR TEXTS ARE SOOOO GOOD JUST THANK YOU THANK YOU FOR MAKING THEM like they never disappoint I LOVE the best friend, boyfriend, gc and name switch texts the most BUT LITERALLY ALL OF YOUR TEXTS ARE AMAZING and ik you taking a hiatus now SO PLEASE TAKE A GOOD REST AND FOCUS ON SCHOOL and don’t stress at all cause all your followers will still be here and ready for your return

@w1talks ANGELA IK YOU DO SCENARIOS AND TEXTS but the scenario list was getting WAYYY TOO LONG to put you there anyways I LOVE YOUR TEXTS AND YOUR SCENARIOS your writing is amazing but your texts are also great LIKE MULTI TALENTED MUCH and I ABSOLUTELY ADORED wanna one finding you went on a date with jinyoung BUT I ALSO ABSOLUTELY ADORE YOUUU

INCORRECT QUOTES BLOGS (not gonna do fic recommendations cause they’re quotes and there are hundreds):

@incorrect-produce101-quotes​ SUPER DUPER FUNNY and like totally could imagine your quotes being said by the guys and love how there’s a lot of the pd101 guys as welll 

@incorrect-wanna-one-quotes​ you were one of the first blogs i followed and your quotes NEVER fail to make me at least smile like i have properly cracked up laughing on multiple occasions because of your quotes and i just feel like my day becomes a little brighter when i see you on my dash

TALENTED ASF GIF MAKERS:

@daewi​ just really nice and cute gifs which are soooo aesthetically pleasing together also all your reblogs are just great AND I ADORE YOUR HS YEARBOOK AWARD THEMES 

@defsouldanik​ LITERALLY IM IN SUCH AWE OF YOU LIKE THE GIFS YOU MAKE IS ALWAYS LIKE THE MOMENTS I WANT GIFFED?? and like all your got7 content makes me happy as well and just THE QUALITY IS SOOO GOOD AS WELL

@kimsjaehwan​ ONE OF MY ULT FAV GIF MAKERS always gifs are so nice and the gifs are always hella good quality just always makes me smile when i see them 

@kngniel​ YOU WANT BASICALLY PERFECT GIFS OF DANIEL HERE IS THE BLOG FOR YOU genuinely so many gifs you’ve made of him smiling and just MAKES ME FEEL SOFTTT 

@ongeuigeon​ SUCH AMAZING GIFS WTF like the gifs in a set always match perfectly with each other in every way AND I LOVE IT WHEN YOU ADD YOUR OWN LITTLE COMMENTS IN it always make the gif that much better 

@parkswoojin REALLY NICE GIFS and like you regularly make new ones so thank youuu for that and just really nice quality AND IN GENERAL A GREAT GIF BLOG TO FOLLOW

@park-woojin​ I LOVE YOU JUST FOR EXISTING AND MAKING WOOJIN GIFS LIKE all of your gifs are so nice and clean and great ass quality AND SINCE ITS WOOJIN i always smile my ass off whenever i see any of your gifs 

@rosybaejin AMAZING ASS GIFS LIKE WOWOOWOWOWOW mind fucking blown y'all AND also in general amazing blog to follow great baejin content

@sungwhoon really pretty high quality edits and gifs AND LIKE THE COLOURS ALWAYS LOOK AMAZING just so nice to look at your gifs

@woojinnies WHAT WOULD WE DO WITHOUT YOU IN THIS FANDOM genuinely believe you are a staple piece of creating gifs in this fandom YOUVE MADE SOOOO MANY AND THEY’RE ALL SOOO GOOD like you have A GIFT just thank youuuu for making your gifs 

OTHER GREAT BLOGS:

@boo-jinyoung​​​ summer you’re an amazing ass dancer like woah and totally a baejin stan even tho you deny it CONSTANTLY and you are a  complete sweetheart everyone follow for HELLA GOOD jinyoung and guanlin content 

@crystalkpop​ I LOVE YOUUU THANK YOU SO SO SO MUCH FOR BEING ONE OF MY BIGGEST SUPPORTERS AND LIKING/COMMENTING MY WORKS JUST I APPRECIATE YOU SO MUCH

@dearlydaehwi AMAZING DAEHWI CONTENT LIKE DAMN like i love seeing the smol soft bean and you DELIVER like all daehwi stand should follow you just daehwi overload in the absolute best way possible

@extraongdinary LITERALLY PROVIDES ALL THE SEONGWOO CONTENT I NEED and reblogs good ass content SO HAPPY ASF leah ily even tho we’ve never talked you just ultra great 

@fywannaone​ JUST THANK THE LORDS FOR YOU best updates such great pictures literally don’t need to follow any other blogs cause like SO FAST just constantly blessing me with wanna one content SO THANK YOU 

