#I think that that's why I love ISTTVG

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i wanna write horror or stories with almost horror like themes or scifi themes about being trans not particularly because being trans is something horrible and terrifying but bc there's something to me about the ideas of stuff like being trapped within ones self, about experimenting and making things beyond human comprehension, about tearing apart a human, about sometimes tearing apart something that others have deemed 'beautiful' (even if you have not), about looking into a void, about coming out of something changed to your very core that resonates with me on a deep level as a trans person and to me reflects on my own thoughts and experiences whilst I was figuring out my identity

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Tell me ur thoughts about isttvg!!!!!!! Have you watched it????

YES YES YES I HAVE WWTCHED IT!!! its so good also i wanna start out by saying that 1) this is going to be a long rant apologizing in advance and 2) it’s been a long time since i watched it so idk how well this will be

putting a cut so not everyone has to read this all cuz it’s a lot😭

OKAY SOOO

umm one of my favorite things i find so inch resting is how Owen repeatedly breaks the fourth wall and talks to the audience like he doesn't believe the tv show was anything more than a tv show...but he knows he's in a movie? idk it’s either a plot hole or maybe like a writing choice that i don’t get??? idk man

ALSO ALSO ALSO as a film nerd the use of colors to communicate how Owen feels is SOO AUDJAOSOKE the one i noticed the most was blue, like theres lots of Blue on the screen when he's at the fair with his mom, on the walls at his work, and i some other scenes too but i’m not sure which ones because. yeah

also this isn’t really anything but in the first act, Owen tells Maddie on the bench that hes afraid of opening his insides and i think it was pulling them out with a shovel(?) only to find nothing.. and then at the very end is him opening his insides and getting that beautiful vision and i guess like. self-actualization kinda ffeeling. you know like. like feeling like whatever you want to do with your life is nothing and being afraid that youre truly hollow and all along you were delusional about your dreams which is why you should never commit (this is just a thought i always have whenever i think about this movie. it’s not really anything but like idc)

also i think she says something like, "don’t apologize" and that stuck with me regarding the ending. he keeps saying sorry just over and over and over again to these people who don't even see him or they just ignore him. to me that was like while he did have a moment of clarity, he did what he had always been doing. the whole thing like if you don't think about it isn't real? if that makes sense? he took like. a figurative step back and apologized, even though he had nothing to apologize for that was really sad tome

when the movie ends he says something like “i’m dying” or whatever and i feel like that’s a metaphor of what happens when you suppress who yo are for so long? idk

OMG AND "i found my heart, oh my god Isabel i found yours too. it was still beating. stored in an industrial freezer." GOOSEBUMPS GOOSEBUMPS GOOSEBUMPS! NEVER FORGETTING THAT LINE EVERRR

anyway that’s all i can coherently get out rn, this movie is. it’s just such a violent wake up call to be yourself and i love it so so so muchhh >.<

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your killjoy designs??

WHY I'M SO GLAD YOU ASKED

these are from around summer 2023. i think there are minor things i would change now, primarily making jet more explicitly lesbian, but i stand by them. this is why ray has the poncho in the isttvg rayrard art btw!!!!

why do they appear to have powers you ask? because they do. in my version of the story the killjoys get powers ranging from cool to inconvenient from the radioactive desert (dried up gulf of mexico).

jet has what i'm calling banjo music-kinesis, some songs she plays can heal, some hurt, some can break down doors. he can control people with some songs but doesn't do that for moral reasons and party jokingly calls her boring for it, but she also calls kobra boring for not setting himself on fire to light her cigarettes when she has a lighter so she tries not to take it to heart. jet mainly uses their powers for mundane things like clearing dust storm debris off the trans-am and playing songs that put the others to sleep when night terrors get to them.

party sees ghosts, talks to ghosts, loses games of uno to ghosts. they're always floating around her. most of the time they're a welcome presence but sometimes spirits find her that have heard she's a bridge between the worlds and send her on missions to get messages to their loved ones, and don't leave her alone until she does. sometimes she feels like a hostage to her own powers. she'll disappear for days on end, compelled by a spirit who won't let her sleep, and come back half dead herself from exhaustion. sometimes a few of her familiar spirits will appear at the diner without her and the others will pile in the car to find her, knowing she's passed out somewhere and needs help. her relationship with death is complicated, needless to say.

kobra can set himself on fire and control it. he can't create fire out of nothing, but he can get a good one going on his hand and chuck it at dracs and exterminators. the exception is that sometimes if he runs or waves his hands through the air fast enough he can get a small flame going. he by far has the most dangerous powers of the group despite being an otherwise gentle soul. a healthy body temp for him floats around 115° f. he never sleeps alone because of this, he's always holding someone (usually ghoul. actually almost always ghoul.)

ghoul is a strange case. he's two people sewn together via unethical BL/ind experiments with no memory of the person or people he was before he woke up in a body bag in the desert, and the radiation impacts his two halves differently. when he's focusing, the sand where he's standing blooms into the swamp and estuary greenery that used to grow there before the gulf and mississippi river delta dried up. he can't control this at all with the upper half of his body. the upper half, however, communes with bugs of all sorts. literally go my scarab. he knows somewhere out there in the desert there's somebody who has his leg's face and his face's legs, someone who woke up in a body bag just like he did, but he has no idea how to find them. he wonders if they're looking for him too. he wonders if who he's looking for never came to be in the first place and the other halves were thrown out with the other medical waste. he hopes not.

