#I really want black cherry merlot to be someone but idk who

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one silly lil OC thing I’ve had on my brain lately is like. signature fragrance??? which is not a thing real people have but it’s a thing in flowery romances and shippy fanfic so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

anyway I’ve only sort of figured out Terrence, and I could not tell you why, but he’s giving midnight blue citrus from bath & bodyworks. which was not one of the select 3-wick candles that was on sale today. so I’m a little devastated 🫠

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what song makes you feel better? - All Too Well (10 Min Version) by Taylor Swift

what’s your feel-good movie? - You've Got Mail or honestly any Disney animation movies (also anything that's seasonal like the Halloweentown movies during Halloween or A Christmas Carol (Disney's 2009 version) during Christmas time.)

what’s your favorite candle scent? - I have favourite candles based on seasons. During the spring and summer time it's Black Cherry Merlot from Bath and Body Works. During the fall it's Sweet Cinnamon Pumpkin (which tbh I think is my all-time favourite) from Bath and Body Works and then during the winter time it's Fresh Balsam from Bath and Body Works.

what flower would you like to be given? - I really like daisies and lilies (especially water lilies)

who do you feel most you around? - My mom

say three nice things about yourself (three physical and three non-physical). - Physically, I guess I have nice hair, I look good in red lipstick, and I guess I have nice eyes?? (Tbh idk). Non-physically, I'm warm-hearted, very genuine, and I think my kindness runs very deep.

what color brings you peace? - I think like a soft tan.

tag someone (or multiple people) who make you feel good.  - N/A

what calms you down? - Hot Chocolate, music, and a good book

what’s something you’re excited for? - Taylor Swift's new album Midnights. One month to go!

what’s your ideal date? - Probably doing something low-key but fun and entertaining like going to a museum, a corn maze, an aquarium or even just a really nice drive with coffee.

how are you? - For the most part, I've had a really good day today, but the last week I was struggling with a little bit of anxiety and panic attacks that were coming out of the nowhere but I think they were due to me suppressing emotion or just a hormone thing. I've been really stressed about my future, but I think (I hope) things are going to start looking up. I got offered a new position at my job so I'm no longer going to be a cashier but part of the operations team where I'll be unsticking and cleaning which sounds kind of boring when I tell people but I'm really relieved because it's more low-key and relaxed with higher pay. Being a cashier was hurting my mental health by a lot so I'm ready for something that's behind the scenes like this.

what’s your comfort food? - Cheesecake or burger and fries I think. But tbh, it's more of a comfort "drink" for me. I always drink hot chocolate when I'm really sad which I've done that since I was really young. It immediately makes me feel comforted.

favorite feel-good show? - Superstore, Once Upon a Time (idk if this is considered feel-good but it gives me an escape and I like the fairytale-esque vibe), and probably Brooklyn Nine-Nine too.

for every emoji you get, tag someone and describe them in one word. - N/A

compliment the person who sent you this number. - N/A

fairy lights or LED lights? - Fairy

do you still love stuffed animals? - Not really. They're cute, but I was never really a stuffed animals kid either.

most important thing in your life? - My mom and my writing

what do you want most in the world right now? - To break out of my "writing block" feelings / fears of failure / negative thinking. It's all spiralled into one so if I could have that problem stop so I could actually do what I love, that'd be very nice

if you could tell your past self one thing, what would it be? - To stop trying to be other people or shape yourself into something YOU think is worthy and just be yourself. Stop trying to replicate other author's writing and just write like you. (Still trying to learn this tbh. It's been a long haul.)

what would you say to your future self? - More likely a question like: Are we content? Did it work out okay?

favorite piece of clothing? - Turtle neck sweater because it makes me feel like a rich French girl with her life together

what’s something you do to de-stress? - Journal or listen to music

what’s the best personal gift someone could give you (playlist, homemade card, etc.) - I'd love if someone did something personal and creative like write me a poem or draw something for me. I think that's super cute.

what movie would you want to live in? - Halloweentown because I want to live in Halloweentown. Always have, always will.

which character would you want to be? - Not sure about this one. I think I'd like to be me living in Halloweentown.

hugs or hand-holding? - Hand-holding. I'm not a hugger.

morning, afternoon or night? - Evening. (I also love mornings tho)

what reminds you of home (doesn’t have to mean house… just things that remind you of the feeling of home)? - I think just feeling contentedness and maybe even coziness. Something that makes me think of this feeling was a memory I had of it being a Sunday afternoon in the winter, we had all my favourite foods because we just came back from grocery shoppings, and then I was about to watch a Christmas movie. That feeling to me feels like home, because I was so content and at peace.

