#I would’ve loved to have made either a relationship where hades despises Zeus but loves him deep down

[ekmosteresi]

my love is dark, but its yours.

Hades could not be blamed for his bias. Zeus was his youngest brother, the one that had saved them, and the first face he had ever seen. It made sense that he was swept up in a doomed love, destined to never get closer.

or: hades is filled with self-loathing and tries to justify his solitude.

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Hades could only stare into the mirror for what felt like an eternity. He sighed and put his hands to his hair, combing out the minor tangles in his dark locks. He sometimes wished he kept his hair as short as his brothers, if only to keep it out of his way and neat, but quickly moved on from that train of thought as he knew he'd miss the feeling of it along his back. When his hands could finally run smoothly through his hair, he moved his attention to his dreadful eyes.

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Why couldn't he have had some form of blue eyes like his brothers? Or perhaps a brown, like his sisters? Either would've been far better than the emerald sheen of his eyes, far too similar to the green of his father's. 

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After realizing he couldn't do much to his eyes other than outlining them with kohl, he took a step back from the glass. He truly looked like a corpse, he disdainfully thought. With skin as pale as bone, and hair so black that it even put the darkness of Erebus to shame. His form was so skeletal, with barely any muscle other than a lean tone. 

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His self-depreciation lasted a couple more minutes before he finally lost all energy to care. He should just leave his domain already and get this whole affair done with.

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After years of silence, his siblings had invited him to an event on Olympos, quite an important one- since it's not every day that your brother gets married for the sixth time! To his sister, nonetheless. He didn't even get any warning or told beforehand, they just had the Golden-winged messenger fly down and send an invitation!

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They never even had a courtship from what he's heard- Hera has always rejected any suitor's advances, and Zeus even had a marriage not long ago! It doesn't make sense. 

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He was curious and frustrated about what caused the match, but it was a pointless endeavor, he wouldn't gain answers by himself. He could only sigh in annoyance and grit his teeth.

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Perhaps he was just too jealous to realize he had missed something between the two. He didn't leave the Underworld often, after all. It'd make sense for the two to have a connection beyond siblings... They both held dominion over the skies and beauty unrivaled. 

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Perfect, Cow eyed Hera. His youngest sister, how he envies her. He could only hate himself for this wicked jealousy he felt toward her. It was not her fault that Hades was undesirable and alone, it was not her fault that she obtained happiness.

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Fuck, what is he doing? Letting his feelings affect his relationship with his sister. Such a pathetic thing. 

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Perhaps he shouldn't go.

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He'd only lower the happiness of his siblings with his presence, he has always been far too gloomy. Hera doesn't deserve to be the subject of his ire just because he's petty. He'd only ruin the moment by showing up. 

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He could just send a gift, that would probably be alright. Yes, that'd likely be acceptable. Very last minute, but he could just send some excuse that there's a situation that must be prioritized! 

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Perhaps it's a coward's way out, but it's a viable option. What's another thousand years before he sees them again, anyway. He wouldn't haft to see them celebrate a day of joy, to see the one he loved with another.

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It was so easy to forget that Zeus fell in love many times over the years and very easy to avoid. Sometimes he could just imagine- No! He must stop these useless thoughts, there's no point wishing for the impossible.

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... Though, Zeus might be upset if he missed his wedding. Hades had arrived at all of the others, he'd always seemed glad to see him. Whenever Hades saw him he always graced him with a smile, and a gentle hug that disappears as quickly as it arrived. 

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He misses him, Hades admits reluctantly. Just seeing a glimpse of his bright brother always brought him joy. Zeus' presence brought greater light than Helios, his profound yet gentle laugh that would bounce across the room, everything about him was far too perfect. 

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What he wouldn't do for Zeus. He brought the age of winter at his request, fought for him at his command. He had beheaded the crooked one for a chance at his hand. A foolish hope, but a small desire. 

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Hades could only spend the rest of his time thinking, before he made his choice.

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Hades calls for his chariot to be summoned, only the fastest of his horses will guide it. He has a wedding to attend.

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