#I’m glad you guys are fine with my rambling lmao bc I love talking about it 🫶🏽🫶🏽🫶🏽

[dulcewrites]

oh my god fmo!aemond would be the type of person to have a madonna whore complex wouldn't he 😭 now im even more excited for the next part and to find out if the way in which he considered alys had changed (before daemyra entered the picture) when he fell in love with her or when she became pregnant. like i think he would still see reader and alys being stationed on two different levels except they Would have something in common now.... alys' side of things is sooo interesting to think about too (especially since we haven't officially met her yet and if it really turns out she had been planted by daemyra). unlike reader, she's allowed to cross that line of using her charms to get what she wants in a more direct way and probably does find some pleasure in it (or rather has come to) but surely not without it causing her some serious damage due to being a bastard servant and it maybe being her only her means to survive in the world. also it adds another layer to what you've said before about both her and reader fixating on each other and craving what the other has and all of it has me wanting to Scream because theyre all so fucked up and i love themmmm. PLEASE don't stop sharing fmo web weavings/meta posts, they absolutely bright up my day💌

It definitely would have been interesting to see if he changed with her apparently being pregnant. Would it have been “easier” because alys would not be around the reader is. Or bc he thinks the child was made out of love. Would his brain get fucked up again bc alys is now a mother, and he can’t wrap his head around a mother engaging in things they do. Like you said, would they be on the same level now as caregivers of his children… fulfilling a duty now.

I think it’s why hearing that news literally sends reader into labor. If she isn’t making her husband happy, if he isn’t having sex with her… and now he is having children with other women. In her mind, she’s thinking what even is my purpose here.

The differences similarities between reader and alys live rent free in my head too. I kind of see them as Alicent and Rhaenyra in the sense that it is possible for them to be victims and perpetrators in a patriarchal society… bc most women (myself included) are both at times.

Alys clearly is a victim in how she’s been treated as a bastard and then of course a woman. Sort of similar to Rhaenyra, I see her maybe making not great decisions as a mean to survival. It is not her (or Rhaenyra’s) job to uplift other women (though ryra obviously has more power to do that) especially when she is just trying to survive…. but in they also may feel the need to step on some toes to achieve semblances of power/freedom. She thinks of reader and sees someone who has live a very privileged life, especially compared to her, and she’s not wrong. But with that privilege comes a certain level of rigidness that alys probably wouldn’t like.

Just like reader can be a victim in her marriage, and basically being degraded by her mother growing up. Told that her wants and needs are secondary. She ~knows~ her role and place. But she can be a perpetrator with internalizing that and project that onto other women. She probably thought some very… not nice things when she found out the woman Aemond cheating with was an older bastard woman. Fmo is a story about cheating, and the targs being messy. But also reader reevaluating ideas of patriarchy (even if she doesn’t have that word in her head as a medieval woman).

Alys and reader are sort of everything each other want to be but also nothing they want to be… it’s interesting and fucked up

[shotorozu]

staying behind

(tiktok trend)

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character(s) : multiple characters

legend : [Y/N = your name, L/N = last name] gender neutral! quirk not mentioned here

note(s) : this was based off the tiktok trend where you stop walking to see if your friends or s/o notice. I THINK THIS WOULD BE SO FUNNY?? i’ll do this for the haikyuu characters too. also this is kinda short so im sorry—

(ALSO I KNOW WHAT BOBO MEANS LMAO)

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TODOROKI SHOUTO

immediately notices that you’re gone.

i mean, you’re usually the one that’s leading the conversation, he’s just listening to his s/o talk 🤠

you guys were walking to the hospital, to visit his mom :)) and you were just asking things about her— and if she would like some flowers

todoroki’s heart flutters, watching you talk about your concerns regarding his mother, and when he’s giving his reply to you, walking along the sidewalk as he spoke.

but then he noticed that he wasn’t holding your hand anymore, AND THAT YOU DISAPPEARED!!

he’s panicking, looking around— did you get kidnapped behind his back?? omg he’s in the process of beating himself up

and he just sees you standing steps away

so he just hurries back to you— panting as he takes you by your hand, and you’re just laughing at his reaction

“you scared me, love. i thought you got kidnapped.”

it’s such a stretch but he’s just so concerned

you chortle, and you just squeeze his hand “no shou, i was just messing with you. i’m sorry,”

he lets you off the hook, he’s just really glad that you’re not actually in danger.

looks behind his shoulder just to see if you’re still there from now on. he knows it’s a prank but he will NOT lose you

MIDORIYA IZUKU

NOTICES AFTER A LONG ASS TIME

he’s just rambling about something interesting that happened that day while you guys were heading to a café. he’s doing the daily midoriya word dump.

and you were just listening to his rambling, just like any other day

and you suddenly get this cruel idea to just suddenly stop walking?? to see if he notices, of course.

he’s already a few feet away from the café, and he notices that you haven’t spoken in a long time

so he turns around

and you’re gone!!

immediately panics, and retracts his steps. it takes awhile because man was rambling too much but he finally finds you!

his heart is thumping wildly against his chest, and he holds you against him “Y/N! you worried me back there, why did you stop?”

and you’re just losing it over his reaction (because he took so long to realize you’re gone LMAO)

and he’s just 😀❓❓ what

“sorry izuku, i was just trying to see if you’ll notice i’m gone.”

izuku laughs in relief, and holds you close to him like you’re his teddy bear

he’ll try to check on you more often. but don’t do this again! it’ll give him a heart attack i mean it, don’t do that again.

BAKUGOU KATSUKI

he’ll notice right away

he was currently bringing you to his parents house on a weekend (because his mom wouldn’t stop NAGGING him about it)

and you just suddenly got this big idea to just stop walking. just to see if katsuki would notice that you stopped walking

when you stop walking in place, he’ll notice seconds later— and he’ll just walk back to you like 🚶‍♂️

and katsuki will just stare at you like 🤨 why did you stop walking?? did you forget something??

you’re just like “i wanted to see if you’ll notice if i’m gone,” all sheepishly bc the prank didn’t work

and he’ll just scoff, slinging his arms around you as he kisses your temple “of course i’d notice. you’re dumb.”

okay but there’ll be that one time he doesn’t notice you’re not with him, and he’ll just freak the fuck out lol

KIRISHIMA EIJIROU

he’ll notice that you’re gone after a good minute

you guys will be walking to the amusement park, and kiri’s just so excited!

“i can’t wait, today’s going to be so good! i’ll make sure to take a lot of good pictures of you— wait.”

you’re not with him??

he’ll just swing his head around for you like a confused puppy, like “where did Y/N go??”

and he’ll notice you’re just standing there, and kiri will just BOLT towards you

“waah i’m sorry! did i leave you behind?” he asks concerned, linking your arms with his as you guys continue to walk

you laugh, patting his face with your hand “i’m sorry eijirou, i was just trying to see if you’ll notice.”

man is beating himself up at this point for not noticing

“i’ll make sure to notice from now on,” kirishima promises, and for the rest of the day— he’s just glancing back and forth to check if you’re still there.

SHINSOU HITOSHI

silent panic

acts like he’s fine when he realizes you’re gone, but on the inside.. it’s chaos

you were walking with him to class, briefly after you helped him practice with his capture rope

and he’s just talking about his capture rope and how it almost got damaged because he washed it the wrong way once.

then he notices that he hasn’t heard your footsteps in a while, nor has he heard you reply to him

and he looks behind him, and you’re gone??

and on the outside, he’s pretty chill, like “oh. they’re gone.” and hitoshi’s calm enough to assess the situation properly

but on the inside he’s like “HITOSHI!! YOU LOST YOUR S/O WTF.”

and when he sees you cackling from a far, he’s just :/ but he’s just so glad you’re not actually missing.

