#I told myself I wouldnt do memes yet here we are

[chlopieno]

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vent ahead, sorry

[rickriordanfandam]

opinions on riordanverse ; my edition

a lot of people have been doing this so i decided why not right. probably gna lose some followers or smth but anyways. pls respect my opinions! if u disagree, thats fine, but please be polite. unless any of my opinions strikes u as morally wrong then pls point it out to me respectfully. thanks!

- i actually liked drew. im so sorry to everyone who hates her but full offence, why. think about it this way ok, first of all drew became hc because silena died. silena was the traitor, the one who betrayed chb, yet after she died campers celebrated her as a hero? and then drew suddenly has to replace her and live up to idk that legacy she left behind,, when all of a sudden this girl named piper swoops in and takes her place. idk abt u but i wld be salty abt that too. not only that, but as an asian, the chances of drew having faced racism/bullying as a child is pretty high (she studies at brooklyn academy). which means that when she finds out shes a demigod, and arrives at chb where most of the campers are white (this is an assumption btw), she’d obviously be scared of being bullied for her skin color right?? so the first thing she wld do before the campers get to bully her is to bully them before they can do so. (sentence structure here is wack i apologize) ofc this might not even have happened, drew could have had a perfect childhood && was a b1tch for no reason, BUT EVEN THEN HER ROLE AS A BULLY WAS PRETTY VITAL BECAUSE THAT FURTHER SHOWED THE CONTRAST BETWEEN HER AND PIPER,, HIGHLIGHTING PIPER AS A HERO//GOOD CHARACTER,, AND THEREFORE MAKING READERS LIKE PIPER MORE. anyway stop hating on drew please. ALSO WHY IS THIS SO LONGA SDFJHG

- jason isnt bland, the fandom just kinda erased his backstory (thanks to @pjohoo-memes for the phrasing lol)

- reynabeth wouldnt have lasted/would have broken up several times. idk i just see them as two extremely powerful characters who have firm opinions and will definitely clash at some point. in a platonic relationship,, i can see them as really good friends but as lovers? idk i just think theyll break up

- PIPABETH

- i dont really like jercy,, i see them as better friends than lovers. also idt jason and percy were that close..?

- the dam and not my type jokes are srsly cringey and were never funny. ik that seems hypocritical since my username literally makes use of the dam joke but honestly i dont actually like the joke. its not funny to me and has never been funny

- the seven were not best friends. they definitely argued,, and honestly probably werent as close as the fandom makes them seem. like ure dumped with 6 other people, out of which u only know a few. my introverted ass would have jumped off the argo 2 quicker than leo valdez could bomb camp jupiter up. also leo was a dick to frank. so what if frank is bigger sized?? thats not a valid reason to tease him

- the fandom needs to stop hating on octavian while worshipping luke. if u hate luke and u say u hate octavian too, then okay. but if u tell me ure a luke stan but u despise octavian?? imma disagree w u. luke was worse than octavian im sorry. first of all, octavian being a dick was kinda justified. hes been after the praetor position for so long, and everyone keeps saying to “wait for jason” when suddenly this dude, whos a son of NEPTUNE (neptune wasnt liked much by romans), and the camp decides to make him praetor?? dude i would be pissed off big time. and then afterwards, he finds out that greek demigods are real and the dude they made praetor is greek. AND THEN GREEK DEMIGODS COME TO CJ AND ONE OF THEM BOMB IT UP?? octavian has been told all his life that greeks are scum and this dude called leo valdez attacks cj. sure it was an accident, but did octavian know that? no. so it was honestly justified that he was such a salty prick im just saying. also some of yall be hating on octavian for cutting a teddy bear open and thats the funniest shit ive ever heard i swear 

- luke didnt go to elysium

- travis and connor stoll r way too underrated. the two have been head counselors of the hermes cabin since luke was revealed as a traitor, can u imagine the stress? luke, the person they probably looked up to as a brother, betrayed them. and they didnt even have time to process this when they were  thrown the roles of being hcs. that would have been so stressful and i would probably have broken down if i were them. the stoll brothers taking turns to wake up at ungodly hours because a new camper is crying and homesick and terrified, the stoll brothers having to comfort and take care of new campers, having to deal with the amount of people in that cramped space because not enough campers are being claimed fast enough. having to resolve issues between campers in the hermes cabin all the time. the stolls arent just comedic relief, and we need to stop treating them as such

- tratie shldve been canon idc idc

- demigods of the demeter cabin arent talked about enough and i love the fact that meg was demeters kid. like she isnt the child of one of the big three yet shes so powerful.

- we need to hype clarisse up more her character arc was phucking amazing 

- rachel is overhated. sis found out greek gods exist and regularly come down to earth to fuck around and went “ok cool”. queen shit behavior methinks

- the floor 19 crew of mcga is srsly underrated. like do u even remember halfborn gunderson, mallory keen, tj, etc??? bc i feel like we only remember samirah, magnus, alex, and sometimes blitz and hearthstone

- sadie (tkc) was kinda annoying at first. i like her more now tho but i rmb not liking her for a phat while

- tkc and mcga need more love

- carter kane and jason grace arent boring. theyre just really sweet boys who are too good for this world and yes yes yes 

- hazel and frank (especially frank) need to be hyped up more. i hardly ever see anything about them. also yall seem to forget that frank was literally made praetor and that even hecate admired hazel and was willing to fight beside her because of how powerful she was

- frazels age gap is kinda sketch but i still think theyre really cute

- nico definitely had trauma from going to tartarus on his own

- GROVER IS PERCYS BEST FRIEND

- annabeth isnt smarter than leo but neither is leo smarter than annabeth. ive seen a lot of discussions about who is smarter and heres my hot take on it: neither. theyre equally smart, just in different ways. leos a genius mathematically speaking. he has no issues solving math problems meant for people much, much older than him. annabeth on the otherhand, is great at strategies etc. she can make an army of 1000 more powerful than the enemy, even if theyre outnumbered. so in my opinion, both are equally as smart//u cant compare their intelligence, because their talents lie in two different areas.

- while i do agree rick riordan isnt a god and that hes bound to make mistakes,, AND that hes given us a lot of representation,, if the representation offends the people its sposed to represent, then theres a problem. im talking about piper as a poc and wearing feathers in her hair. im not a poc, so i cant speak for them on whether or not its wrong, because i dont know either. HOWEVER, i have seen multiple posts BY pocs talking about how they didnt really like rick’s representation of piper, and thats an issue. pocs have been and are still oppressed and discriminated against by many. as a white cis man, we cant really blame him for not knowing (tho he could have done a research,, asked some pocs,, idk), but by representing pocs in that manner, hes influencing impressionable kids/teens into thinking “oh pocs wear feathers in their hair all the time” etc, which isnt true. the pjo/hoo series is extremely successful, and kids who read the books will probably start forming inaccurate opinions on pocs. the amount of fan art that depicts piper with feathers in her hair dont help either. “but rick said so in the books, so its canon” yeah well rick isnt a god and he can get some things wrong at times. im not saying we should cancel him, im saying we should start educating ourselves and not spread false info like pocs wearing feathers in their hair all the time. also that snake song shit where she sang Summertime was just- yeah. bc heres the thing you can be racist, and still include minorities, but portray them in a racist way. And even then, ignorance isn't a thing to admire. Getting those facts wrong still has a major impact. It continues to perpetuate racist stereotypes.

“ With the feather thing, I looked it up myself; it takes less than five minutes to figure out that Cherokees don't braid feathers into their hair. I didn't grow up in the country where my parents are from. I have many other first/second generation American friends who have also been through that, with a bit of a disconnect from their culture. But something that most of us have in common is that when we didn't know something, and when our parents weren't that big of a help, we looked it up. We sought out resources online and through other people from our culture to be able to connect more with where we came from. Some of that took a Google search. So I find it hard to believe that Piper, a girl who Rick's trying to portray as someone who is attempting to connect with her culture and is totally against racist stereotypes, wouldn't know that eagle feathers aren't supposed to be braided into your hair casually. She may be disconnected from her culture, but she's also shown to want to connect back to it. Piper wouldn't be casually braiding feathers into her hair while also telling off people for being racist. It makes no sense.” - reddit thread (down below) 

for those of yall who wanna know more please please read this, it has a lot of things i wanna add in here : https://www.reddit.com/r/camphalfblood/comments/gy3gl2/piper_mcleans_portrayal_is_innacurate/ 

as well as https://finding-my-culture.tumblr.com/post/189422373260/maxie-ratties-and-cattie-finding-my-culture 

i will be posting screenshots of these in future posts so if ure viewing this on ig and u dont have tumblr,, dont worry 

- the fact that most of the strong female characters in the series refuse to be “girly”, and ngl i dont really like that. just because ure girly doesnt mean u cant be strong. 

- piper would have been a great way for him to start making the strong characters act girlier, but instead he went with the “I’m not like other girls” trope which is quite obnoxious to hear constantly, and I don’t think it’s necessarily great for younger girls to read that idea growing up.  the closest we've ever had to a strong female character who was also into "girly" things was Silena. when I was younger I admired Piper's "I'm not like other girls" thing, but then I got older and realized that the whole mentality of "not like other girls" is super obnoxious, and a little bit toxic

i have a heck load more that i cant rmb rn but yeah feel free to add more 

[gaming-thoughts-by-an-idiot]

Fallout 3: DLC The pitt

• Werner: " we have to keep moving, there's no time!" Also Werner: *moves slower than a slug*

• "If u dress up as a slave" sure, sounds like some weird foreplay but ok

• Wait wait wait, was I supposed to leave my weapons?????

• I swear to god, if they take my weapons...

• Ok dude, where am I supposed to go?

• Dude what the fuxk??? Where am I going????

• Am I supposed to go over the bridge??

• Ok srly, if they take my weapons...

• Hhhh should I go back and just dump my weapons off????

• Ok ok, taking out mines... dogs... NOT NICE DOGS

• AUGH THEY TOOK MY SHIT NONO WE'RE GOING BACK

• OK LETS GO, FUCK YOU

• Ok dump off all my stuff.... get a haircut....

• Ok he looks cool now

• Let's get this shit back on the road!

• Yay... here we go again

• HE FUCKING STOPPED, I WAS AT THE GATE ARE YOU FUCKING you know what it's fine its whatever

• Why does he have a eye patch, is it like Gage? Decoration?

• ... I miss Gage ;-; my baby, my raider baby, ;;-;;

• I wish I could run in this game, that would be swell

• Save statiooonsss, gotta love mah stationnnns

• Like... does these dogs belong to the Pitt slavers or?

• God, I'm collecting the mines

• Omnomnom human

• Helloooo daddy

• Oh nevermind, he was prettier on a distance

• Trogs?

• I feel so naked

• But I see now I wouldnt have lost them forever, they're just in a safe

• Also, have I played this before???? Achievements say yes, memory no...

• The more I talk to the slavers, the more I miss my nukaworld raiders... I'm having Gage withdrawal

• Deleted like... 20 levels worth of saves...

• Pfff, a slaver was like "talk you piece of shit" and kicked a slave as if he was a toddler... and then he shot all three, but lol

• Here we are, many slavers around... watching and what do I do? Steal, I loot, I'm in rags but nono let me loot

• Ooooh trogs r food.. ok ok

• ... oh wait... no... is trogs like.. ghouls????

• I'm playing on very easy so yeah, it's fine I guess

• "I hope you said goodbye YAGAGAHAGAHAH" - raider slaver

• Me, smiling at the laughter: lol

• Raider slaver: wtf are you smiling about?

• Me: *sweating gif meme*

• Midea: lately the boss have been bringing slaves from all over...

• Me, knowing it's me who enslaved the new slaves: *sweats in stress*

• Man, it would be so funny if I could meet everyone I enslaved

• Wonder if I can do like a "bad" choice here

• Marco: hey not so loud

• Also marco: IM MAKING WEAPONS DONT TELL ANYONE

• Me: ... ok

• Everett? Had a boyfriend in XoXo droplets called that

• Well it's time

• AAAA I REMEMBER THIS PLACE NOW OMG I HATE THIS PLACE AHAHA

• FUCK

• Fuck, I almost pissed myself, fucking weird gollum fuck

• Omg the wild men people are just raiders... I keep thinking "oh god it must be horrible", and it probably is... but I'm playing on very easy cuz I'm here to chill, I've already played on normal twice maybe three times.

• Oh my god, gave me such a fright

• Fucking gollums

• I'm just grabbing as much as I can, cuz I like exploring

• Ehehe lockpicking and computer at 100, nothing can stop me

• Game: bring us 10 ingnots

• Me, a dumb bich: did you say "all of them"?

• Wow, he just ignored my skills

• I can just keep giving him ignots lol

• I found wild billy, but I told milly hes alive and well, oh well, 100 in speech bro

• I WANNA BETRAY THEM ALL AHAHAHHAHAHHA

• he better be pretty

• .... I miss Gage

• Like, what do they even do with all the steel?

• He sounds like hes worshipping steel

• Asur: blahblahblah

• Me: whatever

• Omg the song butcher Pete, would be perfect here

• Radio doesnt work here ;-;

• Some of them are like born here. Do they make the kids work too?

• Let's do this!!!

• AAAAAAA

• That was easy

• I love this weird ripper, I walk up to them and woosh dead

• I've won :)

• I got lost, but I found like five nuka colas so im ok

• I'm so daft.... the door was there all along

• I accidentally stole something fuck

• It's so funny cuz like, they're talking like they're soooo badass... but I know they would cry if they met the disciples, my precious psychopaths ♡

• Woooow that's a biiig house, omgggg a big statueeee, I wonder if hes like, insecure about something

• I slapped a raider in the face with a book

• I'm here to be evil, not to be nice

• It's a crib in here??? Awwww

• ;w; this is precious

• BABIES

• hes legit, Moriarty

• IT SAID I COULD BASICALLY SAY "YOINK" AND STEAL THE BABY OMG

• It's a baby

• Its making baby noises

• ... not stealing it

• Her, the baby

• Bye baby

• Let's talk with mindea

• Gheez, shes like angry cuz I betrayed her heh

• HAHA

• "WE JUST NEEDED TO KIDDNAP HER FOR OUR FREEDOM" OK

• Fuck, I'm lost again

• Oh... I... I can fast travel...

• Yay, steelyard woo

• I have the feeling I'm going the wrong way

• Ok I found the way

• How the fuck do i get up there

• !!ahh??? Theres a door!!! Have there always been a door????

• It's the final count down Wabababaa wbababababaaa

• You shit man

• "Leave now, and never come back" I getting some lion king flashbacks

• Me: you can go

• Him: fine asshole

• Me, pulling up my weapon, vats locked: :)

• Ehehehe murder

• Fast travel eyy

• Are we done yet

• Why dont they know who I ammmmmm

• Jesus, he scared me, ran up to me, jesus christ

• Pfff "you got some cure, just dont think about what it may have cost others" lol are you trying to guilt trip me?

• He was in the brotherhood and hes angy

• Cool, I can give toys to the baby, that's cute!

• The baby is ugly

• Finally I can leave

[jeremiahwasajoker]

5x02: Trespassers (A Review)

It’s that time again! I got to watch Trespassers on Thursday night. I know I said that I would be watching on Fridays, but I have convinced my parents to watch the night of, and they’re pretty okay with it! Anywho, tonight was episode two, and there were so many epic scenes, along with good laughs and memeable moments.  This season is my favorite by far, and it just started! At any rate, let’s start this review!

WARNING: This includes spoilers. If you have not seen the episode yet and want to avoid seeing any information about it, I would advise you to not look at this until you have done so. Without further ado, let’s get started!

First, I would like to say thank you to Barry Friedman. He was apart of the show’s post production team, and unfortunately passed away in August, when they were filming this episode. They made a title card for him at the very end, and his work was vital for the show to be aired. Rest in Peace. 

Also, shoutout to the composers and musicians that make the music on this show. Wow. The score is incredible! I think I remember hearing an extended version of the theme song this episode, and it blew me a way. As a music fanatic myself, it really added to the mood and atmosphere of the episode, which really elevated it even more. Wonderful job!

Next, I would like to review what I thought about some of the arcs of major characters and scenes that were incredible throughout Trespassers. They are in no particular order! Here we go!

Bruce and Ivy

IVYYYYYYYY! Peyton List is my favorite interpretation of Poison Ivy. She really encapsulates the character from the comics in the perfect way, and her design is beautiful! I like how Bruce acted throughout these scenes as he was determined as ever to get whatever it was that Selina needed in order to get better. He wasn’t going to play any games with her and when she turned on him, he was ready to fight. I will say, Bruce has become a good liar, too, as we see that he easily spit out the statement about his fake little brother. All in all, the two had a lot of chemistry together, and I just loved the scenes they shared together.

“Here he comes, Gotham...”

Erin Richards is really killing it this season. This scene was, once again, chill inducing. I feel like the quote that she said about Jim being Gotham’s most hated son will probably end up being one of the most iconic of the season. Whenever Babs yells, you can really hear the pain and utter anger in her voice, and something about this just leaves me in awe of Erin’s magnificent acting ability. Also, it is very interesting that she would help Jim out after everything. I know she said that she did so he could get killed, but we see towards the end of the episode that she genuinely wants to help. I can’t wait to see more of Barbara this season! 

Harvey’s Quick Quips

First of all, I would just like to say that this picture looks like it’s supposed to be for some kind of sit-com. Anyway, Harvey was so funny this episode! I think that he’s always the one to lighten a darker situation, and he really adds humor to the scenes he’s in. Some my favorite quotes this episode were “It's a freaking arrow, Jim! IT'S A FREAKING. ARROW!" , “Jim, I don’t feel so good.” (As someone who watched Infinity War and was utterly destroyed by Spider-Man dissolving, I’m glad it was turned into a meme. I know it probably wasn’t supposed to be referencing that, but still.), and “The Halloween shop was out of gas masks, so it was either this or sexy nurse.” Him dealing with Mother was also hilarious. Gotta love Bullock.

Mother and Orphan

This exact shot of Mother scared the living daylights out of me. I love that there was a sort of horror movie feeling to this episode, I’m not the biggest fan of those, but there was such a huge feeling of suspense in this episode, and it was amazing! Her just lurking around, and Orphan acting the way he was really did succeed in creeping me out. Those lights that knock you out were interesting, and it makes me wonder if the boy was really telling the truth about that or not. I’m glad that we got context to that random shot of teeth, as I was really confused about that when it was in the trailer. I’m so glad they introduced these two villains this season!

