#I would have finished the whole Vocaloid crossover series by now

[let-the-living-beware]

Here is a little rant from me :')

The more I look at my Oc's the more I hate them, the more I hate my writing. I have like 20 drafts ready to go with long as fics but I can't seem to publish them. I always wanted to write and include my own character, heck even write my own book but the more I get to that finish line, the more I don't wanna do it anymore. I see all of these amazing artist on here, especially in the DL community, with great art and even greater Oc's. And the more I see them the more I...hate mine ig.

I just feel like that Laiko/Cora (my most fleshed out Oc's) are just not right and to basic. Like they are something everyone already did and they don't have any right to be there in the first place. It's like I am looking at them and I see their flaws and I am afraid. I wanted to introduce them properly but I can't with how mich I change every second. I have so many ideas but they all seem basic, like I am as a human being worth nothing and so are the things I am passionate about. It just... Its complicated and maybe I should just show it with an example?

Here is Laiko for example. Laiko was send to the Tsukinami to end a political "war" between her race and the founders but she doesn't really want that the more she grows up and makes herself useful as a spy in the war against Karl. After they found out that she had connections to Cora (Karls sister), they accuse her of treason and she has to flee right before the founders get sealed away. When she finally came back to her parents, her father didn't see her as his daughter because she was the product from an affair and she got used as a sort of Guinea pig for an experiment. Long said short she got transported into a different body that was a hybrid of her race and the founders.

This is the short version and I hate EVERYTHING about it. Nothing besides the treason part really was traumatic so it isn't like "put a bunch of trauma into that character" and even the experiment wasn't like forced on her it was on her free will she just didn't like the outcome of her new body. But I still don't like it and think it is to cliche, like something everyone already did (not that that's a bad thing) and I am just copy pasting anoth character from another story, from someone who is better than me. The other thing is also the new race part. This fantasy race of mine is something I have since I was like 8 years old and I wanted to put them into a story for like forever but now that I did it, it feels wrong. It is an AU and the rules can be a bit different of course but I feel bad about it.

I feel bad about writing Fanfics in general when I really think about it. I feel bad about writing characters that don't belong to me and even belong to me but I wanna write. I just feel like I don't have the right, like I am...how shall I put it? I am not good enough.

[hypn0sssss]

I have a lot of PJSK AUs so I thought I'd share them all here!

These are just general rundowns of each AU, so if you want more for any of these, let me know!!

(CW: mentions of death/murder)

Unit Shuffle AU:

I have a whole post on here AND a whole fanfic series about it so I won't go into detail here.

Can't Stop Cursing You Crossover!

As stated, it's based on the Manga Can't Stop Cursing You. I won't go into detail about what it's about (please read it) but all you need to know is that people make deals with curse gods and kill people in brutal, supernatural ways.

In this AU, Kohane is the first victim of someone who made a contract with a curse god. Dealing with the grief of losing her girlfriend, An tags along with the two MCs of Can't Stop Cursing You to solve Kohane's murder (and other murders that pop up but I don't wanna spoil the whole thing).

I started a fic idk if I'll ever finish it

Possessed AU (I need a better name)

It's a no Sekai, Akito centric AU where Akito is still friends with a majority of the pjsk cast! Despite that, he kinda can't stand any of them. One day, while he was at work, the rest of the friend group decided to check out a haunted mansion.

But... They never return. Akito goes to the haunted mansion, just to find out everyone's been possessed by different demons (which are all Vocaloids, both in PJSK and out of it!). He realizes how much he cares for his friends after they have been possessed.

A couple characters are on each floor (there's 5 floors), and the higher the floor, the closer the person is to Akito. Each vocaloid represents a different thing, and makes the character it's possessing fight back against Akito in different ways.

Everyone goes THROUGH it, but especially Akito. (I could make a whole post based on this au alone if that's what the people desire)

KanaMafu Fantasy AU

Based on Kanade's Zamuza Card!