@ricepot-jisung​ I KNOW YOURE A WRITER BUT I HAVEN’T HAD TIME TO READ YOUR WORKS which i bet are amazing AND TBH JUST FOLLOWED YOU BECAUSE YOU REPOSTED GOOD ASS CONTENT AND SEEMED SUPER NICE AND PERSONAL POSTS WERE RELATABLE ASF (whoops wrote all that in caps) 

@soft-baejin BRI we’ve barely talked since i’m never on the gc but you’re super duper sweet and nice and also have a really nice blog and you reblog really good jinyoung content and great content in general 

@wooh00jin SUPER SWEET and adores woojin great ships and i bet you have so many flooding in when ships are open cause you put so much detail into them and GREAT WOOJIN CONTENT  

@asongofmagicandtime | @sewnho | @lai-panlin | thank you for always being nice to me on the gc and I'm sad its not as active as before but all three of you are SUCH SWEETHEARTS and have GREAT ASS CONTENT on your blogs

MY FAVOURITE MUTUALS/CLOSE FRIENDS (which have not been mentioned above or i just felt like putting you here lmao):

@danielsoftgf​ DIAN YOU WILL BE THE DEATH OF ME NO MORE SENDING GIFS OF KOOKIE TAE N WOOJIN LIKE YOU RLY WANNA KILL ME but you so so soft for daniel it’s sweet but also so easy to exploit hehehe but i can see seongwoo just around the corner ;) but genuinely love your blog it’s so so so nice and chatting with you is the best I LOVE YOUUUU

@hyuckland​ OKAY IK WE JUST STARTED TALKING TINA AND I HAVEN’T GOT THE CHANCE TO STALK YOUR BLOG YET so i can’t really properly comment on anything BUT ONE THING I CAN is that you’re an absolute sweetheart and you made me feel SO MUCH BETTER with your messages BUT IK WE’RE GONNA BECOME HELLA CLOSE 

@jaehwansspookywife LUCY LUCY LUCY you are the funniest person ever you are so nice and sweet and hilarious and conversations never get boring w you we don’t talk THAT often but when we do i always genuinely enjoy it love youuuuu ALSO OBSESSED W JAEHWAN DON’T LET HER i don’t think he’s cute FOOL YOU

@kpopsincejune07​ JEN I LOVE YOU you were one of my first fans and you’ve been a huge supporter ever since AND WE BECAME CLOSER and talk when our stupid time zones all us lol and please don’t stress about work and take care of yourself also thank you for always reposting great fics BUT IM WAITING ON YOURSSS PLEASE PLEASE POST YOUR FIC i am waiting till this day for it ily

@ongsecngwoo​ GINNY MY LOVEEEEE i always love talking with you our conversations are always good and hella fun even tho we end up replying hours/days after EH ITS TIMEZONES but also i love your blog it’s so pretty AND THE CONTENT YOU REBLOG just yes yes yes also DONT STRESS ABOUT SCHOOL TOO MUCH AND YOU BETTER TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF but also you haven’t replied to my messages in ages so i hope everything’s okay?? i just love you loads :)))

@parkkwoojin ace we don’t talk as much as before but I STILL CARE AND LOVE YOU SO SO MUCH you’re soon easy to slander but since i promised to be sweet i’m being sweet hehehe BUT GENUINELY YOU POST BOMB ASS GIFS AND ALWAYS IMPRESSED BY THEM and your gifs of woojin OOFT MY HEART DIESSSS just thank you for existing

@porkjeojang SUMMER OMG SUMMER YOU ARE SUCH A SOFT SWEETHEART WHICH I LOVE SO MUCH but you can also be one HELL OF A BITCH sometimes ya know?? also she says she’s loyal to jihoon but IVE SEEN HER EYEING DANIEL UP but she super multi talented making pixels, gifs, mood boards and writing scenarios LIKE TEACH ME YOUR SECRETS but i love you so much and without you my dashboard wouldn’t be complete

@spooky-jihoon NAIA IK WE AIN’T THAT CLOSE BUT YOU WERE ONE OF MY FIRST MUTUALS I TALKED TO sooo i put you here hope you don’t mind I MISS YOU A LOT you’re a literal angel AND PROBABLY THE MOST DEVOTED JIHOON FAN I KNOW like jihoon content right here ppl right here and ik you won’t see this after your hiatus BUT I LOVE YOUU 

@wannabl​ okay hana we haven’t talked in fucking ages cause i felt like you just didn’t really want to chat ya know? especially cause you’re so so busy w irl stuff but like i do really really miss you and i’ve actually sent a few anons saying that i do miss you and wanting to see how you’ll react never got a reply :( but genuinely in awe of how easily you make friends and that you have so many different types of works and i’m so glad you have so many people that recognise that like your anons (and i’m sorry if i was too overly jokingly bitchy) and everyone just go through her master list or just check out her blog cause genuinely such a funny person and has amazing content on there