“well played, kitten.” he chuckles in amusement, “but don’t do that again.” he says sternly— enlacing your hands with his

KAMINARI DENKI

he notices a little too late lol

you were walking with denki, mina and kirishima to get lunch one day

and you just suddenly thought of this weird idea to prank him (courtesy to mina)

and you just see if he’ll notice you’re not with him. for no particular reason though

denki, mina and kirishima were lined up to get food, and denki was just like “hm.. i wonder what Y/N wants to eat today!”

and kirishima looks behind to ask you what you want to eat (for kaminari) and he notices that you’re literally not there

like.. gone. absent

kirishima’s now violently tapping on mina’s shoulder like “uh.. L/N’s gone. they’re missing.”

and mina’s like “OH NO.” which kinda caused some panic between the both of them. eventually, denki notices the tense expression that’s on both of their faces.

“what’s wrong??” he asks, absolutely clueless.

“L/N’s not here!”

“oh.”

realization hits him pretty hard

and denki immediately bolts out of the line, running around to find wherever you are.

fastforward to a few minutes later, he found you in an empty hallway, and he just starts apologizing.

“i’m sorry Y/N!” he whines, hugging you close to him, and you’re just like 🧍‍♀️

you can’t really be mad, bc you did this to yourself lol.

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[milkbread420]

Yooo that hc/drabble you just did for kuroo and Suna was sooooo good!! Do ya think you could maybe do that again but for iwa and kenma?? if it’s not a bother 😂

Pairings: Iwaizumi x f!reader, Kenma x f!reader

Prompt: The boys have a girl best friend who has feelings for them, but the boys like y/n ( “heather”)

Warnings: Swearing, angst??

a.n:  I made the girls nice bc I can’t imagine Iwa or Kenma putting up with a b word (I feel like they would just be like ‘k bye lmao’) & sorry this took so long I had a hard time w Kenma ;-; Next on the list are Oikawa and Sugawara !

I’m so glad you thought so!! I hope this is what you’re lookin for !

Iwaizumi

Iwa talks about you and doesn’t even realize he’s talking about you most of the time

But she doesn’t really say anything because he never looks as at peace as when he’s talking about you

His insecurities & self doubt go poof when you’re with him

You laugh along when he ‘bullies’ Oikawa, so it must be love

She knows she should hate you, but she can’t because you just make him so happy

Oikawa definitely knows about her crush and teases her relentlessly.

Sometimes he goes too far and she gets really pissed

Because it should be her, not you

Hanging out used to be just her, Oikawa, and Iwa

Now Iwa’s always asking “Can y/n come too?”

“She just can’t get enough of me,” -Oikawa 

He got beat up for that

Iwa leaves little notes in your locker, telling you how pretty you are or writes you little poems.

Mans is too scared to deliver them himself though, so he makes her do it.

He would make Oikawa do it, but the one time he did, the man memorized the entire poem Iwa wrote to you and would not stop reciting it for a week. 

So she’s stuck with the job

Unfortunately

She tries not to peek, but sometimes her curiosity gets the better of her.

Then she wishes she’d never looked.

If she were being honest though, if it couldn’t be her, she was glad it was you, though she’d never really admit it.

You actually get along really well with her.

She hates how easy you are to talk to.

Girl talk definitely happens when the boys aren’t around.

Oikawa knows this, and lets Iwa in on it too

Iwa asks her to see if you’re interested in anyone

That’s how they find out about your crush on Iwa

She had secretly hoped you liked Oikawa 

You like Iwa though (of course)

She calls him like right away to tell him because, as much as she wishes it were her, she’s really happy for you both. 

Iwa is so happy aww

Like happier than he is after scoring the last point in a game

The next day he tells you to meet him behind the gym before practice.

He confesses and both her and Oikawa catch you sucking faces 

She looks like she could scream and cry and smile all at once.

“You know, we could always go on double dates,”

“No, Oikawa”

“She wanted to know how to spike, so I had Oikawa set some balls to her, and she picked up on it pretty well,” Iwa said, leaning back into the office chair in his room with his hands resting on the back of his head, “Especially since she’s never done it before, she’s something else, I’ll tell you that,” he sighed. The girl sitting on the edge of his bed nodded, resting her chin in her palm as she listened to him talk about you, “Oikawa tried to buy her lunch today, just to tick me off,” he frowned, “That bastard,”

“Sounds about right,” she giggled, trying not to show just how bothered she was by the subject.

“I beat him to it though,” he said proudly, “She thanked me,” a blush spread across his cheeks as he recalled the memory of you.

“You sure talk a lot about her,” the girl teased, pretending the ache in her heart just wasn’t there. It was hard to listen to him talk about you. He looked so happy and content when he was rambling on about how pretty you were, or how nice you were. 

Iwa jumped out of his chair, “No I don’t!” he said loudly, “Do I?” she nodded, “Man, I just can’t get her off my mind,” he huffed in frustration, and she realized just what that meant, “Everything reminds me of her,” he was in love, “This is stupid,” he frowned. She chuckled, and he sunk back into the chair, “You don’t think she’s using me to get close to Oikawa do you?”

“I don’t think so,” she wanted to say yes, just so he’d get over you and she’d have him to herself, but seeing how happy you made him, she just couldn’t lie. She was willing to bet you liked him too.

A small sigh of relief escaped him, “Good,” he said, “I didn’t think so either, but I wanted a girl’s opinion, honestly,” 

“Well there you have it,” she smiled. 

He smiled too, but somehow she knew it wasn’t for her.

-

“So,” Oikawa grinned at the girl, “Just how obvious were you trying to make your crush on Iwa-chan?” she sighed and tried to ignore him, walking briskly through the school corridor in an attempt to get him to stop following her, “Hey now, don’t ignore me!” he whined. 

“I don’t want to talk about that, Oikawa,” she said, “It’s none of your business,” 

“Oh but it is!” the brunette persisted, “Iwa-chan’s business is my business,” he said with a signature fake smile, “Plus, one man’s trash is another man’s treasure, you get what I’m saying?” She stopped in the middle of the rather empty hall, “Ooh, too far?” 

“Asshole,” she said, continuing towards her next class.

“Look, my point was that he’s got the hots for y/n, I’m sure you’ve noticed,” The brunette said, “So don’t get in the way and make things all weird,” 

“Wasn’t planning on it,” she said cooly.

“Oikawa? Are you ditching?” Iwaiziumi’s irritated voice made them both snap their heads towards him.

“Iwa-chan! No, we just needed to have a talk is all,” he said, waving his hand dismissively, “I’ll be going now! See you guys after school right?” the girl nodded, still looking like she could punch the snarky brunette in the throat any second.

“Oh yeah,” Iwa said, “Since you’re both here, would it be fine if I asked y/n to come with us? She had plans with some friends, but they all crapped out on her last minute,” his fist balled at his side at the thought of you being ditched, “I thought we could cheer her up,” he finished. His friends looked at each other. Oikawa nodded first, then looked at the girl expectantly; she nodded too, “Cool,” he said, “Thanks,” and he walked into his classroom, not looking back at either of them.  “That’s gonna leave a mark,” Oikawa noted as he watched the girl collect the pieces of her heart, her eyes reflecting the hurt she felt somewhere deep down.

