#I’d understood that I was just transmasc non-binary for long enough that the label for

[spoopyandtired]

i think the term you’re looking for for that particular type of internalized transphobia could be internalized exorsexism, because its a fear of being too far outside the binary even if you’re already trans. I also deal with that although i partially circumvented it by starting with neopronouns (+she/her) back when i identified as a demigirl

That’s really interesting! I went through something similar back when I was in high school, where I was scared to use she/they pronouns on top of he/him…? I was kind of told to pick one, so I picked the one that was as far from my assigned gender at birth. Since then I’ve opened up to using they/them for myself? I’ve also struggled using it a lot for others and I always feel genuinely terrible when a more gendered pronouns slips out. I’ve always kind of assumed that was just me not being familiar with the pronoun, or that it was years of being told “they/them is for multiple people only”… I didn’t even know the term exorsexism existed, much less that it applied to neopronouns? I’ve got a lot to think about still about my own gender identity, I guess.