“I feel better...even better than before, in fact.”

I’m really glad that Selina is back to normal now. I did get scared when she was convulsing, and Bruce’s reaction really does show how much he truly cares about her. If she had died, I know he would never had forgiven himself. The fact that she’s happy again also relieves me, because seeing her in so much pain beforehand really hurt. When her eyes were glowing like a cat’s, I really liked the symbolism of the scene, as she was truly turning into Cat Woman. If she’s a metahuman or not is up for debate, but I’m not opposed to the idea! I’ll get into that a little more further down the line.

Since there were too many scenes for me to have the time to cover, I’ll have some honorable mentions! Ed peeing (face it, it was unexpected and hilarious), Jim and company versus the gangs, and the soothsayers.

Now is the time for a few questions I have about the latest episode!

Is Selina a Metahuman? I’m really not sure. I know people have been commenting about this, and if she is, I honestly don’t mind. It could be symbolism with the way her eyes turned into cat’s, but if it was the medicine really working and doing that, it’s interesting how her inner nature that is being released is that of a cat. I know some people don’t like the idea of this, but I think it would be cool!

How will Jeremiah obtain the tunnel the Soothsayers were in? At first, before we were introduced to these men, I thought that maybe they worked for Jeremiah. However, their motives told me otherwise. They want to get to the mainland, and he wouldn’t want that. I think that maybe he finds the place and hires some guys to make a maze under Gotham? Another thing that confuses me is that I thought that’s where his hideout was. Where is he hiding? Where’s his latest place of residence? I’m sure we’ll find out in the future.

If I had to sum up the episode with one Jeremiah Valeska mood, it would be:

Another entertaining and hilarious episode of Gotham! I loved it!

I know some people thought this episode was boring, but I personally felt that it was needed in order to set up plots and to develop the rest of the story line this season. From Trespassers and Year Zero, I can tell that this season is going to be my favorite by the time it’s complete. I can’t believe we have ten episodes of Gotham left!

Thank you for reading this! I hope you all had a wonderful time watching, too! I think I’m going to do one of these for each one that comes out. I’m so excited for the rest of the season! I hope you enjoyed!

[thelifetimechannel]

The Dave and Dirk log, for obvious reasons, was something I wanted to try very hard to get right. That meant although we drafted it together via msparp, as was our custom, I ended up overhauling it way more than any of our other combo walkaround logs. A few chunks did survive the transfer, though.

In other news, we’ve made a solemn pact to finish TLC over winter break, which is good because I’m running out of bonus content. Hopefully we’ll have some assets to show off soon. I’ve already seen a few; they’re very nice.  

DIRK: Hey, dude. You did pretty well out there. DIRK: Didn't even die once. DAVE: twice in a day is my max im satisfied with keeping that record DAVE: even if getting machinegunned is rapidly becoming my "thing" DIRK: Seems we each have our respective "signature deaths". DIRK: Or at least it ain't a party until I get decapitated. That sure was something we needed to do again. DIRK: Just once, for old time's sake. DAVE: well that puts the nail in the meme coffin DAVE: any time you panic someones gonna tell you to keep your head on DAVE: like keeping your hair on except you know that shit aint going anywhere its probably shellaced DIRK: That shit is bolted to the floor. Did you know I walked around with a girly-ass pink tiara on my head this whole day and had no idea? DIRK: I had no idea. Couldn't feel a thing. DIRK: And people let me do that. DIRK: Can't fuckin' believe it. DAVE: oh DAVE: i figured you knew DIRK: I am less than pleased with my Skaia-ordained divine color scheme. DIRK: But I guess I have to live with it. It's part of the team aesthetic. DAVE: you could always change DIRK: Nah, with the tiara and tights ditched I have at least mitigated the enforced flamboyance. It's bearable. DIRK: I can't be the one dude out of uniform. Couldn't bear the shame. DAVE: my outfit is pretty sick ngl DAVE: sburb knows everyones secret desire is to have a cape DIRK: Unfortunately, mine isn't long enough to also make for a good tactical maneuver. DIRK: Not gonna lie, that was pretty funny. DAVE: if nothing else my attempts at combat can provide a source of humor in our lives DAVE: but honestly id be fine if my fighting days were over DAVE: i was never into it DAVE: rose on the other hand was obviously itching to beat people up DAVE: one of those 12 year olds who wants to get jumped in an alley to work out her suppressed anger DIRK: Maybe Skaia did make a few miscalculations in dumping your asses with your respective guardians. I think you'd get along well with Roxy and her cats, make her budget her time away from the alcohol. DIRK: ...in theory. DIRK: Rose can go a few rounds with me if she wants, we still need to sort out who has the rights to document our legendary journies. DAVE: ill plan your funeral DAVE: what kind of flowers do you want DIRK: ...there's different kinds? DAVE: damn thats right you grew up in waterworld DAVE: these choices matter DAVE: allegedly theres a thing called "flower language" DAVE: whether you can actually send someone a boquet telling them to meet you in the pit i dont know DIRK: Like, I get that, in theory, different kinds of flowers exist. But I fully anticipate any attempt on my part to conjugate in the language of said plants would end in my coffin declaring my hovercraft was indeed full of eels. DIRK: Maybe it'll have thorns on it. Or it'll be like the sixteen millions tons of green bullshit covering my land and making my nose itch. DAVE: probably DIRK: Worst case scenario, I'll pick out something orange and present to a prospective love interest and it'll mean something like "my brotherly passion for you knows no boundaries, and also no homo". DAVE: my bro wouldnt go for flower arranging DAVE: or pink tiaras DAVE: he was pretty uptight about the whole rah rah macho act DAVE: probably subscribed to alpha males weekly DAVE: which is weird considering DAVE: well DAVE: youre gay right DIRK: Uh. DIRK: Well. DIRK: My symbolic quest land is not covered in green bullshit, but I. DIRK: Happen to like watching birds, if you know what I mean. DIRK: Fuck, you probably don't know what that means. Jake and his goddamn thousand euphemisms. DAVE: cant say i do no DIRK: Nobody knows what it means but Jake. It's an old time epithet for being into dudes. DIRK: He knows all the old epithets, including some I suspect he made up. DAVE: so DAVE: thats a yes DAVE: in a roundabout way that includes birds DIRK: I've never denied it. DIRK: I'm just. DIRK: Not a huge fan of the word. Why, in this world post-society, do we need to confine ourselves to labels like "gay"? Such constraints were washed away from my world with the rest of the human race. DAVE: holy shit that was such a pretentious dodge DAVE: dont let rose hear you say that DIRK: Rose can hear all she likes. DAVE: but anyway DAVE: i wasnt asking to get up all in your business like SOME PEOPLE DAVE: who are so into getting into other peoples businesses theyre basically the fucking mafia or the irs DAVE: but DAVE: it explains some stuff DAVE: but on the other hand it doesnt DAVE: the way you raised me was kinda aggressively mainstream masculine enough that it wasnt something that ever seemed to come up as an option DAVE: [describe that type of culture and mindset better later, I KNOW what i mean but im tired rn lmao] DAVE: and anything outside of that id just brush off because it couldnt apply to me DAVE: and that went for pretty much everything that went against what you wanted for me DAVE: including that DIRK: And yet, here the man was, subconsciously shrieking his desire for floppy felt dong through, DIRK: What I guess you could call his art, for want of any other applicable word at all. God, the mental images are crawling up the insides of my skull like the Exorcist child, do I want to know? DAVE: probably not DAVE: guess trying to act peak male has its drawbacks DAVE: weirdly enough troll culture is obsessively hyperviolent but doesnt give a shit about sexuality DAVE: they dont see the difference most of the time i guess DAVE: and so like DAVE: maybe it rubs off on you because in some ways that kind of makes sense DAVE: but after so long its hard to know what i feel and what it means because i spent so long ignoring it DAVE: so i guess i was wondering DAVE: if you had anything that might help with that DAVE: or if youre also trapped in this whirling screaming maelstrom of bullshit DAVE: while kinsey sits in the eye of the storm laughing DIRK: Wait, wait, wait. DIRK: You're coming to me. DIRK: For advice. DIRK: Do you know what a laughable hurricane of disaster my interpersonal life has been? DIRK: Like, in a weird way, I'm kind of honored, especially since about five hours ago you were scared shitless to be around me, but. DIRK: I'm standing here and waving my credentials in the air just to display how I don't fucking have any. My degree is a sham and my hands are empty except for a crudely scribbled on piece of construction paper. DAVE: are you suggesting theres a gay university DAVE: where you study bird watching DIRK: Do I look like a man who's been to college? DAVE: fair DAVE: but like DAVE: your friends know DAVE: how did you broach the subject there DIRK: I might as well have been dating a Yoko Ono for the devastation it wreaked on our friend group, so yeah, it was a little hard to ignore. DIRK: Compounded by the fact some smartass from Gay University was using my social circle for romance geometry homework. DIRK: It wasn't even a love triangle so much as a love roundabout. DAVE: ok but thats just because you were a dipshit not a gay dipshit DAVE: they were chill about the first part right DIRK: Thanks. DIRK: I mean... Roxy always seemed disappointed. DAVE: luckily i dont think anyones waiting in line for me DAVE: i guess im blowing it out of proportion DAVE: i dont think anyone will MIND DAVE: no one did about rose and kanaya DAVE: didnt even question the vampire bit which goes to show what our lives are like these days DAVE: like ok our outfit has vampires now DAVE: thats a thing that we have DAVE: if i say oh hey i might be bisexual theyll just say sure pull up a chair at the acronym table DAVE: the only one who might be weird about it is john DAVE: but hed be just as weird if i told him id changed my favorite color hes just like that DAVE: the only person its really a big deal for is me DIRK: Jane was a little bit like that. I'm pretty sure the only reason she had to object was because she found out the day I made a move on her crush. DIRK: It might just be growing up in a household where you're not regularly fighting for your life, and thus what genders are kissing whom has the space to be higher on your priority list. DAVE: that aint anyones priority these days DAVE: im prepared to acknowledge the concept that hey maybe everyone elses lives dont revolve around me and my personal drama or self revelations might have some merit at least as a hypothesis DAVE: when i met kid english he kept going on about how i was the most important person and everyone else was side characters DAVE: and maybe ive acted like that sometimes DIRK: Yeah, like you alone are the one responsible for everyone around you. DAVE: and maybe ive acted like i think that way too sometimes DAVE: ive been wrong about people DAVE: people i care about people i shouldve known better DAVE: i was wrong because i wanted to believe things that matched how i wanted the world to be DAVE: things that made it easier for the story i was telling myself DAVE: i dont think kid english meant to call me on it but damn DIRK: Reality is, after all, something we construct for ourselves. DIRK: I think maybe I knew that all along when I surfaced for air inbetween shoving my head as far up my ass as it would go. DIRK: Or maybe that's just what I try to tell myself in hindsight. DAVE: well if it takes a hyperactive 12 year old version of the final bosss creepy hero worship of me to make a point i guess thats not the least subtle way the universe has sent me a message lately DIRK: You want unsubtle? Let me tell you about my damn planet quest. DAVE: haha DAVE: i didnt have to do much of my quest because im invisible DAVE: thanks mom DIRK: My denizen practically sat me down like it was my life coach and growled in my ear about improving my communication skills with a guy I told to go fuck himself not eighteen hours prior. DIRK: So while I'm glad SBURB has a vested interest in me repairing my friendships, playing electroshock death DDR with him was a little on the nose. DAVE: maybe getting shot again wasnt that bad DAVE: so weve all learned our life lessons good job team DIRK: Exactly. Can we wrap this up now? Can we please go rest? DIRK: I'm so exhausted I haven't even noticed I'm still hungover. DAVE: sure thing DAVE: but if i need tips on leaping out of a closet to intimidate passerby i might text you DIRK: I mean, I can try. As long as you don't ask me for dating tips. That, I definitely shouldn't be helping you with. DIRK: Go talk to your sister for that. DIRK: ...wouldn't she, by the transitive property of siblings, also be my sister? DAVE: yeah i guess DAVE: but theres no way in hell im asking rose for dating advice DAVE: on her first date which she refused to admit was romantically oriented she got wasted in anticipation forgot to show up and then fell down the stairs DIRK: Oh my god. DAVE: she tries to look like shes got her shit together but its a lie DAVE: if you find my corpse floating on lolar in the next few hours dont let the truth die with me DIRK: Why are we like this? DIRK: Is there actually something hardwired into our DNA that predisposes us to being disasters? DIRK: But, that aside. DIRK: I won't object if it's me you come to talk to. DAVE: ill hold you to it DAVE: and if you ever want to publicly you admit you DAVE: "enjoy birdwatching" DAVE: in less vague and evasive terms DAVE: ill have your back DIRK: Thanks.

[intergalacthicc]

10/06/18

i havent talked about my new interest of affection. i am writing this now because even if things are way waaaay far from being normal, i just wanted to reminisce the good old days while im still not feeling bitter about it. i am not into mushy stuff and sappy things but here goes. he probably would never even get to read this so lol. 

i was totally fine with being alone. i had a bad case of a heartbreak earlier this year and i was confident with being alone. i’ve learned it the hard way; not seeking for others company to feel secured. but then this soul came out of the blue. it wasnt like at first sight. errrr or should i say that it wasnt like at first virtual conversation. nor the second. or the third. it started out as something purely virtual, yes. we just talked and talked and talked. gradually, though not slowly, i became comfortable with this soul. i am the type of person who feels lowkey anxious with phone calls yet this soul made it so easy for me to talk to him on the phone from 10pm til dawn. it lasted for a few days. then for a week. then for two weeks. slowly, without realizing, it kinda grew into me. he grew into me. 

he was far from my ideal. oh god, he was barely my ideal. hes apathetic, hes not into chivalry, he has a lot of pet peeves, hes detached, he keeps on maintaining this cool headed doesn’t give a damn type of facade, hes too honest, and hes annoying. he had these ear piercings, one he pierced on his own. he smokes more than five times a day. he usually isn’t sober. but then theres this side of him who’s into literature so much, who gets lost in his surroundings the moment he gets so immersed reading a book, who writes his heart out, who writes poetry, who believes in passion (he wouldnt agree on this but i can see it), who loves films and music as much as i do, who loves memes ranging from dank to dark. he was a mix of both good and bad. he was the perfect balance of good and bad. 

this soul made me become more in sync with myself. he taught me the art of saying no. he taught me to say whats on my mind despite the fact that i may hurt other peoples feelings. he taught me not to be too much of a pushover. i guess i may be romanticizing it too much. but thats how i felt. he made me happy. i felt like i was a teenager in her coming of age years all set up for a free fall. i felt butterflies on my stomach. and he said he did too. its crazy. its overwhelming how you can give and receive the same amount of affection from a person. i wasnt asking for him but the universe let us cross paths even for a little while. it mustve meant something. sometimes i wonder why we had to click and vibe easily only for the connection to be taken away from us on such a short notice. if he was given to me only to be a lesson then alright. i guess i have to swallow the fucking pill. i just done get it sometimes. i havent felt this connection throughout my experience. im not even exaggerating it. i havent found someone i can truly be comfortable with. why did it have to end so soon. whyyyy

people say that ill find someone new. that hes not the last person ill feel this connection with. im forced to end it because my parents told me so. it sucks. both of us are so happy yet we had to let go because of all these external forces coming right at us. honestly, im a coward. i cant go through the process of letting go and moving on yet again. i dont know how ill be able to cope this time knowing that this soul grew into me unlike nobody else before. so if the heartbreaks ive went through already hurt so bad, i dont know how this one would. im also scared when the time comes, if the time comes, that ill find a new love, i may end up comparing the rush to this one. no one will make me feel the way he did. 

its crazy. my parents said they will never accept this guy. how could so much love for me hinder me from being genuinely happy? i know this is me being selfish. ive tried the best i can to be the ideal daughter for my parents. i mess up one time and now im not allowed to do anything except to drop the guy. im starting to lose hope that there will ever be any slightest bit of chance for compromise. harsh words have been said already. heavy heavy words have cause hurt and pain. everythings fucked up. it sucks that i cant do anything to fix it. but okay, ill try to get my shit together. ill try.

[tamiddyinyourcity]

9:12am.

I'm so drunk.

Tuesday, May 26th of 2020.

Oh man.

Life updates:

A long emotional night that I dont feel like explaining right now. But, worst place mentally I've been in since last year.

Due to the long emotional night that I can't write about..... Checked my ex's twitter at like 2am last night.

Saw his shitty sadboy memes the night I left him on Valentines Day. It doesn't make me feel any less bad abut things. Maybe just slightly worse. There's a somber yet humorous melancholy about, "Minutes after you left your ex boyfriend's porch, to finalize the ending of your relationship where he couldn't decide how much he liked you or not, he posted a goth e-girl version of the super classic pepe crying meme."

Ih my hod my head hurts

Jesus hell.

I'm...... rough.

Just, jesus.

Jesus. Lawd. I managed to live until the next morning, but sobbing so hard it felt my lungs were going to cave in has resulted in my eyes being so tight and plushy and sore that I can hardly see my phone even a foot away from my face st the moment.

Autocorrect and water are two blessed things to have, god bless and amen.

So, continuing from there:

Saw the annoying angst posts my ex had made the night and the day after when I left him.

Found out he then went to some event the next day, made out with a man with strawberry lipgloss, and then slept drunk in his car. (I'm not even super shocked, the dude that's blatantly told me he'd give sucking a dick, male or woman, a try was expeeeected to be the type. A little funny that he tweeted about it like "im either that drunk or gay"....... I'm surprised it took him this long to realize he was gay, but hey, either way, shoutout to Patrick for kissing a man.)

Saw the meme angst tweets made directly after that fight we had like four days later..... I'll still forever be pissed off at him for the way he did that.

At least the memes were funny

The walls are still spinning and I'm laying down...... jesus christ.

Phew, i feel really not great..... It makes sense to not feel great when you spend a solid 3 hours straight yell crying alone to yourself, half naked in your bedsheets ready to die, but yknow.... Still.

It just feels worse, since this time, it was all I could think about doing.