@wanna-one MERVE you’re my sister/protecter from all things bad (like makeout scenes lmao) but even though you “hate” daniel you have your sweet ASF moments about him you basically confess you love everything about him AND SO MUCH DANIEL CONTENT ON YOUR BLUG BUT you’re always tired and stressed and i wish you were decently okay and happy but remember you’re so sweet ridiculously smart AND i still need to see a photo of you anyways i love you sooooo much and so does daniel ;)

@woojinstinygf OMG KITTY YOU ARE SUCH A SWEETHEART AND PROBABLY THE MOST DEVOTED WOOJIN FAN IK (sorry all those woojin stans out there but like kitty takes it to ANOTHER LEVEL) i always love chatting w you and you always make feel so soft and happy ANYONE WANTS WOOJIN CONTENT OR SWEET WORDS OR ANYTHING ABOUT WOOJIN OR STRAY KIDS LMAO FOLLOW N MESSAGE KITTY (not actually her irl name but she tells ppl to call her that soooo ya)

IM SORRY IF I MISSED YOU PLEASE PLEASE MESSAGE ME SO I CAN ADD YOU ONTO THE LIST 

I LOVE YOU ALL BUT AGAIN VOTE!!!! MAGU MAGUUUUUU!!!!

[cosmosogler]

hnnnnnnnnnnnghhhhhhhhhhhh

i woke up on time but i didn’t want to do anything so i ended up getting out of the shower late. and then eating breakfast late. i was hungry, and i knew i had to teach for four hours straight, so i made four waffles instead of two. and a pbj, and the rest of my lunch, in the last 5 minutes before i left instead of like 15.

i biked to campus pretty fast... i got to class 1 minute before it started. i did my lecture and stuff and tried to be a lot more active with the matter model. 

they asked another question that stumped me and i’m embarrassed because my notes were wrong too and i had to correct them when i figured it out. i’m embarrassed because it’s a basic physics newton’s laws sort of thing.

i was hung up on why the force on the sensor and the frictional force are always equal even when the block the sensor is attached to is accelerating. i looked up the horse and cart problem and understood it way better... two hours after the students had asked and the new section had started.

it really rustles my jimmies that i can’t make the three sections of exactly equal quality. i feel like i let my students down when i can’t very well explain a concept to them specifically, but i can to the next group!!!

suzanne mentioned today that she has a lot of trouble with basic stuff too, along with jennica, just because we haven’t taken the classes in forever. i did apologize to the students while trying to answer the question- i said i’d been working with energy for so long that forces didn’t really mean anything any more. we don’t even work with any numbers in class basically.

i was so exhausted afterward but i only had a five minute lunch break to shove the entire pbj in my mouth before i had to head over for my psychiatry appointment. i let the doctor prompt me on which information she wanted, but i did have a list of things to talk about in my life in chronological order to keep me on topic. i think it was a productive meeting since i kept it kind of, more organized than if i was just rambling about my childhood for an hour and a half, you know? 

she raised her eyebrows a couple times... especially at the stuff leading up to and just after my heart surgery. i don’t know if i’m too focused on the negatives or what but i really just remember having a pretty bad time social life wise. 

i know one family did come to visit me in the hospital- actually it was a student i didn’t spend a lot of time with. joey. he and his family came to bring me a card and hang out in the common area for a few minutes to see how i was doing. i was hooked up to my iv and i think i had just gotten the drainage tube out so i was on some strong painkillers. mom must have been talking to them. i fell asleep in the wheelchair.

it was too much i guess. the painkillers on top of the effort of keeping up with a conversation while my insides were still putting themselves back in place after getting a garden hose yanked out of my entire chest cavity.

i guess some people care more than they let on. and some people care less. he didn’t really do much to help me out with the bullying that doubled down after i got back. i still reflexively punch people that try to tickle or touch my nerve-damaged side. maybe his parents were more worried than he was. i dunno. it was 15 years ago.

now that i think about it... what the doctor said i should have had, at the hospital and going back to school afterward... i’m really upset. at the time i’d blinked and smiled and said “none of that ever occurred to me.” 

but now i’m really sad. knowing what i didn’t have that should have been provided, i guess. i told her the hospital really was very busy, and that my parents were basically always around so they must have thought i was covered. and i had no idea the school was supposed to, i guess, assign some kind of buddy to make sure i could get around okay? 

i’ve already talked about the wheelchair. 

near the end she said “it sounds like no one’s really been there to support you.” i said “yes.” and showed her my teeth. it wasn’t really a smile. i think she could tell though. wasn’t foolin no one.

