#I sure be drawing a lot of smokers as someone who fucking hates smoke

[martyryo]

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The smoke's the ghost that keeps you close (Javier Peña x Reader)

Warnings: Angst, emotions, mentions of smoking, reader is a smoker, a couple swears, mention of blood, sad!Javi, i don’t know it’s just sad.

Pairing: Javier Peña x Reader

Word Count: 2,043

Request: Prompt - A desperate yearning to run away, to leave everything behind. Requested by @javierpenaspinkshirt​  a long, long time ago. 

A/N: Reminder I am not good at following prompts. Should probably point out that I have no idea when this is set within the Narcos timeline so please don’t think about that. Beautiful moodboard below by the ever talented @huliabitch​.

It’s one of those cold Colombian nights, a chill in the air coming earlier than usual. The park is quiet at this time of night, especially with the cooler weather, so it’s easy to spot him sitting on the bench alone awaiting your arrival.

In silence, you sit besides him and he offers you the cigarette that had been pursed between his lips. You accept and take a long drag from it, inhaling deep and blowing out a puff of smoke that surrounds you for a moment. It’s difficult not to get in to the habit, working with the people you do. With him especially.

“I wasn’t sure you were going to show tonight” he mutters, taking the cigarette back. How many of those had you watched him smoke, rapt with his every movement? Even before the two of you had started this, you had always found some odd solace in this constant. He had told you once he thought about quitting, but how could he exist without the comforting smell of tobacco following everywhere he went? The familiar scent made it easier to feel like you were with him, when you couldn’t be, that’s probably why you hadn’t quit.

“I needed the walk” you tell him simply, pulling your coat tighter around you as a cool breeze passes through the trees surrounding you. He scoots closer silently, his body heat warming you slightly when you lean against him.

Of course you would come, you always did when he asked you to. And here too? On the bench in the park where you had first properly gotten to know each other. When you were new and couldn’t stand to be cooped up in the embassy all day long, taking lunches out here in the warmth. Your DEA colleague Javier would often be out too, somehow still dark and stormy even in the sunshine, cigarette perpetually hanging from his mouth. You offered him a seat, half a sandwich, and then a willing ear for his frustrated rants. And after a couple weeks you’d offered him much, much more.

Now the sun slowly sets above you, the sky growing darker gradually. It adds to the sombre mood, the unspoken sorrow in your heart and the unease in Javier’s. The week had been a shit-show on all accounts, one you knew he was still on edge from. Blood ran on the streets and it felt like no one could put a stop to it, hard as they tried

“Fuck this week” he sighs, “Are you alright?”

You nod, maybe something of a lie but he doesn’t need to know it.

“Hey, I’m sorry about earlier. The guys in the office...they’re dicks, so am I. I should’ve told them to shut up. You shouldn’t have had to listen to that crap” He mutters, reminding you of the earlier conversation between Javier and some of the other men in the team, them patting him on the back for his sexual conquests. He was, after all, something of a legend in that respect within the agency. 

“It’s fine Javi, I’ve worked here long enough to be used to it. Besides we made an agreement, right? Clean and simple. No strings, I won’t get offended if you talk about fucking someone else” you squeeze his knee lightly, quietly adding “As long as they don’t know about me”.

He shakes his head, no one knows about you and him. You’ve been his best kept secret, he had made a promise to you. You watch as he drags on the cigarette again, orange embers lighting up his face as the colour fades from the sky above. He’s looking away, exhaling away from you for courtesy sake. With the slightest movement he covers your hand on his knee with his own, warm and rough skin filling you with a familiar comfort.

“You know that’s not what this is any more”

He’s right, of course. You had agreed to keep things simple, but the emotional attachment that had formed over the last year was getting impossible to ignore no matter how hard you tried. You’ve known this for months now; what he means to you, the way he makes you feel. The love, unspoken so far but true all the same.

“I know” you agree in earnest, feeling the mood shift. You watch him drop the cigarette and stub it out with his shoe. 

“Are you alright?” you repeat his question.

He just turns to you, brings up a hand to gently cup your cheek and gives you a smile that never reaches his eyes. He looks so worn, now you see his face fully, so tired and forlorn and it makes you want to cry. He leans in, offering you a surprisingly chaste kiss. When he pulls away you wrap your arms around him.

The wracked sigh that leaves him when you hold him tight could break your heart entirely. He’s given you a lot of himself, but this pain, this emotion that comes off him in waves now is something you think he’s been keeping to himself for far too long. He mumbles something against you, sounds like an apology but you can’t make it out, his hands holding on to you so tight it’s like he needs to make sure you’re really there. This is why he needed you here, not to say sorry for an overheard conversation you had already forgotten about. He needed to let out the pain.

And you feel it, every ounce of his suffering as he lets it go. The way it affects you, the sadness you feel washing over you at his anguish, that’s how you know. You love him. It makes you realise just how much you want to see him happy, make him happy. You love him and it hurts you to admit that now, because if you don’t it makes things so much easier - makes leaving him so much easier.

But you break and know that you can’t do that now. You love him, and rash as it may be, you have to tell him. 

“Javi, I need to tell you something” you whisper, pulling away from him to look him in the eye. There’s a glisten in his eyes, and your heart lurches painfully at the knowledge that he’s holding back tears. You feel the sear of anger within you at Escobar, the cartels, the DEA, and everyone else who made him feel this way. Your grasp his hands with yours and begin to finally tell him.

“I...I got offered a post in New York. A while back.” you tell him, breaking eye contact, “I accepted it”. Keeping this secret has been difficult with him, it’s become so easy to tell him everything, but you were in too deep now to just slip away without giving him a reason.

“They’re transferring you? Why?” he asks, confused for a moment.

“No. Well, yes, but only because I asked to be transferred” you admit, a shaky breath leaving you before you continue. “Javi, I can’t be here. I’m not strong enough. I can’t do it; Watching everyone around me die, watching on as innocent people die on the streets, never knowing if it’s going to be over. Watching you slowly kill yourself over this job” the last part is barely said, a whisper in to the cold night air.

He barely reacts, the single flicker of confusion crosses his features and then he’s drawing away. 

“I love you, Javi. I love you and I want you to survive. More than survive, I want you to live. For something other than this” you sweep your hand in the direction of the embassy and turn back to him, steady your quickening heartbeat before continuing “Come with me? I’m leaving in two weeks, I know it’s sudden but... Come with me, please. I want to be with you, but I don’t want us to be here any more. I love you.”

You know what this job means to him, the mission he’s put himself on to stop the violence and suffering in this country and beyond. You know in reality that this is more important to him than his own wellbeing. And you just want to scream at him to be selfish, for once. You ache with how much you want to leave, and even more with how much you want him to leave with you. It’s what you need more than anything. You want him to need it too.

He’s silent, for a longer time than you expect. He stares away, looking towards the city of Bogota, towards the embassy and everything past it. Grinding his jaw slightly as he seems to contemplate your words. He’s going to say no, you think, he hates me for giving up. You start to feel the tears prick in your eyes, they start to fall because you’ve never offered your heart to anyone before but you meant every single word.

And then he turns back towards you, pulls you to him and kisses you softly. You gasp when he pulls back, when he tells you “Yes” and then kisses you once more.

