#I physically could not resist the itty bitty changes

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A doodle I decided to do on a whim for @sapphic-loser16 who requested HW Link x SKSW Link. I tried out more along the lines of their canon designs!!

Pls don't tag any AUs :) reblogs appreciated!! 💚

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Remus’s Suffering

Remus’s mind is a bitch to him in more than one ways. 

A note: Bold words in Deceit’s speech are meant to be taken the opposite

Tags: @chatladybugaboo @angelicblackwolf

Warnings: Mentions of character deaths, cannibalism, and a lot of angst

Word Count: 1440

It was just one of those days for Remus. His mind was not shutting up as idea after idea came by. Maybe one of them could stick if he went to see everyone else.

Ever sense he got turned into a giant, Remus had to live a little ways away but the others made sure that he was either included in activities or just visited as so he could have fun. He loved playing with Patton and Deceit the most. Patton loved being tossed into the air only to land in his massive hand. Deceit was more for being chased around like a mouse. Like a game of cat and mouse but more like a game of octopus and snake. It was fun. Roman liked to create stories with him like before but more with giants and tiny people now. Virgil would hide away with the giant side to watch some Nightmare Before Christmas and cheesy horror movies. Logan liked asking him questions about how his new size and body were adjusting.

Of course he himself was very happy to get the attention. And -

Chew up Roman and feed his guts to Deceit.

The intrusive thought but(t)ed in like most of his own. But this, this wasn’t good intrusive no no no no no no no no no, this was a bad kind. Thomas’s intrusive thoughts were nothing compared to the detail of Remus’s. Remus made sure to dial Thomas’s as not to scar him. But Remus couldn’t do that, no no no, Remus was stuck with -

Shove a thumb up Logan’s ass and than stamp on him.

What would be like to tear Virgil’s arms off as he gets steamrolled over?

NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO!

He couldn’t see them now! He wouldn’t see them! His own impulse was worse as he is now and his own strength could any of these thoughts happen!

Before Remus knew it, he was in a small corner of his room with his hands under his arms, head down, knees to his chest. He just….needed to let this pass, like the other times. Stay still, don’t move. Don’t react, don’t think.

A mantra that Remus came up with to help him through these moments. It was wishful thinking that the others could help but again that was wishful. If anything it would make them fearful of him if his impulsiveness kicked in around them. Remus just let the thoughts keep coming, one after another. Just let it pass.

Like the other sides, he had his own anxieties too. His were of himself, especially now. Hands that could flattened humans like pancakes, strength to make another pop like a zit, teeth that could skewer a person. A poke could kill someone if he wasn’t careful. Normally, he wasn’t because it wouldn’t be any of his family on the receiving end.

He was rough, yes, but he did his best to not even use 1/100th of his strength. He was scary, yes, but he never means to scare anyone unless they gave him their consent first. He was huge compared to the other sides. They were like itty bitty figures to him. He was roughly 150 feet tall as measured by Logan. If he squished them, they be nothing but red on the floor and he didn’t like it.

His mind was racing with these thoughts. Thoughts of torturing the other sides with his strength, his hands, his feet, and teeth. Mashing them up and eating them or feeding the dead sides to each other before he takes them all. The worst ones were of Thomas - not him! They always physical hurt Remus when those thoughts came up.

But he kept up his mantra and didn’t give into his impulse. So long as none of them came to him, they would be fine. Time pasted with what seemed to be a crawl. The thoughts hadn’t let up nor had they gotten worse. Luckily, thoughts about Thomas hadn’t appear yet.

“Remus! Hey, bro what - oh dear.” FUCK! Roman walked into the larger twin’s room. Remus forgot to lock his room! Roman stayed away from Remus, his twin had seen him like this but never this huge! Gods he was going scare Roman away again! Unfocused eyes were halfway trained on Roman and halfway trained on nothing. The thoughts shifted to being Roman centric and it wasn’t pleasant for Remus.

