#I wanted to draw them with their respective partners but I got lazy lmao

[spookuns]

the robot babes, but in the dress™️

[blissfullyapillow]

Hi there!! Sometime last year I requested a matchup from you and loved it <3 IF you're still doing matchups, I'm wondering if you'd be interested in doing a matchup exchange for HSR? I'd be doing it through my sideblog if you wanted to send your match info in -> @frostfall-matches. BUT if you're no longer doing matchups or aren't interested, please disregard! :3

[ raven | afab, any pronouns | romantic match | preference for a male character ]

- personality: distant, introverted but not shy (disinterested), generally respectful of others but not necessarily kind/sweet, somewhat apathetic (flat affect, rarely has strong emotional reactions, but a majority of the time mood baseline is content/relaxed), calm under pressure, extremely independent, confident and self-secure (sometimes prideful to the point of arrogance), can take criticism well, straightforward (blunt, sometimes tactless/insensitive), tends to laugh off the severity of a situation, not very ambitious, mildly competitive, a moderate risk-taker (often gets a thrill from risky decisions, but tries to avoid lethal situations).

good/broad sense of humor (often more on the playful/absurd side, less so on the sarcasm), calm but playful around friends, very teasing, mischievous, realist that leans optimistic, curious, nosy and loves gossip/drama, a natural troublemaker/rulebreaker but also often unintentionally gets into trouble, comfortable with confrontation (often meets heated conflict with a snarky/condescending smile, a bit combative with authority and those who irritate me) but is generally easygoing, even-tempered, logical, does not hold onto regrets, generally does things out of self-interest but willingly helps others out occasionally.

- personality/alignment types: INTJ-A ; 7w8 ; chaotic neutral.

- love languages: physical touch and gifts. physical touch reserved only for close friends/partners.

- hobbies: video games (tactics, RPGs, visual novels), anime, drawing (digital), painting, baking, cosplay, writing, reading (fantasy, suspense/thriller, psychological, abstract), taking care of houseplants, home/decor DIY projects, hiking, thrill-seeking activities (an adrenaline junkie).

- likes: cats, frogs, sweets, most fruits, good food, lattes (a favorite of mine is chai), aromatic candles, piercings, tattoos, puns and lame dad jokes, cool weather, forests, mountains, traveling, new experiences, learning languages (currently knows/studied: english, french, korean, latin), medieval history, having ample amount of alone time/space, the occasional lazy day, the occasional philosophical discussion, a balance between structure and spontaneity, bantering with others.

- dislikes: dogs, horses, bitter foods, strong scents, hot weather, spiders (other bugs are ok), long car rides, feeling restricted, conformity and blind obedience, having to be responsible for others or lead them, being vulnerable, when others are condescending towards me (makes my pride flare up), when others step in to help without me asking, heavy use of sarcasm.

- qualities i value in a partner: independence, confidence, self-sufficiency, sense of humor, willingness to banter, openness to being teased, self-awareness.

- fun facts: quite clumsy, accident prone ; terrible sense of direction ; used to do gymnastics ; a weird mix between a night owl and a morning person (but afternoons are rough) ; majored in international studies and french in uni w/ minors in psychology and medieval history ; currently working as a medical scribe ; studied abroad and loved it, definitely took really well to long-term traveling and never really got homesick ; prone to bad luck but tries to find the humor in most situations.

- hsr-specific: REALLY fond of aha/elation as an aeon/path lmao, but if i had to pick an in-game path and type i'd probably be imaginary erudition.

Notes: @frostfall-matches. Hello again Raven! I remember you! I'd love to do a HSR matchup exchange with you, I'll send my info to you shortly after I upload this haha. Thank you so much for sending this ask in, as it motivated me to empty my inbox (which I'm slowly accomplishing). I really hope you enjoy this matchup I have for you!! Have a lovely rest of your day <3

What I think your relationship would sound like: Dan Heng

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I match you with: Dan Heng

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Your relationship with Dan Heng is an interesting mix of you two being fairly similar, yet very different at the same time. Even so, you two just blend well together, and it’s one of those really beautiful and unique relationships!    

Dan Heng loves that you’re someone who is calm under pressure, as other members of the express may need some coddling in times of crisis (there’s nothing wrong about that, but he just really admires this trait you have). Furthermore, he appreciates your bluntness. He can be a bit blunt at times, so he’s glad you’re the same way and that you can take criticism. 

At the same time, he values your ability to laugh off serious situations. It eases the intense burst of adrenaline he gets in critical situations, and it helps him think. 

You guys may occasionally bump heads since you can get a bit prideful at times, but it’s never anything serious. Usually he’ll just playfully roll his eyes and brush it off. Your ability to get into trouble reminds him of the trailblazer, and he damns it at times since he knows he’ll have to be the one to come to your rescue. 

Speaking of, he really won’t help you unless you ask since he knows that can be a sore spot for you. He’s someone who deeply values independence so he’ll respect your wishes. The only time he may step in is if your life is in mortal danger. He can deal with whatever you have to say or do to him afterwards, since he cares too much about you.

Your tendencies to be a bit combative with authority causes him no end of headaches, but he weirdly enjoys it. Just a little. It adds a spark into his life that otherwise wouldn’t be there. 

In the beginning of your relationship you were a bit apprehensive of Dan Heng’s ability to joke around. Thankfully, he pleasantly surprised you. Dan Heng can easily keep up with your humor, and he’ll even crack a few jokes of his own that he knows you’d find funny. His humor can be a bit on the dry side at times, but he’ll occasionally spice it up just because he knows you like it.

Dan Heng has no problem letting you have ample amounts of time alone, and vice versa. If anything, it makes the two of you happier to be around each other; it makes the time you spend together all the more special. 

During one of your shared travels, Dan Heng made the mistake of letting you lead the way. He quickly learned from his error, and will find ways to subtly guide the both of you or keep track of where you are so as to not get lost again. The time you both got lost was so memorable, the Astral Express Crew will mention it to newcomers as one of the crew’s ‘Legendary Express Stories.’ Dan Heng would prefer it if they didn’t, but he enjoys the expression on your face when they do; so he remains silent. 

You and Dan Heng are the most likely to be up at the oddest hours of the day, both engaged in your separate activities. Sometimes, you two can be found sharing tender moments together during these times. 

Dan Heng harbors an intense interest for your hobbies and likes. He’ll often ask you to recite some of your travel stories, or to tell him more about topics such as medical history.

He finds the differences you two share to be really cute! He won’t ever say that of course, but you can tell. The both of you are a sight to see together, and the entire Crew considers the both of you to be an utterly charming couple.

⊱  ۫ ׅ ✧ ୭ ˚. ᵎᵎ ⌇

“You’re positive this is the way to go?” Dan Heng’s skepticism leaves you nonplussed, but you remain wrongfully optimistic. “I’m sure! The scenery doesn’t look the same this time, and- look! That must be the way out!” Your excited explanation draws Dan Heng’s attention to your outstretched finger, pointing in the direction of what you believe to be the exit.

He scrutinizes the area for a moment as you dash ahead, before his eyes widen in surprise. “Raven, wait!” His warning comes all too late, as you find yourself in quite the predicament. 

Dan Heng almost wants to laugh, really, but he won’t. Not with that scary warning written all over your face. You insist you can find yourself out of the tangle of webs you’re now entrapped in, and he lets you.

It takes a fairly long time, but Dan Heng doesn’t mind. Once you’re out, the both of you continue on your way, finding yourselves in many more traps, dead ends, and familiar scenery. 

Until finally, finally, the both of you escape the elaborate labyrinth you were previously trapped in. As you release a boisterous shout of joy, Dan Heng releases the breath he didn’t know he was holding. 

You turn around to offer Dan Heng a high five, only to be met with a pair of lips pressing a swift, sweet kiss to your lips.

When he pulls away, you share nearly identical flushed expressions. 

It was such an adorable sight, it's been memorialized by March 7th’s camera.

Dedicated to,

⌞rav--en ⌝

[smolchildlevy]

Heyyy I'm so sorry for bothering you, but could I please request an aot matchup? I looked for an open slot everywhere, but I couldn't find it 👉👈 if I got it right reading the rules, you can match with one or more characters, but I'll say that's your choice- anyways, here's my info.

𝗡𝗔𝗠𝗘: Tsuki.

𝗔𝗚𝗘: 17 years old.

𝗚𝗘𝗡𝗗𝗘𝗥: afab, genderfluid.

𝗣𝗥𝗢𝗡𝗢𝗨𝗡𝗦: any pronouns.

𝗦𝗘𝗫𝗨𝗔𝗟𝗜𝗧𝗬: bisexual with female preferences, but you can match me with a man if you think it's necessary.

𝗔𝗣𝗣𝗘𝗔𝗥𝗘𝗡𝗖𝗘: 5'11, pale skin, round shaped face with a small double chin, potato nose, I have a piercing on my left nostril, long black hair, dark brown/hazel eyes, thick black eyebrows, I wear glasses and I'm chubby.

𝗣𝗘𝗥𝗦𝗢𝗡𝗔𝗟𝗜𝗧𝗬: ISFP, enneagram type 4, sun gemini and moon pisces. Stubborn, ambivert, caring, mature for my age, smart, lazy, selfish, spendthrift, little bit of a perfectionist, envious, honest, picky, easily affectionating and trusting people who are nice to me. I could do great things, the only things I miss are willpower and self-confidence and I have too many expectations when I'm about to do something and most of times I'll end up disappointed.

𝗟𝗢𝗩𝗘 𝗟𝗔𝗡𝗚𝗨𝗔𝗚𝗘: acts of services, words of affermation and gifts (giving). I need my extrovert counterpart. Someone who would support me during my mental breakdowns and accept all my flaws, someone who can give me PDA, calling me pet names. I'm a huge fan of things like comparing hand sizes, lying my head on their chest listening to their heartbeat to sleep, taking baths together etc. Someone I can take care of and who enjoys listening to my voice, I'd be their songbird.

𝗟𝗜𝗞𝗘𝗦: listening to music (any genre), makeup, skincare, perfumes, writing, drawing, singing, dancing, junk food, staying in bed all day, love stories about relationships between humans and vampires/nymphs/mermaids, cats, organizing/restocking, taking personality quizzes, shopping, travelling, sunflowers and lillies.

𝗗𝗜𝗦𝗟𝗜𝗞𝗘𝗦: being tall and chubby, raspberries (seriously, they disgust me, like blowing these on your stomach? That makes me sick), policity, static electricity, balloons, fireworks and firecrackers, snakes, any type of hate/violence/crime existing, experiencing nightmares, citrus fruits, way too hot weathers, sodas, coffee, dogs, being alone for too long, eating in front of other people, spending too much time on my phone.

𝗘𝗫𝗧𝗥𝗔: - I'm bilingual. I can speak italian which is my native language and english because I have russian relatives and instead of learning russian I learned english to be able to communicate with them. I want to learn japanese and german, but I'm lazy lmao.

- I have a pandora bracelet, each charm collected describes my personality.

- I fear walking around dark and isolated places, it might be the hallway to go to the bathroom at 3 A.M, but I get anxiety like fearing something could pop out of the kitchen door and grab me, dragging me somewhere God only knows 😭

- (TW!) I deal with depression which takes me to anxiety, panic attacks and slight anger issues. I'm also dealing with an eating disorder. This has become worst since my dad passed away due cancer last year. I lost so many people I loved, that's why I tend to get attached to people.

Ty in advance and sorry for the poem <3

You did perfectly! And I am so sorry that happened to you. I hope your family is doing well! :(

I match you with..

Hange Zoe!

-Extroverted partner here!

-Adores you completely, everything about you is lovely to them

-They also have great respect for you

-Hange loves to hold you while you vent, humming to let u know theyre listening while holding your hand

-When they see you in public they are launching their self at you, calling you the nicknames they normally do

-Ex: Baby, Love, Sweetheart, My girl, etc.

-They’re def bigger than you so yes your hand sizes are pretty different

-LOVES your voice!! Cant get enough of it fr

-They will always be there for you and I mean always, even when things get rough they’ll try their best to make it better

[fmdrohan]

hello, hi ! 👋🏽  i hope this introduction post finds everyone well. ♡ i’m no one new to these parts, but for those of you who don’t know me, you can call me alé. i’m 21+, use he/him pronouns, and i’m the current typist for aria’s main vocalist, nina seo, & now, i’m bringing you all yet another muse. so, without further delay, i’d love to introduce you to brand-new creation of mine called 𝖞𝖔𝖔 𝖗𝖔𝖍𝖆𝖓. he is knight’s main dancer, sub vocalist, and rapper, as well as their currently marketed “sexy” member. outside of his career, he’s honestly just one big douche-bag skater kid that seeks cheap thrills, and who wants to do nothing more than put a smile on your face... even if causes him trouble sometimes. more info about him is below the cut, so please like this to plot ! ♡ tumblr im’s or discord by request.✨ 

𝖍𝖎𝖘𝖙𝖔𝖗𝖞.

born in seoul, south korea, to a working class, christian family.

mom was a manager at a local restaurant, dad worked at a law firm.

both of them were busy all the time; they lived paycheck-to-paycheck.

he didn’t get much attention at home, so he sought it out at school.

there, he was known as a a huge “class clown” or “class daredevil.”

all he wanted was to put smiles on people’s faces and push limits.

did he end up in the principal’s office a lot? YES, that was his “brand.”

as he got older, his class clownery turned to pranks and thrill-seeking.

he also became HELLA interested in skateboarding and parkour lmao.

rohan felt as if he wasn’t living if he wasn’t on constantly on the edge.

he’s broken a few bones, endured tons of scrapes, but never gives in

this, obviously, didn’t please his mother and father... they were just busy.

too busy to reprimand him and care—rohan got away with a loooot of shit.

he didn’t start receiving discipline until he was scouted by bc entertainment.

despite his messy hair, distinct style, and overall vibe, he fit the bill somehow.

the two years he spent in practice changed him a little as a person; for better.

he found a new love in dancing, and he was naturally pretty great at it tbh.

his background made him extremely coordinated, flexible, and really strong.

his fearlessness made him bold enough to try out new moves or stunts.

two years later, he débuted as a main dancer and kept his impulses at bay.

this isn’t exactly what he saw himself doing in life, but he wasn’t mad at it.

over time, his image began to shift into sexier and “stud-lier” territory.

his outfits became more revealing and he was treated differently in public.

this... fucks him up a lot because it’s the exact opposite of how he is.

he’s just some skater / parkour punk that gives off dumb big bro vibes.

how on earth do they expect him to be portray and convey sexy 24/7?

as this is more of a “job” to him than passion, he does what they tell him to.

so long as his checks get signed and he accumulates wealth, he’s good.