“Fuck off,” 

Her day passed especially slow knowing that as soon as the last bell rang, she’d have to face you. She hadn’t really met you yet, but it sure felt like she had by the way Iwa talked about you. She wondered if you would live up to his hype, then found herself thinking, of course you would. Hajime Iwaizumi was never one to exaggerate, so you must have truly been amazing.

She hoped to god she was wrong, she hoped to find a reason to hate your guts.

The usual trio, plus one, met in front of the gym after school. You were almost hiding behind Iwa, and the tall brunette chuckled, “She’s even shyer than I remembered!”

“Sorry,” you mumbled, bowing your head a bit, “It’s just, you’re all so cool, and it’s really nice that you let me join you today,”  Oh god, you were as amazing as he’d said. Not only were you kind, but you were every bit prettier than she’d even imagined. Iwaizumi looked over at you and grinned and it made her so jealous that you could completely steal his attention with the tiniest gesture if you so desired, because everything about you was so mesmerizing, she caught herself staring. 

“No need to thank us,” Iwaizumi smiled, pushing your shoulder playfully; you blushed and she looked at you as you looked up at her. 

“Hello y/n,” she said with a smile that she wished she was forcing, “It’s nice to meet you!” 

“It’s nice to meet you too!” you smiled back. She swore she could’ve been blinded by the radiance you emitted, it was truly no wonder he had feelings for you, in all honesty she thought it might be crazier if he didn’t. 

“Shall we be on our way ladies and Iwa-chan?” Oikawa grinned, wiggling his brows at you and Iwa, who gave him a well-deserved smack on the back of the head. You giggled, “Hey!” Oikawa complained, “Don’t laugh!”

“Don’t get smacked,” You teased with a sly shrug. 

Dear god you were perfect for him.

-

“Watcha’ got there, Hajime?” the girl asked as the boy pulled out a folded piece of notebook paper from his locker. His cheeks turned pink for just a second, covered quickly by a click of his tongue.

“It’s a letter for his girlfriend!” Oikawa teased, coming up behind them, “Right, Iwa-chan?” she grimaced at the word, her heart sinking into the pit of her stomach as she looked down at her feet.

“She’s not my girlfriend, Crappykawa!” he shouted, folding his arms over his chest in momentary annoyance. 

“Not yet,” the brunette teased, and if she were to be completely honest, she wasn’t sure which one of them he was trying to provoke, “That’s a love letter right?” Oikawa leaned in to look at the folded paper; Iwaizumi shoved him away, “Or is it another poem?” 

Iwaizumi’s head snapped up, “Shut up!” he grumbled, then turned to the girl, “Do you think you could drop it off in her locker later?” he asked her hesitantly. Oikawa chuckled to himeself, wondering how his best friend could be so casually cruel to the girl. 

“Sure!” she replied, her heart breaking to the gentle smile that spread across his lips.

“Thanks,” he muttered, handing her the paper; it was just a piece of paper wasn’t it? Then why did it feel like a weapon that could tear her apart on the inside with just a single curious glance? That lone piece of paper held the power to leave her heart in shambles. 

She nodded, “No problem!” 

How could she be so cruel to herself?

-

“So,” she started hesitantly, tilting her head towards you. In the past weeks, you’d actually grown rather close, and as much as it pained her to admit, she’d grown quite fond of you, “I’m glad you came over tonight, I know you’ve been busy with school work and your club stuff,” she said.

You smiled at her, “I know you’ve been pretty busty too, so thank you for having me!”  giving her a small wave, you opened her front door 

She nodded with a clenched her jaw, bracing herself for the words that were about to come out of her mouth, “Hey,” Iwaizumi had asked her to find out who you liked, he even made a stupid bet with Oikawa about it. He was so sure that you liked him, he swore that there was no way all those stolen glances didn’t mean anything. When he talked about it, it made her wonder why he was so blind to her feelings. 

“Yeah?” you asked, unaware of the flashing bitterness in her eyes.

She swallowed hard, “You have feelings for Hajime, right?”

You blushed and looked down, “Wow, is it that obvious?” she nodded, “Yeah,” you said, “I guess it is,” a soft smile played at your lips, “You think he likes me too?” She froze. Even though she should have seen it coming, she couldn’t help but feel unprepared to answer that question.

For more reasons than one. 

She didn’t want to steal her best friend’s big moment, he really should be the one to tell you, but it would crush you if she told you he didn’t or that she didn’t know; and that was her problem. She wanted to want to crush you, to completely leave you devastated and heartbroken so that you’d break his heart too and he’d go to her and realize that it had always been her, but she couldn’t find it in herself. Even if she could, it would never be her, always you.

You were good for him. He was more confident when you were around. When you showed up to his games, he always played better. He was happier too, smiling a lot more, especially when you laughed at his jokes and antics. 

She settled on, “Well he talks about you a lot,” with a small smile that she almost couldn’t force onto her face. 

You smiled and blushed, trying to hide your obvious excitement as you left her house without another word. 

She called Iwaizumi right away to tell him the good news.

Good news for him, at least. 

-

The next day at school, Iwaizumi was sweating buckets. Finally, the last bell had rung and he was on his way to meet you behind the gym like he’d asked, the girl following him for moral support.

“I don’t know why I’m so nervous,” he said, ��I’m not even this nervous before a game,” she knew why. It was because he was head over heels for you, and even though he knew you had feelings for him, he couldn’t shake the fear of confronting you about it. Your pretty eyes looking into his would certainly be enough to make him weak in the knees, and he imagined himself a stuttering mess the second he opened his mouth in front of you; he groaned in frustration and stopped in his tracks, “I can’t do it,” 

“What?” she asked, silently hoping that maybe he’d realized you weren’t the one, “Why not?” somehow she already knew she was wrong.

Then he sighed, “She’s just so perfect, I want this to go just as perfect, but I don’t think I can do that,”

She felt a pain in her chest, “You have do do it,” she spat her words out like they were poison in her mouth, it felt wrong betraying her heart. 

Iwa nodded firmly, “You’re right,” he took a deep breath and started walking again towards the place he’d told you to meet him. He knew you’d be there, but when he saw you, Iwaizumi stopped and felt like he could drop dead any second. 

“You wanted to talk?” you asked, a glimmer of confidence in your eyes.

“Yeah,” he said, rubbing the back of his neck, “So, listen-”

Before he could get even a word in edgewise, you grabbed his face and pulled him in for a kiss. He tensed at first, but only for a brief moment before he wrapped his arms around your waist, pulling you close to him. 

The girl watched with a heavy heart from behind the wall, her head just peeking around the corner, “Finally,” she jumped at the sudden voice, “I was scared he’d chicken out.”

“He was going to,” she grumbled as she turned to the tall brunette.

“Oh?”

“He was really nervous, but I told him he had to do it,” she explained, wondering to herself why she’d encouraged the breaking of her own heart. 

“If you love something, let it go, right?” Oikawa sighed and she realized that he’d put it better than she could have thought to at the moment.

She watched as Iwaizumi smiled and held your face in his hands, gently stroking your cheeks with his thumbs; you blushed and wrapped your hands around his wrist, smiling back at him. 

“Right.” 

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Kenma

Kenma really likes you, but I’m sorry, he never talks about you

The only reason she knows he likes you is because one day she’s like, “don’t you have a crush on anyone?”

and he’s just like, “y/n is really cool,” 

She knows that means he really likes you 

She’s crushed but doesn’t show it because she’s scared of him finding out she likes him

She starts talking to you a lot more after she finds out about his feelings for you

Asks you to help her study hoping Kenma will join

Kenma didn’t ask her to, she just does because she knows he’s way too shy aww

She doesn’t even try to hate you to be honest, she’s actually almost excited, because Kenma actually smiles when you’re around. 