Just killing myself. Him. Myself. Him.

He would've deserved it. Bu I would've felt such guilt from it, that picturing myself killing myself immediately after seemed like the next possible step.

Itts snnoying to feel that way about a person. Anyone else I probably wouldnt give a fuck about.

And this is someone ive been trying to duck these thoughts of for so fucking long. Painfully long.

And there I was, last night. I'm a lightweight, so chugging a quarter of one of my tallest bottles of rose and then going for the remainder of a second is...... Already probably too much wine for the average person, but like..... for my teeny ass? I ate nothing but hummus and mandarin oranges before it, so, take that as you will.

I had the knife and everything. I just kept picturing it. Killing him. Killing me. Stabbing myself in the chest, or the neck, or the gut a few times. Slitting my throat with one swift motion and dying on the floor. Bleeding out. Leaving thie planet behind.

Or, killing him. All the terrible thoughts I had about him for monthe kept on flooding back. How he doesnt miss me whatsoever, and how no one would care or even notice if I was gone. How i have potential that would be wasted. But not caring to see it.

You know its serious, when the girl who's sole reason in life is to connect with others through her art and writing is finally chugging bottles of wine and laying in bed with a knife, crying ridiculously hard and so loud that one might think she would have her lungs give out, or just maybe, her parents would finally leave their bedroom to ask her how she's doing.

For the first one, I'm surprised I'm still here. My bedroom is bright and full of sunshine and a bright light glow, and eerie to look at. It's as if I did kill myself, and now heaven is like the intro to The Heathers.

9:32am.

I think I'm gonna vomit. Its rising in my throat.....

I don't know how to fully explain the situation.

But it's just....

Well, whatever.

Oh, look. The girl that asked for a small talk that would have more benefit for both people than negativity, who specifically said she didn't want to end things on such a bad note that she ends up having her head replay the most horrible memories on loop over and over, triggering her IBS, stomach pains, insomnia, and panic attacks, or to have the situation dramatically worsen or drag out unresolved pain for months on end..... meant it.

.....

He was such a cunt the night we fought. My head throbs at even remembering how bad it got last night.

What a genius, that idiot was. "My girlfriend is prone to blacking out due to high stress, and I don't want her stress to manifest into something terrible.... Guess I better choose the worst possible option, huh?"

My heart is beating ridiculously hard and fast right now. It's God reminding me that I'm still alive, but, to go easy on myself. Surviving intentional alcohol poisoning and a night of a knife struggle, then dying of a heart attack would be really terrible.

But.....

Man.

Well, I have some memories of things I did, or said, but not entirely all of them.

I basically realized I was knocking ridiculously close to death's door, from the way my vision kept going from normal to aggressively darkening and going in and out. The thoughts were getting worse, my screams and cries were going unanswered.

So, I called people. Whoever I felt was a good person to me during a bad moment, who I at least wanted to thank for being kind, before I ended up slitting my wrists or whatever. (Hospital way, since sadly I learned how that works.)

I forget who all I called...........

I recall posting to Instagram a few things. Deterrents. Since I hate the idea of harming someone, even if I feel like they deserve it, and want to deterr it at all costs. So usually something that has evidence helps.

And if I go ahead and do it, then, at least my good friends would know the reasoning behind my death, suicide, or eventual homicide.

Since fuck it.

And something on my main, but I don't remember. Just videos of me aggressively chugging alcohol and full on sobbing and or demanding mutuals reach out to my ex boyfriend, due to the severity of things.

And yes, that's when the situation goes from "just gossip", to "oh look, tamia is going to kill herself and another human being."

But then I started to panic at what others would say, and hence, Instagram is now disabled for me. Not sure I wanna open it back up. It could have tons of messages asking about my safety and health. It could have tons of viewers and absolutely no responses.... I can't tell which is scarier. If people said anything, or if they had said.... nothing.

One means people care. Or at the bare minimum, someone cursing me out.

The other would confirm a fear. And that would fuck me up....

I can't even picture how I'd react to that. I haven't even felt well whenever I post a photo or put something on my story just for no one to watch it, or bother.

So if I can get painfully hopeless at feeling unwatched and uncared for by others in life, I don't think having all my worst fears confirmed after surprisingly not killing myself (after a lot of effort to avoid that route) would just lead to severe problems.

9:49am. I also have to shit, if anyone was wondering. I forget wine does that to people.... what a claaaaassy beverage.

Agh. Shit. Anyways.

I called up anyone I felt like bothering on my contacts list.

Patrick #1, the first love - I loved him. Probably because he was the first man to actually do what he said, meant what he said, and showed me how he felt. I informed him of this, and how he was the first guy ever to treat me that way. And I thanked him for being amazing, and how I will always appreciate him for doing that.

Juan Carlos - some guy I had a crush on in high school. I thought he was cute, and he was nice to me in comparison to a lot of the other douchebags who hated me because I was perceived as being weird, my skin color, dated their shitty asshole friend, or whatever. I just recall thanking him for not being a huge piece of shit, and for being really chill and kind to me when no one else had back then. (I also recall mentioning the context of why shit was fucked back then, due to the rapist first ex stalking me, then a 2nd one I was forced to be around every day.... it was a ridiculously tough time for me.) And just thanking him one more time, before adding, "Also, you have really shiny hair. Like really really shiny hair, be proud of it". I imagine that if not for the context it was in of a girl complimenting an old crush before she may or may not slit her wrists or shank her ex, it wouldve been hysterical to hear a girl cry, but then find it so important to mention their hair is shiny.... Drunkness, lmfaooooo.

Leo - a guy I worked with on a film set last September, around the same time I met my most recent ex. But with this guy.... he had picked up.

I guess Leo was drunk at 4:30am for whatever reason too, we got to talking. He could tell from the way I was sobbing, and my blatant "imreallysorryiwasabouttodosomethingreallybadtonight" wheezing with tears, that a conversation was what I needed.

He is a good guy.

Sure, the part of the conversation where he then tried to steer it towards Sexual Twenty Questions was pretty gross, but whatever, drunk 35 year old man flirting with the local hot and suicidal 19 year old who is also drunk and pushing his luck with impromptu "do you like anal??? Do you like older men???", questions, is overlooked, since he overall managed to let me talk about my problems long enough where it downgraded from "im 100% going to take my own life and hes coming with me or hes not", to "i just cant believe he broke my heart like that, and that i just don't remotely matter to him anymore, with no explanation of why. I trusted him so much and this made me feel betrayed in a way i havent felt for a really really long time....)

[The vibe from last night peaked past the "Zack" incident, where I can't recall between the Summer of 2018 to Summer of 2019, outside of my concussion, and a few moments with that one prick who assaulted me in the past.]

10:05am. I need to puke, shit, and cry.

He talked me down some. Basically tried the "this happens to everyone, trust me that you're not alone for this".... That didn't work. But, he at least had the spirit. Continued on by asking me of my goals, and reminding me of beautiful ways to cope, and whatnot.

Very good.

Here's a song that I thought of when I woke up.

.....

I don't know how to feel at the moment.

Patrick didn't respond. But that dumbass probably never checks his voicemails anyway these days, so whatever. Better not to dwell, i suppose.

Juan Carlos almost instantly listened to the voicemail. Told me he remembered me. Was opening to extending his friendship to me.... really sweet. I'll probably call him later to check in. I feel bad for scaring him, but I mean.... I shouldn't feel bad. It should be a good feeling if others prefer not to have me dead.

And Leo wants to meet up, when the pandemic is all said and done.

Very sweet people. :)

The walls still feel like they're spinning, and I may vomit at any moment.......

What would I do if Patrick #2 didn't respond to my instagram? Move on in life? Raise hell? Forgive him?

I don't know.

I'll just have to promise myself that before I do anything bad, I reach out to a friend who I trust can listen to me vent first.

.......

Thanks for the good advice, Leo.

(Oh my god, it feels like my stomach lining is going to burn its way outside of me.)

I don't know how to feel.

That wasn't how any of this was supposed to go down.

10:14am. Time to piss, shit, and see if anyone bothered.

If no one does, who cares? Please do not kill yourself. Just remove them from your life if they're going to be that stagnant.

I have a worth outside of the perception of others, and its the most beautiful thing I have ever seen.

Gonna go release my stomach contents into the nearest receptacle and pray that the pain ends soon enough.

God bless and amen to that. Hope everyone is okay today. Peace out loves.

[sadrien]

wanna chat? pt.20

on ao3 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10 | 11 | 12 | 13 | 14 | 15 | 16 | 17 | 18 | 19 | 20

i'm not dead yet but i'm v close

eponine = alya enjolras = marinette grantaire = nino marius = adrien

enjoy

13:04

eponine: dont listen to marinette

enjolras: Ummm???? LIsten to Marinette

eponine: no fuck u

enjolras: :P

grantaire: ???????? what did you do  

eponine: NOTHI N G

enjolras: She tried to chase Chat after the akuma attack and almost fell in the Seine 

eponine: i did not

enjolras: She was 100% ready to swim

eponine: NO I WANS T

grantaire: oh is that where you went

eponine: f i g h t  m e

grantaire: al youd do anything for another interview wiht one of them

eponine: >:( u arent wrong tho

grantaire: exactly i cant believe you almost went into the river  

eponine: i hate you

 14:16 

enjolras: Has anyone heard from Adrien today??

grantaire: i talked to him thsi morning

enjolras: When was this morning

grantaire: uhhh like…. 2  

enjolras: Sleep??? Is a thing??????????

grantaire: video games are also a thing

enjolras: I hate you

grantaire: </3

 14:25 

eponine: good afternoon i am gay

grantaire: youre bi

eponine: good afternoon i am bi do u have a moment 2 talk about our lord and savior ladybug 

enjolras: Why are you like thsi

eponine: im running on like 5 cups of coffee

marius: lmao lame

eponine: what 

grantaire: ?????

enjolras: Did alya steal adriens phone again

eponine: first of all rude second of all what 

marius: who even is everyone on here??} what kind of nerd club is this  

grantaire has changed their name to nino

nino: blame adrien he got all geeky on us  

eponine has changed their name to ladybugfan2020

ladybugfan2020: hello im still bi

marius: what in fresh hell is going on here

enjolras has changed their name to mari

mari: Who are you??? And why do you have Adriens phone  

marius: because he’s too trusting lol guess who’s thumbprint is in it and has access to everything 

nino: i know my dude doesnt have anything weird on his phone that he wouldnt want people to see but still bro thats ominous  

marius: ;* 

ladybugfan2020: really tho who r u

marius: god i can’t believe you can’t figure it out who do you think adrien would trust not only with his phone but also enough to put their fingerprint in it????? 

ladybugfan2020: nino mari probably not me but a girl can dream ladybug chat link 

marius: i’m stopping you right there because fictional characters don’t count i’m honestly offended is there a block button on skype??? 

mari: Why do you have his phone Chloe? 

marius: wow!!! one of you has a brain!!! a concept 

nino: oh shit he had a big photoshoot today didnt he man i feel bad that i forgot 

mari: He didnt want to talk about it much dont feel too bad

marius: no shame on you for forgetting clearly i’m the only one who cares about adrien here 

ladybugfan2020 has removed marius from the group. 

mari: Alya no

ladybugfan2020: alya yes?? i dont like her 

mari: I mean same but Adrein wont know why hes been removed

nino: mars got a point

ladybugfan2020: ugh y do i like either of u

ladybugfan2020 has added marius to the group.

marius: fucking rude

ladybugfan2020: fight me

marius: maybe i will!!!!

nino: last time you did that al got akumatized lets ton e it down

marius left this group

ladybugfan2020 has added marius to this group.

marius: fuck you

ladybugfan2020: oh u wish

marius: i want out

mari: Then put down Adriens phone??

marius: i’m bored this photoshoot is boring you’re all JUST as boring though  

marius has changed their name to chlo

chlo: a random reminder that i hate you all and am only talking to you because i’m desperate

nino: im honored

chlo: you should be

ladybugfan2020: new question y r u at the photoshoot

chlo: cause i was in part of it?? duh 

mari: You model?

chlo: ok so clearly i need to talking up myself MORE i thought that was something people like you wanted me to stop doing make up your mind 

mari: You cant tell but Im rolling m y eyes

chlo: of course i’m a model have you seen me

nino: unfortunately

chlo: fuck off

ladybugfan2020 has renamed this conversation to “chloe sux”

chlo: fucking this is why i’m not friends with any of you  

mari: Lets be real you wouldnt be friends with us if we werent like this

chlo: probably true

nino: i dunno we were pretty close when we were 6?  

chlo: oh god don’t remind me i’ve blocked that from my memory 

nino: what? dont like remembering how we got married on the playground 

chlo: get out of my life lahiffe

nino: are we getting a divorce?? 

mari: No you got divorced when we were 8

ladybugfan2020: i feel like im watching a soap opera wild did we all get married on the playground??? i got married to this girl in my class when i was 4 and she was my first kiss good times we had to break up tho cause she wanted to go on the slide when i wanted to use the monkey bars 

mari: Aw tragic young love

chlo: not surprised

ladybugfan2020: k ive shared every1 else go share ur 1st kiss

mari: Kim in a game of truth or dare when I was eleven

nino: chloe at our wedding

chlo: lame also i don’t owe you anything cesaire  

ladybugfan2020: i can just ask adrien later

chlo: fuck ok i kissed alix the day before nino and i got married alix kissed me i think it was a dare  

nino: i cannot believe you cheated on me i want another divorce 

chlo: yeah yeah

ladybugfan2020: whyd u 2 divorce anyway?

nino: chloe didnt invite me to her birthday

chlo: ummm????? i mean no i didn’t because it was a girls only sleepover but also i remember YOU had a crush on mari so 

ladybugfan2020: just kno i am living

mari: YOu had a crush on me when we wer e 8???

nino: mari i hope you know everyone has had a crush on you

mari: ???????????????

ladybugfan2020: can confirm

chlo: ew they need me to do something i’ll steal adrien’s phone back later be less lame when i get back 

nino: no promises

ladybugfan2020: lmao anyway now we just gotta find out who adriens 1st kiss was any1 kno?  

mari: Nino would know

nino: i mean i do but thats for him to share im sure he will but ill let him do it 

ladybugfan2020: nice now we just gotta remember to ask ive got it 

ladybugfan2020 has renamed this conversation to “who was adrien agrestes first kiss??? find out more at 6”.

mari: Subtle

ladybufan2020: thanks

 14:43 

chlo: i lived bitch

nino: did chloe just meme

chlo: of course i did???? i mean come ON adrien agreste is my best friend what did you expect?  

nino: nah dude hes my bes t friend

chlo: no he’s not

ladybugfan2020: rude™

mari: Were his best friends???? 

chlo: pff you’re more than just his friends 

ladybugfan2020: ????

chlo: nothing anyway you people are boring god did you do nothing while i was gone?? how does he suffer being in your presence 

nino: has anyone ever told you youre kinda rude and obnoxious

chlo: yeah you multiple times 

nino: cool imma do it again

chlo: where’s the middle finger emoji 

nino: :P

mari: I cant believe you came back  

chlo: yeah neither can i guess you’re less boring and annoying than doing nothing

PM between chlo and ladybugfan2020

ladybugfan2020: can i ask y u hate mari 

chlo: i don’t hate her

ladybufan2020: …

chlo: it’s a long story

ladybugfan2020: well shes my best friend and ur kind of a dick to her

chlo: yeah well i’m not a nice person

ladybugfan2020: have u ever considered trying to b a nicer person

chlo: fuck off adrien agreste is my best friend what the hell do you think 

ladybugfan2020: try harder

in who was adrien agrestes first kiss??? find out more at 6 

mari: Has Adrien seriously been working this whole time???

chlo: not constantly but he hasn’t had much downtime when he’s not getting pictures taken of him they’re having him do other stuff probably cause he’s the boss’ kid but i don’t know i just pose and look pretty 

nino: use no brain power like usual

chlo: haha very funny

ladybug2020: do u think hes gonna read through all these messages???

mari: Depends on if hes tired or not

ladybug2020: mk hey sunshine if ur reading this ilysm thats all 

chlo: ugh they need me

mari: I mean you are like Working 

chlo: whatever we’re almost done so adrien will probably be on next bye losers

nino: bye ex wife

 15:07 

chlo: Ok I see that something happened Oh my username has changed Well ok that explains almost everything

chlo has changed their nickname to adrien 

adrien: I had to turn autocaps back on

nino: dude thats lame

adrien: I’m a lame person Also to answer the chat name’s question Nino 

ladybugfan2020: ???????? what??????????? when did this happen?????? 

adrien: A few months ago?

nino: sounds about right 

adrien: I had to do a photoshoot that was going to involve kissing a girl and I didn’t want my first kiss to be work related I was talking about it to Nino and he was like “the answer is to have your first kiss before the photoshoot”  

mari: And so the next logical step was to kiss NIno

adrien: …yeah sort of

nino: fun fact adrien is a great kisser @alya cause mari already knows 

mari: Please stop talking to me oh my god

ladybugfan2020: i feel like im missing out how do i get adrien agreste to kiss me how did u do it mari? it was an accident right??? just like…fall asleep on his face?  

mari: I’m leaving goodbye I hate you all

ladybugfan2020: </3

[mybabbbbee]

The firsts

First meetup: 7th July 2019. I was pissed off already abt alot of things and didnt at all wanna marry a doctor. Our conversation was very casual. I was the one who talked for the most part.

First time we sat together on one couch: 21st July 19 when it was our baat pakki ki rasm. I tried my best not to touch him.

First time i met him in niqab/on duty: 31st Aug 19 i was in my gynae OT and telling a friend abt how he is in anesthesia nowadays and yikes! There i saw him. He was soo focused on work. So i had to approach him and have a confused conversation. Later worry for 2 days doubting if he liked me or nah.

First gift: 11th Aug 19, we went to their place a day before Eid ul Azha. He had brought gucci perfume for me from Dubai. Mom also gifted him some clothes and a perfume.

First time i heard him play guitar: 11th Aug 19 everyone insisted him to do so. He played alot of songs out of which i knew some. GOT theme song, ab tou aadat si he, bachana were my fav.

First time he held my hand: 24th Aug 19 on our engagement when he held my hand to put the ring on. Lasted for barely 10 seconds and my hands were cold af.

