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damelucyjo · 1 year

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Okay. I think I’ve calmed down enough. I’ve done the ironing listening to Films To Be Buried with. I’m in a better mood. So let’s give this rewatch a go so I can pretend most of it never happened!

Episode 12 - So Long, Farewell

I will say, one thing I love (as a Brit that has to be involved in football in some way) is that this show got so many ‘real’ football people involved. It’s a shame it was all men though…

Ooo Rebecca, looking for as always 😏 that robe is a gorgeous colour

Is that headline indicating Bex kicked Rupert out?? Good on ya, girl! 💪🏼

Exactly. Shut up Thierry

‘Morning, Rebecca’ ‘Morning, Ted’ WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS TO US 😫😫

Heavily implying they slept together. Why else would they be so awkward around each other?? 🤔

The fake out was cruel, but the introduction of Beard is brilliant

And what the actual fuck are you wearing Brendan?! 😂 To be that comfortable around your boss 😂

Okay but now I really want to see what the night before was like. Also why are Beard & Jane at Rebecca’s? Why not go to Jane’s?? 🤔

Also was there really an emergency? Or does Beard know there could be something between Ted & Rebecca and needed them to spend real time outside of work together??? If so you’re a genius, my friend!

Yes, Rebecca. Don’t talk about it. That way it’s not happening 👍🏼

GET YOUR BARE ARSE OFF HER COUNTER!! 😂 it’s kinda like a car crash; you know you shouldn’t look but you can’t look away either 😂

Poor Mina 😂 Rebecca, I hope you pay her a ridiculous amount of money

‘Those ropes are not garbage. Some of it’s dirty on purpose’ they sure are an interesting couple 😂

God Hannah’s pretty. And Jason looks very cute 🥰

YYEEAAAHHHH!

I absolutely love how over the top all these boys are with things

He’s the assistant kit man 🥺 I actually love that. Not so much that this is the first times it’s mentioned though…

‘I was just the only one that was snoring’ 😜 Jamie putting extra money in the box, how far you’ve come 🥰

Okay the tears have started again. I’m gonna miss these boys so much!! 🥹🥹🥹

I wish they had shown Keeley scaring Roy. That’d’ve been hilarious

‘… stuff’ 😂😂😂

She shredded his passport 👀

‘I won’t take it out, but I’m happy to tell you you’re wrong’ love the confidence, Trent 👌🏼

It’s a real shame it’s taken until the last episode to see Keeley doing press for the club again 🙁 I’ve missed the scenes between these three

‘Juicer, the better. Safe save’ he’s such a gossip 😂

Exactly. Fuck Rupert. Why waste breath on him

She truly is living in denial! She’s finding it very hard and everyone knows 🥺 Poor Rebecca

WE’RE NEVER GOING TO GET TO SEE THEM ALL BEING SILLY TOGETHER AGAIN 😫

The shock on their faces! 😮

Final spit take & ‘fuck me’ call back 🫡

Nobody is handling them leaving well 🫠

This is incredibly cute though 🥹 their little smiles

ROY MOUTHING ALONG!! My heart 🥰🥰

Everyone in the stands joining in on the final goodbye 🥲 I’m fully crying

Oop a ‘perfect’ call… forward? Foreshadowing?? 🤔

So who told everyone ‘Now react as if we’ve just won the whole fucking thing’ 😂

‘Love those boots’ cause we need to stereotypically remind everyone Trent is gay 🫣

Just call back after call back in this episode 🫡

They’re friends now 🥹 my little heart

‘I really am exceptional’ yes you are, Deborah!

Rebecca, even your mum knows it’s more than a big deal to you that Ted is leaving. So much so that he’s equating it to him dying…

She just wants her daughter to be happy 🥲🥺 am I crying again? Have I even stopped??

See, I love their relationship now! Another thing we’ve not gotten to see much of 😢

Deborah & Mae bestie era WE NEVER GOT TO FUCKING SEE. I’m gonna flip a table 🫠

These three have been amazing to watch too. They so easily could have been throw away characters, but they’re not. They’re wonderful

But she ain’t your mother, boys 😂

Oh she did not like being called their grandmother 😂😂 Harriet, nicely done

So we’ve been cheated out of seeing Dame Harriet Walter skateboard. Rude.

The outrage!! 😂

He’s proud of him 🥹 here comes the tears again

Mentioning the video was a low blow, Jamie

‘If you go, I go’ 🥺🥹🫡

She truly thought about what they could do to get him to stay. Told him if he goes, she goes. That if she sells 49% of the club she could pay him a lot more, but nowhere near what he’s worth… fully outright asks him to please stay… and he gives her nothing. Certainly was a choice, Jason 🙄

Hannah is giving a masterclass in this scene, though

And he couldn’t even tell her she shouldn’t sell?? Wtf is up with that??

