#I’m artblocked as hell this is all I have left to give

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(Note: these don't look great to me flipped to be oriented the way everyone else would see my face IRL, but I'm 99.9% sure it's just because I'm used to seeing myself in the mirror, since the more I look at these versions the better I feel about them)

So I decided to power through my artblock (the Eggbug chuckster I posted to Cohost doesn't quite count to me because that was mostly just tracing an official pianta render, though it did help to get the creative juices flowing) and figure out what the fuck I want to do with my appearance once I grow my hair out and start going out in public presenting as a gal, and to do that I redrew a photo of myself, left out the hair beyond what's on the scalp so I could put things on top of it more easily, embellished a few things (like giving myself a bit of mascara and/or eyeliner, since I'm fond of that look), colored it a bit, and then planned to do sloppy paint-overs to get a feel for what might look good or bad on me, but I wound up already being super happy with the base, which caught me off-guard.   And then I went ahead and (messily) put my MH hunter's hair (MHR style 29, which IIRC was added in Sunbreak) onto the base and uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh holy shit? Hoooooly shit, I didn't get hit with a wave of gender euphoria, I got hit by a fuckin' tsunami of the stuff (disclaimer: I normally brush my bangs to my right, hence the hairstyle being flipped from how it appears in-game)

I still need to figure out what I want to do in terms of glasses, but already I feel fan-fucking-tastic about all this, since I was genuinely expecting to have to try a few hairstyles before I found anything that looked good. So the fact that I hit upon something that I sincerely think would look super fucking cute on me so quickly is a really fucking pleasant surprise ❤️❤️❤️ (I might experiment with some other types of accessory as well, like a Celeste Foley-style miniscarf, or maybe even something like earrings, which I've never put much thought into when it comes to what I'd want to wear)

(side-note: if anyone feels like offering suggestions for things they think would look cute on me in terms of hairstyles or accessories, feel free to edit the base!)

Drawing this also helped me realize that my transition goals and overall ideal post-transition vibe are basically just a combination of Claire & Celeste Foley from Professor Layton and the Unwound Future and Emmy Altava from the Layton prequel trilogy (though admittedly I never played the 3DS Layton games, so my only frame of reference for Emmy is Last Specter), with maybe a bit of Flora Reinhold and even some Katrielle Layton mixed in (mind you, I never played the Katrielle games, but her dress is absurdly cute and reminds me a lot of Bridget's blouse in GGST)? And lemme tell ya, it's one hell of a trip realizing that your goal in life is basically just to become an amalgam of leading ladies from the Layton series, especially since back in early high school I had a bit of an obsession with the "gentleman" aesthetic because of Layton; for example, I still have a brown top hat sitting in my closet that I got at a renaissance fair years ago, which I wouldn't be caught dead wearing nowadays

[blaithnne]

You expect me to draw mediocre shitposts AND come up with witty captions for them? Manage your expectations

[cottoncandyjester]

Your blog is an absolute delight to browse through <33333

I adore your OCs. They all have their individual quirks and seeing you write them is a treat.

If you are accepting requests, I was wondering if you could do some reverse comfort for your OCs? Where they're not having a good day and their s/o comforts them.

I love yandere content but I am still a sucker for that good wholesome stuff :).

I absolutely love this

Also Was unsure if I should add salem in this cause a lot of people sent hate about him since i Introduced him cause he's disgusting but i did add him cause I love him and he needs love and support

Story contains: some angst, talk of self harm, fluffy fluff, soft boys

Theodore

You've never seen theo angry ever since you two got together but today he seemed to be stressed out, he was studying for a test and from the sounds of it he was going crazy. You walked towards the room only to hear a loud crash which made you jump and you rushed in

Theo had thrown his glasses across the room now sitting in the chair with his head in his hands a shaky sigh escaping him.

"im never going to get it, damn it.."

You looked at the papers scattered about and it looked like some intense stuff, you walked towards theo and hugged him from behind.

"take a break.."

