#I took my meds so hopefully that helps dial down the inner loudness a bit but I'm not optimistic tbh | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

heartshattering · 6 hours

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My mom is like "You don't need both the TV and the radio turned on :/" like she doesn't understand that the whole point is that the inside of my head is so loud that the only way to fight the 'inside loudness' is with 'outside loudness' but :') this is fine I'll just keep going insane :') no need to worry about me :')

#I took my meds so hopefully that helps dial down the inner loudness a bit but I'm not optimistic tbh #if I'm too worked up then they don't work as well on me #idk why I just feel like I've been going crazy all day long!!!!#I'm losing my grip on things and everything feels wrong and fake #I feel so bad both physically and mentally #I'm really hoping it's just from not getting my injection yet and it'll all go away once I get it again #but I mean it's true I'm also mentally ill so idk?#for sure it's been feeling even worse than usual for me though and idk why that would randomly be happening now #and like. 2 severe headaches a day every day is not normal for me #waking up panicked from vivid nightmares literally EVERY night is not normal for me #I am extremely exhausted both physically and mentally and literally do nothing but still feel like shit #I get headaches when I wake up but they usually go away but the ones I've had recently are debilitating and won't stop #like I had to skip an online meeting because one had me feeling so terrible I just couldn't power through #I keep feeling like I'm going to die like just drop dead finally #even though that's illogical but it's how my body is making me feel #idk it just sucks #kind of tempted to ask on reddit about it but like #people go on there to share the worst of their experiences and I have enough health related phobias already #I did enough skimming to find out that it probably *is* from missing my injection though #ughhfuhfh

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