‘More like Drink, Sleep, Fuck’ 😂 I wanna watch that show!

Of course they beat the shit out of each other over Keeley. Good on you girl for sending them both packing!! 💪🏼 at least they know they’re idiots 😂

I actually love this scene between Nate & Ted. It felt like a great ending to their story. He’s getting to see Ted’s forgiveness first hand. Beautiful.

Oh, look! The rom-com couple 👀

A call back to the tickets under country women 🫡 My Wynonna Judd loving heart is soaring at this mention! A lovely nod to her for her contribution to Thundergong. Also this episode (if it hadn’t been pushed back 3 hours) would have been released on her birthday! 🥳

And I am happy to see whatshisface back too… genuinely can’t remember the characters name… JOHN! 🫣😂 also he’s not a Richmond fan. Why is he there??

Shut up, Jake

SHARON!!!!!!!!!!! 🥰

Yes, Ted, it doesn’t make sense. But we don’t question it!

‘You’re stuck with us, buddy’ but not really, cause you’re leaving. Arsehole.

‘Can I be a diamond dog’ 🥺 boys, he really needs help 🥺 and he’s actually asking for it for once 🥹 well done, Roy

I’d have liked just one scene of the guys in the changing rooms reaction to that lot barking 😂

You’re still you because you don’t need to change, Roy. You don’t need to be someone better. You just need to learn to speak up more. Talk about things with others. That’s it, babes!

Okay, now that shimmy was also kinda perfect 😂

Of course he got George to be his new coach.

Okay, question (if you read this); why now all the negative press against Rupert when it’s nearly the same as when he broke up with Rebecca?? Is the fact that the affair came out as sexual misconduct instead the only real difference? Why such a shock when he’s been in the press for the same thing before?? Another thing that doesn’t make sense to me 🤷🏻‍♀️

Tony showing wonderfully that being Rupert in public is him ‘playing a part’. God, I love this man

Good on you, Rebecca, for showing him he really doesn’t get to you anymore. I’m so proud of you!

And Ellie Taylor 🫡 I do not like Sassy, but you’re amazing, babes!

I completely missed Barbara holding up her hand for a high five and Rebecca just waving at her the first time I watched this!! 😂😂😂

She’s into violence, and I think that’s perfect. Barbara is possibly the only addition to this season that they got spot on. I love her!! How of that is down to Katy though, I don’t know…

😂 Mary’s reaction

Why bring up Zava again? This really wasn’t needed 🫢

‘Zorro’ was too easy 😂

As an ex Irish dancer of nearly 29 years I’m going to take that Michael Flatley mention purely for me. Sorry guys ✌🏼😜😂

Yes, this video made me as much of a mess as it made the 😫😫😫 oh, shirt indeed

SHUT UP, JAKE!

Another nice callback to Nate knowing what the notifications means 🫡

Nice goal, Chip 😉😂

‘Shut your butts and sit your mouths down’ made me chuckle both times I’ve seen this now 😂

Another tear inducing speech 🥲 I’m gonna miss you too, Ted

I know it’s to make a point, but how did he forget the sign wasn’t there?? You just had a conversation about it, man. Are you really that for gone?? 🫣

It had to be either Sam or Jamie to start off the Believe sign pieces 🫡

And they were all in the most perfect of places! Behind Sam’s inspiration, in Jamie’s book, Issac’s armband, Colin’s shinguard 🥹🥹

Another sweet moment between Nate & Ted

So is number 4 that their belief can be broken, but together they can put it back together again?? If so it’s brilliant! (I can’t remember what 1, 2 & 3 were 😂)

‘I know folks like to say ‘There’s no place like home.’ That’s true. Man, there ain’t a whole lot of places like AFC Richmond either’ SO DON’T LEAVE THEN, TED!! 🫠

Miss after Miss after miss 😂 this game would go fine in history if it were real! 😂

Sharon is me throughout this match 😂

Ooo Rupert is falling apart 🫢😏

Allowing Issac to take the penalty, showing they all know it’s just a game. Like Colin said ‘it’ll be fun’ 🥹

SHUT. UP. JAKE! 😂

He broke the fucking net!! 😂😂 nice one, Issac!!

Oh he’s really mad!! And Rebecca is confused… why is she paying him any attention, honestly!

