#I’ve been listening to a lot of chapell roan okay

[bagelsunshinecoffee]

I have had only one break up in my life and it was in high school and I got over it pretty quick, so I don’t actually speak from experience, but hearing news about PWHL Minnesota makes me feel like I’m seeing an ex’s Instagram story. I’m so sick of online love. My kink is karma but I want to cry. Watched stecklein, zumwinkle, Heise, boreen, Hensley, Rooney, and I’m probably leaving someone out playing in da beauty league and it was soooo great and it hurt so much. My ex is hanging out with all my besties and I don’t know which ones are toxic. If I didn’t love you it would be fine

[arachnidiots]

GET TO KNOW THE MUN.

what made you pick up the muse you have? i wanted to try tumblr rp again (i had once in the past but i never stuck with it) and a friend convinced me it wasn’t so scary so i got to thinking well… who can i write and who do i kind of want to write? in my former rpc community, marvel was NOT a hot place… garbage fire actually, and if you were writing a canon it was even more of a dumpster fire. that being said, i really wanted to try my hand at peter parker, and i’d already been writing a lot for him outside of rp for fun. i used to have a little fic type thing that was ic/first pov and it brought me a lot of joy. liam was a test, more than anything. i’m surprised that they’re still a muse i write. they were an oc i made with a friend for fun and i thought why not give it a go and the love has just been so overwhelming that i can’t imagine a blog without liam and peter. they’re a package deal

is there anything you don’t like to write? probably just smut? i don’t think anything else comes to mind

is there anything you really enjoy writing? chaotic and nonsensical threads will always be some of my favorite. often it’s something i can write a lot quicker but also makes me think and try new things. i love when a thread makes me learn. i love learning so also any threads that open my eyes to something or broaden my knowledge about a subject. crossovers are really good for this because i get to explore new shows/movies or revisit loved ones.

how do you come up with your headcanons? something probably happened to me in the moment or i stared at a pinterest board or i heard it in a song

do you write in silence or do you play music? it takes a very specific kind of music to make me write. i either have to be so disinterested and unfamiliar with it or extremely familiar, like know all the words and the pacing. this has led to some embarrassing top five end of year songs

do you plan your replies or wing them? mostly i just wing it but if i get an idea for a future piece of dialogue or concept i will write it down in my notes

do you enjoy shipping? yes, but i don’t think it’s a must or priority! i love it if it happens or if you have any interest in it, but i’m not really always thinking about it

what’s your alias/name? birdie! i’ve had some mutuals call me bird too. i think it’s funny when people use the phrase “a little birdie told me” and i love to see posts with it and laugh to myself about it.

favorite color? red, but i’m not sure what shade

favorite song? i don’t have one but anything by bleachers or florence + the machine i will always love. lately ive been enjoying my kink is karma by chapell roan

last movie you watched? transformers the last knight…

last show you watched? i’m currently making my way through st: enterprise, i’m on s3!

last song you listened to? isimo by bleachers

favorite food? bread. any bread, all bread

favorite season? i suppose spring can be nice but i grew up in a place without seasons so i guess i love the idea of spring

do you have a tumblr best friend? does it count if they’re a best friend i pulled into the tumblr rpc? or a best friend who happens to have a tumblr? no? okay well, i have love and stars in my eyes for every person i meet on here. i make best friends like a six year old during recess. you’re nice? you have a cool shirt? we’re best friends.

tagged by : i stole it from the dash! / tagging: you steal it from me!

[drowinginmyownabyss]

Intro Post 2.0!*

Hi! my name is Mars. i use they/she pronouns, but i prefer they/them. i identify with the terms lesbian and agender! in the past, i’ve vented a lot on here, and while that will most likely continue, i would love to use this account to more just interact with others and talk about the things that interest me! oh, and please message me, i might take a minute to respond, but i’d love to talk! also send asks. i love to reply to them.

