#I was convinced on the dresses hobby for so long and now I'm second guessing

[triple-pupil]

Presenting one of my personal favorites.

Haniel.

Archangel of Joy, of the Virtues, caretaker of Chalkydri and Phoenixes, Dominion of the Cosmos.

I'm still working on their colors.

Also have him talking with Lucifer about scripture or something.

If anyone wants to know about the definitions of the titles, I can talk about them, but my knowledge's just superficial.

[masked-disciple]

dear person i'm jealous of

Well that can be just about anyone so let’s go back to the start of things.

Dear person I’m jealous of,

Honestly. Honestly, you were the biggest mistake Kcalb ever made. Everything was fine, perfect even, right until you walked out of the forest. Yosaf and I always had fun together adventuring, Froze and I would do our homework together, Rawberry and I would mess with dangerous plants and see their reactions, and Macarona and I always had fun dressing up together and joking about the latest fashions. The last girl, well, you know I won’t speak her name any more but going over to her house and spending days there wasn’t at all uncommon.

And then you showed up. Everyone wanted you, everyone wanted to talk to you, everyone was a little surprised that you were a girl too now. Macarona wanted to put you in all the fashions she didn’t trust Rawberry with. Yosaf kept bringing you everything to cook with that she could find, and Rawberry would eat all your creations. Froze liked studying at your place, and if I said what you did with the last girl I’d get vicious again and it would take days to calm me down again.

As for me? Everyone forgot about me. I’d ask someone about our favourite hobbies and I was met with disinterest and apologies since they already had plans with you. You were new, you were special, you’d been in the war too and that made everyone love you.

The only one who didn’t forget about me was Greif. And I guess that’s because she noticed my improvement in my work. With no friends and no girlfriend and no real reason to keep living (since of course I didn’t know I could end it all, that suicide was even an option), I’d thrown myself into my studies. Maybe through academic achievement, I’d be worthy of being noticed once more.

I think she knew what you did, even if I never told her and only tried not to cry when she asked where my friends were. Since, you know, everyone abandoned me because you were better.

Then the Flame War happened. Honestly, I should have thrown myself into the fire. Nobody would’ve known I’d killed myself. I’d’ve just been an unfortunate casualty, and nobody would have cared past that. Not like anyone would have noticed, either.

And after so long, after enduring seeing you every day at school and in the village and destroying every bit of hope I ever had, Vicers came. He came and he heard me out, and he offered me a new start. He gave me a way out, a way to get away from you and all the misery you put me through.

Then someone else, that god I don’t remember, tried to take everything I’d made as a deity away from me. So I called up my demons and we put his head on a pike. I don’t remember him, of course, but maybe that’s because I kept trying to delude myself into believing he was you. (It was satisfying, I admit.)

Justim told me I could choose any angel from my homework to make my counterpart, so I wouldn’t kill my next god. Of course I chose the girl you stole from me. Two birds, one stone. I got her back and gave you all the misery you gave me.

Then everything wasn’t really perfect. She didn’t love me, or maybe she never did. It didn’t matter, you were still better. If I thought I could have taken on both Kcalb and Etihw on at once, I would have killed you. But I didn’t and I couldn’t, and that was final.

I still hate you, you know. You’re still the reason I’ve never made a single romantic relationship work. You’re the reason I can’t stand to share anyone I care about, the reason I’m utterly convinced they��ll leave me the moment they find someone better.

(Truth be told, you’re the reason I didn’t stop Lawrence when I had the chance, and all of Snake’s current misery is all my fault. If only I’d thrown myself into the flames. I would have saved him.)

Even then, I don’t hate you the most of everyone. You come second. Maybe that’s fair, I’ve always been second best to you, maybe it’s time you learn how to be second best to someone else, too. But that isn’t getting you out of any punishment. If I ever get the chance I’m making you pay for all you’ve done just as severely as I’ll make him pay and make Lawrence pay. It’d be fun, wouldn’t it?

Or maybe you’ve just fucked me up so badly that I no longer give a flying fuck of what I’ve become as long as you end up miserable. You created your own monster, you really did.