Sharon really is me watching football 😂

Hitting John in the face - brilliant. But as I said before, since when has he been a Richmond fan?! Am I forgetting something?? 🤔

Fucking Barbara absolutely loving it 😂😂😂

Here he comes, Emperor Palpatine 🫣 and he is not happy!

Another callback!! Someone get this man some longer shorts! 😂

Dude… to fall apart like that in front of that many people 🫠

I’ve already written about this, but Rupert walking off the pitch breaks my heart. Tony made Rupert so human 😢

Ted just now knowing the offside rule enough to pick up on it when both Beard & Roy don’t?? YOU SHOULD NOT BE LEAVING, TED!! How many more times do I have to tell you?? 🙄

And an offside payout callback 🫡

Had to bring it full circle by asking Nate for his opinion and using his play 🫡

A hilarious call back for Jamie too!! 😂 bet Phil had fun with that

And the quiet mention of Barbecue Sauce 🥹🫡

Of course they won right at the last moment

Sharon! 😂 glad we got to see something more from Sarah! We’ve never seen Sharon this animated!!

And a jump into the arms! 🥲🫡 As a solid lover of the callbacks I’m incredibly great full for the amount we’ve had this episode

Have the fans storm the pitch but don’t use it as an excuse to get Rebecca down there? Huge wasted opportunity!!

Colin kissed his boyfriend!! 🥹🥰

And he did his celebration dance from the pilot 🥹🫡 we love to see it

Oh she’s so emotional 🥰

Had to pause of this Sun cover - Rupert’s out, Kakes is going on Lust Conquers All and Bex got a book deal 👍🏼 nice one, ladies!

Of course he had to grab a copy of the paper that had her photo on it 😏

Then we get a Zava returns, Shandy’s doing great, and a Marcus Rashford Beano 🥹 the work that goes into this show is incredible!

And a rule of 3 with the ussie kid! 🫡 but did he forget he’s met him before or??

‘Wicked’ ‘Kinky Boots’ 🥺 I’m gonna miss these

So was she not going to make a fuss if he hadn’t happened to have seen her?? And why have her turn around right as he notices her?? Why do they do these things?! 😫

She’s sticking around because you told her without words you don’t want her to go with you, mate. She didn’t want to talk about it before, but apparently neither did you!

Not the ‘club matriarch’ 🤢

Like… I really am confused. There’s so much Jason & Hannah put into their performances that speak volumes, and yet the words they speak contradict it all. What I get from this ‘thank you’ moment is that both of them have so much they want to say but won’t. Or can’t. Kills me

And those tears are purely Hannah. You can’t tell me otherwise 🥺

MAYBE I AM STILL ANGRY ABOUT THINGS! How can you have a woman in front of you, holding back tears as fiercely as she is, and not say anything. If you’re so confident you’re making the right decision why aren’t you trying to reassure her. Comfort her. I-

Good God Hannah is so pretty when she cries 🫠

He’s on the plane asking his best friend if it really was the best decision to leave. Showing he’s really not sure if he’s making the right choice. Beard got off the plane, Ted (award worthy performance I might add) and so could you.

A great fake out would have been if it seemed like he was leaving, but didn’t. Cut to him in the airport watching the plane take off. Or he arrives in Kansas but tells Henry he can’t stay. Yes, I’m bitter. Leave me alone.

How long was she in that airport for her to be completely fine now??

Baby Rebecca!!

And Boat Man! Who I will admit looks great in that pilot uniform 😏 Well done, Rebecca 😂

He gets her name but we don’t get his? Rude.

Omg she gifted them snow gloves! The Barbara effect!! 🥰

KBPR… Keeley Barbara Public Relations?? I like it!

Roy as the new manager, as he should 🫡

Aww, the little photo and sign from Phoebe 🥰

Sam on the Nigerian team is a little wtf. Did Edwin change his mind about Sam? Did the breakdown of the Super League make him wash his hands with football completely?? THESE ARE THE THINGS I NEED ANSWERS TO!! 👀

Aww, Jamie & his dad 🥰

Everyone at the Higgins’ for a BBQ 👀

Dutch man’s daughter and Phoebe playing together is cute, though

The boys having one share in the club 🥰

Mae having a whole stack 😂

Hey, it’s Shannon! Nice callback to have her be the one to show at Trent’s signing 🫡

‘The Richmond Way’ 🥰 ‘A very brief forward by Roy Kent’ 😂

AFC Richmond Woman’s Team 👀 This is the spin-off!! it’s not a want, it’s a need!!

