#I wish I could tell them how much I love them—such a major blorbo and comfort character

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XQKSJD... Spring Bonnie... beloved blorbo... love so much!! QKSKXJXJ... only thing I’m thinking of right now...

[baejax-the-great]

Archive-locking the fics that YOU WROTE and are thus 100% yours to decide what to do with 'hurting people' is so silly tbh. Skill issue on their part. Wish those people could be normal about the amazing fics that writers like you put out & be understanding or at the very least respectful of the choices that writers make about how and where they make their fics available. Especially in light of recent ai training theft and nonsense & all that.

I hope this doesn't sour the fic writing & sharing experience for you too much. I love your writing & think you're very talented & skilled!

There seem to be dual attitudes I'm coming up against recently (and obviously these are not held by everyone, I don't even know that they are held by a majority, but they are certainly held by a plurality).

The first is that authors should be grateful that readers deign to read what they put out there. I think this stems from the "content creation" mentality and the idea that everyone who posts things wants as massive as an audience as possible (for monetization purposes which... isn't a thing in fanfic). I think this mindset also leads to readers demanding that people write specific tropes/pairings/whatever, or threatening basically to take their business elsewhere. "Nobody will read unless you do [X]." 1. Not true and 2. Okay, you weren't my audience.

(I also think authors circulating those posts about how badly they want comments/kudos feeds this mentality of readers doing authors a favor by even clicking on the fic. "Wow, if people are so desperate for attention, then mine must be worth an awful lot!")

Fanfic ain't a business, and I write for myself. Readers choosing to read my work isn't a privilege or an honor they are bestowing upon me (nor are comments for that matter), just as me posting my writing where they can see it isn't a privilege or an honor for them. We are both engaging in hobbies and a love of some media, and sometimes we will overlap and connect and sometimes we won't. Readers aren't reading out of altruism for attention-starved authors, and authors aren't writing out of altruism for content-hungry readers.

And there are those who will read these paragraphs above and think to themselves "wow, what an ungrateful author," and that's exactly the attitude I'm talking about. Don't get me wrong, it's delightful and rewarding to receive comments on fics and chat with people about Blorbo and the Situations. But it should be delightful from both sides of the exchange, or why the hell are we doing this? If I'm meant to be grateful for every commenter who jumps into my inbox, then every commenter in my inbox better be grateful for me, and I can tell you right now there is a population who is not. There is a population who sees me as a service provider for their entertainment, and whatever form I take in their brain, it is not shaped like a full person.

This attitude also leads to people thinking that things like lorefm are no big deal. Don't I want to get my work in front of more eyeballs (or ears)? Don't I want to broaden my audience? And once I put my work out there for readers to see, should I be shocked (or express any negative emotions at all) when someone plagiarizes/scrapes it for AI/demands updates rudely/reads it on a monetized youtube channel/binds it and sells it for profit?

The other idea I've been coming up against is almost the opposite of this--that because some readers form attachments to fic, deleting that fic (or even archive-locking it!) is actively harming those readers. Sure, they can't be bothered to hit the download button or get an AO3 account, but that's no reason not to think of these strangers first before doing what I want with my creative output.

Yall, life is ephemeral. There are things we will see and enjoy and never find again for one reason or another, and it's not harm being done to us, it's just the nature of existence. Having an emotional reaction to something does not give you any sort of ownership over that thing. Artists are allowed to change their minds about whether they want that art in the wild, particularly given that it's free. Maybe it's because I utilize the library a lot, but reading a book and then losing access to that book is not a crime against you, it's just a normal thing that happens. If you read something and it means that much to you, there are ways to avoid losing it (download it).

Seeing this particular attitude extend out to "not making your fic available for as many people to read as possible is harming them" is beyond bizarre. If I woke up tomorrow and deleted everything I have ever written, there would still be thousands upon thousands upon thousands of beautiful, emotional, meaningful fics out there for people to read. They would lack for nothing. Would some people be upset? Probably. Would I be hurting them? No, not really.

Sometimes people have negative emotions because of our actions, but that doesn't mean we did anything to them. This is one of those times.