First time he served me food: that too on our engagement. Served me rice.

First time he texted me on my number: 26th Aug 19 i asked aunty for more pictures and he texted me the link. And also asked me to thank ma pa for the watch. Also he made a laughing emoji at the end and i wanted to ask him does he laugh too 😯

First time i added him on snapchat: 28th Aug 19 cuz i was worried he isnt texting me. So he viewed all my stories hehe. And also posted his two days later. He has a score of 65 and i have 44k 🙄

First time i fantasized about him: 4th Sept 19 i was depresses bcs of messed up clg routine so i worked out and took a shower at midnight and afterwards just laid down naked in bed. And then i started thinking abt him and well that was my first orgasm right there.

First time we had a proper conversation: 5th Sept he was sick so i texted to wish him speedy recovery. Dont know if he was in a good mood or if he is always like this. We were talking abt our engagement and he said "tbh there was a lot to compliment" and afterwards he sent me a picture of us and said he liked it. He also asked me to meet him at clg. Not bad right? Couldnt stop smiling the whole time tho.

First time we added each other on facebook: 6th Sept. I set a condition that he'd put an engaged status. I thought he wouldnt but he did. He asked me to do the same too.

First time he made a heart in our conversation: 6th Sept when he called me Ms. SuperSweet. I havent made one yet.

First time he told me he gets horny thinking about me: 8th Sept the day we met and later that night he told me how crazy i make him go. And that he dreamt that we had a little pillow fight and ended up kissing. Gosh its getting hot in here. Also he started making kiss emoji. I havent yet 🤷‍♀️

First call: 15th Sept he was very worried if he'll be able to talk properly or not. It went well. Loved how he laughed.

First sexting: 15th Sept after the call he was soo in the mood so couldnt say no. Felt hot aff. Also had an orgasm.

First time he said 'i love you' on call: 21st Sept when i called him to say goodmorning and he was so caught off guard. And happy. It was a two minute call and i didnt realize he said it untill we dropped it. He said it again later that night.

First time he tagged me in a meme: 21st Sept. It was about money heist.

First time he called from work: 25th Sept. He had to call the night before but he was too tired he fell asleep..i was a lil pissed off so subah he called me from OT, there was some strike going on so he was free..and we talked for like 10 mins. I loved his voice.

First time i heard him having hiccups: 28 Sept we were on call he had a sore throat and then he started having them i made him drink water and distracted him and it worked. We talked for almost three hours.

First time we exchanged some naughty snaps: 1st Oct we were sexting on sc for the first time and i knew i couldnt control myself so i sent him some snaps of me with low neck where he could see my curves. He sent one out of shower too.

First time he snapped me his boner: 5th Oct we got rlly wild, he had two orgasms at night and then i woke him up with a nice bj and he cummed twice again.

First date: 9th oct it was a formal date awkward in the start but turned out to be great. He got me flowers and held the door for me and pulled the chair out, not in the start though but lol it was cute. We talked abt silly things and some serious ones. About making vows to each other. We laughed like mad and took some pictures. He got me gajras in the end and helped me wear them and then he held my hand and we kept it like that till the end. He teased me a lil and gosh it gave me butterflies for a moment. He makes me feel like im perfect, flawless.

First time we held hands: 9th Oct he got me gajras on out way back..then he helped me wear them and held my hand all the way back home..he tease my hand a little and made me crazy. So crazy.

First time we tried call sex: 12th Oct..not entirely though. We just stayed on call and heard each other moan..i felt more closer to him and God it was hot.

First time i wore black with him: 16th Oct it was our second date. He loved the attire, complimented me the whole time.

First song we listened to together: 16th Oct when he was driving me back he played laiyan laiyan and we both were totally in the feels. He said he might play it on our wedding.

First time we made a streak: 16th Oct we decided it on our date

First kiss: 24th Oct we were in car and just madeout for like 10 mins..it was good. Got me wet. Wanted to make his bday special.

First love note: 24th Oct gave him a funny bday card and a note along with it. I hope he likes it.

First birthday celebration: 26th Oct one day after his bday we had a fam dinner after which we cut the cake and i gave him shirts and a perfume.

First time i sat on his lap: 29th Oct he picked me up from a friends place and we were in the backseat making out..i humped against him the whole time.

First time somebody walked in on us: 29th Oct while making out a guard approached us but kher we ran away just in time. He was so concerned id be worried.

First movie we watched together: 30th Oct joker.

First time he felt my boobs from inside my shirt: 30th Oct on our last date before he went to rwp. I felt his cock up too.

First time he gave me a letter: 30th Oct. It was the best day.

First video call: Nov 11. During his 48hr long urology call.

First tcs: 7 Dec. He got his first pay so sent gifts for me.

First time we went shopping: 26 Dec. Got a gift for Abdullah's engagement. And for mama's bday. We both are so easy. Non picky.

First time i made him cum with hj: 26 Dec. He got sooo hot afterwards. He fingered me too.

First event we attended as a couple: 28th Dec. Abdullah's engagement. Although he wasnt there for the most part but i loved how everyone related me to him.

First time he fed me food: 24th Jan 2020 on our nikkah when i wasnt eating and saying i wont unless he makes me..so he did infront of everyone.

First time he gave me a shoulder massage: 24th Jan on our night date hehe

First long drive: 27th Jan had to go to my to be ghar met ammi had a sitting with my mua had lunch then and went back

First halal kissing: felt soooo goood with no guilt. Damnnn i love to kiss him so much. So much sawab loool

First hickey: 27th Jan he got a little hard on me when he was close to his orgasm..and i totally loved it

First time he sucked my nipples: 27th jan 🙈

First grocery shopping: 27th Jan he bought me stuff for my new washroom 😁

First rain date: 27th jan it rained the whole day ❤

First night together: 1st feb after my rukhsati. It was the most magical night and his touch felt soo goood. Sleeping naked with each other and teasing was such a turn on.

First time he served me food: 24th jan on our nikkah hen we were on stage and i couldnt eat bcs of my nails and then he made me.

First time i felt protected with him: 1st feb while our valima shoot was going on and the sun was getting on my face so he stood between me and the sun to put me in shade.

First night at my parents: 2nd feb after our valima. We opened our gifts played ludo and had aloot of fun in bed. Also went to fun city in my desi newly wed clothes.

First meal post-sex: 1st feb he made me a whole plate of biryani at 4am.

First time we ordered food in bed: 4th feb. The burgers were yummm

First time he did my hair: 5th feb while i was getting ready to go downstairs. He just loves side parting.

First time i cried infront of him: 6th feb i just missed my homies so much so i turned away and pretended to sleep and he found out i was crying and became mama bear. It was so good to be in his arms i wont choose another place to be at ever. Then i read their letters while he caressed me all this while.

First time we had real sex: 7th feb just a day before umrah. He was kind of worried he wasnt getting hard enough to go inside so he got some pills and then we did. It was painful for me but i just wanted to get over with this and it was a happy feeling to know we’re finally not virgins.

First oral: 1st feb on our wedding night. Probably the last too

First orgasm: 2nd feb and the following week was full of it

First umra together: 8th feb it was the best time together. How we did tawwaf and saee and made each other recite duas, prayed together, taught him how to bargain,ate alot of yumm food.

First time he made me watch ertugrul: 12th feb

First time he got me jellies: 13th feb while we were going for madinah ziyarat.

First stay away from home: 1st march i went to rwp where he was doing his hj. Got an army mess arranged for me. Stay was great.

First monal date: 3rd march weather was awesome altho he was a little pissed off at me asking to take pictures again and again.

First fight: 3rd march later that night he wanted to have sex but i wasnt wet enough and he started blaming me and saying ive turned him off. It made me cry and confront him abt his behaviour earlier too. He kinda took it seriously and kept saying sorry the whole time and also said “this is the first and the last time i made u cry”. We stayed up till late sharing our thoughts talking abt our future.

First friends hangout: 4th feb his room mate invited us for dinner. Pizza was good everything was until they started talking abt the ex idk why i felt bad. Didnt talk the whole way back.

First bday together: 20th march he gave me a surprise by coming straight from his call for a day.

[ticklish-yoko-blog]

Sigh.

Reminder that when I roleplay as "myself", or refering to "me" as "I", I am not actually role-playing as myself, especially if I am roleplaying as a woman. I'm roleplaying with the version you see "me" as, or the image you created in your head. I wasn't going to post something like this but I'm honestly tired of this lol. For those who cared enough to want to get to know me and ask for my pronouns, ect-- Thank you. You're the real MVP. I do not typically roleplay as myself, as I've mentioned. I only roleplay as the version of "me" that you've created in your head. I am a trans man, not a woman. I am comfortable role-playing as a woman, however-- And that doesn't change how I identify. (It does trigger my dysphoria, don't get me wrong, but I want others to feel comfortable roleplaying.)

Again, I just want to thank those who took the time to ask for my pronouns. I listed it in my bio, now.

I am a trans man, not a woman. Thank you for coming to my TED talk. If you didn't care enough to ask for my pronouns and only wanted to roleplay with me and tickle t*rture/get tortured by a girl as your s*xual pleasure, then that's on you. Even if I messaged you first, asking if you'd be interested-- Again, that's on you. When I first joined the community a few weeks or something ago, I had no intention of making friends(because I'm too shy and I wouldnt be able to come forward with my actually identity, so I didn't see a point or think that anyone would ask me about myself), but seeing that I was wrong about a lot of the people on here, and that people DO actually take the time to ask questions about myself, ect-- It made me happy and gave me confidence, and maybe-- Hey, eventually, there's a possibility I'll feel comfortable enough to post selfies, use my real name, post art or do art that involves tickling, ect. But again, I wasn't originally here to make friends, and if you don't know anything about me(no one here knows anything about me other than like. Three things, not including pronouns but I'm mostly referring to those who never asked anything about me), then I don't consider us friends. My intention wasn't to bait anyone into thinking I'm a girl, and I don't know how many people are transphobic in the community or not, so I didn't know if it was worth it to write in my bio. I'm terrified of my IRL friends, or roleplay friends from Facebook, ect, to find out about this tumblr, which is why I haven't said anything until now. They KNOW my art style, nicknames, face, and especially how I type. I saw a few of their blogs in my recommendations, as well. So I apologize if anyone was "mislead" by me roleplaying as a girl, but I appreciate those who wanted to get to know me.

My partner is also a straight woman, and we planned on getting engaged when we meet. So please stop thinking we are in a lesbian relationship. She's not into woman, she's into me, and I'm a trans man. (Before anyone asks, yes, she is aware that I smut with other people. She's also in the roleplay community, she just doesn't have a tumblr, and she doesn't know I have THIS tumblr because I'm too scared of admitting that I have an interest in this type of stuff.)

When role-playing with people, I ALWAYS ask what gender they'd be more comfortable role-playing with, and a lot of people pick woman, which I'm fine with, but stop acting like I'm a lesbian. (I have corrected people ooc before on my pronouns, if they don't think to ask about them. Using she/her out of character with me leaves a bad taste in my mouth, and I will straight up tell you that I'm a trans man capable of role-playing either gender.)

Now that you all know, please use he/him pronouns for me.

I do have canon muses, but they're mostly from animes or games that I doubt a lot of people here are into. I also DO have OCs, but as I've mentioned; I'm scared. A lot of people know what my original characters look like, so I won't introduce my OCS to this community yet.

I've been seeing a lot of my own friends make fun of people, or meme others who are into tickling. There was a screenshot of a dude admitting he has a tickle f*tish and was willing to pay this girl for a clip of her getting tickle t*rtured, and a lot of my friends were sharing it and making fun of him. I got second-hand embarrassment and I felt bad for him. I mean, yeah, it is really weird to be messaged that straight out of the blue, but the reactions from everyone... Made me feel unsafe? I don't know. There was another video of two buff men, one strapped to a chair and having his feet tickled being shared on Facebook, and the comments were people saying "They're two grown men wtf lmao" and others commenting "vile" and "ew" or making fun of the k*nk in general.

I'm just scared of coming out to anyone about this, because of how many people talk shit about others who do like it.

I apologize if anyone feels "baited" or "cheated", ect. As I've mentioned, it's just roleplay. It isn't actually me.

Reminder that I never once told people I was a girl, they just started assuming. I never told anyone that I'm trans unless they asked me, or if they misgendered me while having a normal conversation and I corrected them.

[skiasurveys]

tell me about your crush!!!!!!! - Hes my boyfriend. I love him a lot, he’s funny, he loves gaming. He likes anime ( lmaooo), he is white but hes part turkish and german. but born in canada haha. He’s 7 years older than me (or 6.5) , we went to the same high school except he graduated WAYYYY BEFORE ME. He knows a lot of weird stuff. He loves MMOs and is on the leader boards for ESO which i find hilarious. We met on OKcupid which is a dating app. He says hes serious about me lol.

tell me about your ex-  well my most recent ex, i dated for only 3 months. we dated from Nov 2015- feb 2016. He broke up with me on Valentines day last year, which is funny tbh because he spent lots of money on me and then broke up wtih me. apparently i was too invested which makes no sense. I didn’t really connect well with him. we were more like close friends than boyfriend/girlfriend. He was slightly autisic or whatever so he didn’t really understand sarcasm sometimes which was really fucking annoying. I would make jokes and he took them way too serious or hard and would get mad at me -.-. He wasnt a bad boyfriend but he was just not my type. I said i loved him even though i didn’t. i was in love with the idea. I knew i didn’t want to spend my life with him. we never connected super great either, like we had nothing in common except the fact that we liked video games but he played shit games like (League of Legends). After we broke up, we met a week later to clear shit up i guess and it was super awkward and i was acually over him within a day so i was like this sucks and is weird. Then a month after we broke up he wanted to hang out but then he stated he wanted to have a hook up.. we never had sex when we dated either so that was weird -.-  Then he started dating other people and if i messaged him asking how he was, he would get all pissed off and said we couldnt talk any ore and i was like whatevr thats fine but then his relationships never worked out and he would break up within a week LOL and then tried to date me again. THEN when I started dating Connor ( my current bf) he got really jealous and mad, and tried to tell me to get out. Then later in my relationship like 6 months he asked if we could fuck (three some) and i was like i rather kill myself, then he would randomly text me asking if connor and i broke up, and then would claim he missed me but all he wanted was a booty call. He got super mad when he found out i fucked connor lol. anyways, i told him to fuck off and respect me and connor and he finally stopped being weird. But i recently deleted him off Facebook because I was so tired of seeing him on fb, so yeah. we dont really talk anymore. thank god.

tell me about your day It was okay. I slept til 2 Pm ( yikes..) and picked up Pills and played video games. nothing to do.

tell me about your dreams  I cant remember my dreams actually.

tell me about your drama  I have really no drama in my life.

tell me about yourself :-)  I am 20 years old, I like cats, mcdonalds fries. I am a art student in college. I am dating someone, its our one year today. I live in Canada..i like taking surveys too much

tell me about something awkward/embarrassing  I once had sex and then got my period during it and that was super awkward and embarrassing, and i was so embarrassing that i hid in the bathroom for 20 minutes and he was like “yo its okay jen” and its still awkward when i think about it.

tell me about a funny story or something  Lol, okay. this story is like 4 years old but whatever. so i was in grade 10 at the time and I went to this Youth Conference with my youth group from church. So my best friend was with me and we were at the concerts and stuff, and she had to use the washroom but she didn’t want to go alone so i went with her. So I use the stall next to hers but I come out way before she does. I am washing my hands and she comes up to me and washes her hands super quick turns to me and says we need to get the hell out of here, and before we run out this girl comes out of the stall that i was in and my friend turns to her and says “ Im so sorry i thought you were my friend” and im like what....so we leave quickly and she tells me. so basically This girl was wearing the same shoes as me and same colour pants as me, and my friend thought it was me so she grabbed the girls leg from under the stall and the girl was like “wtf???!” and so she thought that girl was me, and i honestly can’t stop laughing whenever i think of this because its just something that she would do. I never let her forget.

tell me your favourite band/artist/album/song  My fav band is Of Monsters and Men. They are from Iceland, and they sing different songs. They have a unique sound too. I love every song they produce.

tell me about your favourite meme  I can’t just pick one..

tell me about your favourite fic  I dont read fanfiction really.

tell me a secret ;)  um. when i was 18 i almost banged some 34 year old because I was stupid and actually thought he liked me LOL. Thank god i got rid of him. LOL i still laugh at my stupidity 

tell me a lame joke/bad pick-up line are you a astronaut cus your ass is out of this world.

tell me about your favourite tumblr user(s)  I don’t really have a FAV..i love all my mutuals.. 

tell me about your least favourite tumblr user(s)  I only dislike people who are super self righteous..who think they are always right.. who give out false info..especially people who use their followers for money..etc

tell me what you’re thinking about  just life.

confess your sins  I sometimes lie a lot but thats usually just to get out of shit LOL rant about stuff!!!  Not really a rant. But i super duper hate it when people leave you on “read” idk its super annoying. Like if you cant talk just say youll talk to me when youre off work/etc but i hate it when they have no excuse. Im fine if its a few minutes or whatever but when they just dont reply especially if im asking a question it just gets so fucking annoying. If i know youre busy its differen’t. But idk i just wish people would just tell me they wouldnt be texting that much a certain day or at leas jjust reply something quick. it takes 2 seconds..

let’s talk about the sex because sex ed isn’t talked about enough  dont have sex until you know you could handle a child. 

talk to me about astrology stuff!!!  I dont know anything about that stuff.  talk to me about aliens!!!  why havent the aliens taken me..yet..

[bigbadconnivingbastard]

All of them :}}}}

WHY DO YOU HURT ME IN THIS WAY

Let’s start with a tricky one; what is the real reason you are confused right now?

i dont know whether to get rid of certain people or not

Do you ever get “good morning” texts from anyone?

sometimes

If your significant other smoked pot, would you care?

eh. id disapprove but i wouldnt go off the rails

Do you find it easy to trust others?

no LOL

What were you doing at 11PM last night?

playing stardew valley on the xbox, i got an iridium bar be proud of me

You’re drunk and lost walking down the road; who is with you?

I AM 13

What would you do if you found out you had been cheated on?

i just get really pissed and cut off the person

Are you close with your dad?

yea

I bet you kissed someone last night, right?