And Sharon’s back at the club?? SINCE WHEN?! I just-

But Roy getting help from the Head of Mental Health & Emotional Well-Being. Well done, Roy. 🫡

I’m also incredibly happy Beard is still with the club, too 🥰

Nate on Roy’s shoulders 😂 made me chuckle

The fixed sign 🥹

COULD HAVE ENDED THE SHOW THERE!! Just saying

But no, had to show Beard marrying his abusive, pregnant girlfriend 🙄 I really hope for his sake they just didn’t show that she’s really calmed down and we just didn’t see it. LIKE SO MUCH ELSE! 🫢

WHY WASN’T TED AT HIS BEST FRIENDS WEDDING?!?! 📢📢📢

Everyone with their partners 🥹 or both partners in Dani’s case 😂

And how wonderful to see the couple who helped Beard on his crazy night out with their baby 🥰 I actually love that he apparently kept in touch with them 🥰

But Ted’s asleep on the plane… 👀 Ted doesn’t sleep on planes… was that montage all his dream?? SO MANY UNANSWERED FUCKING QUESTIONS!!!

Henry & Michelle didn’t go get him from the airport?? Thought his son was desperate to have his dad back??

So are they implying he’s back in his unhappy life he left?? Okay…

He basically became one of the biggest names within English Football for what he did, and now he’s just coaching his son’s soccer team?? Like…🤷🏻‍♀️ more questions for my list…

That did not seem like. Happy guy at the end… 🫤

Okay, apparently Dutch man is called Matthijs and his daughter is called Jelka. Good to know! Would have been nice if it wasn’t left to the credits to teach me that… 🫣

Woah. Okay. I honestly don’t know that I’ll ever be able to watch that episode again in it’s entirety. There were many things I loved about it, but also things that I didn’t. And whilst I felt the same about many other episodes, I did expect more for the season finale. Why did him leaving seem to everyone like they were never going to talk again?? Did they all agree to never stay in contact??

But I do know that it didn’t ruin the show as a whole for me 👍🏼 I’ll just stay living in my delusional TedBecca fantasy land they built for me 😉

#Ted Lasso #Ted Lasso Live Blogging

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dreamwritesimagines · 1 year

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It’s CMA-

(Btw I’m still working on the reread but life stuff came up but I have a partially finished note on like chapters 7-9(?) LOL but I’m going to keep going dw)

Is tugging war the way they used to say tug of war, or was that a personal linguistic choice? It’s an interesting detail I never thought to consider

(side note kind of random but I always forget that bridgerton is British for some reason and I forget to read the characters’ voices in my head with accents (I’m American) I’m trying to do it now and it’s so weird how it changes things for some reason lmao- maybe just the added effort?)

Lmao at least clover recognizes that she’s not jealous of Margery’s lifestyle even if she doesn’t realize that it’s because she’s in love with Ben lol. It’s the little wins😂😂

I wonder if clover will still be possessive even when they’re in a real relationship

Damn clover is going to get plastered. Ooh is this instead of the Danbury lunch thing? Lol I wonder if she’s gone to one of those yet

I like that even though he was in a conversation with Margery in the beginning of her drinking, he still kept an eye on her and kept track of everything. Even if she was behaving recklessly, she was still safe with him.

I wonder if she got into any trouble at the party lol. If she was a giggly drunk I could see her being super popular, much more than her with the ton and she’s being hostile.

Trauma dumping when your inhibitions are lowered- what a mood lmao

Why does Ben smoke? To relax? Because that would be an interesting parallel between clover and Ben- both using drugs to try to relax and lower their inhibitions.

SCREAMING he called her my love😭😍 omgggg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

They’re so cute!! And it’s so tragic and sad but I’m glad that she’s doing better and that she recognizes that, even if she doesn’t see it as progress.

Man her hangover is going to be brutal. Also I wonder if she’ll remember trauma dumping/what happened tonight… I’m so nervous for them but so, so excited too!!!!!!!

I know I always say this but it keeps being true- I LOVE this chapter so much!!!!!!!!!

Hi loveee!