“Yes” he says, and it’s the most hopeful sound you’ve ever heard.

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In the days that pass, you feel light in a way you haven’t in a long time. Although you barely get a chance to see Javier, passing him in hallways where your hands touch for a moment and then he’s gone for hours at a time. He’s busy as usual, but the way he looks at you now is different and it’s enough to keep you going.

You start to pack away your life, ready to begin it again in New York. You wonder if Javier is doing the same, but when you sneak upstairs to see him there’s no answer – another late night at work. You need to talk to him properly, make arrangements and discuss the details you didn’t get around to on the night he said yes.

It’s a shock then, when you come in to the office 10 days before you’re due to leave, and hear about the upcoming op in Medellin – due to take place the week that you leave, and lead by him. In the conference room he doesn’t look at you, and your stomach drops as you come to a realisation.

He’s not coming with you.

“Javier” you rush after him when you leave the conference room, trying not to draw attention. A hand on his arm to stop him, he let’s you pull him towards the empty kitchen. For a long minute you  are both quiet, the buzz of the office outside the only sound. You don’t know what to say. He doesn’t want to say what he needs to.

“You’re not coming to New York are you?” you blurt out the question, the hurt in your voice making him wince.

He takes a long breath, then shakes his head, “I’m sorry. I’m so sorry”.

“But you said yes” it’s almost a whimper, pathetic and miserable, and he stands there awkwardly before taking your hand in his.

“I know. I know. I just- I can’t leave. I don’t blame you for wanting to, for getting out, but I can’t leave – not now.”

Part of you isn’t surprised, of course. Part of you can’t even imagine him away from here, doing anything other than this. But the rest of your suffers, a clutching pain inside of you that makes you feel nauseous and weak. You don’t even think about where you are, who might see, when he brings his arms around you and pulls you to his chest, holding you gently. His apology once again repeated against your skin.

“I love you, you know” he whispers, the unspoken words hang in the air between you – I love you but I can’t be with you

Maybe he’ll change his mind, maybe when you’re gone he’ll realise he wants to get out too. There are so many maybes. But the reality is that Javier knows how to live with regret, he’s been doing it for years. So maybe you’ll have to learn to forget him, however long that takes. 

Maybe one day you’ll be able to quit.

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[surveys-at-your-service]

Survey #302

“heaven ain’t close in a place like this”