“Shit, Remus, you having an episode? Of course he is Roman, don’t be an idiot.” Roman berated himself before coming close to Remus. Remus reacted by squeezing himself inward. He didn’t want anyone close to him. Roman could help but his impulse was screaming for him to bite of a leg of Roman’s! Roman didn’t get closer than 30 feet but that was still too close for Remus. Roman began to speak about different ideas that he had for Thomas’s videos and how Remus could still be in them. It be hard but Roman was more than willing to help his brother out. Roman simply just talked, and talked, and talked, and -

“Kiddos! I am coming in!”

“Oh no!” Roman gasped, Patton would want to comfort Remus with hugs. That could send him into a panic that no one wanted, “Wait Patton!”

“Yes?” Patton had opened the door just a bit and the amazing sent of Patton’s home cooked meal wafted into the darker twin’s room. It smelled like ribs, Remus��s favorite, for how messy it was -

Crunch on Patton’s ribs.

Remus went rigged again, listening but not hearing Roman talking to Patton. Patton’s cry followed by Roman holding him back only made Remus realize that Roman told Patton!

‘Patton please leave! I don’t want you hurt by me!’ Remus internally screamed as Patton struggled against the fanciful side. The struggles only stopped when another voice spoke up,

“What isn’t going on in here?” Deceit, with Logan and Virgil coming through. Deceit’s eyes widened upon seeing Remus’s stated. The half snake cused softly and explained to the other two.

No Thomas, good. No need to traumatize his host with this.

Patton took this opportunity to get out of Roman’s grips and sprint to Remus. Only to be tackled down by Deceit, Deceit held tightly as Patton yelled about ‘needing to tend to his dirty son’.

If anyone was the dirtiest, it was Roman. His room was an organized mess. Remus and Logan were tied for most cleaned and organized rooms.

Remus burly watched as the others talked and began to work their own magic. Logan would give some kind of fact, some random and off the top of his head. Roman would make up a story with the fact some where in there. Patton would add something as Virgil would point out inconsistencies or give a different point of view. Deceit watched Remus, Deceit waited. Deceit was very good at waiting. He would update the others if anything changed with Remus. Virgil made sure that Remus didn’t hyperventilate and Logan and Roman continued to fill the air about nothing and everything.

Remus began to feel confident.

“Remus, you aren’t fine now?” Deceit asked, not moving. He had let go of Patton, only for Patton to be grabbed by Roman.

“Tired…..”

“You know we are scared of you right? We will leave.”

“I know….sorry you guys had to see me like this.”

“We are a family Remus. Family must look out for each other no matter what.” Logan stated, looking up at the giant side. Virgil nodded.

“Remus, you’re my brother, I love you and I won’t stop loving you. No matter what happens!” Roman grinned before letting go of Patton. The fatherly side ran straight to Remus’s feet and hugged his ankles. It felt like a dam had been busted and tears started running down his checks. Remus unfolded himself to pick Patton up. He held the smaller male on his nose as Remus keep crying. Soon he felt more tinies climb his pants up. His family, as tiny as they may be compared to him, they were his.

“You will hurt us Remus, I don’t know that.” Deceit spoke as he and the others got up on his knees, “You shouldn’t give yourself more credit. You don’t have the strength to resist those impulses.”

Remus felt another wave of tears stream down his face. He picked the others up, with a little hesitation, and held them to his chest. He moved Patton to his chest as well as he cried. He was lucky to have them as a family.

[assemblcd]

ok i was encouraged. so please. just know i have a vague understanding of sharon’s comic history. this is pure mcu base only. and just me trying to work out her behavior in the films. this was stream of conscious at like 4am and i apologize i’m going through and trying to fix spelling and giving up on grammar.

sharon was at shield headquarters as a child. we know this. why. why the fuck would you take a child there. i mean, unless you work there.

dad was a shield agent. mom stayed at home. i had to go through the timelines and determined that sharon would actually likely have been peggy's GREAT-great-niece. michael carter dies sometime in the early part of the war, i'm still rewatching agent carter so i'mma check for a wedding ring in the peggy engagement party scene. if not he knocked some girl up and didn't marry her and the carter parents took the kid and raised it after michael dies. that's like 1943ish. 23ish years later is only 1966?? graduate uni, road trip across america, party too hard in the hippie socal area and BAM next gen. can't be sharon. so that means ANOTHER baby boy carter running around until he knocks up some lovely lady around his mid 20's which gives us a super reasonable sharon. peggy's older brother's great grandaughter. ANYWAY.