Lastly, this AI and everything else bullshit really has taken a toll on my enthusiasm for posting my work. It's one thing for companies to try to pillage every thought, every word, every stroke of a pen or paintbrush to enrich themselves while actively making the planet an unbearable and inhospitable place to live, it's another when fellow fans are telling you that "Whelp that's just life, what did you expect, give us your content anyway or you're a bad person and if you complain, then I'll be taking my business elsewhere, you sensitive, entitled creative, lol."

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She Who Became The Sun

I want to thank @amhrancas for commissioning me to read a book I have been so so curious about, and I hope y'all will thank her too! She's also letting me, next month, talk about a movie I FUCKING LOVE.

nonspoilery: A plot-driven book that takes place over a long period of time in China during the time oof the Khans. There’s a lot to like in it, and i think a lot of people would really connect with this storyline, but there’s something slightly off about it that didn’t quite make it with me, that I pin down to a certain lack of character depth. It’s a pretty decent book overall, with some great description though, and the character thing is in no way jarring--it took me a bit to figure out what made the book not quite hit for me. 

SPOILERS BELOW:

I really wanted to like this book, and I still want to like this book, and I don’t NOT like this book, but I was prepared to love it. I don’t. I wish I did. 

And this isn’t me trying to satisfy the people I know love this book, or hedge about my feelings: I know how many of y’all loved GtN, and my response was essentially, “Hey, quick question, what the fuck is wrong with you?” (affectionate) so it’s not that I’m afraid to come out as not liking something well received by my peers. It’s just, I felt so close to really liking the book, and just could not get myself there. 

We’ll come back to that, but it’s one of the less-relevant bits of the review, so we’ll move on from it for now. So this is a historical fiction novel: KINDA. I admit that I know nothing about larger Chinese history, I never studied it, so I actually was not even aware that this was about a real person except for my commissioner telling me so when asking me questions to consider for the book. Some of the back of the book comments are calling it a historical fantasy, and aside from, I guess, the ghosts, the only reason I can see for this is that this is not at all representing the historical person Zhu Yuanzhang (I didn’t let myself look him up until after I had finished the book) so I would, personally, actually call this an alt-history, but I understand tht has some baggage with it the author may not have wanted to engage in. 

I was asked about the idea of narratively reworking a historic figure to be totally different from who they were. I have no problem with it! I feel like as long as we’re all HONEST about it--and I feel like this book is pretty honest about it, though, what choice does it have--it’s fun to sometimes have a historical blorbo and make them do what you want. I think that real people do not have symbolism and foreshadowing and motifs, and so, as a Lit major, I think it can somehow make people more REAL, by making them fictional. 

Also, as a History major, I kind of do not like it, for reasons that have nothing to do with the ACT of it, and more with the idea that so many people do not ever venture beyond the fictional work and so have completely incorrect notions of historical figures, and they feel ways about these human beings based on the very much fictional avatars presented. This tends to lead to a thing I LOATHE, where we do bad history because we need these people we admire to have been ‘like us’ or to hold values we hold or feel like we could have been friends with them, ignoring the reality of their personality, their social and temporal position, the fullness of who they were as a person, etc. I see a lot of bad fucking history based on this idea, and that is not new, this has been going on for a million years, but I have never liked it. Fictional accounts can convince people of things that aren’t necessarily the factual kind of true. 

That complicated feeling of mine goes on beyond this book, and, frankly, this takes it to such an extreme that I doubt very sincerely I’m going to see scholarship done about a great emperor of China being a woman secretly. So, I feel complex ways about it, but with a smart audience that realizes it’s fiction, I don’t have a problem with it, though in the same way I tend to prefer Not!Europes or Not!New Yorks, I tend to prefer, for example Not!Billy the Kids or what have you. But it didn’t affect my feelings about the book at all, this is a common thing in literature and the multitudes I contain today I will still contain tomorrow. 

Let’s talk about our main characters. 

Zhu. I think this is where the book didn’t lose me, but failed to engage me. I want to like Zhu so bad, but I just don’t, and I don’t mean I dislike her, I just mean I don’t…care much. I feel like I have no idea of the interiority of who she is other than trying to hide being a woman. I don’t get a grasp of her personality otherwise. I know she does what it takes to survive, I know she sees ghosts, and I know she becomes ruthless in a way that I found a bit shocking not in a “oh my god! Twist! Way but in a way where I felt like there wasn’t a clear enough path for people named Doc, who are me, from “I can kill a bad man” to “I can murder a child” or maybe there was, i don’t know, I just felt like there was a wall kept up between me and Zhu*. She murders a child, and Ma is all, “You said you wanted me for my kindness but you don’t care about it” and then Ma is at her side anyhow, so I guess it didn’t actually matter to Ma that much either, close of business, and I am just sitting there going, ‘Okay the book is over now, right?”