What color are your eyes? Grayish blue. What's your favorite type of milk? If we're talking the basics, ig 1% is fine. What would you change about your appearance if you could? Oh, hunny, you got time for an essay? What would you change about your bedroom if you could? I need to fucking finish decorating it... It's not finished by no fault but my own laziness. Are you rich or poor? We're definitely pretty poor. Are you double jointed? I don't think so. What's the most physically painful thing you've ever experienced? I once had a large infected cyst that had to be drained by applying pressure to it, and I swear to Christ I don't know how I didn't faint. They gave me morphine and multiple numbing shots, but none of that did SHIT. I'm not even embarrassed by the fact I was shrieking and sobbing and swearing because I'm pretty fucking sure any sane person would've cried out many times. I'm convinced they either didn't numb me enough for someone of my size back then, or I should've just gone under for it. I have no words for how painful it really was. Do you like shots? Uh, given that nobody LIKES getting a shot with a needle, I'm going to assume you mean like, taking shots of alcohol, in which case I've never tried, but I can almost absolutely guarantee you I'd hate them. I hate the taste of alcohol (hence why I only drink sweet and weak stuff), sooooo, I've got my doubts I'd enjoy something so potent. Are you afraid of spiders? Yes and no? Small ones don't tend to get to me, and I LOVE tarantulas. Big spiders are absolutely fascinating and I love *watching* them, but if I was surprised by a sudden spider, I'm going to probably cry out and jump/scramble away. But on a real note, respect your spiders, whether they scare you or not. They are so important to the ecosystem. See one in the house, take it outside if you can. Have you ever had an allergic reaction to something? To some earrings, yes. I have to wear ones that don't have silver in them. Do you like to read? Yeah, but not nearly as much as I did as a kid. I'm even slacking on WoF lately... Do you know what your purpose in life is? *SLAMS FISTS ON TABLE* BITCH I WISH I KNEW What's something you would like to improve at? Not being a socially anxious catastrophe. Do you believe you have great potential? Everybody does. You just have to use it. What is the most beautiful scenery you have ever beheld? Probably the mountains when driving to Tennessee. Or New York? I really can't recall either so clearly as to have a favorite. Are you flexible? Noooot anymore. Back in my WiiFit days, I was a gotdamn snake. List a song lyric that you like. Oh Jesus, don't make me think. Uhhhhh there's so many. Flipping through artists in my head with lyrics I tend to love, there's Otep with: "hey, hey, NRA, how many kids did you kill today?". Simple, but spine-chilling to me. Huh, time to listen to it actually, lol. That song murders me with the goosebumps. Do you meditate? No; I can't. You can't tell me to "free my mind," man. It's way too hectic at all times up there. What's one place you've been to that you want to visit again? I'd love to go back to Chicago one night when I actually learn how to do nighttime urban photography. What's one place you want to go that you've never visited before? I always answer "South Africa" to questions like this, so for variety's sake, I'll say the Bahamas. But a conspiratory bitch is afraid of the Bermuda Triangle, so... lmao. What's your favorite type of tree? I like big, impressive weeping willows. How many times have you seriously injured yourself? Only two occasions I can think of immediately. Maybe there's more, but idk. Did you attend Sunday School as a child? Yeah, even though I hated it. What is the longest your hair has ever been? Maybe a little passed the small of my back? What about the shortest? (not including being a toddler or baby): How it is now and has been for a couple years: shaved short on the left side, and it transitions to a length near my chin as you go to the right. Have you ever smoked a cigarette? No. Are/were you in the school band, and if so, what instrument did you play? I did, and I played the flute. I'd choose the saxophone if I could go back. Who does the grocery shopping in your household? Well, it's just Mom and me, so her. If you were to donate to charity today, what would you donate to? One that focuses on ovarian cancer for Mom. What is your favorite card game and when was the last time you played it? Even though I was never great at it or knew every single rule, "Magic: The Gathering" is honestly really fun, and I loved looking at the card art. I haven't played it since I was with Jason, so at least five-six years. Would you consider yourself to be good at spelling and grammar? Yeah, but I've somehow gotten worse with time???? I question the spelling and tenses of words I write a lot. What is your favourite seasonal candy? (only available at certain times): Probably like, chocolate rabbits. NOT hollow. Way to break my heart. Or gingerbread cookies. What was the last chocolate bar you ate? I think a Hershey's? It was a while ago. Who was the last person you talked to on Skype/video chat? I was in a Zoom session with multiple people for my partial hospitalization program. Have you ever dreamt about sleeping with someone other than your partner? If so, did that make you feel embarrassed? I've never had a dream like this while in a relationship. The last time you had butterflies in your stomach, what was the reason? I have no idea. Has anyone told you that they miss you recently? No. Has anyone ever asked you out or told you that they liked you, and you rejected them? Can you explain why you didn’t like, or didn’t feel attracted to that person? There was this one guy in the 4th grade who asked me if I would go out with him so much it almost became like a joke. I just... didn't like him like that. Then there's Juan; I'd just been warned that he had a bad rep by a very reliable adult, and the idea of dating him was kinda... intimidating anyway. Plus he was a smoker, which was and still is a no-no for me. What part in a movie would you love to play? The clinically insane villain or something because I feel with my history, I could channel that very well IF I actually wanted to act in the first place. What piece of furniture have you replaced the most? The couch. What’s the best part of your favorite movie? When Simba walks up Pride Rock in the rain and roars and all the lionesses join in. Chilling. What do you think is the most over-rated candy ever? Candy corn is repulsive. What was the highlight of your day? My mom was raving to one of my therapists in the PHP about my art and how badly she wants me to just get everything out there. I was smiling really big but looking down with how shy but also flattered it made me. Do you know anyone who is anorexic? I don't think so. Who has hurt you the most this year? Ha, myself. What's the last insult someone said to you? Hm. How much did your car cost? N/A What is the last picture you received on your phone of? Uhhh Mom mighta sent me a meme or Sara showed me a drawing someone made of Suriza, I think. Have you ever let someone go because you thought they deserved better? No, though I've felt that way before. Is there anybody you're really disappointed in right now? I'm still not over the fact Dad was a druggie before me and my sisters, apparently. It's almost like... hurtful in some weird way? Idk exactly why, it's just something I know I feel. What do you hear right now? I have Motionless In White's cover of "Somebody Told Me" playing in another tab. Do you do anything to help the environment? I do what I can as someone who isn't financially independent and reliant on another person for transportation. I won't litter for anything (and this includes shit like letting balloons go in the air, fucking stop), I'm trying to use my metal straw always in place of plastic, and to use less plastic bags, I try to spread out the times I clean Roman's litterbox to a few days; not to the point it's disgusting or uncomfortable for him, of course, though. Three days without is pretty much max. When's the last time you did something you knew was wrong? Ha, a little while ago... I was trying to avoid eating the two last biscuits Mom made for dinner 'cuz I really gotta lay off the carbs, but Mom "joked" that "it's your birthday, you get to do whatever you want," so I kinda just said fuck it lmao. Do you think that you have a pretty smile? No, because my eyes squint badly, and I also hate my teeth. When's the last time you cried over a guy? A few days ago a little bit, actually. I was reminiscing too much and recalling some of the warmest memories. Are you scared to lose the person you fell the hardest for? I already did. Oh well. Is there someone you wouldn't mind kissing right now? Yep. Do you have any friends that actually model? No. Do you care about the last person you kissed? A fucking lot. Do they care about you? Yes. Is there someone you wish you were with right now? Yes, just because of past birthday memories. I keep hoping a "happy birthday Britt" pops up in my FB messenger, and I hate myself for it. Have you ever imagined how it would feel kissing a certain someone? I legitimately just huffed in humor, guess, lmao. What are the bad things you've heard people say about you? That I'm a martyr, going nowhere, lazy, not trying hard enough, y'know, all that good stuff. Do you flirt a lot? Definitely not. What phrase or saying do you use the most? Probably "oof" lol. What mood are you in right now? I'm doing pretty all right. Kinda dreading Miss Tobey coming over, mean as it is, but I just... don't wanna deal with her and her judgments on my birthday. But I'm looking forward to seeing my sisters, and therapy went very well. Have you ever kissed someone that was high? No. Do you have a good relationship with your mother? Yep. How many exes do you have? I only consider two exes "serious," as I've only been in two deep and long-term relationships, but if we're counting everyone who's had the label of "boyfriend" or "girlfriend," there's six. Do you want to be single or with someone? Ugh, I don't know. It's probably better I don't 'til I figure my shit out, but I really do miss the companionship a lot. Why did you kiss the last person you kissed? Because I love her and I was leaving her at the airport. Does your mom think you’re a virgin? She doesn't know for the same reason I don't, really. I think she leans towards I am, but idk. Is there someone that wants you to give them a second chance? I don't know. What size bra do you wear? Uhhh I genuinely don't buy bras enough to know this exactly. C-something. Does the person you last kissed still like you? I don't know if she still like-likes me. Are your parents still together? Noooo. Was your first time good or bad? I dated an Italian, if u kno what I mean. ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) Which friend-turned-enemy do you miss the most? Colleen, sometimes. Have you ever used an epi pen, and it worked? I have not. What is on your top priority list for today? Make this fuckin' day for me. I'm trying to not let the depression sink in and make me feel worthless on today of all days. So I'm trying to stay in a positive headspace. Do you own any sand art in a jar? Omg, those are so cool! But no. Does the sun come in your window in the morning or at night? Not really; there's houses in the way. What was the last piece of art you created? A drawing of a meerkat with its mouth open angrily, done with colored pencils, against a black background. It's on my second dA. What time of day do you take medications? I have prescription meds for when I wake up and at bedtime. What's your newest hobby you've started? A new hobby? Huh... What are some things you wanted to do that your parents didn't let you do? They wouldn't let us stay home alone until a certain age, we had a timer on the TV at bedtime to shut off after a while, we weren't exposed to certain music or shows, no cursing... stuff like that. What YouTube channels do you recommend? This is a BAD question to ask me, 'cuz I could just about recommend channels for just about any niche. I watch soooooo many. What is your favorite day of the week? Tuesday, because it's reset day in WoW, haha. Meaning, I get to do my stupid mount farming raids again for the week. Blackhand, gimme your FUCKING clefthoof already. Ballet or cheerleading? Ballet is beautiful. What are your favorite sports to watch? Only dancing, really. Were you ever in the marching band? No. Which holiday has the best decorations, in your opinion? My contrasting aesthetics make this hard, haha. I love Christmas with all the beautiful light displays people can make, but let's not sleep on Halloween, y'all. I loooove Halloween decor, like c'mon, that's where I get shit for my room year-round, lmao. What do you want to be known for? It'd actually be kinda cool if I built up some sort of rep in the vulture culture community with my photography of roadkill. For how few shots I actually have on there and minimal interaction, my Instagram for it is doing quite well, if you consider those factors. They've gotten some pretty decent attention on dA, too. I would love for people to know why I do it though, of course: awareness and respect for the animal's life. How often do you wear make-up? Almost never nowadays. Think of the person you are jealous of...what are you jealous of them for? She's actually making a career out of her photography. Do you have art that you made in high school? Oh, plenty. Do you have trauma in your past? *clears throat* take a fuckin seat Favorite type of frosting? Chocolate. Have you ever tried cake decorating? No. One of my sisters is actually one, though! She's great at it. What clubs are you a part of? None. What was your favorite book that you had to read for school? The Outsiders. 6th grade, to be exact. Do you like to read classics, or do you usually read new arrivals? I don't prefer one over the other, honestly. Were you a big partier in college? No, I never partied. Is your college one you would recommend? My most recent one, fuck yes. They're amazing and care so deeply for their students. Would you go camping in the woods alone? Yikes, no. Would you name your kids after anyone? If I had a son and I had my way with the name, he would be named after the Most Selfless Man in the World, Damien from WKM. :'''''( Do you have any supernatural gifts? No. Are there any good churches in your town? You're asking someone who has a bad relationship with religion. Do you want an indoor or outdoor wedding? It really depends on the season and venue my spouse and I pick. Do you think you would be a good salesperson? HEEEEEEEEEEEELL NAW fam. I ain't pressuring people to buy shit.

