#I tried doing that dumb window lighting thing and idk how to feel abt it

[starishsky]

bed hair

[thelunarbar]

How romantic sex on a school bus. Well ig just making out but my point still stands. And Ik it’s a dream but she’s all like ooh ok and I’m just like girl no. Make him take you to a bed at least. 

I love watching the way stiles opinion of Derek changes over time esp given that Derek doesn’t make a great first impression(not that stiles really did either but Derek’s was worse)

“Ate it?”

“Raw?”

“No you stopped to bake in a little werewolf oven.”

Scott’s hair is sooooooooo bad 😭

Also forgot how much I hate this teacher(biology or math maybe? Idk) he’s annoying

This may very well be the only time stiles tells Scott not to cancel a date. 

Danny deserves more love 

Lydia’s thing of acting dumb is really annoying like if he doesn’t want you unless you’re stupid you’re better off without him girl

Stiles reaction to Scott asking Allison about their hanging out with Jackson and Lydia

Jackson is such an asshole but Ik I end up liking him more later on

Of all things to lie about; your bowling skills???

Gotta love stiles needing to know if he’s attractive to gay guys(the answer is yes. Just ask Derek 😜)

Ngl I’ve never been sure how I feel abt deaton bc he’s like kinda helpful sometimes but also super weird more often than not

I fucking adore Melissa McCall 

Dude I tried for literal months(tho without rewatching bc I didn’t wanna do that at the time) to figure out where the pic of Derek standing behind broken glass came from and it’s from ep three when the police officer and then Scott show up the hale house 

I feel like rains too much for this show being set in California 

Derek is so nonchalant about Scott’s freak out I love it

“Why is this starting to feel like you’re Batman and I’m Robin? I don’t wanna be Robin all the time.”

“Nobody’s Batman and Robin any of the time.”

“Not even some of the time?” I love this lil convo and esp this last line bc stiles sounds so sad abt it 

Seriously why is the lighting so damn dark all the time even when I have the brightness on my screen turned all the way up and to my recollection it only gets worse

Scott and his fucking one track mind 

Yikes Allison’s closet is so bad all like boho chic and sequiny

Again a parent walking in without knocking 

I mean at least he acknowledged he forgot to knock but like teenage girl who could’ve been like changing or smth jeez

Love that he’s clearly getting ready to go out and they decide to sneak out before he leaves 

Man I wanna go bowling I haven’t bowled in so long (related even if it doesn’t seem like it, Jackson Lydia Allison and Scott go bowling)

Jackson’s laugh is so obviously fake and it’s so obnoxious 🤮

I can appreciate that being werewolf didn’t make him good at everything(just most things) 

I love love love Derek’s car 

Why does Chris argent wash Derek’s windshield for him??? Oh yes very intimidating good job Chris 

I can’t wait for argent to grow a beard he looks so much better with it 

Breaking the window on Derek’s car was so unnecessary and rude 

Ofc now Scott is great at bowling 

Lydia using Scott to make Jackson jealous is so annoying 

Ah innuendo 

“How do you cheat at bowling?”

“I don’t know, but you did.” But for real Jackson how does someone cheat at bowling 

And Derek’s being a creep again cmon man no wonder people don’t like you when this is the impression you always give 

Call a code? You have to specify which one Melissa. I’m not even a nurse and I know that 

Yay another cringey make out scene 

“Do either of you even play baseball?”

I love that they’re both super honest and just say no when she asks if they care there’s a police enforced curfew

Scott’s angry voice is not great 

Derek’s echoy voice thing wtf is that?

Love that Scott’s first thought is to try to get Derek arrested, again, for smth he didn’t do 

Ooh jump the whole staircase he’s so cool guys you don’t even know 

Ooh he’s losing the jacket things are getting serious 

The noise while he shifted was gross and not necessary 

Also I’m pretty sure they change his shifted makeup look later on bc he doesn’t look how I remember 

Love the choice of Destroya by MCR for this totally pointless fight between Scott and Derek tho 

I mean I say fight but it’s more like Derek beating the snot out of Scott 

and now we have the rational conversation after punching each other 

Oh now you give him answers after you beat the crap out of him

How come we never really discuss the fact that Scott is part of Peter’s pack? At least until he becomes an alpha himself

[jesusology]

Haruka theory and thoughts under the read more! just me going through the MV and voicing aloud some thoughts, let me know what you guys think too! 

