#I want so many things!!! and I don't ask for any of them bcus; going to my first point!!!; what'd be the fucking point!!!

[egg2k16]

This may be the depression speaking + the earliest trauma I've ever gone thru (completely accidental as well), but I think it's kinda pointless to give me gifts. I have clothes that still fit me and are in excellent condition. I have shoes. I have a sizeable movie collection (that tbf I can always add to), and all the books I'd want. I don't paint anymore so it's useless giving me art supplies. And unfortunately even giving me money is hilariously pointless bcus I'm not even gonna spend it on anything, I'm just gonna put it into my savings account and keep living day by day as I do: doing nothing...interesting

[nightcolorz]

I stumbled on your blog and i love it sm!!

Its so weird, because i am a huge Marius fan, and you put many reasons why he is my absolute favorite character as things why he SUCKS! Its so cool to me, to read something so accurate and then have someone put out a completely different opinion on it! (i do not think he is Good, none of them are. But i think he is cool, his better qualities resonate with me the most of all the characters, i love lore, and i love reading about him the most)

There are few things, that i do not understand and it bothers me endlessly! I just can't figure out where some readings come from, very sinserely (because i want to respect other readings and interpretations), maybe you could help me understand?

First: that Marius dislikes being challenged and tries to "keep Armand to himself"(generalizing) - as i read it, Marius prefers people who challenge him, can stand up to him. All of his paramours are like that - Pandora, Bianca, Armand, Lestat, Daniel..even Botticelli actively defy him, in a way other characters don't and Marius himself is vocal on that being something he admires about them. He does not know how to deal with that, oh no, but he loves it - the fire he himself does not possess. He also actively helps Armand learn about his culture and family, ready to be left behind when they visit Kievan Rus. He also never shows any type of concern about Armands "daytime" personal connections. As i remember, he encourages it decpite objections, actually.. My personal reading is that most drama and abuse between Marius and Armand is about Marius refusing the codependency Armand desperatly wants. (and them being oppisitely unhealthy about that)

Second: there is a notion, that Marius would not want Armand to grow up? And i do not understand where it comes from at all... Marius actively states (and thinks) that his own wish is to see Armand grown into a Man and he refuses time and time again to turn him before then (or to turn him at all) , until Armand is on the deaths door. (i also saw a thing about shaving, but all of them are shaved before the turning as an old ritual, canonically, i believe, only Santino is unshaved so. I might be wrong tho lol. One of canon reasons (again, if my memories are not faulty) - facial and body hair might go in and out of style, so clean shave helps them blend in better)

I you would spare some time to let me understand where those come from i would be forever grateful, because i sometimes think i am blind (and i might be! Thats why i ask. I am a bit scared that i might be percieved in bad faith, but if i have a blindspot i will not see it myself, so getting outside help is the only way haha)

I hope you have a great day! Thnx for the very least reading my ask!

(this is going to be slightly shorter then I initially wanted it to be bcus I wrote a whole essay and tumblr DELETED IT, so I’m so sorry ur going to get a condescend version of my thoughts 😰 I hope they still make sense, anyways)

Thank u sm anon ur so nice omg 🥹❤️ it makes me so happy that u like my blog!!! Don’t worry at all about coming off as bad faith u only come off as respectful and curious to me. I’m going to answer ur questions the best I can! 🙏

I think that the reason a lot of my Marius posts seem to contradict parts of canon is bcus Marius is a very self contradictory character. His wants are often in conflict with each other, and in his relationship with Armand he is always warring between conflicting desires.

First: I definitely agree that Marius seeks out people who challenge him and does rlly enjoy it (to an extent lol). but the way I perceive it, marius likes to be challenged *to an extent*. He doesn’t want a partner who will be weak and docile with him, he wants a partner he’ll need to fight into being docile and he wants to loose that fight<3.He prefers someone with some fire in them, clearly, based on his choice of lovers lol. And I think this is bcus Marius likes the chase, like any vampire. He likes the thrill of being with someone who makes him hurt for it a little bit, he likes fighting and arguing and struggling to stifle a spark he knows is too bright to put out. But also, like most ppl lol, Marius likes to be challenged only so much as he isn’t challenged to the point of having to change himself. He doesn’t want to change his perspective, whenever a partner of his gets him to rethink how he thinks or acts he tends to get rlly mad. He wants to be challenged as long as it’s fun, if he’s uncomfortable or feeling like he might actually adopt a new perspective or change as a person he puts a stop to it. At the end of the day he needs that teacher and student or master and subordinate dynamic to stay in tact. He likes to be challenged but he doesn’t like to be weakened or caught off guard in anyway that makes him question his authority or his strength.

When it comes to Marius helping Armand rediscover his culture, yas! This actually is a good transition bcus this is also a good example of what I’m talking about when it comes to the being challenged thing. Marius is happy and eager to help Armand heal from the demons of his past by rediscovering the family and culture hes forgotten, so long as Armand is obedient and answering to his call at the end of the day. Marius is happy to be left on the sidelines, up until armand starts disregarding his authority and moving away from him on his own path. After coming home from Kiev Armand realizes that he doesn’t gain anything from learning from Marius and he would rather learn on his own by discovering himself and processing what this new culture means to him. And Marius let’s him have this, until he realizes that he’s loosing his control over Amadeo and he is not going to come back to him without a push, and he beats the absolute shit out of him 😭 again, challenged to an extent.