[sisuchan-400]

Chapter 2: “Meeting”

There was a huge silence, in the whole house, that would give chills to anyone, everyone were asleep in the whole neighborhood , all the lights were off, just a few were really awake to watch some movies with their lights off. Anny heard a sudden sound, her eyes opened as she lazily sat up and rubbed them, she saw for a second a shadow quickly leave through the open door of her room, she quickly rubbed her eyes and looked over the window in front of her bed....it had been forced open and now it was pending slightly side to side. She shivered at the sight and quickly got up, trembling shakily, as she looked at the open door of her room.

She slowly pecked out of the door and looked at the dark corridor, she took out a flashlight and slowly started to walk, she hated the fact that they had the electricity off for the whole night to spare energy.....in that city, nothing was easy to spare. The ghoul heard a sound and quickly turned the flashlight to a broken vase, she started to shake and slowly back up, she heard another sound and quickly turned to that direction....nothing, she took a low breath as she entered the kitchen, her adoptive mom would leave a little light on the table, making the kitchen the only illuminated area of the house.

Anny pecked into the living room, nothing.....into the bathroom....still nothing, she slowly rubbed her head ‘Was it an allucination?......’ she asked to herself, she slowly went back into the kitchen, she sighed and started to take some water from the fridge, before pouring it in a plastic glass. She looked at the glass slowly before drinking a bit of the water, she heard a sound again, it was similar to quick footsteps “Steve?....If this is another one of your jokes.....it is not funny!” She said. Steve was a cat that her adoptive mom would keep inside their house, Anny liked animals....but Steve was a good exception, he always like to scare her by running and the fact that he was all black did not helped.

She took courage and slowly headed back to her bedroom, hearing the sound of wind outside blow through the broken window, she took a shaky breath and peeked inside the room....no one was there....she would have thought it was only her imagination....but the window was clearly broken, and she made sure she was actually awake by pinching her cheek. She sighed and sat back down on her bed, taking out the little bow that was under the pillow, she looked at it and slowly moved it between her fingers, it was all black, with some blood splattered on its side.

“Really ‘cute’ bow.....I wonder how you got to have it” a voice suddenly said, Anny quickly got up and turned, holding the bow tightly in her hand. Astaron turned on the little night light that was on the night draw, he then looked at Anny “Who are you....and how you got into my house?” She asked, as she took in her hand a broken ruler that she broke while she was drawing.....somehow; Astaron leaned on the wall behind him “Ok, first of all, lower that ‘weapon’ of yours....seriously, it is emberassing to look at, second, are you that dumb to not see the broken window?” He asked, pointing with his thumb to the broken window. Anny looked at the ruler, then at the window, and then at the huge bug “Don’t you dare to “First of all” me, I am more dangerous than what you think” she said, holding the ruler tighter “Fluffy Ass, you would not hurt a fly with that ruler, and second, I am more armed than you” Astaron said, as he took out a gun.

The ghoul looked at the gun and slowly backed up “So I would suggest you to lower your sass down and do what I said, always if you do not want me to use this....” Astaron said, motioning the gun as he removed the security. “I would like to see you try....you can’t hit something that runs” Anny said, before bolting quickly out of the room to run to the door that brought out of the house. The huge bug groaned and rubbed his head slightly in irritation “Why everyone must make things so fucking hard for me?” He huffed.

Anny meanwhile, made her way out of the house, she ran out of the little gate and started to run fast, she could care less that she was in pj and she was freezing to death “Ok...ok......I just need to move away from my house as much as I can.....” she said to herself, suddenly a loud gun shot and a strong pain in her shoulder made her yelp in pain, as she kept running as fast as she could. Only around 5 minutes, she started to not feel her legs anymore, she was shaking hard as she suddenly fell, she started to squirm to keep moving....but her body simply was going numb, she trembled as her body stopped responding, so she simply lay there....she ended her run into a park not too distant from her house, she heard again those blasted footsteps and heard someone crouch down next to her “Tired?” Astaron asked, as he held the gun in his hand “What do you want from me?” Anny asked, her voice kinda broken due the effects of the narcotic “I will tell you once you woke up, for now, how about you just go to sleep, and let me do my work?” The bug asked, his was surely not an offer, at all.

The ghoul’s eye lids were slowly going heavy, as blood was falling from her shoulder....then her eyes simply closed. Later, she woke up in a dark grey room, tied down a chair, even her tail had been tied to the ground with some belts, she struggled hard, and saw that all the belts and bindings were loosened enough for her to move, so she started to get herself out of her bindings. She got up and shook the belts and ropes off, as she looked around, the room was empty, dark grey, with only a weak light on the ceiling to illuminate it all “Great...I had been kidnapped” she said sarcastically, she went over the door and saw it was locked, she quickly banged her body against it and groaned in pain, as her shoulder was still hurt and with the bullet in it “Ok Anny....stay calm....staaaaayyy calm......it is like in the movies....someone comes and frees you after a bit.....” she said to herself.

She remained quiet a few moments before groaning “Oh come on myself?! What are you making me think?!” She said, realizing how dumb she just sounded “I see you are a little bit in fight with yourself” She heard someone say, she quickly turned, looking around “Where are you? Show your face!” She said, as she leaned against the door, before it opened, making her fall out and bump the back of her head.

She felt Someone grip the back of her hair and pull her back up, she yelped and trembled “Do not act all scared now and just act as a grown girl” Astaron said, letting go of her hair. She rubbed the back of her head before looking at him “You are not my dad! You can’t say what I have to do” she said, before feeling a gun pointing at her head “Listen to me Fluffy ass, the struggle I had to find you is bigger than what you think. So do not make me hurt you any further, I need you togheter you know?” Astaron said, Anny remained silent.

“............Find me?........” she asked, Astaron rised a brow, realizing that she was slowly letting go and giving up, he lowered the gun and put the security on “Mind me explain you why I just kidnapped you, or you just want to make things harder for both?” He asked, groaning.

Anny looked at him and then down, she loudly sighed “Ok Ok then....If this will bring me out of this situation soon, then I will try to do what you want” she said, the huge bug turned “Then follow me” He said, as he started to walk, Anny groaned and followed, holding her shoulder. They walked down a dark corridor, illuminated my little lights “Does your shoulder still hurt?” Astaron asked “No thanks Sherlock.......I just have a bullet in my shoulder” Anny answered “You better already lower your sass, if you do not want another hole in your shoulder” Astaron said, looking at Anny. The ghoul groaned “Can I at least remove it?” She asked “Oh I will.....do not worry....or maybe you should” Astaron said, before laughing loudly, showing his sharp theet, Anny grumbled as she looked the wall of the corridor. Astaron sighed and wiped his tear “Aaaahh..........do not tell anyone that I laughed, Ok?” He suddenly said, his face darkening, pointing at her face “Ok....” she answered, mumbling and muttering every type of curse that would go throught her mind.