she made sure my meds were refilled for the next month. i talked about my grandparents too. on glenn’s side. how nice they were to me. i can’t say how they treated everyone, or even glenn and my uncle don, but the people who attended grandma pearl’s funeral had only the most glowing, actually kind of really sincerely fond memories.

uncle don seems to have had a complicated relationship with his parents. but he loved them enough to take care of them for a very long time after they got old. glenn didn’t. i don’t think i should ask what happened. i know parenting is hard and there’s probably not a perfect way to do it. but there’s... functional ways to do it. and i hope that they were functional parents.

anyway i caught the bus back to the physics building and had sooo much trouble sitting down to actually study. i didn’t want to open anything or even get out my notebook to try some practice problems. i sent danielle at the drc a semi-long email about my academic progress, since i had that midterm on tuesday, and some concerns about the upcoming friday test.

after that i strongarmed jennica into getting dinner with me. we went to subway. she didn’t actually want anything but i figured some exercise might help her settle down, and also it gave suzanne a small break. entropy can get contagious and jennica had been stopping her to look at this or that dress for several minutes. and i appreciated the company. going to subway alone when i’m so exhausted is super awkward. at least with jennica there if i couldn’t make a decision quickly enough i could smile apologetically at the lady behind the counter and say “sorry, i’m hella tired.” and jennica would laugh and the moment would continue.

it ended up not helping jennica that much but it did help me to get some food. 

i think this was after i realized mom never put the 900 dollars back into my bank account. i talked seriously with jennica and taylor about some bank options and how to switch my direct deposit and stuff. they said it’s super easy. i asked one of them to go with me on saturday to make sure i get a good deal. taylor said that wouldn’t be a risk but jennica told me a couple things to watch out for and i think she also agreed to go with me but i’m not 100% sure on that.

anyway, after i ate i was in a much better mood. not a good mood, but a less bad one. i did finally get out my notebook and start... actually taking notes on the textbook. i didn’t get very far at all- i was interrupted- but i felt like it was working for me a little bit. i was trying to take the equations, and finding the main ideas for how we interpret those equations, and then writing that down in my own words. it’s been four hours and i still remember the difference between poisson’s equation and laplace’s equation- even though laplace is just a special case of poisson. i think, if i can identify the most important ideas behind the main equations given in the text, i can write that down and that will help me remember what the hell green’s theorem is or whatever next time it comes up on a test.

i also tried something new after i was interrupted. suzanne had gone to talk about the class with one of the undergrads in the same section and he allowed me to sit in on the session while we worked through practice problems covered in class. 

suzanne made it so much easier though.

the new thing i tried is that i tried to basically repeat what suzanne was saying but in my own words. and i asked questions about what each variable *was*. and if i felt i didn’t understand it well enough i said it again a different way. 

i couldn’t tell if it was slowing her and john down or not. i tried to pull back on the goofs at least. i also talked to john a little bit just trying to identify what it is about the professor’s lectures that has me so lost. and i figured it out!

he takes these practice problems from the book but then generalizes them to include all cases. this turns his math into monstrous entire-blackboard-spanning messes of variables and summations. and he skips important logic steps so it looks even more like a wall of chalk.

suzanne walked us through the simplest cases and then explained how some parts could be expanded to account for harder scenarios. i found that SUPER helpful because it let me point out myself where something could be made more complicated. 

i have a lot of trouble with lectures, but conversations are so much easier. i don’t necessarily remember exact words or phrases but the idea sticks with me a little better. maybe it’s an active listening thing? or a participation thing. i had a good time in discussion-based classes back at villanova too.

i like john though. i hope he likes me enough to let me intrude on his tutoring time again. i felt bad that i was explaining really basic concepts- not to him, but to myself. but he seemed to react as if i was kind of, splainin at him about how image charges worked. 

really it was because i had to remind myself a couple times that they are not actual charges that appear in a grounded plane as a response to a real charge. they are a math thing we use because it’s convenient.

hopefully that helps tomorrow on the test! i think the discussions are starting to help a little more... now that i’m getting less anxious about not getting stuff right away. i mean taylor and jennica give me Looks, sometimes, when i ask for a definition i should probably know by now. i get turned around by the notation kind of easily though, especially when i’m trying to identify the point where i stopped understanding the question. but if Looks are the worst they can do, well, i’ve had worse happen. in this department! with the e&m professor. 

in the conservatory, with a knife.

dated jokes are the best.

anyway i think that is also going to be my good thing about myself for today because i am already running kind of late since mom called and wanted to chat for 10 minutes while i was trying to write. i got my test tomorrow. so i will try to rest now.

