#I need to not post things early morning it’s either sad or just chaotic-

[starlit-supposedly]

Hmm I am always worried about talking about mundane stuff while on tumblr…

I do know it’s my own blog and I’m allowed to say whatever but there’s always the worry it’s…boring.

I’m know I’m allowed to exist and think my own things and have opinions and-

I do hate being bored and I would assume the same for other people, but I’m about 99% sure that hearing about some blood red lip tint or just fucking up a recipe just isn’t interesting?

What if I’m boring? That’s literally the furthest thing I would ever want to be…or become…

What a great fear to have huh?

[otakusheep15]

SFW Alphabet - Barbatos

I know I haven’t posted in a while, but since today’s Barb’s b-day, I decided I would

A = Affection (How affectionate are they? How do they show affection?)

The thing is, he actually really loves giving affection. He’s usually just busy, so he never has the time. But when he does have time, expect him to be all over you (respectfully of course). His favorite form of affection is when one of you is cooking and the other will come up and give a hug from behind. He melts no matter which position he’s in. 

B = Best friend (What would they be like as a best friend? How would the friendship start?)

Most of y’alls hangouts include baking or having tea. He also likes when you follow him around while he works so that he has company. In his free time, he likes to take you to different stores and restaurants in both the Human World and the Devildom so that you two can sample what they have. He’s also lowkey chaotic, so he might drag you into pulling pranks every now and then. 

C = Cuddles (Do they like to cuddle? How would they cuddle?)

Again, he’s actually really affectionate, so cuddles aren’t off the table. For him, cuddling after a long day is a great way to unwind. It’s also one of the few times he lets his guard down a bit and actually begins to relax. Basically what I’m saying is, please give this man cuddles. He deserves it. 

D = Domestic (Do they want to settle down? How are they at cooking and cleaning?)

He’s honestly one of the best choices if you want to settle down. He can cook, clean, and any other chores you so desire. And he also loves the idea of settling down. He’s been working for so long and, while he loves his job, it can be pretty taxing on him sometimes. The idea of just leaving it all behind to settle down with the one he loves sounds like a dream to him. 

E = Ending (If they had to break up with their partner, how would they do it?)

Probably the bluntest out of anyone. Like, he does not care about how the other will react. He’s more used to people breaking up with him since he cares about his job more than them in most cases, so if he’s the one initiating the break up, then it’s for a reason. And that reason is probably not a good one. He will probably make the person cry. 

F = Fiance(e) (How do they feel about commitment? How quick would they want to get married?)

Marriage isn’t all that interesting to him. he doesn’t find it all that necessary like others do. To him, just being together is enough, so he doesn’t need anyone to certify it for him. However, if you wanted to get married, he would never refuse.  

G = Gentle (How gentle are they, both physically and emotionally?)

He’s surprisingly gentle. He understands how sensitive emotions can be, so he’s super careful with the one’s he cares about. The last thing he wants is to hurt someone he loves, so he’s super gentle. He’s also aware of how physically strong he is, so he tries his best to control himself so that he doesn’t accidentally lash out and hurt you. 

H = Hugs (Do they like hugs? How often do they do it? What are their hugs like?)

He doesn’t have a lot of time, so hugs are usually rare. But he loves them anyway. they’re a great way for him to recharge throughout the day. Just pop in every now and then and give him a quick hug and he’ll just die but you won’t know that.

I = I love you (How fast do they say the L-word?)

It takes him a long time to say it. Not necessarily because he’s scared or not ready, but just because he doesn’t see the point in rushing it. He knows you love him and that he loves you too, so he knows the words themselves aren’t needed. When he does say it, it’ll be absolutely perfect. 

J = Jealousy (How jealous do they get? What do they do when they’re jealous?)

He may seem like he doesn’t get jealous, but he does. In fact, he gets insanely jealous, especially of the brothers. You spend so much time with them, and he never has any time to spend with you since he’s always working. He hates that you two never seem to have time to be together, and that ends up making him jealous. Just give him some attention and he should calm down some. 

K = Kisses (What are their kisses like? Where do they like to kiss you? Where do they like to be kissed?)

His kisses are so amazing. He always knows just what to do and when/where to do it. You will always be satisfied with him. His favorite place to kiss you is the nape of your neck since he likes the reaction it gets out of you. He also likes when you kiss his cheek since he finds it cute. 

L = Little ones (How are they around children?)

Oh, he hates kids. Absolutely despises them. The only exception is Luke since he is tolerable for the most part. But other than that, kids are one of his least favorite things. They’re messy, loud, and distract him from his work like Dia and the brothers lol.

M = Morning (How are mornings spent with them?)

He usually has to wake up pretty early in the mornings, so they can go one of two ways. If you’re an early riser like him, you two will get ready and go to the kitchen to have breakfast together before he has to start work. If you tend to sleep in, he’ll get out of bed without waking you and send in another servant to bring you breakfast in bed with a schedule of where he has to be today so that you can come find him. 

N = Night (How are nights spent with them?)

Night time is pretty much the only time he ever gets to just relax and not have to worry about work. Expect to be pulled away to his room and not leave until morning. This is maybe the only time he can spend with you without the fear of being pulled away from you, and he’s going to enjoy it damnit. 

O = Open (When would they start revealing things about themselves? Do they say everything all at once or wait a while to reveal things slowly?)

I doubt he’d ever reveal everything about himself. After all, he is quite mysterious. Obviously, he’d trust you enough to open up about some aspects of himself, but mostly just surface level things. If you really want to know something about him, your best bet is going to Diavolo, and even then it’s most likely a lost cause. 

P = Patience (How easily angered are they?)

This man is the definition of patient. It takes a lot to rile him up enough to actually snap. He’s been working a Dia’s butler forever now, so he knows how to keep his emotions under control. He may feel irritated or annoyed fairly often, but he will not let it show unless he is truly angered. 

Q = Quizzes (How much would they remember about you? Do they remember every little detail you mention in passing, or do they kind of forget everything?)

Of course he remembers absolutely everything about you. You so much as mention something you enjoy, he already has it to give to you. He has a great memory, and that’s only enhanced by how in love with you he is. 

R = Remember (What is their favorite moment in your relationship?)

He isn’t one to have any one specific favorite, but he does love any time you two bake together. It’s such a calming thing, and you two can simply just have fun alone without having to deal with Dia or the brothers. It always brings such a smile to his face when he remembers all of the baking sessions you two have had. Even if you don’t know how to bake, that’s fine with him, cause he’s with you. 

S = Security (How protective are they? How would they protect you? How would they like to be protected?)

He’s very protective, but in a subtle way. He’s never one to be bold or over the top, but he still feels the need to protect you if he ever feels you’re in danger. Honestly, he’s scary enough on his own, so most other demons tend to leave you alone if you’re with him. And because you’re always around him, his scent started to rub off on you, alerting other demons to stay away even when he isn’t there. 

T = Try (How much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, everyday tasks?)

He’s used to planning huge events, so he can go as all out as you want. You want a party with every demon in the Devildom? It’s done. You just want a lowkey date alone with him? He can do that to. It all depends on what you want him to do. 

U = Ugly (What would be some bad habits of theirs?)

He has a hard time separating himself from his work. After all, he’s been working for Dia for so long, so it makes sense that it would be hard for him to leave it alone, even for a few hours. Sometimes, you may have to pull him away from his work and force him to rest. If that doesn’t work, you might have to talk to Dia about getting him some time off. 

V = Vanity (How concerned are they with their looks?)