Astaron opened a door and entered it, Anny remained there and watched......before hearing a loud ‘Ahem’ coming from the bug, she slowly entered the room and looked around. It was a rather little room, with a couch, two arm chairs, a TV and a lot....of bottles of alcohol...there was even a strong smell of cigarette that made her want to throw up “Ugh....” she said, putting her hand over her mouth “Are you a smoker and an alcoholic?” She asked with a disgusted voice “Meh....I only drink time to time......I cannot consider myself an alcoholic, about the smoking....lets say it is what humans call ‘Bad habit’” Astaron answered, annoyed by the ask since in that city no one was bothered of what people would do. He sat down on the couch and motioned to Anny to sit, holding the gun in one hand, Anny slowly sat down, holding her shoulder.

“Ok....lets start with the basics” the bug sighed, as he sat up a bit “Name is Astaron, named by the others “The green death”.....aka stupid name that not even a clown would have” he said, as he took a newspaper showing an article titled with “Green death strikes again”. He was actually surprised to see the color drain from Anny’s face, despite her already have white skin due her being a ghoul “This is new....usually teens would think ‘cool’....but you just reacted like a criminal” he said, before throwing away the newspaper “Wha....?.....��� Anny said, trying to process everything “Forget that, you do not need useless infos.... you should rather know the important stuff.....I do not need to know about you, I know all your infos” he admitted. “What? How?” Anny asked, sitting up a bit “I have good sources...now let’s get really to the important stuff....” Astaron said, sitting up “First of all, you have a list of rules to follow if you want me to spare your life of cockroach....one, you do what I say, no asking, just do it.....second, do not talk with anyone useless I give you permission to speak...third, don’t try to escape.....or you will get more bullets inside your shoulder....and fourth, do not be sassy or talk back to me” He said, leaning forward and leaning on his knees with his hands togheter “Understood?” He asked.

Anny snapped out of her thoughts and nodded, shaking “Good, now is time for you to know what I need you for” Astaron said, he got up and walked to a library, before taking out a really thin dossier of color red, he walked back to her and threw the dossier at her, wich she catched with her good hand, she looked down at it, before opening it. There were documents about movements, an organization and what surely caught Anny’s attention....a picture of a ruby.....but diamond shaped. “Before you think wrong, that is not a ruby....it is a red diamond......the red diamond” Astaron said, correcting himself “The red diamond...?” She asked under her breath, reading those very few infos written there “Yes, the most valuable diamond in existence.....” Astaron said, as he light up a cigarette, Anny looked at him and then back at the dossier “And....what do you need me for?” She asked, Astaron looked at her “Well, since I had to tell you anyway....I need you to get to the organization where it is kept.....tell me, do you recognize the name?” He asked, Anny went to the paper with the organization and read the name....her eyes widening “ ‘Golden Fire Corporation......’......it is the corporation of my father....” she said, reading the paper “Specialized into minerals and chimic resources.....” Astaron said, leaning back on the couch.

Anny looked at him “But why me?....” she asked, Astaron sighed and took the cigarette out of his mouth “Well, you are the only family member that I could reach quickly, plus, there are no news about other offsprings beside you...or in general news about other family members.......does that speak up for you?” He said, smoke coming out from his mouth. Anny remained quiet and nodded with her head shakily, before holding her shoulder “Get used to the pain, you will feel a lot of it during all the time I will use you to get to that diamond....and trust me....it will be a long period....” he said, tapping his cigarette and making the dust fall. Anny looked at him silently, before closing the dossier, she felt something in her pocket and saw the black bow in it “Ah yeah...I prefer leave it to you...I would not use it in any way” the huge bug said “But....what are we going to do?....Stay here and slack off?” Anny asked “Oh no, I am just giving you a little......pause, before anything starts...” Astaron said, leaning back on the couch “Ok...but what about the bullet?....” Anny asked, he looked at her “If remove it will make you shut up, come here and let me remove it” Astaron groaned as he sat up.

The process was...painful, the bug literally dept his fingers into the found and ripped the bullet out, making the wound larger. Things did not got really better when he tightened the bandages around it “Happy now?” Astaron asked, as he wiped the blood from his fingers, Anny simply nodded “Now just go back to your room and rest, there is a mattress in one corner of the room, you sleep there” The huge bug said. Anny lowly nodded and slowly walked off silently.

Sleep was nearly impossible, the sound of people shooting at god knew what, the loud laughing and music coming from other places made things hard for anyone who wanted to sleep in peace, Anny took out the little bow and held it in one hand, looking at it....it gave a reassuring aura to her...even tought the blood on it made her feel as well sad, she tried to connect her memories....but she was just too tired to process anything...so she simply tried to sleep, holding the bow close.

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Ooff! It have been a while Uh? Well, finally part two has came out, And I am happy that I started to write this down again! I am trying to divide my activities into pieces and do them time to time!

The Stealers of the red diamond is an story made by me

Train TracX belongs to @fluttersdreams and @lazyskelebones

The original Astaron belongs to @fluttersdreams

[big-tony]

1-100 hoe

I hate you so much.

1. Spotify, SoundCloud, or Pandora?

Spotify for sure

3. what color are your eyes?

Ugly ass brown

6. describe your personality in 3 words or less

Really obnoxious

8. what kind of car do you drive? color?

I have a black 2013 Nissan Altima 

9. where do you shop?

As much as I hate them, I do most of my shopping on Amazon. I’ve started using Thrift Books when I buy books, but I also want to start going to local bookstores since some have opened up nearby.

10. how would you describe your style?

The stereotypical person who listens exclusively to music on Bandcamp but doesn’t want to commit to buying clothes at Goodwill

11. favorite social media account

Tumblr but I’m kind of warming up to Twitter

13. any siblings?

Yeah I have an older sister

14. if you can live anywhere in the world where would it be? why?

I would say at this stage in my life I would like to live in Spain or Argentina. I’d really like to just be somewhere out of North America where I can speak Spanish all the time. I feel like it would be a nice change of pace

15. favorite snapchat filter? 

I deleted snap like four months ago but I really liked the one that just hid all of your blemishes lmao

17. how many times a week do you shower?

Like 10-12 on average

18. favorite tv show?

Either Eric Andre or the Twilight Zone

19. shoe size?

16 which makes shopping for shoes impossible

20. how tall are you?

6′5″

21. sandals or sneakers? 

Sneakers. I only wear sandals if I’m running somewhere for less than 30 minutes

22. do you go to the gym? 

I kind of neglected that this semester but before that I was going about 5 days a week

24. how much money do you have in your wallet at the moment?

$5 lmao

25. what color socks are you wearing? 

White

26. how many pillows do you sleep with?

Just two I don’t like having too many

27. do you have a job? what do you do? 

Not rn I just finished up working as a research assistant and I’ll be applying for that position again this summer

28. how many friends do you have? 

idk if I had to guess somewhere around 30 but I see about 10 of them weekly the rest kind of rotate in and out

29. whats the worst thing you have ever done? 

This girl was going to sit down when I was in high school and I thought it would be funny to pull the chair out from under her. It was not particularly funny and it still haunts me because it was so unnecessarily mean

30. whats your favorite candle scent? 