Ouyang. Probably my favorite character in the whole book, and yet, I mean I don’t like him in an “Ouyang is an innocent meow meow.” Ouyang is a bitter, hateful person who has intentionally forced himself not to feel joy or comfort or love because he made himself into a weapon and a weapon alone. Like Zhu, he took the steel he was given, but he bent it to his will. I love him as a character, I think his approach to everything is fascinating, and, inevitable, and I frankly find him much better written than Zhu. I was not at all surprised when he killed Esen. I saw it coming very early on, not in a ‘predictable trope’ way but in a ‘I hear the howl from far off and don’t get shocked when the wolves come in” way. He did it, and the way that was written was so great, and I was sitting there going, “You are going to blow up every good thing, the only good thing, that you have, out of a love for people you don’t even remember and a culture that is only yours in the way a shadow is you.” He looks straight at me and goes, “And what of it?” Extremely taken with him. 

Revenge is a huge thing in this book, and the necessity of it, almost. Is there redemption in revenge, what does it mean to find redemption, and is there value in holding onto an old pain for so long? Ouyang waits til near the end of the book for his revenge, but does he feel satisfaction from it? He carries his need to kill Esen like a bag of bricks, but he never for one moment imagines that he can set it down. I think there’s something to be said for a lack of flexibility in that. What does revenge bring him? What did his revenge against Zhu bring him? He suffers so much at the end, when he kills Esen, in what is very likely my favorite scene from the whole book, the absolute perfect ending to their story, and even then he cannot imagine a different way. He takes this idea of revenge as his way of being man, his fucking fixation on manhood and being a son, and what he is and what he is not, and he lets it eat him alive, and it brings him NOTHING. At the end of the day, it brings him only suffering and pain, and instead of having one dead family, he has two. 

 Though I suppose it could be said that Esen suffers for his near-inability to be capable of revenge. Not that he’s a weak man, he isn’t, and not a cruel one either, though often a thoughtless one. (And maybe this is, after it all, why Ouyang can kill him. He was always kind to Ouyang in every way Esen could think of, but he never thought about Ouyang, from Ouyang’s view.) But he doesn’t have the sense of revenge that other people in his life do, he doesn’t have the instinct. Not even what i would call full on revenge, he can hardly make the people he cares about pay for the things they do. 

Maybe the way to live is between them, I don’t know. 

So, obviously, at the end I absolutely salivating over everything that is happening with Esen and Ouyang, but find myself very much left cold by whatever the hell Zhu is doing. This is a problem as a reader! This isn’t even me saying, “Oh nooooo Zhu turns ruthless and naughty” I actually think that’s a great middle point for a story, but for the end to be like, “So then Zhu murders a child, and is now king. The end.” I was sitting there going, “so what…am I supposed to take from this, exactly?” A good story has a moral, not always a good moral, and maybe moral isn’t even the right word, but stories teach us things, and with the B-track story of Esen and Ouyang I feel like I got that, but with Zhu’s story I came away utterly plussed about the whole thing. Diversity win! The warrior-king who ruthlessly grasps for power is a gender noncomforming woman! Ahaha I mean I’m oversimplifying obviously, but it feels in many ways unfinished to me. 

I really did like the descriptions and vocabulary in the book, though, and I think this is part of what broke my heart about not loving it. PLEASE use words like palimpsest and internecine and facile. PLEASE describe things as being “like froth on a dead man’s mouth” and “ held on as if it were a slipping deck at sea” and  “the particular combination of awe and pity one gets from seeing fragile pear blossoms in the rain” my god. WHAT. I was fucking SPOILED by the language of the piece.  To a degree that was almost frustrating. 

