#I was gonna say my doctor who hyperfixation is back but honestly I'm not sure it stopped

[jcforsapphics]

I love the way Ruby figured out The Doctor is a time traveler she's so silly she's my girl

[voxasks]

🫐idk how to do this so i'm just gonna yap i have no clue what my personality type is but one of my favorite characters that i mildly related to was an INTJ 4w5 so i just took that and ran with it. uhh idk if i'm an introvert or extrovert it just depends on my mental state ig. i've been kinda tweekin recently so i'm loud in public like this dude one time caught me saying some of the most devious ahh shii known to man so i pointed at some random dude and blamed bro for saying it and then i sang the my little pony theme song but like 4 octaves higher. my friends hate me i also have no morals whatsoever so i'm cooked. the only reason why i'm not some bonkers dude on a documentary is because i'm a pathetic loser who doesn't actually go through with anything, i just lose interest or go 'nah this is way too much work' i'm a dude and 4'10" (idk lowkey my fault for not taking nutrition supplements when my doctor told me to) and idk what i like because i just have a hyperfixation and then i go batshit over it for several months (my longest hyperfixation was on a character for a year and i spent like 5k on merch of that character and now i highkey hate waking up to see the character's face literally everywhere) i dislike greasy foods with a burning passion, animals of all types (including insects) but actually i highkey used to like sharks but then they got popular online and agreeing with people on tiktok brings me physical pain. oh yeah i also dislike a lot of people online if they disagree with my opinion but depends on my mood because if i'm feeling mildly upset then i spam them with replies and tell them i love them and for them to have a good day but in the most toxic positive way possible and if i'm having a happy day then i do the same thing but i also slander everything i know about them for hobbies i love getting attention, positive or negative like honestly it's so fun. i go on social media a lot i'm pretty much just terminally online except i don't keep up w/ gossip majority of the time because i have no clue who celebrities are. oh yeah i love getting concern i never follow their advice or whatever all i do is make a joke about how pathetic my existence is and they rather don't care or they show concern and either way i get pissed so maybe i should stop with that lmao tbh whenever i read through the things i write i literally sound like those 'quirky >w<' 2020 gacha life ocs i feel like everyone with an ounce of humanity would realize i'm straight up embarrassing anyways ily have a good day!! take care of yourself :3333

“yeah  i'm  gonna  be  real  fucking  honest  with  you  kid—halfway  through  your  life  story  i  genuinely  forgot  i  was  looking  through  my  inbox  and  thought  i  was  reading  an  article  on  a  serial  killer.  you  say  you  don't  have  morals  but  then  you  draw  the  line  at  greasy  foods  and  tiktok?  i  mean  alright  sure  but  then  you  go  on  to  bully  other  people  on  the  internet  over  a  bad  mood?  i'd  say  get  a  life  but  i'm  pretty  sure  if  you  tried  you  would  have  dropped  yourself  on  the  head  like  you  were  as  a  kid.  you  sound  like  someone  who  has  over  ten  restraining  orders  filed  against  them  and  they  still  have  no  clue  as  to  why.  well  fuck  that's  ten  minutes  of  my  time  i'm  never  taking  back—you  have  me  mourning  over  lost  time  when  i'm  a demon  in  literal  fucking  hell,  congrats.  let  me  guess,  you'll  probably  celebrate  by  being   a  keyboard  warrior  in  the  comments  of  this  post,  like  if  junko  enoshima  was  online.  yeah,  that's  the  energy  this  is  giving.” 

based off of the 200 follower event.

“🫐 — tell vox about yourself and he’ll give you his inner thoughts about you.”

[shipsgaysfordays]

let’s do more!

19, 22, 26

i would say that at some point soon you'll run out of questions but that was a pretty long ask game so maybe not<3

for this ask game

19. What is the most-used tag on your ao3?

i'm going to take this as most used tag for the fics that i make rather than what i read.

so, i'm quite tired so i'm not gonna go through and count which tag i use most commonly, here's just an assortment of my commonly used tags: mutual pining, angst, remus lupin needs a hug, hurt/comfort, nonbinary sirius black.

can y'all tell what my hyperfixation ship has been throughout the past YEAR? i've been expanding my ships though lately, or at least the ones that i obsess over.