（*´▽｀*）also this is super long i

opening scene! the necklace is obviously important to him. also it’s very cute. nothing to say abt this in particular but i just think it’s really cute

love the background choice and how the room looks in general. gives me a big liminal space vibe. i promise i’m getting to actual theorizing in a second here just

love how the scenery from the window changes when it switches back and forth between him and his younger self (?). i’ve tried searching what the symbolism is of a red sky (if there is any) and i did see that it could mean “the end” or it could be symbolic of danger and what’s to come.

ugh i love the water thing going on. first off, i’m a huge sucker for water imagery and the like and so you KNOW i go gaga for this. it has to be because haruka feels like he’s constantly drowning, like he’s suffocating on his emotions. 

i’ve watched this MV at least fifty times and this still gets me upset. pretty obvious that what’s going on here is some form of emotional abuse as well as a co-dependence on Haruka’s part. Haruka clearly has a learning disability and it’s nothing he can control but the people in his life are blaming him for it and so he blames himself, too.

evidence of emotional abuse, being told things like how he’s pitiful or not smart, etc and of course Haruka is going to believe that hence why he’s always calling himself dumb and feeling like when he’s around others he’ll only make them sad because that’s exactly how it was for him at home. 

also like how the background is all gray and gloomy and there’s his childish scribbling of a monster (?) hovering over. could be symbolic of a threat to what’s his normal life, like it could end so suddenly

the world around Haruka is changing. his parents are changing (i’m assuming they’re divorced but i don’t think that’s ever made explicitly clear), he’s growing up, but he also feels exactly the same maturity wise. he may be increasing in age but he still is exactly the same and the change is unnerving to Haruka and it’s become noticeable to his parents that he’s not “growing up” and doing “normal” things. his learning disability is holding him back from becoming what’s so normal for society, what’s accepted in society. 

so he’s viewed as “weak”, it’s his ‘weakness’. and society eats the weak. 

i feel like Haruka’s parents (perhaps namely his mom)(or maybe it was both his mom and his dad but Haruka’s thinking more about his mom because he was closer to her) were becoming fed up with Haruka’s inability to learn what is supposed to be ~oh so natural~ and ~normal~ so they quickly began to get frustrated. also, that drawing behind Haruka appears later i think....

Haruka realizes and recognizes what’s going on and this, in turn, makes him have feelings of self-loathing. why can’t he do what anyone else can? why is everything around him so different but he’s the same? why is he getting taller, having more expectation placed upon him when it’s just too hard for him? Haruka is grappling with these thoughts constantly and it’s making him feel like he’s drowning and no one cares to pull him up out of the water.

i’m gonna be honest, i have no clue what to make of the girl with him at the fireworks but i DO know that the fireworks are really important to him because i recall him answering that it was his cherished memory and he goes on to say the most expensive thing he’s bought was cotton candy and i’ll venture to say that it was at this fireworks festival. 

i got nothing to add to this but i just love that line and it is important for you all to know this

are those yellow roses or marigolds? i’m thinking maybe they’re yellow roses which can mean either “jealousy” or “thinking of you” 

i could be going off a wrong assumption here, but hey this is all just guess-work anyway... did he accidentally push the girl? and it somehow led to her death or at the very least a severe injury? i’m willing to bet it was more of an injury than death, but even so. 

and if he DID push her, now it’s coming to light? like he did that, it was his fault (even if it was an accident, he would no doubt blame himself), and he’s a bad person who is only good for causing harm to others.

as someone who also sleeps with like five stuffed bunny animals, solidarity between me and Haruka. i want that rabbit it looks so cute

YAA there it is again! i don’t know what the heck it means but there it is!

the dog gives me pause because i’m not entirely sure what to make of it but i DO think this is where it’s important to remind people that the MV’s are based upon the prisoner’s own perception (i think. if i’m wrong, please correct me) and so we’re getting a lot of this from a biased standpoint. 

again, emotional abuse that might seem “”””Harmless””””” to others but it’s anything EXCEPT. 