Second: when marius first buys Armand he explains in blood and gold that part of why he chose Armand was bcus he wanted a vampire companion in Bianca, but he felt too guilty to turn Bianca bcus she was a bright young woman with a future ahead of her, so he chose Armand to be his future vampire companion instead bcus Armand was broken enough to not have a chance of a future anyway (therefore turning him is guilt free). Then, marius learns very quickly that Armand could easily have a future just as bright as Bianca, once he’s under his care he starts to prosper, and he realizes that turning him into a vampire would be equally as cruel as turning Bianca. So his motive changes, and he decides that his desire to turn Armand is wrong and he should instead give him the chance to live a full human life just like any of the other boys. Marius wants this bcus he knows that it’s the right thing to do, to give up the person he loves for their own good. But it’s also, deep down, not what he wants at all, bcus it agonizes him to think of a future where he doesn’t have Amadeo. So this creates this self contradictory mess, where Marius is aiming both at the same time to turn Armand into a vampire and also to let him live a human life. He starts doing contradictory things, like feeding Armand his blood and exposing him to vampirism + getting him hooked on it, and then sending him out to “experience humanity” bcus that’s what Marius wants for him.

It caused Armand to be driven absolutely insane, bcus he’s being communicated two different things about what Marius wants for his future. I think Marius’s conflicting desire causes part of Armand’s desperate begging for him to turn him. Armand is so fed up with this mind melding conflict he just wants Marius to rip the band aid off and do it 😭 cuz they both know it’s what they both want. And Marius knows that this is the terrible abusive option, and he can’t get Armand to see this bcus Armand is too far deep in his love brain.

So my answer is, Marius wants Armand to grow up bcus he knows that’s what’s best for him, but he continues to hold out on the possibility of vampirism and refuses to cut ties with Armand bcus he rlly does want to turn him against his better judgement, which in my opinion reads as a desire to keep him young, under his control, in that limbo stage where he doesn’t need to make a decision. Partly bcus if Armand is young and compliant and his body isn’t changing the clock isn’t ticking and Marius doesn’t have to confront that his choices r either loose Amadeo or ruin him.

when it comes to the “shaving Armand was part of a vampire ritual” personally I don’t remember that? It’s not that I don’t believe u, that could totally be accurate and it definitely sounds like smth that would be canon, but I’m struggling to remember if I read that and forgot. I’ve always perceived the Marius shaves Armand cuz he wants to preserve his youth thing as accurate bcus it’s interesting and makes sense for the characters and I don’t remember anything that contradicts it lol, I also don’t remember any other character being shaved pre turning as a ritual besides Armand so I didn’t consider if it was a vampire thing. but u could be right and if so oops I’m sorry for spreading misinfo 😭 but either way that’s still gonna be my headcanon and my interpretation is much the same lol

I hope u have a great day anon and find this interesting ❤️ thank u for the ask!

[thegempage]

stands in ur inbox

✅️ 😠 and 😊 from that writing ask meme (you are Obligated to say something nice about your writing, I am not asking /lh)

fjdaklfjadsklfjdskalfd alright alright!!

😠 whats your least favorite part of your writing process?

the part where it's been taking like 3-10 months to finish anything most of the time jfdkalfjkds

😊 say something nice about your writing

i think i'm pretty fucking good at what i do, tbh. maybe i'm not quite a professional but i'm good at getting characters across and i have fun fucking around with grammar and perspective and word choice. i've been doing this shit for fourteen, almost fifteen years by this point and i'd like to think it's paid off.

✅ list one or two favorite lines you’ve written and explain why they’re your favorite

(doing this one last bcus it's gonna be long af so under a cut it goes) (also suggestive for the second line lmao)

... okay. so. i can't share some of my Actual favorite lines bcus to be quite honest, i don't feel like publicly sharing the full pieces but going into why i like them would need too much context. but these are pretty far up there in terms of liking them

“You know nothing about me, Narinder. You know not what you ask of me. You know not what my motivations are. Death has been my companion since before my birth. Death has been waiting for me from my first breath and stole from me my last. The Red Crown brought me no closer to death than my own mother did upon giving me life.” The Lamb, as a rule, did not shout, but their harsh whisper was louder than any scream could have been. “Death is the right of the sacrificial beast, oh One Who Waited, was that not why the bishops slaughtered us one by one at their altars? Was that not why you put the Crown in my hands and beget me to kill?”

yes this is an entire paragraph, i also think it fucks. this is part of a longer argument that narinder and the lamb are having, but this particular piece came out Really well. it feels nice in the mouth to say and i think "One Who Waited" as an insult is one of my favorite weird character things for this lamb lmao

Skin flushed from his [Narinder's] earlier efforts, begging to let the divinity underneath go free. Skin he'd been kept from all too long for the tastes of his worst impulses. He was always allowed to draw blood -- when his hands trailed over Juno they begged him to draw blood, to release that within them that craved bloodshed far beyond what crusades could provide -- but so rarely was he allowed anything deeper. Narinder had torn apart the bodies of gods on many an occasion, but only Juno came crawling back to him for more, only Juno offered themself up for the slaughter and spread their legs as thanks. The prophecy had promised him a sacrificial beast and given him something willing to bleed for him for all of eternity. Perhaps that was why they healed where the others had not, wounds taken willingly instead of thrust upon them. Perhaps it was because the godhood that tore them apart was so closely intertwined with their own.

...... don't worry. about the full context. anyway i just like this bit a lot jfkdaljfsjkfdla this is a different narinder and lamb than the previous line, and this particular pair has a uuuuhhh wild ass relationship with each other and divinity and the nature of immortality. the role of juno as a sacrificial beast and how they both defy and seek shelter in that role depending on what they need and how they're doing is a really fun part of writing them. also the nature of narinder as a death god, former or no, and a cat, a predator, who has everlasting prey that wants to be in his jaws, and how his sense of ownership over juno has changed between them being a vessel and them being his god and spouse

[cringengl]

Forever Dumb by Surf Curse is so mike coded it's insane and the whole song seems dedicated to mike and his relationships with will and el

Here r the lyrics:

I would run away from you, if I could

Never really wanted to, but I guess I should run

I would fall in love with you, but I can't

It's too hard, maybe we'll just pretend

The first two lines talk about his relationship with will. Mike wants to run away from will bcus of his feelings for him and he never wanted to bcus obviously will is his best friend, a good example of mike running away is that airport 'hug' or the fact that he didn't write will any letters. 80s homophobic society is telling mike to run from will bcus he shouldn't be feeling that way about another boy so that's what he does.