22. Are there certain types of writing you won’t do? (style, pov, genre, tropes, etc)

at the moment, i would say i don't write smut, i just don't feel comfortable writing it. maybe some day but not likely to be anytime soon. other than that, i'm not sure. there was a fic that i started writing a few months ago because i had this idea but i felt it went a little bit too far in a way that was just too disturbing in a way that i felt it might make people too uncomfortable to read. (basic premise was like, snape uses love potion on remus as a way of pranking the marauders back, and is homophobic towards remus and sirius in this process of events). a part of me wants to continue with this idea because i honestly find it to be an interesting idea and i like the love potion fics, but i don't know if it would be right to post. it feels too, icky. idk. maybe i would orphan it or something.

26. Which of your fics would you call your wildest ride?

just given the length of it, i feel like i would have to say although i am broken, my heart is unchanged still

i'm never gonna be able to shut up about this fic, but it's my first (semi) long one. the first few chapters are fucking batshit and some of the most mentally ill writing i've ever mentally ill'd, and then it just goes on into other perspectives so you actually see what the hell happened outside of remus' oblivious (not out of choice) googles. and now i'm at a point in the fic where it's like all of this shit has happened and the characters are just trying to heal mentally. and then there's a part of me that's kinda questioning going back on the outline i made because i feel like i should bring the war back up, but i haven't thought through it enough and i'm far more wanting to have this fic focus on character drama and just leave the war stuff as a loose end.

i do think if i ever took the time to figure out and write my marauders doctor who au then i would be a more wild ride though.

[iron-parkr]

End of Year Wrap Up

I was tagged by the always wonderful @starsandstormyseas thank you love!

Total number of completed works

None but that's okay!

Total number of WIPs worked on this year

Let's see... The Spaces Between (MCU), Wish You Were Here (SPN), In Sunshine or In Shadow (MCU), The Devil Inside (Daredevil), Choose Something Like a Star (Doctor Who), a little bit of A Single Thread of Gold (Doctor Who), and my DBZ OC. So 7!

WIPs neglected this year

My initial reaction is to be self-deprecating and say all of them since I feel like I spent more time writing ahead and not producing much to show for it, but I know that's not true (plus I'm trying to be kinder to myself). I won't say neglected so much as just put on the back burner for the moment until the muse returns for them, and honestly I feel like this can apply to all of my fics at different points during the year

Fandoms I’ve written in

MCU, Supernatural, Doctor Who, and Dragon Ball Z for this year, which is both surprising and not surprising at all at the same time lol

Total word count

This is definitely a very rough estimate because I don't keep track of my word count anymore (I find it better for my mental health in terms of writing and creating) but adding up what I can remember writing this year comes to 61,913 words, and that doesn't include everything I've written down in outlines and whatnot

Looking back, did you write more than you thought you would this year, less, or about what you expected?

Kinda both? I'm always going to wish I had written more no matter what, but I'm very happy with a rough estimate of 61.9k this year, that's certainly more than I thought it would be

Did you take any writing risks this year?

Writing in itself is a risk in my opinion. But also WYWH is a massive risk narratively and stylistically that I'm really hoping I'll be able to pull off!

Do you have any goals for the new year?

I'd like to update TSB at least once, if I can update twice I'll be over the moon! Plus I'd like to one day post WYWH, ISoIS, and possibly my DBZ fic but who knows if I'll have the confidence for that lol

Biggest disappointment?

Not being able to update TSB more. My fixations tend to jump around which makes it difficult to focus on one fic or fandom for longer than a couple months and thus to update more frequently than twice in a year

Biggest surprise? 

The fact that I started writing a fic for Dragon Ball lmao was not expecting that hyperfixation but I'm honestly not mad about it

Most popular story of the year?