...no

What are you listening to?

You can only drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life - what is it?

Do you like hickeys?

i wouldnt know

What time do you go to bed?

it varies

Is there someone who continuously lets you down?

yeah😔

Can you text as quickly with one hand as you do both?

no

Do you always answer your texts?

sometimes i get overwhelmed but yea i try

Do you hate the person you fell the hardest for?

iiiiiiiiii dont think so?

When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends?

todayayaya @quackbug

Is there someone that makes you happy every time you see them?

@katmeeliaz no homo💖

What was your last thought before you went to bed last night?

...I DONT KNOW??

Is anyone else in the room with you?

im on my couch rn so yea my dad's in the living room

Do you believe what goes around comes around?

depends.

Were you happier four months ago than you are now?

no, i was pretty miserable

Is there someone you wish you could fix things with?

yes, but i dont know if they would care if i tried

In the past week, have you cried?

ive come close, but no

What colour is the shirt you are wearing?

bl00

Do people ever call you by your last name?

never. HAHA

Is anyone ignoring you right now?

oh for sure </3

Do you have a best friend?

@quackbug heyyyyyyy

Would it be hard seeing someone else kiss the last person you kissed?

i cant even remember the last person i kissed so @katmeeliaz 💋 and no

Who was your last call/text message from?

bug sent me this and they were also my last call

Are you mad at anyone?

multiple

Have you ever kissed someone older than you?

yea

How old will the last person you kissed be on his/her next birthday?

rainy gon be 14 wooooooo

How many more days until your birthday?

273. LMAO

Do you have any summer plans yet?

yea im goin to hawaii bitch

Do you have any good friends of the opposite sex?

julian n russell

Are you keeping anything from your best friend(s) now?

😐

Do you have a secret that you’ve never told anyone?

i thought everyone did??

Have you ever regretted kissing someone?

yea

Do you think age matters in relationships?

depends on the mental age of both people, and whether or not its legal so i dont know

Are you available?

...i suppose? i dont know the context

How many people have you had real, strong feelings for since high school ended?

sits in middle school

If you had to get a piercing (not ears), what would you get?

im a pussy i hate that stuff so i have no idea

Do you believe exes can be friends?

yea! although it depends on the terms you left on

Do you regret anything?

many things

Honestly, what’s on your mind right now?

my dumbass read that and my mind went "DICK" so now i gotta say dick i hate it here

Did you ever lose a best friend?

mhm

Was your last kiss a mistake?

nop

Why aren’t you pursuing the person you like?

i dont have one thats why

Has the last person you kissed ever seen you cry?

heard, yes

Do you still talk with the person you LAST kissed?

yes

What was the last thing you ate?

dowitos

Did you get any compliments today?

got called creative,, so yea

Where are you going on your next vacation?

not sure, we'll see

Do you own anything from other countries?

yea i have some stuff from ireland, im in the us

Are most of your friend guys or girls?

gals

Where have you lived most of your life?

i aint ANSWERIN THAT SHIT CUZ I STILL LIVE THERE

When was the last time you took a long drive?

god knows how long ago sweats

Have you ever played Spin the Bottle?

no and i dont think i ever will bc haha that shit scary

Have you ever TPd someone’s house?

ive watched and thought it was funny

Who do you text the most?

@katmeeliaz we have like 900 messages a day

What was the last movie you saw?

ffffffffuck uh I DONT REMEMBER OOPS

What’s preventing your current boyfriend/girlfriend from going back to their ex?

my what now

How many boyfriends/girlfriends did you have in 2011?

i was deadass 3 years old

Is the last person you kissed younger than you?

cuz of our birthdays yea

Do you curse around your parents?

yeah LMAO

Are you happy with where you live?

oh yeah for sure i love it here

Picture of yourself?

i dont think ive ever seriously taken a picture of myself so have my bird

Are you a monogamous person or do you believe in open-ended relationships?

ive only been in one relationship so idk

Have you ever been dumped?

in a way

What do you most like about making out?

never kissed someone romantically irl before so shrug

Have you ever casually made out with someone who you weren’t seriously involved with?

i personally think that shit's gross i would wanna save that for someone special :(

When you kiss someone for the first time, is it usually you who initiates it or the other?

iiiiiiiiiii do not remember

What part of a person’s body do you find most attractive?

idk i guess eyes? i like eyes in multiple contexts

Who was the last person you talked to last night before you went to bed?

i believe it was bug i do not remember

Had sex with someone you knew less than an hour?

😐

Had sex with someone you didn’t know their name?

😐😐😐😐😐

What makes your heart flutter and brings a big cheesy smile to your face

im super weak to people telling me they look up to me n shit that makes my heart die

Would you get involved with someone if they had a child already?

what fuckin 13-15 year old am i gonna know who has a kid

Has someone who had a crush on you ever confessed to you?

yes and my response was hazbin hotel memes, we still talk about it cuz it was funny

Do you tell a lot of people when you have a crush?

i dont ever really have crushes like i rlly think i might be aromantic

Do you miss your last sweetie?

as a friend? yea. as a partner? nop

Last time you slow danced with someone?

in a past life i guess

Have you ever ‘dated’ someone you’ve never met?

my friends' ocs yea

How can I win your heart?

i dont know myself well enough to say

What is your astrological sign?

fis- pisces

What were you doing last night at 12 AM?

still playin that stardew valley

Do you cook?

yea!

Have you ever gotten back in touch with an old flame after a time of more than 3 months of no communication?

yeah LOL it was like 9 months of no talking and we just saw each other like ":0000 BRO IS THAT YOU"

If you’re single right now, do you wish you were in a relationship?

no, i dont need one to be happy

Do you prefer to date various people or do you pretty much fall into monogamous relationships quickly?

cant say

What physical traits do you look for in a potential interest?

nice hands,,,u gotta have nice hands so i can hold em

Name four things that you wish you had!

i cant name four, but

i want this. like pls. can i just have this on my desk or something i want it im begging

Are you a player?

no

Have you ever kissed 2 people in one day?

no?

Are you a tease?

yea :]] in a friendly way tho

Ever meet anyone you met on Tumblr?

not yet but someday i will go to ihop with @quackbug and get cupcake pancakes

Have you ever been deeply in love with someone?

yea! its a nice feeling

Anybody on Tumblr that you’d go on a date with?

@katmeeliaz platonically

Hugs or Kisses?

hugs..i havent been kissed enough to prefer em

Are you too shy to ask someone out?

i dont really ask people out anyways

The first thing you notice about the opposite sex?

for some reason manly guys dont interest me i want a small sweetie that i can cuddl so i guess that i mean why u think he exist

Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you babe?

"bae/babe" makes me want to crumple into a ball so no

If a sexy person was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was in relationship, would you go for it?

no because if they're being unfaithful to their partner i doubt they're very smart

Do you flirt a lot?

in a jokin way yea

Your last kiss?

@katmeeliaz platonically

Have you kissed more than 5 people since the start of 2012?

no

Have you kissed anyone in the past month?

mhm

If you could kiss anyone who would it be?

Do you know who you’ll kiss next?

shrug

Does someone like you currently?

maybe, i wouldnt know

Do you currently have feelings for anyone?

nah

Do you like to be in serious relationships or just flings?

shrug again

Ever made out with just a friend?

virtually yeah but it was more of a joking thing HAHAH

Are you happier single or in a relationship?

a relationship is just a nice thing to add into your life, it wont bring you happiness, your life can be just as happy without someone if you live it correctly

[survivorathena-allstars]

Episode # 12: “I Can’t Shut Up to Save My Life” ~ Dana

i am actually trembling. will is so mad at me but it's okay. this feels okay. I'm literally the biggest rat in this series LMAO fkasdjh fuck I feel so bad for Ali rn but I also am....fkadshf really kinda happy idk. I just know a lot of heat is coming my way and Cameron's idols are going to make me pay for this

Everyone is mad. Everyone is crying. Everyone feels fucked over. But um. Everyone is me merge vote and I am everyone merge vote. So. I guess we’re even.

im so sorry

Hi im drunk and im here to say that I almost cried in the club tonight because of how much i miss Will.   I just feel really alone and I think everyone hates me, especially owen, and im just trying to be friends n have fun and make it to the end of the game and also win is that too much to ask. IDk I played myself.  Also I actually just started crying now writing this yikes. I dont know what to do, I'm never in the minority because usually I just get voted out over all my allies because i'm upsetting. I don't know what to say to people, I don' trust anybody, why is kevin in the game. Does Ashvika actually like me? WHo knows. I'm just happy I wasn't totally blindsided. I knew Will might leave, I knew he was getting votes and I let it happen so I wouldnt get any which makes me a snake ass bitch. I just couldnt believe his vote out stayed so air-tight with the exception of Ashvika letting me know what happened. Idk if this means she wants to work with me, probably not, who would, she didn't respond to my pms after the vote, but i'm trying not to stress. Hopefully I can just continue to be a meme and appear non threatening but I just want some tea im getting thirsty nd also i love to strategize i crave it. Remember... I'm the village idiot? Like I will photoshop as many lizard hidden immunity idols on these people as i need to if these snakos dont vote me out thank u so much. This is the first time in my life where everyone hates me more than I hate myself and i just cannot handle IT. 

I...can't believe that worked??? I can't believe I voted in the majority??? ???????????? I'm really happy about this and I hope the Soup alliance (??? where did soup come from) can stick together even if just for one round. The biggest problem is if Cameron or someone else has an idol. Owen told me an idol had gone missing in one of the areas which means someone has already gotten it so we have to tread very carefully if we don't wanna get fucked.  

I love filming a 30 minute confessional about the game, where I get upset again over Will hating me and crying over how much I love Owen and Emily. I'm a mess sakdjhfa

You know? No matter what I do in this game, I’m going to be deemed a threat. Even if I don’t do shit. Even if I just sit and take orders. Hm. Well. Here’s to proving people right! If anyone’s upset with me, just know that they woke me up! Threat Emily is here and she’s ready to fucking win.

I love Ali. I love that he's such a good friend and that we're so able to move past things like this - I really do want to go far in this game with him. It's what we deserve. Wouldn't it be cute if Owen got 4th again too <3

this would be a better challenge if we could discuss xo but I think like....there isnt any way we shouldnt win unless someone is intentionally messy. two groups of people, four A's and five B's. no matter how it gets cut, whoeveer starts, one A and one B should end up in the final two with three As and four Bs voting, so someone from B SHOULD win, I think. It just alternates who starts each time, A, B, A, B or B, A, B, A, until yeah one from each is left. and it'll be easy to see who a snake is bc we directly see the lists. I'm more worried about Ashvika and Kevin at this point....but oh well. I also need to be on high alert of getting idoled out this round. Cameron is denying that he has two idols which like....yeah I'd way rather have Ashvika or Emily have one and be lying than Cameron have one, but at the same time I'm just gonna like assume  ksadjhf that Cameron has two :) worst case scenario :) so I like?? would think he uses both of them this round maybe unless he is worried more about himself, and also ugh idk like ashvika or kevin could flip or even emily/ali although I think the three of us can trust each other rn. idk yet.

I came in second... again. Woohoo! I love immunity challenges yes I do! :—————) ________________________________________________________________

(This was filmed like 7 hours before the immunity challenge)

The soup alliance is hopefully sticking together!!!! Unfortunately we can't get Cameron out so we're playing some 4d chess mind games tonight. The plan's to vote Ruthie, and then we tell the others...Zach or Cameron, I'm not sure I already forget. Not like they'll approach me about this but you know. My ass will scream if things flip on us because people are rats, double the screaming if it's me who gets flipped on butttt things are looking good so far, but then again I've found that it's when I'm most confident in our plans that I get blindsided. 

Welcome to my roundly long confessionals where I, Zachary rae, gives information on the past few days. Before we begin, I should put a disclaimer - this may be the last one! --- Hello fans! So where do I begin. Last vote Dana and Will called me in paranoia and, frankly, they were right! However, on that call I suggested that if the idea of them having majority (or half; 5) was accurate, we may as well just not split and pray for no idols. Dana didn't like that idea, and in hesitation, asked to split the vote 3-2 and... yeah. Bye Will. I was like crying afterwards though cause I genuinely love him and he's a great person and ugh it sucks cause I really wanted to continue working with him and i'm just so disappointed. Moving forward, I made an alliance of four [Ruthie/Zach/Dana/Cameron], entitled "Will's Puppets".  In this immunity, it's common sense by any mathematical logistics that one person from each "side" will make final two, and one of them five will win immunity. However, Cameron adjusted our views and just saved Ali and maybe it was because they didn't comprehend what a proper strategy was, or perhaps to build bonds with Ali. In the end, I voted (once again, wow) in the minority and for Emily to win immunity, but Ali came out victorious. Good job for him! Going into tribal it's kind of like... there are 5 people on one side, vs us four. Dana and I talked and it's kind of like... we needed a plan. Ideally, everyone knows that Cameron (and Ali) have an idol. They want Cameron out, I believe THAT part of their expression, but they know he isn't easily struck as he's likely playing his idol tonight. Dana and I realized a good way to escape, since it's probably better to take out one of us, is to get in the good graces of Emily and Owen. I like them both as people, I genuinely do, but in this game they are two of the biggest threats to win. What we are suggesting to Owen is that in the event we take out Ruthie this vote, and then Cameron next, it's final 7 and that's when you need to start realizing who you want to be with in the finale. Dana called with Owen for so long suggesting that if me and her are safe (we're trying to separate ourselves slightly but like saying we both think alike), then we can help him take out Emily at 7. He needs the numbers since Emily is a powerful player. I don't know if he sees value in me but hopefully he likes me cause he thinks i'm funny and I love him. I go to Emily and I say that I will make sure Cameron plays his idol as my piece of leverage to keep me safe. They vote out Ruthie, Cameron flushes his idol and goes next, and then it's FFA at final seven, and I think at that time Dana and I are safe for one vote. Do I want to go to the end with Dana though? HELL NO!! Originally I was thinking I would love to sit with Kevin and Ruthie. If Ruthie goes, then I think i'd want to go with Kevin and Ali. Maybe Ashvika but... i'm not sure. She's just so adorable and likeable but she's not playing strategically amazing like other people. Neither am I though so I can't talk. Do I think Emily's being honest with me though when she leaked that "Ruthie's the vote and she wants to clue me in"? Not at all. I would not be surprised if I leave tonight, and she better be able to justify herself when she lies. She's manipulative and a liar (IN A GOOD WAY I STAN!!) but like I don't vote bitterly, I vote who I think I connected with more and played better, and if you can't justify why i'm the good vote this round (which I truthfully disagree i'm a good vote this round), then you ain't getting my vote. I also think if I survive I can easily go final 4/5. Dana's a bigger threat than me, which is my strategy to align with physically bigger threats so i'm able to slide by like a little snake, and say Ruthie/Cameron leave next, then Dana, one of Emily/Owen and Ashvika even are the big threats. I don't see how I will go unless it's final 4/5 but who knows. I'm not being cocky but that's how I see things, and if they let Dana make it further than me, which is possible, i'll be shocked. I really will be. Also can I just say how much I adore Owen. Dana said he talked about how funny I was and he pmed me saying that i'm funny and hilarious and despite the occurrences in this game, he'd love to be friends and I agree. Though this is a message reassuring i'm probably leaving tonight, I adore him and he has my vote 100% if he makes FTC and I leave. I don't want to leave, but that's the fact. Weirdly - well not weirdly but just... I don't know. I'm troll. I'm just trying to play fun but I really don't want to leave tonight like i'll cry. I've had so much fun and i'm not ready to leave and... ugh. I really want to be here and prove myself because I don't think I have and I don't want to see myself as a flop. Not saying 10th+ is a flop, but saying that I haven't done anything or utilized my All Star spot yet, and it's just... ugh. I'm defeated. I hope I can stay to keep going further in this game but... I don't know. I hope this isn't my last confessional. I really hope I get to stay and... elaborate on my amazing gameplay. Joke, of course, but I do hope I get to stay. please!!! :(

This could be my last confessional. When I go home tonight and become the long suffering 4th juror I have waited 8 games and lots of failed strategy to become, I just want to say it’s been a fun game and I genuinely love everyone. Tribal is in 3 hrs and I just don’t know how i’m Voting. The biggest meme of all is that I implicitly trust Owen, who I feel is far and away the best player in this game. I told him I don’t think he can get to the end with goats, because they’ll all flip on him, and I think that’s true. He needs other key players as buffers towards the end. Inevitably when the Emily v. Owen power struggle for power, glory, and stardom breaks out, I’d LOVE to be a spectator still in the game. I will vote how Owen tells me tonight, and even though he has promised me i’m not going home, i’m Not sure he’s in the position to promise that. I just dunno. I had such a good talk with him last night and tbh if nothing else that was amazing jury management. He knows I can’t shut up to save my life, and he just let me talk for hours. So thank u for validating my goblin personality. Also he told me he thought I was smart which honestly... my kink thank u. I also talked to Ali for a while this morning, and he says he’s doing his best to keep me and Cameron safe, I believe it idk. Like why lie to me i’m On the bottom and everyone knows i’m an idol-less sad snake, so like no point tbh. The hardest part about playing with him is that I feel like I want him to succeede more than he wants himself to succeede. Like I can’t want it for you, and had so much to work with, I just wish he would own it. He’s like a defenseless almond and I just want him to be a bad bitch ya know? Finally, I’m trying to play with Ashvika here and use the fact that she game me info last round that I “kept quiet” as a bargaining chip to show I can be trusted. Will Ashvika end up as my target or my closest ally u be the judge. Overall I’m so prepared to get voted out i’ve all but made total peace with it. Hopefully I can push through tonight wih my sparkling personality and some wheeling and dealing. ________________________________________________________________ Owen stopped talking to me about the game which means i’m going home. I love watching my own death occur in real time. 

thanks for reminding me about the way zach pronounces mario. I know what I'm writing on the parchment tonight.

I..... have no idea what's going on tonight.