𝖕𝖊𝖗𝖘𝖔𝖓𝖆𝖑𝖎𝖙𝖞.

as mentioned above, rohan gives off very douchey “big brother” vibes.

he’ll pick on you, tease you, pull pranks on you, etc. all in the name of fun.

he’ll go too far sometimes, and he’ll feel bad, but has “no regrets.” 😎  lol.

lowkey loooves anime and draws his own bad sketches; also into sci-fi.

underneath the dumb, douchebag exterior is just a big ol’ nerd, that’s all.

if you’re a cute guy, he’ll DEFINITELY flirt with you—taken or not taken lol.

he’s someone that hasn’t really let being an idol ruin his personal life tbh??

he still does whatever the fuck he wants within the constraints of his contract.

though, whenever he gets “bored,” he does things he’s not supposed to.

bc entertainment’s warned him of being careful not to injure himself, but...

i don’t really think he cares at this point in his career; he likes more freedom.

little random, but he loooves underground / indie rock music and rap, too.

one of those assholes that doesn’t really listen to any other idol music lmao.

to be fair though, he’s not really a massive fan of knight’s music either. 😁

he just sings or raps whatever they tell him to and rolls with the punches.

lowkey wants to take up tattooing and graffiti at some point, he’s that guy.

loooves to talk and meet new people, even if they find him a li’l annoying.

whenever he’s stressed, angry, upset, hungry... he shows it with aggression.

it’s never gotten intense much, but he’s not much of a sensitive “crier” yk.

there’s more of him for me to discover as time goes on, so that’s it for rn!

𝖕𝖑𝖔𝖙-𝖑𝖎𝖓𝖊𝖘.

no plots page yet, sry :/// i’ve been a little busy this week rip.

some ideas will be below though so lmk if they appeal to you!

one, he’s definitely known to ghost people, so... maybe your muse is one of ‘em? like, this would be locked to males in the lgbt community, but you know. give him some really awkward encounters to make him feel like shit for ditching you after tons of sweet talk. sad thing is, he’s aware of it, and it’s mostly because of his schedule, but also ??? he’s just having fun, you know. he doesn’t wanna get tied down to anything right now.

two, maybe that ONE GIRL he tried to fuck with at the beginning of his career. while he knows he’s always been attracted to men, i think he would’ve convinced himself to at least try it out with a woman to make sure he wasn’t also interested in them, too. he’s a MASSIVE flirt and sweet talker, definitely made her feel special, but like... it never really went anywhere because... he just wasn’t into it, but didn’t wanna make her mad lmao. clearly ended up in a break-up and it could be both an ugly or pretty ending imo idk.

three, i’d DIE if other muses in famed were super into skating, or anime, or really any of his interests, too, and they’ve formed a “club” of sorts? just your local band o’ dirtbags who get together and fuck shit up a little bit here and there. i feel like this could be open to anyone who shares any of his interests tbh ??? maybe closer to his age is preferred, but honestly, i’m here to discuss whatever! i’m all for compromises and shit tbh.

four, maybe someone’s he’s lowkey seeing ( male, male-presenting lock ) that he’s really vibing with, but he just can’t... feasibly reason why he should have a bf right now. he’s got a lot going on, so he’s kind of a flake, but at the same time, he doesn’t intend to be an asshole to them. they’re maybe one of the only people he’s “softer” with. can end up romantic or platonic depending on how they handle it together, me thinks!

five, a dance partner or two would be pretty cool tbh! he’s not a dancer first, so he likes to dance with other people who are passionate about it to learn from ‘em. he can handle his own with choreography, but doesn’t have his own distinct style, so he’d really appreciate all the help he can get in becoming better ig? all in the name of work!

six, maybe a person who fucking HAAAATES him because they find him really annoying and super douchey, so they just... avoid him at all costs. however, he kinda picks up on the fact that they avoid him, so he pesters them even worse, which doesn’t end well... ever. this is definitely more open to anyone tbh and we can plan as we go!

seven, flipside where it’s someone that he CAN’T stand because he finds them really persnickety, snobby, and rude as fuck. if there’s one thing he hates A LOT, it’s bratty rich kids with silver spoons in their mouths. like, if this was a “the outsiders” verse, he’d be a greaser 1000000%, not a soc. lmao. he’d butt-heads with this person a fuck-ton.

eight, however many guys wanna piece of him, he’s happy to have a catalogue of fwb’s he calls on. he’s definitely not someone who says no to a good time, and he can act like a perfect boyfriend if that’s what you want. sadly, this’ll always be a temporary game. any of these fwb’s can go in many directions and can be plotted out individually!

nine, the age old question... “who’s your ideal type?” under pressure, he said you as a joke ( because of this, it could be male or female ) and now, fans of your respective groups ship you two together all the time. it’s a little awkward, and you two haven’t really talked about it much, but here you are... at a shared event sitting next to each other. how do you handle it? what do you do? is it awkward or all in good fun?

ten, someone who kinda hates that he doesn’t really take being an “idol” all the serious. he’s got a lot of shit on his bucket list he wants to do and he doesn’t let fame fuck with that, so he’s careless. he didn’t go into this business because of passion, it’s just where he ended up. your muse doesn’t like that, and thinks people like him are lazy as fuck.

[kirishwima]

Sorry I sent you the same ask earlier but I'd rather it be anon! How about RFA + Saeran headcanons with a professional dancer MC? Like dancing that's a bit more "close" like tango. How do they feel about her career and do they ever get jealous? Or do they just see it as her job? How do they feel about her dancing partner? (Assuming her dance partner is just a really cool standup guy who respects his partner's relationship)

so, quick funny story: i signed up for a dance class last semester as an EC, thinking it’d be fun workout dances like zumba...turns out no,  me and my other 3 friends signed up for a classical dance class where each girl had signed up with her boyfriend, so people just assumed we were 2 lesbian couples for the whole semester lmaoanyway that’s just to say-i got u covered with this headcanon lmao

YOOSUNG:

* When MC told him about their profession he was really excited! He immediatly went to youtube to watch some of MC’s competition videos, ready to whole-heartedly support her work

* Even though MC told him she focused more on latin and classical dances, and that she had a dance partner, Yoosung didn’t really put two and two together until he clicked on a video of her performing a waltz with her dance partner

* Seeing her so close to him, his leg nearly slipping between her thighs as he held her close by the waist and whirled her around the stage...Yoosung couldn’t help the jealousy churning in his gut, but more than that, he couldn’t help but compare himself to MC’s dance partner-imagining how different it’d be if he were the one dancing with her, his guilty jealousy mixing with his insecurities into a sticky concoction that made his chest heavy.

* He wouldn’t upright tell MC he was angry or jealous-but MC’s no fool. If she came home to Yoosung giving her the cold shoulder, she’d understand where that’s coming from and sit down with him to talk.

* Honestly, all Yoosung needs to hear is that she and her dance partner are simply good friends and colleagues, and that she’s in love with Yoosung, no one else.

* Having Yoosung meet her dance partner would also help-and whilst Yoosung’s jealousy may never fully go away, it’ll mellow out, and he’ll simply be glad to see MC enjoying her work, and you can be dang sure he’ll be there for her 100%, supporting her in each competition and recital.

ZEN:

* Whilst he’s a very, VERY jealous guy, he’s also a professional, so he’s actually quite calm when MC explains her profession and how she has a dance partner.

* Zen would insist on meeting this guy, wanting to be certain he has no ulterior motives dancing with MC-he’d never be rude to the guy, but he’d be a little stiff at first.

* Once he understands that he’s a standup guy that simply views MC as a friend and colleague, Zen will be more than satisfied. After all it’d be ironic for him to make a fuss when MC never fusses over him having romantic scenes with other actors, now wouldn’t it?

* He’s very supportive, and actually helps MC practice some dance moves whilst at home!

* He doesn’t really know much about classical dances, but he’s had some lessons before so he knows the basics at least, and if it comes to alternative dances or latin ones, he’s definitely good at them

* Besides...he’ll never pass up on an opprotunity to hold MC close to him, sliding his hands onto her hips as they sway together along to the music *wink wonk* 

* Just a supportive boyfriend really, plus, he’d totally gush about his fantastic dancer girlfriend on his social media lol~

JAEHEE:

* She’s honestly probably the only one to not be jealous...at all

* She finds MC’s profession wonderful, and is super supportive-as much as she is with Zen’s carreer!! Will never miss a competition or show if she can help it, and will even help MC practice at home as much as she can-even though when MC gets super close to her to practice some moves she’ll get really flustered about it lol

* The only thing that might bother her is that MC seems so graceful thanks to her years of dance training, that Jaehee wonders if MC feels that she’s too ungraceful. When she brings that up to MC though and MC furiously denies it, saying she loves Jaehee as she is and that she’s wonderful, then even that worry completely disissipates, and all that’s left is genuine excitement and support.

* She does want to meet MC’s dance partner eventually, if only to also congratulate him on their successful career; and if she finds out he’s a nice and kind guy she’ll be happy he’s MC’s friends (and hopefully hers too!)

* Honestly though...just imagine a lazy afternoon with Jaehee, the sun’s lower in the sky but still peeking through the curtains, illumianting dust particles in the air, Jaehee’s brewing coffee as MC chooses a dance track to play on her phone connected to a speaker, and as the music starts she sneakily comes up behind Jaehee, wrapping her hands around Jaehee’s waist, swaying them both to the beat. Jaehee laughs, her cheeks red as she turns around to kiss the corner of MC’s lips, when MC finds the opprotunity to take Jaehee by the waist and swirl her around, dancing with her in the living room, only instead of proper dance steps they just sway each other around, giggling every time they step over one another.

* im sORRY im a useless bisexual that dreams of having a girlfriend to do this with ok, let me live T-T

JUMIN:

* He’s actually a very posessive guy, and has been fully trained in classical dances, so when MC tells him about her profession and her dance partner, he sits there with his arms crossed over his chest, a frown on his lips.

* “And this dance partner of yours...how did you meet him? How long do you know each other? Is he in a romantic relationship? Has he ever expressed interest in you that goes beyond friendship?”

* It’ll take a while for MC to calm him down and will require yet another discussion about boundaries and posessiveness-while it can be cute to be jealous sometimes, obsessing over the other person isn’t, and Jumin never wants MC to feel that he’s pressuring her or being over-protective; so he’ll apologize, but ask to meet this dance partner, if only to ease his worries.

* Turns out the guy is not only a really respectful dude, but he also has no romantic interest in MC, and clearly says so to Jumin-mainly bc the poor guy’s terrified of the cold stare Jumin pins him with lmao

* Other than that, Jumin is fully supportive, and will never miss a show MC puts up for anything in the world-though sometimes he’ll bring Elizabeth the 3d with him so she too can experience the grace of dance lol

* He’ll oftentimes ask MC to dance with him, be it in buisness parties or simply during lazy mornings at home, happy for any excuse that lets him hold MC this close to him. 

* He’s actually an amazing dance partner, and MC will ask him to help her practice new steps from time to time when he’s at home

SEVEN/SAEYOUNG/LUCIEL:

* Of course he already knew about her profession since he did a background check and all, and he knew about her dance partner too-he even did a background check on him, back when he was trying to figure out who the hacker is, in case he might be the guy they’re looking for.

* He finds MC to be so, so graceful, and seiing her dance up close is a blessing; he really thinks she looks weightless in those moments, even more beautiful than usual as she seems to genially enjoy her time dancing

* He’s not of much help, but he loves grabbing MC and twirling her around when music plays, and even with no music playing, he’ll hum a tune himself, relishing in MC’s giggles as he holds her close to him

* They’re that adorable silly couple that dances around in their pyjamas whilst making breakfast, ending the little dance session with a kiss and the sound of laughter echoing across the house. 

* He can’t always make it to MC’s shows due to his job, but he’ll hack into the cameras of the theatre later on to make a DVD out of her preformance to watch at home later on-sometimes MC will join him in watching so she can take note of things she’d like to change or improve.

* When it comes to jelaousy, it’s true that Saeyoung does feel a pang of it when he sees the chemistry she and her dance partner have when they dance; but it’s not hard to notice when Saeyoung feels this way, and a kiss to his cheek followed by an ‘I love you’ can melt the negative feeling straight off of his body.

V/JIHYUN:

* He too finds MC being a dancer amazing, and is absoloutely supportive-he honestly not once even felt a tange of jealousy at her closeness to her dance partner, he was simply and whole-heartedly supportive and excited for her carreer. 

* He’d shyly ask if he could observe some of her practices to draw some sketches-it’s the best chance to study things like the line of action, and how a motion sketch can then be transferred into a full proper painting.