Uh well the only one I updated was TSB so I guess I'll say that haha

What’s your own favorite story of the year? 

Can I say all of them? XD

Story of mine most under-appreciated by the universe, in my opinion

I think they're all under-appreciated but that's just because they're my fics and I'm always going to think they're amazing (and it's also because I haven't been super great about posting/promoting them on here tbh)

Most fun story to write

The DBZ fic! Mostly because I have absolutely no expectations of anyone else ever reading it, so I feel no pressure whatsoever! It's just my silly little story with my silly little OC for my silly little anime show ^-^

Most unintentionally telling story

I'm not totally sure what this means but I guess like which story is telling in terms of revealing things about the author they didn't realize maybe? Idk if that makes sense but for me I always put parts of myself into my characters so each fic and idea will always be telling about me in a way

My favorite part of fandom this year

Not necessarily fandom, but my own determination to say screw canon and create my own version of reality within the story I'm writing. Now that I'm beginning to stray from what's established in canon (down the line in my fics, not just yet I'm afraid but we're getting there), it feels like I've become ruler of the sandbox. Canon is mine to command and I'm so excited for the opportunities that will give me!

Gonna tag @arrthurpendragon @juliaswickcrs @kingsmakers @darknightfrombeyond and whoever else wants to but absolutely no pressure!

[misireads]

Frankenstein, or the Modern Prometheus by Mary Shelley

[ physical book, read in finnish ]

a swiss boy named victor frankenstein moves to germany to study science with the ultimate goal to create life artificially with his own hands. after a manic episode of hyperfixating on the task, he creates a humongous man with an ugly face, then immediately regrets the decision and runs away from his own creation. he proceeds to pretend he never created anything until the creature catches up with him, explains that he's lonely and sad because humans all hate him for his looks, and asks the doc to create him a partner. frankenstein says Nope and runs away again. the creature keeps following him and murdering the people closest to him as revenge.

oh and this is actually all told by frankenstein in past tense in one sitting to some british guy who travelled to the arctic to study science and saved frankenstein from the ocean (and is real fucking gay for him also. is shelley aware she wrote a gay man in 1818)

WHICh is actually told by the brit to his sister in letters that he's writing her. and i kind of forgot about all that already in the middle

➕ well! it's franksenstein. it's a classic. it's the first sci-fi novel in existence, written by a 20yo woman. it's got legacy. i feel a bit bad i have so few good things to say about it

➕ i'll give credit for the social commentary about ostracisation which probably honestly was pretty striking for its time.

➖ i can see why that legacy equates "frankenstein" with the monster and not the doctor. the doctor is a pussy. a bona fide unlikable Woe Is Me asshole who repeatedly makes the dumbest fucking choices and then runs away and moans like a bitch and never faces nor resolves any of them. this book would be 50% shorter if you cut out every mention of him feeling sorry for himself. i'm not sure if shelley wrote this thinking she's making a sympathetic character or if she was fully aware that the reader is just gonna want him to die? my questions immediately started from him apparently spending so much time making the monster, and very deliberately choosing how it's going to look like, spent YEARS AND YEARS on it, and apparently he not even once during those years gave it a single thought like hmm this is turning out a bit scary-looking! a bit spooky i'd say! why am i making it so grotesque? oh well here it comes anyway! and also not for a second considering what the creature will be like, and what he'll do with it once it's done. and then he's just eeeek D: and runs away from his house as soon as the creature comes alive, and he.. doesn't.. uhh.. go back? doesn't care that it's now in his house and just leaves it there i guess?? i was already done at that point, that's such nonsense, i'm sorry mary shelley i appreciate everything you've done for us but you wrote one dumbass incomprehensible imbecile fucker of a main character who is so thoroughly unbelievable and unrelatable that this is one of the most comical horror novels i've ever read.