THAT WASNT MY LAST CONFESSIONAL BECAUSE.. OWEN AND EMILY ARE SNAKES! (mario)

iiiii feel really uneasy about ashvika for some reason??? idk she keeps asking if we're voting for ruthie, so she could be planning to #flip on us which would be a dumb move, or maybe she's just confused and if that's the case then me too. Owen and I kinda talked about this the night before because we know she's somewhat attached to Dana but like we ain't voting Dana so I hope that's not a problem. And I mean we both voted for Ruthie at the Duncan blindside so like??? I hope she wants to do it again?? I just think any of us flipping now especially would be bad for us and for them. I have secure trust in everyone else in this alliance so like...let's make it through please??? If anyone goes home I hope it isn't Emily because I think her vote negator can play an important role in f8, no matter who goes home tonight. Iiiii just don't want things to get fucked up tonight!!! and i haven't talked to anyone from the other side (i mean they could approach me but yknow two way street and all that) and idk if i should??? bc being too pushy and saying oh yeah we're voting cameron could be a big miss steak??? 

I can’t be the only one who sees that Owen is aligned with Cameron right?? I thought I would have been one of his closest allies after the duncan voted but he didn’t save me and later chose to save Cameron over ali even though he’s supposedly in the minority, and now he’s vying not to vote Cameron out? I understand he makes some good points but  it’s sketchy 

im going home bye ________________________________________________________________ I LITERALLY FEEL WHAT IS HAPPENING DSAKSJHF I AM GETTING FLIPPED ON BY EMILY PROBABLY EITHER THAT OR LIKE???? IM GETTING IDOLED TF OUT OF HERE AND I JUST WANNA DIE WHERE IS ALI I NEED TO TALK TO ALI I WAS SUPPOSED TO TALK TO HIM FSDHAFHJ GOD

Day by day, I get closer to voting Kevin as the sole survivor of Athena All-Stars. Congratulations, I played myself, but Kevin played me better. 

ali is rlly acting sketchy why :'( i think I'm going home ugh ________________________________________________________________ I dont think ali will idol me and I want 2 scream dfskajhkdjfhkjsdhfjkhsdkjfhkjsdhfkjds

so I won immunity and literally am confessing at tribal and am a mess

Ruthie becomes the 12th person voted out of Athena All Stars in a 5-4 vote, and the 4th member of our jury. You can see Ruthie’s preseason interview here. 

[in-paradox-space]

I scheduled a post for every day for 21 days.

I made them as a reminder for myself everything would get better, but I’m feeling better sooner than anticipated. I regret making the posts because they’re cringy but I’m sure nobody at all sees them. 

You’ll feel better too, whatever you’re going through. 

After some research I decided that’s how long it’d take for me feel alright again after a pretty heavy MDMA and other substance comedown.

I feel like the other substance might be cocaine or ketamine, i dont know. It hit me really quickly and my left arm was being controlled by my leg, when I tried to move my limbs a different part of my body would move.

It was extremely euphoric and terrifying but I just didn’t move for a while until I felt I could carefully attempt to move again.

So yeah the posts are like really emotional and dramatic but I felt fucking awful the week of the comedown.

You heard of brain zaps? They’re fucking awful.

I kept researching online in how the fuck to feel better and stop the brain zaps. Everywhere pointed to a thing called 5htp. It’s tryptophan. From my memory, I believe it’s a chemical which aids to production of serotonin. We get it naturally from food, and it helps our body to create and/or properly absorb serotonin. Something like that... it helps us feel serotonin anyway.

and the internet suggested the brain zaps were likely my brain trying to return back to it’s balance

and at that time i was really lovestruck by a girl. I feel okay knowing i likely wont ever be with her now. 

i dont mind if i see her again or not. I’d like to see her again but i think it’d just be cool to be friends. I think the chemical imbalance made me feel the need to be around someone. It’s all down to the chemicals in your mind at the end of the day. They control your perception of everything, your attitude to the world. 

well yeah, everywhere told me to buy 5htp. i knew it wouldnt arrive in time for me to use them but i ordered anyway, in case this shit happens again. they also sounded good

I tried my first one today, a 100mg pill. 

I felt kind of sick afterwards but I ate a sandwich and I was fine. 

Whether or not it’s a placebo, I felt great today.

Not a euphoric feeling, but I just feel good. 

I smile, type smiley faces and can say I’m good.

I’ve been really confident today. I arrived at college a little late, cracked jokes very naturally. Like it just happened, I just made jokes without thinking and everybody let off genuine, unstoppable laughter. 

I’m not extremely acquainted with my class. I know the names of my tutor and 5 students. We joked like we’d already spent the year together and I smiled. It was a sunny day and I got hella work done.

Work in illustrator. Photoshop is pretty simple but illustrator is just frustrating.

I did a whole art piece in illustrator and I’ve almost half-finished the annotation; I’ll have to type that up tomorrow. I wrote notes and keywords for when I type it up. 

I also have to design like 10 logos.The minimum is six, but I put a lot of planning and basically create multiple logo designs for every one logo.

So if I create six logos as meticulously as I do I should get a merit at least. I’ll have to annotate it well.

I have some work experience lined up. I don’t know where yet, we’re sort of trying the first choice, somewhere pretty prestigious but I don’t want to name it here.

Then if not, it’s some other places which will be pretty useful for my future.

but outside of college

I have some other work experience lined up 

like legit

you see an opportunity, you take it. You say yes. 

Tell yourself yes enough times every morning. 

you will say yes to others 

they say yes to you

Just bring the word into your vocabulary. 

So yeah, 5HTP. I don’t think it’s a placebo. I recommend it to anyone who even knows about this blog. Not suitable if you’re on SSRIs though, of course, because of the connections with serotonin.

I felt pretty good today.

I put out a lot of positive vibrations and recieved them. 

I shouldn’t let my guard down though. 

so yeah

someone posted an opportunity online

somebody sent it to me 

I decided I’d go for it, a lot of other people went for it

but what I had to offer was closest to what the client wanted and/or believed they wanted

and I think I got the place

they wont be disappointed.  

It was on facebook though, they was middle-aged and not exactly an internet dweller

my facebook is fucking FILLED with underground memes

very obscure and ironic to the point of not at all being understood by anyone just a little outside of it

and some accessible, wholesome shit 

but idk

if this person sees them they wont understand

im really surprised they even got to me about it

i think its because i was the only one who offered what they wanted.

My services for free. They won’t be disappointed but I’m sure they have doubts.

I won’t be surprised if they change their mind.

I don’t wanna change my whole facebook to look presentable though, the memers on that friends list were there throughout the whole shabang

the good, the bad and the ugly

they’re brothers and I’m not going to sell them out.

so i need to make a page, then eventually a website, to showcase my work and offer people my services.

tomorrow, I also need to filter through around 2000 HD photos and put the best ones into a folder

then filter those to the very best in another folder

and upload them all on imgur, in the meantime, I suppose

then create a quick Facebook page

haha fuck

creating pages is the hard part

maintaining them can be tricky

they either run themselves, or become a chore you eventually abandon 

If the thought of keeping your page up to date tires you, I recommend scheduling weeks and weeks ahead

and working your ass off for a few days every few weeks.

then u literally just have to read comments and check interactions every now and then.

hnnng

I hate having to filter through hundreds of photos, every time I go somewhere with my camera, to put them into the ‘good’ folders.

mainly because my pc is slow at loading them. 

 I wanted to get a new cpu but the one I wanted was out of stock. 

i think everything else is decent in there. i could use more, faster ram and i need to fix the codecs. 

but the hardware is fine, its just a shitty cpu i got from ebay.

also the tiny motherboard and ram came in a cheap bundle lmao

i dont want to change the motherboard though.

where am i going with this?

Yes! Tomorrow will be a big day.

Gonna take some 5htp in the morning to get through it. I wake up in 4 hours and go to the gym in 5. 

I have to finish my college annotation and spend a few hours doing logos.

Then pilfer through hundreds and hundreds of photos

choose the best ones

upload hundreds and hundreds of high res photos

smooth talk with some potential first clients

and i have to create a facebook page

aaaaa

and I have  to write all the details in there

do I have to watermark all the photos too?  

well

i just wanted to say the 5htp is good. 

im getting good opportunities

things are really starting to look good. 

i write this sentence to you with love!

I have hella work to do tomorrow

and the MDMA comedown isn’t a problem now.

[elliotthezubat]