He is concerned with his looks, but only because of who he works for. He knows that he has to keep up appearances lest he embarrass Dia at all. Other than that, he could honestly care less about his looks. 

W = Whole (Would they feel incomplete without you?)

Quite honestly, he was already incomplete before he even met you, and he’s still somewhat incomplete now. He’s never once felt whole, and that didn’t change very much when you arrived. Yes, he loves you, but you didn’t change much of how complete he feels inside. So, yeah, he’d feel incomplete without you, but he feels incomplete regardless. 

X = Xtra (A random headcanon for them.)

This isn’t so much a headcanon as just me being an angsty mess, but I just love the idea of him being lowkey jealous of Lucifer. I mean, ever since Luci fell and started working for Dia, he’s been getting so much credit for basically everything. I like the idea that maybe he gets a bit jealous of Luci and the attention and praise that he gets despite doing the same amount of work. (and yeah, I know this totally isn’t the case at all, and I’m sure he gets plenty of attention, but I love the idea of jealous, and kinda sad Barb). 

Y = Yuck (What are some things they wouldn’t like, either in general or in a partner?)

He doesn’t like someone who's lazy and doesn’t take work seriously. he also doesn’t like anyone who consistently distracts him from his work without legitimate reason. Also anyone who insults Dia or presents any possible threat to him. Other than that, he’s surprisingly chill with almost anyone. 

Z = Zzz (What is a sleep habits of theirs?)

More like lack of sleep habit honestly. I genuinely don’t believe that he sleeps. And if he does, it’s for a couple hours at the most. Really, he just works too much to sleep that much.  

[gothamslittlejester]

SFW Alphabet with Phoenix!Joker and Ledger!Joker

Hello, I am not dead. I’m really sorry I haven’t posted in forever, so here’s a pretty long piece for both the clownbois to make up for it for you guys (hopefully,, aghhh). I hope my joker license has not been revoked lol, forgive me lovelies.

The characters will be written separately, but feel free to imagine them together if you wish! I just thought writing them both at once made for an interesting comparison. Phoenix!Joker will be referred to as Arthur, and Ledger!Joker as J. I didn’t do all the alphabet letters because some were repetitive, so here’s the ones I thought would make good headcannons!

A = Affection (How affectionate are they? How do they show affection?)

Phoenix!Joker

· Out of the two, Arthur is considerably more affectionate. Being so deprived of love for so long, he doesn’t hesitate to absolutely smother you in affection 24/7, whether that be through kisses, long hugs and warm smiles, or more subtle actions like helping you clean around the house or washing your hair in the bath. He may be a killer clown, but he can’t help dotting on you every time you’re together.

· He also praises you any chance he gets, cooing in your ears how amazing you are and how much you mean to him. He wants you to feel loved in every way possible, both verbally and physically.

· His favorite way of showing affection is making you laugh or cheering you up whenever you’re down. Bad jokes? Cute magic tricks? Running your boss over with a truck? He knows the blues can come and go as they please and they can really affect your whole mood, so he makes sure to always bring some happiness in your life.

Ledger!Joker

· J shows his affection in much more subtle ways, although with time you find yourself picking up on them effortlessly. He may not always vocalize his affection, but there’s no denying his adoration for you.

· He’s very playful with you; tickle fights, wrestling matches, pinching your ass and ruffling your hair are all things you grow accustomed to, and they never fail to make you laugh. If you blush or squeak in response to his antics, J will think it’s the cutest and funniest thing in the world. He’ll only be more encouraged to get that response out of you next time, so good luck to you.

· At night, his displays of affection shift from playful to more protective and domineering. If he’s feeling suddenly possessive of you, he envelops you in a protective hug and pulls you into his chest. His side of the bed will always the one closest to the door in case of trouble.

· His affection is very physical, and will often be shown through actions. He’ll take care of any inconvenience you have- someone bother you, sweetheart? You never see them again.

B = Best friend (What would they be like as a best friend? How would the friendship start?)

Phoenix!Joker

· Arthur will always be there for you, listening to you vent for hours, helping you with any little chore or problem you have and just chilling with you by the television for hours. He’s never had someone to confide in and care for him, and every understanding look and encouraging smile you give him is stored in a special place in his heart.

· Not only is he a great listener for you too, but his advice is never halfhearted. If you have a problem, or something you’re uncertain about, he’ll do his best to help you sort it out until you’re confident again. He’ll be there for you no matter what, because you’ll be there for him too.

Ledger!Joker

· Now, Having J as a friend is extremely chaotic and often leads to him dragging you away to join him on some illegal adventure at 3 in the morning. Are you gonna go rob a bank or go scare the elderly? Who knows, who cares! Just get dressed and join him!

· Philosophical conversations with J are incredible. He never dismisses your ideas or thoughts of the world, encouraging you to always speak your mind, filter free. There’s no need to hide from him, ever.

C = Cuddles (Do they like to cuddle? How would they cuddle?)

Phoenix!Joker

·  When he cuddles you, Arthur feels like all his problems just melt away, and therefor will not let go of your body for hours. It’s therapeutic and heals his soul in a way that his medication never could.

· His little secret is that he loves it when he’s the little spoon, or just generally being cradled by you. Lying on top of your chest just to hear your heartbeat? Absolute heaven.

·  His favorite thing to do is to rub his nose in the crook of your neck and take a big breath, relishing in your scent. It makes him feel so safe and loved he could cry, and during bad days he probably has. Even after he turned into Joker, it would take a bulldozer to rip his grabby hands away from your warm body. Due to how frail and cold his body is, he’s not the epitome of a teddy bear, but the amount of love and comfort that radiate off of him is enough to make for that. It’s nothing a warm blanket can’t fix, and his kisses are the warmest all year round.

Ledger!Joker

· Now, J would never admit it, but he’s just as big of a cuddler as Arthur. I know, I know, controversial! But there is no way you can convince me that this man isn’t an attention seeking, touch starved, hug deprived needy little asshole. Having you wrap your arms around him in the middle of the night, melting into his body with a satisfied sigh, is cocaine to him. Feeling you playfully jump on his back and embrace him from behind makes J want to blow up the city for you. He’ll do it too, don’t tempt him.

· Only difference is, he much more prefers it when you initiate it- seeing you all needy and pouty for him just makes him so giddy. What’s that Y/N? You’re desperate for him? Well, I guess he can hold you in his arms, since he’s so generous...

· Of course, he’s not shy either, and will get his way if need be. If you sit more than 2 inches away from him on the couch you’re instantly pulled onto his lap, and don’t even think about falling asleep without being buried in his side. He wants to feel loved, dammit!

K = Kisses (What are their kisses like? Where do they like to kiss you? Where do they like to be kissed?)

Phoenix!Joker

· Arthur’s kisses are soft and dotting, always gentle and loving. He often moans into the kiss and pulls you closer, never getting enough of you. They can be desperate and needy after a long day away from you, but they are generally very sweet and slow.

· He likes to press kisses all over your face and cheeks, liking the way you giggle as he peppers them all over you. He really cant get enough of you, and just the knowledge that he has someone in his life that enjoys being intimate with him leaves Arthur completely awed.

· He’ll take any sort of kiss from you without complaint, but his favorite is when you’re holding him from behind, either in bed or in the bath, and press a gentle one to his back. It makes him feel loved and safe, which he hadn’t felt in a long time.

