#I was an idiot to not recognise lack of efforts in the last one I'm certainly not doing it again

[rosetta-stoned-bitch]

I feel like shit, too many straws on my back and one of them is def gonna break it

[finely-tuned-line]

RP:

PRIVATE TRANSMISSION

FTL: I've been thinking. Though I have already said the gist of this to Echoes of a Paradox in private, I do believe that it would also be of worth to say it here as well. Even if that means that only one other person gets to hear this.

FTL: I'm sorry.

FTL: I still have not fully processed the unintentional effects of my past actions, nor have I made a proper attempt to 'change' (and I do believe that latter is unecessary, for reasons of the fact that all of my actions that caused said unintentional effects have long since ceased, if for the fact that it's due to my reluctance to talk with you), but the apology is genuine.

FTL: I did not mean to harm either - any - of you, I did not mean to project my worldview. I completely understand that I am very much an outlier in terms of my thinking and that my lack of understanding of others' thinking can and has lead to my seeming prejudiced and judgemental, which in turn caused fear of rejection. It's also come to light lately that said mindset isn't considered to be healthy. And while I do disagree with that, that only applies to myself.

FTL: I do not say this often, and perhaps I should say it more, but I care about you. Hurting any of you is the very last thing I wish to do. I truly, genuinely, am sorry for the consequences of my actions, and I do hope that you can recognise my regret.

FTL: ...I love you.

EP: I've told you this already but: it's not alright. It never will be. But I do recognise your regret.

EP: thanks. Thank you, Finely-Tuned Line.

EP: It's still... It's still too late for all this to be happening, but I'm glad. I'm so glad that you've realised all this (even if it happened only after my rant), eventually. Better late than never!

EP: Love you too.

FTL: I suppose 'better late than never' would be the correct expression here.

FTL: I'll be making an attempt to communicate with you more often, as I have been shirking that responsibility. I'm sure I've missed a lot.

EP: Not really! Unless you wanna hear about my newest set of poems, which I'm very sure is not something you wanna hear.

FTL: ...Poetry, just like most forms of art, seems pointless.

EP: ...

FTL: Right, sorry. I do not mean it in the sense that you shouldn't do it. I mean it in the sense that I myself don't understand the point of it, but you are still entitled to the enjoyment of it.

EP: That's better, I suppose.

EP: There are so many things that you don't understand, aren't there...

FTL: I... have been told that rather often, yes. And it is a fact that I am conscious of. I do not make any effort to remedy it because, that too, is a pointless conquest.

DD: idiot.

DD: thanks for the apology i guess

FTL: Ah, hello Doubt's Dichotomy.

FTL: I would just like to say that I am not an idiot.

EP: Mmm no sol's right! It's just a bit wrong. You're a stubborn idiot. A truly rare breed...

FTL: ...

FTL: I do not see the point of continuing this.

EP: It's always about 'points' with you. Not everything has to have a meaning!

FTL: I disagree.

EP: Of course you do.

EP: You see, sometimes the 'point' of something is to simply have fun and enjoy yourself.

EP: Not everything has to have some... grand purpose or whatever.

FTL: I'll take that under advisement.

EP: That's better than nothing.