➖ that's pretty much all my thoughts summarised. i could go on and on about how every single thing frankenstein does is stupid as shit but i think you get the idea already. (just make the fucking partner!! you are literally the one making it, you can make a guy or a woman without a womb. because the fucking monster just told you very elaborately that he's lonely and he just wants a friend. also why is victor literally so fucking unimpressed by the monster knowing how to speak french?!?? no???? we just gonna be like ahh noo here is the horrible monster of my creation oh noooo poor me… alright. alright….. i'm so normal and calm about this.)

➖ i know this is a literary style from ye olde times but i'm so done with novels with a frame story where it's apparently one person telling the entire story to someone else and then the narrative is nothing like a person telling someone a story. it breaks my immersion completely and i don't like it. there's also a part in the middle here where it's the monster telling his own story inside frankenstein telling his story to the british scientist. look me in the eye and tell me if our lovely victor here would really ramble on and on about the monster's backstory to this extent if he didn't give a single shit about him otherwise yES I KNOW YOU'RE NOT SUPPOSED TO TAKE IT LITERALLY…. BUT THEN WHAT'S THE POINT OF A BOOK IF YOU DON'T TAKE IT SERIOUSLY AND JUST KIND OF PRETEND AHAHA EHEHE WELL WE'RE PLAYING TELLIGN A STORY HERE IT'S NOT REAL NONE OF THIS HAPPENED ACTUALLY aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa KABOOOOOOM

➖ i am supremely. SUPREMELY annoyed. that this story takes place in switzerland. and. the characters' names. are in english? the fuck is "henry clerval"? shouldn't he be henri or henrik or something?? and victor's brother is "william", not wilhelm??? an italian girl named "elizabeth" instead of literally any italian name??? not to mention that "victor" isn't a german name either like frankenstein is. he should be viktor. you can't give me a book that does this nd tell me it's a very good book, a good classic you should enjoy. NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WILL NOT

➖ a lot of this sounded like flexing with geography trivia which, i mean, yes very good from a female writer in 1818. but. it's flexing with geography trivia. in places where it wasn't really needed. cut out this and every line of frankenstein feeling sorry for himself and the book would be like 100 pages long

⭐ score: 2 -- good, i read one of the ultimate horror classics for halloween season, great…. now i crave euthanasia

[franklyshipping]

Ah yes New Years fic is definitely a classic. I remember this was the one i read through thouroughly first time. I was able to remember once i read the first sentence of each one.

The host/marvin/iplier/jackie one was always my personal favorite. I love how they're all goofy like real couples. The villianous trait between marvin and jackie you can tell they do regularly (i mean when your hubby is a hero how can you not?). Meanwhile dr. Iplier and Host are the "grown-ups" and iplier is giving him puppy eyes, all the while host trying not to laugh is so cute. I mean when you see someone make a face when you're trying to be serious is incredibly hard! Not to mention the tickling at the same time trope i adore cause it's just all fun.

And then giving love to robbie is just so wholesome. I love how you're able to show the reader different types of love. I wouldn't be surprised if there was a valentine's day fic, but instead of romance it's the other kinds like familial, platonic, and self love. It was a nice lesson for robbie that you can't run out of love and then him getting tickles and attention cause he's a cute lil bab! And iplier being slightly envious everyone can fall asleep, tis the curse of the doctor.

Personally the angel stories are the least memorial for me. Not that that'a a bad thing, you write them well but since i personally don't have a connection to the characters makes it hard to remember. Meanwhile someone else might be able to rewrite it word for word! Tis a curse for the lesser known egos. I love how you try to include everyone (*cough* except Silver and Ed and King of the Squirrels *cough* (no but in all seriousness I understand, i remember in an ask you said before you just didn't know how to write them, that is until more people took the roles of them and gave them their own personalities especially back then, i just wanted to poke fun))

I believe the googles were next along with crank/blank. Again i love the brotherly bond of the googles. I love how spoiled oli acts woth blank as they watch his brothers before quickly getting their medicine. Green and Red teasing his brother the best way they know how while bkue handles blank himself, not wanting to overwhelm him since Oli can definitely take two androids. I love how their babied and tickled and teased to no end to their limits. Again like i mentioned with eric, brothers just like to roughhouse until someone calls uncle, and good brothers check in afterwards to make sure they're alright. For someone who doesn't have siblings, you write them well. I also like how you refrain from the "hello big brother" trope. Never in my life have i ever called my brother by "brother". They're basically a person you're forced to live with XD

