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raeathnos · 2 years ago

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#my dads been sick for several days and is outright refusing to go to the doctor #he keeps saying it’s just allergies and then not covering his mouth when he coughs and sneezes and it’s like #it’s very clearly not just allergies #he always does this when he gets sick #refuses and refuses to go to the doctor #I have a really weak immune system so it’s pretty much just a matter of time till I catch whatever it is since he won’t go get medicine #and it’s very frustrating because I’ll get much sicker than him #and it’s thanksgiving next week #if I catch it I won’t be better so I’ll miss the holiday #but then we’re not allowed to call off on Black Friday so I’ll get to go unload a massive truck and deal with obnoxious customers #I’m trying to isolate myself in my room but like #he’s been sick for like a week now and today I don’t feel right #so I bet that’s me starting with it #it’s so frustrating #like you clearly very sick just go to the fucking doctor #he’s so cheap he doesn’t want to pay the copay or for the medicine is what it is tbh #I wanna scream 🙃#his immune system is like an ox so he’ll be fine #meanwhile whenever I get sick it turns into like three different things #last month I had a sinus infection/bronchitis that was starting to turn into pneumonia 🙃#so you know #wish my dad would take that part more seriously but I’m not surprised that he doesn’t #he almost got me killed a few years back cause he refused to take me to the ER #if that gives you a better idea #I had neurovirus and had become so dehydrated I had slipped into unconsciousness #I got taken at all because my mom got worried when she couldn’t get me to wake up #my dad still didn’t want to take me and was just like she’s resting leave her be #I wound up in the hospital for three days #they estimated I had about two hours left until I actually would’ve died when they finally got me to the ER #doctor ripped him a new one

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lupusdei018 · 5 months ago

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Fuck this shit ..

I didn't passed the public policy exam, but I studied ....😭😭😭😭

I'm so fucking done with this shit 😖😖😖

Now I have to do on oral exam 😭😭😭

I really really hoped that I would pass it 😭😭

I want to hurt myself so bad for failing 😭😩

#law school #screaming crying throwing up #i just wanna kill myself 🙃🙃🙃

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peachyykira · 1 month ago

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#so fucking irritated #this powerpoint i have to do?#has NOTHING TO DO with what was discussed in the modules this week #i have to do a whole powerpoint about healthcare fraud and abuse #which were not explicity discussed #it was mostly privacy of information/hipaa/medical records and laws about like domestic violence???#and this is the same class where i dont do super great on the exams and the discussions dont really make sense #im so mad #im mad at myself #AND im mad at this fucking teacher because wtf #every single week i am using sources for the discussion posts that arent what she provided and do you know why?#because they are almsot always inadequate or not even relating to what she wants us to discuss #🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃#just a few more weeks of this #i can do it #right?#yeah. i can do it.#but please get dont let my other classes be like this #always #i wanna scream

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starlooove · 1 year ago

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My batfam gender sexuality hcs 🥰🥰🥰🥰:

Bruce: cishet he/him

Dick: cishet he/him

Jason: cishet he/him

Tim: cishet he/him

Steph: butch lesbian to ME! She/her but she’s trying out she/they and doesn’t know how to feel. Might fuck with neos but she’s not ready to take that step yet.

Cass: think early on in accepting that she’s a human being she’d psychoanalyze the fuck outta herself to see where she fits in and be super super super pressed about the entire thing to a detrimental point but as she progresses she’ll be fine. Lesbian, and she’s pretty sure she’s a girl most of the time sure 😄.

Duke: I think he knew he was not straight since he was young (moonlight opened his eyes and broke his heart) but he never really questioned his sexuality at all. The problem is that he doesn’t question it because the idea of gender roles (girls do this. Boys do that.) is so engrained in his mind that it’s not even something he thinks can be changed, if that makes sense? Anyways I don’t think he’s the type to get dysphoria he moreso experiences euphoria when exploring his gender identity. I think he would realize he has different views on his own gender when he sees other people expressing their own differently. Like genuinely he goes to school and sees another boy wearing lipstick and his brain blows up. As of this very moment he’s “exploring�� but he’s actually a lil scared to genuinely confront himself about this and uses “there’s bigger problems in the world” to get out of it. End goal is non-binary but for now he’s at the veeeeeeery tail end of questioning.

Damian: I think at the moment Damian’s just not thinking about any of that but it’s in the opposite of duke; he knows he’s probably some kind of queer, both in sexuality and gender, but it’s just. Not top priority for him at the moment. I wanna bring up clothes rq bc, extra hc time, in MY mind Damian does express himself a lot through his clothing and getting to the manor made him a bit shy when it came to skirts and dresses. Seeing the way boys, and especially black and brown boys, who explore their femininity are treated, he just doesn’t mention it at all and the scenario never comes up. He gets more comfortable as time goes on though and later on gets bold enough to wear a dress to an event. He’s stonefaced but slightly regretting it till some younger kid sees him and is awe stricken, like stars in his eyes and asking if he can do that too. Damian feels better about it and resolves to wear whatever he wants more often. I don’t think he ever comes out in big big way (he’d tell the people closest to him but everyone else can just figure it out) but he genuinely doesn’t feel the need to label himself at all.