The next two lines r about his relationship with el. He wants to fall in love with her to be 'normal', but can't bcus he's in love with will, so he pretends to be, which is why he can never look her in the eye and why mike does all the performative things such as writing letters, but can't say 'I love you'. El wants a relationship from the shows and movies she was watching in s2, and like finn wolfhard said, mike wants to be 'normal', so they pretend that they're in love.

But it's hard when I don't know what to do

I'm angry and I'm tired and confused

I got so many thoughts stuck in my head

And none of them make much sense

Honestly this part seems to sum up an angsty mike's character so well. He doesn't know what to do, he's wearing clothes that r a "shitty knock off" to the airport and has to be told by will to say "I love you" to el. This also sums up his s2 character as well, since he feels like he's going "crazy" and karen says how he plagiarised an essay, cussed out a teacher and vandalised the bathroom stall.

I said I would follow you, but I lied

Don't be mad

Well, at least I tried

This part is about his relationship with will. Mike said that he would go "crazy together", but during times like the rain fight the rink o mania fight, it's obvious to see how mike wants to grow up and do stuff like have a girlfriend, even if that means leaving will behind because that's what he's been told to do. But mike does try, he tells will asking him to be his friend was "the best thing I've ever done" and he always goes and apologies to will when they fight.

I never had a spot for you in my life

Which was true

Till I heard you cry

I think this part is more about el. Mike originally never had a spot for her in his life, he literally said that he "stumbled" upon her in the woods, but during s1 once he hears hoe the bad guys are after her, he immediately keeps her by his side until the end of the season.

And your tears dripped down your face into my eyes

I'm sorry and I hate myself this time

Cause I got so many thoughts stuck in my head

And none of them

Make much sense

This last part is about the van scene and gives the interpretation it more as 'mike knew will was crying but didn't know why and didn't know what to do about it'.

This whole song is so mike wheeler omg go listen to it if u haven't already

[auniverseforgotten]

5, 8 and 17 for the AO3 wrapped :3

ANOTHER ONE WAHOO THANK U TEA

Ask meme for anyone who wants it!

5. What work of yours got more feedback than you expected?

Honestly the one that got the most Visible feedback is please god don't let this be my legacy, like I know my niche atm is saliama but even with that, I was surprised so many people commented on this one! I know we all know Salieri in life is different than he is portrayed in media but in tapping into that I brought in some people! I love all my comments ofc but one in specific we started discussing in depth and that's always so fun <3

I was also surprised on like ANY response on my two fionndiar fics, Waging a Water War and A Kiss, A Miss, specifically because I go very far from canon in my interpretation of them so it surprises me people really want to read them! I know it doesn't look like MUCH engagement but I was expecting like. One person to look, or two at max SO I WAS PRETTY HAPPY WITH IT.

8. Pairing you wrote the most for this year?

Surprising ABSOLUTELY NO ONE the pairing I wrote for the most was Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart | Caster/Antonio Salieri | Avenger, these two sad composers really grabbed onto my brain by it's lil folds didn't they?

A total of 12 of my works this year were for this pairing! And given that my runner up was Dantes/Salieri with 4 fics, they are very much my main pair at the moment!

They simply compel me, there's just so much there? Like you can mess around with stuff from history, but also just the first lostbelt, the fact that Salieri exists ONLY because of Mozart, because of rumors, how do you grow as a person outside of that? How are you ever your own person outside of that?

And Mozart, well. He's an absolute asshole, he's not even a funny one sometimes, but when you peel that and take a look at insecurity and exhaustion [LB1 HCs but still] and everything he uses humor and being an asshole to disguise.

And a lot of it that I see is Mozart desperate to have Salieri close, someone who really Sees him, who can call him on his bullshit best because he knew him most, and it's a reminder of who he was in life and who he is now. And Salieri...his entire character is built from how much he hates and loves Mozart. It's his entire thing. And there's so much nuance there. THEY COMPEL ME.

17. Your favorite character to write this year?

I'm not only counting posted fics this time sdfxcgv obviously I've written a lot of Salieri and I do really like writing from his PoV bcus I love writing angst and it's so perfect. But in my WIPs I have a LOT more Diarmuid PoV fics and idk when,,,if ever,,,,they will be finished and posted but he's just so fun to write he gives 0 fucks about anything except Fionn and taking care of kids, he'll tell Goredolf to fuck off and set a building on fire but if a 5 year old asks him to get their cat out of the tree he will [grudgingly] do it, I have a fic where he is Accidentally given 8 kids and he proceeds to spoil them rotten bcus they Deserve it, I love his friendship with Medb, I love HOW FUCKIN MUCH he yearns for Fionn.

AND THEN YOU SPECIFICALLY KNOW ABOUT THE TRANSFORMERS LMAOOOOOOOO I have been. Having a lot of fun with Starscream specifically in your alt mode AU it's been so good to tear into all the things he hides behind his bitchiness <3 which is not to say he isn't just a bitch, he is <3 it's just that he has layers <3 <3

THANK U SO MUCH FOR THE ASK YAHOO

[sw4tch]

I have many thoughts about my bday

Most of them have been caused by events surrounding my bday after all

First of all, the passage of time feels fake. I don't feel any different from what i did the day before.

But i think that's good. I haven't lost myself.

Two, i don't think i talked about it enough but one of my dearest friends sent me a microwave. An entire microwave, just because i was me and i had mentioned i was lacking one in this new place. I still can't believe it, i see it and i go "THIS IS A GIFT??? FOR ME??? IT WAS FOR ME AND NOW ITS MINE???"

It wasn't that it was a microwave, but rather that someone i adore, seems to adore me too, to the point of sending me such a huge gift.

And i couldn't be more happy about it.

Reminders that I'm loved by friends, reminders that somehow I've found amazing friends along the way.