Fuck I don’t know what it’s called but when I’m home for the holidays my parents always burn this one candle that just reminds me of Christmas. Very cinnamon-y but also smells like pine needles

31. 3 favorite boy names

James, Antonio, David

32. 3 favorite girl names

Autumn, McKenzie, Maria

33. favorite actor? 

I don’t think I watch enough movies to have a strong opinion on this one

34. favorite actress? 

Same

35. who is your celebrity crush?

Shakira for sure

36. favorite movie? 

I watch so few movies that my favorite movie is basically the last good movie I watched so I’d say Madeinusa. If we’re going for movies that are so bad that they’re awesome I’d say Bloodsport

37. do you read a lot? whats your favorite book? 

Yeah I love reading! I’d say it’s tied between The Sun Also Rises by Ernest Hemingway and 100 Years of Solitude by Gabriel Garcia Marquez

38. money or brains? 

Brains for sure

39. do you have a nickname? what is it? 

People used to call me Chief Keef all the time but I don’t have one anymore

40. how many times have you been to the hospital?

I think like when I was born was the only time lol

41. top 10 favorite songs

In no particular order:

Smashing Pumpkins - 1979

Sun Kil Moon - Pancho Villa

Algernon Cadwallader - Fun

American Football - Stay Home

Shakira - Se Quiere, Se Mata

Sun Kil Moon - Micheline

Sufjan Stevens - Impossible Soul

The Microphones - The Glow, Pt. 2

Frank Dominguez & Elena Burke - Imágenes

Sufjan Stevens - Romulus

42. do you take any medications daily? 

Nah

43. what is your skin type? (oily, dry, etc)

I’d say pretty oily I have to shower the moment I wake up because my hair looks like a mess from the oil

44. what is your biggest fear? 

Heights

45. how many kids do you want? 

If I decide I want kids, probably just one

46. whats your go to hair style?

I like to keep it pretty short and put some gel in it it’s pretty basic

47. what type of house do you live in? (big, small, etc) 

I live in an apartment right now but my parents’ house is kind of small compared to all my friends’ growing up.

48. who is your role model? 

I try not to have a role model per se because every time I learn about famous people they disappoint me in one way or another. I had a lot of respect for Anthony Bourdain though

49. what was the last compliment you received?

My friend told me yesterday that I’ve made a lot of positive changes in my life this past month, which meant a lot to me

50. what was the last text you sent?

“Dead af” which is pretty par for the course

51. how old were you when you found out santa wasn’t real?

I think I was 9 when I decided he didn’t exist. No one really confirmed or denied it until I was like 12

52. what is your dream car? 

I used to say corvette but I can’t fit in one lol

53. opinion on smoking?

I can’t really get on a high horse about it because I smoke when I’m very drunk but I don’t enjoy the really strong smell of a smoker’s house

54. do you go to college? 

Yeah! I’m studying history and Spanish and I should be graduating spring 2020

55. what is your dream job? 

I want to be a professor and hopefully teach Latin American history

56. would you rather live in rural areas or the suburbs? 

Since my indie folk days are behind me, suburbs for sure

57. do you take shampoo and conditioner bottles from hotels? 

No my hair seems to hate those so I have to bring my own shampoo when I go places

58. do you have freckles? 

nah

59. do you smile for pictures?

Yeah I like my smile a lot so

60. how many pictures do you have on your phone? 

1629 according to my camera roll

61. have you ever peed in the woods? 

Oh yeah absolutely

62. do you still watch cartoons? 

I keep up with Steven Universe by force of habit but otherwise no

63. do you prefer chicken nuggets from Wendy’s or McDonalds?

McDonald’s. Wendy’s chicken nuggets are whack

64. Favorite dipping sauce? 

Chick-Fil-A sauce

65. what do you wear to bed? 

Basketball shorts

66. have you ever won a spelling bee?

I won this in-class one and they asked me to go to the school-wide one but I didn’t go

67. what are your hobbies?

Reading, writing, and learning languages mostly. I’d like to get more social hobbies at some point like get into playing pool but I haven’t gotten around to it

68. can you draw? 

Oh hell no. I tried super hard up until like 7th grade and then I accepted fate

69. do you play an instrument?

I am trying to learn the banjo but I need to get more consistent

70. what was the last concert you saw? 

I saw Fleet Foxes in March, which was an amazing show. I missed American Football in August which I’m still really upset about

71. tea or coffee?

Coffee, though I’d like to learn more about tea

72. Starbucks or Dunkin Donuts?

Dunkin Donuts just because it’s cheaper

73. do you want to get married?

Yeah I have a crippling fear of ending up alone lmao

74. what is your crush’s first and last initial?

I don’t really have a crush but the girl I’m seeing’s initials are BS which is interesting to say the least

75. are you going to change your last name when you get married? 

No but I probably should because my last name is bland af

76. what color looks best on you? 

I think I look good in a deep purple

77. do you miss anyone right now? 

Unfortunately yes but I’m getting over it slowly

78. do you sleep with your door open or closed?

Closed. I have this irrational fear that I will wake up and someone is watching me, but in all reality an unlocked door won’t stop them if that’s what it is going to come to

79. do you believe in ghosts?

Nah

80. what is your biggest pet peeve? 

People who read, watch, or hear something slightly out of the ordinary and go “WOW I WONDER HOW MANY DRUGS THEY MUST HAVE BEEN ON TO COME UP WITH THAT”

81. last person you called`

My parents like two hours ago

82. favorite ice cream flavor? 

Cookies and cream

83. regular oreos or golden oreos? 

Regular, I didn’t know people liked the golden ones

84. chocolate or rainbow sprinkles? 

Rainbow

85. what shirt are you wearing? 

A UCF football shirt! Go Knights

86. what is your phone background?

Salamovka at Night (Judy’s Window Lit) by Lois Dodd

87. are you outgoing or shy?

Very outgoing lol

88. do you like it when people play with your hair?

Ugh I love it so much

89. do you like your neighbors? 

Never talked to em but they’re quiet so I can’t complain

90. do you wash your face? at night? in the morning?

Yeah before bed and after my shower

91. have you ever been high? 

Many times

92. have you ever been drunk? 

Many times

93. last thing you ate? 

I got a chicken tender sub at Publix!

94. favorite lyrics right now

Don’t leave home, again

If empathy takes energy

‘Cause everyone feels just like you

But that’s life, it’s so social

95. summer or winter? 

Winter because I like when it’s a bit chillier, even though Florida does not get very cold. It’s been in the 40s and 50s this week which has been incredible and I wish we had more days like that.

96. day or night? 

I like the night during summer and the day during winter. 

97. dark, milk, or white chocolate? 

Milk chocolate

98. favorite month? 

October

99. what is your zodiac sign

Libra

100. who was the last person you cried in front of? 

My ex-girlfriend about three years ago.

I still hate you for this.

[crotchexplorer666]

A L L O F T H E Q U E S T I O NS

If I must, deary-

1. You woke up naked next to the last person you texted, what would you say?

“I’m sorry I got you into this mess, @gamingkilledthecat!” Jenn exclaimed as she quickly rolled under the bed. That is where she stayed for many years in shame.

2. What’s going on between you and the last person you kissed?

Uh...Um..Oh, wait, nevermind. I thought this was asking about my first kiss. My dad and I are cool. Not in the romantic way.

