#I said tonight that for the past five years I've been stagnating and spinning my wheels | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

talesofwhimsy · 3 months

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"As we hang up the map on the motel wall Count up the places that we've left behind, add the distances between them all All the bridges that someone's burned down for us All the chances that we burned all by ourselves

Makes us wonder what we were thinking then 'Cause we will never see Ireland again"

#I've been talking about moving past things a lot #Moving on #I said tonight that for the past five years I've been stagnating and spinning my wheels #But realistically it's been since I dropped out of college #And my mom going into the hospital I think snapped me awake #I realized she's not going to be around forever #I'll be lucky if she's around for another five years if I'm being honest #I have to do something with my life #I can't wait around #There's a lot of people I miss in my life #There's a couple people I really fucking miss #People that might still want something to do with me but maybe not #Burnt bridges hurt more if you don't know if they're totally burnt #Or if they're still burning and you can put them out #Or if they're not burning at all actually #Or if you're the one that burnt them or if that was someone else #I have burnt bridges before #I've burnt bridges I really shouldn't have #And sometimes it was because I didn't do anything when I should have #And sometimes it's because I did something I thought would be good but wasn't #And sometimes it was because I really needed to burn a bridge #But it still hurts #There are Irelands I want to see again #There are Irelands I'd give anything to see again #And there are Irelands I'm happy to never think about again #But I'm mostly making this post because of the second Irelands #But sometimes Irelands aren't people - they're places or ideas or things to move on from #And there's an Ireland I'm moving from that I don't want to but I'm still very excited to pull into New York Harbor anyway #And it took me a while to realize I deserved to be there #I'm mixing my metaphors

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