She wished he were smiling at her though

She’s really good at hiding her feelings for him

He’s lowkey jealous of how much time you spend with her bc of your study sessions 

so he confronts her about it one day

She’s like ??? You know you could just come study out with us ??? 

He says he’s not up for it but Kuroo has his ways 

Y’all have a group study session and you guys are really tense like, it’s hella awkward.

Things get a little better by the end though 

You start hanging out with their group more often after that

One day she invites you both to this arcade but then at the last minute she dips and makes up an excuse for why she couldn’t go

That was Kuroo’s idea

After hanging out one on one Kenma is like in love aww

He gets home that night to her and Kuroo waiting for him BECAUSE THEYVE BEEN FOLLOWING YOU GUYS THE WHOLE NIGHT

He’s like ¿? But tells them about how it was a great time and he REALLY likes you

“we been knew”

I think she knows he’ll never like her, so I don’t think she really gets her hopes up and she doesn’t try to sabotage you or anything

It still hurt like a buttcheek on a stick when she saw you kissing him

“That should be me holding your hand that should be me making you laugh that should be me this is so sad”

“Kenma,” she asked quietly as her and the boy tapped away at a game, both pairs of eyes fixed on the screen. 

“Yeah?” Kenma replied after a couple of seconds, trying not to lose his focus on the game. 

“Why don’t you have a girlfriend yet?” she was trying to maybe drop a couple of hints, and nudge him towards the idea of him having a girlfriend and it being her. She hadn’t expected him to pause the game and look at her though. 

“You sound like Kuroo,” he said flatly, “Why do I need a girlfriend? It’s not like I could get one anyway,” the boy shrugged and fiddled with the controller in his hands.

She frowned, “Don’t say that,” He shrugged again, and she took the chance to dip her toes in the water, “is there anyone catching your eye though?”

“What do you mean?” He asked blankly.

“Like, a crush!” She rolled her eyes and set down the controller, “is there anyone you like?” the girl felt her heart beathing out of her chest when he smiled softly and only for a brief second.

“I think y/n is really nice, you know, the girl in out Japanese Lit class?” He mumbled, a blush spreading across his cheeks, almost covered by his hair.

“Oh!” She pulled her toes out of the metaphorical water as her heart sank into the pit of her stomach, “right, y/n,” she said, “she’s really nice!” Kenma nodded and turned his attention back to the game, clicking the play button.

A small sigh escaped her lips as she continued, spamming the different buttons mindlessly, too heartbroken to care about the game anymore.

“You suck,” Kenma noted.

For the rest of the time they sat and played in silence.

-

“y/n, do you think you could help me out with this question?” The girl leaned in towards your desk and pointed to one of the many questions on the assignment. Kenma watched silently from a couple desks behind both of you.

“Sure!” You said leaning closer to her; you smelled nice and that was the first thing she noticed. It was like she short circuited the moment she drew in a breath, she wondered if you were some magic creature like one she’d seen while playing video games with Kenma,“Wait, which one was it?” You asked sheepishly, snapping her out of her daze.

“Oh,” she shook herself lightly, “number nineteen,” she said, pointing to the question on the paper.

“Ah! This ones not too bad,” you smiled and went on to explain, which she only half picked up on because she was too busy staring at you, “You got it?”

She nodded absentmindedly, “Yeah, thanks!”

“Anytime,” you smiled and shifted your focus back onto your work.

“See you after school, right?” she asked with a smile.

You nodded, “Of course!” For a couple weeks, you had been helping her study for the Japanese Lit midterm in the library after school. After she found out Kenma liked you, she thought it might be a good way for him to get to know you better. 

Her plan hadn’t gone exactly according to plan though, Kenma never actually stayed for the study sessions which left her alone with you. At first, she’d tried to find it in herself to be disgruntled, but you were just so kind to her, and so helpful, she couldn’t resent you, and you’d actually gotten rather acquainted with each other. 

After class, she was still packing up a few moments after the bell, and Kenma stood by her desk, an irritated expression on his face. She looked at him, confused, “Are you okay?” 

“Fine,” he shrugged as she stood up and they walked out of the classroom together in silence.

“y/n’s really sweet,” she said, trying to get him talking. He only hummed and nodded in agreement. The girl knew something was wrong, but for the life of her she couldn’t figure it out, and he surely wasn’t telling her, so she persisted, “you know, if you wanna get to know her you could join our study session after school today,” it felt like the millionth time she’d suggested that.

“No thanks,” he shrugged.

The girl frowned, “Well fine,” she grumbled, “Why are you so cranky?” 

“It’s nothing,” he said.

She shot him a glare, “It’s obviously not nothing,”

“Let’s drop it okay?” 

The girl looked down, “Kenma, just tell me,” he eyes were sad and she felt like nothing at all, nothing if her best friend didn’t trust her with his feelings, “I’m your friend aren’t I?”

The boy sighed in defeat, “You’ve been talking to y/n a lot, and I guess I’m just a little jealous,” he admitted, “of how easy it is for you, I want to talk to her like that too,” 

Her heart sank into the pit of her stomach. He was jealous of her? To be frank, it made her a little irritated that she was putting in so much effort to get to know you just so he could too, and he had the nerve to say he was jealous. She’d invited him countless times to your mini study sessions at the library after school, and he’d declined all of them; you probably thought he hated you by the way he seemed to avoid you like the plague. And as much as it pained her to know that he was pining for a girl that wasn’t her, she wanted him to be happy, she loved when he smiled, even if the smile wasn’t for her. 

“Well, if you don’t hang out with her, you’re never gonna get to know her,” she huffed, “and if you never get to know her, how do you expect her to like you back?” 

“I don’t really,” he shrugged, “I’m okay admiring from a distance,” 

She rolled her eyes, “You always settle for less than you could have,” he looked at her, “Whatever, Kenma,” annoyed, she sped away to her next class, leaving him alone and a bit confused. 

The girl was angry, and as she did her assignment during the last class of the day, she found it hard to focus. She was bothered by the fact that she’d gone so far for her friend, disregarding her own feelings, just so he had a chance at happiness, and he was completely rejecting her efforts. 

“Uh, you good?” a voice came from behind her, shaking her from her thoughts. She frowned as she turned around, “Jeez, what’d I do?” 

A sigh left her lips, “Sorry, Kuroo,” she said, “I’m just in a bad mood,” 

He hummed, “Did Kenma tick you off?” She nodded, “What is it this time, he doesn’t see your obvious feelings for him?” the boy smirked and the girl blushed, getting even more annoyed by the third year’s teasing. 

“Shut up,” the girl said, “At least I can talk to him without mentioning the periodic table,” she sneered.

 He looked at her with raised brows, “Tough talk for someone who can’t even name the first fifteen elements.”

She frowned, “Says the third year who’s taking a second year English class,”

“Touche,” he nodded slowly, leaning forward, “Look, if you want, I can talk to him,” 

Her expression shifted, “Wait, really?” 

“Yeah, maybe I can talk him into going to the study thing after school,” he shrugged. The girl smiled. Though she wanted to be the one to convince him, she figured this would have to be what she settled for. 

After the last bell rang, the girl dashed to the library, waiting for you at the entrance. You smiled and waved, offering her a greeting as you both walked in and unpacked at a table. 

“Hey ladies, have room for two more?” the girl lifted her head and frowned, looking at the pair. That certainly was not the plan she’d had in mind, playing third wheel was bad enough, but fourth wheel, really?