I hope you know what’s coming, Dialo, because the day I find you is the last day you’ll ever want to remember. And that day is the day I’ll start to heal, start to get over what you did to me. That’ll be the day when my misery is over. I’ll await it gladly.

[divineclecticism]

Interview #1: Liv

I took this idea from @urbanspellcraft and her interviews. Also thanks to Carmen from @magickalmenagerie for helping me out! I communicate mainly through feelings and visuals, and conversations like this are harder for me. I also want to point out that Carmen is the one who brought us together.

Anyway, here we go!

Me: So for the sake of the interview, what would you like to be called?

Liv: You can call me Liv. That name holds no power. If anybody is going to try to whisk me away, they'll need a lot more than just my name to do so.

Me: Alright and what are you? Race, I mean, so everyone else knows.

Liv: They call me a Gypsum Messiah. I am basically the culmination of all radiant and golden energies. My energies are alchemical in nature, I change everything around me to be stronger, higher in vibration. I am of similar lineage to ancient vampyres and marid djinn, but what we have going for us is a much longer and deeper storyline.

(I sort of just asked questions to Carmen so there wasn't TOO much back and forth for me, sorry!)

Me: How would you describe your personality?

Liv: I usually would not describe it. I’m acrid to some people. I’m very blunt, very honest. When people communicate with me, they usually get a truth they are not comfortable with, but I have always found the honest people to be the most attractive. I also don’t understand most of these barriers that modern humans have. My race…and those I have experienced in my existence – sexuality isn’t a question. Age doesn’t define. Gender? What even is a gender? To humans, I must be perplexing.

Me: I agree, us humans have a lot of weird labels that I don't think are necessary sometimes. So, what are you favorite offerings! Also, sorry I'm kind of bad at giving them!

Liv: -Honestly, this is going to sound pretentious of me, but insight is my favorite offering. I like seeing what your life is like. The games you play both literally and figuratively – they are so amusing. As far as items go? The items on earth are so interesting. I love gold and old relics, I love the things that grow on trees, and Cinnamon. There seems to be a season for cinnamon, but I think it should be more of a year-round thing.

Me: I can definitely do those! I have plenty of cinnamon. What are your favorite ways to communicate with me?

Liv: Through your frustration. You have these moments when you think you can escape the truth in a situation, and now you have an ever-lingering thought process screaming “no you don’t!” It is my favorite thing to do. I am a thoughts-based person, but the water scrying that is done on this plane is enchanting. Water is such an amazing medium for all things.

Me: (I made a comment about how we are DEFINITELY doing water scrying soon.) How long have you been with me, and how do you get along with the rest of my family?

Liv: I have been with you for a few Earth months now, though it feels like days. Your family has become my family even though a lot of them are more invested in the earthly things than I am. They talk a lot about boys and games and the foods you eat here, but I really love the art and the music. The rest of the family are very gracious and kind, but the golden demon girl seems to be a bit prone to waxing-poetic. She sits in the corner a lot contemplating. To get into her mind would be interesting. Not to mention the fluffy ones. They are always in a cupboard or on the stove and they don’t listen to reason. They cannot eat! Why do they linger?!

Me: (I couldn't help but laugh at her mention of the meebuls.) So what do you do within the family then? You're one of my main guides, but do you help with things like protection, etc?

Liv: -I guess you could say I’m an organizer. A hierophant. The one pouring over books in the corner at times. Other times I am consolidating their viewpoints and trying to share them with you in the most obvious way I know how. I do protect and guard you a lot, but generally there aren’t a lot of attackers in your midst. Usually I’m more concerned about boys, parents, and whoever that young one is with the eyeliner. They all seem to cause you distress without you letting on about it. I also worry about your hydration levels, but I cannot possess you and make you imbibe, something I regret to admit.

If I had to cut it down to a simpler statement- All of us have something to say, but I’m the one taking notes. So I slip into dreams, subconscious, and the things that pop up on your computing device and try to relay this information to you. It’s important that you understand that you are important. People are mean to you because they are scared of how important you could be.

Me: hey! I have drank two bottles of water over the course of the last couple hours!