DEATH CITY DAYS CHAPTER 6

the 6th chapter be heeeere

thanks @soul-dwelling for being a champ ^^

Kid: (nods) "Let's take a sample question, such as this one with the angles of a triangle." stocking: thats 3 angles. that one i know, since 'tri' means 'three', right? Kid: "Yes, and three sides. That's the key: the three angles and the three sides correspond with each other. The big side has opposite it a big angle, and a small side has opposite it a small angel." stocking: you mean a small angle? *she chuckled* Kid: "Well, can you blame me?" (smiles) stocking: *she chuckles* Kid: "So, returning to...'angles,' the three angles of every triangle equals exactly 180 degrees. So if you know the degrees of two angles, you can figure out the third angle's degrees." stocking: ah, i see. Kid: "So if Angle A is 70 degrees, and Angle B is 50 degrees, how much is the remaining Angle, Angle C?" stocking: hmmm... either 70 or 50? Kid: "We know that the total of all three angles will always be 180 degrees. And we know the other two angles. If we subtract 70 and 50 from 180, then we'll have the answer. So, what is 180 minus 70?" stocking: 110? Kid: "Yes! And now subtract 50 from 110..." stocking: 50 then? Kid: "Not quite." (writes out 50 then above that 110, then covers the zeroes with his hand) "What's 11 minus 5?" stocking: 11 minus 5..... 6! Kid: "Right! So, instead of 11 minus 5 being 6, we add zero to the end of each...so 11 is 110, 5 is 50, and 6 is...?" stocking: 60! *she smiles* Kid: (nods with a smile) "Excellent." stocking: yay! Kid: "Now, let's take this a next step...What do you know about the Isosceles Triangle? What makes it special?" stocking: i think i heard the name before.... Kid: "An isosceles triangle has two lengths that are the same as each other, and two angles which are the same as each other." stocking: ah...and the 3rd? Kid: "That's where the fun is!" (he's so giddy over this stuff) "The third angle and the third length will not be the same as all as the other two. But as we pointed out, will be whatever is left after subtracting the two other angles, and that third angle will tell us the length of the last side! Isn't this exciting?!" stocking: ah, i see. *she smiles a bit* Kid: "So, look at this Isosceles Triangle: because two of its angles have to be equal to each other, we have this triangle with one angle at 40 and the other two angles at 70 each. So if we know one angle of an Isosceles, we can still figure out the other two." Kid: "Here's an example: if one angle of the Isosceles Triangle is 80 degrees, and the other two angles are equal to each other, how much are those two angles of equal degree?" -elsewhere- spirit:.... *on his walkie-talkie* joooooe, how much later do we have to stay out here? Joe: "Our shift is over in an hour. I suggest you calm down, maybe enjoy a fresh cup of coffee..." (sips his, and grimaces) "Make that a _good_ cup of coffee..." spirit: well, hurry on up will ya? if ya dont hurry over, then im sending justin to find you. justin: do be patient with him, its been quite a long night. Joe: (studying the subject) "Remind me how I will know that I've found what we're looking for." justin: i believe we're looking for people who are out after the curfew... Joe: "Then I spotted at least one. On the corner of King and Grissom." justin: oh? Joe: "One person. Looks to be the height of a student. Hoodie. I can't see their face...and I'm having some difficulty getting a trace on their soul..." -in that moment, a figure runs into an allyway- Joe: "Someone else! Just went into the alley!" justin: oh? *the signal begins to static* huh? Joe: "Justin? Justin, come in!" (looks to alley) "Damn it!" (runs into the alley) -there's a figure standing at the end, completely still.- Joe: "Excuse me. It is after curfew. Come on, you're coming with me to the Academy for processing." -the figure turns around- tsumiki: ah, mr buttataki. good evening. *she smiles, content* Joe: "Tsumiki?" (lowers his guard) "I have not seen you for some time...Now, come with me back to the Academy..." tsumiki: oh? f-for what reason? Joe: "The DWMA put in a curfew, and you're out late. We have to take you to safety and hold you overnight for your safety, at least until daylight hours. You'll get a meal, some sleep in a good bed, and be up and ready for class the next day." tsumiki: since when was this curfew enacted? i've been....out of town a while. Joe: "For weeks now, after a number of serial killings." (approaches, putting out a hand...as he focuses his soul energy right to that hand...) "Come with me. I'll explain on the way." tsumiki: is that it? its quite alright. im not really scared of that. i know i'll be ok. -something seems....off....- Joe: (preparing any potential attack) "No, this is an order. Come with me, now." (moves to grab her arm) \i wouldnt do that if i were you\ Joe: "Now!" tsumiki: *her eyes are fixated at something behind him* Joe: ("Oh no...") (turns to see what is behind him) -the alley has extended for miles. pitch black darkness on either end of them.- Joe: "What the hell?" (puts hand to his ear) "Justin? Spirit? Do you copy?" walkie talkie: \you know...im rather tired of being everyone's little pushover\ tsumiki: *she just stands there, expressionless* Joe: "What?" tsumiki: you know~ while i was gone, i learned to stand up for myself. to become more assertive.... to know the world really is a kill or be killed kind of place.... i have him to thank for that. Joe: "And who would 'he' be?" (as he talks, he lowers his radio back to his pocket...and reaches for a pistol...) tsumiki: someone much like me. someone who was always alone, afraid. someone who had the whole world against him for merely being born. someone abandoned and left to rot in a dark cold space. Joe: "Tsumiki? Are you the killer? The one responsible for these deaths?" tsumiki: *she chuckles* for the most part~.... it wasnt easy thought, but i've been getting better~ *something manifests behind her* Joe: (grips his pistol behind him) "Tsumiki...Stop this. Please. You can help us if you just stop." tsumiki: but why would i do that? if i did that, all my progress would be for nothing. tsumiki: besides~.....i'm much happier like this. -a tall figure has formed behind her- ????: you say you can see the truth, and yet you deny the truth in front of you? how pitiful.... Joe: (frowns) "Guess that leaves little choice..." (presses down on Tsumiki's wrist, tugging it and forcing a Soul Menace attack into her) -tsumiki has oddly vanished, and the figure stands in front of joe- ?????: faked you out. Joe: (groans, fires three shots at the figure) -the figure isnt even phased, it just grins and removes its bandages- Joe: (looks behind him for an exit) -shink- tsumiki: oops. *she has pierced a knife through his abdomen* Joe: (shudders, coughs up blood) Joe: (struggles to grasp at her) ???: how cute, he's struggling like a little worm. *wraps bandages around him and tosses him into a wall* Joe: "Uff!" (crashes into wall, barely conscious now, collapsing on his side on the alley floor) tsumiki: *she picks up the gun and holds it to his head* our little secret, ok~? Joe: "No..." -BANG- justin: *he heard the gunshot and ran to the flower shop alley* stein, i heard gunshots in the flower shop alley, send back up, over. Stein: "On it!" tsumiki: tsk, tsk....whats wrong? a big strong man like you couldnt handle a little girl? oh well, your sacrifice wont be in vain... ????: seems we have company. tsumiki: hmm? Joe: (shuddering, eyes wide) justin: *he stands at the ally entrance, horrified* wh-wha? b-butta- ???: how ironic that you're the one to find us, justin law. justin: *he doesnt say anything* -the figure drags him in- justin: *SCREAMING* -by the time the back up arrives, both tsumiki and the figure are gone, as is joe's soul. justin is laying against the wall, cut in several places and barely breathing- justin: st-ste...in.... Stein: "Justin!" Stein: "Paramedics! Here, now!" (looks at Justin) "Stay with me, Justin. Stay with me..." justin: dont...let them....tsu..mi.... *his vision goes dark* -the next morning, patchwork labs- Stein: "Is he okay to talk?" valentine: he's alright. but for now, he should rest. marie: *she's crying* spirit:...... Stein: (groans) "The moment Justin is ready to talk, contact us." (points to Spirit, taking him aside) "What has forensics uncovered?" spirit: once again, nothing.....*slams his fist against the wall* DAMMIT! i shouldnt have let him go on his own! Stein: (removes two cigarettes, lights them) "No kidding. Why the hell did Joe run in alone?" spirit: *he takes one* thanks....and i wasnt talking about bj....i meant justin.... damn...he shouldnt have been put through whatever that was. Stein: (irritable) "I'd debate which is worse: what Justin went through...or what Joe went through..." (closed his eyes) "or what Marie is going through..." Stein: "That'll have to be tabled. You sure nothing on Justin's person can lead us in a direction? What about what that...whatever did to Joe?" spirit: *sigh* well, we'd have to ask val about the autopsy then. Stein: "Super." (puts out cigarette, removes another one) "Just super." -the next morning- speaker: attention, a mandatory school meeting is about to take place. please make your way to the auditorium for further instruction. repeat. this is a _mandatory_ meeting. thank you. Kid: ("This is not good...") (groans aloud) Patty: (humming cheerfully) tsugumi: what do you think this is? mio: probably something boring. Anya: "Oh! That'll be fascinating! To experience an actual school meeting!" Meme: "Huh. You really haven't gotten out much, Anya." Maka: "Soul, Black Star, hurry up!" stocking:....(thinking: i have a bad feeling about this) soul: yeah yeah. Black Star: "Tsubaki, where's the best seat? Up front to show I'm the best at paying attention, or all the way in the back with the cool people?" tsubaki: maybe someplace in the middle? -auditorium- tsugumi: what do you think's going on kimi? Stein: (on stage, fidgeting) kimiko: im not sure, the headmaster just told me to give the announcement. he seemed shook up... Anya: "Best give the announcement. The students look agitated." madoka: ah! i think its about to start. Jacqueline: (sits beside Kim) "What is this about?" kim: *shrug* -best give the announcement then- Stein: "May we have your attention, students? We have an important announcement." -i think everyone is listening now- Stein: "Last night, the DWMA was enforcing its nightly curfew." kirika: (thinking: which is still BS) Stein: "At least one individual was found out after this curfew. Two DWMA operatives followed this individual into an alley. When additional DWMA operatives arrived, they discovered one of our own was badly injured, and another was dead." -shocked muttering amongst the students- Kid: "What?!" Maka: "Oh no." stocking: !! soul: shit... Black Star: "Grr..." Meme: (remembering Sid, putting hand over mouth, about to cry) kirika: WELL WHO DIED? -several students agree to wanting to know- mio: sempai? are you ok? Meme: (sobbing) mio: !!! Stein: (holds up hand) "Please! We are not finished! We are sad to report that the injured is Death Scythe Justin Law, and the deceased is Joe Buttataki." tsugumi: meme-chan, its ok. its not your fault, you didnt do anything, we were there with you last night, remember? liz: !!! Anya: "Agreed! Meme, it's okay. This is not about you." Meme: (still sobbing, collapsing forward) Patty: "Liz? How could...How could this happen?" mio: ..... liz: ....... soul: ........ ginka: *silent* Maka: "This is--This is--How?!" Kid: "Professor! How could this have happ--" --A scalpel lands by Kid's head-- luna: sayaka and i are going to go see him later, you can come with us. stocking: !!! Stein: "I am not continuing until every one of you is silent." -silence- Stein: "As you know, the number of killings in the previous weeks has had the DWMA on high alert, hence the establishment of the curfew. With the loss of at least one member of the DWMA, we have to take a more forceful response. After the conclusion of this meeting, all of you will assemble in lines to return to your homerooms. There, your instructors will direct some students to return back to their homes for today and until further notice. And many of you students will be assigned tasks related to our ongoing investigation--and to ensure that the now extended curfew is enforced." (looks back to Spirit, whispers off-mic) "Anything else to add? Anything I got wrong?" spirit:....*he shakes his head* Stein: "At a time like this, we know many of you are upset. Justin has been a close adviser to many of you, and Joe has been a passionate crusader for the mission of the DWMA, an insightful investigator--and a close friend and guide to many of us, especially those of us who have sought his counsel. We will be providing numerous therapists and other counselors. If you would like to speak with any of these counselors, please speak with Auntie at the front desk." Kid: (balling his hands into fists) "Joe..." Kid: (looking down, shoulders hunched over) Maka: (gripping the armrest...crushing it) Black Star: "..." Stein: "We will be taking no questions at this time. Right now, we ask that you focus on our continuing mission, and that you keep Justin and Joe in your thoughts and souls. I think it would be appropriate to have a moment of silence for our peers." stocking+liz: *hugging kid* -silence- Patty: (patting Kid's back) Black Star: (breathing heavily) Anya: (putting a hand on Meme's shoulder) tsubaki:..... kirika: shit...now what? gopher: kirika? kirika: im fine... homura:...at least justin didnt-..... Stein: (nods) "Thank you. Please, remember that in these times of difficulty: we need soundness. A sound soul..." Maka: "...dwells in a sound mind..." homura: and a sound body. --Stein leaves the stage with Spirit, leaving it to staff to direct students to homeroom-- sayaka: so, you needed two healers to help justin? Stein: (nods) luna: my friend would like to come along as well. justin has been looking after her during her time at the school, it would mean a lot to her. Stein: (hesitant) "Okay. Let the healers go to the work, and keep your distance until he awakens." ginka:....ok... eternal feather:....*crying silently* Stein: (puts a hand on Ginka's shoulder) "I'm sure he will appreciate your presence. A soul can respond well to having company." Kana: (curls up against Eternal Feather) eternal feather: *sniffs* t-thank you...kana.... Kana: (nods) "I'm sorry." eternal feather: its ok kana, you didnt do anything wrong... Jacqueline: (looks at Kim) kim:.......what? Jacqueline: "Stein is sending *healers*..." kim: he doesnt need to know...no one else does... Jacqueline: "I'll respect your decision...and advise you that Justin is going to need all the help he can get." kim: ..... -in homeroom- Maka: "But who is being assigned to participate in this investigation?!" ibuki: *raising her hand* IBUKI VOLUNTEERS! Kid: "As so I! And my weapons." stocking: ....i'll have my dad send someone as well. homura: i'll take it upon myself to assist in any way i can. shinra: i'll help to! Tamaki: "Me too!" Arthur: "I lend my sword to this battle!" zubaidah: settle down, i know you're all worked up. but do try to remain calm. *she looks at tezca like 'help me out here will ya?* Tezca: "Hey! If you want to join this mission so badly, why not ask Lord Death?!" (beat) "Oh...crap." zubaidah: T__________________T# Kid: "Yes, I agree!" (departs) "Liz! Patty!" tsugumi: oh dear... Maka: "Wait up, Kid!" Black Star: "Come on, Tsubaki!" Tezca: "Okay! No one but those three and their weapons are leaving! The rest of you are staying here!" -later- lord death: alright, settle down everyone, one at a time. Kid: "Father, I demand to be assigned to this investigation! Whatever you need!" lord death: alright then, what all can you do? Black Star: "Beat a confession out of someone!" -after all that- kohaku: tch- this is stupid, by having students join, they're just endangering more people than they need to... what a bunch of idiots. -gallows manor- Patty: (listlessly twirling straw in soda can) "What now...?" liz: i'm not sure.......kid? how're you holding up? Kid: (shakes his head) liz:.... -kid's phone rings- Kid: (too distracted to look who is calling) "Hello?" stocking: hey kid, need me to come over? i can come via the mirror if you want... Kid: "...Yes. I'll set the mirror up. I think Liz and Patty would like your company, too..." (looks to Liz and Patty for approval) liz: *she nods* liz:....(thinking: wait, mirror?) Patty: "Stocking being here would be nice...but what about curfew?" Kid: (sweats) "Um...Sigh...I guess the secret's out...Stocking, stand by your mirror. I'll ready my end." stocking: ok. Kid: "You'll be entering the living room, okay?" stocking: alright. Kid: (approaches mirror, breathes on it, and writes the number. The mirror glows to allow Stocking entrance...) Patty: o_o stocking: *inhales and backs up, running in.* Kid: (standing before the mirror) stocking: *she makes it through the mirror, landing right on top of him* ah....oh...hey kid... *blush* Kid: o\\\\o "It's fine...Um...Can you get off of me?" Patty: (whispering to Liz) "Oh, like they aren't used to _that_ position." liz: patti oh my god. stocking: ah! sorry. *she gets up* Kid: (holds up hand as she helps him up) "It's...okay." (small laugh) "Thank you for coming." stocking: no problem. *she lays down on the couch, offering him to lay on top* Kid: "..." (lies alongside her) Patty: (whispers) "Um...privacy, maybe?" stocking:....*she gets up and hugs him* its ok kid...let out what you need to... Kid: "...I had been seeing Joe for therapy for some time..." stocking:.... *listening* Kid: "He listened to me discuss many concerns I had: about being a shinigami, about school, about anxiety, about obsessions...about feeling like I could have a normal life..." stocking:.... *still listening* Kid: "...And he's gone. He was someone who helped me and...I wasn't there." liz: kid... stocking: its ok kid, its not your fault... Patty: ):> Kid: (nods) "I cannot be everywhere at once...but it is going to take some time to accept that--that...that I wasn't there to stop whoever did this." stocking:....kid? remember when i comforted you? back at the lodge? Kid: (nods) stocking: do you remember what i told you? Kid: (nods) "Tell me again...I want to hear it." stocking: its not your fault. you're right here kid. and i'm going to be right here for you when you need it, ok? Kid: "...I'm scared. I'm scared what happens next." stocking: shhhh, its ok kid. just breathe...everything will be ok... Kid: (inhales, exhales...sobs) Patty: (clutches Liz's wrist, cries into her shoulder) liz: *hugs her* stocking:...*humming the music box melody* Kid: (still sobbing, but calming his breath) Patty: "Sis..." liz: its gonna be ok patti...i promise... Patty: (clutches Liz in a hug) liz: *hugs back* Kid: (stops sobbing, puts an arm around Stocking) stocking: *she kisses his forehead* Patty: "...When we find this killer..." (looks up, eyes hard) "...they'll pay..." liz: ...... Kid: "That makes two of us, Patty..." (looks up to Stocking) "I'm sorry. I'm just...angry." stocking: i know.... liz: but we need to be rational about this. we can just let ourselves be blinded by our emotions. Kid: "...Yes. Just need to channel those emotions towards finding this criminal...but it sounds like Father is still holding back some information...and I don't think he does so to keep it a secret. I think this is more dangerous than we anticipated." liz:..... -the next day- -where to?- [] alley way [] patchwork labs [] school Kid: "This alley...I feel something about it...Let's approach just to the edge of it, until I get a sense of what I'm feeling." -seems homura is there- Kid: "Homura?" homura: !! oh.. hello kid. are you here to assist the investigation today? Kid: "If the investigation team will have me. I just did not want to sit by and being useless." homura: *slight smile* well, im sure we'd appreciate it. Kid: (follows Homura into the alley) "Does something feel...off about this crime scene? Almost like...an energy around it?" homura: other than the sense of unease that someone died here..... *she kneels down and picks up an empty can* Kid: (shakes his head) "Maybe it's nothing..." (puts a hand along one wall) "I thought shots were fired in here. Why don't I see bullet marks? How hard are these walls?" homura: well, the bullet did get lodged through the back of his skull.....sorry... Kid: "...I thought it was _shots_ fired. And Joe always carried a gun..." homura: hmm....*she touches the wall for a moment*....damn...still nothing... Kid: "I have to imagine at least one shot came from Joe. So, where are the casings?" homura: hm.... *a few casings were found at the edge of the alley. the alley itself is only 15 feet deep* Kid: "That explains that...I doubt Joe was a bad shot, so how did the murderer survive those shots?" homura: perhaps they were quicker.... Kid: "But no bullets in the walls? Or on the ground? They wouldn't just disappear." homura: ...... Kid: "Something is odd here. I don't think we are contending with someone who is human." homura:...i was beginning to have that same thought. Kid: "Unfortunately, the list of entities that can survive bullets is too long to narrow...We will need additional evidence to determine what can do this." homura: if justin is awake, you could probably ask him. Kid: "Any update on Justin's recovery? Is he up for talking?" homura: i havent been updated as of yet. Kid: (nods) "I anticipate Stein will ask him questions when he wakes up." -where to now?- soul: ugh, im so bored! Maka: (drops another five books on the desk) "Then preoccupy yourself with these." soul: hmmm... *picks up a book* Maka: (passes notebook paper) "And take notes. I want a summary of what can beat a Death Scythe and overwhelm someone with a strong soul, especially one with strong soul perception." soul: *siiiiiigh* yes, _mom_ Maka: (glare) Black Star: (sitting atop a stack of books, thumbing through them) "Put this on the 'Maka will end up reading it' pile..." tsubaki: black*star! Black Star: "What?! I'm helping! I'm sorting books for whatever useless nonsense she wants!" tsubaki: 3....2....1.... Black Star: "Huh?" --CHOP!-- Black Star: (twitching on the floor) tsubaki: warned you. Maka: (frowns, looks at Soul) "And do you have any smart-ass comments?" soul: no ma'am... Maka: (smirks) "Good." (serious) "We have to do something, if not to bring Joe's killer to justice, then to help stop future ones." tsubaki: right. Black Star: --dead-- morerororororororo -elsewhere- marie:..... Stein: "Hey." marie:....hello... Stein: (sits beside her, keeping about one cushion seat distance between them) "Justin...has talked. But nothing coherent, or for very long." marie: *she sighs* at least its something... may i see him? Stein: (nods, stands to walk with her) justin: *sleeping* Stein: (behind Marie...tries to put a hand near her...then pulls back) marie:....poor thing... Stein: "...Yes." (looks over at the machines, tracking Justin's vitals) -seems he's in good condition- Stein: "..." ("When are you going to tell us what you saw, Justin?" justin: *he's shuffling in his sleep* Stein: "???" -after a few minutes, he wakes up screaming- Stein: "Justin!" (prepares a sedative) marie: *she hugs him, using her healing wavelength* Stein: ("That works, too...") -soon, justin finally calms down- Stein: "Justin? We are here for you, right now." justin: *panting* ha....h-hello stein.....marie..... *his voice seems slightly dry* Stein: (pours water into a cup, hands it to him) "Here." justin: *smiles weakly* thank you. *he takes a sip* Stein: "Justin, we are in the middle of an investigation. When you are ready, we need to debrief you." justin:.....*he nods* marie: how're you feeling? justin:..sore....but i'll manage.. Stein: "Okay. Do you want to take some time?" justin:....*nods* Stein: "Okay. I'll let you rest for a bit. Do you want me to bring anything? Or anyone? You have had many people who have wanted to say hi and wish you well." justin: just you two right now.... Stein: (nods) "Anything else you need? More water? Food? More sheets?" justin: some tea might help... Stein: "I'll brew it...Green tea? Chamomile?" justin: chamomile...please... Stein: (nods, pats a hand on Marie's shoulder as he leaves her and Justin alone) -later- marie: *walking with justin to the death room* are you sure about this? you still need rest though... justin: i know, but it's imperative i do this as soon as possible... --Stein is waiting in the Death Room, along with Lord Death— Maka: "Justin? Hi." justin: good evening everyone. lord death: how are you feeling? justin: better. Kid: "That's good to hear..." justin: yes, but there is something very important i need to tell you, you probably wont believe me, but what im saying is true. lord death: go on. justin: *inhales, then exhales* ......i know who's behind the murders. Maka: "..." Kid: "..." soul: what?! Stein: "Do we need to have a lockdown of the campus?" justin: yes, i saw them standing over joe's dead body when i arrived.....but here is the unbelievable part. lord death: lets hear him out first. go on justin. justin: the one behind the murders was...is a missing student.... Maka: "Who was it?" justin:.....it was mikan tsumiki..... soul:......*bursts out laughing* oh dude! you really had me going there! Kid: (eyebrow raised) Maka: (slaps the back of Soul's head) soul: oh come on, you guys cant possibly be buying this! this is tsumiki. tsu-mi-ki we're talking about! she couldn’t hurt an ant even if she wanted! justin: but im serious!! Kid: "I believe you, Justin. In light of how shocking these murders have been, and the fact that the culprit is something who has not been seen lately at the Academy, such an accusation makes sense. But how could someone like Tsumiki commit such murders?" justin: well..when i saw here, there was....someone else with her... *he seems tense* Stein: "Who?" justin:....*he inhales*.....the kishin asura. lord death: WHAT?! Stein: (tenses) Maka: "What?" Kid: "No..." soul: y-you gotta be shitting me, right? justin: i wish i was bluffing....but... i know what i saw... Kid: "Father? Can you sense the Kishin's presence?" lord death:..... i fear he has learned how to use soul protect somehow...damn! Stein: "And taking out someone with an advanced soul perception would be helpful..." (looks at Maka) Maka: (starts sweating) soul: *holds her hand* Kid: "How, then, do we proceed? Search for Tsumiki's soul wavelength? Search for her door to door?" lord death: for one thing, we update the board. then send an alert to all the other branches. Stein: "You think she's already out of Death City?" lord death: no one has seen her in a few days... considering what happened with-...*ahem* its most likely. Kid: "I agree with Father that we should alert other branches. But this is also someone who has been targeting so many here in Death City. This is not someone who is trying to avoid capture: they is someone killing many in our own home, to send some message. And I don't think they will stop with just Maka." Kid: (seizes, realizing the last six words he just said) "Um..." soul: *tenses up* spirit: *PROTECTIVLY HUGGING MAKA* nooooooo!!! Maka: -_-; "Get off of me before I crack your head open." spirit: my babyyyyy Q~Q --CRACK!-- Maka: "Great. Now I need a new copy of this book..." spirit: X~X Stein: "We will be putting certain students under increased security, then. And I think we will need to go through specific locations to confirm Tsumiki is not hiding somewhere in the city...or below it." lord death:..... Kid: "???" -later- soul:.... Maka: "You expect me to tolerate the equivalent of house arrest while some mass murderer is still out there?" spirit: dont think of it like that, think of it more as spending some quality time with your favorite papa~! Maka: "Good. Where is he?" spirit: Q-Q Kid: "Take this seriously, Maka. Until we know how on earth someone like Tsumiki could kill someone like Joe, it is irresponsible to rush into battle without a strategy." soul:........ Maka: "Then maybe someone here needs to hurry up and think of a strategy! Or are we just going to sit here and twiddle our thumbs?!" liz: that's what we're already doing. Patty: "Yeah, Little Miss Particular!" (she pinched Maka's cheek) "So just hold your horses!" Maka: "Ow!" liz: for now, we should try thinking about other things. like how about we play some gamecube? Kid: "...Not a bad idea, actually. Perhaps we should let Maka pick the game?" Maka: "How about 'I'm going to break Patty's face if she doesn't let go of my face right this minute'?!" Patty: (still tugging on her cheek) "I don't think we have that game..." soul: patti come on. Maka: (smacks Patty's hand away) Patty: "Oh! That's my favorite hand!" Kid: "Liz? Please, pick a game..." liz: *gets her some ice* soul: we got smash bros. Kid: "Very well, then. I'll play as Kirby." -later- Maka: "Smash! SMASH! SMASH!!!!" spirit: i dont know what im doing! Patty: "Dying! That's what!" (her Samus blasts Spirit off screen with a Smash Attack) tsubaki: anyone want anything to drink? Patty: "Red Bull!" soul: m-dew. Maka: "THE BLOOD OF MY ENEMIES!" (silence, blushes) "Um...Just water." liz: same. Black Star: "Liz wants to drink blood?" -WHAP- liz: water please. Black Star: (bruise on his head) "Okay! Jeez!" Kid: (inhales Liz's character) liz: !! Kid: (spits out the character, gaining their abilities) "Yay!" tsubaki: kid, what did you want to drink? Kid: "Just water!" (isn't looking at the screen...) soul: *knocks him off* owned. Kid: (gasps) "Fly! Fly little, Kirby! Fly--" Patty: "Nope!" (blasts Kirby off-screen) "Dead!" soul: rest in fucking pieces. spirit: language! Maka: (blasts Spirit again) Patty: "Burn, motherfucker, burn!" spirit: Q~Q Kid: (crying) "Kirby..." Maka: "Down to Soul, Patty, and me. Who's going to emerge victorious?" liz: *pats his back* Patty: (blasts at Soul) Kid: (grabs Liz, crying into her shoulder) soul: *blasted* ack! liz: !!! h-hey, calm down, its just a game. Kid: (still sobbing) "Kirby!" Maka: (slams down Patty) "Soul! Gang up on her!" Kid: (soaking Liz's shirt) liz: shhh, its ok, he's fine, ok? spirit: hey, whats wrong? Kid: (kept pointing at Kirby) "The symmetrical blob was defeated! And to be defeated by--by--BY A SAMUS WITH HER WEAPON ON ONLY ONE ARM!" Patty: (rolls her eyes) "Relax, he's fine. See? He's already back to worrying over symmtery!" Maka: "You should worry for yourself!" (delivers one last attack, knocking Samus off to death) Patty: (throws down controller) "Fuck!" tsubaki: *gives him his water* here you go.. Maka: "Just you and me now, Soul..." Kid: (sips) "Th-Thank you..." (then sees how wet is Liz's shirt) "Oh no..." soul: tch- yer on! liz: its ok kid, it'll dry. Maka: (swings Link's sword at Soul) soul: *gets hit* gah *tries to use falcon punch* Maka: (dodges--and delivers one bomb at Captain Falcon) soul: oh shi- *BOOM* *jawdrop* --AND THE WINNER IS...LINK!-- Maka: :D spirit: papa's so proud of you! Maka: "Thank you. And you...lasted longer than I thought you would." spirit: well, i am a death scythe for a reason. *bishonen sparkles* Patty: (looks around in confusion at the bishonen sparkles--then takes one in her hand, shrugs--and eats it) liz: h-how.. Kid: (sniffs from crying) "Don't--just...don't ask." liz:...*pats his back.* Black Star: "Tch. So you won in a video game. Big deal. In the real world, you'd go down like a sack of flour." Maka: -_- tsubaki: 3...2....1... Maka: "CHOP!" --The roof of the apartment building goes up and comes back down— ox: what was that? an earthquake? Harvar: (looks around) "Maybe?" liz: 0_0 Black Star: (pixlated due to graphic nature) Patty: (poking the pixels) liz: stop that! Maka: (checks her book) "I am going through so many books this week..." -later- Patty: (finishes scooping Black Star's remains with a broom and dustpan to reassemble him) tsubaki:..... Maka: (leans back on couch) "I am not looking forward to being locked in...Is it too late for you all? Do you have to get home before curfew? Or can you stay for a bit?" tsubaki: i think black*star and i can stay the night. liz: we have to be getting home. Black Star: (dazed) "I can feel my toes again." Kid: (nodded) "But if you need anything, call us." (looks to Soul) soul:...yeah... Maka: (nods) "Okay...Well, thanks for visiting." liz: no problem. kid's due for his nap anyway. Kid: (frowns) Patty: "Bye bye, Soul! Make sure Maka and Black Star don't do anything stupid!" soul: *nods* -at gallows manor- Kid: *yawns* "Guess I am rather tired..." liz: want some warm milk? Kid: (nods) Patty: "Me too, Sis!" liz: ok then. Kid: (lies back on couch, eyes closed) "What are we going to do..." Patty: (looking around the room) "I wonder where the staff is?" butler: good evening. Patty: "Oh, hey! How're you doin'?" butler: quite well. young master i brought you the daily crossword, and for miss patricia the child's activity page. Kid: *yawn* "Th-Thank you..." (takes the pen) Patty: "Goodie!" (takes the crayon) "You guys doin' okay, what with...everything happening in the city?" butler: we've been able to manage as best as we can. Kid: "..." Patty: (nods) "Thanks again." liz: ok, milk time. Patty: "Yeah! Activity page and milk! Thanks, Sis!" (sips on hers) Kid: *yawns* "Yes, thank you..." (taps pen on paper as he sips a little) liz: *she smiles and sits next to him* how're you holding up? Kid: (shakes his head) "Still bothered. But some things are becoming clearer." liz: hmm.... Kid: (drinks a bit more milk) "I'm too tired to even finish the crossword..." (tipping a bit to the side) liz: careful there. Kid: "...I better finish my drink and...go to...*yawn*...bed..." Patty: (finishes her drink) "Man, I still feel wide awake!" (leaps up) "I can stay up all ni--" (collapses, sleeping) -the next morning- Kid: (waking up) "No...N-No..." (sits up, breathing heavily) "Ugh...I'm covered in sweat..." liz: kid? you ok? Kid: (nods) "Bad dreams. How about you?" liz:....want to talk about it? Kid: "...Just...a lot of people I saw...scared...worried...running away from something." liz: then what? Kid: "...I saw people die." liz: kid..... Kid: "A lot of people we know...and have lost." liz:.....*listening* Kid: "...You...and Patty..." liz: !!! Kid: (puts hands over his face) "No. Not now. I can't talk about this now." liz:....you dont have to. right now, i'd suggest taking a shower and getting some breakfast... Kid: (nods) "Okay..." (gets out of bed, taking his robe with him) "I will see you downstairs in the kitchen in a moment." liz: ok. --After Kid's shower, he comes down to the kitchen-- Patty: (quietly eating, silent) liz: you ok? Patty: "Just...thinking." liz: about what? Patty: "It's been a long time since we had someone we know die..." liz:...yeah.... Patty: "...Sis? I'm scared." liz: *she sighs and hugs her* its going to be ok, i promise... Patty: (nods) "I know..." liz:....kid's starting to have night terrors again.. Patty: "...I can see that." -at school- stocking: hey kid. Kid: (small smile) "Hello. How are you?" stocking: been better... Kid: (nods) "Same." stocking: did you sleep ok? Kid: (shakes his head) "Nightmares." stocking: oh, kid... *she holds his hands* Kid: "...I'll sleep a lot better when we find this killer." stocking: yeah.... Kid: "What do you do when you feel like you can't find a solution?' stocking: well, i usually find help from others, usually my dad. Kid: "...I used to go to Joe." stocking: oh...maybe you can go to your dad? Kid: (nods) "I feel that Father...I mean, I worry he is distracted. It is hard to find time with him." stocking: ah... Kid: "I do think a conversation with him would help..." stocking: we'll go see him after class. Kid: (nods) "To class, then?" stocking: yeah. Kid: "What is our first class?" stocking: hmm, what day is it today? Kid: I believe its Wednesday. stocking: ah, *sigh* math again... Kid: (presses her hand gently) "Just keep at it. You'll be fine." stocking: yeah -after class- stocking: i think im doing better than i was. Kid: (smiles) "That's good. You'll be ready for this test soon." stocking: *groan* -lunch- Kid: (just putting his fork through the mashed potatoes...) liz: kid... Kid: "Sorry...Just thinking." liz:...*sighs* come on, you have to eat _something_ Kid: "...Yes." (puts some mashed potato in his mouth) stocking: why dont we go do something after school together? Kid: "What would you all be up for? A game? Shopping?" liz: how about karaoke? Patty: (perks up) "Yeeeeeeeeees..." Kid: "Um, sure." stocking: that sounds great~! Kid: "Let's meet after class, then?" stocking: sounds good. Kid: (takes more bites of food, eating a little more quickly) -after school, at the karaoke parlor- Patty: "Who's going first?" stocking: i'll go up first. *she chooses a cute pop song* Kid: (leans back in his seat, listening...) liz: she's pretty good. Kid: (sighs, smiles at Stocking) "She's great..." Patty: (humming along) -soon, she finishes- liz: not bad. Kid: (clapping enthusiastically) "You have a great voice! Divine!" stocking: aw, thanks. *she smiles* Patty: "Me next!" (takes the microphone) Kid: (pats a spot next to him for Stocking to sit) stocking: *she sits next to him* Patty: "And now, for some light, happy music!" [it was Barbie girl] liz: *claps* Kid: (claps, a little unnerved by that much pop...) Patty: (dramatic flip of hands and bow) "Thank you, Death City! Good night!" (tosses mic to Liz) liz: well, ok then. *ahem* *she sings good girl by carrie underwood* Kid: "...Wow." Patty: (smiling widely) stocking: neat. Kid: "She is rather good." stocking: she sure is. Kid: "..." (puts a hand along Stocking's) "Thanks for bringing me here." stocking: of course kid. Patty: "Woot! Go, Sis! Yay!" liz: *sigh* ok, your turn kid. Patty: (to Liz) "You need to encore after Kid!" Kid: "Um...what should I sing?" Kid: (flipping through...) "Hmm...Well, I don't like the 'samurai' part, but it is catchy..." (sings "Dancing Samurai"--with all the dance moves, too) liz: oh my gosh. Patty: o_O "This dancing and singing will be burned into my brain for all eternity." stocking: *she's checkin out the booty* uehuehue~ Patty: (notices Stocking, tilts her head) "Huh. Yeah, that is a good view..." liz: oh my god! Patty: "Come on--Kid has a fine-ass booty, Sis." liz: shhhh! Patty: "Pst, Stocking? Did that sound like a denial to you?" stocking: come on, let up you two. i was just having a bit of fun. Kid: (concludes his song, in a pose--then realizes what he's doing and blushes) "Um...H-How was I?" stocking: ....!!! oh! great! encore! *sweats* Patty: "...Booty-ful!" liz: OH MY GOD! Kid: "...Liz? You didn't like my performance?" liz: i was trying to listen, but stocking and patti distracted me by talking about your butt. stocking: L-LIZ!! *blushes* Kid: o\\\\o Patty: "...You have a butt as gorgeous as your singing, Kid! Encore! Woot!" stocking: ## *sigh* kid, can i talk to you, liz you go on up. -outside- stocking: *sigh* im really sorry about that kid, i got a glimpse and my perverted mind distracted me, then patti had to join in. i'm really sorry for doing that to you. Kid: o\\\\o "No, no problem...I mean, you find me attractive, and I don't consider that perverted--I mean, it's normal for people to find each other attractive. It's not like I don't think about your backside from time to time...and your legs...and arms...and--" (slaps his hand over his mouth) stocking:....................................................*NOSEBLEED* geh-....*cough cough* im good.... Kid: (holds up tissue) "Um...Stocking? I know you find me physically attractive...and you know I find you physically attractive too, yes?" stocking: y-yeah. Mutual physical attraction is one of the key things to make a relationship work, as is mutual understand and respect as well as mutual friendship and family-like bond. Kid: (smiles) "Well, we have mutual physical attraction, and I don't think that is going away any time soon...so I will focus on mutual understanding, mutual respect, and mutual familial bonds. Okay?" stocking: *she smiles* come on, i think liz is finishing up. Kid: "Okay." --Enters with Stocking-- liz: *phew* well, how did it go? stocking: it's all good. *she smiles* Kid: (smiles as well, resting a hand on Stocking's) "Yes." liz: ok, you wanna go now kid? Kid: (nods) "Yes..." Kid: (wiggles the mic) "Perhaps a duet, Stocking?" stocking: *blush* sure. --Kid and Stocking begin singing-- Patty: (puts her chin in her hands, her elbows on her knees, and sighs, content) liz: *no comment* Kid: (continues singing, looking at Stocking with a bright smile) -later- Patty: (applause) "Great singing, everyone." stocking: *she hugs kid and kisses him on both cheeks* Kid: (blushing) "You were excellent, Stocking." stocking: you werent so bad yourself~ Patty: "Any more singing?" (drinks her glass of juice) "Or is that enough singing for today?" liz: its gonna get dark soon, so... stocking: hey kid, could you spend the night, if its no trouble? Kid: "I would like that..." (looks back to Liz and Patty) "Would you mind if I stayed with Stocking tonight?) liz:...well, just be careful, ok? Patty: "Yeah. If you see someone who's giving you or Stocking trouble, bop 'em in the nose!" Kid: (small laugh) "Of course. You two be safe, as well. Text me when you get home." liz: of course.