did the dog run away? was he given the dog and Haruka now blames himself for letting the dog run off and perhaps the dog got hit by a car? (;﹏;) i feel like something that’s important is just how much self-hatred Haruka has and his tendency to blame himself for outside factors. i don’t think he LITERALLY killed the dog, but he feels as though he did so it’s become figurative. 

also as far as his dislikes being “children” and “animals”, i think he’s jealous of them, maybe? like that could tie into the yellow roses and their symbolism signifying jealousy and envy. he’s jealous of the inherent “innocence” associated with them. he’s getting older, so that “innocence” that’s accepted with THEM is no longer being used with HIM. Haruka has what’s deemed as “childish” interests and i get the feeling he’s made to feel badly about it. no doubt his disability is tied in with this.

there’s those flowers again. and Haruka tries to drown his wants/needs in order to try and “repent” for being the way he is. it’s HIS fault, so he has to think everything is fine even though he’s NOT fine and he’s going to break at some point under the pressure of society/his parents/everything. 

Haruka makes an effort to try to understand things in the beginning, but everytime he questions something that’s really ~obvious~ to everyone else he’s met with disappointed gazes and harsh critiques. so he stops trying to understand what he’s apparently ~lacking~ and he stops asking questions because that’s it! he’s dumb! he doesn’t get it so why bother!

i feel like by this point any praise to Haruka is better than nothing. rather than indifference or being ignored, he’d even rather be called “crazy”. i think Haruka just wants ANY attention be it good or bad - what he hates the most is feeling invisible or as if he could disappear and it wouldn’t matter to anyone.

i still feel like the blood on his hands is more figurative than literal and for reasons i’ve already explained so there’s no need to rehash it like i’m trying to meet an essay word count requirement

me too Haruka （；へ：）

his feelings of sadness and being unwanted turn to anger onto HIMSELF and it is what snaps the very thin thread he’s been living on 

choking himself ties into the water motif we’ve got going on here. the drowning, the suffocation - no longer being able to breathe because everything is broken and it’s unfixable. and he’s the reason why.

i feel like his crime is somehow suicide/attempted suicide but if it IS suicide then i really don’t know how he could be with the other prisoners? unless they’re all dead and this is some form of purgatory or something but otherwise? i don’t know. i just feel like it could be suicide

now i will also say this. the puddle of blue surrounding “him” has to be blood and that kind of makes me wonder if i’ve been barking up the wrong tree here but. idk any ideas anyone else has on this would be appreciated and also please talk to me about MILGRAM because i’ve got a badddd obsession 

what Haruka wants more than anything is attention and love. he wants love and yet it’s difficult for him to accept love because he doesn’t seem to have any “experience” with love. in the questions asked to him, he doesn’t even seem to really know what “love” actually is. he considers “liking” and “loving” to be the same thing, there’s no difference to him. if he’s getting attention it might not even matter to him because at this point something is better than nothing. 

so yes! this is messy. and it’s perhaps even incoherent. if you read this thanks for coming to my TED talk i love Haruka so much. it’s probably become obvious that i’m a little biased bc i relate to him a lot. let me know your own theories too or thoughts on this, i’d like to know hehe （*´▽｀*）

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gif god Amira, how do you gif live performances??? They're so clear :0)

mMMM LMAO IM NOT A GIF GOD SINCE I STILL HAVE SO MUCH 2 LEARN BUT IM STILL SMILING A LOT GJAKDJA thats rly cute im v appreciative  … :^) anyways !!! since i use a mac, i had 2 come up w my own process on how to gif live performances since avisynth ? too Slow 4 my old mac and stuff like topaz is too …. me, staring into the sun: maybe not …

buT ANYWAYS hgjsh under the cut is basically how i gif my live performances, i use

a mac

ps cc 17 (i think this will work on other versions ??? im not sure :( )

vlc player (i have version 2.2.2)

ts files of the performance (u need ts files otherwise the quality looks :/ even if it’s a 720p mp4 file,, also dont take performances from youtube u’ll end up w a walmart lookin gif when u want gucci gifs)

okay so first u need to get ts files of your performance and i get mine from _helloflora on twitter or from kpopexciting! since i … only ever gif mx i’m gonna be giffing mx again 4 this and i’ll be giffing shownu as an example from the 170507 performance of beautiful.