Theo chuckled lightly before he leaned back looking in your eyes, it was clear he hasn't slept in a while.

"you know i can't do that angel, you get to bed though it's late"

You moved onto theo's lap which he allowed, he shivered lightly at the stern look in your eyes since he never seen you look this serious. He tried to settle your worries by giving you soft kisses on your neck but it seems you weren't easy to sway.

"theodore, I want you to get into bed with me and sleep right now."

The male sighed and looked at the clock on the study desk seeing it was about 2am, he did want sleep but he was far too worried about not passing to even think about it.

"sweetie, I have to study. How will I be a good husband if I don't finish college?"

"who says you arent already a good husband?"

Your words shocked him and he stared at you with a confused look before you lovingly wrap your arms around his neck and planting a soft kiss onto his lips.

"you're perfect theo, you don't have to constantly prove it okay? Don't ever doubt that."

Theodore was silent after that and he buried his face in your neck with a low hum, he truly didn't deserve you.

"you think I'm perfect?"

"of course I do, I love you so come and get some rest"

Theo decided to give in and lay down with you and for some reason when he did all those worries drifted away.

Hikaru

Hikaru didnt have time feeling sad, he was a model not to mention a public figure. He never lets you see that side of him unless it's to lash out at you but he onky does that in anger. Today was different, he was quiet today which Definitely wasn't like him

"hey, [y/n]?"

You looked up from your phone to look at the male who just got out the shower his hair still damp and he only wore sweatpants

"what's wrong? Want me to dry your hair again? You should put on a shirt before you get sick"

Hikaru said nothing and simply walked towards you and hugged you close making you both fall back on the bed, the shocked you and you started to pat hikaru on the back trying to get him off.

"h-hey! Are you okay? Are you sick?! Hikaru?!"

"I'm..sorry I'm really sorry, [y/n] dont leave cause I'm really sorry"

He was making zero sense and it only concerned you more but you heard sniffling which made you now freaked out so you softly pulled him back seeing tears rolling down his face.

"hey, why are you crying? What's wrong hikaru?"

The male sat up now sittinf on his knees and he kept his head down letting his hair cover his face as he tried to stop crying.

"I know you dont really love me, I'm mean and cold and awful. You want to leave don't you? But- but I don't want you to go! Im sorry I don't know how to love you i just don't know!"

Hikaru sounded an absolute mess and you didn't know where this was coming from but he simply out the male close into a hug letting him nuzzle his face into your chest as you played with his slightly damp hair.

"yeah, you are mean and cold..but I love you. You can be so sweet and really fun to be with, hikaru Im not going to leave no matter what"

"r-really? No matter what?"

"of course! After all without you my sense of style would be a mess!"

You heard a muffled chuckle escaping him as he hugged you tightly now resting his head on your chest

"you're an idiot."

With a cocky grin you poked his cheek earning a hushed whine of discomfort from you which you found adorable

"but I'm your idiot, so you're stuck with me!"

Axis

Axis is the type where he will tell you when he's sad, he's a crybaby so he will absolutely let you know when he needs comfort. So when the male popped up while you were thinking about what to do for dinner you figured he was feeling down

"what's wrong ax?"

"artblock..I have to come up with a new piece but i have nothing"

You gave a small hum before stopping and turned around wrapping your arms around him.

"well, how about we go on a date tonight we can go out to eat and do a bunch of fun stuff.."

"like fireworks?!"

You sighed loudly at your boyfriend's obsession with fireworks and decided to please him and his wishes

"we can get sparklers and small stuff okay?"

Axis smiled brightly and kissed your cheek over and over.

"date night date night!"

He started chanting like a child and you couldn't help but laugh at his antics but you were glad he wasn't sad anymore.

Prince

Prince hides his insecurities very well with flirting and smooth words, he likes you to think that he's all okay. you noticed he was far more clumsy today with things, it went from simply dropping things to full on tripping and falling.