Third, it feels so weird to be loved by people and having good friends you wish you were even closer with. My office pals threw me a small party and bought a huge cake for me. They gave me a gift. They all were happy for me.

It feels so weird for someone like me who spent the entirety of their life trapped in a box and convinced i was unlovable

Even though last year i had great and amazing friends, now having more friends and being celebrated by them still feels weird

I guess mostly bcus they're office friends and still a part of me believes they are my friends by obligation

But they're the sweetest of people. They really are.

I wonder when i will shake off that feeling of inadequacy.

Fourth, i spent my bday a bit... Sad?

Not miserable by any means, specially bcus i got to have breakfast with a friend

But i got bday messages and it was a bit overwhelming

I didn't want to touch my cellphone all day

I was scared to open the messages.

I don't know why, to be honest. I should have been happy.

But i guess it's been difficult lately to accept I've always been loved, that i got to forge friendships despite being trapped in a box, and that ultimately I am loved

I am loved

I am loved

I am loved

For being myself and nothing else

That's terrifying. It's terrifying.

So i spent most of the day holed up in my room and attending responsibilities i imposed myself.

Hiding away from the world, and yet enjoying being it in one year more.

The truth is, i am happy about my birthday.

Heck, i spent an amazing weekend to celebrate it with friends!

And yet, in the quietest moments i can't help but wonder how i made it out alive.

Kicking and scratching we made it out alive.

Bloody and bruised, we took one more step to stay alive.

It's hard to believe I'm still alive.

A friend that does witchy stuff gave me a tarot reading.

Truth is i am skeptical of any and all magics.

They're like the concept of God. Makes me think that if they're real, then the forces turned a blind eye to my suffering all along.

But still, in the moment of the reading, i believed, i believed in it so much because despite everything i am still naive with a naive heart.

He said something along the lines of:

"You have the power of creation.

And this next card tells me you need to come to terms with not having an abundance of material goods.

But this last card tells me that whatever you set your mind to, whatever thing you're struggling with- The outcome is clear.

You're going to win, you will be victorious"

And i want to believe it's true.

I'm gonna win. I'm gonna try. I'll never lose. I'll never die.

I'll never give up. I'll never give in.

Till i won't be abused.

He told me i could ask the cards a question.

I had to ask mentally, not outloud.

I wondered if i could bring my cats home to me.

The cards said Maybe.

What a hurtful answer.

And yet. And yet. And yet.

It's not a No.

Not like it would have stopped me.

But I'm still gonna try.

I have to try.

Here's to more years of Snaily of the future never giving up.

Have i told you how much i love you? That i love you so much? That whenever i think of your resilience, i feel so proud?

You were forged in the dark, and you could have become twisted and monstrous, as twisted and monstrous as those that hurt you

And yet, you still choose to be kind, and good, as much as you can.

And i love that about you.

And i will always love that about you.

When you feel lonely, remember how much i love you.

And how we will definitely fulfill our promise of happiness. For us, and only us.

So here's to a happy birthday, for the most beautiful enby in town ❤

Grandpa would have been proud.

Good night my love, good night my beloved

[terminallytwee]

so im blanking out this person's url/blog theme bcus they're either a minor or just on the cusp of 18, and in either case, I don't want them to feel attacked for this but.

rule of thumb, do not do this to artists:

I put out a call for requests on Friday afternoon or Saturday morning (frankly I don't remember which). This user, who is not following me, sent me a detailed request for a character I've never heard of. I found this weird, but I agreed bcus they gave me references. But, eh, as any of you who have requested work from me know, I am a grown ass adult with a wife, a full time job, several chronic illnesses, and a life of my own so sometimes it takes me a couple days to get requests done, if i decide to draw them at all. This has literally never been an issue bcus the understanding is that I am making you art for free so like, I'll take my time. however, this user started hassling me for a resolution. i went onto their blog, and it looks like they just search the "requests open" tag and bug artists for free content on the reg.

i have since blocked them because, frankly, i do not need that kind of stress on my 100%-for-fun art blog. idk what's going on in this person's life, so i don't want to assume that they were ill intended. in fact, i think they may just be an inexperienced kid with a very particular special interest that they're really passionate about. and that's okay! but it is often forgotten that artists are people, and not on demand content making machines.

to prevent this kind of behavior in the future, let me make it clear:

1. i will now only be accepting requests from people who are following me

2. this has always been true, but i reserve the right to deny any request given to me, EVEN IF i'm asking for requests. for any reason. like yeah, i might not draw you something that goes against my morals but also like, i'm also not drawing something i have 0 interest in. my days on this earth are limited.

3. i don't mind if you message me about the status of a request, but you have to respect my decisions. i work at a tech startup and have so many health issues, sometimes things are gonna come up. if i tell you no, you can either handle that with grace or i'm blocking you.

so yeah, i feel weird putting out rules like this, but i'm really uncomfortable with the prospect of getting pushed around. these are my boundaries, and i would appreciate it if my followers respected them. thanks. i will be adding these rules to my bio for future reference, because this is not the first time somebody pulled something like this and utterly skeeved me out.

[fairy-writes]

Hola 👋☺️

I hopped on you acc and saw ur matchups open so may i ask for one ? 🥺.

Im so sorry its gonna be long so bear 🐻 with me.

May i ask for KNY, OPM and JUJUSTU KAISEN matchup please?

Im 5'2", short black boy cut hair, dark choco eyes,i have myopia and wear glasses,im chubby too, my style is anything that complements my body also looks cute.

I dont have a favorite food but i absolutely despises sweets(or anything that contains sugar or milk). But i love Spicy 🔥 foods. I love lofi/reverb/slowed version of songs.

Coming to main points, I LOVE THE SKY, CLOUDS, STARS, MOONS,WIND AND BIRDS. I feed bout 50-70 pigeons everyday(they are the local pigeons of ny neighborhood) its a sight to behold, most of my neighbors have recorded it.