Oh geez, i think it was bing and the jims next. I always love the trope of "you eat it, now you pay" and how the jims just went rabid on Bing for having a snack that he didn't even need! It's hilarious all and all and I think that was the debut of the jim twins in your writing. And what a wonderful debut it was (unless it wasn't then-). I love their synchronicity, not to mention bing being a goofball.

Ah and walter and Yandere were next. I remember this one well since I know this was Yandere's debut. I'm so glad they're getting more attention now but back then getting an ego story you rarely see was a treat (look i was still too shy to ask let alone request anything cause i looked up to you and i still do). I love Walter and Yan's relationship, whether it was intended to be romantic or platonic. I still think there are times Yandere hangs out with Walter when they're away since yes the egos may understand them now, but walter is the one who truly understands. I can see yandere venting on their plans for their senpai, maybe venting to him when they had two senpais depending on the universe. Maybe mentioning how they wanna make their senpai happy and loved. Ah I'm getting carried away. You know what i also love on the same level of seeing a fic of a rare character? Seeing them tickled! Yes nowadays Yandere is a ler but i always love lers getting their medicine! I'd love to see yandere more on either sides whether the ler or the lee along with other egos. And not to mention walter, nowadays he's somewhat forgotten. Honestly I forgot until I remembered your christmas fic with him. So that's why I'd love to see him back! Maybe more brotherly bonding with Wilf. Or maybe he and wilf prank dark by looking exactly alike and dark having to guess who is who!

Lets see, the four, robbie, the angels, googles, bing and the jims, yandere and walt, i think the next one was Bim and Wilf. Sorry if i miss any, i didn't think about writing on notes and then copy and pasting it all here and i can't copy all my paragraphs here since it only will make me copy one paragraph and i do NOT want to lose all this!

Anyways bim and wilf. Sometimes we forget they bim has a super busy life, maybe more than dark. Hyperfixation definitely gets the better half of me and this ties back to weaknesses. Wilf trying to get bim out and wilf getting upset until bim realizes what he's doing an apologizes. Again you're only done and you want to get it done but turns out you're still working hours later but you're so close! I do love how bim regains a playful spirit and tickles Wilf playfully, definitely getting some of dom vibes from dark. How he can lower his voice and be the boss of things. I forget bim isn't always so sweet and kind (aka the tea story).

And classic Dark and Anti what else can I say. The classic both evil characters being shipped together except Anti getting the high ground this time. It's always a treat to see lee dark and who else would know his spots than an evil counterpart of another person. After all if mark didn't make those creepy vids we probably wouldn't have Dark, and Dark was the inspiration for dark egos. Since it's near the end my memory is a little foggy but when these two are together you know it's gonna be chaos. And Lee Dark is just so nice to see, it's like revenge!

And alas, Damien and William. I always did love how the roles were switched from Dark being ler and Damien being a cute lee. How could you not tickle him? I love how it brings out that childish playfullness as if they did know each other for a long time! There is just something so innocent about that that I adore. I don't know if it would be possible, but I'd love more fics of damien and the colonel interactions, maybe with other egos? If not i understand!

Oof this was a big one, but not nearly as big as 2018 christmas. I might go read other fics of yours first before delving into that beast. Maybe start at the end since the first few up to the santa one i have a pretty good memory on!

*Wraps up in blankets and happily squeals with joy bECAUSE THIS IS THE LOVELIEST EVER AAAAAEEEEEEEE THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOOOUUU*

YOU'RE SO AMAZING. SO AWESOME. SO JAZZY. SO FABULOUS. SO KIND. IWANT TO GIVE YOU A MASSIVE CAKE AND LOADS OF PUPPIES TIGHT NOW 😱😱💜💜