The experience of this book was the experience of an ex where it should have worked, where it should have been everything and more, and it wasn’t even BAD, it just did not reach what it should have. I feel an echoing ache that I could not really ever LOVE this book despite wanting to so badly. It feels frustrating, ina way that hating a book doesn’t. I do think people who are interested in this book should read it for themselves and make a judgment call, as I’m sure and know that there are plenty of people who enjoy this book exactly as it is. I’m not chomping at the bit to read the sequel but not opposed to it, either, and maybe in that shrug is the harshest condemnation I can realistically offer. It’s not a bad book. It’s even a pretty good book. But it does not give me passion for its main character. 

*It might be that this book is so so fast-paced. It is slamming from year to year with military movements and the Mongol court and the Red Turbans and betrayals and successes and there are few breaths taken in between. Some people will love that, but I felt it robbed me of a bit of knowing the people I’m reading about. 

[drorey]

3rd/last life for the blorbo game

(Just a disclamer, english is not my first languish and I didnt have autocorrect for half this pretty long post. Im bad at spelling in particular, so there are going to be a lot of spelling errors, please be kind.)

(Answers to the blorbo ask game)

oh man thank you for this

now, I usually don't post mcyt stuff here on my main, I have a dedicated sideblog for that (@mcytnoodles), however since the ask was sent to the inbox of this blog I'm gonna answer it here and then rb it on my mcyt sideblog, I'm also probably gonna talk there a bit more about 3rd life and last life, so head over there if you wanna hear it!

(For my none mcyt mutuals. This is about characters in a roleplay series, not actual people!)

I am going to answer this ask once for third life and once for last life, both in this post! since I consider them both different stories, and while the last life characters are technically just the 3rd life characters thrown into yet another death game, they change a lot in those two seasons, since in 3rd life they all went in with no experience, and with rules that don't limit them much, the mindset they went in with is different than last life, where the rules were much more limiting in terms of player interaction and they knew what they were getting into a bit more, not to talk about the fact that they had actual experience that time, most of them, at least. so yeah! Im gonna answer separately for each season!

3RD LIFE:

(now, for reference, I didn't watch every 3rd life pov, I wish I could. I watched five povs overall, which were grian, martyn, scott, bdubs, and jimmy, with the logic of watching the person who survived longest from each duo and then also jimmy bcs I wanted to. I didn't manage to finish martyns pov, stopping around two or three episodes before the ending, But I still know a lot of stuff from povs I didn't watch, both from liveblogs when the show was still happening and from posts after it ended, so that's my reference point).

blorbo (favorite character, character I think about the most)

I think that this is the only one I cant actually decide on, since the character or duo I obsess over with this smp changes every couple of months. I ended up crying over all the major duos since the series ended. like no joke I have shed actual tears over multiple characters from this smp. I am in severe psychological distress please send help/j

My first answer to who it is currently was ren, but then I realised just how much of a comlicated, interesting character 3rd life scott is for me?? In the highet of my fixation on his character, I used to compere him to achilles quite a bit? I dont remember engouh about achilles now to tell you how much that actually made sense, but it worked well in my head at the time. I think one of the reasons I find scott facinating is that his character, along with jimmy, are one of the closest people on 3rd life to being "innocent". I dont believe anyone on 3rd life was actually, like, evil, and I think they all oparated from a mindset that made their actions feel necissery and justifide, but as far as Ive seen, scott is one of the only characters that people seem to agree didnt do anything really. Morally contrevertial. Theres not a lot of morallty discourse in trafficblr in general as far as Ive seen, but in the little I was aware of, scott and jimmy were seen as a largly innocent party, all they wanted was to live in peace together, even knowing that wouldnt really last, and that innocence makes the way things ended for them all the more tragic. I honestly still love every character and please talk to me about literally anyone there please please plea

scrunkly (my “baby”, character that gives me "adorable" aggression, character that is So Shaped)

I think this is not going to come as a surprise to anyone. bdubs is so very shaped and his feral energy is unmatched. while first watching and then rewatching the show multiple times, both from his pov and from other povs, I at multiple points just ASSUMED the man was foaming at the mouth. I think he even said it at one point? anyways, 3rd life bdubs is a menace to society and his chaotic energy is all I want for myself.

I think this category might have been intended as more of a character you go "awww" upon seeing, in a more of a "cinnamon role" kind of way? But Im choosing to take it as a character that I would go "awww" to in the same way I would to a small, angry animal doing something funny. like "oh my god you store so much rage and hate inside your tiny body bless your heart".

