#I’ll survive etc etc but I’m just yknow entirely burnt out from literally everything and my government wanting me dead aint helping too much

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shitty transmasc vent about chest dysphoria and the government proceed with caution don’t put yourself in a bad state of mind if you don’t need that rn peace and love

i wanna fucking cry just give me a flat chest already without the government interfering in my fucking shit I don’t even need a dick i just want it to be flat i cant even look forward to life with a flat chest anymore without breaking down worrying my shitty fucking government is going to take away one of the only things keeping me going rn there’s no joy in romanticizing a future with a body I want anymore because of my reality it’s almost turning into slight contempt for people who have had top surgery and escaped my hell no matter how much I don’t want that to be the case I can’t get out of this until I’m past my fucking 20s and that’s if I’m lucky I know no one would even understand if I told them and at this point I’d rather have a comforting lie than a harsh truth and that’s all you need to know about me what clearly fucking horrible shit did i do to the universe that made me deserve this i just want to be okay just make me okay fix me i was not made correctly and i can’t be this way