Ledger!Joker

· When J kisses you, he truly does steal your breath away. All his passion, obsession and need for you are conveyed effortlessly with the way he moves against your mouth and wraps his arms around your body in a protective manner.

· Although oftentimes rough and sensual, his kisses can also be very teasing and playful. He’ll kiss your hand in a romantic manner just to see you blush and shake your head, or leave little hickeys down neck that he likes to kiss again later. He’s also not opposed to licking you, so watch out for that.

· He’ll never admit it, but he loves it when you lean up to kiss his cheek. It’s such a sweet and gentle action, something he’s not accustomed to whatsoever, and it leaves him feeling very warm and protective inside. Especially when your lips brush against his scars- knowing you love them and want to show them affection makes J want to kill for you.

L = Little ones (How are they around children?)

Phoenix!Joker

·Arthur loves being there for children, especially the less fortunate ones. Despite how crazy and ruthless Joker can be, he would never even dream of laying a hand on a child.

· There are times when he remembers the joy that his old persona “Carnival” could bring to the sad young faces of all those kids, and it’s enough to make him grimace and reminisce on what he lost.

· He’d never expect to start a family with you while he’s out being criminal menace as a full time job, but there are times where he allows his imagination to run wild, picturing a world with a better life for the both of you, his children playing in the garden while you grow old together.

Ledger!Joker

· J... J is a bully. He doesn’t have the patience whatsoever to deal with children at all, and overall just finds their incessant questions mind-numbing. They’re not even good questions- questions that provoke a philosophical debate or reconsideration of our purpose in the universe for example- just dumb ones that can be googled in a second. Why is the sky blue? Give him a break.

· Now, He wouldn’t go out of his way to single out a child and brutally kill them- he wants his victims to fully understand their doom, and kids don’t have that level of comprehension yet- but if one of those smug little shits happened to be carrying around a balloon, ho ho! It’s getting popped on sight. You know that saying “steeling lollipops from babies?” Yeah, that’s J.

· May not be a big fan of kids, but if you ever need a top quality dead baby joke, he’s your guy!

M = Morning (How are mornings spent with them?)

Phoenix!Joker

· Having had so many jobs in his life, Arthur has adapted to waking up in the early morning with ease.

· If he has to go somewhere, he’ll quietly tiptoe around the apartment as he gets ready, careful not wake you up as he gets dressed in his red suit and applies his makeup. He’ll place a gentle kiss to your temple just before he has to leave, staring adoringly at your peaceful face for a few minutes.

· If he has nothing planned, Arthur will just lay in bed until you wake up naturally, enjoying the feeling on your arm body pressed against him.

Ledger!Joker

· J is a drama queen. Being mostly nocturnal, J doesn’t even get out of his REM sleep cycle until like 3 pm at the earliest.

· On those days where he gets woken up at, god forbid, 9 am, he’ll be so groggy and grumpy that not even coffee can save him.

· Alarm wakes him up? That’s now enemy number one. Someone outside being loud? If he had the energy, they’d be dead. And don’t think you’re getting out of bed without him either. He’ll pull you back and wrap all his limbs around you like a snake, snuggling into you so you can’t leave.

P = Patience (How easily angered are they?)

Phoenix!Joker

· Arthur only really gets angry when someone attacks him or tries to make him feel worthless. As Joker, he’s definitely gained quite a bit of confidence, and will start a fight with strangers for the smallest of reasons, but they rarely actually make him angry.

· His patience in general is actually quite remarkable. Most of his schemes and plots take quite a while to plan out, and although he does rely on luck here and there, he puts in quite a few hours at a time to flesh out the details.

· He’ll wait as long as he needs to get what he wants. For example, it’s not like he shy’s away from stalking people, and that takes quite a bit of resilience and patience.

Ledger!Joker

· J is... an emotional man. An open book. He almost never gets angry at you- unless you do something stupid like put yourself in harms way- but everyone else? All it takes is very trivial inconveniences to get him riled up and ready to murder some poor soul on sight.

·  He’ll be patient for a while if he needs to work on some elaborately villainous scheme, but after a few days of obsessing over the schematics he’ll start to get antsy and bored. He’s a man of action, who has the time for all this planning?

T = Try (How much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, everyday tasks?)

Phoenix!Joker

· Arthur would do his very best to make dates and anniversaries special. Dinner from your favorite restaurant, long walks by the place you first met, movie nights under a warm fort with intermediate pillow fights; Arthur will always find something that will put a smile on your face.

· He may not have that much money to begin with, but after adapting into his joker persona, a little bit of petty theft is nothing too unacceptable. Especially since he can use the extra cash to treat his lover to the most lavish things.

Ledger!Joker

· J would absolutely spoil you. Unfortunately due to his “job”, he has to leave you for hours or even days at a time to do his business, and he knows you tend to feel lonely in those times. So for him, date night is about you. And he’ll be damned if you don’t get the best present, meal and clown in Gotham all to yourself.

·  You want your favorite snack? He’ll get you a bucket-full.

· You want that new dress you saw at the mall, but can’t afford it? Neither can he! Join him for some late-night theft and he’ll grab the garment just for you.

· You want to spend the whole night tucked away in his arms as he cuddles you for hours? “Come to daddy~”

U = Ugly (What would be some bad habits of theirs?)

Phoenix!Joker

· Arthur sometimes forgets to eat, a habit that scares you. You don’t mean to nag, but you just can’t help it when you see how thin and weak Arthur becomes after barely eating anything.

· You know he doesn’t do it on purpose, and you never hold it against him, but it does scare you when you see how weak and exhausted he gets. You make sure to always fill the cabinets with snacks and get him to eat dinner whenever he’s home, but who knows if he eats while he’s out causing panic in Gotham.

· The smoking is also a bit of an issue, but you’d rather make sure your clown is well fed before you tackle this other issue.

Ledger!Joker

· J’s teeth can be... very much a turnoff sometimes. Stained to hell with a coffee addiction and lack of hygiene, it made kissing him an experience at first.

· He soon began trying to make himself more dapper and charming just for his little one (yes you) once his need for you grew, but sometimes he just forgets. He knew his hygiene wasn’t his best quality, and he often smelled like dried blood and gasoline, so he makes sure to take a shower when he can. Plus, he figured quite quickly that you like the smell of his cologne…

· You can’t be too mad though, not with a smile so bright and yellow it matches the sun!

W = Whole (Would they feel incomplete without you?)

Phoenix!Joker

· For Arthur, yes. When you finally admitted your feelings for him, he knew you were the first and last person who will ever give his life meaning. He would rip out his lungs if you asked- just if it meant seeing you another day.

· Leaving him would break his soul and put him in such a dark, black space that not even Joker’s red suit would have color there.

· It’s not the healthiest, and he doesn’t want to scare you away, but his obsession and need for you will never die down. He loves you, and you really do make him whole.

Ledger!Joker

· For J, his feelings aren’t that far off from Arthur’s. As his obsession with you grows, so does his adoration and glee. Everyday he finds new quirks and traits of yours that he likes, and everyday he begins to expect them, to crave them, to need them.

· He’ll find out what you like to do, what your favorite things are, what makes you truly and utterly happy, and he’ll store them in his memory to spoil you later.

· J’s love is absolutely obsessive and possessive, like a child with a doll he refuses to share even for a second, but that’s all he knows. He’ll never hurt you or lay his hands on you, but his love is nothing short of mad.

·  Leaving him is not an option. Ever. He’ll do anything to ensure that you stay right in his line of sight, and putting you in a pretty glass cage is not beyond him. You make him happy, and whole- you complete him- so why would he ever throw that away?

