#I think I had more on my mind but I’m sleepy and I forgor so I’m eep

[kitcatttt]

Last post before I (hopefully) go to bed because this thoughts is keeping me up. I’ve been thinking about how many friends I’ve lost over the years because of my parents taking sites away from me. And that if I didn’t get fed up and learn how to sneak onto shit, tumblr and discord friends would’ve ended up in a similar situation.

And yet. I struggle to consistently talk to my friends on here. So much so to the point where I’m scared to call some of them friends because of how little I talk to them. But there are the ones I know I can call friends and it’s mutual. Even with them, I struggle to maintain a relationship with common conversations. I feel terrible because it feels like I’m casting them aside, even though I care so much about them.

What I’m trying to say is, I think about my friends a lot. Maybe we don’t talk a lot. Maybe we used to, but it fizzled out a bit. But you guys never leave my mind. I care about all of you a lot. I wish I was better at showing that consistently.