[you-are-worth-the-wait]

hey Love.  sorry for not writing anything or anything sooner.  a part of me feels like if i want to wrtie something to you, i want to make it worth your while and my time.  reflecting now, i think maybe even whatever little something is better than nothing.  so yeah...it’s not like i was purposely ignoring you or anything like that.  Friday night i went to my uncle and auntie’s place, the people who just bought their vacation house here, and we ended up staying there till 2am.  my uncle made us drink so much beer.  he kept saying, “last one...last one”.  the one that i finally thought he meant it, he opened up another one.  that ended up being the last one but i was so tipsy/full/disgusted that when he did open that last bottle, i contemplated going to the bathroom and just throwing up just so i could feel better and keep drinking.  i didn’t and needless to say, when i woke up the next morning, i had a headache and was hung over.  rested and recovered on saturday at my brother’s place playing video games with him.  then went home to my house to pass out and sleep some more since i didn’t get much sleep on friday night.  then i ended up going there again last night/saturday night.  this time i nursed my beer so that there was no way they could say i had an empty bottle and would give me more.  stayed there till 1am, then went over to my brother’s again to play video games, slept, woke up and watched, played, eat, rest, and then finally went home to my family where we bought raising canes for them for dinner.  i usually want to get in some decent sit down time with my laptop to write to you, tell you what’s on my mind, and whatnot.  i’m starting to think that even little one liners or blurbs throughout the day on my phone is better than you seeing nothing and thinking what’s going on.  so i’m sorry for that and i will be better next time.  i did think about you all weekend and just played out scenarios as far as what we could be doing together.  

the reason/s.  okay.  i hope i’m not coming across as shallow, a dick, small minded, or whatnot.  there were two random things that didn’t really sit well with me.  first one is that she is currently hurt right now and is on disability.  she works as a CNA and she hurt herself and is supposed to be doing PT and exercises to help her heal so she can get healthy and go back to work.  she was supposed to be doing PT daily and was to be evaluated every week for a month.  apparently she wasn’t keeping up her exercises because she told me that sometimes she was “tired or lazy” so she skipped days which delayed her healing process.  when she was evaluated after the month, they told her that because she didn’t keep up with her exercises, she delayed her healing process and now she’s going to have to continue PT for another month in order to get better.  i didn’t know how to feel about that.  i understand the whole “being tired/lazy” and i know people tend to slack off from time to time.  but this has to do with her health, her well-being, ulitmately her job and livelihood, and i would think that you take something like this a little more seriously.  i tried to compare it to other things.  maybe someone who is on a diet, or someone who is on madatory life sustaining medications, someone who does a nightly ritual to clear up acne on thier face, just a bunch of random things were the outcome is dependent on the individual taking responsibility in doing something that no one can really monitor except themselves in order to achieve an outcome.  you cheat on your diet, okay, not so bad.  if it’s something where it’s lose weight or die, then it’s a little more serious.  mandatory daily meds or risk your health, that’s something you need to do or else you “die” or make your situation worse.  acne medication, not so bad if you miss a night or two.  her situation...being to that she needs to keep up PT daily in order to strengthen and heal in order to get better and to help her eventually return to work.  how does her excuse of “being tired and lazy” make me feel.  i don’t know.  i’d feel that for something like this, it seems kind of important.  it has to do with your health and well-being.  who knows what kind of damage she has and what delaying the healing/strengthening process will do.  a part of me feels like “being tired/lazy” can be excusable excuses for certain situations.  but for this one?  is that an excuse/point of view that i’d be able to respect and accept from a person?  is that an attitude/view that i’m willing to let slide and overlook in order to see what other values/views “trump” that?  i don’t know.  maybe i need to dig further and see why she is able to be so nonchalant about this.  but i have to admit that it does make me pause and wonder, “if this is her view and attitude towards doing something that she knows is for her own good, for her own health, in order to make her get better, and yet...she chooses to skip days or not do certain things because she’s tired or lazy, what other things in life will she have that kind of atttude towards?  is that something i’m willing to take a risk in wanting to find out?”.  i don’t know.  maybe i’m making a bigger deal out of this than i should be.  but it’s her health, her life, her body, it’s what she needs to do in order to get healthy in order to work, to go about with her livelihood, and to support her income and life.  am i okay with that?  a part of me isn’t.  i don’t know if that makes me a bad person or not, but it’s difficult for me to have to wrestle with accepting her view in regards to this situation.