* Even though he’s pretty much given up on photography and switched to painting instead, he’d love to sneak some photographs of MC when she’s practicing her steps around the house; if MC notices him and asks him to join her in dancing he’ll turn bright red, insisting he can’t possibly match her, a professional dancer, when it came to dancing

* And yet he’d be yet again underestimating himself; he’s had dance lessons ever since he was a kid up until his late teens, so sure, he’s not a professional or anything, but he’s no novice either, and with some effort he can absoloutely keep up with MC

* This leads to frequent impromptu dance sessions around the house-Jihyun hates silence so there’s always music playing across the house, and MC will never waste an opprotunity to take a hold of Jihyun’s hands, prodding him to move forward and dance with her; she’ll have to guide his hands to her hips as he’d be too shy to do it himself at first, but once she gets him into it he’ll let himself relax, holding her close as they move to the beat, smiling as he leans his head to the crook of her neck.

* Just picture this: It’s early morning, Jihyun’s wearing his hair in a low ponytail as he’s setting down cups of coffee on the kitchen table, when a song MC loves comes up on the radio. He turns to her with a sheepish smile, knowing exactly what she’ll do-still in their pyjamas, MC runs around the table to Jihyun with an excited grin, grabbing his wrists as he lets her take the lead, letting her pace their first steps before he gets the hang of it and starts leading the dance instead; his movements are smooth and effortless, and he even dips MC down at the end, his hand on the small of her back, his one leg between her thighs as he supports her weight with one hand. He’ll smile, big and toothy and so unlike the usual poised Jihyun, giving MC a quick kiss before laughing and getting back up to give her her mug of coffee, taking a long sip from his to hide his blush in the bitter flavor.

* I have Big V Feels I’m Sorry :’)

SAERAN/RAY/UNKNOWN:

* He too knew all about MC and her profession from his background check before he brought her to Mint Eye; he didn’t think much of her dance partner at first, but as he started to develop feelings for her this jealousy grew and grew in him.

* While at Mint Eye he’d constantly ask MC questions about her dance partner, if they were close, if she liked him e.t.c.

* But everytime MC told him she likes Ray/Saeran, the jealousy would melt away, replaced by a deep infatuation instead

* After the whole Mint Eye ordeal and during his recovery, he’d love to watch videos of MC’s past competitions, and would never miss the chance to watch her dance up close; he’d never ask himself, but if she invited him to come to any of her practices he’d be more than thrilled, quietly observing her movements with an excited interest.

* It’d take a LOT of courage from him, but he’d eventually come up to MC, his cheeks red as he looked down and away from her. “I um-I’ve never-I never learnt to dance. And seeing you look so graceful I-”

* “Of course I’ll teach you Saeran!” she’d giddily agree before he could continue, and he’d be so shocked but happy-he genially wants to learn!

* She’d teach him some of the basics at first, but then during off season she’d bring him with her to practices so that her dance partner can teach her some things too since the steps are different for men and women in classical dances.

* He’d furiously blush everytime he danced with MC, biting his lip when she’d tell him to move closer to her.

* “Saeran you chest has to be as close to mine as possible-no, closer than this. Closer!” she instructed as she held his hands in hers, her chest flush to his as he slowly backed away embarassed.

* As he got bolder though....

* “Saeran, come closer than this.” 

* Well MC, if you insist...he took a hold of her hands, tugging her forward to him-before she could tumble over he slid a leg between hers, letting her head fall onto his chest, and before she could look up and speak, he’d lean down to kiss her.

* “Is this close enough?” he asks with a smirk and at that moment MC knew. She knew she’s created a Monster

* But she wouldn’t have it any other way ;)

-send me mystic messenger headcanons for character reactions!-

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[surveys-at-your-service]

Survey #302

“heaven ain’t close in a place like this”

What color are your eyes? Grayish blue. What's your favorite type of milk? If we're talking the basics, ig 1% is fine. What would you change about your appearance if you could? Oh, hunny, you got time for an essay? What would you change about your bedroom if you could? I need to fucking finish decorating it... It's not finished by no fault but my own laziness. Are you rich or poor? We're definitely pretty poor. Are you double jointed? I don't think so. What's the most physically painful thing you've ever experienced? I once had a large infected cyst that had to be drained by applying pressure to it, and I swear to Christ I don't know how I didn't faint. They gave me morphine and multiple numbing shots, but none of that did SHIT. I'm not even embarrassed by the fact I was shrieking and sobbing and swearing because I'm pretty fucking sure any sane person would've cried out many times. I'm convinced they either didn't numb me enough for someone of my size back then, or I should've just gone under for it. I have no words for how painful it really was. Do you like shots? Uh, given that nobody LIKES getting a shot with a needle, I'm going to assume you mean like, taking shots of alcohol, in which case I've never tried, but I can almost absolutely guarantee you I'd hate them. I hate the taste of alcohol (hence why I only drink sweet and weak stuff), sooooo, I've got my doubts I'd enjoy something so potent. Are you afraid of spiders? Yes and no? Small ones don't tend to get to me, and I LOVE tarantulas. Big spiders are absolutely fascinating and I love *watching* them, but if I was surprised by a sudden spider, I'm going to probably cry out and jump/scramble away. But on a real note, respect your spiders, whether they scare you or not. They are so important to the ecosystem. See one in the house, take it outside if you can. Have you ever had an allergic reaction to something? To some earrings, yes. I have to wear ones that don't have silver in them. Do you like to read? Yeah, but not nearly as much as I did as a kid. I'm even slacking on WoF lately... Do you know what your purpose in life is? *SLAMS FISTS ON TABLE* BITCH I WISH I KNEW What's something you would like to improve at? Not being a socially anxious catastrophe. Do you believe you have great potential? Everybody does. You just have to use it. What is the most beautiful scenery you have ever beheld? Probably the mountains when driving to Tennessee. Or New York? I really can't recall either so clearly as to have a favorite. Are you flexible? Noooot anymore. Back in my WiiFit days, I was a gotdamn snake. List a song lyric that you like. Oh Jesus, don't make me think. Uhhhhh there's so many. Flipping through artists in my head with lyrics I tend to love, there's Otep with: "hey, hey, NRA, how many kids did you kill today?". Simple, but spine-chilling to me. Huh, time to listen to it actually, lol. That song murders me with the goosebumps. Do you meditate? No; I can't. You can't tell me to "free my mind," man. It's way too hectic at all times up there. What's one place you've been to that you want to visit again? I'd love to go back to Chicago one night when I actually learn how to do nighttime urban photography. What's one place you want to go that you've never visited before? I always answer "South Africa" to questions like this, so for variety's sake, I'll say the Bahamas. But a conspiratory bitch is afraid of the Bermuda Triangle, so... lmao. What's your favorite type of tree? I like big, impressive weeping willows. How many times have you seriously injured yourself? Only two occasions I can think of immediately. Maybe there's more, but idk. Did you attend Sunday School as a child? Yeah, even though I hated it. What is the longest your hair has ever been? Maybe a little passed the small of my back? What about the shortest? (not including being a toddler or baby): How it is now and has been for a couple years: shaved short on the left side, and it transitions to a length near my chin as you go to the right. Have you ever smoked a cigarette? No. Are/were you in the school band, and if so, what instrument did you play? I did, and I played the flute. I'd choose the saxophone if I could go back. Who does the grocery shopping in your household? Well, it's just Mom and me, so her. If you were to donate to charity today, what would you donate to? One that focuses on ovarian cancer for Mom. What is your favorite card game and when was the last time you played it? Even though I was never great at it or knew every single rule, "Magic: The Gathering" is honestly really fun, and I loved looking at the card art. I haven't played it since I was with Jason, so at least five-six years. Would you consider yourself to be good at spelling and grammar? Yeah, but I've somehow gotten worse with time???? I question the spelling and tenses of words I write a lot. What is your favourite seasonal candy? (only available at certain times): Probably like, chocolate rabbits. NOT hollow. Way to break my heart. Or gingerbread cookies. What was the last chocolate bar you ate? I think a Hershey's? It was a while ago. Who was the last person you talked to on Skype/video chat? I was in a Zoom session with multiple people for my partial hospitalization program. Have you ever dreamt about sleeping with someone other than your partner? If so, did that make you feel embarrassed? I've never had a dream like this while in a relationship. The last time you had butterflies in your stomach, what was the reason? I have no idea. Has anyone told you that they miss you recently? No. Has anyone ever asked you out or told you that they liked you, and you rejected them? Can you explain why you didn’t like, or didn’t feel attracted to that person? There was this one guy in the 4th grade who asked me if I would go out with him so much it almost became like a joke. I just... didn't like him like that. Then there's Juan; I'd just been warned that he had a bad rep by a very reliable adult, and the idea of dating him was kinda... intimidating anyway. Plus he was a smoker, which was and still is a no-no for me. What part in a movie would you love to play? The clinically insane villain or something because I feel with my history, I could channel that very well IF I actually wanted to act in the first place. What piece of furniture have you replaced the most? The couch. What’s the best part of your favorite movie? When Simba walks up Pride Rock in the rain and roars and all the lionesses join in. Chilling. What do you think is the most over-rated candy ever? Candy corn is repulsive. What was the highlight of your day? My mom was raving to one of my therapists in the PHP about my art and how badly she wants me to just get everything out there. I was smiling really big but looking down with how shy but also flattered it made me. Do you know anyone who is anorexic? I don't think so. Who has hurt you the most this year? Ha, myself. What's the last insult someone said to you? Hm. How much did your car cost? N/A What is the last picture you received on your phone of? Uhhh Mom mighta sent me a meme or Sara showed me a drawing someone made of Suriza, I think. Have you ever let someone go because you thought they deserved better? No, though I've felt that way before. Is there anybody you're really disappointed in right now? I'm still not over the fact Dad was a druggie before me and my sisters, apparently. It's almost like... hurtful in some weird way? Idk exactly why, it's just something I know I feel. What do you hear right now? I have Motionless In White's cover of "Somebody Told Me" playing in another tab. Do you do anything to help the environment? I do what I can as someone who isn't financially independent and reliant on another person for transportation. I won't litter for anything (and this includes shit like letting balloons go in the air, fucking stop), I'm trying to use my metal straw always in place of plastic, and to use less plastic bags, I try to spread out the times I clean Roman's litterbox to a few days; not to the point it's disgusting or uncomfortable for him, of course, though. Three days without is pretty much max. When's the last time you did something you knew was wrong? Ha, a little while ago... I was trying to avoid eating the two last biscuits Mom made for dinner 'cuz I really gotta lay off the carbs, but Mom "joked" that "it's your birthday, you get to do whatever you want," so I kinda just said fuck it lmao. Do you think that you have a pretty smile? No, because my eyes squint badly, and I also hate my teeth. When's the last time you cried over a guy? A few days ago a little bit, actually. I was reminiscing too much and recalling some of the warmest memories. Are you scared to lose the person you fell the hardest for? I already did. Oh well. Is there someone you wouldn't mind kissing right now? Yep. Do you have any friends that actually model? No. Do you care about the last person you kissed? A fucking lot. Do they care about you? Yes. Is there someone you wish you were with right now? Yes, just because of past birthday memories. I keep hoping a "happy birthday Britt" pops up in my FB messenger, and I hate myself for it. Have you ever imagined how it would feel kissing a certain someone? I legitimately just huffed in humor, guess, lmao. What are the bad things you've heard people say about you? That I'm a martyr, going nowhere, lazy, not trying hard enough, y'know, all that good stuff. Do you flirt a lot? Definitely not. What phrase or saying do you use the most? Probably "oof" lol. What mood are you in right now? I'm doing pretty all right. Kinda dreading Miss Tobey coming over, mean as it is, but I just... don't wanna deal with her and her judgments on my birthday. But I'm looking forward to seeing my sisters, and therapy went very well. Have you ever kissed someone that was high? No. Do you have a good relationship with your mother? Yep. How many exes do you have? I only consider two exes "serious," as I've only been in two deep and long-term relationships, but if we're counting everyone who's had the label of "boyfriend" or "girlfriend," there's six. Do you want to be single or with someone? Ugh, I don't know. It's probably better I don't 'til I figure my shit out, but I really do miss the companionship a lot. Why did you kiss the last person you kissed? Because I love her and I was leaving her at the airport. Does your mom think you’re a virgin? She doesn't know for the same reason I don't, really. I think she leans towards I am, but idk. Is there someone that wants you to give them a second chance? I don't know. What size bra do you wear? Uhhh I genuinely don't buy bras enough to know this exactly. C-something. Does the person you last kissed still like you? I don't know if she still like-likes me. Are your parents still together? Noooo. Was your first time good or bad? I dated an Italian, if u kno what I mean. ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) Which friend-turned-enemy do you miss the most? Colleen, sometimes. Have you ever used an epi pen, and it worked? I have not. What is on your top priority list for today? Make this fuckin' day for me. I'm trying to not let the depression sink in and make me feel worthless on today of all days. So I'm trying to stay in a positive headspace. Do you own any sand art in a jar? Omg, those are so cool! But no. Does the sun come in your window in the morning or at night? Not really; there's houses in the way. What was the last piece of art you created? A drawing of a meerkat with its mouth open angrily, done with colored pencils, against a black background. It's on my second dA. What time of day do you take medications? I have prescription meds for when I wake up and at bedtime. What's your newest hobby you've started? A new hobby? Huh... What are some things you wanted to do that your parents didn't let you do? They wouldn't let us stay home alone until a certain age, we had a timer on the TV at bedtime to shut off after a while, we weren't exposed to certain music or shows, no cursing... stuff like that. What YouTube channels do you recommend? This is a BAD question to ask me, 'cuz I could just about recommend channels for just about any niche. I watch soooooo many. What is your favorite day of the week? Tuesday, because it's reset day in WoW, haha. Meaning, I get to do my stupid mount farming raids again for the week. Blackhand, gimme your FUCKING clefthoof already. Ballet or cheerleading? Ballet is beautiful. What are your favorite sports to watch? Only dancing, really. Were you ever in the marching band? No. Which holiday has the best decorations, in your opinion? My contrasting aesthetics make this hard, haha. I love Christmas with all the beautiful light displays people can make, but let's not sleep on Halloween, y'all. I loooove Halloween decor, like c'mon, that's where I get shit for my room year-round, lmao. What do you want to be known for? It'd actually be kinda cool if I built up some sort of rep in the vulture culture community with my photography of roadkill. For how few shots I actually have on there and minimal interaction, my Instagram for it is doing quite well, if you consider those factors. They've gotten some pretty decent attention on dA, too. I would love for people to know why I do it though, of course: awareness and respect for the animal's life. How often do you wear make-up? Almost never nowadays. Think of the person you are jealous of...what are you jealous of them for? She's actually making a career out of her photography. Do you have art that you made in high school? Oh, plenty. Do you have trauma in your past? *clears throat* take a fuckin seat Favorite type of frosting? Chocolate. Have you ever tried cake decorating? No. One of my sisters is actually one, though! She's great at it. What clubs are you a part of? None. What was your favorite book that you had to read for school? The Outsiders. 6th grade, to be exact. Do you like to read classics, or do you usually read new arrivals? I don't prefer one over the other, honestly. Were you a big partier in college? No, I never partied. Is your college one you would recommend? My most recent one, fuck yes. They're amazing and care so deeply for their students. Would you go camping in the woods alone? Yikes, no. Would you name your kids after anyone? If I had a son and I had my way with the name, he would be named after the Most Selfless Man in the World, Damien from WKM. :'''''( Do you have any supernatural gifts? No. Are there any good churches in your town? You're asking someone who has a bad relationship with religion. Do you want an indoor or outdoor wedding? It really depends on the season and venue my spouse and I pick. Do you think you would be a good salesperson? HEEEEEEEEEEEELL NAW fam. I ain't pressuring people to buy shit.