“Kuroo, don’t bother them, see, they’re busy,” Kenma said quietly, averting his gaze from you. 

“I don’t mind!” you cheered, looking over at the girl, “As long as you don’t mind,”

“Nope,” she glared at Kuroo, and he grinned, “I don’t mind.”

“See! They don’t mind Kenma,” the black-haired boy said, taking a seat next to the girl across from you, which forced Kenma to take the seat next to you. 

“Okay,” he said dully, carefully sitting down beside you, not daring to so much as steal a glance at you. 

Your brows furrowed in confusion and hurt for a moment. You wondered why he was so cold towards you, it wasn’t like you’d been mean to him, in fact, you’d tried especially hard to be nice to him during the few interactions you’d had, so it didn’t make sense. 

“y/n, can you help me with the second one?” the girl asked immediately, pulling you from your thoughts. You looked over at the quiet boy for just a moment before diverting your attention to her.

“Yeah,” you went on to explain the question and it’s answer while Kenma folded his arms and glared at Kuroo. 

“Hey, y/n,” Kuroo said. You looked up, “Kenma needs help on the fifth one,” Kenma’s glare became more intense and he kicked his friend from under the table. 

Your eyes fell on the boy and he just looked down at his paper, “Oh the analogies can be tough,” you said. 

He nodded simply, “Yeah,” 

You internally screamed at his lack of response, feeling a bit embarrassed, “So were you able to rule any out?” you asked, tapping your fingers on the table anxiously. 

“Well, I know it’s not ‘A’,” he said, still refusing to look at you.

“Okay! That’s good, so then take another look at the question, and figure out the context,” you explained, “these types of questions are all about context,”

He nodded and gave the question another look as you waited anxiously for his response, “Is it ‘D’?” he asked.

You nodded fervently, “Yeah! Nice!” A soft smile spread across his lips, and the girl across from you felt like her heart was being ripped out and dissected right in front of her. Though you probably hadn’t even realized it, you were making his day, he would be thinking about that moment for the rest of the night and she knew it; she wished it were her he thought about like that, though.

Noticing the expression on the girl’s face, Kuroo spoke up, “Hey, we’re gonna go get some drinks from the vending machine, you guys want anything?” 

“Oh sure,” you said, rummaging through your bag for some spare change. 

Kenma nodded and handed Kuroo enough for two drinks; his and yours. 

Kuroo raised a brow and smirked, “y/n, that’s alright, Kenma’s gotcha covered,”

“Oh!” you were beyond ecstatic, but you repressed the gigantic smile that wanted to force its way onto your face so you wouldn’t freak him out, “Thank you so much, Kozume!” you offered him a polite smile instead. 

Kenma nodded, “It’s no problem,” he said flatly, “you can call me Kenma, by the way,” 

You blushed lightly, but he didn’t really notice. The girl did though, and it made her lose all hope; he liked you and she was almost certain now that you liked him. 

“Well, we’ll leave you two to make out or whatever,” Kuroo teased and you blushed harder. 

“Kuroo, don’t say things like that,” Kenma said as his friends turned around. 

Kuroo laughed, but the girl could only think about one thing. 

In the six years they’d known each other, Kenma had never once paid for anything for her. 

-

It had been a few weeks since the group study session, and you’d gotten a lot closer to Kenma, Kuroo and the girl. Although the other two were nice, you had a special fondness for Kenma. Your heart raced whenever he talked to you, and when he said your name you swore you’d die of a heatstroke. You knew before that you found him attractive, but now, you had realized you were completely crushing on the boy and you thought it was obvious, but he hand’t seemed to pick up on it; if he had, he certainly hadn’t made any attempt to acknowledge it. 

A sigh escaped your lips at the thought that maybe he was just ignoring your feelings because he didn’t like you in that way. 

“y/n?” the boy mumbled. You were visibly startled by his voice, “Sorry, I didn’t mean to scare you,” 

You shook your head and smiled, “It’s fine, just caught me off guard,” you had been waiting for him and the other two to show up and you had simply gotten lost in thought. 

“Uh, the others said they couldn’t make it today,” Kenma said sheepishly, “So if you don’t wanna go anymore, that’s okay,”

There was no way you were about to pass up a chance at alone time with Kenma, “No! I’d like to go still, if you’re okay with it,” it would be nice to spend time with him without Kuroo’s relentless teasing. 

“Oh,” he said, sounding a little surprised, “Yeah, it’s alright with me,”

“Cool!” You grinned, and started walking alongside Kenma. 

You were really nervous, and unbeknownst to you, so was he. Every time your hand would get too close to his, you’d both jerk away and look anywhere but each other and mumbling quiet apologies. 

“So,” you started, dreading the awkward silence that fell over you and him, “I’ve never been to this place, what’s it like?”

Kenma looked up at you, “It’s an old fashioned arcade,” he told you, a bit of excitement laced in his tone, “They have a lot of old games, I think you’ll like it,”

“I think I will too!” you said with a smile. He blushed and looked down, trying to quickly compose himself.

“Oh,” he pointed, “We’re almost there,” you could see the big sign and flashing lights and you grinned. 

As you walked in, Kenma held the door for you and you thanked him; it was a simple enough gesture, but it made your heart flutter. 

You spent hours and hours at the arcade, playing every game you saw, and competing at each one for the highest score; you lost almost all of them, but you managed to win a couple by pure luck, but with him, even losing made you happy. He also really enjoyed your time together, and you realized it was the first time you’d seen him laughing so much. 

After a long day at school, and a great night at the arcade, Kenma walked you home, and your heart felt warm when he said, “You know, I’m kinda glad it was just us tonight, I had a really great time with you,”

A huge smile spread across your lips, “I had a great time with you too,” your arms flew around him in a hug and as soon as you realized what you were doing, you pulled away and coughed, “Sorry,”

He smiled softly, “It’s okay, I didn’t mind,” your mouth hung open a bit as he took a shaky step towards you, his eyes meeting yours for the first time ever. You exhaled sharply, taken aback by how pretty and expressive his eyes were, “I uh...” he trailed off, breaking eye contact for just a moment, “I really like you, y/n,” he said.

You blinked a couple times and pinched yourself to make sure you weren’t dreaming, “Kenma,” he felt like dying when you said his name, he thought you about to reject him, so he braced himself but it never came, “I really like you too!” He smiled softly and you grabbed one of his hands, then got on your toes to give him a quick peck on the lips. His eyes shot open and fluttered shut all in the same second, “Wow,” you mumbled. He stared at you with wide eyes and an open mouth, “Oh no was that too soon?” You panicked. He just shook his head and you breathed a sigh of relief, “Oh, good,”

He stood there for a moment, collecting his thoughts before he was able to speak, “Goodnight y/n,” Kenma said, “I hope we can do that again,” a blush spread across his face and you nodded, a little giggle escaping your lips as he turned and walked away.

As soon as got home, Kuroo and the girl were waiting at his porch, “Well I think the jury’s reached their verdict, all in favor of Kenma being in love say ‘I’,” The boy furrowed his brows, “I can’t believe you didn’t notice us following you the whole night,”

“It was Kuroo’s idea,” the girl added quietly, and kenma could tell she was upset, but he couldn’t figure out what she was upset about. He chose to brush it off for the time being, too excited about what had just happened to let anyone get him down.

“Guilty as charged,” Kuroo said, putting his hands up on defeat, “So, are you guys dating now or what?” The girl nervously awaited the answer, though no matter the outcome, she knew she would be disappointed.

“Not yet, I don’t think,” Kenma said, “But I really like her a lot.”