[minheefreckles]

Headcannon - X1 hyung line as boyfriends

Word count: 1.9k

Warning(s): none!

Genre: Fluff, bulletpoint scenario, headcannon

Requested?: Yes!

Seungwoo

Seungwoo would first and foremost be a very very caring boyfriend

It doesn’t matter if he’s busy or not, if you tell him that you miss him and want some cuddles or something, he would drop everything he’s currently doing to go to you and give you those cuddles >:((

Even if you scolded him playfully saying that he shouldn’t drop everything just for you, he would be like “mm ok baby” and just continue nuzzling his face in the crook of your neck

He would also be very protective, not in a “you shouldn’t wear that revealing piece of clothing outside” kinda way, but rather in a “if somebody hurts you, i’ll kill them” way

If you trip or something and you’re injured, expect him to immediately whip out a first aid kit out of nowhere and start tending to your injury, even if you two are in public

He would absolutely be the type to scold you lightly, saying stuff like “you’re so clumsy, you need to be more careful!”

But if he sees you getting sad and guilty because of his scolding, then he’ll just smile slightly and after tending to your injury, he’ll kiss it lightly, which never fails to make you smile

Seungwoo would also definitely not mind PDA

He loves showing his affection for you

Giving you eskimo kisses or grasping your hand in his and swinging them side to side

Those were a few of his favorite things to do with you

If you’re feeling upset and need somebody to listen to you ranting about your problems, Seungwoo is the perfect man for that

Imagine the two of you laying down on your couch, your head on his chest and your arms around his torso or waist

As you get more comfortable, you start to spill out all the things that have been troubling you lately

Seungwoo listens to every single one of your problems, giving small advice sometimes or letting out some “mm”s to let you know that he’s still listening very attentively

After you finish your rant, most of the time, he would give you his own opinion on the situation and after discussing it out, he would sing to you in his soft voice and you would eventually fall asleep, lulling you to sleep

In your relationship, Seungwoo would most likely be the one to organize dates

His favorite dates would be just the both of you baking some cookies or something on the weekends or after work/school and then sitting down and enjoying them while watching a movie on netflix

Maybe it is kinda childish and old-fashioned but it just warms his heart when he sees you giggling while dipping a cookie in a glass of milk and gently munching on them

in conclusion, seungwoo is a very caring boyfriend whose main priority would be your well-being and happiness :))

Seungyoun

A relationship with Seungyoun would be sooo much fun

And also very spontaneous

When you’re with him, you will absolutely never get bored or sad

He’s always there to cheer you up, whether it’ll be telling you cheesy pick up lines he googled online to make you crack a smile

or suddenly showing up at your place with your favorite movies and food to cheer you up after a hard day of work

Seungyoun is the type of guy to show you love with both words and actions just to make sure that you really understand that he loves you so so much

He would definitely be clingy, always back-hugging you with his chin on your shoulder or cuddling you or telling you that he loves you at least 15 times a day

Yes, “I love you” is very special, but since he’s absolutely 100% sure he loves you, he isn’t afraid of saying it often

One of his habits would be to text you every morning a sweet reminder that he loves you and tells you to have a good day

exhibit one: “good morning sunshine! hope you’re having a good day! did you sleep well?”

or “hIII!! *insert a fuckton of heart emoji* are you up yet, babe?  did you dream of me last night ;)))))”

You guys go on a lot of last-minute planned dates, although sometimes, on important occasions, he’ll plan them in advance

He just wants to explore the world with you!!

Expect his instagram feed to be plenty of candid pics he took of you while you weren’t looking

Even though he’s very free and happy most of the time, if he ever sees you crying or getting hurt, he’ll immediately turn into serious mode >:((

Gently putting an arm around your shoulders or cradling you in his arms to indirectly you know that he’s there for you

“Whats wrong babe?” :(((((

All in all, Seungyoun’s just a very precious bf please protecc

Wooseok

wooseok, first of all, would be a very clingy and cheesy boyfriend

he may look shy and delicate in public, but when he’s alone with you, he’s just so adorable and cheesy

he adores when you take care of him and give him attention

he’s definitely the type to put his contact name in your phone as something like “my handsome prince wooseok 💓💕💖💗💘💙💚💛💜💝💞💟🧡❤️🖤”

Or the type to take 100+ selfies on your phone just “so you can look at his pictures when you miss him :))”

Even though he’s pretty confident in himself, he would be very shy when you initiate PDA

He’s just so used to be the one to initiate it so when you hug him or peck his cheeks, he would be blushing so hard and whining

“Ah, how do you expect me to stay calm when you’re so cute??”

Most of the time though, he’ll be the fine to initiate pda

He absolutely adores back-hugging you and nuzzling his face in your hair (because he loves the smell of your shampoo but doesn’t want to admit it in case you thought it would be creepy sjsjsj)

Wooseok would honestly also be the type to take you out on very aesthetic-ish dates and take a fuckton of pictures and post the best one on his very aesthetic instagram

You guys are pretty t h e aesthetic couple

Dates on coffee or walks to the ice cream shop would be pretty frequent

But most of the time, quality time at home alone, watching tv on the couch and cuddling, those would be the type of dates you guys would enjoy the most together

He also loves calling you cheesy nicknames out of the blue just to see your reaction

Finds you so adorable when you get all flustered and blushing and would pinch your cheeks while muttering about how he’s so lucky to have such a cute significant other

He would also be so extra

Does that thing where he pretends to search for something in his pocket and then gives you a finger heart

He also absolutely adores it when you wear his clothes

Will flip his shit if he sees you wear one of his t-shirts

He’d just be so shy and he automatically hides his face in his hands while hiding a small smile

He’ll drown you with even more love and affection

to sum it up, he just loves you so much and he’s so soft :((

Yohan

A relationship with Yohan would be chaotic, in the best way possible

Just like Seungyoun, he loves exploring the world with you, maybe in a less spontaneous way though

Will try to teach you taekwondo but you guys just end up cuddling and giggling on the mat

He loves taking you out on small, casual dates

Walks to the Han river or bike rides in a park

They’re his favorite types of dates because, since he loves both you and sports, he gets to spend time with the things/people he enjoys the most

He tries to be cheesy (lowkey asks Seungyoun and Wooseok to teach him pick up lines), but fails most of the time because he ends up cringing at himself and awkwardly giggling

You’re his own personal teddy bear, because he just loves to hug you 24/7

Gripping your waist tightly between his strong arms and lifting you up, smiling as he hears you squeal and finally putting you down when you start hitting his arm

It’s you guys’ own form of banter and even if the others always look at you strangely every time you do it, you both still find it so funny and adorable

Yohan would love to take you out on cafe dates, where he tries to take aesthetic candid pics of you but fails and only has blurry pics, but still uploads them on insta because “you’re always pretty no matter the quality of the pic”

Would spoil you with a lot of gifts and as much as you love every one of them and appreciate it, you try to make him understand that you love him not because of his gifts, but for his personality

So in the end, he tones it down a bit lol but you still love him all the same

Loves waking you up early to go do some morning exercises and always loves seeing you whine because its too early

But he always manages to convince you with a whiny “please :((( for me :(((“ and his puppy face

You guys ends up sitting down and seeing the sunrise together !!

