#I say as I know I'm gonna be dying until Dec 12

[taruruchi]

YOU'RE TELLING ME MY LAST AZULCHI POST WAS BACK IN NOV???? NOT EVEN JUST THAT, BUT EARLY NOV???? NOV 12?????? ALMOST A MONTH AGO????? UNACCEPTABLE

[feuqueerfire]

Spare Me Your Mercy Ep 1 - 5 Live Blogging

Haven't watched a BL in a few months (Sept 13 to be specific) because I've been preoccupied with Dan and Phil (got into them again after a few years lol) and then got super busy oof.

But now... I yearn for the yaoi. Don't have time to watch a full 12 episode series but maybe an 8 ep series that has 3 eps out and is releasing 2eps/week hm. Also, my tiktok FYP doesn't really have BLs/series but lately I get the occasional Spare Me Your Mercy (+ Highschool Frenemy lol) tiktoks, so that has me thinking of this show as well.

This has been one of my most anticipated series, so I really hope it's great, please please please. Last thing I watched was 4 Minutes, which was also highly anticipated + by Sammon and seemed like it had a cool plot and things to say but uhhhhh let me down in the end :/ Hope this one goes better pleaseeee

Ep 1 (Dec 08)

gorgeous atmospheric stylistic beginning

oh no, he juuuust missed seeing his mom alive. Maybe he could've said hi and stuff if the accident didn't happen and he didn't have to do a detour to the hospital

the Nurse is gangster kid's mom from I Will Knock You

ah, 3 days ago. this is possibly what the mystery is, right? Whether our doc is killing the terminally ill patients who want to die? That's what I gathered from the tiktoks lol

Oh, another cancer related death already

who is this director?

I wonder what the nurses know about Dr. Kan. They're looking so suspicious when the captain wants to interview him

aw, Tew (Wasan?) getting to hear about his mom from Dr. Kan

The translations are a bit... ~32:35 when he says "Mom loves/d me a lot" but it translated as "Mom loves you a lot" like huh? no

"Make sure to check thoroughly" um… why does it seem like the Director is asking to possibly frame Kan even if the autopsy doesn't come up with anything

damn, 3 murders already

but this third murder... was it Kan? Like we see Kan in the car watching but then we don't see Kan doing the killing. and then the syringe is left behind?! girl. would Kan be so dumb. and what's up with the net on fire?

Ah, Grandpa Som from the beginning of the ep

Som thinks Dr. Kan's all-black clothes outfit is the spirit possessing him? but he's also quite afraid of Dr. Kan in general it seems

Curious first episode, I'm into it. Wanna watch next ep already rip but will hold off until at least tonight I think.

Okay, the thing is: If Kan has indeed been killing these patients, do they request the when and the how or has he been making these decisions on his own? Like in a tiktok, I think I saw him asking a patient if she fully consents to this + nobody is pressuring her, which I assume is him being asked to assist her in dying. However, would Tew's mother literally ask Kan to end her life the day her son is coming to visit?? hmmm

I would like Kan to be the killer, that's the most exciting

Ep 2 (Dec 11)

…was it Dr Kan who actually killed this old man as well despite his wishes?

i don’t fully get the medallion thief thing tbh

ah, insincere confession from Kan to throw Wasan off ig

I saw a post about how “you fee the same way i do. don’t hide it” “i’m not hiding it” wasn’t about their feelings for each other but about Kan saying Wasan is gay/likes men and Wasan saying I’m not denying that

Kan’s text not translated

Kan and Orn in kahoots

oh i so hope Kan, a doctor who the villagers see as an angel and takes care of patients better than their children, is indeed the killer

ooof only 26 mins watched and now i gotta go to work

Does he possess potassium chloride which he’s throwing out now or what

ah Wasan shows up…

Wasan is revealing info to make Kan think he doesn’t suspect him while he does right? Is Wasan gonna go through the fridge while Kan is busy cleaning up the bathroom

okayyyy yes i love Kan trying to hide things and Wasan trying to find things. cat and mouse

this director of the hospital is confusing who is he what are his motivations. though that’s true in general like for Dr Kan too

ahh what an exciting ending

Watched something on my ipad on my way to work + back after a long time. Fun.

Ep 3 (Dec 11/12)

Ep 4 came out today and I think I saw a tiktok where Wasan's arresting Kan hm we'll see

hmm who is this new character doing a narration? and Boss's idol is Kan hmhmhm

Ah, we learn that KCL can't just be stored by the doctor in their possession, only at the hospital

Boss is in kahoots with Kan and Orn...