[matsuhanakids]

Matsukawa Issei headcannons no one asked for

So no one really asked for these but ive been compiling them for a few days now lmao

He takes really hot fucking showers??? like Hanamaki was staying over one day, asked him to start a bath for him, and then yelled when he got in because what the fuck mattsun, why is the water so hot??

He likes to doodle a lot, like nothing really big but he does have a sketchbook and its filled with cute lil drawings of soft things like dogs and plants. 

There is always music playing with him, and whatever music he listens to has a lot to do with his mood. He’s fuckin weird though because its not normal stuff like sad songs if he's sad, no, he listens to like really shitty old American country when he's sad, and Lofi-hiphop when he's calm or happy.

He has to pluck his eyebrows at least twice a week

Mattsun is actually a very loving partner, in any relationship he is the type to want to go on cute cheesy little dates and when him and his S/o are laying in bed he has such an urge to trace his fingers over their skin? like for hours on end, he’s very touch-assured

On that note he’s also very unsure of himself? a lot of “is this okay?” and “what do you think?” Especially in new relationships, he doesn't want to upset the other.

He is a very non-violent person, and absolutely hates to cause harm to other people. For instance- Lets say the team was out for lunch or something and makki said something stupid, so he pinched him. Hard. Makki bruises and mattsun feels like a total ass because of it even though Mattsun its okay I'm not a fragile fuckin flower 

Once when he was little he watched makki pick his nose and eat it, then proceeded to throw up

He’s actually very anal about hygiene. Like he takes daily showers and has nice shampoo and shit, a whole skincare routine and will headass come in late to morning classes just because he needed a shower.

He always has fucking gum and no one knows where it comes from (Oikawa once asked for a piece and mattsun just produced it from his palm and said “I felt like you were gonna ask”)

He owns a Caucasian mountain dog that he went to Russia to get, her name is Aiko, which means child of love. Lots of people are terrified of her at first glance, but in all honesty she's just like mattsun, lazy and lovable 🖤!

He actually has a very good relationship with kyoutani. Not many people know about it but the younger respects him almost as much as iwaizumi for some advice given when they first met. Almost.

So, I have more and I'm sorry for not posting but ive been swamped with school and theatre, if you would want me to do more things like this let me know!

Also, my ask is open for anyone who wants to submit just about anything!!

[sylvieusedhyperbeam]

annnd hacking away in my own little corner

just.  casually hammering away on my own Villainous AU don’t mind me folks.

AU isn’t really titled yet so for now i’m’a just call it ‘Virtuous’.  idk i’ll think of something better.  if there’s an AU out there called Virtuous already then i’ll work faster to think of something better and change it.  for now i’ll... just have to ask you to be patient.  :I;;

White Hat

Not much different from other White Hats of various other AUs, though the backstory/origin is different.  As a youngling incarnation, he was an embodiment of good that went about the multiverse to keep things in balance against the Chaos, which his fuckhead ‘bro’ Black Hat embodies, respectively. 

Used to be a lot more erratic and somewhat violent in this purpose, since in those first few early millions/billions of years, he operated a lot more around instinct than reason or logic.  He was a force that didn’t really have a chance to... think about what he was doing.  In other words, yeah, in those early ages of the multiverse he saw things in very black-and-white terms and he and Black Hat caused some shit for some worlds.

Of course, he does know better now and has developed a much more refined, intelligent response to evil and malevolence.  And nowadays, rather than a mansion of splendor and indulgence, he lives in what some might describe as a white and turquoise airship that comes down to base to settle every now and then, lending it the appearance of a mansion. 

He runs a business similar to Black Hat’s, where he gives heroes that serve the Light shields, cures, elixirs, all the stuff they need to help balance the multiverse and drive back the Chaos.  He doesn’t do it for money, of course, though heroes ARE inclined to give him some generous donations because ‘eeeey, airships that sail the multiverse don’t keep themselves in repair, not without White Hat seriously taxing his reserves, anyway.

These days he’s very polite, as well as far kinder, more compassionate than he was in his early days.  He’s also a huge dork with a soft spot for antiques who loves learning about the cultures and shit of other worlds, since even as old as he is, new worlds emerge in the multiverse all the time and so he feels very humbled by it all and seeks to always learn more!  Loves gardening, loves cooking, loves art, loves anything involving the act of creation or bringing harmony, really.  Also really loves singing, and his singing voice is very soothing, pleasant, with the inherent ability to help ease away sadness or anxiety. 

Standard design for him might be like any standard White Hat, though I’m contemplating teal on him instead of blue.  :|a  HMMM.

Doctor Trug

To answer potential questions, roughly translated, trug can mean a lot of things.  One of which includes ‘deception, swindle, elusiveness’, meaning yeah, Trug was basically a conman alchemist who worked his way up to a professional thief of many talents.  Being well versed in both dark magic and evil sciences as well as being manipulative as shit, he served the Chaos and sought to undermine the Light as a more direct agent.  How he managed to get the direct attention of the eviler Embodiments, well slap my ass and call me Betty, that’s anyone’s guess.

Buuuut a mission gone wrong with an attempt on the life of an early Embodiment kinda found him facing some hard-ass time in a multiversal prison.  Which... yeah, a questionably normal human facing time in THIS particular prison, it was bound to be a preeeeetty bad time.  Because you don’t wanna end up at in a multiversal prison.  You really don’t.

Until of course White Hat intervened and opted to ‘rehabilitate’ him, and seeing a chance out of serving time at Holy Shit Eldritch Horror Sing-Sing, Trug of course ‘jumped’ on the chance and played it up all ‘OH THANK YOU SIR WOW SIR SUCH MERCY SIR’ thinking ‘wow what a fucking sucker’.  He assumed that working for White Hat would be simple enough if he just played on White Hat’s kindness but... yeah, it’s a hell of a lot more taxing than he originally thought it would be.  TEEHEE.

Anyway, Trug is rude as shit and looks out for number one.  He’s an ambitious motherfucker though, with a really solid work ethic based mostly around prideful standards he holds himself to whenever he’s researching a cure or a counteraction to a villain’s bullshit.  He thinks nothing of experimenting on human beings or using dark magic for his own means, but White Hat forbids it on all counts, and well... talented as he might be, Trug isn’t stupid and knows better than to try going toe to toe with an Embodiment. 

He can also be very manipulative when he wants to be, and often is for either something he wants or just for the hell of it.  He’s the kind of asshole who will literally argue that the sky is green just for the sake of arguing, if he’s bored enough.  He hates people, for the most part, though he does enjoy people-watching to an extent and making up bullshit backstories about them (if you’ve ever seen Always Sunny in Philadelphia, you get my meaning here). 

Don’t really have a design in mind for him yet.  LMAO i act is if though i’ll actually draw them, or that i actually CAN draw for that matter.

Gemencia    

A very peppy young girl with a few magical abilities, in lieu of the more physical/likely genetically mutated abilities of her respective counterpart.  Gemencia is a girl who can utilize telekinesis, as well as low-grade stasis fields that can freeze people or objects in place for a short time, about ten or fifteen seconds or so.  How she does this, well, she can’t say even she knows.  She doesn’t really remember much about her own backstory, just that she kinda-sorta raised herself in the more nature/magic based world she came from before she decided to become a treasure hunter.

And BOY HOWDY does she love treasure hunting.  Like, the girl is GOOD GOD unafraid of anything on so many levels, so she often tends to do crazy parkour shit on the face of rocky mountains, pick fights with people ten times her size, annnnd maybe do a whole mess of shit without really thinking.  She tries to do RIGHT by people, don’t get me wrong, but if the rules look like they need bending or broken?  She’ll bend ‘em a little.  Or a break ‘em.  A lot.  And not give any shits.

Her impulsive love for adventure and helping people in her own crazy way eventually led her to hear tales of the Embodiments, super eldritch beings that maintained the balance of a neat nifty thing called the multiverse, and instantly became determined to see it all for herself.  Loving to do things for people and help people, of course she wanted to seek out the Light Embodiments and become the most awesome treasure-hunting hero the multiverse had ever seen.

SO!  Seeking out White Hat to be her teacher seemed as logical an action as any!

With the help of some magic users who showed her how to travel to other worlds, she kinda world-hopped and bummed around for a while in search of White Hat until she finally found him, when his airship settled in the same world she was in by pure chance. 

She just... kinda started following him around.  And when he got back to his airship one day he just sorta found her there, where she was all ‘HEY ‘SUP I’M STAYING HERE NOW LOOK I BROUGHT CHIPS :D’ and White Hat just kinda... sighed and rolled with it.

Gemencia loves, loves, LOVES spontaneity.  She’s a wanderer at heart, and loves seeing what entire worlds have to offer.  She loves a good brawl every now and then, cartoons, hard hitting punk rock music, collecting artifacts and treasures, and has a refined interest in mythology and lore that might surprise people who don’t know her very well.  As a treasure hunter, she’s been inside old temples, ruins, torn palaces, catacombs, all things that have exciting stories of old war and battles and ancient evils falling at the hands of ‘super TOTALLY badass’ heroes, and it’s from these legends that she became inspired to strike out on her own and become ‘THE MOST SUPER BADASS HERO’ that ever hero’d. 

Not above swearing, indulging (be it huge meals or drinking), or pulling dangerous/impulsive stunts though when White Hat doesn’t keep her in line.  If you befriend her, you have a fiercely loyal buddy for life who will fuck others UP if they try to mess with you, but be warned that you’ll be getting dragged along for a few... adventures when the mood strikes her.   

Her design includes light blue hair, and rather than a lizard hat, she has a big-ass fox hat with long fox-styled hair.  :U  I chose this because foxes are natural foragers, known for leaping to literally pounce into the ground to find their prey.  Gemencia is about the same as a treasure hunter, known to leap right into things in search of the various rare jewels and treasures and ‘OOOH NEAT’ artifacts that she kinda hoards away even if she doesn’t know WTF they even do.  Also tends to wear orange and black stripes, in lieu of Dementia’s magenta.  :T 

EDIT you all thought i forgot 505′s counterpart didn’t you?  ....well you’re half right.  i half-forgot, half-okay-what-the-hell-am-i-doing.  but anyway, here we go!

404

404 was originally an animatronic for a family restaurant - no not THAT one this ain’t a FNAF crossover get that shit outta here.  He was a regular animatronic up until Trug decided it would be super funny and edgelordy to reprogram it to not only frighten kids, but hell, rob the restaurant’s safe during closing hours and bring him the loot.  The restaurant owners kinda pitched him, Trug took him, and installed a few more fun TRICKS on him while he was at it to make him a better partner-in-crime.  Because why not, it would be a waste of perfectly good machinery otherwise.

Of course, it began smoothly enough at first... until 404′s AI kiiinda-sorta gained sentience.  After that point, he became lazy, grouchy, and at times outright refused to obey Trug’s orders on the grounds of ‘I don’t feel like it fuck you’. 

Trug deactivated him and decided to use him for spare parts, but kinda never got around to disassembling him.  When White Hat took on commuting Trug’s sentence, the two traveled to Trug’s hideout so that Trug could pack in order to feel as comfortable as possible while out traveling the multiverse with White Hat.  White Hat took notice of the big cuddly looking bear and whoops reactivated him, and then promptly forbade Trug from deactivating him again because LOOK AT HIM ALL HE NEEDS IS LOVE.

Trug wishes 404 would rip White Hat’s leg off and beat the shit out of him with it.

404 won’t do it out of pure spite.

