#I was going to talk about Jingliu and Dan Feng but I won't haha I may do later on
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fragmentedblade · 1 year ago
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Blade compared the relief from pain death brought him to the moments spent with his friends drinking together.
His desire for death as both a release from pain and from the condition of existence in which he finds himself now, so similar to that which he most hated (hated so much as to dedicate his entire life and self to fight, up to the point of crossing unthinkable barriers for shortlife species); but death also almost like a returning to the time that was, the joy and pride it brought him, and the friends and self he lost
#I have my qualms with this quest. I have them#But man. Man. I love him#They didn't have to make him such a good character. It could have gone wrong so easily with what they were doing#But I do love him very much#Yingxing the arrogant man the bashful teen and the stuttering kid. But haughty and determined and defiant at every stage#How smart and skilled and proud. How ambitious and revengeful too#I was going to talk about Jingliu and Dan Feng but I won't haha I may do later on#I don't know... I feel my chest so warm and so cold at the same time. I guess it's the fondness and the grief haha#I'm rambling though and I actually want to find this idea#Fragments and scraps#Yingxing#Blade#I've been told I can set the blog to private and that way I won't have the problem of throwing my posts in the general tag unwillingly#There's only one post I've wanted people to interact with and to this day no one has answered my question anyway#So I should consider that. It may be the best choice before half the HSR blogs block me for being annoying#I want to he able to find art and gifs haha#When I say 'life and self' I mean that not only did he dedicate his entire life to it on a temporal dimension#but he forged himself initially for this goal. Everything he was able to achieve he did by means of the skills he developed for this end#And that is what gave him the chance to craft a position for himself in the Xianzhou culture that looks down on shortlife species#His position as Huaiyan's apprentice‚ as a craftsman of the Zhuming‚ the Furnace Master‚ a legendary blacksmith and a hero‚#and thus even I imagine his position as a civilian human man living in the Xianzhou without being looked down‚ all comes from that goal#With all that weighting on the matter the fact that he became that which he hated and lost his ability to craft#because of the chance to bring someone back from the death becomes even more poignant especially if we take Baiheng to be#the condition of possibility of that being he crafted taking place‚ due to little Yingxing not losing his drive and hope#And Jingliu asked them why they committed such a sin. He doesn't know what to say and knows she doesn't care#'I longed to be able to accept it‚ and I do not say I have not tried'‚ from Ovid. As Hozier puts it‚ 'the choiceless hope in grief'#I'm running out of space but I adore that these three people unmade themselves because of this. I think in Dan Feng's case there's also#a longing for a making in the unmaking process‚ that breaking free from the High Elder cycle that so tormented him and robbed him#from himself. The parallels both in similarities and oppositions between Jingliu‚ Blade (or Yingxing) and Dan Feng are so good#But I've run out of space and I wanted to save my thoughts on that somewhere else anyway. The Jingliu/Blade/Jing Yuan/Yanqing ones too
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shadowcatzone · 1 year ago
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https://www.tumblr.com/shadowcatzone/729467606763978752/i-just-watched-the-renheng-melty-land-animatic-and?source=share
IT'S PAST TWELVE HERE'S YOUR UPDATE
It's a realm that slowly kills you BUT everything is "better" (tm) [to clarify, this only concerns renheng and the hcq]:
-it doesn't matter how he got in there, probably a mission. But dan heng somehow got caught in one of these.
-it's a sensation like waking up. And once he opens his eyes again, yingxing is right in front of him, asking if he's okay.
-"pffh, you slept like a rock. I didn't wanna wake you," he gestures to the bundle in dan hengs lap, "but she shouldn't be out too long. It's not good for babies."
-in his lap lies bailu, as a baby, peacefully sleeping.
-yingxing calls him dan feng, and he should know better, but it really feels like he was just sleeping.
-dan heng is like, 60% convinced. Something in his head tells him this isn't quite right. On the way back, while he's thinking about it, they meet the others from the hcq.
-jingliu, looking like she just sparred with jing yuan, and baiheng looks like she'd also had a nap.
-"aww, bailu is getting cuter by the day!" Coos baiheng. And jing yuan chimes in, "we all met up anyway, should we grab a bite to eat? Though it seems dan feng isn't quite awake yet."
-now, despite the situation making less sense, dan heng is getting pretty sure this is real. "Hmm... i believe i had a nightmare." 90% sure
-and on the way to a place to eat, dan heng tells them everything that happened. Things he remembers and things he was told.
-"That sounds terrible," jingliu pats his arm as they all sit down. "I wouldn't do that even if all that happened. Baiheng would rip my head clean off..."
-"haha... i would."
-and it all just transpires as if this was reality. What, with his husband, dear friends and his child, it's very realistic.
-even though he can't remember how they got bailu. The 'nightmare' still keeps his memories in check.
-and in the evening, when he tells yingxing about his worries, yingxing waves him off and tells him he shouldn't have slept in direct sunlight, and after a good nights sleep he'll feel better.
-when he does fall asleep, in his dream, dan feng tries to get dan heng to leave. But that just confuses dan heng more, why would he dream about himself?
-subconsciousness dan feng is literally so close to beating him up.
-next morning yingxing wakes him up with kisses. And suddenly, bailu runs into the room, now a toddler rather than a baby.
-and it just continues like that for a few days or weeks. But dan heng is always getting weaker by that point.
-one day, and dan heng is already bedridden, and yingxing initiates ( ;P )
-until suddenly, an arm comes straight through the wall, grabbing him,
-for all intents and purposes, it looks like yingxings arm. Same jacket, yingxing looks at it, shocked, before annoyedly shouting "oh, come on!"
-it's- it's blade. Coming in like. How dare you almost get killed by someone other than me. This is clearly a breach of trust. Didn't you promise we would pay the price?? Together???
-for some reason blades strongest desire is dying and that's the one thing this realm can't give.
-so it was really easy to escape. Aren't you glad MC called Kafka who then talked to elio and then talked to blade to help out dan heng who was about do die from uh. Being eaten alive.
-carrying dan heng out, who by that point just looks like himself again
-dan heng wants to stay, blade does not (tm)
-and and and they're leaving.
-the end.
-moral of the story: don't get trapped by one of ahas magical flytraps if you don't want the stellaron hunter to look after you.
-he literally stays on the express for 3 months also to make sure dan heng recovers but does not go back.
-he won't. Not if it means blade will come back and they'll go through all this again.
-but like, half delirious also says "if that's all it takes to get a date with a stellaron hunter" (<-he's not quite alright yet but he will be. Alright. And mortified. When he remembers he said that. But blade would be uncharacteristically worried.)
-blade will go back and destroy the thing. It's not worth the risk.
-after making sure with elio that he can, of course.
-jing yuan will be really worried if he ever finds out about all this.
-"please contact me if you ever want a date with him. There are simpler ways--" "i guarantee you i won't want one. But thanks for the offer."
-or maybe, alternative ending; blade takes dan heng to the luofu and the three make up and have sex.
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I hope that last sentence hit you like a train
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