In a relationship i am th biggest supporter of my partner, I'll alway be there for them no matter what situation I'll be in. I really want a guy who is super sweet and kawaii but strong and responsible underneath but won't show that. Going on dates twice a week, CaRinG and ProTeCtiVe. He'll be the sun 🌞 and ill be the moon 🌙. Any kind of date is fine with me. Love language is Quality Time and words of affirmation. Im okay with holding hands and forehead kissing (too much sappy?). StArGaZiNg. The kind of guy to buy all ice cream flavour for you bcus u said u crave one but didn't mention the flavour. The kind who knows you're in a bad mood by hearing you voice. The kind to show up at your school or college to pick you up. The kind to cheer for you when you're giving a presentation or receiving a prize.

I apologize for it being so long (ಥ╭╮ಥ). No rush take your time. I can understand writing matchups and hcs takes a lot time to think it through cuz i used to own a tmnt matchup blog too. So don't worry ☺️ 😉 ill be here.

Hello lovely! I hope you like your matchups! Unfortunately, I couldn’t remember whether you wanted male or female, so I hope this is okay! This will probably be the one and only OPM matchup I do. I’m just not familiar enough with the characters to do multiple matchups.

Demon Slayer Matchup: I pair you with… Rengoku Kyojuro!

Rengoku is taller than you at 5’9 ½,” and he loves your glasses! He is always complimenting you and your sense of style too! He’s also a massive fan of spicy foods, so the two of you bond over going out to find the spiciest bowls of udon you can!

The two of you spend a lot of time outdoors together. Rengoku particularly likes sunrises and likes to wake up early (or stay up late, depending on when he works) to watch it every morning! He also thinks it’s fascinating that you feed so many pigeons every single day!

Rengoku is your biggest supporter, so the two of you are both balls of sunshine supporting each other! Sanemi refuses to look your way when the two of you are together because you are too much for him to handle (really, he’s just jealous he doesn’t have a S/O). His love language is likely physical touch and words of affirmation. He loves to hold your hand in public to make sure you don’t get lost and loves to tell you how much he loves you!

One Punch Man Matchup: I pair you with… Genos!

(sorry if he doesn’t exactly match, there are not many options in OPM, and I’m an anime-only person)

Genos is a whopping 5’10” and loves you with every fiber of his being! More than he loves learning from Saitama, and that’s saying something! He doesn’t have a preference for food. He’s a cyborg, after all (can he even eat? idk).

One thing Genos loves to do is scoop you up and hold you on his back piggyback style and give your rides so you can fly through the clouds and the sky since you love them so much! He also helps you feed your pigeons every day without fail. He likes the simplicity and monotony of it.

He loves that you are such a big supporter of him and his hero work! He tries to keep you out of his hero work as much as possible for your safety, but over time, he slowly lets you in. His ideal date is just staying in and cuddling with a movie and popcorn over going out to a fancy restaurant. He just likes keeping you safe!

Jujutsu Kaisen Matchup: I pair you with… Yuji Itadori!

(this is a platonic matchup since Itaori is under 18)

Itadori is the shortest out of the three matchups at 5’8”! He has more of a sweet tooth than you do but loves all food! I mean, if he can handle eating fingers, I don’t imagine he’s too picky about what else he eats. So go and hang out at fun food joints and order tons of spicy food! He’s also down for a challenge so find spicy food challenges to take him to!

The two of you spend a lot of time outside. Whether that’s going on jogs (which Itadori loves) or just cloud watching (which sounds more your speed), it’s okay with him! He’ll also happily help you feed your pigeons and even names all 50-70 of them! Can he keep them straight? Nope. But does he try? You bet he does!

Even though you two aren’t dating, you still support Itadori in everything he does! You support him in his endeavors to find all of Sukuna’s fingers and in his schoolwork! He isn’t the most responsible; he’s actually a bit airheaded. But he tries his best! Overall, 10/10 would recommend this boy as your best friend!

[animated-moon]

Good evening my moon!! How is the New Year going so far? I hope it is going really well because it is about to get better once a certain something is up <3333 (you will find out later my sweets)

Speaking of Demon Slayer, I will definitely be coming over for a sleepover filled with chocolate and many hours to watch it together my lovely! And I am excited to learn about the characters (especially gyomei since they seem to interest you a lot <3 )

It doesnt matter even if your pronouns are burlap/sack (which you would rock by the way my love), You will still be my moon and will not get demoted any less <3333 (this is also full permission to add some pronouns such as Tendou’s/Moon ~)

ehhhh I don’t think I did THAT GREAT- but I also could have done worse 😅 I got a 70 which isn’t so bad, but could be better (by the way, I wouldn’t ask Semi-Semi about his results cause when he got them, I kid you not, his face went 5 shades paler🧍‍♂️)

By the way, I saw some missed called from Natalia, one of your mutuals I believe. Did anything happen that I should know my brilliant confectioner?

Ohohoho, believe me I was REALLY close to finding this kid until I was reminded that I need to be available on Sunday and before to hang out with you and go to the carnival😅. Apparently Goshiki-Kun called for the reinforcements ao I couldn’t finish tracking them my little lamb😔

i- Moon how are you going to doubt me winning cute stuffed animals and sweets for you when I have won multiple on our carnival double date with Cel and Wakatoshi-Kun🧍‍♂️It doesn’t matter what carnival it is, I will always make sure I win many prizes for you my paradise <333

Stay on the Lookout for a post by me later my Tendou💜💜💜

tw suggestive ?? under cut and also explaining whatever that tendou shenanigan was