Likes - winona ryder, percy jackson, the marauders era, music (especially vinyl), studio ghibli, writing, converse, doc martens, alice oseman books, caffiene, theater, band, anything slightly creepy, and like so many other things this list will grow

Dislikes - homophobia, transphobia, all types of hate, crowds, loud noises, and tumblr bots

Music Artists I <3 - taylor swift, the wombats, beach goons, david bowie, slade, mott the hoople, t. rex, queen, car seat headrest, deftones, dazey and the scouts, destroy boys, dexter and the moonrocks, GRLwood, grumpster, lovejoy, mccafferty, mommy long legs, olivia rodrigo, pinkshift, slutever, surf curse, the buttertones, the front bottoms, the killers, the oozes, vundabar, alex g, beabadoobee, boygenius, cigarettes after sex, clario, conan gray, frankie cosmo, girl in red, julien baker, lucy dacus, phoebe bridgers, mitski, rio romeo, sir chloe, tv girl, chapell roan and so many more

Shows and Movies I <3 - call me by your name, young royals, little women, ladybird, juno, scoot pilgrim, heathers, the breakfast club, girl interrupted, the incredibly true story of two girls in love, heartstopper, greys anatomy, south park, percy jackson, i am not okay with this and more (im so bad of thinking of things and then just adding them later)

Hobbies - reading, writing, listening to music, theater, marching band, and so much more (again)

*If you have followed me for a bit, you may have noticed that I havent been active in a while. I plan to be more active now, and I kind of just wanted to refresh and make myself a new intro post since my account used to be more depressing and thankfully i am doing a lot better now! its still not wonderful, but i am trying everyday!!

[onedayatatime-please]

Friday, Aug. 16th, 2024. 10:23.

Nothing much happened today. I spent the majority of the day crammed inside my families car with several bags on my lap as we drove up to meet my grandparents. My mom and my aunt were in the front seats and spent most of the time listening to a mix of hall and oats and chapell roan which was fun. I spent a lot of the time thinking.

I Wonder if i might as well just keep going with this thing with 🪶. We are technically poly, so I’m free to seek out other people if I want too. Although I know that if I find someone I really like then I would want to devote all my time to them. I’m not really poly, but I’m okay with him being poly and it’s very cute watching him get crushes on new people. That the thing though, I’m happy with him seeking out other people, but I just know that I’m not emotionally capable of being romantic with two people at once. Also considering I’m somewhere on the ace spectrum I really have no desire for random hookups. That being said I feel shitty about thinking about staying in a relationship with him until I find something better. But that isn’t even my motivation. Because I don’t actually think there’s anything better then him. We understand each other in a way I have never experienced with another person. It’s why I’ve been willing to wait and pull through while he’s been struggling because I don’t think I will ever find someone who makes me feel as understood or cared for. It probably sounds ridiculous considering I’m only twenty, but this isn’t some love struck over dramatic assumption. I don’t like being around people most of the time. I’m awkward, bad at conversation, bad at reading casual social cues, I hate crowds, and I have no idea how to flirt or how to recognize flirting. Even if someone is interested in me I have no idea and by the time I’ve been told they had a crush on me it’s months later and they moved on because I never reciprocated and they thought I didn’t like them. 🪶 had to chase me down and we went on multiple dates that I thought were just friendly hangouts and he had to tell me that we were dating. I had no idea. I was very pleasantly surprised because I thought he was cute and nice but apparently he had been aggressively flirting with me and it had just gone completely over my head. I am so fucking socially impotent. Im not charismatic, im only vaguely physically attractive, I’m sometimes funny, and putting myself into any situation where I would have to meet new people is exhausting and upsetting. Also, again, I’m really not that into sex so that limits my options of people who want to be with me.

🪶 just somehow GOT all of that. Like he actually thought it was cute. Instead of just dropping me the second I didn’t pick up on his cues, he stuck around because he was curious. And then he actually got to know me. And then suddenly we had been together for two years. Knowing each other and loving each other felt so easy. We only ever argued once and it never escalated to actual screaming. I can’t explain it but our minds just made more sense next to each other. I really think he’s my person and anyone that comes after him will be second best.

TLDR: I want to stay out of the hope that I can have that again. I know I should leave because it probably won’t happen.

Anyways I’m exhausted and I don’t actually want to get into all of this tonight.

All things considered, today was a good day. I’m in a beautiful place by the sea. I’m going to take a boat out to the ocean tomorrow. And I’m seeing a friend of mine on Sunday which I am excited about. And my aunt bought some pancake mix for breakfast.

Im not Dead yet, im going to do my best to keep it that way.