Kuroo knew that.

She knew that.

But watching you kiss him from a distance, and hearing him say those words was a new realm of heartbreak.

“I’m really happy for you two, Kenma!”

She was happy for you both.

But she pitied herself too.

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Hii!! I loved the new medroom chapter goddamnnnn got me holding my breath the entire ride pffff

I’m not usually on tumblr but i hearrddd you are and i just want to come and say how amazing that series is and it’s like one of my favorite fics ever now.

(Also funny thing, i actually know medroom updated NOT from i checked my ao3 notifs, but from my twitter bc all my friends there were absolutely crazy over the new plot and Awesamponk hijinks hhshshs)

Ok when Ponk absolutely ROASTED, FLAMED Dagger from outside the room, it was so cool man. POP OFF BELOVED! GO YOUUUUUU!

CNNR IS CONNOR AND CLLHN IS CALLAHAN i legit didn’t know that until i read your most recent ask my mind is BLOWN the blue cape and cream clothing makes so much sense now.

The friendship between Lemon, Frost and Spirit is absolutely amazing btw I loved that they are by Lemon side when he fell down when he is unfreeze, and when he is panicking and stuff. It’s so pure I love it ( ofc, that friendship is also pure in the other chapters, like their little banter and carefreeness around each other it’s just amazing man)

AND ALSO AYYOOOO AWESAMPONK BONDING TIMEEE LMAOOO i didn’t know cnnr was such a shipper /j MANNN I can’t wait to find our what their mission is and whatnot (also how are you so good at ending chapters with an amazing cliffhanger? It made me laugh and got be at the edge of my seat at the same time goddamnn)

Mannn this ask has been too long, i might as well have just written you a letter instead hahah IM NOT DONE WITH MY RAMBLINGS THO THERE IS SO MUCH MORE I WANNA MENTION but I’ll cut it here for now :))) Sorry if it was too long tho 😭😭😭

Can’t wait for the next chapter! Thank you so much for writing a masterpiece! <33

hi yes i am holding you like a racoon with a cookie rn ive reread this like three times tysm!!! you cannot talk for too long i promise you you could ask me 3 billion things and i would answer them im just awkward lmao

i am SO happy people like the awesamponk hijinks dude they are. them. look at em go not a braincell to behold. and the friendship the only person ponks worse at lying to than other people is himself but it's FINE because it's CUTE and he deserves FIRENDS and they make my brain go BRRR

ALSO im so glad you liked the roasting i did not expect ponk to go that hard i don't know where that came from. i stg he reached through my screen and said "ill take it f3om here" and it was just like damn okay off you g - oh shit. um. youre medical personnel youre not supposed to do that. (so did dagger honestly idk why she sucked so bad she just decided that there were in fact main characters and that she was one of them and the eggpire was not)

also ty for reminding me to put the names in!!! i published that like two minutes before I went into class lmao. i forgor.

also my guy you do not need to worry about grammar bc a) i did not notice and b) i only take on a semblance of being writerly here half the time things i text people are so absolutely incomprehensible i have been asked to translate and made it so much worse

also I do not have a sketch but here is a cat

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I’m the anon who rambled about how hot Younghoon as Kyungwoo is😭 I’m so glad someone else understands my Pain because all I ever see is people loving Kyungwoo cause he’s cute or funny, which is completely fine and I agree but, I do love that role for non-wholesome reasons too lol. It’s a side of Younghoon we rarely see, yet the cocky-sarcastic-teasing-witty-curses-every-20-seconds character we get to see in Kyungwoo is both very attractive & fits so well with him. Him as Kyungwoo also reminds me of him playing the jerk-ex in Whatta Man which (as a former IOI stan💔) was when he first caught my eye. I know he was supposed to be a douche in that MV but it was also?? Extremely hot?????? It’s like a complete 180 from the hyper & cute Hoon we’re used to. Everyone kinda perceives him like that, super sweet and soft, which is definitely 100% true, but you don’t often see people talk about his not-so-soft side either. (ex. if I searched Juyeon on Twitter right now I could probably find something about how he’s a cute kindhearted himbo, and then a thirst tweet about his sleeveless outfits right after. You don’t really see much of that for Younghoon) Anyway this was a LOT, you probably did not mean to hit you up like This but😭😭 What can I say, I’m too deprived of seeing some juicy Younghoon thirst. The TLDR: Younghoon’s super hot, Kyungwoo makes him even hotter, and deobis need to talk about it much more often.

EVERYONE LOOK @ THIS

ANON MADE SO MANY POINTS

Kyungwoo is funny, sure, that's what secondary main characters (i feel like he's not quite a side character or main character idk what his role's official title is but secondary main sounds good enough for me lmao) are meant to be. side and secondary characters are usually there primarily for comedic purposes.

but they're doing so much more with Kyungwoo.

he's very clearly not just there to fill space onscreen and contribute to dialogue, he's there to play a crucial role in the plot. which means! he needs complexity, and Younghoon is doing a CRAZY good job at portraying his complexity.

Kyungwoo is feisty. Kyungwoo yells and swears every ten seconds. Kyungwoo would probably roll his eyes and call you a dumbass just for existing.

And all of that is really really hot, way hotter than it should be.

Kyungwoo also really cares for people. The way he helps Juyoung with his crush? Did he have to pull that whole umbrella thing? No, he didn't. But he went out of his way to do it anyway for his friend.

Why does Kyungwoo even stay with his friends if all he does 90% of the time is yell at them and laugh at them (not with them, at them)? Because he actually does care for the people around him.

Let me tell you only two of the things that have already happened that would make me wanna leave Juyoung to his own devices with Jarim in a SECOND:

Bribing me with wireless earbuds to get me to commit to performing with him on video, only for the bribe to be fake.

Getting punched and getting a nosebleed because I stole a couple of umbrellas so he could get Jarim to use his with him.

And yet? Kyungwoo is still ready and willing to be by Juyoung's side.

Yeah, he acts like a dick when he's doing it, but he can refuse. He can.

"Hey, Kyungwoo, you should do this for me so I can-"

"No."

He can refuse! But he doesn't.

And plz tell me why that makes him HOTTER

but back on his arrogance and cockiness and dirty mouth?

It rlly is so cool to see Younghoon like this.

Younghoon in general already has that sort of vibe, but like you said, Kyungwoo brings it to a whole new level.

Younghoon is so good at it too.

His bursts of anger are so perfectly executed. He carries the I'm-Better-Than-You attitude as if it's his true form or something lmao

I know Jihoon is a solo artist, so it's different for him, but it honestly makes me rlly sad to see the difference in how Mays are supporting Jihoon in LR and how Deobis are supporting Younghoon.

I'm on deobi Twitter almost all day every day and it's rare to see even one person talking about it now.

Everyone was super excited when it was announced and as it was approaching, and even when the first episode aired deobis were all over it! But that like....ended immediately. Now they only ever mention it when another member mentions it. No one talks abt the episodes, no one talks abt younghoon's acting at all.

I wish he was getting more love and recognition for it. Even a lot of deobis (mostly kdeobis) are saying like they want him off the show bc he has to miss tbz schedules here and there to work on the drama. I know you wanna see tbz all together but younghoon is doing so well and having such a great time with Love Revolution, why can't we support him in it?

If the show isn't your taste, that's fine.

If you don't like kdramas, that's fine.

But can we at least not say we want him off it?

Even the boys are supporting him fully and praising him for it.

Listen. The guys can't speak publicly near as much as we can. We're on social media talking to each other constantly. When THEY praise Younghoon's acting way more than WE do? Sorry but I think that's kind of a problem.