Another thing I love about his character is that his chaotic energy ends up making the emotional bits that come later hit SO MUCH HARDER. when he called out for cleo after she died, not realizing shes gone??? pain and agony and tears.

scrimblo bimblo (underrated/underappreciated fave)

tango. CAN WE TALK ABOUT THE HELMET THING??? NO ONE EVER TALKS ABOUT THE HELMET THING WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT. that was so fucked up. but yeah! I didn't watch his pov, but some of the things he does?? like, making a lava death game DURING a death game? king shit. good for him. also something something after being executed despite still teaming up with the crastle it was out of necessity more than their actual connection since them executing him severed a bond that couldn't be restored in the time they all had left something something.

I think cleo also fits in this category, since while. once again, I didn't watch her pov, I did watch bdubs, and these two were together for the majority of the series. but I don't see anyone ever really?? talk about her??? like. her kidnapping pizza and then scamming scar out of most of his stuff as revenge for being scammed by him herself is already. 10/10 excellent you go you funky zombie gal. but like. also. her final death lives in my mind rent free. she went down directly attacking a stronger oponent in front of his allies. she KNEW she was going to lose. there was no logic there. she just. did it. and she died for it.

glup shitto (obscure fave, character that can appear in the background for 0.2 seconds and I won’t shut up about it for a week)

JOEL SMALLISHBEANS AND HIS LIKE MILLION DOGS. I have no idea what joel was doing for most of the series. he just apeared once in a while, caused chaos, and disappered. only to show up in session 8 with like a million dogs I had no idea he had. I mean. him burning down the wall in the flower forest just because?? him saying he'll join dogwarts and than taking down their banner and proceeding to basiclly do the oppist??? iconic. good for him.

poor little meow meow (“problematic”/unpopular/controversial/otherwise pathetic fave)

now, Im not sure how ""controversial"" this is currently, (or well, ""controversial"" as much as a character can be considering the fact that theres not really any morality discourse. but I do remember the actions of this character being discussed quiet a bit when the series was going) but I think I would have to go with impulse.

I just. I remember so many posts about impulse trying to play all sides, not really being loyal to anyone, using whoever he could for his own personal gain, I dont know if that was actually his intention, since I didnt watch his pov, but from an outsiders perspective he really seemed loyal to his day one alliance?? if I remember correctly, he originally started spying on dogwarts at (I think??) cleos request, to prove his loyalty to the crastle, and than joined back with the crastle when he was asked to, but by this point no one there really. trusted him anymore. despite him doing everything he did to prove his loyalty. you could argue that some actions he took (or rather, the actions he didnt take) could be signs that hes not loyal as he tires to be, but to me it just reads as him trying to maintain his cover for as much as he could. so when bdubs turns on him in session 8, he sounds so betrayed. so suprised. like he genuanly did not expect this to happen. I just. he makes me sad :(( he tried so hard :((

(Also, the fact that the clock scar gave bdubs to turn him against impulse, if Im not mistaken, was actually impulse's clock?? I am heartbroken.)

horse plinko (character I would torment for fun, for whatever reason)

jimmy. I love this man with all my heart dont get me wrong. but the urge to bully him is simply too strong. would it be friendly bullying and torment? sure. but this man is too fun to mess with. I just have to.

eeby deeby (character I would send to superhell)

for 3rd life? honestly? no one. the thing about 3rd life is that I really, truly feel like no one was just. no one wanted things to end in the bloody tragedy they did. no one intended for this to happen. every person simply did what they thought they needed to do to survive as things around them just got worse and worse. scar was influanced by the server induced bloodlust of being a red life. ren just wanted to protect his home. scott and jimmy just wanted to keep eachother safe. impulse just wanted to prove his loyalty. ect. things ending the way they did hurt everyone, and I dont think any character deserves to get blamed for it. I am so deeply sad.