In conclusion :) yohan is a precious bub

Hangyul

Ok but imagine tsundere!hangyul :)

I feel like Hangyul would treat you just like the guys, like a friend, maybe a bit less roughly, when you’re in public or with the others

PDA would be very casual when there’s other people around, his arm’s usually around your shoulder and he would give you a kiss on the forehead from time to time

But when you two are alone, he would definitely get more shy

He would get so flustered if you were the one to initiate all types of affection

Most of the times, he seems very cold and distant, but he’s just shy :((

If he’s having a bad day, he wouldn’t go to you and open himself, etc

He would go to his room and start sulking, waiting for you to come cuddle him and comfort him softly, and that’s most of the time exactly what you do

You would be the big spoon and lace your arm around his waist, tangling your legs together, your hand softly tousling his hair, and you guys would stay like that until he either falls asleep or feels better or both lol

Most of you guys’ dates would just be watching netflix or tv at home

If you’re scared of horror movies, he would put one on just so you can cuddle in his arms when there’s a jumpscare and would tease you for it after

And oh my god, hangyul would love teasing you so much

However, if he realizes that you’re insecure about something, he would never never tease you about it

On the contrary, he would tell you that he loves every part about you, including your insecurity

I feel like he would also love showing off his muscles, for some reason??

Just randomly flexing his biceps when you’re cooking and being all cocky

You guys would also have plenty of inside jokes in the relationship, which sometimes earns you strange looks from strangers or the other members

In the end, a relationship with hangyul would be very very fun and wholesome :)

Hyung line - Maknae line (to be continued)

Masterlist 

[flying-elliska]

Ok I caught up with wtfock s3 because well, it felt weird to leave unfinished (except a few clips i just didn’t want to watch, like the attack one). here’s what worked and didn’t for me (i’m pretty critical so don’t read if that sort of thing upsets you or you’re not in the mood) because i still think having this story remade so often is an unprecendented storytelling experiment worth thinking about even when it doesn’t entirely work (and i think argumented criticism is good, but if you post hate about the actors/fans etc you really suck tbh) : 

- to start with positives : like many said, the acting was pretty damn good. overall wtfock has a really solid cast. the willems have succeeded in creating an onscreen queer intimacy that feels very believable, no holds barred and no awkwardness, and they have to be commended for that. there’s a lot of chemistry and tension at first between them, which then turns into something very soft and sweet and puppy-love-like. it was nice seeing Robbe evolve and the sweet bean energy that emanates from how the actor plays him is very very powerful. i also loved the warmth of the flatshare, and as a Dutchie I just adored the Sinterklaas bits, it was so funny and i loved the found family vibes. warmth is just something they do really well, esp with the last clips, perfume shopping, playing board games, the party at the end. They use the Christmassy vibes really well. the cinematography has its moments too, contrasts between warm and cold, the episode at the beach is gorgeous, the sequence in the tunnel, the light on their faces when they are in that classroom surrounded by drawings. wtfock as a whole is also good at creating some very lovable secondary characters, be it Milan, Yasmina, Noor, or especially king Senne. So, I do understand that there are things to love about this remake, which is probably why my disappointment feels so strong. I really wanted to care about these characters in their journey. 

- on to the controversial : i don’t necessarily fault them for wanting to show a more prononced aspect of homophobia. i think the debate about this often lacks nuance. on one hand, this is the sixth remake, and homophobia is something that is still often prevalent, and having one remake show that out of six is not in itself a problem. on the other, yes, happy fluffy stories are important, but sometimes people who have gone through stuff like this also need to see their experiences represented. the power of skam is that it shows difficult experiences BUT ALSO a happy ending. that can be very healing, i think, compared to other stories which focus only on the drama. the trouble is, i don’t think they dealt with it very well, or put any effort into processing the consequences of these harrowing things. and if you don’t, it feels cheap.

- on to my main gripe : the writing. previsible, i know. but to me, essential. and this is not about them ‘changing things’ - i like when remakes change stuff, when they do it well. the thing is, i have been burned too many times before. and when i sense that the writing is being wack, it makes it automatically much harder for me to invest emotionally in the characters. and simply put there were signs early on that made me distrust the writers. for starters, the first two episodes gave me a feeling that they didn’t have their priorities in order. the POV-immersion and depth is one of the most powerful aspects of skam, and it was lost. too many early clips felt out of Robbe’s perspective, and when it was him it was about Noor ; a few clips to show his discomfort were on point, but there were too many of them, and there were repetitive, losing time on what isn’t really an essential part of Robbe’s journey. and while they were spending time on clips that felt like misery flavored filler, they decided several times to condense original clips focused on Isak and Even, together ; like their first meeting and then their first hangout, or later in the series OHN and the minute by minute talk. and i think their story suffered from that. i think because they don’t have a real discussion early on, the buildup of their relationship feels mostly based on physical attraction. and while it certainly is a thing that happens, it just isn’t my fave love story thing. i missed the sweet pining from afar and tension that makes later drama believable. it felt like they brought the drama comparatively too fast without enough character work to make it worthwhile. Also there is just too much time spent on Zoenne drama, and their breakup seems like it foreshadows the dreaded s4 love triangle, which, yikes. the focus is all over the place, the rythm felt incoherent. 

- what’s more, they decided to introduce pretty grave elements of plot, like Robbe using slurs against Sander, the homophobic attack, the suicidal urges on both their sides, Sander kissing Britt while he was still saying I love you to Robbe in the morning, without either proper build up or resolution. It made it all feel cheap, jarring, and unearned, especially when they didn’t put trigger warnings or made jokes about it on insta or waited forever to give news about the characters being ok. it felt like drama for the sake of drama, and definitely not written with a vulnerable audience of queer teens in mind. and at the same time, when it came to the ‘big scenes’ of their relationship, like the first kiss or the universes talk or sander’s episode, it felt more or less lifted from OG without a lot of effort made to adapt it to them. i actually quit live watching/blogging after the first kiss scene, because of how similar it was, and how uninspired it felt, and lukewarm. it felt like a lack of imagination. when it came to OHN, the scene in itself was lovely, but the weird time gap, random timing and people seemingly doing nothing after a suicidal Sander disappeared, sort of broke it for me.  In the OG the combo of buildup, longing, realisation, fear, release works so well in a sequence, and splitting it over time really diluted it, to me. Similarly the quickly thrown out ‘life is now’ at the ending felt sort of out of nowhere, while in OG it was such a lovely bookend, him apologizing to Eva and reflecting on his growth. The symbolism, which ties everything so beautifully together in themes of rebirth, salvation, baptism, union, faith, deciding your own narrative in OG, here feels inconsistent. There is an attempt I see, something about wasteland vs. warmth/family, but it’s often absent of main clips. It’s nowhere near as coherent as it could be. 

- all of this builds up to the main problem for me, of the season. which is, i didn’t really get into Robbe and Sander’s relationship. Or their individual arcs for that matter. When it comes to Robbe, I guess he just isn’t my type of character. I feel like he is missing the fire of an Isak. A lot of the time he just felt too passive, like he let other characters make his decisions. I was waiting for him to stand up for himself more than he did. And there are too many scenes of another character doing his coming out for him. And then Sander ; I have to say I don’t understand all the love his character gets. Maybe because that’s because he sort of gives me Dutch fuckboi vibes...but there were several times he just came accross as a flat out asshole. I found him intriguing in his intro clip, chaotic and charming, but that never really went where i expected it to. i didn’t get his passion, what drew him to art. the symbolism around his character - basically Bowie, and drawing Robbe, and Chernobyl (which is a bit tasteless imho, turning a tragedy like that into a cutesy romantic thing), feels ...disjointed, and shallow to me. Like I never really got into it. And maybe some people did and noticed deeper links but to me, I got stuck at the surface. I saw a lot of interesting theories with what was going on with him but in the end they just copied OG. And I’m sad to say, but he ended up feeling like a manic pixie dream boy cliché to me, and i just didn’t understand what drew them to each other so strongly. Yes, Robbe is caring and Sander is in need of care, but that feels like a very reductive reproduction of OG. Beyond that...i don’t know. Certain complexities of the OG i loved  just...were sanded away, like Isak being ignorant about MI and learning compassion. This just...didn’t feel like it had the same depth, and often felt like soapy teenage drama, leaning too hard and too lazily on the actors’ chemistry. i like my romances wordy and solidly enmeshed in character development, and this was not it. It never felt like they had a real conversation about things, esp after the drama. 