Prince winced as he tripped and fell ontop of you earning an annoyed huff from you as you glared up at him for of his weird behavior that he brushes aside like its nothing

"prince what the hell is going on? You're being weird today"

Prince looked down at you before letting out a loud groan before nuzzling his face into your neck feeling quite embarrassed

"I'm scared..of our future"

"why would that scare you?"

Prince picked his head up and had a slight pout before he glanced away being unsure of how to put his words together.

"you're my first real serious relationship..what if I screw up?"

"oh princey.."

Your soft cooing made him even more embarrassed and he groaned while laying his face in your chest.

"you're amazing and great and I'm just..me!"

You simply messed with his hair finding his remark to be pretty dumb but you excused it cause he looked far too cute when pouty.

"prince, I love you forever and ever you aren't going to screw it up"

After a few minutes of silence he popped up and hopped to his feet with newfound energy

"you're right! I mean I'm pretty great! I bet you wanna marry me cause I'm so handsome!"

Well he was definitely back to normal

Yuki

It honestly took you weeks to figure out yuki was upset cause he is the master of hiding his emotions. He never shows many emotions besides a smile when around you or a glare when around strangers.

of course he doesn't talk about his feelings at all either so you are blissfully unaware of how he feels, until he slipped up and finally broke.

You had come home from shopping when you noticed how quiet the house was which was normal but it had an eerie feeling to it.

"is he taking a nap? Hmm.."

You went to the room and opened the door to see yuki curled up in the bed, the light were off and he was pretty quiet so you assumed he was sleeping but as you started to get ready for a shower when a muffled sniffle made you turn back to yuki and you walked to him before softly moving the blankets only to get a slight sight of tears before he buried himself deeper into the pillow to hide.

"y-yuki?"

"go."

You sat on the bed now fully invested in helping him but you had a feeling you knew what was wrong, you softly rubbed his back seeing that he was sweaty and slightly shaking.

"you have a nightmare?"

There was silence before he nodded and you simply laid next to him facing his back and softly touching his back your gentle touch being enough to cheer him up.

When he turned to face you his eyes were puffy yet had bags under them, his hair was a mess and he was breathing harshly from fear.

"wanna talk about i-"

"no."

You gave a sigh and simply cuddled against him and closed your eyes, his body stiffened but quickly relaxed before he held you close and closed his eyes

"just rest then. I'm here now okay?"

"mhm.."

Yuki smiled as he buried his face in your hair taking in your scent and feeling his body settle against yours. He didn't need words of comfort or huge signs of affection this was all he needed..you being here helped him far more than any words can.

Salem

When salem breaks down it's heartbreaking and intense, he gets into these PTSD triggered panic attacks to the point where he just loses it.

You had left the house and left him alone, it was only for a few hours but when you came back the bedroom was trashed and salem was freaking out curled up in the corner.

"b-bad boy, very bad super bad..I've been so bad I'm so sorry sorry sorry sorry"

"salem!"

You rushed to him and sat on your knees infront of him seeing fresh bruises and marks on his face, he probably hurt himself again.

"salem, baby look at me"

"b-bad boy..bad boys deserve death"

He was definitely not listening and you totally needed to snap him out of it so you did the one thing you could think of...you slapped him.

It wasn't too hard but he definitely looked up at you in shock now focused on what you had to say.

"you're not in that dark place anymore salem, you're here with me and no one is dying okay?"

"b-but I'm a sinner, I'm disgusting, revolting, i-"

You cut him off by selling your lips against his roughly kissing him and settling him down.

When you pulled back you gave him a stern gaze not letting him spill anymore degrading words out.

"listen to me salem. I love you and all your weird quirks! I don't care what anyone else says you're my boyfriend and I love you more than anything okay?"

"y-your lips t-taste like sugar.."

With that he leaned forward trailing his tongue over your lips with a shaky laugh

"thank you, [y/n]"

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Turquoise Puddles Under Our Feet [Fever February Day 15: Keep Me Warm]

FEVER FEBRUARY INDEX

Summary: After they manage to run away from one of the most dangerous bounty hunters of their city, Kaede and Shuichi have a small talk about school and their duo as a whole.