3. If your boyfriend or girlfriend was into drugs, would you care?

Depends on whether or not it kills their personality. 

4. Is your last name longer than six letters?

My last name is five letters.

5. Was your last kiss drunk or sober?

Sober..

6. Have you ever wanted to have someone but you messed it up?

I messed up by not trying hard enough.

7. What does your last received text say?

“what the heck-i was literally about to say something and then i see this“- @gamingkilledthecat  (You caught me at a time in which I was speaking to her)

8. How many times have you kissed the last person you kissed?

I give my dad a good night kiss every night.

9. Where was your last kiss at?

In the car when my dad dropped me off for school..?

10. When is the last time you saw your sister?

I just saw my brother 10 minutes ago.

11. What do you drink in the morning?

Coffee. Lots of it.

12. Where did you sleep last night?

In my bed.

13. Do you think relationships are hard?

If you wanna keep it exciting, yes.

14. If you could go back and change something in the past 5 months, would you?

Mhmm.

15. You’re locked in a room with the last person you kissed, any problems?

Stop bringing my father into this-

16. Would you rather it be sunny or rainy?

Sunny. However, I prefer either cold, cloudy, dry days or warm, summer nights. I tan too easily, and it’s natural for people to wish they looked tan when they are pale and pale when they are tan.

17. Do you know anyone with the same middle name as you?

DAVIDLEEROTHIS THE BEST SINGER

18. Are you wearing jeans,sweatpants,or pajama pants?

Pajama pants.. C’mon, I wake up at 2 am. Don’t expect me not to be tired and uncomfortable after school.

19. Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 years from now?

Sure.

20. Does anyone like you?

Hard to believe, but yes.

21. Have you ever kissed someone with a name that starts with an S?

Uh.. yeah..

22. Is the last person you kissed gay?

No.

23. Is there a person you CANNOT stand?

Anyone who doesn’t like me for no reason.

24. Have you ever considered getting a tattoo?

Only a very small one on the shoulder.

25. In the past week have you cried?

Yes, a ton. c:

26. What breed was the last dog CAT you saw?

A domestic medium hair is all I can tell you. Brown tabby with yellow eyes, white underbelly, white chin, white mittens, and a huge tail. .w.

27. Do you dry off in the shower or out of the shower?

Out, but sometimes in if it’s too cold.

28. Have you ever kissed a football player?

I prefer the build of cross country runners.

29. Do you think you’re old?

Nah.

30. Do you like text messaging?

When I text I wish I could be with the person. I’d prefer to be there in person so that they can see my emotions or understand my jokes more, but texting is okay.

31. What type of day are you having?

I’m so happy it’s Friday! I’ve gotten about 5 hours of sleep every night for the past week-

32. Have you ever thought about getting your nose pierced?

I don’t find it very attractive, but maybe a very small, discreet piercing.

33. Do you prefer warm or cold weather?

I don’t like the sun. Warm weather away from the sun is nice. Cold weather without the sun is also nice. If it’s nice and cloudy, I gotta pick warm.

34. Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you?

I hang out with a lot of boys-

35. Would you prefer a relationship or a fling?

I could go either way, it depends.

36. Are you a simple or complicated person?

I don’t think anyone is “simple.” Human beings are all very complicated organisms with their own thoughts and feelings, unlike most animals.

37. What song are you listening to?

“Hair of the Dog” by Nazareth. ;D

38. When you say you’re sorry do you mean it?

yES.39. Is there a girl that knows everything or almost everything about you?

Nope.40. What made you start liking the person you like now?

I can’t explain it. Maybe we were just meant for each other in a way no one can put into words.41. When did you last receive a text message?

A second ago. x)42. What is wrong with you right now?

Many a things.43. How well do you know the last female you texted?

Enough to be her best friend if I only I knew her irl. ;0;44. Does anyone disgust you?

I shouldn’t say--45. Would you date someone right now if they asked?

Yeah, sure. YOLO46. Are you in a good mood right now?

I’m never in a good mood, but my outgoing personality masks that.47. Who was the last person you talked to in person?

Madelynn. cx I go with her to the library on Fridays and play on my phone while she is tutored by a nice, lovely woman. Then we usually get fast food and I’m dropped off at my house.48. What color shirt are you wearing?

Black and navy blue.49. Has someone recently told you something you didn’t want to hear?

I like to hear everything about people. 50. Anyone you’re giving up on?

Uh, depends on what you mean by that.51. Do you hate the person you fell hardest for?

Not even close-

52. Have you ever thought about giving up on someone but couldn’t?

Nope. I don’t give up easily. c:53. Do you like rain?

I don’t really like being wet.. The ocean scares me.. 54. Do you care if your boyfriend/girlfriend drinks?

Only if they abuse me while they aren’t thinking straight.55. Have you ever liked somebody and never told them?

Mhmm. 56. Do you like to cuddle?

When we’re alone.57. Are you shy?

Ye s. I only hide it well. 58. Do you get along with girls?

I get along well with anyone who is human..? Cats too.. C a t s , m o s t l y.59. Have you dated the person you texted last?

Nope. I’d go out with anyone if they asked.  60. What do you carry with you at all times?

My phone, my phone charger, and five bucks. 61. If you were paid 1 million dollars to spend the night in a supposed haunted house, would you?

If it’s only fucking creepy and won’t actually hurt me in any way, hell yes. 62. Do you think you can last in a relationship for five months?

I can do many things.

63. Think back to October, were you in a relationship?

Nah. 64. The person you like kisses you on the forehead, do you find this cute?

yES-65. Did anything “cute” happen in the last week?

My cat. Every day.

66. How old are the last three people you kissed?

My dad is 57, my mom is 51, and Yearni is probably 17 by now-

67. Would you rather pay to get your nails done or do them yourself? 

DIY W/ JENNCOMING TO YOU IN THEATRES FAR AWAY   

68. Which do you like better- Zebra print or leopard print?    

Is neither an option? If I had to choose, it would be zebra print.69. Do you have any stickers on your car?    

No..70. Would you rather listen to Luke Bryan or Lil Wayne?    

Uh, who are these people?!71. Blackberry, Android, or iPhone?    

I have Android, so that’s cool.72. When’s the last time you had pizza from Pizza Hut?    

Uh, maybe 2 years.73. Do you like diet soda?    

nO74. What color are the walls in your room?    

Green-ish.75. Are you 16 or older?    

I prefer not to tell my age. x)76. Do you watch Pretty Little Liars?    

Nah.77. Do you have a job?    

Nope.  78. What are your initials?    

J.W.79. Did you ever have braces?    

Nuh-uh.80. Are you from the south?    

Noooo

81. What does your last status on facebook say?    

I’m too lazy to check. x-x82. Do you still talk to the first person you ever kissed?    

Nope.83. Are you closer to your mom or your dad?    

Dad.84. Have you ever done cheerleading or gymnastics?    

I play a trumpet, I run, I draw, I do many things. Everything but those two and things that require being limber.85. What’s the last movie you saw in theaters?    

I don’t know. ;D86. Do you smoke?    

No, but I don’t hate all smokers. People need to realize that smoking was really popular in the 20th century, and once they gave in to peer pressure, they were addicted. Now they are hated and guilt-tripped for something they can’t control.87. Would you rather wear heels or flip flops?    