Anyway, 404 contrasts 505 by way of being pessimistic, coldly logical, seeing no point in frivolities and only wishing to lie around all day and eat.  Thanks to Trug’s alterations, he does have nifty things like heat sensors, night vision, and even a vehicular mode where he can turn into a small car for quick escapes, but good luck getting him to actually use a single one of these things without bribing him with honey. 

He also contrasts 505 by being... well, mechanical, instead of organic. 

404′s design consists of purple fur, and atop his head is a little satellite dish instead of a flower.  His eyes are big red iris shutters, the kind you see on camera app logos, with a yellow center.

[ax100]

[VLD][Uliro] Tourniquet

Title: Tourniquet Rating: T Characters/pairings: Uliro, mentions of the other Paladins, mentions of Allura and Coran Summary: Shiro patches Ulaz right back up. Ulaz helps Shiro put himself back together.

Also on AO3!

cross posted on tumblr bc I think people are lazy to follow links lol (@selina sorry not sorry for making this pop up on your dash again lmao)

Hope you enjoy! :)

“This is unneeded,” Ulaz says, exasperated, as he tries to yank his arm out of Shiro’s grasp. “I am capable of doing this myself. I’ve treated myself for worse injuries in the past.”

“I know,” Shiro replies, his brow furrowed with intense concentration as he holds on strong. In his other hand are a pair of tweezers, pinched around a cotton ball saturated with a homemade ointment Coran swore up and down would help Galra wounds heal faster. “Stop—Ulaz, hold still! I might accidentally stab you with this, and then we’ll have an even bigger problem on our hands.”

The thought makes Ulaz pause, and Shiro takes the opportunity to flash him a small, hopeful little smile. “Let me take care of you?” he asks. “Please?” he tacks on, giving his best puppy dog eyes for good measure. He doesn’t actually know if it’s a look Ulaz can appreciate, but it doesn’t hurt to try.

Ulaz scrutinizes him for a moment, his eyes narrowed, and Shiro is almost sure he’ll be shooed away, but then is pleasantly surprised when Ulaz just sighs in defeat and looks away. His lips are pulled into a thin, straight line as he resigns himself to his fate. It isn’t exactly the wholehearted ‘yes’ he’d been hoping for (there’s a low noise emanating from Ulaz that sounds suspiciously like soft growling), but at least he’d stopped moving.

Huh, maybe the puppy dog eyes do work on Galra.

Shiro gets right to work and dutifully starts dabbing the ointment around the wound. There is no reaction—no flinch or hiss or flattened ears—and Shiro’s not sure if it’s because this is one of those medicines that miraculously doesn’t sting or because Ulaz is just used to the burn of disinfection.

Honestly, Ulaz was right. The scrape on his upper arm, while large, isn’t deep, and certainly not life-threatening. Just a scratch, really. He had gotten it a few hours ago when he had been thrown by his game across the rocky terrain of the planet he had been hunting on. At most, it’s just a bit of an eyesore, as patches of fur had been sheared off here and there, but nothing that needed more than a little disinfecting.

While the humans and Alteans were fine with food goo and what passed as vegetables most of the time, Galra were primarily carnivorous, a point that was brought to light only after Lance had jokingly pointed out that Ulaz seemed to stare at Allura’s mice an awful lot, like he wanted to eat them. The room suddenly went very quiet when Ulaz admitted that he did.

From then on, Allura had permitted him to go out on regular hunting trips. Every few days, he’d fly out in a pod and come back a few hours later with nothing more than a sack of neatly trimmed meat slung over his shoulder (he had been explicitly forbidden from carving on the ship). He always gave a portion of his kill to Hunk to cook, remembering that humans were omnivores and needed it too. And while he always sat down with the other inhabitants of the ship for meal times, he never ate in front of them—Alteans, as a race, were vegetarian (and whatever food goo was considered as) and would probably not enjoy the sight of him devouring raw, bloody meat at the dinner table. The thoughtfulness was much appreciated.

“All done,” Shiro announces as he secures the bandage into place—it’s some kind of Altean plant-based material that doesn’t need any adhesive, clinging onto Ulaz’s fur with little help. “See how fast it went once you stopped squirming?”

Ulaz snorts. “Unnecessary,” he says, but there is approval in his eyes when he looks at Shiro’s handiwork. “Hm. It’s quite neat.”

“First aid training at the Garrison,” he gives as explanation, standing up to empty the floating pan filled with used cotton balls into the trash chute at the corner of the room. “They had us wrapping bandages so much, I could probably do it one-handed with my eyes closed.”

That seems to impress Ulaz. “A useful skill to have in combat.”

“Well, they were probably thinking more along the lines of accidents, not fighting,” Shiro admits, plopping down next to Ulaz on the bed again. He only comes up to his chin, even sitting down.

Ulaz makes a sound of acknowledgement, but doesn’t say anything more. He takes on a faraway look, as if he’s fallen deep in thought, as he stares at the wall directly across them. A few beats of silence pass before he turns to Shiro again. “Thank you for tending to me,” he quietly says.

Shiro smiles at him as he feels warmth stir in his chest. “You’re welcome,” he answers, then remembers something. “Oh, one last thing.”

Before Ulaz can react, Shiro leans towards him and presses a kiss to the top portion of the dressed wound. He pulls back and almost laughs at the look of utter confusion on Ulaz’s face. (Although to anyone else, it probably just looked like an angry glare.)

“Just kissing the boo-boo away,” he says, grinning like an idiot.

A blank stare.

“’Boo-boo,’ another word for ‘wound.’ Children use it,” he explains, then shrugs. “Kisses help them heal faster.”

Ulaz’s brow just wrinkles even further, like he’s trying to figure out the medicinal properties of kisses. “This was also part of your training?”

“Wha—no!” Shiro breaks out into giggles. “It doesn’t actually work. It’s just something that parents do to their kids.”

Ulaz suddenly jerks back with wide eyes and makes a strange face; it makes him look slightly constipated. “…and you…to me…?” he flounders in a strangled voice.

Shiro blinks. Now it’s his turn to be confused. Did he say something wrong? Ulaz is staring at him with wide eyes, shoulders tensed up and fur standing on end like a frightened cat, and it’s a bit unnerving. Shiro backtracks, trying to recall what he said.

And then it clicks.

He wouldn’t have been able to stifle the laugh that bubbled out of his throat even if he tried. Ulaz had explained it before during one of their many talks about the cultural differences between humans and Galra—social roles were a lot more rigid and defined in Galra culture, which meant that for Shiro to do something for Ulaz that normally a parent would do for their child…

“It doesn’t mean what you think it does,” he says quickly, noting the way that Ulaz is now glaring at him with his ears flattened against his head, obviously not getting what was so funny about the whole situation. Shiro, riding a sudden wave of fondness for this adorable 7-foot-tall alien, tries to pacify him by grabbing his hand, threading their fingers together. “Don’t worry about it. I’m just trying to be cute.” He brings the back of Ulaz’s hand up to his lips and kisses it.

Ulaz still looks pretty suspicious about the whole thing, but he starts to visibly relax now that he’s sure his lover isn’t implying that he sees him as his offspring. Still, he grumbles something under his breath in Galra, probably about how there’s nothing cute about it. But he’s probably not that annoyed, since he doesn’t extract his hand from Shiro’s grasp. Shiro, out of respect, tries to keep his giggling to a minimum.

After a while, Shiro nudges him. “Move a little,” he says. Ulaz is still a bit miffed, but doesn’t argue. With some maneuvering, they rearrange themselves so that Shiro is seated between Ulaz’s legs, his back leaning against the Galra’s chest.

It’s a position Shiro often seeks to be in. Back on Earth, it was actually quite rare that he got to be the little spoon, being as big as he is by human standards. And while having a partner much larger than him can be intimidating in many ways (not to mention the fact that said partner is also Galra), Shiro finds that he actually really likes this. It makes him feel small. Pampered. Well-taken care of.

He makes a contented little sound as Ulaz rests his chin on top of his head.

“You are incorrigible,” Ulaz sighs. The words are exasperated and fond in equal measure.

Shiro can feel a clawed hand gently trailing down his left arm. A question.

“Really? Lots of people back on Earth say I’m quite the role model.”

He takes the hand gently in his own and leads it down to rest on his abdomen. An answer.

Ulaz’s other hand creeps in from beside his other hip to join its partner, and the fingers thread together. The warmth and weight of his palms is pleasant on Shiro’s stomach.

“Hm, that does not bode well for the rest of your race then,” Ulaz murmurs as he nuzzles closer, making Shiro chuckle. Seated this close, he can both feel and hear the rumbling emanating deep from Ulaz’s chest—purring, he realizes.

His laughing gradually dies down and they find themselves settling into tranquil silence. Shiro slowly leans more and more of his weight against Ulaz until he’s practically sagging against him. Ulaz doesn’t stop him, and even goes as far as spread his legs more so Shiro can shuffle back even further. His clawed thumbs start drawing little circles on Shiro’s stomach.

Shiro closes his eyes takes a deep breath. The smile on his face feels easy and natural. He feels warm. Contented. Happy. Ulaz continues to purr away behind him.

They stay in that position for a long while.

Eventually, Ulaz shifts, making Shiro’s eyes flutter open. And before he can ask him about it, he suddenly feels thin lips brush against his shoulder. They drag up and press a soft kiss to the dip above his clavicle, right at the junction where his shoulder meets his neck.

The sensation is muted through the layers of his clothes, but Shiro still feels his entire face flood with heat as the kisses work their way up the side of his neck—slow, unhurried. The purring is even louder now. He can feel his heart rate start to pick up.

“Um, Ulaz?” He only gets a grunt in return. “Are you—“ He gasps as Ulaz’s lips seek out the sensitive spot behind his ear. He looks over his shoulder as Ulaz pulls away slightly. “Are you scenting me?” he asks, flushed and breathless and slightly bewildered.

It’s true—he recognizes these as the motions that Ulaz goes through when he complains that Shiro ‘doesn’t smell like him anymore’ and it ‘must be rectified,’ but usually, it’s just him pushing his nose around into the little nooks and crannies of his shoulders and neck, but the kissing. Well, the kissing is new.

Ulaz’s doesn’t say anything, just reaches up to brush the white tuft of hair away to kiss Shiro’s forehead, then leans down to do the same to his lips. Tender. Gentle. Loving. Shiro’s not sure if a blush can spread all the way to his heart, but that’s what he feels.

Ulaz nuzzles against the side of his face and gives his cheek a little lick—the Galra way of showing affection—before turning him around fully. Even sitting on his thighs, Shiro isn’t quite eye level with him; Ulaz has to lean down to gently knock their foreheads together, yellow eyes meeting gray. “I’ve been told that kissing can accelerate the healing process,” he says, his tone teasing.

Shiro chuckles. He’s already opening his mouth to tell him that he’s supposed to be the one ‘kissing the boo-boo away’ when he takes a good look at the way Ulaz is regarding him. It’s…almost sad, somehow. The words die on his tongue as it dawns onto him that Ulaz isn’t referring to his scrape.

Suddenly, something occurs to him, and his hand flies up to his shoulder--

From when a creature had latched onto him with its jagged teeth.

--trails up to his clavicle--

Broken under the weight of a crowbar in the arena.

--and settles on his neck.

Electrocuted by a guard for misbehaving.

“Oh,” he breathes out as his hand falls back down to his lap. The realization settles like a heavy stone in his stomach. He’s staring downwards, directly at Ulaz’s crotch, but it doesn’t awaken any heat within him. He feels naked all of a sudden, with all his scars and the wounds inside him on display for the world to see. His heart is thudding in his chest. He’s not sure anymore from what.

“Shiro?” Ulaz calls out to him softly. The concern in his voice is open and raw. Big, clawed hands come up to gently grasp his trembling, balled up fists, the thumb brushing over white knuckles.

His eyes slam shut. He’s on the precipice of a panic attack; his mind is starting to go into overdrive, and all the thoughts start coming in starts and stops in a disorganized jumble, no rhyme or reason to them, fast and frenzied, threatening to overwhelm--

“Breathe, Shiro.” Ulaz’s voice is barely above a whisper, quiet but unwavering.

The words sound distant and muffled, but he does as he’s told—opens his mouth to take deep breaths. They’re stuttering, at first, and for a moment, he fears that he’s drowning, but he shakes the thought away and tries to focus on something other than the roaring in his ears.

The touch of Ulaz’s forehead against his own grounds him.

He takes notice of the thumbs still running back and forth across his knuckles. They trail over them in a way that’s predictable. Steady. Coherent. He latches onto that, tries to match his breathing in time with their rhythm.

“I am here,” Ulaz murmurs. “Come back to me, Shiro.”

And he does.

It takes a while, but eventually, he does manage to re-center himself. His breathing gradually evens out and the tension in his shoulders drains away, leaving him feeling a bit lightheaded and weak. His skin feels slightly clammy from the thin sheen of sweat that has formed. But he’s okay.

“I’m here, Ulaz,” he says. He slowly opens his eyes, gray eyes meeting yellow. “I’m here.”

“I’m sorry,” the other apologizes immediately, looking ashamed. His grip on Shiro’s hands is tight. “I did not mean to upset you.”

“It’s okay. I know you didn’t,” he tries to reassure him, giving a tired smile. “I’m…okay. Not good, but okay,” he says truthfully, grimacing a little. “It’s something that needs to be talked about, I guess. But not right now. Okay?” He tries for a smile again.

At Ulaz’s slow nod of understanding, Shiro rises up on his knees so that they’re really eye level with each other, and places a hand on Ulaz’s cheek. “It’s alright, Ulaz. I forgive you.”

Ulaz blinks slowly and takes a deep breath as he leans into the touch. Hesitation flickers over his face for a second before he turns his head a little to kiss the palm of Shiro’s prosthetic hand resting on his cheek.