Fandom: Of Shells and Spells (original work with Danganronpa cameos) Relationships: Saimatsu (Kaede/Shuichi)

Word Count: 1.8K words

Notes: I never specified the prompts had to be whump, did I? Have a nice, exploration oneshot for the reboot of my magical girl(...ish) series Oh Shells and Spells. I've been in an OSAS mood lately, and that's what's breaking that artblock I put myself in. In case you ask why this is such a mess, OSAS is an original magical girl-ish story based around my own original universe, but with other characters thrown in for maximum potential memery (and fun). I had originally planned for only Makoto and Kyoko, but these two entered Shipping Hell lately. There's also gonna be Magical Dads and some other characters. This is set rather late in the story I'm planning, though. The two aren't supposed to know Annabelle from the get-go of OSAS book I, but oh well, this is mostly a test run more than anything.

AO3 version available here.

In the middle of night-time Hellesimbault, run two teenagers dressed in pinks and blacks. Behind them are ever-growing puddles of turquoise water, gaining space, eating away the paved roadway and dark grey sidewalks. There are waves of chills going down their spines and an urge to flee as soon as possible from the source of these waves.

The dark streets allow for two things: not being directly spotted by the bounty hunter running after them, and not seeing her face as she attempts to annihilate the both of them.

“Come back here, young mages,” an eerily calm voice calls for them, flat tone filled with unspoken rage.

They don’t reply. The witch’s waiting for them to say their position aloud so she can track them through their voices. That’s the last thing they need, so they keep quiet, as quiet as they can be when they’re running and have to breathe as they hurry to a possible shelter.

The blonde girl grabs her friend’s arm and pull them both into a corner, her other hand on his mouth to retain a surprised yell trying to exit his body. They see the with walk past them, violent tides coursing through their entire beings, puddles upon puddles of turquoise water where her feet were. An intense cold run through the street, sparing nothing in its path, her red hair flowing gracefully along the waves she emits.

Once she’s past them, the girl gives a quick look, and invites him to exit their improvised hiding spot. With a swift hand, she removes her butterfly-shaped mask, revealing pink irises.

“Are you alright?” she asks him, a gentle smile on her face.

“I… I’m fine,” he replies with a shaking voice. “It sure was scary.”

A small giggle escapes her lips.

“That’s why she’s called The Witch, isn’t she? She’s one powerful mage… Anyway,” she changes in tone, “why not make our way back to Anna’s? It’s getting late.”

“Yeah, let’s do that.”

The Witch. She’s one of the most powerful bounty hunters of Hellesimbault. She got to know her exact pseudonym through some research: Rei, the second-in-command of the Fragmenta Guild. Rumours say some of its members are teachers in their school, but that never got confirmed. For now, they take the opposite direction, to go back to Annabelle Moinot’s place.

“Kaede?”

“I told you to call me by my alias when we’re on a mission.”

“Sorry,” he blushes as he apologizes, “I thought we weren’t on a mission anymore…”

“How many times did I tell you to stop apologizing for nothing, Shuichi? Well, it’s not that important. What matters is what you wanted to ask me.”

He gets his mask off but lowers the bill of his hat with his other hand. Better stay transformed in case any bounty hunter other than Rei comes their way. Those rascals must know about her trying to find her missing sister by now.

“Don’t you think it’s getting cold in there?”

Shuichi is rubbing his arms together, blushing, white smoke coming out of his mouth.

“It’s because of Rei’s magic. You seem to be freezing, though… You’re sure you’re alright, Shuichi?”

His teeth are slightly cackling now. This isn’t reassuring.

“Maybe not sure per say, I’m just cold. I guess I’m more sensible to temperature shifts than you, Kaede.”

The music prodigy’s face softens, looking a bit away, then back at him.

“That’s true, Fire elementals are always feeling temperature more easily… Isn’t it Mr Parillot who keeps being cold because he’s a Fire elemental too?”

He nods in agreement. “That’s probably why I’m feeling hotter than you all of a sudden…”

“Excuse me?”

