#I won't say what I'm writing for next years zines but I'm... excited

[nuancefem]

gyns this is too much

i'm like. genuinely so freaking happy with my life

i have regular work again and i'm doing writing contests and i'm so freaking excited for my pokegyns zine + insta zine + substack + youtube + studying filmmaking and i genuinely feel like my heart is growing wings and floating a bit like... i'm getting emotional... up until like, 3-4 months ago i didn't feel like a real person, i didn't feel like an independent human being with agency and a real personality, i didn't feel like i had solid goals or hopes or dreams or a future, i felt like i would always be a wreck and i would never feel truly easygoing or confident in myself and my abilities... but i'm really starting to truly feel like a grown ass woman, and yeah i'm taking an alternative path to a pretty funky, chaotic career but i beat to the beat of my own drum and i freaking love it!!! i'm slowly but surely making it happen!!!!

thank you so much to all my nuancefems who keep me going and inspire me so much and make me feel so heard and seen. idk where i would be without you, i would've just crawled into bed and cried and hibernated into the bachelor's lifestyle forever and ever, and hated my own guts, feeling like a terrible bigot for my nuance and like i'd never make smth of myself. but this tirf/nuancefem space we're slowly carving out, i promise to make it into smth big. i'm gonna write a nuanced book about radblr and market it like fucking crazy. i'm gonna go to film school and make a real documentary about it and hire mostly nuancefems & sapphics to help me with the project. i'm gonna make an animated tv show and take it to netflix and other big companies, or wing it and just put it up on youtube. i'm gonna make a social media site for nuancefems. i'm gonna make a sapphic visual novel with the main character representing me, and having her/my laptop found full of radblr politics. i'm gonna shed a HUGE ASS SPOTLIGHT on the details abt this community that people don't fucking know yet make so many assumptions about. i know i'm a controversial figure on radblr, i know it, but even those who feel distaste for me and my journey, i want you to know i'll try my very best to represent the radblr community in a decent, nuance, complex way and i won't dumb down the takes that even "meanfems" put out there. i don't want to speak on behalf of other subcategories of gyns within radblr, it wouldn't be fair. i can only talk abt my nuancefem movement and how the concept of tirfism peaked me and so many others at our very worst.

these are seem like delusionally huge projects, but i'm saying this with 100% confidence, somehow, against all odds. as long as i pace myself correctly and strategize and seek as much knowledge as i can i know i can make it. idk why exactly but idc. i know i have the skills it takes to make it big and turn this into a big, powerful movement, and just stop the demonization of the entire radical feminist community. i know i have the right people. i know i'm learning enough to make it happen in the next 5ish years. and i don't even care what other people say anymore, which i've never managed to do in the past. i feel like this is a whole new chapter and i'm so grateful to have finally made it to a point where i can actually start living, not just surviving miserably debilitated by lack of confidence and anxiety 24/7. things are still a bit shaky, but i'm figuring so much out and my networking has brought some really incredible opportunities my way!! i'm so excited for 2025.

thank you for sticking in my corner, or at least peeking into it every now and then if you're a lurker/newbie. i appreciate u all so much 🫶

[zarvasace]

PROGRESS POST

(10/4/23)

This is partly for accountability and partly just to get all this out of my head! This last month or two have felt so hectic, getting used to a new work and sleep schedule and all. I'm still not quite there.

If you're curious about what I've been working on and what my plans are in terms of writing and art for the rest of the year, read on. :)

I will say, though, that if you want more of a specific AU or story, the way to get it is by asking questions and leaving comments! Asks and comments remind me about things I'm doing and get me excited about them again! I have these plans, but I also am very good at chasing inspiration to unknown (and sometimes unimportant) corners!

By Fandom

Linked Universe Projects

I've been feeling less motivated to work on LU stuff, but I still plan on at least finishing what I have open, so you can look forward to some of that!

Writing

Disability AU—one small mobility trio fic in the works. A few vague ideas for doing backstory fics.

Council (1931 vampire AU)—this is still the "backburner to backburner" fic, but I do have some fun ideas. I just have been distracted with other things! I think this AU is a lot of fun and I'd love to do more with it. We'll have to see.

The Marvelous Misadventures of Wind and His Merry Band of Maybe-Human Misfits—chapter 7 (out of 9 or so) is in progress. I have it all outlined out, and it's fun to work on, but I have (again) been distracted! This is, I hope, going to be my main December project. It'd be nice to finish before it turns 2 years old next summer. Oops.

I have several other WIPs that aren't very exciting and probably won't see daylight, but they're there if I feel like them

Art

Coloring book—I'm part of the coloring book project! :) I have already finished 1/2 drawings, and they went so well, I'm considering doing more.

Shatterproof manga page—still on my radar! I'm doing the end scene from dazzling diamond danger, and my ambition keeps outgrowing my time.

Four Swords Projects

Writing

Fairytale AU—man I've started this Vidow BatB fic literally five times. I have an almost-complete draft sitting at like... 20k?? iirc, but I kind of hate a lot of it. I also like a lot of it. It's a bit difficult for me to work on rewriting something in that situation. Anyway. Another December thing probably.

Fright Fight—I have ideas for every week, but am currently unsure if I want to draw or write for them. Most of my October will be focused on filling these prompts!

Vampire Lords AU—I have strange as severe is this my fate open right now, with a fair amount of material... it just needs to be edited a bit. I do want to keep working on that, I've just... well. Distraction. A common theme. XD I might be feeling another little bite fic coming on, too.

Art

Fright Fight—see above

Fright Fight part 2—I have a few side things to do for this, like making graphics that I haven't quite finished yet. They shouldn't take long, I just gotta do em!

Non-Fandom

Stickers—I am in the process of drawing some stickers! Yay! These are for my work, but also just for me. I want some Halloween stickers. This is a backburner project.

Nanowrimo project—I need to spend some time figuring out a few things to really get going on my princess-verse. I'm going to be doing Nanolympics this year, so hopefully some of their preptober stuff will help!

Hearts Linked Together—my super-cool Linkverse. XD I love my dumb timeline, and all the characters, they're just filler drawings that I haven't had time to continue.

Secret Zelda project—I really really need to do this! I can't say much right now, but it involves a fair amount of work, both writing and art. I think I haven't gotten very far on it yet because I'm intimidated. Stop that.

Zine edits—I worked really really hard on an art piece for a LoZ zine coming up! This week is critique, and I anticipate a few edits later.

By Month

Facebook posts—a lady I know wants to commission pretty quote images to post on her Facebook. I need to reply to her text. And do them.

September

I primarily worked on the fic Blood-Sucker's Guide to High School. I also worked on and submitted one fic and one piece of art to two different zines, which I hope you'll see soon.

October

If you care, you may have noticed I'm not doing Whumptober this year! Part of this is because I'm a bit burned out from the above, and part of it is that the prompts just didn't seem very inspiring to me this year. Maybe that's just my mindset. I haven't been in a very whumpy mood.

I'm planning on filling weekly prompts for @fsfrightfight this month and maybe chipping away at some other fics, in addition to one more zine contribution. I'm also going to be planning for November and doing some scattered art work here and there.

November

NaNoWriMo! I considered skipping this... but I'm feeling really inspired and motivated to do it, especially with October as a break. I'm going to write some original work, and that will be the focus of my November. I'll likely get some other art done, too.

December

I hope to dedicate this month to finishing things up from this year! That means working on "backburner" projects.