the other thing is...she is kind of adamant in not wanting children.  i know with her age and stuff, she most likely can’t.  but then she was telling me that she may still be able to but that she is adamant in not wanting children.  i can understand and respect that.  she’s already had 4 children so whatever he view is on having another child, who am i to judge.  the thing is, that kind of decision i feel is something that i would want to talk about and discuss.  maybe i do want children and maybe i don’t.  but a part of me feels like this is something where you’d need to have a conversation about so both people are okay with the decision moving forward.  like i said, maybe i don’t want childern either.  but if i did, don’t i deserve the right and have a say in whether we should or should not have children instead of just being told, “i don’t want children therefore you can’t have children either.”  i think my “relationship” with her is too new to be able to dictate how we want to contorl the other person’s life.  me, personally, with the right person, and if they want to, i’d love to be able to have a child with them.  am i scared of the prospect, who isn’t.  but i’d like to think that i’d at least be given the chance, the choice, and some say in if i will have a child or not.  not simply be told, “i don’t want children so you/we can’t have children”.  if that’s how someone wants to run/dictate my life/future, i could just as well walk away from it.  

so that’s kind of where i’m at.  i don’t know if i’m being overly sensitive, overthinking this, being irrational, judgemental, narrow minded, selfish, stupid, or what.  but i kind of don’t like where my mind and heart goes when i try to rationalize and accept the situations that i’m being presented with here.  like i said, people do have flaws, shortcomings, irrationalities, and whatnots and i have mine too.  the thing is, can i learn to see past the ones i’m encountering right now in order to se if there is a future for the both of us.  if i can’t see past these things, then it’s my lost.  am i willing to lose her because of my foolishness right now?  i’ve seen myself having children with some girls and not seeing a future with children and i’ve been okay and accepting with that.  but other things did end up detering me from those relationships.  just as she can offer things that other relationships couldn’t, this is her views/attitudes that i have to learnt o deal with and accept if i want to have a future with her.  am i willing to look past these things, accept her and her views as my own also, and be able to have an honest and meaningful relationship?  at the moment, my heart and mind is saying no.  i’m not really even having that hard or difficult a battle in convincing myself one way or another.  i told you, a part of me feels that my heart and mind has accepted her for who she is, her views, her attitudes and outlook, and what she sees as a future that she wants to have.  i don’t see myself being on the same wavelength as her.  with the right person and the right amount of love, i still see the possibility of having a child and my life, my partner’s life, and that child’s life, still having a lot of meaning to me.  also, for the right person, if they feel that they can be happy without having a child, and they can show me that my life, along with theirs, would be “better” without a child, and i believed in my mind and heart that it’s the best decision for the both of us, then i can accept that future without a child.  but the situation that she put me in, to not have a say in my future, in our future, in that child’s future...it’s difficult for me to comprehend, accept, and deal with with where we are in the relationship.  i’d be willing to talk about it more with her if she’d be willing to be open to discussing it, but for the moment, i don’t think it’s something that’s up for discussion, and that kind of turns me off.  sooo...yeah...

a part of me does think about our future too.  we kind of have an idea of what we want in our lives.  the future that was talked about, i still want that with you, if you still want that with me.  i still am right there in giving you everything you want in your life.  that does also include you having a child and being a mother.  i’ve always had the idea of wanting a child and when i was accepting of the fact that maybe i’d never find the right person to share that dream with, i knew how to accept that i wouldn’t have that experience.  but when i talk to you, when  we talk about our future, when i see the look in your eyes of hope and happiness when we talk about a child.  when i see and hear the fear and anxiety start to creep up in your voice or body language...but when i tell you that that’s what i’m there for.  that when you start to doubt yourself or feel overwhelmed, when you think you may suffer from postpartum depression and think that having a child is prolly not what’s meant to be for you...i see how you believe in my words.  you find comfort in my assurance that we will get through it together, the trust you put in me in me being the person who has that child with you, and the fact that you yourself find the strength and resolve that that dream can be become a reality...the look of hope, love, and happines in your eyes and heart when we discuss the our future with that child and all the endless possiblities that child will have with us as their mother and father...it’s priceless...and i still see and want all of that with you...  

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Blog Post #3

During week three of class we covered both chapters 4 and 5, so buckle up, we have a lot to cover. Starting in chapter 4, I want to cover perception influencers. I thought that the most relatable influence on perception was the psychological factors. Health has a huge influence on my perceptions. I have depression, but on the daily it usually stays under control. When I am experiencing a depressive state or period, my perception of everything is extremely skewed. I feel as though I am the victim off all the bad things that could happen to me. Something as little as burnt toast is enough to take me over the edge. My perception of the burnt toast is that I can’t do anything right, i’m a failure and a loser. All of these thoughts are things I would never feel on a normal day, so when my depression flares up it is important for me to remember that the world is not after me, i’m just in a rough patch that will pass eventually.