Basically, Mafumom is a mage and finds out Kanade and Mafuyu are dating. She gets pissed and turns Mafuyu into a butterfly. Not wanting Mafumom to do anything to Mafuyu (who is now defenseless), Kanade takes Mafuyu and flees, leaving her adoptive family (the Tenmas) behind.

She finds a small cabin in some woods FAR away, and starts working day in and day out for a way to turn Mafuyu back. She soon becomes known as the "forest hermit".

Traveling baker Honami Mochizuki finds Kanade, and decides to help her to her best abilities (and brings her friends into it).

AkiToya Angst AU

Basically, they never met. Vivid Bad Squad never formed, but every other group did. This takes place while they are young adults.

Touya had quit classical music, but could never find something to replace it. He's floating around (metaphorically), with no passions or anything he cares about.

Akito can't seem to make it in the street music business, despite being in it since high school. He tries his hardest, but everyone seems to push him aside as "someone who isn't talented enough".

I still need to establish this more tbh. This would feature a lot of the Shinonome siblings interacting because I love them

[severalbakuras]

guess who watched a little more voltron. apologies to mobile users if readmores don’t work. spoilers for episodes 5-8 of voltron. (as always please don’t send me spoilers for later on. even if i’m wrong)(oh and mild night in the woods+utena spoilers, i guess)

episode 5: they’re all such dipshit brats goddamn. hunk is #relatable but ngl keith swooping in like that felt a lil ooc unless he’s still feeling annoyed at lance from the earlier freakout about the blue lion. then he’s #relatable too i know the feeling of professional Salt.

allura’s got a great spike spiegel/space dandy sense of improvisation when it comes to piloting.

pidge is now the most #relatable bc holy shit fuck the slipperies.

oh my god hunk you just solved my stealth voltron/night in the woods au idea - v. kind and stress bakes = angus for sure. (now who is gregg i mean i know who i ship with hunk (keith and shay (and ot3, hunk has two hands)) but they’re both a little too mellow to be gregg in his up mood swings. like lance probably fits the bill best but then i have no one to be mae. keith might make a good bea? hrmmmmm.)

(i’m kinda leaning towards shiro as selmers ngl, even if she isn’t a ‘main’ character. she explicitly states that she’s seeking therapy and it’s working out for her and it’d be nice if shiro could get the same at some point. plus i think shiro would write poems like

My heart is A dankness But when I see you I feel a thankness When I feel A blueness All I need Is a youness

bc he’s a cheesy dorky guy. maybe some night he will catch that bus out to the west coast.)

(zarkon is either that asshole steve scriggins or eide because he’s not competent enough to be anyone else of consequence)

(allura is either the nice pastor or lori m. pastor bc she has to project the image of a strong leader at all times even if she’s questioning herself/her faith, lori m because she’s kinda haunted by death and i can sorta see her being the local quiet weirdo with a ton to say if you just talk to her)

(holy shit that’s a lot of words for an au for a series that hasn’t even finished yet so sorry)

so uh anyway this is the episode that launched keith/lance right? right. who the fuck builds an elevator without a service/evacuation ladder. im reporting that thing to osha and the elevator repair aliens union.

THAT’S HAGGARS VOICE. SHE’S TEACHING PIDGE ALTEAN. MY CIVIL WAR THEORY...

i mean i know they probably just recycled her va but

wow zarkon’s actually slightly competent for once. probably haggar’s doing.

that storm looks fucking badass.

aww allura ;A; then again they’ve only just started doing this tracking thing with this much intensity this season so like that can’t be the case. unless zarkon only just now realized he had allura’s dna/life essence on record (C.I.V.I.L W.A.R) and he could use them to track her down with. which i can totally believe. 

honestly the fact that the galmorans galrans. tf ulaz you’re screwing me up from the grave. even have a functioning space ship at all is probably despite zarkon, not because of.

she’s real sad she doesn’t get to kill allura. almost as if her death is to haggar as obtaining the black lion is to zarkon. hmm.

coran really embodies the nihilist millennial spirit. we’re probably gonna die anyway so why not.

