#I see Enji's canon vs. AU character similar to how I see canon vs. fanon Jiraiya

[kakakakashi]

I’ve never... watched Golden Girls, but I know I should lmao. So... I don’t think that he is maybe reacting that way, but my guess (I am on like 195 now lol so I’m not at all done but just spewing my own garbage rn) is that he is kind of “masking” to be what he thinks he has to be. I work in an office & I kinda do that so that everyone likes me. 😕 gonna word vomit in a 2nd request because I have a character limit lmaoooo 🍡🍡

Okay PT 2 of 🍡Rants lmao. Hawks is also the opposite of what I go for! Like I love a funny guy, but Aizawa in both looks & personality is exactly my type. My bf even has long dark messy hair, facial hair, is constantly grumpy, tired and pretty quiet lol. But I fckn love Hawks. I love the way he just... is such a dick to Endeavor. Like Endeavor is a douche and he is MAD SCARY. Like if I met him irl I’d cry frfr. Okay I think I am good now lol thanks for listening

Meh, you don’t have to watch it if you don’t want to. It’s a funny show, though! It’s one of my favorites ever. 

Oh, you’re 100% right about Hawks, though, especially because of how the Commission groomed him to be their shiny little doll & nothing else. I think that that’s part of why some women relate to him so much. It reminds me of how the marvel fandom loves Bucky so much. It’s the same concept of being stripped of everything you know in order to be a perfect tool for others. Hawks then develops a dependency on his mask & uses it to hide, so he doesn’t hurt as much or rock the boat.

I feel that. Okay, so like… Hawks & Endeavor… *sigh* I’ll continue under the cut.

This is the one aspect of his character that makes me just… I don’t think I could ever truly respect Hawks in reality because of this. He’s canonically admired Endeavor since he was a wee little chick. I get that. That’s not what upsets me. What bothers me is that… as he grows up… and after he learns about Endeavor… he still admires and respects him… the same as when he was a kid…

Like, it’s canon that Hawks knows about Touya. It’s canon that he knows about Shoto. He probably knows about Rei. If he knows about Rei, he probably also has some idea of Natsuo and Fuyumi given certain circumstances. (I’ll leave it at that to keep this spoiler free for you.) However, Hawks still thinks Endeavor is just the coolest. It’s obvious he seeks his approval and desires to work with his own personal hero. Now, when I learned that the information had no impact on his pristine image of Enji, I was like “Alright, well we’re having chicken for dinner. Shoto, you want chicken with your cold soba? Never mind. Tastes like motherfuckin RAT!”

I literally felt so betrayed, I wrote a whole angsty Dabi x Reader x Hawks thing that was just basically me calling the both of them out for their shit despite loving the both of them because nobody talks about how they have some p sucky traits. 

I just can’t excuse that from Hawks. Like, knowing what I do about Hawks, I would never trust him as a hero. I can’t be sure if he’d save me if/when I needed him, but that’s a whole other rant about how I think he’d dismiss me. My point is that Hawks is the character he’s supposed to be, a “false hero” who Stain would hate, even under his mask. Also, it is an accurate portrayal of how heroes who are supposed to protect people don’t always protect you like they’re supposed to, and it’s a lot more common than most people realize. You know?

Also, tag yourself. I’d see Endeavor, call him a bitch to his face, call him every name in the book, punch him in the face, spit on him, and tell him to get out of my face & go to hell. (Although, I do love AUs where he’s a good dad & not a piece of shit who frequently beats his family. Also, he’s beefy & the thirst is real.) (He still canonically a shitstain, tho.) Also, the “Endeavor redemption arc” bullshit is stupid, and it shouldn’t be a thing. He’s not actually trying to do better to make up for what he did, he’s trying to do better for his own personal gain. He’s still using certain abuse tactics & it makes me so angry. 

I’m always here for canon Endeavor hate.

Also AU Endeavor love.

Anyway, rant over. Golden Girls is a good show.