so first, load up ur ts file into vlc player and Basically what we’re gonna do is we’re gonna clip the video and get the part that we want !!! i would recommend starting a few seconds before the scene u actually want bc vlc is dumb like that …..

so get ur lil clip (mine is in the movies folder on my laptop bc … idk . it put it there and idk how 2 change it so i just keep it there)

make sure ur vlc is still open bc now u need to convert this little clip into an m4v file so ps can . load it … and basically what u do is u go into file > convert/stream or shift + cmd + s to open up the window. then drag ur clip into the window and on “choose profile” click customize and make sure ‘mp4/mov’ is selected. on the video codec tab, make sure u have ‘h.264′ selected then click apply and close the window and open it again just so u know it’s saved. then click ‘save as file’, save it where ever u want (i have a handy folder called ‘caps’ where i keep all my converted clips) and let it convert. the indicator that it’s converting is the play bar (streaming bar?? the bar)

^ that thing. so you let it convert (dont touch anything i learned this the hard way) and once it’s done, load it into ps! 

i use the video import way so just go to file > import > video files to layers and select your converted clip, then drag the arrows to the clip you want giffed. this part is mostly trial and error to get what you want but i would recommend taking your time with finding the start of the clip and the end of it, also don’t make the space in between ur arrows too big bc then u get too many layers and that for me really slows down my mac :(

(also i literally . broke my own rule abt layers bc i messed up my recording of the clip and i was too lazy 2 do it again but CONTINUING !!!) now u have ur clip opened in ps!! i usually use around 50-60 frames so it doesn’t exceed tumblr’s 3mb limit, but also it depends on the size of your gif. the bigger the gif, the less layers you want. i’m making this test gif 268 x 270px (which is my go to sizing for gifs that i want side by side)

now what you wanna do is go to the little 3 lined bar thing on the timeline

click that and select “select all frames”, then click the timing (the 0.03 numbers) and change it to 0.05! then while all your frames are still selected, click the 3 bar thing and select “flatten frames into layers”. you’ll get two sets of layers now, one titled with “layer 1″ and the other titled with “frame 1″. delete all the layers called “layers”

this is where i crop my gif !! my crop settings are at 268 x 280px, and once it’s cropped i go to image > canvas size and resize the height to 270px. then click the “convert to timeline mode” in the 3 bar menu or as the little icon next to the “forever” setting.

(my timing settings are still at 0,03 bc i was getting ahead of myself jahgkds) but ! u should have this 

now so what u wanna do is select all ur layers/frames (i’m gonna call them layers so we’re not confused w the frames in the timeline) and right click and convert them to smart object! now we’re gonna sharpen them, and i used sharpening actions from @k-psds! i would recommend downloading a couple and just experimenting with which one you like best!

once you’ve applied your action, here comes the coloring part!! i never use psds because each gif usually needs a different way of coloring, but i do have a basic process for performance gifs. i use curves, levels, a tiny bit of brightness (either going down or up depending on the performance) and selective coloring with black, neutral and sometimes red (and depending on the performance, i’ll look into using the other colors)

this is what my layers look like

and this is the process of the gif from unsharpened + uncolored to sharpened to sharpened and colored

and that’s basically !!! how i gif performance videos !!!! it seems a little time consuming at first but the more you do it, the easier it becomes :D

SOME TIPS & TRICKS I LEARNED

when giffing performance videos, always go for close ups and clips where they’re not moving so much. it makes cropping so much easier and your gif doesn’t look as grainy

avoid flashing lights !!! it brings down the quality of the gif

use as little adjustment layers as u can! using so many makes the gif grainy (how many times have i said this) and you rly just wanna focus on making the gif bright enough 2 be pretty but not so bright u have idols looking like 2% milk

in selective coloring w the black tab, i usually bring it up to abt +15 or +10. idk why i do it tho someone told me in a tutorial and it’s been part of my process ever since.... makes the gif look nice tho so im not complaining

lastly !!! do a lot of messing around in photoshop !!! u might make a walmart looking gif but in no time ur gonna be making some nice Gucci gifs !!

if u have any questions feel free 2 send them my way and i’ll do my best 2 answer bc i know this tutorial was a Mess .... but i Tried :’)