Slow. Unhurried. Reverent.

Repentant.

The feeling that rushes through Shiro makes him gasp. It’s an action that carries so many implications that he finds his mind reeling again. But somehow, it’s different this time. In an instant, the last dregs of the haze that had settled over him in the aftermath of his almost-panic attack clear, and suddenly, things make sense. He finds himself hyperaware of just how close they are to each other, of the places where they touch and what Ulaz is trying to tell him with each of them.

Of the steady exhales fanning out over his skin, intimate in their proximity, telling him, ‘I am here. I am with you.’

Of the arms lined with corded muscle braced on either side of him, strong and elegant, silently reassuring him, ‘You are safe with me. I will protect you.’

Of the thin lips trailing over old wounds to reaffirm his unspoken oath, ‘I will help you heal.’

Of the bright eyes that meet his, a gentle request in their depths:

‘Let me take care of you. Please.’

He takes a shuddering breath. He is overcome, as overwhelmed as he had been a few minutes ago, but this time, for a completely different reason.

The healing process is a long and painful one. And on some days, it feels like it will never end, that he’ll never be able to rise up from the things that were done to him, that he’ll never be able to bare himself to another person again—physically, emotionally, anything, everything. Sometimes, he doesn’t know if he’ll even be able to handle being touched ever again without feeling like his blood has suddenly been turned into acid.

Ulaz knows this. He understands this. But he has always communicated his love for Shiro gently, using quiet words spoken in dim light, and even in the moments when they are together but do not talk, he touches Shiro like he’s something precious. And in the past, this would have made him recoil, would have made him choke and burn from the inside. But now, with new meaning, Ulaz’s touch makes him light up with new life; it soothes the dark ache deep within him. And while the batting average is not at a hundred percent, and there are still days when the contact sears his skin, it’s getting better.

He’s getting better.

He doesn’t bother wiping up the tears that have started to fall. He smiles—laughs even—and leans forward to kiss him. ‘Yes,’ he tries to tell Ulaz through their shared contact, pouring his whole heart into it. ‘Please stay.’

And he keeps going, melding their lips together, again and again—a soothing balm for their injuries, both past and present.

Kisses help the wounds heal faster, after all.

[emilycaldwin]

All of them

ahhhh thanks so much, i feel special 

what is one secret that you’ve never told anyone?

- how i grew up, or maybe i told that, idk i tell all my secrets and infodump

if you could hug anyone, who would it be?

- answered

what are some of your favourite Pokémon and why?

- cyndaquil because he’s JUST GOOD, i feel like we would be best friends!! i also love snorlax, gengar, and also rayquaza.  

if you were in charge of the world, what would the world look like?

- fairly equal in every aspect, and people all have some respect no matter their class

what was the most recent vivid dream that you had?

- a bear stole my lunch and i had to chase it into the woods but i ended up alone and in the dark, feeling afraid and anxious, and then something crept behind me and i got startled awake with an anxiety attack

what do you like the most about your best friend?

- she’s so precious and the best person i’ve ever met! we share a lot of interests and she’s so pretty and funny, i love her so much she is so sweet and i miss her so much!! 

talk about your crush or partner

- i love my boyfriend with all my heart and soul he makes me so happy and makes me feel really secure and nice and i would kill a man just to see him happy and he’s literally the world to me, he deserves the best and i love him so much, i have all the cliche romance feels towards him and its gay

if someone was rude to you, would you be rude back?

- yes or i’ll be really petty, but it depends who. for a friend, yeah, for a stranger, i’ll ignore it and continue to be nice

what do you like about yourself? (must choose at least 3 things!)

- my jawline is really nice

- i have nicely colored eyes

- i am pretty good at some things, like writing and working with animals

what are you scared of most? how will you overcome it?

- not knowing my purpose for the rest of my life, i can overcome it by eventually coming to a conclusion, and my biggest fear is the universe itself. it’s so mysterious and large, it makes me feel uneasy, i can’t overcome it

what never fails to make you happy?

- animals!! also my lovely bf!!! it’s a bonus if i’m with him and animals

what annoys you about some people?

- how they sometimes act overconfident and overstep their boundaries constantly, trying to be “cool”

do you get angry easily?

- yes, and i used to be a lot worse, but i’ve calmed down a bit, but my anger is still fueled very easily

what do you always daydream about?

- just gay shit usually, or story ideas

if you could change 3 things about the world what would you change?

- ending corruption, creating peace among everyone, and getting rid of debt for everyone

send me 4 names: kiss, befriend, kill or marry?

- there weren’t any names so i’ll skip!

what is your dream city and why?

- rome! i love the architecture and the history associated with it, also cairo would be nice too

talk about your ideal day

- spending time with my bf, hanging out with animals, being able to express myself without interruptions, going to a museum or aquarium or something, just somewhere i could see something and spend time. 

are you an introvert, ambivert or extrovert?

- introvert 

when was the last time you cried?

- couple hours ago

name 5 songs you love at the moment

- frank ocean - bad religion

- frank ocean - ivy

- the weeknd - a lonely night

- drake - pop style

- bruno mars - versace on the floor

if you had any superpower, what would it be and why?

- time travel so i could go back and fix all my mistakes

if you could talk to your younger self, what would you say?

- don’t stop being nice, keep going about your day, don’t care what people say behind your back even if it’s annoying. it’s not true, you are very smart and you will make it.

who are you jealous of and why?

- usually like most people because everyone has more talent and good looks than me, i’m just suffering.

which one would you rather have more of: intelligence, beauty, kindness, wealth or bravery? why?

- kindness: the world is a cruel place and even smiling towards someone will brighten their day, and being nice and kind to make people happy makes me feel good

what are you ashamed of?

- how pathetic my life has been, also my body lmao

which languages do you know? which do you want to learn?

- english and a little bit of russian and ukrainian. i want to be fluent in russian/ukrainian and maybe learn a bit of latin

if you could be any fictional character’s best friend/lover, which fictional character would you be?

- i would definitely be the outsider’s [dishonored] best friend, i want to hang with him and know his lore

talk about your dream universe.

- everyone is happy and our knowledge is so expanded that we know more about space, also one where i’m preferably not alive

which acts of kindness are you going to do today?

- be nice and supportive, compliment, do chores for my family, be there for those who need it, pay attention to people

if you could transform into any animal/magical creature, what would you be and why?

- dragons because they’re cool and fierce and are just so damn cool

talk about someone/something you really dislike

- religion, i will respect it but it has torn so many people apart and created standards that damage human relationships

talk about some things that have been making you depressed/angry/anxious lately

- my family, myself, school, some of my friends, my inability to succeed, my laziness, my cat who destroys everything, etc etc etc

what did you want to be as a kid, and what do you want to be now?

- a veterinarian and now idek

what are some of your favourite sugary foods?

- brownies, cookies, hershey bars

what are you obsessed with?

- not really anything, i just have recently been very into pokemon

what happens to you when you’re stressed?

- i usually panic and breakdown, i cry or get angry, i try to take a nap to avoid the bad feelings, and i feel so uncomfortable 

what are you sick of?

- living honestly, but also school and talking

are you an adrenaline seeker?

- no

what are some unpopular opinions that you have?

- not that i know of, i really hate cheese though and think it’s disgusting

would you consider yourself a good person?

- i’m one of the best people i know i think

what do you like to do as hobbies?

- write, listen to music, occasionally draw, play video games, sleep

what’s the last song you hummed or sang by yourself?

- take on me by a-ha lmao

what’s your worst trait? how are you planning to improve it?

- my jealousy, and i’m trying to appreciate what i have currently

what do you always doodle when you’re bored?

- just different faces or cats

what’s stopping you from chasing your dreams?

- money and motivation

what’s your mbti personality and why do you think it suits you?

 - infj, because i care about others a lot and can be very devoted 

send me 3 fictional people and I’ll choose my favourite!

- can’t answer

who are your favourite celebrities and why?

- rami malek because he plays really unique roles, oscar isaac because of the same reason, and chris pratt because he’s really funny

opinion on __?

- can’t answer

do you consider yourself an emotional person?

- oh yeah for sure

share 3 books that you love and your favourite quote from them.

- the feast of crows, lotr: the fellowship, and the song of achilles. too lazy to get quotes

what do you always do when you feel sad? does it help?

- try to sleep or talk to someone, and yeah sometimes

what thoughts keep you going when you’re sad?

- my pets, some friends

which country do you live in?

- usa

describe yourself in 3 words

- annoying, nerdy, angry

which quotes changed you?

- none

do you keep a diary?

- yes, but it’s a journal and always with me

who inspires you?

- my friends

do you believe in ghosts and why?

- yes because i believe souls can be trapped

what’s your fashion sense like?

- terrible, all i wear is jackets and pants

what are some of your favourite films?

- taxi driver, the bee movie lmao

what is one treasured childhood memory?

- meeting my cat for the first time

if you could meet anyone, who would it be and why?

- frank ocean because i love everything about him

[surveysonfleek]

263.

1: How tall or short do you wish you were? i’m fine with my height, maybe a couple inches taller but it’s no big deal. 2: What’s your dream pet (real or not)? a yorkshire terrier. they’re super cute.

3: Do you have a favorite clothing style? not really. anything comfortable.

4: What was your favorite video game growing up? the sims, tekken.

5: What three things/people do you think of most each day: my boyfriend, work and the time.

6: If you had a warning label, what would yours say? warning: brutally honest.

7: What is your Greek personality type (Sanguine, Phlegmatic, Choleric, or Melancholic)? no idea, never read up on these personality types.

8: Are you ticklish? yeah, i can be.

9: Are you allergic to anything? pollen.

10: What’s your sexuality? straight.

11: Do you prefer tea, coffee, or cocoa? cocoa.

12: Are you a cat or dog person? dogs.

13: Would you rather be a vampire, elf, or merperson? ummmm. elf.

14: Do you have a favorite Youtuber? yes itsjudyslife or jkparty.

15: How tall are you? 5′4″.

16: If you had to change your name, what would you change it to? i wouldn’t.

17: How much do you weigh? idk i haven’t checked in ages :( i don’t wna know haha.

18: Do you believe in ghosts/spirits? no idea. never experienced anything.

19: Do you like space or the ocean more? ocean.

20: Are you religious? not really.

21: Pet peeves? plain rudeness.

22: Would you rather be nocturnal or diurnal (opposite of nocturnal)? diurnal even though i’m usually awake all night.

23: Favorite constellation? i don’t have one.

24: Favorite star? nothing haha.

25: Do you like ball-jointed dolls? it’s not something i usually notice.

26: Any phobias or fears? cockroaches, losing the people i love.

27: Do you think global warming is real? yeah, for sure.

28: Do you believe in reincarnation? no idea. 

29: Favorite movie? 40yo virgin.

30: Do you get scared easily? yes and no lol. i’m more scared of the unknown.

31: How many pets have you own in your lifetime? one bird, then plenty of fish (i forgot how many) and now one dog.

32: What is a color that calms you? blue or lavender.

33: Where would you like to travel and/or live? i always want to stay here. but i’m willing to travel anywhere i’ve never been. i’d love to go to japan someday.

34: Where were you born? sydney.

35: What is your eye color? brown.

36: Introvert or extrovert? extrovert.

37: Do you believe in horoscopes and zodiacs? haha not really. i’ll read any of the horoscopes and find something i can relate to with each one.

38: Hugs or kisses? hugs. kisses with my boyfriend though.

39: Who is someone you would like to see/visit right now? my boyfriend.

40: Who is someone you love deeply? family and boyfriend.

41: Any piercings you want? nope.

42: Do you like tattoos and piercings? i do but i’m not planning to get any for myself.

43: Do you smoke or have you ever done so? yeah i have.

44: Talk about your crush, if you have one! my boyfriend is more than just a crush.

45: What is a sound you really hate? any screeching noises, like nails on a chalkboard. 

46: A sound you really love? rain, waves, calming instrumentals.

47: Can you do a backflip? nope.

48: Can you do the splits? no haha.

49: Favorite actor and/or actress? i don’t have any faves.

50: Favorite book? the harry potter series.

51: How are you feeling right now? tired. i’d love a nap but don’t wna ruin my sleeping pattern.

52: What color would you like your hair to be right now? just this.

53: When did you feel happiest? when i’m traveling.

54: Something that calms you down? having a nap.

55: Have any mental disorders? nope.

56: What does your URL mean? it’s pretty self explanatory.

57: What three words describe you the most? lazy, easygoing, creative.

58: Do you believe in evolution? yes.

59: What makes you unfollow a blog? if they haven’t posted in forever or if they no longer post things i’d be interested in.

60: What makes you follow a blog? just seeing stuff similar to what i post.

61: Favorite kind of person: anyone who’s genuinely nice and respectful. being funny is a bonus.

62: Favorite animal(s): dogs.

63: Name three of your favorite blogs. tbh i don’t have any faves.

64: Favorite emoticon: the wholesome smile haha.

65: Favorite meme: errr no idea. changes every so often.

66: What is your MBTI personality type? i forgot. it’s changed twice.

67: What is your star sign? sagittarius.

68: Can your dog roll over on command, if you have a dog? no.

69: What outfit out of all your clothes do you like to wear the most? leggings and a sweater lol.

70: Post a selfie or two? no ty.

71: Do you have platform shoes? i do, i just never wear it.

72: What is one random but interesting fact about yourself? lol nothingggggg.

73: Can you do a front flip? nope.

74: Do you like birds? not really.

75: Do you like to swim? yeah, i just hardly do it.

76: Is swimming or ice skating more fun to you? swimming.

77: Something you wish didn’t exist: evil.

78: Some thing you wish did exist: wishes that could come true.

79: Piercings you have? ears and nose.