Like I said, I know this is a group with eleven guys, so we can't talk abt only one of them forever like that's not what I'm saying here.

But can't we? Talk a little, deobis?

ANYWAYS let me hop off my soap box now lmao

that was very unintentional and uncalled for SORRY ANON

Kyungwoo character analysis and Younghoon acting praise aside:

i want younghoon to swear at me and yell at me and treat me like I'm inferior to him bc it's a lot sexier than anyone acting like that should ever be 🥵

seriously the attitude Kyungwoo gives him? hoooooly shit please fuck me before I start begging on my knees sir

the kyungwoo attitude and how easily he does it? this is why i think he's very much a dom

[radariant]

Sakuya for the character questions!

(from this)

Thank you anon I love him!!!!

Under the cut because I ramble… a lot.

1: sexuality headcanon

Sorry it’s just a fact folks!!! Sakuya’s route was the first one I tried and I was mildly surprised at how non-romantic it was… and then we got to BBL and saw how DIFFERENT and textbook tsundere (instead of just. awkward) his behaviour towards Ryouta was so it was just like OH. I see. On this subject too I definitely hc Sakuya being extremely closeted and uncomfortable with his feelings bc internalised homophobia. Even if bird society is better than average human society (I’m skeptical on this given how awful the hato world is), we sure as HELL know M. Le Bel would be homophobic… he’s a douche. I’d like to think once he gets away from his shitty family he gets much more comfortable with himself (especially since like, none of his friends are even remotely straight themselves). Wild contrast from extremely open mr yuuya “I’m always straight in love. well almost always ;))))))” sakazaki.

2: otp

SAKURYOU!!!!!!! It’s very popular for a reason, I love how Sakuya grows close to Ryouta during BBL… The tsundere stuff is so cute and I like that we also see them dealing with their respective crises and helping each other. I really like that Sakuya is presented as a bossy incompetent character in the main game but then his bossiness and decisiveness is really helpful, and even him bossing a traumatised Ryouta around is actually helpful to him; it’s just an interesting dynamic to see both of them coming to appreciate each other, whereas they don’t interact much at all before then. THAT SAID I do also imagine that post-bbl Sakuya has an incredibly hard time connecting with Ryouta. If we consider that Sakuya wanted so badly to leave home in his main route that he was fine with freezing out on the street, and he puts ALL OF THAT on hold to find a cure and get Ryouta well again… I feel Sakuya had a big image in his head of a joyous reunion with his friend, but in reality out of a crisis situation I feel they’d find it hard to get along. Sakuya’s still really stroppy and not great at talking emotionally and Ryotua is a bit awkward & also needs to recover. I do think they’d get along though! But it’d take some work. (also I feel as soon as Sakuya lets himself acknowledge that he has a crush on Ryouta he’d start combusting over every little thing he does so that’s also a problem lmao)

Also I don’t ship this at all for real but Sakuya’s weird crush on Shuu (most prevalent in the Drama CDs w his breathlessness) makes me laugh so much, both because he’s ridiculous, and because of the horrible horrible irony. (I imagine post BBL Sakuya’s ranting a little too much about Shuu  and suddenly everything falls into place in Yuuya’s mind and he has an internal cold sweat crisis)3: brotp

BRotp is always such a weird term to me because it’s just, “who do you like seeing a character being platonic friends with?”! I want to see Sakuya being better friends with all the St Pigeonations kids!! That scene in Holistar where Ryouta, Hiyoko and Okosan convince him to eat lunch with them is SO CUTE, I’d love to see more of that - I’m hoping for it in Mirror! (In the WEB series which is set in the same AU, from what I could google translate there’s a cute scene w the kids in music class and Sakuya sniping Okosan and Hiyoko’s violent playing methods which is so cute, so I’m praying for more of that!)OBVIOUSLY I’d really like Sakuya to reconcile with Yuuya…. I’m so pained in any timeline where they don’t reconcile (which is, depressingly, every timeline except for BBL). They definitely wouldn’t be a perfect chummy sibling relationship I feel since there’s still a few issues like Yuuya’s natural competitiveness and Sakuya just being a dick, but I like the idea of Sakuya begrudgingly caring about Yuuya and Yuuya trying to help smooth out some of those extremely prickly edges of Sakuya’s awkward personality.4: notp

Really isn’t much I’ve seen around in the fandom anymore worth mentioning to be honest! I’m not personally fond of fantail bros because of obvious reasons, but I’m not gonna trash anyone that does like it bc w/e. Obviously I’m also not interested in him with any lady character but that’s not really a notp, just a mild hc preference.5: first headcanon that pops into my head

Since he isn’t allowed to practice music at home I imagine Sakuya sometimes allowing himself to think over compositions when he’s listening to music and maybe even writing something down to practice at school, or maybe even trying to practice keys from memory, he’s really dedicated after all! I also like the idea of him subconsciously tapping out notes or whatever, again especially when he’s listening to music.

Not a pleasant hc but I also imagine Sakuya might already be slated for an arranged marriage? Since that seems to be what M Le Bel did with Sakuya’s mother, some kind of awful French Noblebird thing.

(I have a pretty long involved post-BBL “roommates” AU I talk about w my sister which involves Sakuya running away & rooming w Ryouta so I have a lot of little head canons like these that p much sprung from there haha)

OH YEAH also he has like absolute minimal sex ed knowledge and Zero experience like come on, “Illegally Downloaded X-Rated Videos from the Intertubes”??? Even in sakuya-speak You Just Know fghjhfdg6: favorite line from this character

“Do you mock me!” kills me every time because he’s just SO RIDICULOUS. I can’t believe this guy. And he says it all the time! Also the whole unintentional dick joke euphemism conversation about his Magnificent Christmas Tree in Holiday Star deserves a mention because it’s SO funny. Also like… “I will chase after him. I will never find him… but I will find myself.” is so powerful, that entire scene is heartwrenching and I love it. I’m so so glad Sakuya gets his time to shine and development in BBL. 

7: one way in which I relate to this character

If you’ve managed to read all the way to this question you can see I’m EXTREMELY WORDY and use Ott language sometimes, it’s something I’ve tried to curb but it’s never worked so I’m just happier puking out words all over the place. And thankfully I’m still never as flowery as Sakuya, who I’ll write something for and then check his canon dialogue and realise it’s STILL not ridiculous enough.  I can also be bossy without meaning to/being able to resist, especially when it comes to group type stuff with theatre and the arts! I wish I was as confident as he makes himself out to be though. Or at least… a little, 100% is too much for anyone! To be honest Sakuya is very similar to a horrible oc I’ve had for ages that I feel very personally so as soon as I met him in game I was like Ah this Bastard I will Love. and I was right!!

8: thing that gives me second hand embarrassment about this character

It’s Sakuya, literally everything he does is intensely embarrassing!! All of his dumb weird misinformed/racist “knowledge” is awkward and hilarious when he’s talking so confidently about it. (although a lot of the racism leans into EUGH territory more than just secondhand embarrassment lol) He’s just such an asshole most of the time, and you can very clearly see where most of that’s learned from, but it’s still cringey.9: cinnamon roll or problematic fave?

He’s DEFINITELY problematic but like… everyone in Hatoful legitimately is I mean it’s Moa, she loves That Stuff (big same)

[the-cryptographer]

re: voltron s5-8

- Ah, yeah, there were a lot of plot holes and unbelievably convenient coincidences going on to keep the story rolling. But I’m not going to be talking about that just because there are so many and it’s the type of thing you must handwave to enjoy the show and I’m okay with that.