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i feel the need to warn you guys 90 percent of these are just random thoughts and words i think of (also all references are said in the post): bug mothman the hat man fresco nightcrawlers excuse you sobbinf miku does not talk to british people beetles weevil papillion chanterelle lmanburg (DSMP) las nevadas (DSMP) HOTTOGO (Chappel Roan) why do you only call me when your high? (arctic monkeys) pesky bee (DHMIS) beans peachy wings blue do you like stars nightmare eyes (NITW) gregg rulz ok (NITW) far out loch nessie bigfoot doesnt believe in you the grays beam up joe dirt sand heroine antivillian swag greg grapes two trucks (Lemon Demon) the ultimate showdown of ultimate destiny (Lemon Demon) gaslight gatekeep girlboss theres still time (ISTTVG) isttvg bibble i’d do it for her (SU) my diamond (SU) cat steven (SU) pew pew nyoom bang crash probably over stimulated unusual ‘are you okay, i guess thats all i’d care to know’ & ’getting there’ the blade zephyus leto aeolus sisyphus zeus icarus theseus daedalus club penguin webkinz femininomenon (Chappel Roan) chromokopia (Tyler the creator) creeper aw man honk circus clown jester poet magician half alive dhmis big man (Splatoon) pearl (Splatoon) deep cut (Splatoon) marie (Splatoon) callie (Splatoon) frye (Splatoon) squid sisters (Splatoon) stay fresh (Splatoon) nuke warning hazard boom turn back time (Derivacat dsmp song) pretty odd i eat with my eyes (supposed to be a welcome home ref) jack stauber noises rat raccoon wuhluhwuh fruity shut up lasagna cavetown was that the bite of 87 (markiplier) whats your favorite idea (DHMIS) x3 xD amnesia was her name (Lemon Demon) crumb go feral orbs froggy chair wooper out of this world sorry apologies my condolences idc idk yippee square Circle Triangle Blows up Worms Life and death and love and birth (SU) Please I'm a star bread you clod (SU) i cant remember anymore freelancers deserve to die (DHMIS) get therapy blade axe the one ring to rule them all (LOTR) writing like im running out of time (hamilton) kekw pepegiggles lets go in the garden (SU) drift away (SU) kinoko kingdom (DSMP) The kingdom of fools (TRSMP) frogger pacman bleach bleach my eyes drink water eat food el diablo gato orange apple pear dragonfruit starfruit hug all your friends (Cavetown) burning pile (Mother Mother) ditto (Pokemon) just killed a woman, feeling good (Tommyinnit quote) 'who am i without you?' & 'yourself' (DSMP) Mellohi (Minecraft) Cat (Minecraft) Pigstep (Minecraft) Precipice (Minecraft) Creator (Minecraft) Mannequin My grandma got fleas and she died (Quackity quote) Road work ahead & i sure hope it does Locked in ill have what she's having These are not living conditions Oh brother, this guy stinks (Sponge Bob) Kinda spacy Will wood Tally hall Bill nye the science guy Screw MAGAs Whats happening? (Literally just your tumblr user so for me) Fernito Queer Rage Screw Trump Screw Elon (chat i cant say fuck on my bracelets :']) Nope not today Spooky Spook Spooky month Boo I like green (you can replace that with your fav color) Gnarpy (Regretevator) Spud (Regretevator) Bive (Regretevator) Oh my glob (Adventure time) Washing Machine Heart (Mitski) I yap about my OCs alot I heart my OCS {OCs name} Anxious af Uranium Volatile Inky Cap mushroom Minding my own Buisness I want to leaveeee I never left the (insert fandom) fandom IM BACK IN THE BUILDING Crimes dirty crime child Goblin Gremlin Spiderweb None of this will matter in a hour (sparkbird) Pipopi (hatsune miku) Thrive out of spite Your the most (welcome home) Take responsibility (Mouthwashing) Screw jimmy (Mouthwashing)

(note i will update this later probably with a bunch more and there'll be more references)

I should post my list of kandi ideas, for all my fellow enjoyers of smacking random words on a bracelet and calling it a day

most of it's references tho