I have a similar experience when it comes to my womanly biological cycle that I experience each month. Although it's always joked about in T.V. shows, my world is literally turned upside down when I am on my period. My perceptions are all out of whack. The smallest amount of constructive feedback can make me feel under attack. With my hormones out of control, my mind feels a similar way. The best way I feel to combat this shift in my perceptions for the week or so is to communicate to my loved ones what I am experiencing. This way, no one takes things personally and they can better understand why I may have some overreactions or flawed perceptions.

Another influence on perception that I have a vivid example for is cultural differences. I am so embarrassed to write this because I like to pride myself on being an open minded and cultured person. I’ve caught myself questioning why certain cultures/people don’t chose to wear deodorants while i’m teaching a yoga class that is in a room heated to 103 degrees. I want to just erase that last sentence, but I’m hoping you wont judge me because i’m supposed to be honest on here. I found myself momentary questioning and perceiving that person as someone who is uncleanly or doesn't care about their hygiene, when in reality that is not the truth. It is simply a cultural difference that isn’t right or wrong, it is just simply different. I now do a better job of keeping my perceptions in check when I experience similar things when teaching. Just because I do something a certain way doesn't make it right.

I loveeeeeddd the discussion about perception checking, and I think the group did a good job of explaining it with their skits. This is such a useful tool I could really benefit from in my personal life. I like to jump to the worse case scenario when problems arise. Instead of clarifying what the other person meant, I just go with what I thought it meant which is almost never true. This weekend, while at the bars, my friend Megan was ignoring my texts so that I could find her. I practiced perception checking by describing that she wasn’t responding to me when I finally saw her in person. Second, I asked if she was doing this because she was annoyed with me or because she was busy, following that I asked her to clarify. She told me she was simply catching up with an old friend she ran into and didn’t want to be rude by looking at her phone. By getting the clarification, I could stop the vicious cycle of overthinking and simply enjoy the rest of my evening.

I once had an ex boyfriend tell me I had zero emotional intelligence, in all honesty I think that says more about him than it does me. He was an asshole, hence the fact that we are no longer together. I know that doesn't have to do with class but since we covered that It just made me think about it. After multiple teacher trainings and plenty of courses in self development I like to think I am pretty aware of my emotions and i’ve grown to further understand them.. I’m still working on the whole managing them part thought. 

When looking at the four elements of emotions, one that I could use some major work on is the non-verbal reactions. If i’m feeling some type of way, you can usually tell just by the way I hold myself. I’ve never been good at “faking it till I make it” because if i'm frustrated with you, elated to see you, or crushing hard on you, you are going to know. When i’m happy you get a teethy smile from ear to ear or if i’m mad you get crossed arms and a power stance. I think because my non-verbal reactions are so prevalent, i’m better able to  read them in other people. I’m also really bad at emotional labor. In work settings when I get upset with a guest I need to step off the floor and completely recoup or even trade guests with another coworker. The worst is when people just don’t respect me, it makes it sooo hard for me to continue to be nice to them.  

I also gained a lot of insight through covering the guidelines for expressing emotion. I think everyone could greatly benefit from expanding their emotional vocabulary. I so often throw around the words anxious and depressed that they have lost their true weight with my family and friends. By incorporating a larger range of emotional words into my vocabulary, not only will I be better at expressing my true feelings, but those around me will know better how to support me.

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I used to be amazed at the number of tickets other students used to get when I went to college. Sometimes I'd walk by a car that had been there for at least a day, given the number of tickets that decorated the windshield. From what I gather, parking tickets are not moving violations, so therefore it's not the same as traffic tickets. (Which might explain why they cost so much less.) Is it because parking tickets aren't moving violations, they aren't covered by traffic safety laws and therefore aren't really covered in traffic school? Do parking tickets go on your driving record?""

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[chikfilalien]

BOOOooooooiii what a pain

Decided i wanted to vent tonight about some stuff. I didn’t want to type a fucking book so i decided to film myself talking everything out..i went on for a while and made the file too large so it was absolutely impossible to upload anywhere to get it back to here. 

So fuck it, ima type a book. There’s no real point to it though, i already vented and talked it out..i mean yeah it was to myself but still it was a release. I guess with me using this to write about certain things, i might as well keep it going and write the summary of what i wanted to talk about so it’s out there somehow.

Sooo where to begin..

The past month has just been really fucking rough..i’m beat. Mentally, physically, emotionally..i’m just so tired and the way this past month has went, i’ll be tired for much longer. At the beginning of March i hit a bad depression spell..bad. I did the usual; kept myself closed off, didn’t socialize much or feel all that great. What started it all though was i was actually neglecting the one person who was giving me any sort of joy at the time and that was my girlfriend. 

I was ignoring her calls. Getting upset easily and just bein grumpy all the time...she thought i didn’t want to be around her. I’ve tried explaining the way i get in those states but it’s hard to get used too. She got tired of feeling unwanted so she break up with me. I don’t blame her, i’d do the same. I felt like shit though..i had driven the one person, that cared for me so much, away..