Omg I AM ALREADY SO EXCITED?! 😍😍

It was actually a personal linguistic choice! ❤️ I try not to use like...completely same terms for some things when there's an alternative because I think it helps with the setting of an earlier era ❤️

Lolll the accents 😂

Oh yeah, she has no idea why she doesn't "admire the idea" of being a widow anymore 😂 So much denial 😂

I do feel like she would be possessive to some degree but not like...over the top? She would be quite confident if they were in an actual relationship 😈

She is getting so so druuunk😏

I love that you noticed that yes! ❤️ He was keeping an eye on her even when he was talking to other people, he wants her to be safe especially now that they're in a different part of town 🥰

She does look like a giggly drunk, doesn't she? 😁 I think she was very friendly with other people at the party after she got drunk😁

I think Benedict smokes to relax yes! Oooh I haven't thought about that parallel before but I totally see it! 😱❤️

He called her his love 😏😍 And Clover did not even notice that! 😂

I'm so excited for the next chapter as well! I hope you like it! ❤️

Awww thank you so much darling! 😍❤️❤️

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evanescentdawn · 2 years

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5, 15, 16, 19!

thanks, lovely. 🥰

5. what fic of your own won’t you read?

“won’t read” is a strong phrase. more like detest to read is more like it. I wouldn’t want to reread like that t7/sasusaku old naruto fic, because god, what was I doing there….lot of inexperienced there, and me just posting the fic into the wild with no real plot or direction and just. posting the next chp despite that NFKFKKFKFKF tho saying this, im getting the urge to reread it….

and I really don’t want to read my current long fic, because it’s so embarrassing and because every time I did read, it makes me wanna rewrite the thing. also there’s typos that make me go hhhhhh

I didn’t think I wanted to read my sasusaku fics I’ve been posting recently, but I’ve surprised myself! turns out I do want to read them. ah. that kaneki&kaneki fic and toukabday fic. I don’t want go back to them because I feel like there’s a lot of mistakes(?). no, mistakes isn’t the right word. but there’ll be a lot of want fo reread.

….okay, surprisingly there’s a lot of my fics that I wouldn’t want to generally reread again, ahaha. but also want to, just to see how I wrote them, y’know.

15. How do you think your writing as improved over time?

YES !!!! a partially improve I’ve definitely noticed is how I write dialogues!!! I was so hopeless at them, before, ahaha. still not the best but yoooo, I can write them AND love to write them. I’ve been tracking my writing closer, and do deff see improvements. but — also, it’s hard to see track the improvements because it’s….different across fandoms. what I might be struggling for particular fandoms and such, I might be excelling in other’s. because lmao, I deff to regress in writing sometimes when writing for some stuff which is funny.

that reminds me. a particular improvement that just came to mind. ACTION SCENES !!! lol, okay, I don’t even think you can call also this an action scene. but like it was action adjacent? anyways, I used to be so terrible at them. couldn’t even. but learned !!! like I just focus & cut on things. I don’t have to write things fully. it’s a big advice I’ve taken one and it’s been extremely helpful. AND YES… HAVE IMPROVED ON MY SMUT…. but that one is always depressing, lmao, because I keep forgetting variations of words I can use. but v good generally, compared to beginning, lmao.

cutting off here before I go into a big ramble, ahaha. but yes !!! I have improved in writing !!

16. Do you re-read old fics? Is there a time in your writing you won’t go back to?

YES I LOVE REREADING OLD FICS……! particularly, fics that have that Taste that is just for me. and just generally really love how I wrote it.

I don’t want to go back to the old naruto era, LMAO. like ffnet. but like, eh, some of the stuff WAS good there. but I like where I am rn, much better…..AH. NO. I know where I exactly I don’t want to go to. last year, March. god. my early orv era was so terrible. I don’t know what it was but I felt like I degressed SO much, there. I really didn’t like any of my orv wips, then. it was so….urgh…..

19. If you could write an ideal fic, what would it include?

I’m a cringe person so obvs….

MY IDEAL FIC IS THROWING DIMENSION TRAVEL+TIME TRAVEL AND THROWING ALL THE VARIATIONS OF THE CHARACTERS IN ONE ROOM AND FORCING THEM TO WATCH THEIR LIFE…

the drama, the general horrification of some how future would play out to them — and…jeez, I was gonna say something but lost that train of thought. and like, I want fights !!! I want complicated feelings !!! I want that distant feeling of being connected with that “future self” because it’s technically not you yet and hehe, the denial…..that you’ll Do that…..and OF COURSE, my ships. and how they’re not at all love yet, and is the weirdness of seeing yourself being so in love with a particular stranger OR EVEN BETTER YET ur enemy.

like god, I want to write it so badly. BUT NOT OF THAT SKILL LEVEL YET AND GOD JUST THE SHEERNESS IT WOULD REQUIRE. which ahaha….I don’t have at all rn……but someday…..! someday……!!! ITS THE DREAM

I know it’s possible because I have started some of my ideal fics that I would never think I would be able to before so HELL YEAH !!!! ITS OBTAINABLE….!!!