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Rules: Complete the survey and say who tagged you in the beginning. When you finished tag 5 people to do this survey. Have fun and enjoy!!! Tagged by: @sam-loves-ya 1: Are you named after someone? Yes my great grandmother 
2: When was the last time you cried? Sunday night 
3: Do you like your handwriting? Not particularly no, but if I have to write neat I can. 
4:What is your favorite lunch meat? I like salami and maybe some ham 
5: Do you have kids? Not yet but hopefully in the future 
6: If you were another person, would you be friends with you? I would hope to be friends with myself. If we were introduced I would probably think that I was really weird and awkward, but idk 
7: Do you use sarcasm? Psh… no… never 
8: Do you still have your tonsils? Yes I do. 
9: Would you bungee jump? Definitely, it looks like so much fun! 
10: What is your favorite kind of cereal? I like Reese’s puffs, but my mom thinks they have too much sugar. 
11: Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? If I have time. 
12: Do you think you’re a strong person? I like to think that I’m a physically strong person and if u would look at me I feel like I look mentally strong, but only some of my friends can tell I’m most likely not ok. 
13: What is your favorite ice cream flavor? I like mint chocolate chip and vanilla with sprinkles 
14: What is the first thing you notice about people? I definitely look at a persons eyes first. I feel like they can tell a lot about the person. 
15: Red or pink? Probably red. I don’t like pink 
16: What is the least favorite physical thing you like about yourself? The least favorite physical think that I don’t like about myself is my stomach and a lot of people say that, but I have gained some weight and some people have noticed so yahh 
17: What color pants and shoes are you wearing now? Well I’m not wearing pants or shoes, but black spandex 
18: What was the last thing you ate? I think it was cheese pizza 
19: What are you listening to right now? Some good PANIC! 
20: If you were a crayon, what color would you be? I would like to be a greenish blue but more on the blue side with a little purple. lol this is hard. 
21: Favorite smell? Well I couldn’t just pick one, so my two favorite are black cherry merlot and bow ties and bourbon from Bath and Body Works. 
22: Who was the last person you spoke to on the phone? My friend Kate. 
23: Favorite sport to watch? I like to watch gymnastics and diving 
24: Hair color? I dyed my hair light brown, but my natural hair is a mix of blonde and light brown 
25: Eye color? Brown. Just brown. 
26: Do you wear contacts? Yes. I hate my glasses 
27: Favorite food to eat? Pasta and Mac and cheese 
28: Scary movies or comedy? I prefer comedies, but I can watch scary movies 
29: Last movie you watched? The last movie I remember watching was Moana. Which was very good by the way. 
30: What color of shirt are you wearing? Grey. 
31: Summer or winter? I like both, but winter is really pretty 
32: Hugs or kisses? So I like hugs, I love the back kind where the person pulls u close and never let’s go. U know those ones. 
33: What book are you currently reading? The catcher in the Rye by J. D. Salinger. I have to read it for school. 
34: Who do you miss right now? I can’t just pick one person. 
35: What is on your mouse pad? I don’t have a mousepad… 
36: What is the last TV program you watched? I rewatched a couple episodes of The 100. 
 37: What is the best sound? I like the sound of water on water. Like rain on a pool. And fire crackling as u put more wood on. Nails scratching on skin. 
38: Rolling Stones or The Beatles? The Beatles. 
 39: What is the furthest you have ever traveled? Florida and that’s when I was five. 
40: Do you have a special talent? Not that I can think of at the moment. 
41: Where were you born? Pittsburgh, PA. Born and raised. 
42: People you expect to participate in this survey? Umm. The only person I really talk to tagged me so umm. Anyone if u want to.