episode 6: !!! i was wondering if we’d get someone like jim cummings show up. weird i thought he was more disney than dreamworks. also i love the organic/inorganic mix those are some cool aliens goddamn.

who’s this fucking loser on a hoverboard. he hasn’t even got a fraction of eyebrow guy’s charisma or charm.

it’s that dagger keith has huh. calling it now. he was way too flustered to be lying about it having something to do with him and since when does he hide like. anything. from shiro.

red lion is watching you TOTALLY GET CALLED. christ i’m nailing a lot of stuff about keith it’s making me v. positive about my civil war theory.

you self sacrificing dorks.

aww keith. i mean allura def. has a very strong point but aww.

morvok makes zarkon look intimidating and that is no mean feat.

oh yeah there’s some evangelion style pilot/robot synergy going on with how much effort hunk has to put into lifting things. like linked life energies. here’s hoping we don’t have an asuka vs the eva series moment that would be nastyyy.

honestly i was not expecting anything like allura and keith’s chat to appear in an action cartoon like it’s pure character interaction and dialogue about a legit difficult subject with two people who clearly care about and respect each other but both have justified differing opinions.

AAHH PIDGE THAT WAS THE WORST POSSIBLE BOOST

THIS IS A NIGHTMARE SCENARIO AAAAAAA

so the hub is the cushy spot for high ranking generals or something. sounds like the military police in aot.

that 360 tracking shot on lance was siiiiiick.

ugh you are not funny enough for those sound effects commander.

THIS IS YOUR MOMENT CORAN

red lion i love you

OH SHIT NEW HUNK POWER

this dude is suffering the same ‘destroy the lions!!’ thing as a lot of the galrans seem to have. like. don’t you lot want voltron? doesn’t zarkon want the black lion? dissolving them in acid is literally the worst possible way to fulfilling those orders.

lance have you been thinking about if keith and allura hooked up the whole time? can’t tell if salty or thirsty.

someone please throw that commander dude overboard. i feel infinitely worse for all the galran mooks now.

don’t tease me show don’t give me a blast that big

tell me that wasn’t his escape pod. ughghhghghghghhghghghhgh

more lol hunk food jokes. ughhhghg.

‘tracking through the black lion’ can’t fool me with that red herring m8. if he had that connection with the black lion he could’ve found shiro on that scavenger’s planet before keith could. 

episode 7: space spirates is the coolest fucking concept give me space piratES GIVE ME. SPAC. E PIRAT. ES

coren don’t be space racist towards oonaloos.

sparkly allura YES ALLURA GETS TO CHILL TODAY YESSS.

shame about shiro tho black lion’s like nah bitch we’re having a bonding exercise.

the space mall is the space dandy-est thing i’ve seen in this show. i want a crossover i want them to witness Viva All

it would be the dumbest shit

oh god they’re dressed like rpg characters which makes me think of a skyrim au which makes me think of my yugioh skyrim au which makes me wonder if i can combine the two. 

coran’s sasuke shirt is Uncomfortable.

i love this galran mall dude. varkon mall cop.

the civil war theory isn’t dead the lions could’ve been built afterwards or just not activated prior to reaching ‘home’. or black lion believes in home being where the heart is and not your place of birth.

more food jokes for hunk hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

they nailed the informercial salesguy voice on this guy.

keith would be naive enough to give a shady sales dude a treasure knife huh.

ok keith winning a knife fight like that DOES give me gregg vibes. a little. i guess we’ve never seen keith in a manic ‘up’ phase, just a progressively worse or better ‘down’ phase.