Socks and sandals, FTW.88. Is your phone touch screen?    

Mhmm.89. Do you normally wear your hair straight or curly?    

My hair is naturally curly. It dries differently every time I take a shower.90. Have you ever snuck out of your house?    

Yes.91. Would you rather swim in a river, lake, or pool?    

I’d rather stay dry, thank chu.92. Have you ever made out in a car?    

No.93. …Had sex in a car?    

No, thanks.94. Are you single or in a relationship?    

Fat, single, and ready for a Pringle. (Actually, I’m a bit underweight, but I’ll still take that Pringle.)95. What were you doing last night at midnight?    

Sleeping so that I could wake up at 3 am.96. When’s the last time you saw fireworks?    

Chinese New Year.97. Do you like the camera on your phone?    

Sure.98. Have you ever had a friend with benefits?    

No.99. Have you ever passed out from drinking?    

Never.100. Are you friends with people on facebook that you actually hate?    

I’m not on Facebook much-101. Have you ever had a pregnancy scare?    

Nah.102. Name your favorite Kesha song:    

Probably “Blah Blah Blah.”103. Do you have any tan lines right now?    

I tan too easily..104. Would you ever wear cowboy boots with shorts?    

Sure, why not. That’s UT in Austin spirit, right there.

[mysfitalyss]

Do all of the unusual asks 😎

Spotify, SoundCloud, or Pandora?

Spotify

is your room messy or clean?

Messyyyyy whoomp

what color are your eyes?

poopy brown :/

do you like your name? why?

Not entirely, I wish my nickname was my name instead

what is your relationship status?

Engaged

describe your personality in 3 words or less

Loud, clingy/obsessive, and full of love (i know thats more than three words but ya know)

what color hair do you have?

Blackish brown

what kind of car do you drive? color?

Silver malibu

where do you shop?

Uh…. anywhere?

how would you describe your style?

“The heck is this shit?”

favorite social media account

Tumblr, all my friends are here

what size bed do you have?

Queen

any siblings?

One

if you can live anywhere in the world where would it be? why?

Colorado Springs, i love the mountains

favorite snapchat filter?

I dont have one

favorite makeup brand(s)

I dont wear makeup enough to have a favorite brand

how many times a week do you shower?

Twice or more if needed

favorite tv show?

SUUUUUUUPERNATURAL

shoe size?

uh…9?

how tall are you?

SHORT AS HELL

sandals or sneakers?

Sandalsss

do you go to the gym?

Occasionally

describe your dream date

Pretty much anything so long as we’re together

how much money do you have in your wallet at the moment?

absolutely none

what color socks are you wearing?

Im not wearing socks, im wearing slippers

how many pillows do you sleep with?

Two, one for sleeping, one to cuddle

do you have a job? what do you do?

I work in insurance

how many friends do you have?

Like…six? Seven?

whats the worst thing you have ever done?

Im not sure, but i wouldnt describe it here. 

whats your favorite candle scent?

Anything warm and comforting 

3 favorite boy names

Adam, Toby, Neil

3 favorite girl names

Ellie, Delilah, Emily

favorite actor?

Misha Collins

favorite actress?

Emma Stone

who is your celebrity crush?

Chris Pratt

favorite movie?

hhhhh I dont have a favorite

do you read a lot? whats your favorite book?

YES My favorite series is the Lunar Chronicles

money or brains?

brains

do you have a nickname? what is it?

Ally or Alyss

how many times have you been to the hospital?

Twice

top 10 favorite songs

Emperors New Clothes - PATD

Tonight I Know - Chester See

Shut Up And Dance - Walk the Moon

Love The Way You Move - Slightly Left of Centre

Save Rock and Roll - FOB

Can’t Sleep Love - Pentatonix

Warriors - Imagine Dragons

I Can Talk - Two Door Cinema Club

Freaks - Timmy Trumpet

Color of the Game (Game grumps remix)

do you take any medications daily?

No

what is your skin type? (oily, dry, etc)

Dry

what is your biggest fear?

Everyone leaves in the end, and I’m alone

how many kids do you want?

Two or three

whats your go to hair style?

Just down

what type of house do you live in? (big, small, etc)

Small apartment :/

who is your role model?

Misha Collins, his kindness and love know no bounds

what was the last compliment you received?

Someone said my art was good, and that about killed me

what was the last text you sent?

Nope its really bad.

how old were you when you found out santa wasn’t real?

SHIT SANTA’S NOT REAL???

what is your dream car?

67 Impala

opinion on smoking?

I hate cigarette smoking. (sorry if you’re a smoker… i grew up breathing second hand smoke all my life, it makes me sick.)

do you go to college?

Yes, working on a master’s degree

what is your dream job?

Professional Author

would you rather live in rural areas or the suburbs?

Rural

do you take shampoo and conditioner bottles from hotels?

No, i dont like their shampoo/conditioner

do you have freckles?

Not that i know of

do you smile for pictures?

I try to

how many pictures do you have on your phone?

Waaay too many

have you ever peed in the woods?

Probably? Camping as a kid?

do you still watch cartoons?

HELLS YES

do you prefer chicken nuggets from Wendy’s or McDonalds?

McDonalds, Wendy’s has a bit of a spice i dont like

Favorite dipping sauce?

Ranch

what do you wear to bed?

Teeshirt and shorts

have you ever won a spelling bee?

No i got anxiety and panicked, failing out

what are your hobbies?

Drawing, reading, and writing

can you draw?

No but i do it anyway

do you play an instrument?

I used to play Clarinet

what was the last concert you saw?

FOB, first and only

tea or coffee?

Tea

Starbucks or Dunkin Donuts?

Never had dunkin

do you want to get married?

I will be in less than 6 months 

what is your crush’s first and last initial?

MM

are you going to change your last name when you get married?

I dont want to but probably

what color looks best on you?

Blood red

do you miss anyone right now?

Yes… a lot… painfully so.

do you sleep with your door open or closed?

Closed

do you believe in ghosts?

Yes

what is your biggest pet peeve?

When people bother me when I’m in a mood

last person you called

My dad

favorite ice cream flavor?

Cheesecake

regular oreos or golden oreos?

Neither i hate oreos

chocolate or rainbow sprinkles?

Again, neither, i dont like sprinkles

what shirt are you wearing?

Tie dye

what is your phone background?

Junkenstien for home screen, Avyn and Genny by Fara for lock screen

are you outgoing or shy?

Shy as fuck

do you like it when people play with your hair?

If i know them

do you like your neighbors?

No, they smoke and make the apartment smell bad

do you wash your face? at night? in the morning?

Sometimes, if i remember

have you ever been high?

No

have you ever been drunk?

Loads of times

last thing you ate?

Minestrone soups

favorite lyrics right now

Maybe if i call asleep i wont breathe right, maybe if i leave tonight i wont come back, can nobody hear me? i got a lot thats on my mind, i cannot breathe, can you hear it too?

summer or winter?

Summer, i hate cold

day or night?

Night

dark, milk, or white chocolate?

Milk

favorite month?

July

what is your zodiac sign

Virgo

who was the last person you cried in front of?

My fiance