MY DEAR TORI YOU HAVE TO LISTEN TO ME

okay so may wanted to execute you because i said "i dont care who killed who" about someone in demon slayer bcus this character killed this other character who i really liked but i didnt really give a damn. and then after that she said "you have to admit i have a big dick and that i'm the best" and i was too busy laughing and she said "tiktok times up" and then you DIED BY BIG BOOTY MAN OR SOMETHING- AND THEN AFTER THAT SHE MADE A PICTURE OF YOU DURING YOUR FUNERAL SLAYING LIKE A BAD BITCH

anyways yes <3 that's all that happened <3 normal things <3

okay now onto the ask :

NEW YEARS HAS BEEN AMAZING !! we had hotpot and I got to eat ricecakes (oh my gosh I will NEVER get sick of ricecakes tell you)! ALSO BABE :(((( I SAW THE POST AND GOSHURGJIOSDRJG YOU'RE SO SWEET ! i hope you know that I am equally glad to have you :((((( <33 (also also, yes <3 tendou's moon I am)

GYOMEI YES <3 my ultimate favourites are still tengen and shinobu though! shinobu is so so darn pretty and skilled and amazing and I don't even know where to start for tengen <3

70 IS GOOD, LOVE!! believe me, compared to the 7/100 that I once got, it's super good </3 and now that you mention it....... i really wanna go ask semisemi about his grades >:)

nono <3 nothing happened <3 no need to worry :)

HAHAHHA MY SWEETS!! there's no need to go around finding that kid anymore <3 he might've finally gotten the hint and left me alone (at last, gosh. i was gonna faint out of frustration)

:( BAAAABE :(( you're making me soft and you have no right to (you actually have all rights to, I'm handing all my rights to you at this point). one day I'll win you something too !! just you wait >:)) I've been getting the hang of claw machines >:)))

BUT HOW ARE YOU BABE ?? HOW'S NEW YEARS GOING FOR MY AMAZING, BRILLIANT HUSBAND? (sometimes I accidentally call you boyfriend in my mind,, as if we arent married smh </3)

[jorjathomas]

Our Presentation

As we begin to limit the amount of practical work, it was important we began to create our presentation. This takes up a lot of our grade so it was crucial we got the best amount of both text and visual information possible. We were assigned to our own slides to work on throughout our working days which is good as we will get this done quicker rather than us all making input on all of the slides. We are advised to create 11-12 slides containing all the factors which make our brand. Here is who is assigned to what when presenting and creating this PowerPoint.

Slide 1: Introduction- Shannen

2: Vision and Purpose- Sushi and I

3: Customer- Talisha

4: Brand Identity- Me

5: Trend Research- Talisha

6: Product- Julia

7: Price- Sushi

8: Place- Lydia

9: Promotion- Shannen

10: Packaging- Lydia

11: Summary and Q&A- Shannen

This was our intended amount, however things did change as we began to work on this. We all have aimed for two slides each which I think was fair, however Julia and I didn't have two at the time. The group ended up asking me to cover the slide about Places we will present our brand as this is where we would talk about our website. 

My slides: what I’m going to try to portray

As I had covered a lot of the identity of the brand from attending the CAD lectures, I had to portray Self Mades’ logo and other elements which are associated with our image and how we are perceived to a blind eye. In the first slide I added the different variants of our logo and why we decided on a range of different ones in order to achieve the best interpretation. I think this slide is slightly text heavy but I wanted to add this profile layout so the viewers can really understand why we didn't stick with the initial red and pink logo design. I have created some notes discussing why with the help of Julia's colour psychology research. Because the slide as already loaded with content, I decided to add another slide where I will briefly discuss some typography techniques we’ve used aswell as other shapes which contribute to Self Made. I didn't feel a need to add much onto this slide as I don't want to talk for too long as the previous slide is fairly long. We all aim to talk for one minute each so our presentation isn't overloaded or bore the viewers if we go over the minimal time limit of 10 minutes.

Visual Presentation Identity

As we were slowly reaching the presentation day, we had to begin to finish our slides so we were able to make it look presentable. A lot of people don't prioritize this but, I think it is very important for the presentation too look neat and similar to our identity as this will help the viewers understand our brand and its objectives. In the week 5, I learnt some presentation techniques from my tutor. He suggested having every slide the same and keeping most of the images in the centre of the page and the text at the bottom. This was a good suggestion as majority of a persons eyes would go into the centre of the page first. I made a quick example of what the slides would look like so the group were happy with me moving their content around. I would've been more than happy to have some help with this as this took up a lot of my time however I understand why they asked me to do this as I had all of the branding work on my Illustrator document.

As both of our brands fonts were from Adobe Fonts, I could only use them on Adobe software's. This means the fonts weren't available in PowerPoint. This caused me to move in-between both apps profusely. I had to copy and paste each text into Illustrator and then move it back into PowerPoint after changing the text to one of the fonts.(Soap or Serenity) Each slide is consistent with the titles in the right corners and our red outlined logo in the left so the main priority is in the centre of the pages.

Above is one of Talisha's slides. She decided to add a customer profile after seeing this from one of the previous years work. We thought this would be the best way to convey our audience which is a slightly large age range. Showing a variety of women is important and validifies our value of accepting any women in society. There could be some issues with this diversity as we still need to show how all three of these customers would want to buy from a loungewear brand like us.

This is Julia's slide. There is no text on this slide as there isn't much to explain that isn't already evident in the images. Julia will discuss these products aswell as what sort of fabrics we will use to create these garments. I gave her my fabric research in order for her to explain fully the sustainable aspect of our brand. It was important we were educated on this subject as we don't want to have wrongful ‘green marketing’ advertised to our customers if we don't do the right amount of sustainable research. She has also included the design students technical designs in this slide which I hadn't seen prior making the slides.

What is green marketing?

Google states that: “Green marketing is the marketing of products that are presumed to be environmentally safe. It incorporates a broad range of activities, including product modification, changes to the production process, sustainable packaging, as well as modifying advertising’

Above is Shannen's slide which covers the charities which we have looked into and aiming to sent profits to. This was an additional slide but it is very important to add into our PowerPoint as this is the sole purpose of how our changes will make a difference in the current lifestyle. All charities contribute to the wellbeing of young adults with mentors and other helpful events. We had actually interviewed a tutor at BCU who works at the charity ‘Girls out loud’ part-time. She really enabled us to understand how they organisation works and how much we wanted to include this aspect in the brand. She also gave us other business techniques which I believe has helped us in making this presentation.