- i think this is the first remake that made me actually angry for reasons not related to problematic cast shit, and so i’m trying to analyze that emotion. for me it comes down to too much drama, too heavy handed. Too much of the boy squad being shitty to Robbe, too much Noor, too much filler clips without any deeper meaning, too much things distracting from getting to know the main characters and going into their issues in depth. They changed stuff, but didn’t have the guts to actually follow through. They broke the mold but only in ways that ended up feeling shallow and unconsequential. Like I would have loved seeing Robbe go to therapy ! see his mom ! Zoe and Robbe go to the police together ! Sander have a complicated home situation ! or doing a Bowie related art installation to express his feelings of alienation ! seeing more of the underground graffiti scene ! or just...something, idk. And them also removing the faith-related themes also felt disappointing. and the ohn clip taking place in the place where sander draws feels very....basic to me, even if it was pretty. very ‘oh he’s an artist, here is his safe place’....hm, okay. I didn’t like that they made Britt into such a villain, I didn’t like how the boy squad showed no care for Robbe whatsoever for weeks until the plot said it was time for them to be redeemed in a way that felt too jarring, and I didn’t like that they made Moyo so horrible but redeemed him so easily. I actually thought they would show that it’s okay to separate yourself from friends who are that bigoted, because it just shows they are not willing to care for people. And him suddenly saying those sweet and mature things felt too out of characters and a ahah ‘gotcha’ rather than depth . I didn’t like that Robbe, too, was made so virulent by his internalized homophobia but got over it so quickly. I think what disappointed me most, in the end, was that I kept picking up potential and the show kept doing absolutely nothing with it, or confirming my fears, and it made me feel stupid and out of tune with whatever they were doing. And it’s, to me, symptomatic in modern storytelling of a trend to privilege shocks and twists over inner coherence and build up. And it makes for...Very underwhelming stuff, in the end. 

- all in all, i think this remake illustrates why s3 of OG is not as easy to remake as it sounds. it’s very intricate machinery, with a pitch perfect rhythm (and an extremely passionate nitpicky fanbase lmao). and if you don’t get all the parts of why it’s so great, you’re going to lose a lot of it. (and all the remakes ended losing up stuff in translation ; more or less compensated by inventivity and charm of their own.) so many mainstream press articles praise the real time/social media format and the ‘real talk about teen issues’ which, yeah, is part of the success, but doesn’t explain the devotion on its own. there’s the way the story uses real time to build up a storytelling rythm that feels organic and makes sense as if it was part of the lives of the viewer. There’s foreshadowing and aftershocks. Wtfock often feels like they wrote the clip numbers on darts and randomly threw them at a week planner. If an episode of a regular series ends on a cliffhanger, we can be thrilled and frustrated and put it aside for next week. but if you end an episode with a character shown to be suicidal, or you don’t show them being okay after a beating, for hours or days, that’s the emotion you leave your viewers with, because skam is a continuous experience. and remakes who pile on drama moments without respite (looking at you too skamfr s4) don’t get how tiring and disengaging this can be, in this format. skam worked so well because of how benevolent it was, on the whole. and also, cheeky, with that ‘don’t take it too seriously’ deflating humor. grumpy isak in ‘hate me now’ mode getting bumped into. this lightness and comedy often feels missing here. also my god the social media is absolutely terrible. plus...there is too much filler. honestly, them having more time, on the whole...ended up being a bad thing. Plus Wtfock feels like it has so much more unadressed plot points, like...why did Sander change his mind exactly and kiss Britt again ? How did Robbe’s mom react ? Who did the attack ? What is happening w Senne now ? etc. And it feels like they just missed the fact that OG, however subtly, did adress those things. 

- now, don’t get me wrong, i’m happy it’s popular in Belgium. On the whole it’s still a beautiful story of love and acceptance. and that people found something in it that spoke to them. but as a remake, it’s probably one of the most disappointing yet, to me. and i sort of...don’t get the hype. and i don’t want to be too ‘oh cute boys kissing’ cynical about it. but i think this illustrates why in the end, this is also very subjective. there are probably things i missed because i didn’t feel the need to examine it in depth or do the extra emotional work that comes with being a devoted fan of something. and some of their choices made me angry, and i’m not forgiving when it comes to these things. i still wish them success for s4 and whatever else, but i don’t think i will watch live, at least unless it gets really rave reviews about their treatment of Yasmina’s season. i mean they got s2 right, who knows? 

[kae-karo]

erasermic if you're still doing the ask meme?

hi hi hi hi yes dear i absolutely am !!!!!! apologies for the delay i’ve been trying to wrap up the xmas chapter of unlost and it has been consuming me lmao - send me a bnha character or ship and i’ll give u my thots (x)! check out what i’ve already done (x)

first and foremost they are the pinnacle of grumpy one is soft for the sunshine one. aizawa has been grumpy his entire adult life. mic has been a big ball of sunshine his entire adult life. not to be like ‘moon and sun’ but. they are that’s exactly who they are

anyway u bet ur ass aizawa really be out here like ‘we are not letting anyone know we’re together nezu’s allowed to know but only cause he’d find out anyway if we didn’t tell him’ and mic’s like mhm sure but u know he’s the one who will 100% confirm they’re together if any of the 1a kids asks

THESE MEN ARE FATHERS mic is the chaotic ‘hell yeah we’re goin to MCDONALDS’ dad and aizawa is the ‘rolls up to mcdonalds and orders a single black coffee’ dad. he actually orders like four tho. anyway they’re eri’s dad and aizawa only has An Obvious Emotion when eri’s involved

they have adopted shinsou and there’s nothing anyone can do about it

ahem none of this top/bottom nonsense they’re both too chaotic not to switch

anyway back to the important content aizawa (externally) Hates being doted on but u know mic is all about that sappy bullshit and aizawa secretly loves it. except that one time mic left a rose on his desk and the 1a kids found it before he did and hoooooooo boy was there hell to pay at home (he said it was from joke. nobody believed him)

there’s a betting pool there’s a betting pool there’s a betting pool look i don’t control the kids they have a mind of their own but u know they have bets on which teachers are dating/together/have hooked up/etc and almost everyone has money on mic and aizawa being together in some way

aizawa’s the kind of person who’s affectionate in like. subtle ways? he has coffee ready for mic in the mornings, made exactly how he likes it. he’ll check on him when he’s had a long day in the studio, or remind him to go to bed if he’s got an early morning. he’ll send texts throughout the day of insignificant complaints just bc he wants mic to know he’s thinking about him (mic does the same thing, but with whatever wacky shenanigans he’s got going on at the moment)