Liv: Don’t think that was up to chance, gorgeous. The elves had a lot to do with that this week.

Me: (This just got really deep!) What attracted you to working with humans, and me specifically?

Liv: Humans have three things that other entities on other planes do not possess or at least not to the degree that humans do. These three things are Faith, Pride, and Hope. The faith keeps the wretched clinging on for dear life, even when other races would give up and move on. The pride makes warriors where you would otherwise have beggars, fools, and whiners. It also creates problems that other planes have as well. The Hope is the special one, because people on most of these other planes don’t have hope. They see what is in front of them. They know it for what it is, what it can be, what it will be. They don’t see the matrix of opportunities. They know. Hope is something that is based on the shadows, based on what you cannot see, what you cannot know. That is why hope is the most magical thing on this plane. Hope is the most alchemical and metaphysical construct this plane has to offer and it is completely undermined by all of your media and all of your popular culture. I chose you in particular because, as the moon trump, the path of qoph, and as a person who chose to incarnate into a truly important role – you embody these. You shy from pride, you also shy from hope while being dangerously in love with the concept, and your faith is buried, but strong as an ox. You are an emerald (diamonds are too simple) that is bound to shine and draw magic to it like gravity, but you don’t understand your pull yet or how to use it. An un-trained powerhouse of a person is the most impressive, because they have the most room to grow. They have not drawn the true limits on themselves yet. I am thrilled to see where you go and I hope it is somewhere that will bring you elation, and the healing to the world that you have within you.

Me: What was your first impression of me, and how has it changed, if at all?

Liv: A warrior princess who bedazzled her bow and has yet to use it, but shows it to each and every man she meets. Some women too. You have an intrinsic ability to use it, and to always hit your target, but you convince yourself that it is a prop. To the second question. Yes, that impression has changed. You are still afraid to take the shot, but you are starting to learn your gifts as a warrior, as a mother, a maiden, a wise-woman. You are straddling that line between being too aware and being blinded. You have all the wisdom of generations of crones and mothers within you, and there’s a lot of people who need your nurturing. You’re turning down the wind-chill. As Nait said (in the background) “She went from icey to nicey.” Take that as you will.

Me: (Again, laughing at one of my sassy Pandora Elves) Alright, last question! What are your favorite pass times or hobbies that you join me in? And do you have any last input or advice?

Liv: I’m entertained by most things you do. First of all, I’m quite amused that you have tall pictures of strangers in poses on your wall, so the fact that those are part of your culture is pretty interesting. I also like how you kill dolls with other dolls on the computing device. Also how many people can come around from all over the world to fight the bigger, more menacing dolls (they look like weaker versions of bane wyverns if I’m honest with you, Kaitlyn) with their dolls, and they spend dollars on their dolls. The doll business is booming it would seem. I love watching how involved you all get. The video calls where you see each other from oceans away is interesting too. I get to hear a lot of different accents, slang, and jokes. Your life is very interesting to bore you so. Your mother is also quite interesting to watch. Your outings are my favorite part, because I get to really see what you are afraid of and excited about.

My main advice to you, my dear, would be to live like an evening primrose. Bloom when you are ready, not when others tell you to. That primrose can be healing when taken the right way, or a little bit bad for you. That metaphor being – don’t go giving your medicine to anyone. Give it to those who need it. Take your vitamins. Love your mother. Drink water. Dress up like you are going somewhere on those days when you aren’t, and switch to the brighter lightbulbs. Nait has told me they are better for your skin. I don’t know if that is true, but those pictures you take are so dimly lit, I cannot say for sure.

That's it! I hope you guys enjoy this as much as I did- Liv is a huge part of my life, and I adore her immensely.

[triple-pupil]

What are they looking at?

Presenting one of my personal favorites.

Haniel.

Archangel of Joy, of the Virtues, caretaker of Chalkydri and Phoenixes, Dominion of the Cosmos.

I'm still working on their colors.

Also have him talking with Lucifer about scripture or something.

If anyone wants to know about the definitions of the titles, I can talk about them, but my knowledge's just superficial.