ok. so we've established generation and loose concept for how sharon ends up being an american, vs uk, etc etc.

lets move on to how she ended up at shield.

pops was a shield agent. just. no way around that. peg was at her highest level of influence at the time, had just- in my canon, and just my canon, since these are my versions of her children- had her daughter run away, her eldest son deserted her for the military and her youngest was being courted by howard stark for a position at stark industries, but thankfully had resisted and WAS working for shield. but basil carter, sharon's dad, was different- he was an agent. he was more like peggy. baz, as his friends called him, did have a young family pretty early on in his career, and a beautiful baby girl named sharon, but peg still had an EYE for skill and talent and baz had everything a good field agent needed- and his heart was in the right place (she worried a lot about her youngest, if she was honest. and don't get her started on cici- it was pure worry because daughter was so lost she couldn't have found her way out of a wet paper bag, STILL at this point in her history.) so she mentored and encouraged and he rose in the ranks really quickly. in fact, he shouldn't even have BEEN on the mission in turkmenistan. he was too senior. but he was running back-end because an agent had been injured and they were down a man.

sharon was 12. it was a rough time in the region. her dad was gone for business all the time, but this time he didn't come back. peggy came to tell her and her mother personally. the safehouse he'd been running the op from had been discovered and blown up. they didn't have much for them to bring home and bury. sharon held her mother's hand while they put her father in the ground and somehow, tears didn't come- she missed her father, but she was also angry. not at shield. not at aunt peggy. at the people who had taken her daddy.

her mom got super over protective then. just...wouldn't let her out, wouldn't let her go to parties, sent her to a strict christian school and then wouldn't let her go to her first choice colleges either. sharon rebelled a lot. she was a little wild, and it was directly tied to her rage and her bucking her mom's hold on her. all those conversations with aunt peggy? her mom would have tried to murder the both of them. and it was PEGGY, ultimately, who got sharon to calm the fuck down and focus. gave her a reason.

when she did graduate from her itty bitty christian college in the middle of bumfuck nowhere, peg got her an offer to attend the academy- not communications, or safe with sci-ops, but in operations. field work. her mom flipped. sharon didn't care. her congratulations on making the cut present from aunt peggy was the thigh holster- designed after the one ana jarvis made peggy all the way back in the 50's.

from there, it was years of academy training, and ultimately, placement at the triskellian, which i want to stress, is actually a huge deal for any shield agent. most of the bases are shit assignments, but that's like a big deal. the next big deal down is the hub, and i suspect sharon spent a little bit of time there, too. while at the academy, there were several sort of branches of operations you could go- sharon was never a specialist, per se. she has a lot of that training, but her mind is far better suited to overall operational organization- which is very much an echo of her father, and of peggy, who can punch like a bulldozer but also views ops in their entirety and can make changes on the fly that keep her team alive. sharon's got that sort of mind, which is why she was working IN ops when shield fell after blowing her cover with steve, but was still able to take an aggressive physical stand. also that she was talking to pierce directly? girl's level 7 or 8, minimum. and THAT? means that sharon actually knows that phil coulson isn't dead. and never tells steve. anyone above level 7 knew. she's a senior member of shield. and she's really young for that. she was probably even aware of the meeting on the bus- might even have been there, except she was undercover with cap at the time. guessing sitwell was only there because she couldn't be.

back to the other point. her position on a cia taskforce is yet another indication that she is operationally minded. that she was running point at that scene within an hour of the attack in cw SCREAMS that she's a senior member of that team. that the cia has recognized exactly what peggy saw in this girl all along- a fine agent and a brilliant mind. peggy's motivations for joining the soe and then the ssr and sharon's are almost identical- but i feel like sharon has a lot more anger, and has spent a lot of her career trying to find the people responsible for her father's death. she's extremely focused. takes assignments seriously. is a master of disguise and undercover work. even steve didn't realize she was shield until she told him. she's peak level spy, and she knows it.