look aizawa has that damn binding cloth u all know what that means 👀

sorry for the serious note but i feel like - given recent bnha chapters - it’s an elephant in the room that needs addressing. we all know what happened to shirakumo (x) and i just want to preface this by saying i think the mic/aizawa/shirakumo trio is, in a sense, very similar (functionally not necessarily in terms of personalities/etc) to the todobakudeku ot3. now, if u know me, u would know i prefer tododeku over bakudeku but really i prefer the ot3 (or ot4) over either one exclusively. and much like deku, i think aizawa would’ve been happy with either shirakumo or mic. and i read this post the other day discussing smth i think a lot of us have thought about: how exactly the (romantic) dynamic between mic and aizawa is affected by the loss of shirakumo. some speculation included aizawa crushing on shirakumo and settling for mic, which would be the Sad alternative, but - as mentioned - i think he’s more like deku? where he could easily be happy and in love with either of them? so i don’t think he’s unhappy with mic. but i do think he’d have been happiest with both of them

ooooooooookay that was a sad little interlude but back to not sad !!!! they have cats. many cats. aizawa keeps finding them. mic made the mistake of finding one once. he wishes he didn’t (there are too many cats) but at least mic got to name the little guy. peanut butter is mic’s favorite cat even though he likes aizawa more

presentation👏michael👏absolutely👏serenades👏his👏husband, and aizawa will never admit it but he adores it. he’s physically incapable of not smiling when mic’s singing though 

[madiiko12]

new york’s very own madison ‘madi’ ko was spotted on broadway street in chanel sneakers . your resemblance to kim chungha is unreal . according to tmz , you just had your twenty-first birthday bash . while living in nyc , you’ve been labeled as being obsessive , but also ambitious . i guess being a virgo explains that . 3 things that would paint a better picture of you would be glittery eyes, dangling earrings, & chanel draped in pearls.  ( cisfemale & she/her) + ( kale, 20 , she/her , est. )

hi honeybuns !! im back and with child. there is a brief mention of an ed under the cut but i block it off with a tw start & end.    if you’d like to plot pls leave a like and i can dm you or hit you up on discord !! my discord is kale#3079  

BACKSTORY

haneul madison ko was born september 18, 1999 to two immigrant parents from S.K. her birth name is haneul, but she went by the name madison since it was easier to pronounce + madi began to almost detest her culture??

it was just that growing up she would sometimes get bullied for looking different at her school, for the way her packed lunches smelled/looked, the way people would stare if she spoke korean to her parents, how other kids would make fun of her english since she didn’t pick up on vocab/grammar as quickly since she didn’t practice at home with her parents. she just became SO insecure about it that she rejected her culture. she wouldn’t bring her mom’s food to school, if her mom ever forced her to take it she’d throw it away  and choose to starve instead. she wouldn’t speak korean back to her parents in public, barely even in private (which reeaaallly upset her parents). this also REALLY destroyed her korean language skills. she can understand still, but she can barely hold a basic conversation anymore.

as she grew up, and continued this sense of distancing herself from her culture, she ultimately distanced herself from her family. which left her feeling -  - alone often, even though it was all due to her own choices. in this loneliness, she found her escape in music. she would wear headphones constantly through the halls, in car rides, in her room when her parents yelled at her to turn the music down. she just loved music. she saved up the money her parents gave her whenever she worked at the nail salon (her parents owned it!!) to thrift an old keyboard. she became self-taught by trying to copy melodies of songs she’d listen to, thrifting piano lesson books, staying after school with the music teacher learning to play. sometimes she’d even skip lunch to sit in the chorus room with her choir director and play.

it’s not that she had a LACK of friends growing up, maybe just that she lacked a best friend. she had a lot of friends, but no one that she felt so connected to in the way she felt connected to music. perhaps, she was addicted to her loneliness.

she spent a lot of time playing the piano and dabbling in writing music that her grades started to fall (not that she was ever the BEST student) and her parents literally took away her piano. they said it was a waste of time because they wanted her to focus on doing well, so she could get into a good university, and then live a good life. music was just a distraction

but that didnt work

she would sneak out into the city to go to concerts and poetry readings. she’d sneak out and go to indie songwriters scenes while her parents thought she was at the library with one of her school friends

This underground scene had her full heart!! she was surrounded by likeminded people who just lived for music. she was hearing all of these incredible people who were all looking for their start. maybe not looking for anything at than just to sing their songs. tbh i think this was the point she was happiest. she was completely enveloped in music, just for the sake of music. There wasn’t any pressure, just music. Just the songs. she was wide eyed looking at this whole underground scene of artists. So maybe some plots from these underground charas?!

she’d perform some songs at karaoke nights and the indie sessions, and a producer took a keen interest in one of her songs. basically im kind of stealing halsey’s career start, but she posted a song Came in Close on SoundCloud and just blew up overnight. in the morning, she woke up to a record label asking her to fly to LA for a meeting.

and thus, Madison Ko began a career as Madi Ko where she’d release her debut album, Honey, a few months later. (DISCOGRAPHY HERE). her music is very 80s synth inspired!

new album that is most definitely CRJ’S EMOTION is coming soon...

PERSONALITY

right off the bat, madi is an absolute firecracker!! she’s loud, bursting with personality, has a lack of inhibitions that CHAOTICALLY mixes with her spontaneity

part of this is projecting her insecurities. she felt lonely as a child but doesn’t want to be seen as that to the world. it’s not so much a persona but an exaggeration of who she was. 

she likes to show off her glam bc it, once again, hides her insecurities. 

she just kind of is dramatic anymore

like everything about her

her persona as Madi Ko, upcoming popstar underdog, is like DUNKED in glitter, over the top stages and sets, draped in couture. basically her stages/outfits/dances/mvs are like Chungha’s but with Pale Waves and Carly Rae Jepsen VC. ex: 1, 2, 3, 4

also bc im obsessed with chungha’s famous diamond wink, IT’S GONNA BE MADI’S THING TOO. so basically madi has trended on twt a few times bc of her signature diamond wink bc she effing glues rhinestones and glitter under her eyes for performances !! she said fuck corneas !! ex: 1, 2, 3      ....god chungha is magical

so while madi is like a brand hypebeast n never shuts up, she can also get,,, easily annoyed. and heavily perceives ppl on first impressions despite that being the reason she felt misunderstood a lot growing up. 

definitely argumentative!!! will blow up arguments for no reason n then later questions why she made it such a big deal but cant own up to her mistakes

when she decides she doesnt like you, SHE DOESNT LIKE YOU. it’s done. bridge is burned, she’s not keen on second chances

fame has definitely given her a bit of an ego problem --- she’s a bit more aggressive, self-obsessed while intrinsically insecure, is too busy flaunting her material possessions and trendy life that she can...lose touch of reality. basically most of her high school friends cant stand her. HC that her high school bf broke up with her bc she was no longer was the madison ko he knew!!! so if anyone wants to be that ex lmk !!! she’s written songs about them!!!

definitely the type of girl who is so hype at a party, dancing in fallen confetti, standing on the fireplace mantle, but then midway realizes she’s lonely. sad at a party. 

ED TW STARTS!!!!!

....

she kind of always had body image issues growing up, but it was very off and on, but once she got signed and being by surrounded by cameras became normal she formed a full fledged ED. she’s passed out at concerts a few times bc of her ED, but they always brush it off as “not enough rest” or “she wasnt feeling well that day but pushed to perform anyway as to not disappoint the fans”

so feel free for ur muses to point it out !! she’ll get really defensive like “i eat i just work out a lot” and yeah it’s true she works out a lot but she...doesn’t really eat

it’s also one of the causes of her irritability ...