This is the final slide where Shannen will talk about our futuristic goals. We all will contribute in answering any questions the tutors may ask. I hope there isn't many concerns which they feel the need to ask after listening to us however, I think we all are prepared and have our own knowledge from this project that can answer any of their enquiries. Overall, I am content with how this presentation looks and the content included. I think we have the right amount of slides as this will be a short presentation. We have practiced this a few times and timed ourselves to make sure we don't talk for to long. Originally, we spoke for too long so we all reduced our notes and practised again. I am existed to see what our tutors will think but I am also aware of my struggles in presenting. I know my nerves can get the best of me however I am striving to be confident and use suitable presenting skills learnt from this module that can help me communicate to the best of my ability.

[thegempage]

alone, hunt, fear, and monster for both watchful eyes and hammerfall plsssss

oh Fuck yeah absolutely!!

context for the unfamiliar: they're both pf2e characters; watchful eyes (she/her) is my gnoll barbarian and hammerfall at high noon (or hammerfall) (any but mainly they/he) is a leshy gunslinger (as well as some fire bullshit)!

(from this ask meme)

alone: How does your OC deal with loneliness? Have they ever been completely alone before? How do they act when there's no one around to see them?

watchful eyes: uhhh badly! like really badly! in fact, being abandoned and alone is her deepest fear!! jfdklsajfdskfdls she was definitely completely isolated after she was separated from her original family until she found the orcs who ended up taking her in and she never wants to go through that again. but when she's alone at home, she ends up just being... quiet. meditative, almost. tends to talk to her mentor's skull to fill the silence when it goes on a little too long.

tbh i feel like she won't sleep alone if she can help it. part of why she loves going on missions is having a convenient excuse to sleep wrapped around her friends

hammerfall: hammerfall actually.... tbh i don't think he'd mind being alone. they've spent a lot of their time either actually or functionally alone, sometimes for working reasons and sometimes for traveling reasons. there was definitely a period where he was traveling through the mana wastes all on his own and he doesn't think much of it! they act pretty similarly alone to with people -- perhaps a little more willing to divulge their gunsmithing secrets bcus no one's around to hear them and they want to talk themselves through a project, or to the project.

hunt: Who or what is your OC hunted by? A person, a feeling, a past mistake? Is your OC able to let their guard down, or are they constantly alert?

watchful eyes: watchful eyes feels like she is constantly outrunning a moment of failure, a moment where she will no longer be strong enough to protect the people she loves. if she trains hard enough, she feels like she can out pace it for longer, even if she doesn't do so with that thought consciously in mind. she's often on alert when on missions, but at home at the lodge she will turn into a big, cuddly puddle for a while.

hammerfall: hmm... i feel like, even if he doesn't realize it, hammerfall is running from what happened to Pops. they're consciously chasing new gun techniques and new skills, but some part of them knows that going home means facing the changes Pops has gone through, and continues to go through now that they've left. he doesn't know what to do about it, or if he can, but that thought's for another day, as far as he's concerned.

also, 100% always has a hand near their gun. even when among friends. there's a reason his clothes are leather but his holsters are made of his body.

fear: What is your OC's greatest fear? What do they do when confronted with it? Are they open with their fear, or do they hide it away?

watchful eyes: see above jfkdlasfjds being abandoned and alone is her deepest fear, and she tries very, very hard not to let that happen. she starts to buckle whenever it comes up, though as much as possible she pushes off that melting until she's safe again. i really don't think she'd talk about it, though, not to others, because she doesn't want them to worry unnecessarily about her! she's supposed to be a tank, after all.

hammerfall: so canonically? the answer is that they... don't have one. hammerfall grew up in a terrifying environment and is an immortal soul temporarily bound to a physical body. fire is just a thing that Lives In Him. they have no reason to fear god nor creature, because at the end of the day, this is one lifetime of many, and they're the best shot they know. i feel like this shows, tbh, esp when the people around him are experiencing Horrors™

monster: Is your OC monstrous in any way? Is there something that makes them monstrous? Are they aware of their own monstrosity? Do they accept it or reject it?

answered watchful eyes here!

hammerfall: so here's like. the thing. i honestly?? honestly?? think hammerfall is fucking unsettling to look at. like, even if they look like any other sagebrush leshy, the smoke constantly rising from their body and the way they hold themself, plus the gun and the fact that they stand like they're always ready to shoot clearly makes them an outlier. i don't think he's necessarily monstrous, but unless someone is used to dealing with magic bullshit, i think you'd struggle to be around him for very long. and that's before they open their mouth to start talking about guns or the mana wastes or their life before the current mission and make vague references to doing crime and eating meat and their six-armed Pops.

thank you so much for the ask : D!!!

[thegempage]

i promised sbart planet thoughts so while i wait until my brain is ready to take a shower, here are some of those, under a cut bcus i have a feeling this is gonna turn very rapidly to rambling lmao

(also, note: some of these thoughts were collaborative, and i'll try to note them! but a good chunk of this is just gonna be me spitballing ideas to get my brain to calm down so they're not "official" (as official as a largely community-driven au can be) to any particular sbart au discussion and open to workshopping in the future)

bart, as the page of space, gets the frog planet! and bcus he's Bart, we decided in a vc that he'd have the Land of Paint and Frogs. LoPaF is a bright, colorful planet, with aggressively colorful consorts and frogs that leave splatters of paint wherever they jump. i feel like it'd be almost rainforest like, with lots of nooks and crannies for things to hide in, and everything just seems... slightly off. nothing is quite the right color -- some of the trees are green, some of them aren't, but none of them seem... comfortable. like they're waiting for a fresh coat of paint, to make the obvious pun fjdklasfasd. even the waterways running through everything are all different colors, swirling like paint water left too long and beginning to separate. his quest -- besides the frog breeding -- would probably be something about "fixing" these colors and figuring out what all the plants and waterways and such want to be

i'm not sure what his consorts would be, but honestly them being ambiguous and many-shaped, so it's hard to really nail them down as any particular animal, feels very bart, esp if they're all various different colors