OH FUCK HE REALLY IS VARKON MALL COP. THE MEMES HAVE ASCENDED.

civil war theory... isn’t dead... hhh

ok ok ok so like maybe a mutation caused by direct contact with quintessence wasn’t controversial for a while. like you’re manipulating the planet’s essence of course you’ll look a little funky as a result and there’s not much difference between harvesting a little life essence and harvesting a crop.

the split comes from zarkon wanting to use the black lion/voltron and quintessence for war while king allura’s dad does not. zarkon takes his loyal team and superjacks them with quintessence essentially reshaping their bodies entirely, along with any alteans who are like ‘yeah no maybe war is what we need’. and this mutation is passed down genetically creating the galran race as we know it. and there’s probably some cloning going on too idk this is a semi-sci-fi show there’s gonna be clones at some point.

ok?

ok.

pidge. u nerd.

more of the oonaloo girl pls i love her.

ok i can get behind master chef hunk jokes

god everyone else is having a nice time and as usual shiro is trapped in a nightmare and also as usual he’s probably not going to breath one word about it to his crew (late edit: I WAS RIGHT).

galran cook man is cool with me can he join the crew.

i swear to god the black lion and shiro and zarkon confrontation is basically the same as the plot of utena???? shiro is utena. zarkon is akio. black lion is anthy.

otoh that doesn’t bode well for shiro so uh.

moving on

pidge and lance don’t get to hang out enough.

he take sthe cow. lance. laaaaance

this episode is ridiculous i love it. so space dandy.

varkon i love you.

allura your hair is so cute.

pidge and lance are officially NERDS

episode eight: ok so in like the first ten seconds and the first shot of the whole team and i’m getting alarm bells. keith is far away from everyone. there’s a pillar directly between him and everyone else.

keith.

keith my boy what’s gonna happen.

hhh hunk has definitely gotten a downgrade this sea-LANCE YOU RUDE LITTLE FUCK. like no offense if you like lance but i kinda. don’t. like he’s not nearly as endearing as lars from SU is even if their characters are pretty similar and i love lars.

hopefully he gets some nice moments soon bc i haven’t warmed up to him anywhere near as much as i thought i would. his best moments have been him hanging out with pidge tbh.

keith that is Incriminating anger there

HAGGAR’S VOICE AGAIN I’M TELLING YOU - wait no this definitely HAS to be recycling or else she’s covertly controlling the balmora. unless they had like a vocaloid system in altean times and didn’t realize they were using haggar’s voice and by the time they did it was too awkward to change.

shiro don’t make hints like that it makes me think you’re gonna die and I’d Rather You Did Not.

“if you’re going to be a leader you’ve got to repress the shit out of your ptsd” shiro. plz.

who decided to make the red lion look like it was hacking up a hairball to drop them off. good choice

oh shit haggar.

interesting they DON’T want the paladins around.

shiro’s face ahhhhh

so. keith might not be a galran who forgot he was a galran. i imagine the blade of malmora would keep close tabs on who has a knife and who lost them and they’d know if one of their own was lost on earth relatively recently surely.

holy shit this animation upgrade a++++++++

i mean shit considering he’s a teenage boy who’s up against assassins who’ve been fighting and training for millenia keith still does a damn good job defending himself.

otoh considering they’re assassins who’ve been fighting and training for millennia they must be wearing some major kid gloves. or they genuinely do want him to succeed, but want him to earn it first.

oh shit haggar wants a word with traitor dude this won’t end well

YAS KEITH

NO KEITH

KEITH ;A;

so keith’s dad is human, at least. oh jesus his voice cracking at ‘of course i do’

so his mother is galran, making him half-galran, which he has to have known all along bc otherwise the suit wouldn’t project it right? i am distressed that this actually

increases

the chances of haggar being his mother. agghg. AGHGHGHHGHG I WAS... JOKING... BEFORE................

KEITH ;___________________;

thace is going to dead-ass lie to haggar i love this guy.

RED LION GIVES NO FUCKS WOULD DEVOUR PLANETS TO SAVE HER HUMAN THIS MAY OR MAY NOT BE A BAD THING

Moral Choice Knife says to stay in drugs and don’t do school. i bet Moral Choice Knife would be friends with my shadow priest’s baeblade.

yknow if it had a consciousness.

ah fuck allura’s not going to like this when/if she finds out. could be a season 3 plot?

there’s like 13 episodes total in this season right? seems like we’re ramping up for the final arc so i’ll stop here ♥

edit: fuck me tumblr squished everything together at the end there.