LAST LIFE:

(I feel like I need to point out that Im not as invested in last life as I am in 3rd life. I still love it, don't get me wrong, but my opinions on last life might be more casual and vibe-based rather then have a bunch of logic behind them. also, pov-wise, since I went into last life already deeply caring for most of the characters, I didnt really stick to one pov? since I didnt really have a character I cared about more then the others, I just kinda watched whatever pov I heard there was drama on that week, and then watched another episode or two during the week. tho a lot of the time, the person I watched first was lizzie, since I had something that caused me to come home very late every Tuesday back then, and I was very tired, and her episodes are the shortest.)

blorbo (favorite character, character I think about the most)

martyn littlewoods. You guys know that one unfuckable post that goes "the watchers from the evo smp are unfuckable" that someone tagged with "this post was ghostwritten by martyn littlewoods"? Thats all the explantion Im gonna give you. I wish to give this guy a hug he seems like hes going through a lot.

scrunkly (my “baby”, character that gives me "adorable" aggression, character that is So Shaped)

Rendog. Listen. LISTEN. I just. I remember watching lizzies second (I think??) session and being so excited for her and ren teaming up. Something that we see in both 3rd life and last life is that ren is one of the most loyal characters in these smps. He CARES about the people he allies with. He has no problem dedicating himself to a person otherly and completly. Now. Is this good and healthy? Probably not. But it makes me like his character so much. And I just. I feel his character arc in last life kind of builds on and even parelels his 3rd life character arc so, so well!! We see him go from being surronded by friends, defined by his care and loyalty and closness to the people important to him, to being so, so alone. We see him, just for a second, go from winter to fire. We see him go from a king to a knight, dedicating himself to the first person willing to accept him because its better being with someone. We see him go from being the person to go out in a blaze of glory to one of the only two people left in an empty world, with only the person hes fighting to wittness him going down. His character is just. I love him.

scrimblo bimblo (underrated/underappreciated fave)

skizz. he makes me so sad :( he tried so hard :( the dude wanted to be a hero in this server, he wanted to do good, because OF COURSE he did!! Hes skizzle!! Hes like that!! And all it did was come back to bite him in the ass. He tried to be kind to the world and the world was only cruel in returen. :(

I also think cleo once again fits in this category. A big, consistent theme we see in cleos character in both 3rd life and last life is revenge. Scar scams her, she steals his pet and blackmails him in returne. Bigb kills her, she burns down the fairy fort, targeting him and not stopping until he is dead. She had every right to, but I feel like its an aspect of her that either gets completly ignored or blown to be the only part about her people look at. Also!! Her, scott and pearl!! Amazing!! I wanted to see cleo and scott working together since 3rd life, and pearl in the mix just made them such a better, more powerful alliance. Guys I feel like we need to talk about cleo more please.

glup shitto (obscure fave, character that can appear in the background for 0.2 seconds and I won’t shut up about it for a week)

Tango!! I just. I love this funky dude!! His tendency to immidatly just make. Death games upon being thrown into a death game is. Very funny to me. And him running "you bet your life" was something I found very cool and interesting. Also. My dude was betrayed by his teamates so much. Bdubs in particular. He was so angry after that and he couldnt even properly let it out and just. :(. I am sad.

poor little meow meow (“problematic”/unpopular/controversial/otherwise pathetic fave)

bigb. DUDE LISTEN. OK LISTEN. I just have a thing for characters whos arc involves some kind of theme of betrayle. Like. DUDE. the way he didnt want to betray cleo but he went ahead and did it anyway, because he was feeling the time limit pushing him and didnt want to drop down to red. Because no one wanted to be red in last life. The way he killed her and then immidatly regetted it so much, but it wasnt something that could be made up for. The fact that he ruined a relationship with someone he deeply cared about and there wasnt a way to mend it or fix it. That friendship was just gone. And if I remember correctly, cleo also being the one killing him for the final time? Ouch.

horse plinko (character I would torment for fun, for whatever reason)

mumbo jumbo. I do not understand why people said he went feral in this series. I do not understand why people called him a killing machine. I could snap him in half like a twig if I tried. I am 5'0 if were being kind with arms like spagetti and even I could take him. This man has nothing on me. I would kick his knees and laugh as he falls to the ground weeping.

Either him or joel. I just feel like last life joel would be kinda fun to mess with. Not too much bcs I kinda feel bad for him, but I would probably bully him for. Being so bad at killing people. My dude. I am giving him a gold star that says "you tried :("

eeby deeby (character I would send to superhell)

Grian.