A heavy silence settles between them. Shuichi feels both cold and hot sweats running down his temples and back. An even huger blush installs itself onto his face. He tries to hide even more of his face with his hat, eyes looking away.

“We’re out of the zone Rei has frozen,” Kaede says in a slightly snappier tone, “but it’s still the cold of the night.”

She puffs, crosses her arms, and attempts catching his glaze.

“Shuichi, you’re sick and trying to hide it again, aren’t you!”

The boy flusters even more, and his hat eventually falls down. She catches it with her hand. His entire face is both blushing and flushed.

“I told you before, you shouldn’t go out with me if you’re sick… I’m saying this for you! I don’t want you to get killed because of me!”

“N-no! I’m always here on my own wish, Kaede… I didn’t feel bad enough not to come. It’s just a tiny fever, those happen sometimes…”

Kaede squints her eyes.

“Yeah, sure. For now, let’s go back to Anna so you can have a nice blanket to roll around in. I’m sure Mr Moinot is worried sick for us right now!”

“You’re right, let’s go home before you get sick too.”

She deadpans but smiles afterwards.

“That’s so nice of you to think about.”

On the way to their “headquarters” (Kaede likes the ring of that, it gives it that extra special touch she strives for), they talk about school again. Being a tenth year, a high school freshman feels like being both old and young, in a way. They talk about Mr Parillot again, remembering his weird shenanigans, his movies and his tendency to insert English in every sentence he spews out.

His shivering doesn’t seem to stop. That worries her, because he shouldn’t feel so cold, even if she herself feels some chills from the night temperatures. She has to find a way to make him feel better before they reach the Moinot house.

Kaede casts her battle outfit away, to his surprise.

“The way is clear, so I thought it would be nice to change back to my regular clothes.”

“You’re probably right, but...”

“I know what you’re going to say,” she interrupts him with a smile. “You can remain in your battle gear, Shuichi, if it makes you feel a bit warmer. I wanted to switch back because I have something which could be of some use…”

She feels the weight of her backpack again, which she opens to get a blanket out of.

“I brought this with me in case we stayed very late in the streets and had to find a place where to rest for a bit. It may be a bit too small for that, on second thought, but I’m sure it’ll be useful for you!”

“That’s not necessary, Kaede… You should use it for yourself…”

She wraps the blanket around him, and despite a face of refusal, he clutches it around him and sniffles noisily.

“You always think of me, Kaede… Sorry for being such a burden, you shouldn’t have to always get something for me…”

“Pssh, nonsense. We’re best friends, that’s what best friends are for, right?”

“S-sure, but I can’t ever give you something in return, and you’re usually the one good in battle too… You’d probably be better off with someone better than me, like Rantaro or Kévin…”

Kaede pouts again, barely noticing the fact he clutches his heart with his right hand and the blanket with his left.

“Shuichi! If I wanted to go on such crazy misadventures with them, I would have asked them! Stop putting yourself down like that! I’m sure you would be more powerful if you trusted yourself more.”

He slightly looks at her.

“Thanks for putting up with me…”

She beams him a warm smile.

“You should give yourself more credit, Shuichi. You’ve always been such a help for me, because you notice things better than I could ever do. I would be lost without you, trying to find my sis! The underground world is scary, and if you weren’t by my side, Rei would terrify me beyond my mind… So I think you should stop seeing yourself as a hassle, and more as my partner in not-crime!”

He nods timidly, the tiniest smile on his lips.

They proceed to their HQ.

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Questions from artistic ask meme: 3, 8, 10, 22, 24

For some reason my blog shows the numbers as letter, lol. Nevermind, let’s go with the ask!

3. Show us your oldest piece of art you have on hand. 

Are you ready to have your eyes burned?

It was a gift for a friend on dA, made it in 2011 or 2012. Tbh while I think I made a pretty big progress since that time and I feel much better with what I draw now, I still think the progress COULD be bigger. Anyway, I’m just a hobbyist and I’m quite pleased with what I can do now.