Boss managed to play the "I'm dumb" card to throw off his "I'm suspicious" card I guess

they’re getting consent and doing it with the sick person’s knowledge hm perhaps the third dead guy was a different person or smth diff happened

they administered Zapa’s KCL in front of people okayyy so other people know of this i guess? interesting. could there be any possibility that Wasan’s sister knows?

wait. Boss and the Director? also did Boss call the director and not Kan??? or what?

giggling over their convo about their relationship over coffee. Sooooo into their demeanours, especially Wasan’s. but also don’t fully know if Kan is kidding

okay wait so Boss and Director are fucking around (well Director might love Boss who knows but Boss is there for survival) but Boss is indeed working for Kan and Director… might know it’s Kan from previous murders he has committed

oh nooo Wasan’s regrets about his mom

damn did Kan and Wasan get close af or smth, that was just one convo on the mountain

still them cancelling plans is cute somehow

ahhhh accusations

Ep 4 (Dec 13)

this director’s bf story kinda reminds me of Under The Whispering Door which I read last week and also had a side character who has a bf for three years who fell ill and passed away

interesting oppositions about Dr. Kan’s actions. I’m torn and don’t actually know where I stand, especially because of the Canada MAiD system and how it’s not… actually helping but rather just a way to have disabled people/ill people die instead of providing them with a better quality of life

I’m gonna assume the text they didn’t translate is Wasan telling Kan that he saw him leaving the Director’s house by car or smth

Their interactions are so fun because they’re each hiding stuff (well Kan is hiding and Wasan is trying to find out). And I also can’t tell how much they actually like each other vs are just trying to throw the other off/trying to catch the other

i’m a bit confused about the cars like how would the Director’s car be leaving and Kan’s car also be leaving if we assume Kan had Director bound at the back of his car

is this true? director left by himself? hmmmmm

please, the cop questioning Kan being confused as hell when it comes out that Kan and Wasan were together the night before lol

ohhhh Kan probably injected Director, so he drove as fast as he could to the hospital but died almost there

man, that’s so horrid if Kan actually killed the director, i hope it’s true. a doctor who euthanized terminally ill patients with their consent but his head got too big and so killed Nipon without consent and the director to hide his secrets hmhmhm

actually horrid how the phone call names aren’t translated either

ah, we get to see that this email wasn’t actually sent by the director but instead how he was killed

the cops are lyingggg saying they were onto the director and he fled

ah so indeed somebody else killed director and likely they also killed Nipon, it’s not Kan. Boss? since he’s involved and is a man like the nipon murder case suggested? could be Orn but she wasn’t at the directors house when Kan called her

ahh Wasan pointing a gun at the intruder not knowing it’s Kan

Wasan patting down Kan could’ve been a liiiitle more horny tbh lol

“I never thought you would lie to me” is a little too emotional considering their current relationship but sure

ah, that’s the handcuffing. i thought Wasan would have more evidence against Kan to be doing that tbh

bruh how is it half over, should’ve been 10-12 eps frrrr

immediately onto next ep

Ep 5 (Dec 13)

girl the director opposed abortion?

“there’s nothing more truthful than this” well you did euthanize some patients, including perhaps Wasan’s mother who he didn’t get to say goodbye to and has regrets about

long hair? short hair? you can learn blood type from hair?

funny how their relationship seems to swing from accusations of being a murderer/hiding the euthanizations (?) and like… kinda sweet moments lmao. + new introduction of questioning Kan about the other killer

it must be Boss right? said Professor to director and was asking about Kan

oh lol they immediately mention Boss

trying to remember if we know Kan is working with Boss or if I just assumed they were in kahoots because of the KCL thing hm

oh interesting, I guess Boss really did accuse the director of being the murderer because they’re showing the scene and they only tend to do that for real scenes. However, Boss could still be pretending to accuse the Director while he is the killer and also we don’t see how he actually died

not the fucking BDSM gear coming out as proof from Boss that he and the director were involved. If was I dead + being framed for murders (including Kan’s doings) + my bedroom escapades came out? girl i’m haunting you all

interesting to see the show position Boss as the spokesperson for the wrong reasons for euthanasia like how “terminal illness can affect families/healthcare workers and so it’s better the patients are dead” instead of focusing on the actual patients.

nooo the lesbians want to get married before one of them dies of lung cancer

girl don’t KCL someone so soon

please the flirting and teerak you know you’ve hit the jackpot? and i’ll get you another one next year how cute

and talking about Wasan’s mother girl… things are gonna go to shit when the truth comes out

‘give me some time’ ? girl i wanted a kiss (though i knew it wasn’t gonna happen bc i would’ve been spoiled for it by now like i saw some comment about the teerak thing i def cudnt have avoided kiss)

girl what the fuck is that Boss?

nooo the fucker got Urai before she and Cream could get married?

not the fucking pen?! but he probably just left it there previously (not the murder the night before), that feels unsuspicious because we knowwwww that Kan was in this room before. but maybe bc he again lied to Wasan about keeping it safe in the house?

fuckkkk i’m all caught up so i gotta wait more than 4 days till next ep

I'm curious to see:

1) Who is doing the other murders and how they'll be found out. Current theory is obviously Boss since he killed the Director and advocates for euthanasia for patients who are a "burden." I'm also very curious to see if the Doctor who is doing the autopsies has any hand in anything because sometimes she looks so suspicious... I had actually thought she was working with Director on something sinister in the first few eps.

2) How the romance progresses (I'm curious to see more flirting/kisses lol) and also like lowkey where are we in the relationship? How serious is this? Kinda confused because I thought it was kinda lightly treading considering they haven't known each other that long + the accusations and suspicions but the emotional reaction Wasan had about Kan lying was like oh... + Wasan asking Kan to give him more time? idk. also wanna see how they deal with Kan being the reason Wasan's mother likely passed away and all of Wasan's baggage with that.