80: Something you really enjoy doing: sleeping and eating.

81: Favorite person to talk to: my boyfriend.

82: What was your first impression of Tumblr? hmmm i thought it was just another platform to post blogs. got into it as it grew.

83: How many followers do you have? on this about 225.

84: Can you run a mile within ten minutes? hell no.

85: Do your socks always match? most of the time.

86: Can you touch your toes and keep your legs straight completely? haha i haven’t tried that in ages. if i step a bit wide then yeah probably.

87: What are your birthstones? turquoise.

88: If you were an animal, which one would you be? a sloth.

89: If a flower could aesthetically represent you, what kind would it be? peony.

90: A store you hate?  idk lol.

91: How many cups of coffee can you drink in one day? i never drink coffee. so one max.

92: Would you rather be able to fly or read minds? fly. i’d hate to read people’s minds.

93: Do you like to wear camo? no.

94: Winter or summer? winter.

95: How long can you hold your breath for? maybe a minute?

96: Least favorite person? idk.

97: Someone you look up to: my parents.

98: A store you love? i don’t have a favourite tbh. it depends on what they sell.

99: Favorite type of shoes sneaks.

100: Where do you live? australia.

101: Are you a vegetarian or vegan? If so, why? nope.

102: What is your favorite mineral or gem? opals.

103: Do you drink milk? hardly.

104: Do you like bugs? no thanks.

105: Do you like spiders? nope.

106: Something you get paranoid about? the future.

107: Can you draw?: nope. i wish i could.

108: Nosiest question you have ever been asked? personal shit like full name, height, weight etc.

109: A question you hate being asked? on surveys anything about text messages, the last person i kissed, what i was doing at this time yesterday etc. they’re all the same these days.

110: Ever been bitten by a spider? i don’t think so.

111: Do you like the sound of waves at the beach? yeah especially if i’m staying nearby and i can hear it before i go to sleep.

112: Do you prefer cloudy or sunny days? depends on the temperature.

113: Someone you’d like to kiss or cuddle right now: my boyfriend.

114: Favorite cloud type: idk.

115: What color do you wish the sky was? pink all the time.

116: Do you have freckles? no.

117: Favorite thing about a person: just their overall personality and how i connect with them.

118: Fruits or vegetables? veg.

119: Something you want to do right now: sleep.

120: Is the ocean or sky prettier? sky,

121: Sweet or sour foods? sweet.

122: Bright or dim lights? dim lights.

123: Do you believe in a certain magical creature? not really.

124: Something you hate about Tumblr: just the amount of social justice warriors. like i’m all for it but i don’t see anything near the amount of anyone defending their cause in the real world.

125: Something you love about Tumblr: its variety.

126: What do you think about the least? probably something i’ve never ever thought about before?

127: What would you want written on your tombstone? idk lol.

128: Who would you like to punch in the face right now? mayweather hahaha.

129: What is something you love but also hate about yourself? i’m very caring.

130: Do you smile with your teeth showing for pictures? sometimes. it’s about half and half.

131: Computer or TV? comp.

132: Do you like roller coasters? yeah, most of the time.

133: Do you get motion sickness or seasickness? i used to get car sick but i’m fine now. i didn’t get seasick until i went on this cruise a couple years ago.

134: Are your ears free or attached? free.

135: Do you believe in karma? not really. i feel as though our actions dictate the future more.

136: On a scale of 1-10, how attractive would you say you are? 5 lol.

137: What nicknames do you have/have had? honestly a lot. i could think of ten that i get called on a weekly basis.

138: Did you have any pretend or imaginary friends? nope.

139: Have you ever seen a therapist/shrink? nope.

140: Would you say you are a good or bad influence to others? neither.

141: Do you prefer giving or receiving gifts/help? giving. i hate accepting help from people. i like receiving gifts though haha.

142: What makes you angry?: i could make a list.

143: How many languages do you speak fluently? two.

144: Do you prefer boys, girls, and/or non-binaries? lmao. anything. it all depends on the person.

145: Are you androgynous? no.

146: Favorite physical thing about yourself: face.

147: Favorite thing about your personality: i’m generally easy to get along with.

148: Name three people you would like to talk to right now in person. no one.

149: If you could go back into time and live in one era, which would you choose? none. i like how i grew up in the 90s and 00s.

150: Do you like BuzzFeed? they’re a good boredom killer but some of their articles are stupid.

151: How did you meet your spouse/girlfriend/boyfriend/partner? through friends.

152: Do you like to kiss others’ foreheads or hands for platonic reasons? ummm no.

153: Do you like to play with others’ hair? playing and smelling my mum’s hair was my security blanket as a kid hahaha. it’s so weird. i’ve definitely grown out of it.

154: What embarrasses you? just recalling past stupid things i’ve done.

155: Something that makes you nervous/anxious: just anything out of the ordinary that i have to prepare for. i get anxious over anything.

156: Biggest lie you have ever told: idk lol.

157: How many people are you following? not many. under 200.

158: How many posts do you have on your blog(s)? no idea and i’m too lazy to check.

159: How many drafts do you have on your blog(s)? two.

160: How many likes do you have on your blog(s)? idk.

161: Last time you cried and why: a couple weeks ago coz i was frustrated.

162: Do you have long or short hair? long.

163: Longest your hair has ever been: just before it reached my butt.

164: Why do you like, dislike, or have neutral feelings about religion? tbh i don’t have any opinions on any religions.

165: Do you really care how the universe and world was created? not really. we’re here already so whatever.

166: Do you like to wear makeup? yes.

167: Can you stand on your hands or head for more than thirty seconds? no.

168: Did you answer the questions you were asked truthfully? yes.

[mercer-safehouse]

You've been kind of inactive lately, how's life going??

Thank you for checking in ;u;

I’m gonna put this under a readmore because I have a tendency to babble

TL;DR tho: not great, ups and downs, but i’m surviving

So, first and foremost, my biggest issue lately is drawing--I literally am incapable of drawing because i have no privacy because of the household situation (too many people, we gave our bedroom door to the other people in the house), and the kittens literally will not stay off of me and it freaks me the fuck out because I put them down to even stand up and they’re back on me before I can stand. And worse, they won’t stay off my tablet, which I have to keep on my lap, because my computer situation involves me sitting at the foot of my mom’s bed and keeping my laptop on a tray table.

I know this sounds overdramatic but I literally cannot live without drawing and I feel like I’m dying. But there’s nothing I can do. There’s nowhere I can go. I can’t even sit outside to scribble because it’s gotten cold even for Florida and my blood’s thinned down and I have no fat to store heat and the cold makes me dissociate because of PTSD related to harsh winters in Michigan. 

The cats repeatedly crawling onto my lap despite my attempts to free myself freaks me out really badly because as much as I love cuddling, when I need to move, I need to move. I can’t be trapped or I start freaking out. 

When I do manage to start drawing, I get about halfway through a shitty scribble before the kittens find me and get on my tablet and my mood IMMEDIATELY crashes and I have a breakdown and it’s awful.

I keep forgetting to take my meds on time and now I have to live with the stress of mom having to pay for my meds because I got booted off my insurance because apparently they’re salty about me getting lawyers to help me get on disability because I am growing more and more incapable of functioning like a normal human being.

I need to be isolated for hours on end so I can do creative things like draw and write because I’m super uncomfortable doing those things openly because those things are very personal to me. I have no way to do so and I’m being called to do something for mom every five minutes. I need isolation but the current way we’re living does not allow that. My sister is too lazy to help mom out, so mom and I are depended on to take care of EVERYTHING, including my sister’s cat and many birds. 

I’m trying desperately to deal with the fact that that same sister did horrible, horrible things to me as a child and she refuses to acknowledge it but I remember them, but I’m trying to move on anyways because I know she has issues of her own and she’s actually trying to improve but that doesn’t mean I will ever forgive her.

And then my brother, who I loved for my entire life, and my nephew, his son, are white supremacists, and have no place in my life. 

My two closest siblings basically are people I can no longer be close to--in fact I no longer even care for my brother, at all. It’s like all that love just shriveled up and died in an instant. He called me delusional, he told me my “tender feelings” don’t matter, and, you know. He’s a fucking racist asshole and so is his son. They are dead to me.

My life has been turned on its head, I feel like, and my coping mechanism has been stolen from me.

Because I can’t draw, I want to die, and I feel worthless. I’ve got over four hundred followers and I have nothing to give them. I feel awful. They deserve better. You deserve better. I am sincerely sorry I haven’t been putting out art lately.

Another fucked up thing I’ve dealt with (the entire household has dealt with) is our neighbor’s cat, Abby, got hit by a car. Abby had been spending time over with us, and even ate dinner with our cats. We were all very attached, and her owners were just going to leave her in the fucking ditch, so we buried her with our cats. 

Same neighbor no longer allows her diabetic cat inside because he pees all over the place. He can’t help it. We brought him inside a couple nights ago because it was nearly freezing temp. He hasn’t left since. My sister and her boyfriend have taken up the task of cleaning up after him. 

Because he hasn’t been outside, the neighbors were curious, and one of them mentioned in passing that the neighbor lady who owns the cat was wondering if he crawled under their trailer to die and they didn’t want him stinking up the place.

So, we now have a diabetic cat to care for since the neighbors won’t. Mom thinks he’s only got a few weeks left. His name is Baby and he is very sweet. He doesn’t know what the litterbox is but that’s okay. He’ll learn, or he’ll be cleaned up after. It’s okay.

But we’re going to wind up burying another cat eventually. We’ve buried so many cats. Car incidents, distemper, a dog attack. I’m tired. My heart wants to harden or shrivel up or something but the rest of the cats need me, so I have to stay soft.

And I can’t talk to my therapist about it. Because I don’t have insurance. I can’t allow mom to pay for my appointments. Our roommate isn’t employed at present (recent employers treated him like shit so we all encouraged him to bail out) which means things are tight, but that’s okay. We’re managing. It’s close but we’ve got this. 

In June things are going to get worse in the house because another sister of mine is moving in and that’s GREAT I’m looking forward to seeing her but we don’t have room. 

We’ll make room, but it’s going to feel awful for me. And the worse it gets for me, the more I feel like damaged garbage who needs to be catered to constantly. Years of the first-mentioned sister gaslighting me has left me feeling like everything is my fault, basically. lmao

I need to visit my dad. He wants to be part of my life. But I can’t bring mom with me because that would be Awkward and mom is basically my lifeline. Dad will accept me. He’s fine with who I am. He loves me so much. And I miss him. But I’m terrified of going somewhere without my mom, who I feel most days keeps me sane.

It’s going to take half a year starting whenever the lawyers get me on disability benefits for me to actually get the money, which means I’m going to have to wait at least another half-year to visit my partner, who is an absolute patient angel but I feel awful for taking so long to see her even though she doesn’t blame me. She’s so good to me ;____;

But I AM getting out of the house soon because a friend’s family was able to foot the bill for a plane ticket to go see them and I’m terrified about that because YAY FRIEND I’M SO EXCITED but also no mom to keep me stable.

I’m a 21 person. I should be out of the house. I should have a family of my own. But I still crawl into my mom’s bed when I have a nightmare or when I want to cuddle because I’m having a bad time. I still need my mom to stop my sister from being awful to me because my sister doesn���t respect me like an adult.

I don’t feel like an adult. I depend on everyone around me even though I need total isolation for at least a few hours a day when I want to draw and it’s awful because I can’t have any of that. 

And here I’m going to reiterate that my brother is a white supremacist because that is a recent revelation (though I’m not surprised, looking back) and it makes me so sick I want to die

I’m dealing with a ridiculous sort of dysphoria that has nothing to do with the usual kind I handle.

A tiny thing in comparison to the rest of the stuff above, but: tumblr’s antis freak me out so badly.

And on top of everything: the Tangerine Nightmare-elect

I’m passively suicidal but in no danger of actually going through with it, so like. I’m surviving. I actually kind of cleaned my room a tiny bit. I sweep little bits at a time. I’m trying. I’m just really tired and feel awful about not creating more.

[surveys-at-your-service]

Survey #191

“i got a baseball bat beside my bed to fight off what’s inside my head.”