#ignore me; im rambling #writing ask meme #thanks kyler for sending in the q’s <3 #also not me noticing “detest to read” is technically a stronger phrase lmao #but in my mind it somehow works KFKFKFKFF

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snickiebear · 3 years

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hiya snickie!!! came here to SCREAM with u!!!!!! i so love the action in OL&W!!! thank u so much for the lovely update ❤️ im a little confused about where shika’s intense hate is coming from… obviously the war and all that but it’s not like he and his guild didn’t kill a whole bunch of others who fought too… i sorta feel he’s being irrational about Sakura but maybe when your shadows talk like his do, you’re bound to stray from logic somehow…

ANYWAYYYYY mysterious sakura is mysterious AND add in gaara to that mix — I LIVE FOR A JEALOUS SHIKA IN DENIAL! it’s sad doe that sakura had to fight temari and now our dear sand baby no longer has his sibs :( please dont make him resent sakura, he feels like a genuine friend to our fearsome pink tiger

UGH i have so many questions and i havent even checked out the index yet but i will soon! i just wanted to drop by first! 🥰 but if u would be so inclined to answer (unless it’s a spoiler):

1. will we know more about sakura’s relationship with itachi and shisui? in the first (?) chap, i think she said something like “i see itachi has found me” which definitely sounds like a hide-and-seek thing with them and i dont mind an itasaku angle to this ❤️❤️❤️

2. is there a chance for ino and sakura to be friends jn this AU? right now it seems like sakura only cares about shika and whatever it is going on in her head (but still about shika). it also feels like ino just wants to steer clear of sakura??? but maybe that would change after the latest chapter??????

3. will we ever know where shikaku disappeared to in the months before the war ended (also known as “the final battle feat. sakura’s badass drop from the sky”) i’m quite curious as to why shikaku seems so chill when sakura appeared in their guild… he obvs knows something i dont hmph

4. do u have an inspiration for their outfits? it’s not as easy for me to imagine the characters and setting in my head because i also was not exposed to a lot of fantasy literature/movies/etc.

UGH I SWEAR IM ENJOYING THIS TOO MUCH!!! remember when i told u i don’t really like fantasy AUs but then you go write this amazing piece and add in some mystery to the freaking truth about the war… HOW EVEN??? 😱 i love the mystery about everything in OL&W so even if i have all these questions here i am giggling to myself trying to think up different possibilities 😆

thank u so so so much! ur work keeps me on my toes, as always! can’t wait for the next chapter!!!!

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HEY BBY!!!!

you are 100% right to think that shika’s anger is like “dude eat a snickers”! he is being irrational, but he doesn’t see it that way. he blames the losing of the war on sakura, he’s putting a lot of anger towards her… and like you said, with the Shadows whispering in his ears, it is a bit hard to tell reality from thought. ;) plus, shikamaru is a very unreliable narrator.

YES JEALOUS SHIKA! I’m so glad you caught onto that! its the beginning of the “I hate her” and “don’t touch her” conflict. and i can’t wait to get into it moreee >:))

as for gaara! Don’t worry too much about our sand bby. he is very intimate with death (*cough cough*). plus, he and saku are longterm friends, it would take much more than sakura putting down his turncoat “sister” to sever that bond. they’ve known each other for years now ;)

AAAAAA 🐱 you’ll make me cry! thank you so much for coming over here and screaming at me!!!!! I LOVE IT!

1) kind of! the next chap we’ll be seeing shisui and itachi! Though, the amount of info we get on them and saku will depend on shika (but for you 🐱 i’ll see what i can do ;) )

also! ITAKSAU! i love that ship, its so fun to read and aaaaa but! im not gonna really dive deep into those two and i am always up for leaving things for interpretation. Plus, sakura’s lived since the Violent Era, so itasaku might have happened ;))

fun fact! in the very early stages of this (very first drafts) i had itasakushi a thing, and i quite liked it soo take that as you will ;))))

2. HOPEFULLY! ive been turning it over in my head so much lately and i’m hoping so! there are time skips after almost every chapter (until the end ones) so im hcing that later on (you’ll see) that they work together and come to stand on stable footing. also a thing to remember; ino and cho are not the same as shika, they don’t see sakura in the same light. also, they’re a lot mentally healthier LMAO

3. ah yes! he and his half of the army simply lost communication and probably had been bombarded and cornered by the enemy! ALSO I LOVE THAT NAME AHAHAHA! near the end shikaku comes clean about why saku was there. for the past eight years shikaku and yoshino have been trying to protect shikamaru (and themselves) from the growing “rebellion”, it got too much so sakura came in to clean up house. plus, saku and shikaku are friendly, saku and yoshino are def friends.