#the way y’all do Duke and Damián in these hc posts….#Steph I wanted more for you truly but sorry ur unfortunately white #u get more than the boys but today ain’t about you 💔#I WILL say buzzcut steph true #and she’s black in MY mind so in MY mind stud steph true #Cass I have a lot of thoughts about #like for me early on in her lil suicidal era I think she’d find the whole labelling thing complicated and stupid #but surface level deep inside she likes that idea of community but she doesn’t think she deserves it and it burns her #post trying to kill herself with Bruce’s full support #she throws herself into the idea of this community but she kinda like. wants a good grade in being queer as opposed to truly exploring-#-herself. comes to head when she just breaks like crying screaming throwing up and Steph is like ‘why do you even wanna do ts anyways’#and cass doesn’t have an answer #she starts looking inwards and kinda. sets it up as a yes/no question tree for herself and lands with knowing she’s a lesbian but nothing #really concrete about her gender and she’s actually ok with that #imo she ends up with mirror pronouns #as in whatever you call yourself you can call her #I want it to be that earlier she was suffocating herself for others approval but now she’s allowing for vulnerability in a way that serves #her and her alone. this is in the tags and not the post bc y’all are actually pretty ok when it comes to cass in them hcs.#and I wanted the main focus to be on the black and brown boys since y’all always do them dirty 🙃#and just to be mean #Bruce wayne #tim Drake #dick Grayson #Jason Todd #Duke Thomas #damian wayne #cassandra cain #Stephanie brown #btw bringing back my Joey soft adopting damian agenda: damian absolutely made sure Damian knew he could do whatever he wants. Damian’s not-#-used to feeling hesitant about this kinda thing but he’s double embarrassed and joey says he’ll wear the damn thing with him. he does

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silassstingy · 3 months ago

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sometimes i wanna run away from my family AND my boyfriend.

start a new life somewhere where no one knows who tf i am.

#come home to a stressful house and get called by my stressful bf.#my brother arguing with my mom about keeping the kittens (he wants to get rid of them all now??? he doesnt even take care of them)#and the bf and i are supposed to go on vacation this weekend but it's going to be in the 70s (degrees)#and it's supposed to rain sunday #and he's bitching that it's going to be too cold to be on the beach #we're going for 5 days 🙃 only chance of rain sundau #sunday.#and he's acting like it's doing too ruin the whole vacation #it's labor day weekend you know how many people are going to be at the shore 🙃🙃🙃🙃#and my parents treat my brother like he's 15 still.#i'm about to scream #i really just wanna go on vacation by my fucking self to get away from all of.them #my mom is now worried about the racoons outside 🙃#bunch of fucking wackos i gotta deal with i can't do it any more.#ignore spelling mistakes i am livid #and it's exhausting #thisisme

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opens-up-4-nobody · 2 years ago

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I just wanna listen to music ragged with rage and emotional desperation. But it's kinda hard to search for that sorta thing.

#bc i guess i just Associate that sorta thing with screamo and i dont like screamo #like funeral or brutus both by the buttress are sung with so much rage and i want that #i too want to rage. i didnt get a lotta sleep last night #bc sometimes i make bad choices lol #and everytime i search like songs to rage to its like. no. u dont get it. i want songs that make me wanna start screaming and wacking #things with sticks. ya kno. a very common and universal feeling #listen. i apparently deleted a bunch of info off a backup hard drive today. like bro y didnt u tell me to b careful???#i picked it up like ok i gotta make it work on this old ass computer. time to clear the disk space and reformat #so rip whatever was on there i guess. no used crying abt it now. that bitch is empty #hhhhh ive got that i didnt sleep feel where ur brain feels like its peeling away from ur skull #i need to go run. burn away my ✨️ RAGE✨️#just gotta wait like an hr 🙃 unless i get call3d into a meeting rip #unrelated

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charonte-simi · 4 months ago

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My 6 mo. auto insurance premium went up by $131 today and I'm so fucking annoyed. They shouldn't be allowed to do that. Shit like insurance that we don't have a choice but to have shouldn't cost so fucking much. If it's against the law to live without it then it should be fucking affordable (or better yet free!)

#*screaming*#I wanna burn down a building #simi speaks #The agent I spoke to practically said it increased just cause they can. “Inflation” bullshit.#No policy changes or bad driving habits on my end. They just felt like making more of a profit 🙃

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imwritesometimes · 1 year ago

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maybe I just don't actually want to write fic anymore.................

#i write sometimes #liiiiiiike 🙃🙃🙃#I wrote 3 short dialogue sentences and closed my laptop #and I can't make myself open it back up #my brain is just like meh #and idk man I'm really starting to think it's just not gonna happen anymore #I mean. this is the first time I've even gotten an inkling of an idea for something in MONTHS and it feels like I'm FORCING myself #to try and work on it #and it's like.... I feel like I don't want to do ANYTHING anymore. I got sick of sıms again. don't wanna work on fic #I just wanna fckn sleep. sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep forever and ever and ever and ever #and I've been this way my whole life I know what's coming I can feel it in my bones I know the Horrors are coming #the bone deep inescapable Mental Horrors #and I also know the only way to even KINDA not go thru that is to force myself to do ANYTHING but... I just wanna be a lump.#but then I think abt NOT writing or seeing this thru and I'm like 😟#and I'm also just WAY too in my own head like oh a chapter can't be this long this is too much set up but can't get to meat & taters yet #like I just wanna scream

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rosicheeks · 1 year ago

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🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃

#also would like to say this is my first time getting it in how many years #kept telling my sister in law the vacation was the first time I’ve been out and in crowds since covid #and guess what I get #🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃#I wanna scream #shut up rosie

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