[elytrafemme]

hello!!! this is the same tired annon from before (who also has a bland pallet and sent an ask earlier today)

this might be my last ask sent considering i just got caught up on cough syrup but who knows i might get attached! 

okay so for starters i’m here to say holy crap i love how you write tommy and i keep forgetting to say that! you do him more than justice, you do his character like double justice. (now i’m wondering what double justice would look like in the justice system…. probably lots of paperwork)

next i’m here to say holy moly macaroni you write dream so well. (i just realized i haven’t put !cs before things so i’m doing that now. i’m a bit tired and stuff so whejsmshfjd)  cs!dream gives me the heeby jeebies and i literally wanted to shake cs!ranboo by the shoulders the entire time he was interacting with cs!dream but i was also like hashtag relatable so oh well! you’ve just done the whole dynamic really well! (i know its not much but the fact that cs!dream was planting the ideas of “i’m your only friend/your friends want to hurt you” thoughts into cs!ranboo’s brain was an excellent touch! it was something i’ve learned about in a class about abusers and stuff and how they try and isolate people and yea c!dream did this so idk maybe i’m making a big deal out of nothing but. i thought you wrote it really well! like really well)

can you tell words are not my friend because oh boy they’re not

and of course how could i write this without mentioning cs!fundy! you wrote him so well and i’m intrigued by his character! i also really like how you wrote his dialogue while being all panicked! very nice to see that kind of stuttering written so well!

i also want you to know that, often, i find when you’ve said you feel like you’ve written something not well, you’ve actually done a real suburb job! maybe i’m not the best judge as i’m not much of a writer myself, but i feel like you don’t give yourself enough credit! you’re doing wonderful work here  

and some final notes

-i’m in love with the pets and their inclination of the story! am i biased cause there was a cat sitting on my lap while i read the majority of cough syrup? yea, maybe… but hey i still really have enjoyed the pets!

-loving the trans rep 

-i adore how tubbo will try and prompt ranboo to ramble on things! it’s so sweet and also i think it’s good for each of them in respective ways

-cs!jack manifold (do i need to say more?) (i will say more, i find jack to be perfectly characterized while also being in the background like yess pop off king even thou idk what he’s been up to)

-cs!beeduo are my little queer blorbos and i will hold them dearly till the day i die. here’s to hoping they realize one day how much they mean to each other (poor things think that they have all the issues and then look at the other and go “ah yes a wonderful human being” and honestly mood)

okay sorry for sending such long asks i just wish i could give you more praise (which i will do in following chapter comments i suppose) i was also going to talk about my ideas of house layouts but that’s a bit much, i’m just a fan of house layouts ehajdkjdjskf

but yea thank you for writing it, it’s been amazing to read (i’m also tired again so sleepy time!! good night!)

anon would u like to have a little name to go along w u bc i keep just thinkong of u as tired anon and idk if thats the brand u want /lh /nf

but HIIIII!!!! im so sleepy rn we're gonna get thru this together im like half alive ok ok ok

double justice is just an odd manner of double jeopardy ruled unconstitutional unless you can manuever a case so that you press different charges huh. srry im studying for ap gov rn. and double jeopardy is rly interesting to me. YES but im so glad u like cstommy!!!! hes my guy most specialist guy ever <333

im also glad u like cs!dream-- another thing im working on is not making antagonissts flat and i worry a bit w how ive done cs!schlatt and cs!dream thative failed at that so im always glad to hear what i did good what i can improve etc-- yes the isolation is a big thing w/ cs!dream and a massive thing w abusive relaitnships overall.

thank u and doubly thank u again <33 kind 2 me. im glad u like cs!fundy & yeah i always have weird standards with writing and yk i def pick fave chapters but its always interesting to see ppls thoughts on them

hope ur cat is doing good and yeah admittedly i kind of fucked up how i handled the plot of the pets but i promise at least 1 of them is plot relevant :> also im glad u like the trans rep!! and YES these two are ramblers much love to them <333 csjack WILL be getting more plot involved i have so many plans for him hehee. they are blorbos!!! yes yes

okay gn one of my posts ither got big or ive got a spam liker back in the notifs so im gonna check ont aht write more and sleep gn hope ur well anon