#I wish we could b friends for realies tho they were so cool and real and messy and alive

[gayspideysense]

This is so random but I miss my old mutuals sm. They all lived in a small town in Texas and were all queer n I was briefly a part of their story, a mystery friend states away who suddenly was a part of the group. How cool would it have been if I wasn’t such a sad sack and could have seen it for what it was, an opportunity of a lifetime. All I’ve ever wanted is a solid group of friends and a story. I’m thinking about how I could’ve applied to a school close to theirs n had my best sitcom life. Maybe that reality exists somewhere in the multiverse but I live in the control universe wherein nothing exciting happens. What they don’t talk about w autism is the fact that u realize too late you had exactly what you wanted, there’s j something in u that can’t keep a good thing going.