(also while i was researching this i saw that the wiki suggests that if anyone but the time player helps with the frog breeding, shit goes wrong, so while i still think clair hangs out to help, the universe accepts oculus "helping" by ordering around bart and managing to perfectly interrupt/ruin bart's plans in such a way that saves the frog breeding as the time and space player working together, and clair being around is just kind of a fun bonus)

chief, meanwhile, is a knight of doom, and we decided his planet would be the Land of Streetlamps and Deliverance (LoSaD, which is a delightful acronym for him fjkdsalfds). the entire planet feels like an endless, winding detective noir city block, with buildings that tower to always partially block any natural light. all of the streetlamps seem programmed to make everything feel dystopian, constantly flickering, broken, or more dim up close than they seem from far away. you can go inside the buildings, sure, but you probably don't want to unless you're prepared to ask seven different consorts where you're supposed to be going because all of them have very different ideas about how the building is laid out and all of them are partially right. sadness sits in the streets like fog -- easy enough to move through, sure, and easy enough to avoid, but if you sit and rest too long it starts to get to you. The benches for buses that will never come are especially prone to tripping this effect. LoSaD has no interest in making things comfortable for you, but there are plenty of dark corners to hide in if you need them!

(chief uses one of these to try to get christian, i think, but it doesn't quite land the first time, leading to a chase that ends with christian dead on his own quest bed and unfortunately (/j) returning from the dead)

his consorts i think would all be little gray turtles who are quite hesitant to talk to anyone and are suspicious of the world outside of their buildings. i'm not sure what his quest would be, or if he'd have any particular desire to complete it. i also think the entire planet follows a generally canon color scheme, i.e. grayscale and red, with most of the lamps shining white light, but lights inside and outside alike flashing red whenever anyone stands underneath of them and entire blocks flashing dark, doom green whenever chief does anything. smithsprite thinks it's all incredibly depressing

christian i've loosely assigned (with blessing) the Land of Grief and Alleyways (LoGaA). his land i think would be a sort of 50/50 split of cityscapes and large, open cemeteries. some of the cityscapes are centered around churches to the Genesis Frog, others skyscrapers to nonsense companies, and a few odd ones out are large altars centered around something with many, many eyes and no name. it's not unlike LoSaD in that the weather is always kind of dim, but LoGaA always seems on the verge of sunset, and while sometimes clouds roll over it never actually rains, and the whole planet seems to be struggling to breathe. the headstones don't seem to be attached to any particular grave, and digging them up reveals items or plain dirt more than it does skeletons, and even then those skeletons are incomplete. the cities are quiet and relatively empty for how many buildings there are -- where LoSaD has mazes all over its surface and inside its buildings, the buildings on LoGaA are full of open-concept floors and basic living quarters. the whole planet feels like there were supposed to be more people on it, but some of them just... didn't show up. christian manages to dupe all of them into doing and buying whatever he says, of course, but maybe there being less of them helped with that, who knows!

idk about a quest for him either, but i have a very strong feeling that something has happened to his denizen, and ideally he would be fixing it (maybe a coma?) but he is almost certainly not going to do that

i don't have solid ideas for anyone else yet, but i think clair's is the land of something and tunnels, just bcus like. it's clair.

stacy and becky's planets fit together, as if you can't have one without the other, and their quests are probably intertwined

smith's is probably a lot like chief's at first glance, but much brighter, and with yellows instead of green, maybe more open with parks and such? gray parks covered in red flowers fjkdalfds (smithsprite likes this one a lot better)

lucidity... hmm. i think lucidity's planet is split down the middle, but what's on each side i'm not sure? i just think you'd fly up to it and there's literally a canyon for an equator wide and deep enough that you'd need flying powers or a shit ton of grist on hand to get across unless you're prepared for a lot of rock climbing. her house/apartment/whatever it would be is situated in a tower high above the canyon, with drop offs on either side

oculus's planet is always watching, no matter who, what, or where you are, and there's always a tick-tock echoing in any silence that dares try and make itself at home there, a clock always reminding you that you're wasting time by standing around, and you don't want to leave time lying around for a thief, do you?

and these aren't planets, but i feel like the inside of the Prospitian throne room is like, a "man cave," with a balcony that has a grill on it that cooks things it shouldn't be capable of cooking; there are big comfy armchairs and all the drinks you could want in a fridge that's never empty and all of your favorite snacks in the cupboards that seem endless. you always feel safe when you're inside, and you can never seem to find the front door? you got in here somehow and Dad��� teases you about using the front door next time, but you can look out the windows on a golden, shining city while Dad™ makes your favorite burgers!

the Dersian throne room is simultaneously Your Room and a kitchen, depending on what Mom™ needs you for. her kitchen always smells delicious but it's not quite clear whether that's with dinner or dessert, not that it really matters because on Derse it's hard to keep track of time. the barstools are comfortable to sit on while you wait for Mom™ to give you instructions or a plate... until she's upset with you for something, and then you can't seem to get up no matter how much your lower back seems to ache. but that's only if you've done something wrong, sweetie, so why don't you come test out your Mom™'s new recipe? she's made your favorite!

(no one's ever been able to describe the inside of Their Room, their eyes glossing over when they try to remember what it looks like.)

alright i'm gonna go shower now 💙 but i'm very open to more suggestions or thoughts 👀 i can't promise all of this is Strictly Homestuck Approved bcus i'm also bending it quite a bit for the tfr aspect but it's still fun lmao