#I needed to talk face to face with someone who wasn't actively greiving about the situation and I trusted my dad and grandma with that | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

dirtytransmasc · 10 months ago

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personal vent:

grieving with a separated family is hard.

my uncle passed on my mom's side. my mom, very rightfully so, isn't making my dad's side a priority when it comes to giving people information, as the two sides were never close, it's not like they considered each other family.

my dad's side is now talking my mom's family's business from the limited information they have from me (cause it's not like my mom's side doesn't want them to know, so I tell them what I do know, cause there should be no harm in it).

like shut up! shut up shut up shut up! they turn it into drama and gossip and now I'm mad I told them anything at all. like. no you don't need to tell all of your friends every little detail about it, holy shit.

and I feel especially upset cause I only told them, cause I had no one to really talk to. I process big events like this by retelling the story over and over until it feels real. I told them because I needed to talk to someone I could trust to just vent to.

#I needed to talk face to face with someone who wasn't actively greiving about the situation and I trusted my dad and grandma with that #now I feel guilty #cause they're essentially just abusing the fact I told them anything and are using it like a conversation starter #like be respectful????#be compassionate????#bffr???#thank you for using my uncles death to pad out your conversation with your friends #jesus fucking christ #like. they act like they know everything about the situation too. like babes. you knew *nothing* until *I* told you. shut up #I told you cause its common decency to keep you in the loop that is my life #but its my business. its my moms sides business. not yours.#personal vent #screaming into the void cause I'm pissed #grief #loss #family being family/neg

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