#I worded it as proship because nowadays it's called proship dynamic and. Yeah

[orange-dreamzer]

Okay so we bullied thegreatrouge off of Tumblr because she liked "proship" dynamics? Is that it? Because I don't see them doing it to actual real people, just fictional characters.

[proshipconfessions]

TW. uh. do we do TWs here??: grooming.

Also, I'm gonna apologise in advance if this seems like word vomit. I've never really said this to anyone other than myself.

I don't really align myself with either of the terms "proship" or "antiship", simply because it seems like no one can really define them.

But at the same time, I get SO scared that I'll be called a "proshipper" just for...*checks notes* coping with my trauma in a weird way.

I actually was a victim of being groomed and taken advantage of, and when I feel really vulnerable I try and find solidarity in some way, and oftentimes that comes in the form of me projecting my experiences onto fictional characters or finding media that I can relate to.

And you know what, sometimes I get the urge to write/draw about it, or share the ideas that come from this train of thought. But...I can't. because people nowadays give jackshit about context.

I had a pretty interesting OC idea, where the MC and antagonist shared the dynamic that I had with someone I knew, but this is probably what would be said to me: "You're a proshipper!!!! >∆< ewwww youre a p3do :((((". yeah, actually I'm just trying to cope with what happened to me because if I can't turn it into something fantastical then I fear I will break.

TL;DR - local nerd projects bad experience onto blorbo and then feels bad about it.

sorry if I did this wrong, I don't normally do asks, especially not on confession blogs

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