8. What is your favourite piece that you have done? 

It’s actually one of the hardest to answer. Recently I’m doing some wips and I have a feeling one of them will be my fav, heh. But yeah, I have some pics I made recently and really liked them. Like THIS ONE, THAT ONE and THIS.

I have a lot more I feel really good about even after a long time, because I have a great sentiment for some of my pieces, but let’s stuck to the three I linked. Can I talk about them for a bit? Cuz I wanna tell ya’ll something.

So, the first one is a finished piece I’ve spend a fuckton of time at. There was a lot of times I wanted to leave it as a wip forever, sometimes I didn’t have a strenght to do anything with it for a month or more, but with a support from some really nice people (thank you, Hell Potatoes) I finished it. Now I think some details could be better, some parts were a bit rushed, I could add a thing or two… BUT. This picture means I didn’t give up. And even nowadays I get a notification that someone liked it sometimes. It’s definitely my most popular among my favs. I think the number of notes is pretty decent for a small blog like mine.

SECOND ONE. Definitely the one I’ve had the most fun with. I wanted to make something quick for an AU I thought of and liked a lot. And I played with facial expressions a bit. I guess we can call it some kind of a concept art? (Not sure about it, I’m not a specialist in this matter.) This one is a representation of quick ideas I managed to put on paper (oops, sorry, it’s not paper, but you know what I mean), which happens quite rarely, since I’m good at imagining things, but giving them some specific shape is pretty hard for me. I’m always afraid of messing something up. I didn’t have that feeling on this one. As I said before, it was just for fun and it came out to be one of the pieces I’m the most proud of.

The last one is a, more or less, quick sketch I made to focus my mind on something else when I was making my first degree in college. I was stressed af, questioning my choices of education, the waiting was killing me - overall I was feeling really bad. I’m still questioning a lot of my choices, but I think I finally managed to actually find a path I can follow on my own pace. Anyway, among the three pics I linked, this is the one I put the most heart into, even if it’s just a skech that didn’t take more than 30 minutes. My least popular of this three, but guess I can’t expect more from posting a really unpopular ship, lol.

So, what did I want to tell you? These three represent what I put into my pieces: stubbornness, fun and love. It’s either all of them at once, two of them or only one. Either way, you can make something good, something you can be proud of. So be stubborn, have fun and love what you do. (Damn I know it sounds cliche, but that’s how I feel about it.) Good luck.

(Also I should draw more of my OCs, so next time I get a question like that, I won’t show only fanarts, lol.)

10. What do you like most about your art? 

The fact that it’s mine. Seriously, I don’t think my style is in any way unique or super good, but it’s mine. And it’s one of the things I didn’t give up on in a week, but continued to do it even if I had to drop it at timed due to real life (I still kinda have it… a bit) or artblocks or other things.

22. List at least one of your “artspirations.” 

Well, it’s not hard to tell that manga is what had the biggest influence on my style and I kinda stucked with it, lol. But yeah, I’ve never aspired to be a professional and never felt the need to know how to draw in other styles beside manga and cartoon-ish. Maybe one day in the future I will try to make my style into something totally different, for now I’m okay with what I have and I try to focus more on my real life.

24. Do you have a shameful art past? (recolour sprite comics, tracing art, etc.? 

I do. I used to do recolours when I just got into the internet for the first time and my friend got me into anime. It was many years ago and I don’t think I’ve ever posted any of the recolours anywhere (but it could happen, I simply don’t remember). Not talking about using random manga-style pictures as a heading for my blog (which I hope is buried and was deleted a long time ago, but I’m too afraid to check it out). Wait, no, I think I may have posted some of the recolours there, but fortunately I was never popular and only my closest friends watched me. As I said, I hope this blog never sees a daylight, ever. I used to think that everything someone posted online is free to use, heh. Now I know more about copyright and left the past behind. Now when I want to have a certain kind of content for myself, I simply do my best to create it with my own two hands.

Thanks a lot for the ask, dear anon!