so, they know they can depend on sakura to take care of things, hence why they’re so relaxed about the murders LMAO

4. yes! and kinda! so if u check out the pinterest board and scroll through it all, near the “bottomish” you should be able to find some clothing/weapon references to give you an idea/vibe! in all honesty, i don’t have a clear cut image in my head either, so whatever comes to mind works great :)))

AAAAAA 🐱 ILYSM!!! I still cannot get over the fact that you took a chance on this, that means everything to me!!! and the fact that you’re really enjoying it???? take my heart! its yours! there are going to be even more mystery elements coming in the next chapter (this is where “plot” starts and im so HYPE)

If you ever have any questions (or theories after reading the index) please let me know! i’d love to hear and answer em!! And maybe push you in the right direct ;)))

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR READING!!!!!! :))))) ILY

#silly things from silly friends #my fav anon

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predictably: top 5 beyond evil scenes/moments. but also if you want to, i’m gonna be totally narcissistic and ask: top 5 rahul fics/moments from rahul fics 🥺 i have some others in my head but i’ll let you answer this ask first 😭 love youuuuuuu 🥰💙💛

hii rahul mio caro !!! great questions omg <3

top 5 beyond evil scenes (or at least those that come to mind skdsnj):

juwon-ah, ep 16 i mean. is anyone surprised look at my url LMAO i just. the way dongsik offers himself to juwon while simultaneously juwon lets himself be at the mercy of dongsik... it's SO fascinating their dynamic, they both want to give each other all they can possibly give and at the same time are telling the other: don't break yourself into pieces for me. and this scene is like The Culmination of all that. dongsik telling juwon to arrest him and then taking his hand, smiling at him with so much softness and juwon completely breaking down. changed my life forever no joke

I WILL- I WILL .............. GO TO HELL. ep 15. you and me and ellis have talked about this scene so much already but GOD it's the guilt that's swallowing juwon whole and the way all he wants to do is atone, for his own sins, FOR HIS FATHER'S SINS, and he's sinking to his knees in front of dongsik saying, promising he will go to hell and suffer immeasurable torture just so dongsik won't have to break anymore AND so he, juwon, can get what he thinks he deserves. MAN I WILL NEVER RECOVER FROM THIS. N E V E R .

the scene from ep 16 i giffed this morning (here) like it's SUCH a pivotal scene in my opinion. we see dongsik tell juwon straight out that he did nothing wrong and he's not at fault for the horrible acts his father committed. he doesn't have to sacrifice himself. for him. that's not what he's asking of him, actually he's not asking anything of him if not that he doesn't put himself in further danger. and i also think the way juwon is so quiet during most of the scene is so interesting and important. we've seen juwon say he's gonna break himself into pieces, go to hell, to atone. now he's being told he doesn't have to do that. he shouldn't do that. and all he says is: first, he won't apologize. secondly, "i'm sorry". we see how much dongsik's opinion and feelings matter to him and we see it in the rest of the episode too, in how they team up to bring down han ki hwan, how they're partners, they've been for a while but now they've elevated to another level. they're one. SORRY I HAVE A LOT OF FEELINGS SMKDSNDSK

the scene in ep 8 where jaeyi finds out about her mother. SO heartbreaking i was literally sobbing and choi sung eun did a FANTASTIC job. the denial, the realisation when she sees her mother's hairpin, the way she breaks down. my dear, lovely jaeyi :((((

the scene at the end of ep 7 where juwon and dongsik go to arrest jinmuk. JUWON'S ENTRANCE YOU ARE SO SEXY AND COOL I AM IN LOVE WITH YOU- and "are you here alone?" "of course not" and juwon TURNS AND SO DOES JINMUK AND WE SEE DONGSIK'S SHADOW I'M AAAAAAAA the cinematography ???? the pathos ????? LITERALLY UNPARALLELED. ep 7 is a masterpiece of his own.

honorable mentions:

in ep 8, the date (yes.) scene, "i'm curious because i don't understand." and the way dongsik ponders over that for a second and then explains. absolutely adore how much they try to understand each other throughout the series. also in ep 8, "i'm glad you're here" brb crying

just juwon's cool girl era. ep 10. he's sitting on a bench looking like he just got over a horrible break up and he now could conquer the world. sunglasses. long black coat. new haircut. "dongsik is gonna WISH he still had me."