-and so, later on- stocking: *laying on top of kid, panting* ahh...that felt good... Kid: "So does this, right now..." (kisses her neck once more) stocking: aah~ h-hey now... *she chuckles* Kid: "You like it--you know it..." (licks a little on her neck) stocking: oh, so you want a round two, eh? Kid: "I think so...Are you?" stocking: yeah. Kid: "Then let me warm you up...Where do you want my hands?" stocking: anywhere you need them... Kid: (puts a hand along her neck, as he kisses along her neck and above her breasts, his other hand along her lower back) stocking: ahhhh~ Kid: "Sing for me, Angel..." (he slides his hand down along her backside, massaging her right cheek) stocking: aaaaaah~! <3 Kid: "You have such a beautiful ass...You like my hand there?" stocking: yes~ Kid: "You want my fingers digging into your ass?" stocking: *she nods* Kid: (puts both hands on her cheeks, as her hot core rubs against him--and he digs his nails into her cheeks) stocking: *she moans as she rubs against him, still riding him* Kid: (continues to alternate massaging and digging into her backside, staring as her breasts sway) "You beautiful angel...God, Stocking, your breasts..." stocking: w-wait, you should put a fresh condom on first.. Kid: (nods, turns his head to take a new wrapped condom from the nightstand's box) "Help me?" stocking: *she helps him remove the old one and slip on the new one* Kid: (moans with pleasure) "Your fingers are so good..." stocking: yeah...ready? Kid: "...To enter you?" stocking: yeah... Kid: (smirks) "Not more foreplay..." (he brings his tongue to the tip of her nipple, licking lightly) stocking: ah~ unless you want to~ Kid: "I still need to harden a bit more..." (he guides her hand to his penis) "...and maybe you need a bit more..." (kisses along her breast to her armpit) stocking: ah~ *she strokes him slowly* Kid: (licks slowly along her armpit, letting his tongue's texture be felt there) stocking: k-kid~! that tickles~! Kid: "Maybe I think your laugh is enchanting..." (licks again, repeatedly and quickly) stocking: kyahaha~! Kid: (smirks) "I love that laugh...Tell me, where else are you ticklish?" stocking: why dont you try finding out~ Kid: "You tease..." (He seized her shoulders, flipping her onto her back) stocking: ah! *she blushes* Kid: (kisses her lips as his hand slides along her stomach, one finger stroking along her navel) stocking: mmn~ Kid: (his lips move off her lips to her left cheek. His fingers now brush along her abdomen, seeing whether she is ticklish there) stocking: *her hips raise slightly* aah~ Kid: (smirks) "So maybe there?" stocking: l-lower~ Kid: "Not yet...I want to hear you beg..." stocking: kid, please~ i want it~ Kid: (his fingers move slowly, agonizingly slow, from her navel downward...) "You feel so warm..." stocking: *she breaths heavily, sighing a bit* Kid: (slides one fingertip along her lips) "Do you know what I want?" stocking: w-what do you want~? Kid: "You..." (spreads her lower lips) "...against that wall..." stocking: o-ok... *she gets up and presses herself against the wall, slowly shaking her rear.* Kid: "Stocking...is this okay? Please, say no if you don't want to do this." stocking: its ok, i dont mind kid. *she smiles* if its you, then i'll be alright. Kid: (wraps his arms around her chest, burying his head against her back) "If it's you, then I am alright...I love you, Stocking." stocking: *she smiles and kisses his hand gently* Kid: (leads his hand down to her core, pressing his finger along her clitoris) "I am going to make you laugh, and howl, and scream, until you are shouting only my name, you hot, beautiful angel..." stocking: ahhhh~ *she shivers, blushing* Kid: "You feel so hot inside...Tell me..." (He eases his finger into her slowly) "What were thinking when you saw my butt? What did you want to do to me?") stocking: nngh~ i-i wanted to...*blush* s-smack that booty... Kid: "How hard?" stocking: enough to leave a mark... Kid: (He slides out his finger) "You'd have to do it symmetrically..." stocking: of course. Kid: (has slid the finger out of her) "You are burning up, Angel...How hard would you spank me?" (Light smack on her backside) "This hard?" stocking: ah~ Kid: "Maybe harder?" (Spanks her harder) stocking: ooh~! Kid: "Still no mark left on that gorgeous ass...Maybe you are just too perfect not to bruise..." (pulls back, spanking her even harder) stocking: AHHH~! Kid: "Did that hurt?" stocking: f-felt good~ Kid: "Good." (One last smack--that finally leaves a mark) stocking: ahh~!!<3 Kid: (rubs his hand along the mark) "Should I kiss it?" stocking: if you want to~ Kid: (gets on his knees, lightly kisses repeatedly along the bruise) stocking: ahhh~ Kid: (continues kissing...until he makes one long extended lick along her cheek) stocking: di-did you want to take me from behind? Kid: (smiles) "Yes.. I just wanted...a taste first..." (kneels lower and licks along her slit) stocking: ahhhAHHHHH~! Kid: "Should I have another taste? Or should I shove my hard cock into you?" stocking: if you want~ Kid: (kisses along her slit...While a finger moves at the top of the crack of her backside) stocking: ahh-ahhhhh~! Kid: (stands up...and spreads her cheeks a bit) "You do have an incredible booty yourself...When this is over, you can spank me as long as you want..." stocking: *she mewls lightly* Kid: (relaxes her cheeks, holds her hips and kisses along her back) "Ready to feel me in you?" stocking: ahhhh~ y-yes~ Kid: (gulps) "G-good..." (lets his fingers spread her lips, as he guides the top of his erect penis along her, rubbing her first) stocking: oohhh~ kiiiid~ Kid: "Say my name again..." (He slides the tip into her slowly) "I couldn't hear you..." stocking: kiiiiiid~! Kid: "Louder!" (He thrusts hard into her) stocking: KIIIID~!! Kid: (thrusts a bit more gently) "Good..." (slides a hand to her left breast, massaging her nipple) stocking: *she moans softly* Kid: (thrusts with a steady rhythm, as he starts to pinch her nipple) stocking: oooooh~ k-kiiiid~! Kid: "How did you get such perfect breasts? Those nipples..." stocking: nnngh~ *panting* k-kiiid you're so good at this~! Kid: "Because it's you...you still feel so hot, Love..." stocking: mmm~ Kid: (keeps thrusting, his hands moving up to both breasts, massaging them) stocking: oh god kid~ yes~ just like that~! Kid: "Heaven is being with you, my mouth pleasuring your nipples, you beautiful Angel .." (pinches her nipples) stocking: *she blushes and shivers, moaning to his touch* Kid: "Do you like your nipples being pinched?" stocking: yes~ Kid: "After you spank me, may I suck on your breasts?" (He slides his hands down to her hips) stocking: y-yes of course~ -jumpcut to after all this lewdness- Kid: (smiles) "Thank you...you exquisite beauty..." (digs his nails into her hips) "I'm going to make you cum so hard you won't be able to stand..." stocking: y-yes~