Museum date or aquarium date? I suppose aquarium. Have you ever been a part of a protest or a march? No. Do you play any video games? Yes. Did you ever have an emo or scene phase? Yes. Name a subject you know a lot about. Meerkats. How would you describe your style? Too-Poor-To-Dress-Goth-So-Wears-Band-Merch-And-Graphic-Tees-Instead. What’s something most people love that you hate? Coffee. Who knows the most about you? Sara. Applesauce or pudding? Pudding. If you could create ANY mix-up or mythical animal and have it be brought to life, what would it be? I think I've mentioned a meerkat with butterfly wings before? Or bird wings? Describe a moment that is a prominent memory, but didn’t have a strong impact on your life. Uhhhh there's a lot. One random one would be learning to ride my bike. If there was one problem/issue you could wipe off the face of the earth, what would it be? Ohhhhhhhhhh god, there's so much. Maybe poverty? Do you think everyone in our lives serves a purpose, or are some people just there? In the story of your own life, no, not everyone. How do you feel about getting your picture taken? I hate it. Most embarrassing poster you’ve ever owned? Never owned one I was embarrassed by. When was the last time you were in a public setting and a stranger annoyed you? I'm not sure. Strangest pet peeve? Probably how much I hate people going in/out the wrong door. If you could make a guest appearance in ANY show, which one would you choose? Uhhhh Supernatural, maybe? Who do you think is the most underrated comedian? I don't know enough comedians for this, nevermind less successful ones. Do you always make eye contact with people when you’re speaking to them? No; this is something I'm super awkward about. I don't know how long "normal" eye contact is, so I think it's very easy to notice how, when talking to you, my eyes will suddenly wander. Could you see yourself having a child with the last person you kissed? We physically can't. We both don't want kids, anyway. Who is your favorite person to have random conversations with? SARA. When you were small, did you ever ask where babies came from? If you did, do you remember what your parents told you? I think I did, but I don't remember. What’s the nicest compliment you’ve ever been given? That I was/am "absolutely beautiful" and deserve "everything in the world." Who did you have your first kiss with? How did you meet that person? Jason. We "met" via Facebook because I accepted his friend request because I thought he was a different Jason lmao. Apparently he saw me in the hall and knew he had to talk to me so somehow found out my name. Which. I still want to know how. I've come to find how creepy our origin story is lol. Have you felt butterflies in your stomach today? No. Did anyone/anything get on your nerves today? No. Think of the person you fell the hardest for. What first attracted you? I don't know which I fell hardest for, honestly... because one was to an unhealthy degree, but my bond with Sara is healthy. I know I'm closer with her than I was Jason, but I guess by definition I still "fell hardest" for him? In that case, I thought he was really unique, even odd, which I appreciated. Has anyone recently found out something you didn’t want them to know? I got to where I told my therapist about the RP hobby, per Mom's and Sara's recommendations. I'm trying to work towards not being so secretive and embarrassed by what I love, so I very slowly got it out to her as practice and as a trust exercise. Is there something you currently want, that you can’t have? HA, there's a lot. A drawing tablet, for one. Who was the last person to make you feel embarrassed or uncomfortable? LAAAAAAAAAAAAAWL. Probably the last person I had a social interaction with that wasn't my mother. Think of the last film you watched. Who was your favorite character in it? Buddy (Elf). What color is your couch? Tan. What are you known for? Probably as the unsuccessful, antisocial, lazy 23-year-old that still depends on her mother. Has anyone ever threatened you? Yes. Have you ever been scammed? I don't think so? Are you making sure you’re using your full potential? Boy, I try, but I know I don't. If you have a partner, have you ever had to sleep in separate beds? If you don’t, how would you feel if a future partner wanted separate beds? We're long-distance so like. It'd be a bummer, but that's it; I understand wanting comfort, and even I know sleeping on your own is comfier. I'm just a cuddler and would sacrifice comfiness for the sake of physical closeness. What is something you are skeptical about? People’s intentions. <<<<<< This. Is there a murder case you find absolutely fascinating? I'm sure there's some I've forgotten. What is an unusual item somebody you know owns? Ummmm. OH HA Sara keeps the complete/"good" sheds of the snakes in her room. What’s the oldest TV-show you like? When was it made? I Love Lucy, 1951. If you have a job, do you prefer morning shifts or evening shifts? N/A, but I know I'd prefer morning. Do you have a mug with your name/initials on it? No. Have you ever designed your own mug? No. Is there a game that you excel in? A number. Have you ever been in a row boat? No. What are you most confident about? Most insecure about? Ummm... probably photography, I guess? I'm most insecure about "odd" interests and hobbies. When are you most likely to say something you don’t mean? When I'm angry. When was the last time that you saw fire? I'm not sure. Probably while lighting a match to burn some incense. Do you like wearing sunglasses? Why or why not? No. I don't like my vision being dimmed. What do you think in general of girls with short hair? Rock it. How about guys with long hair? Usually attractive to me. Have you ever seen somebody get shot? No. Would you ever try one of those DNA kits? Totally. With films in languages you do not speak, do you prefer a dub or subtitles? It depends if the voiceovers are convincing or not. Generally, I like those because subtitles distract me. Which cuisine do you like the least? That I've tried, Japanese. Are there any foods you dislike because of the texture? YEAH. LOOOOOTS. Do you let your pets sleep in your bed? Yes, except Bentley. Who are your favorite songwriters? Otep Shamaya probs tops the list. What are your favorite one-hit wonders? YO "My Own Worst Enemy" by Lit is a BOP. Have you ever seen anybody naked by accident? Maybe? Have you ever had a sexual fantasy about a celebrity? ... lol yes. Have you ever changed your clothes in the car? Yeah. About how quickly does your hair grow? UGH, fast. Because I have it short now, it's overgrown in like, two months. It looks awful where it is now, but I should be getting it cut this month. Do you have to/choose to shave anything unusual? Fuck "have to." No one has to shave anything if they don't want to. But anyway, I suppose you can consider above my lip "unusual." Much to my annoyance, I have dark body hair so develop the dreaded "ladystache" if I leave it alone for too long. Do you groom (wax, pluck, or thread) your eyebrows? No. If you wear makeup, what are your preferred brands? N/A Did your school have somewhere for girls to get emergency pads/tampons? Yes, but for a bit of change. Fucking stupid. Did you have to take showers after gym before going to your next class? No. Were you in any extracurricular activities or clubs in high school? I was in the art and honors club, but we didn't do after-school activities. Have you ever picked up and kept a rock because it caught your eye? I think. Have you ever laughed at a scene (TV/film) that wasn’t meant to be funny? Ha, I'm sure. Have you seen any Hannibal movies other than The Silence of the Lambs? I haven't even seen that, but I want to. I know it's a classic and have heard great about it from horror fans. Have you read any of the Hannibal novels? No. Do you like any indie movies? Probably. What part of a man’s body do you find most attractive? I'm suuuuch a sucker for prominent shoulder blades/moderately muscular backs. What part of a woman’s body do you find most attractive? I'm weak for hips. Do you think guys look good in makeup? YO most I see doing it fucking rock that shit. I deeply respect guys who embrace their more feminine traits. Do you like using clay and/or peel-off masks for skincare? No. Do you like bread crust on pizza or do you prefer it cut off? Mmmmm love it. Have you ever driven while drunk/intoxicated? No, absolutely never would. What’s the worst/hardest drug you’ve taken? N/A What is the worst/hardest drug you’ve been offered, but declined to partake in? Nothing. If you’ve ever tried drugs or alcohol, what was your reason for trying it? I was just curious about how it tasted and knew a bit wouldn't hurt me. Do you think you could ever have an abortion if you expectantly turned pregnant? The only way that could currently happen is if I was raped, and I don't know what I'd do. I lean towards carrying it would probably be legit traumatizing to me so yes, but I suppose I'd have to be in that situation (knock the fuck on wood) to truly know. What is the weirdest ailment a pet of yours/your family’s has sustained? Ummm. The weirdest... probably the intestine thing that killed Cato. I can't remember precisely, but I believe it was some type of infection that completely clogged him. Maybe even a disease. If you were far from home and needed to sleep for the night, would you choose to rent a crappy hotel room for $60 or sleep in your car for free? In the car. Is there a situation you caved into peer pressure and regretted it? Maybe? Have you ever been in a relationship that was going great, and then suddenly something weird happened and you just KNEW it was going to be over soon? That happened with Jason. I had this odd feeling something was off for a little while. He was quieter and seemed somewhat depressed, which was totally unlike him. I even asked him quite a bit if something was wrong, but he always reassured me he was fine. Which of the guys you’ve been interested in hurt you the most? lul we knooooow. Do you know anyone who is engaged? Yes. Do you know anybody who is pregnant? Yes. I'm going to one's baby shower next month! What is your relationship status on Facebook? Taken. Would you be able to name everyone you’ve kissed? Yeah. Last person you watched a movie with? Sara, her dad, and I think her mom and one brother was with us? Who has the power to break you? I honestly hope no one anymore, at least not entirely. But Sara comes the closest. Favorite “little kid” movie? TLK. What are you listening to? WoW's Grizzly Hills music. :') Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything? Sara. Or Mom. It depends on the subject. Do you find smoking unattractive? Very. I think it says something about how much you care for your health. Have you ever just laid down outside and stared at the stars? Yup. Has anyone ever asked you if you were bipolar? I don't believe so. What was the last thing you looked up on Google? Types of rat cancer for that pet ailment question. We don't know with certainty, but that's likely what killed Tezzeret, brain or eye cancer or something like that. Do you lose interest in someone quickly? If you do something stupid, ha, bye. I can lose interest very fast but also slowly. Ever cried while you were on the phone with someone? Yes. Does your password have to do with a boy/girl? No. Have you ever made a boyfriend or girlfriend cry? Yes. Think back to last year. Who did you like? Sara. How did you meet the last male you called? He's my dad so like- Ever been kissed on the leg? Maybe? What was the last thing you ate? Ham, cheese, and mustard on wheat bread. If you HAD to kiss someone right now, who would it be? Sara. Who was the last person you rode in the car with? Mom. Name some things you love about winter? NOT HOT AS FUCK, snow, frost, gingerbread, chocolate-covered peanuts, I can walk outside without worrying about ticks, my birthday, hot chocolate, looking at Christmas lights/decorations, nice tree designs, Christmas itself... I just love winter. Last person to hear you cry? Probably Mom. How do you feel about your relationship status? I love it. Only thing that could make me happier is if we weren't long-distance. Is it possible to be JUST friends with someone you wanna be with? I dunno. Have you ever been given roses? Yes. Would you ever sky dive? I don't think so. Where was the last place you fell asleep other than your own bed? Sara's bed. If you dated someone that someone else liked, would you rub it in their face? Uh no, I'm an adult. Have you received a text message that made you cry? Yes. What do you think of your country’s education system? If you could change it, what would you do? WOULD YOU LIKE AN ESSAY????????????? I'd change a fucking load of things. If you could move out of your home country permanently, would you? If so, where would you go? No. Is there a celebrity that everyone else seems to love, but you find totally overrated? Why is it that you don’t like them? I'm not in a place to really answer this; I'm not knowledgeable of almost any celebs' lives. Think back to the last time you got really angry. Do you think your anger was justified, or did you act in an over the top way? It was fucking justified. If you could volunteer for any charity, which one would you choose? Do you think it’s more important to help humans, or are animal and environmental charities equally important? Probably one for the environment as far as volunteer work. We're absolutely annihilating our one and only home, and if we don't collectively get our shit together as a species, we're gone. I think both are equally important. Do you have any allergies? If not, what do you think the worst thing to be allergic to would be? Pollen. I think the worst of the ones I know would be any deathly-allergic food, especially those that there are traces of in many foods. What do you think of the term plus-sized in modeling? It is it empowering or demeaning? It's demeaning in its name. Just use "modeling" as the term. "Plus size" just makes it sound as if you're not a "perfect" model. Do you prefer holidays where you relax, or actually do things? Mmm, depends on my mood, honestly. Do you think you are ready to be on your own (have your own home, job, etc.)? No. Do you think that after we die our spirit is still alive? Totally. Do you sleep in a bra? I feel very sorry for anyone who does. Has your ex ever gone out with someone close to you? No. Can you suggest someone funny on YouTube? Personally find Game Grumps or Shane Dawson the funniest people on there. Sprite or Mtn. Dew? I hate Sprite, so. Has anyone close to you ever been suicidal? Yes. What is the 10th picture in your phone/camera of? A picture of Roman as a kitten. :') Are you friends with someone who’s autistic? My niece is, if she counts. Has anyone ever walked in on you having sex? No. Have you ever had a Bic Mac? No. I don't like lettuce on burgers. What’s your favorite part about the holidays? Seeing how excited my niece and nephew are. How old is your television? Idk exact years, but we had it before the divorce, so it's been a while. Would you ever dye your hair an unnatural color? BITCH I always want my hair an unnatural color. Have you ever been to the zoo before? Yes. If you’re reading a book, what page are you currently on? N/A How many online accounts do you have? Or have you lost count? I've definitely lost count. Have you ever been to a convention? (comic, YouTube, etc.) A reptile one. Have you ever done a first aid course? No. Has anyone ever compared you to someone you don’t like? No, I don't think so. Do elevators freak you out? Yes. How do you find new music to listen to when you want it? YouTube recommendations or Spotify. What is the biggest difference between you and your best friend? OUR FEELINGS TOWARDS MEDICATION. YOU NEED IT SOMETIMES BABE. What is something most people are turned on by but you’re not? Penises in general. I'm still bi, but seeing a dick is just. Ugh they're just hideous to me okay. Is there anything you wish you had done with a current/previous significant other? No. Well, I'm curious how actually deep sex would feel, so I guess I kinda wish Jason and I went that far, especially now that I'll probably never have actual intercourse again, but. Oh well. What are the top three qualities that draw you to a new person? Charismatic, caring, and respectful. What job would you be terrible at and what job would you be good at? Anything dealing with customers; exposing animals to healthy human contact. Do you think that forgiveness is mandatory to move on from something? I think so, to fully move on. Name three things you would buy if you had the money to buy them? A PS4, drawing tablet, totally new and better camera. If you could have a video of one event in your life, what would the video be? Sara's reaction to seeing me in her room on her birthday. Her face was the most priceless thing ever. What did you think was cool when you were younger? Light-up shoes lmao. Who do you wish you could back into contact with and why did you stop in the first place? Megan. She lied about just about everything in her life for pity. When I finally called her out, she was so upset with herself that she like, fell off the face of the earth. Have you ever had a dream of stabbing someone? No, but rather Dad trying to stab me. What’s the most bizarre Horror movie you’ve ever seen? Idk off the top of my head. Would you ever take a Lie Detector test for your significant other? No, but only because I find them as bullshit. Especially as someone with anxiety, I'd be so scared of something showing as a "lie" to remain calm. Plus, a question may just prompt a memory or thought in you that shows up on the test or whatever but isn't related to lying, stuff like that. Ever had a forbidden love or lover? No. Do you like canopy beds? YES. I WANT ONE. If you could summon any animal to come to your rescue, what animal would it be and why? Ummm maybe a bear? They're tanks and super dangerous with their claws, teeth, and muscles.