- Lotor family drama was pretty great. I’m glad we got the great, horrible filicide/patricide battle. Like, damn, it was great. And Lotor lighting the pyre at the Kral Zera was also very hype. Still not as great as him terribly rejecting Haggar/Honerva. I’m not sure all of these threads were seen to the best conclusion given how hype they all were individually, but I’m in general pretty glad with the way Lotor’s villainy happens and gets revealed to the crew. The honest feelings and affection for Allura getting flipped into ‘if you won’t go along with what I say, I’ll kill you’ was pretty frighteningly believable to me.

- Axca’s endless roulette of deciding who she’s going to align herself with today was also pretty great. I like that moment when her, Ezor, and Zethrid all are like ‘okay no’ to Lotor’s mad rambling and try to bail. Quality.

- Haggar/Honerva might be my favourite character in this canon though (competing with Lance and Coran) I like how competent she is, and how much we see of her personally struggling with the changes in her psyche after being affected by the quintessence. The choice to change her back was really excellent, and I love what it brought out in her, and I hope we get to see a lot of her in the final season.

- Monsters & Mana episode was really amazing. I’m sad it wasn’t the real Shiro playing - but it was still so IC and so fuckin hilarious that he kept on playing Paladin. Best episode.

- Gameshow episode was also good - Pidge’s run of the minigolf course in particular. But it can’t really compete with Monsters & Mana. A low point of it for me was Keith choosing Lance simply because he didn’t want to get stuck with Lance for eternity. Cold bro.

- The timey wimey stuff wasn’t too bad, but it was one of the contributors to what I felt was pretty uneven pacing. I kind of feel like we should have seen some of the stuff with Romelle and the stuff with Keith and his mom and the space wolf first hand, instead of rushing through a lot of it and then presenting the rest of it in flashbacks.

- Not so much the moment everyone was talking about, but The Black Paladins was really emotional in the end. idk like, as frustrating as it is seeing Keith be terribly reckless and consistently willing to sacrifice himself to save Shiro and everyone else, I do feel like it had payoff in the final scene of the episode. hit me hard for those times my teachers/coaches stood up for me. Yeah, Keith- if only you’d stop giving up on yourself.

- Uh, bruh, Earth isn’t in the centre of the Milky Way Galaxy. It’s all the way over to the side on the edge of the spiral. You guys seem to be headed in the wrong direction.

- This show really be overestimating how much I care about the extended Holt family. I think it got off on the wrong foot with the kind of overemotional bait & switch regarding Matt. But there’s also the issue of Pidge getting really reckless and inconsiderate whenever they’re threatened and putting them above everyone else which is... very real and understandable. But at the same time it’s kind of frustrating to watch, especially when the first thing I know about them is they make Pidge act this way before I’m given any reason to know or care about them.

- And I know it’s really just a coincidence, but how Admiral Sanda was handled really rubbed me the wrong way, especially how the other woman she’s (unintentionally?) juxtaposed against is Coleen Holt. Like, first you have this dutiful mother and wife who waited on Earth for 3+ years for her husband to return and she doesn’t stray at all and welcomes him back and supports him in every way he needs. And then Admiral Sanda is this woman who’s actually has rank and power and she’s constantly being vilified and told she’s unfit for her position by all the men working around her. And these are the heros and villains in Sam Holt’s story. When I think about it, there might not be a single woman on this show who’s actually at the top rung of the leadership hierarchy who’s not misaimed or evil. And, yeah, that kind of bothers me a bit. I mean, obviously on an in-universe level, Sanda is a pill. But on a meta level- You get to her death scene. And that she’s, like, the only person who the show actually lets die on screen in the fight to save Earth, as part of some death equals redemption arc... Like, it’s unrealistic and idealistic how many people didn’t die on this show - and that’s fine bc idealistic kids’ show - but Sanda is an acceptable target. If only she had listened to the men who were her intellectual superiors, boo hoo. It felt really obnoxious to me all around.

- Allurance lost some points with me. I still ship it, which is more than I can say for about 90% of the other relationships for this canon/fandom, but I’m decidedly more meh about it now. I know Lance is just a teenager and all, and it’s not out of character or something I couldn’t see happening, but the narrative going along with stuff about how ‘none of the other girls are like her, she’s just so speshul’ is the kind of thing that irritates me. As for Allura responding to Lance’s feelings - it was believable to me given a lot of the pieces that were put in place - but I think more time should have been devoted to following Allura’s feelings and thoughts through the whole of season 7, both in regards to this ship and otherwise. I see why other people say it felt rushed.

- And Axca/Keith is a cute battle couple, you guys are just bitter.

- Buuut, I totally think ppl have reason to be bitter. I don’t know exactly who all was responsible. And I know the creators apologised, and I don’t think they should have had to, necessarily. But, at the very least, some of the marketing decisions here were queerbaiting. The show has gone out of its way to market itself to its lgbt+ audience and fans and has created a lot of hype around Shiro and the show being gay aaaand, we got some subtext, a dead ex-boyfriend, some evil lesbians, and two strongly hinted het ships with the show’s major cast. Yeah. Even though I like those het ships, I get the bitterness.

- And... I think there’s a marked difference between the way the narrative treats Adam and the way it’s treated the other Paladin’s loved ones over the course of the show. Like, god, we’ve gotten so much of Pidge’s family drama. We got a whole episode of Pidge crying over Matt being dead when he wasn’t even dead. We got a lot of Hunk trying to come to terms with not being able to see his family at the Garrison this season. We got quite a bit of Veronica this season, and have touched on Lance missing his family since season one. Keith got several episodes about his mother and the lead up to and effects of his father dying. Coleen Holt waits for Sam Holt to return from space. But with Shiro we get this breakup and then Adam dies and it’s brushed over in a couple of minutes? Like, I’m not saying Adam shouldn’t have died necessarily, or that Shiro’s relationship with Adam shouldn’t have been on the rocks. I’m just saying it’s hard to really divorce this from the fact that the relationships straight ppl have are societally valued so much higher than the relationships lgbt+ ppl have, and this show isn’t really disagreeing with that in terms of what it continues to show us. And, like, I’m not angry and don’t really care all that much, like- I stopped looking for mass media to validate me in this way a long time ago. And I prefer to see myself represented in media through angst as opposed to nice, happy relationships anyhow. But, like, I’m tired of hearing that people /shouldn’t/ feel upset or betrayed by this, lmao. Like, yeah, there are totally valid reasons for people to feel that way. And it’s not like feelings even need to be validated to be there and deserve respected anyhow, smh.

- But, yeah, I’m serious. I’m over the moon about Ezor/Zethrid and I love them so much more than I could have possibly loved any heroic gays. I hope we get a lot of them being their wonderful selves and living to tell the tale next season :’)

- Hunk/Shay is also still good and quality.

- Also, this isn’t really a failing of Season 7, so much as just my preference but- I kind of wish the show hadn’t moved back to Earth. Because one of the major draws the show has for me is the weird alien culture exploration aspect of it. Without that it’s just kind of one string of ‘intricate plans to overthrow Galra -> intricate plans fail and the enemy seizes the upper hand -> heroes come through with a way to take back the upper hand -> enemies come up with a way to seize the upper hand back’ and so on and so forth in a ridiculous escalation of who can turn into the biggest dumbest giant robot and save the day from arbitrary time limit the fastest. And, like, I realise a lot of fans are here for the giant mech battles but I am so not. So I hope we get away from the ultra militant save earth stuff soon and get back to weird worldbuilding shenanigans soon <.<;;