the scene in ep 2 where dongsik helps a young disabled man who's lost in the rain, gives him his shoes, his umbrella, and juwon looks at him like he's never seen anything or anyone like him

i could go on and on and on ...... i tried to also choose scenes neither you nor ellis had chosen. for variety sdskdsn (except you know. those scenes.)

okay this is so long already sorry skdksmds

top 5 moments from your(rahul's) fics !!! <3

it's fresh in my mind because i read it recently, so i could just say all of inyeon and it'd be true BUT i particularly loved all the coming out scenes in the fic ANDDDD the scene where taek's dad shows jung hwan the piece of newspaper with his graduating class' pic. IT'S SOOOOO. it made me cry so much because it's him saying, you are part of the family. you have always been. always. 'The article is neatly cut out and tucked into the folder, the same importance given to it as every other snippet, as everything else that Taek has won.' and '“I watched you grow up into a good man, Jung Hwan-ah. You’re good to him, good for him. There’s nothing more a parent could ask for their child. Just take care of him well.”'

OF COURSE i have to mention paper planes. [every mention of the c-word- NO JK] the scene after they've confessed and they find the last paper plane chanon made for pom before everything went to shit ...... i LOVE LOVE LOVE the way you used paper planes in this fic, what they represent. fickle moments. and yet this one stood the test of time. and so did chanon and pom's relationship. AAAAAAA !!!!!! '"I know I promised no trajectory without you. So here’s something to remember me by until I come back, and I can hold your hand on our flight path." Chanon’s eyes flicker up to Pom’s. “Thanks for coming back, Non,” says Pom, sitting up with his disheveled hair and his perfect smile, blankets bunched up around his waist. [...] “Thanks for giving me a home to come back to,” replies Chanon, holding him tightly.'

also the scene in paper planes where pom goes to chanon's house when they're teens .... chanon's mum making chinese food for pom :'))))) also loved the little detail you added that chanon took extra chinese classes when he was younger!! it was soooo lovely <33

i ADOREEE life gets hard (but these days been meaning more) [side note i didn't remember why you titled it that skdsdns] and especially when achara comes into the scene AND the ending .... just the whole idea of the perspective of the trees, it's so lovely and original and THE EXECUTION ! spectacular trulyyyy 'The garden isn’t empty anymore, much less the house, both decorated and made lovely and into a home by two men who love each other and their daughter more than anything else in the world. Every week, their friends come over with their own warmth and plates and pots of food, setting everything up neatly on the table and laughing loudly and joking around as the day stretches into long night, as things are meant to be. This garden was meant to be loved, this house was meant to be lived in -- and now after such a long time, it finally is. Kao will keep planting more vegetables in this garden with care. Pete will remember to mow the grass every so often, keeping his husband company and buying him gardening supplies. Achara will drift back and forth on the swing, teasing her fathers. And the trees? The trees will keep watch for as long as they need to. Such is the way of life -- and they’ve never grown stronger.'

THE ENTIRETY OF SMALL THINGS ARE SPECTACULAR SIGHTS. absolutely adore the fact that every snippet is from one of the kids' pov ANDDD it's just so so sweet it makes me :')))) the way the kids are so happy for pom, the sappiness (affectionate) it's just everything one might need to heal from [gestures vaguely] tgg “No, I mean,” says Pang, fiddling with his shirt, “I think I speak for all of us when I say that we’re happy for you. P’Chanon is really nice, and he makes good cupcakes, and he sends you flowers.”

OKAY I'VE BEEN REREADING PARTS OF YOUR FICS FOR LIKE AN HOUR SKDSMDS :HELP: i fell into a hole sorry lmao but also honorable mentions (entire fics):

jeong (I DIDN'T KNOW WHICH MOMENT TO CHOOSE :YELLINGCAT:)

how do you love when you're frightened? [KANIMANO SUPREMACY ALWAAAAYYYYYS]

don't mind growing old with you by my side

my weary heart has come to rest in yours BUT ESPECIALLY: '“You,” says Chanon, very quietly. Pom whips to him, Chanon’s face wide open and vulnerable, almost like he’s caught in a breath. “I wished for you.”'

wherever you're going, i'm going (that way) [i mean. MOON RIVER AS THE TITLE.]

and he got fight stories to tell

my feet are drawn to you [WHEN WILL PERTH READ THIS !!!!!!]

this is so so long i apologize :sob: i've been at it for 3 years . anyway . i love you so so much rahul and love your writing and our conversations and. yeah. <3 :^)

#nico answers #SORRY FOR HOW LONG THIS GOT SKDKSKDLS #gaystcr #rahul tag

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