So now i miss her. We still talk but it’s different..shorter conversations. I don’t like it. 

About 3 days later, my dad says it’s time for me to move out. He thinks I’ve been there long enough to where i should have enough to have my own place. He gave me the time of my next check (2 weeks) to find a place, a way too and from work (I don’t own my vehicle, i use his truck to get to work) and enough to like live on once i get all that. 

...Look dude, i don’t wanna live here. I don’t feel welcome in this house at this point. That’s why i shut myself off in my room all the time. I wake up, go to work, come home and stay up by myself till like 4 and then do it all over. Anytime he talks to me it’s to tell me I’ve done something wrong. So fuck yes, i want out. But goddamn do you know how paychecks work? 

I make money, yes. I have a decent job, sure. I still pay for my own stuff. Phone bill, my own food because i wont eat yall’s groceries out of courtesy, gas that i use. I smoke cigarettes and weed so that takes some but fuck. I just started this job. I aim to get a full time position soon but it takes time. I had a plan and he did what he always fucking does and he rushed me. Why is life so short in his eyes. why do i have to immediately fend for myself. 

Fuck it, anyways the 2 weeks go by and i have nothing to show for it. He’s pissed. We have a fight. He makes me want to hit him  one day but i know that fucker would kill me. It’s awkward now talking to him because he doesn’t want me to hate him..i don’t either. I miss me and him having fun. Now i’m like a burden in his eyes and he wan’t me gone so he can wipe his hands of it all. 

Around that time, his girlfriend who lives with us, allowed her brother to move in as well..okay this dude gives me a weird vibe. He’s nice i guess but he’s 40 somethin actin like a 16 year old. He brags about all the weed he smokes and is always up when i’m up. I don’t have my alone time anymore from like 12-4 HE”S ALWAYS AROUND. I can’t just go outside to smoke without him following me and talking my fucking head off. I don’t want to tell him to shut the fuck up because that wouldn’t be good...

But the one thing that i think has nailed the final nail in my coffin...is that i’m being sued for 2200 dollars for an accident I was in from December of 2015. I was working at Chic-Fil-A at the time and was leaving work. I drove a big truck and was turning right and i guess i turned wide and was in the other lane a little. Well this little car was comin up behind me kinda fast and tried to zip by me and we scraped each other. I got freaked out because i had never been in an accident like that before. I stopped and they were up ahead since they were going faster, they got into the turning lane, i followed them. Instead of them turning left like i thought they were going to do, they made a U turn and went up towards the Interstate.

...uhh i was like wtf i’m not following ya’ll down the interstate after we just ran into each other..they left so i fucking left. WHat else was i supposed to do? Well i get home, 15 minutes go by and a cop pulls up my driveway. Fuck my life. “That your truck?” Yes sir it is. “It was reported being in an accident today.” I explained the whole thing to him and he didn’t seem to care. He kinda just kept asking for my father like i was some little shit kid who didn’t know anything. I call my dad and he shows up pissed as fuck and talks to the officer. The cop leaves and my dad just starts yellin at me, but he never tells me anything the officer said. Couple days later he says they were calling him into court to discuss the situation. THAT”S ALL HE FUCKING TELLS ME!

He didn’t say I had to got to court, he didn’t say WHEN the court date was, he didn’t say shit to me. If they had asked me to come, i would have but the letter was to him and was asking for him by name. After that i never heard about it again. It just went away and since i had never dealt with something like this before i assumed he handled it. He didn’t

He wakes me up this Monday and throws a letter at my face saying that me and him are being sued for 2100 dollars of repairs and 140 bucks of court costs. I have to pay that. I accept that i have to pay that. I was the driver. I’m just pissed that it happened now of all time. When i asked him what i should do about it he said to get a second job. Good idea. I’m actually planning on doing this since i have no other choice. And the best thing of it all is, he asked me today if i had found a place to live yet. He still wants me out soon as well as paying these payments. So that’s that.

 That’s been my last month. So i’m currently looking for and apartment, a mode of transportation, a second job and 2200 dollars worth of savings. Not a bad checklist -_-

Sorry this was so long. I just needed to type that all out for myself. I’m gonna do this..I have too. Just send good vibes my way. I need it..i’m overwhelmed at the moment and just feel like i’m drowning. But there’s a saying i heard the other day that relates to this scenario. 

“Two little mice fell in a bucket of cream. The first mouse quickly gave up and drowned. The second mouse, wouldn't quit. He struggled so hard that eventually he churned that cream into butter and crawled out. Gentlemen, as of this moment, I am that second mouse.”   Frank Abagnale Sr