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sunflower: if there was a door that went to a city that was a good representation of you, what city would it be and would you go through the door? - this is actually a really tough question for me. i’m unsure of what city it would be, but it would be one where it was fall all the time, but still had sunshine. a little bit of cold with warmth. a smaller city that when people passed by each other, they would smile. i don’t know… lol.pink: sunsets or sunrises - i love both so much. i would probably pick sunrises, but at the same time i hate waking up so maybe sunsets?! freshly cut grass: are you an early riser? if not, is this because you stay up late? - I’ve always been a night owl. But I get up every morning at 4am for work and usually exhausted.journal: would you dye your hair if you had the opportunity? why or why not? - yes, it’s currently dyed with highlights. if my job allowed for it, i would probably have pastel purple or pink honestly.painting: in what ways are you creative? - i feel like zero ways lol.waves: is there one music genre you can’t listen to? - i’m not a fan of screamo or hard rock.writing: do you write letters? if not, would you like to? - um, i’m not really sure. i mean, i write notes to people. i journal. waterfalls: describe your perfect date. - i think it would depend on the person i was with and what date it was. i think it would be having lunch, walking on sand holding hands, and then going home and getting cozy and watching a movie. i’m pretty basic. freckles: what’s something that makes you happy? describe the first thing that comes to your head. - peace makes me happy. where there’s no worries in life and i can just relax and enjoy what and who is around me.dimples: would you rather be inviting on a hike or a night out? - i like hiking if it’s not for long periods and there’s a good view at the end. i don’t drink, but i like nights out.blushing: describe a rad person you know. - lol, who uses the word rad anymore. i don’t even know. i hate everyone. hehe.watercolor: talk about something someone you are interested in can do that never fails to make you find them attractive? - whenever he is across the room and makes eye contact with me and smiles, always makes me melt and just want to run up to him and start kissing him.pine: if you could only smell one scent for the rest of your life, what would it be? - the scent black cherry Merlot from bath and body works lol.pink eye shadow: pasta or pizza? - PASTA! icy: homemade or takeout? - depends on what the meal is.rose: what’s your opinion on shyness? - there’s shyness and socially awkward. both are okay, and both i have at times. i sometimes with it didn’t exist though.clouds: list your top 5 songs at the moment and how they make you feel. - ouuuu. this one is exciting to do. hmmmm..1. 1-800-273-8255 // lately, i feel like i’m slipping under the weight of depression. lately, i feel like a failure, unworthy and someone i don’t believe in anymore. i have definitely isolated myself and removed so many people from my life, and just feel like everyone gave up. but it’s truly my own fault. this song, just makes me feel like i can want to be alive again. that it will always get better. 2. let you down // this is dedicated to everyone i’ve let down. i hate that i’ve hurt people, that i’ve failed people. i just wish i could erase my existence in people’s lives. maybe then i wouldn’t feel the way i do. idk..3. pray // i’m not sure i can explain this one without starting to bawl and i am at work but i feel like it will explain itself if you listen. sam smith is just a beautiful artist. also, if you want more sam smith, the whole album is amazing but HIM, too good at goodbyes of course (acoustic), and the thrill of it all will put you all in feels. 4. havana // this song doesn’t have much meaning to me, but i just like the vibe of it and listen to it when i’m feeling it.5. your shirt // everyone always leaves.silk: listen songs you listen to for a jam - oh shoooot. it really depends on what i’m feeling. i could jam to rap some days and others jam to pop and others jam to upbeat sad songs lol.white sheets: where’s somewhere you would love to travel to? why? - hmm, bora bora i think just because of how beautiful it is. but also Thailand for the elephants. black nail polish: what do you do to pamper yourself? - get a pedicure and my nails done!hidden beaches: do you prefer to hand out in a big group or one on one? - depends on the people/person.crossed fingers: using no negative words, describe your hair. - yikes. it’s long and brown with blonde highlights. looks best curled but never have time lol. always tangled, but appreciative that i can sleep on it wet and just get up and brush it in the morning and it’s straight lol. mocktails: cold weather or hot weather? - ouuu, hot i think.