.....

END ED TW!!!!

idk why this is so long

always up for mischief! 

does love a good prank. asks weird hypotheticals 

is not scared of an ouija board

will get wasted off a few shots and drunk madi is UNSTOPPABLE 

one time drunk madi cried bc her siamese cat (MOCHI !!!) wouldn’t ever get to go to school and would never know chemistry..... the dramatics.....

she is sensitive and despises it. she does everything she can to not come across as sensitive

however, she’s so obsessive. so deep in feeling. when she feels something she FEELS it. when she is mad it boils through her. when she is in love it is all she knows. when she is sad it covers her like sweaters and blankets on rainy days. she doesn’t know how to half-feel. everything she feels stops her in her tracks.

HOWEVER she’s the most obsessive with her own insecurities — so in relationships she’s kind of known for tapping out early. she just gets scared and the fleetingness of her career and that she’s at her very core, lonely and disappointed in herself, makes her want to run away thinking that letting down her walls and being vulnerable could only be disappointing for her SO. so maybe she ghosted ur chara or gave some lame excuse

Kind of obsessed with how she’s perceived

terrified that at any moment her career could be thrown away, her deemed irrelevant, and she goes back to being Madison Ko, daughter of nail techs in Koreatown. and then her parents would have been right all along, music was a waste of time.

she’s just my little fallen angel who flew to the sun (fame) and it constantly eats away at her girlhood, at her heart.

anyways this is all i got rn <3 come love me sorry i kind of didn’t shut up this is long

WANTED CONNECTIONS

an ex from before she was famous who broke up with her because of how she changed!! PLEASE i have ideas for this. plus,,, you get a lot of songs about ur chara!!! could be from high school, maybe someone in the music scene she frequented before she was signed, anything!!

anothr ex/fwb/undefined relationship i’d love is one when she was first famous who just introduced her to everything. something like a whirlwind that was exciting and magical. she’s written songs about this person.

exes in general. 

hookups/fwb

romantic plots. pls i have songs who need meaning. friends to lovers, one sided (either way), slowburn, ANYTHING. love cruel summer plots, anything lover by tswift

PR relationships -- would LOVE one where she falls in love with the other despite how clearly defined they made their relationship

love triangles in general just get me going

best friend!!!! the one’s who know how the other feels just by looking at each other. they have countless sleepovers. tell each other everything. cry together on bathroom floors. pregame together. 

ex friends. for whatever reason -- maybe madi did smth shitty, maybe they did. maybe there was backstabbing, maybe madi sacrificed friendship for a career, maybe she made moves on their romantic partner/interest despite being fully aware. idk. gimme

People she knew from the underground/indie scene before they were famous!! they’d have bonded over their love for music, little indie dreams kind of vibe. just imagine a group of dreamers !! Would love if they made some kind of pact!!!

party friends

collabs !!

pranks. mischief. gimme

enemies. gotta cook up some drama, yknow

GIRL GANG. god i just want this so bad like make a girls dream come true

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What was the most unsettling film you’ve seen? Unsettling films are my jam, man. To name a few, there’s Eraserhead, Room, Midsommar, Eyes Wide Shut, Misery, and most recently, I’m Thinking of Ending Things. Eraserhead takes the cake though. That movie always makes me queasy...

What unethical experiment would have the biggest positive impact on society as a whole? I’m a firm believer in nothing good ever comes out of unethical practices. I’ll never forget reading about an experiment where a group of newborn babies were given basic needs like food and being bathed, but weren’t shown any affection whatsoever and it was meant to see if humans can survive with just the most basic physiological needs. By the end of the experiment period half of the babies were dead. The results were honestly a lot bleaker than how I’ve put it, but I don’t wanna be a downer lol. Suffice it to say that experiment haunted me for days after reading it.

When was the last time you were snooping, and found something you wish you hadn’t? It was around a week or so ago, I’m pretty sure.

Which celebrity or band has the worst fan base? My sister is into K-pop and I hear insights from her all the time, but her one constant is that BTS breeds the most annoying, toxic fans. I’d have to agree. Ariana Grande’s fandom was also annoying at one point, but I haven’t heard much from them making a mess these days.

What are you interested in that most people aren’t? Autobiographies.

If you were given a PhD degree, but had no more knowledge of the subject of the degree besides what you have now, what degree would you want to be given to you? Why would I deserve a PhD on something I’m clearly not qualified for...I’m not sure I’m following this question right, but I don’t feel like thinking too hard about it.

What smartphone feature would you actually be excited for a company to implement? I’m happy with the features that are widespread now, but I wish companies adhere more to countries other than the common ones like US, UK, Australia, etc. I always see ads about phones being able to tell you how much movie tickets cost or track boarding passes, but those are all irrelevant here. It makes a lot of Apple’s basic apps useless on this side of the world haha.

What’s something people don’t worry about but really should? Long-term effects of poor habits like not getting enough sleep or drinking too many cups of coffee. I know because I’m guilty of this.

What movie quotes do you use on a regular basis? “I won’t think about that now, I’ll think about it tomorrow,” but I usually say it to myself, especially when I feel stressed.

Do you think that children born today will have better or worse lives than their parents? Better, but idk if that’s just me being biased because my generation will be the next parents lol. I just think that a lot of Gen X parents still have a lot of dated prejudices and mindsets that my generation was able to learn better from. For example my mom doesn’t like using people’s preferred names, especially if they’ve transitioned -_____- and I know I’d never want to set such an example for my kids.

What’s the funniest joke you know by heart? I know I’ve come across hilarious ones but I always fail to come up with one when asked on the spot.

When was the last time you felt you had a new lease on life? LOL RIGHT NOW

What’s the funniest actual name you’ve heard of someone having? It’s more stupid than funny and I know I’ve already mentioned this before, but Covid Bryant as a first and second name still takes the cake for me. My sister went to school with a girl whose name is just her surname backwards, and for a time I was really weirded out by it. But in the times I’ve seen her she really owns her name and never looks bothered by it, so I quickly stopped caring.

Which charity or charitable cause is most deserving of money? For me it would have to be organizations for animal welfare.

What TV show character would it be the most fun to change places with for a week? Post-El Camino Jesse Pinkman. I wouldn’t want to live through his chaotic shit  from Breaking Bad, but his fate after El Camino is something I’m super envious of.

What was cool when you were young but isn’t cool now? Flip phones, Blackberry phones, Roshes, Frappuccinos.

If you were moving to another country, but could only pack one carry-on sized bag, what would you pack? Phone, laptop, their chargers, important IDs, some of my favorite tops and jeans, underwear, essential toiletries, wallet, a family photo, a journal and pen, earphones, certain knickknacks to remember Gab and my dogs by. Minus the clothes, all of these are pretty tiny so I think these would all fit in the bag just fine.

What’s the most ironic thing you’ve seen happen? I don’t know. I’m not really a fan of rating the most/worst this and that stuff in my life, either. I feel like I unnecessarily rack my brain too hard for them when I take surveys to have a chill time.

If magic was real, what spell would you try to learn first? Probably something that’d keep my dogs from dying.

If you were a ghost and could possess people, what would you make them do? No thanks. I’d be the chillest ghost tbh, I’d like to just sneak up on people’s business and hang out but never interfere in them.

What goal do you think humanity is not focused enough on achieving? Climate change, global warming, alleviation of poverty. Corporations and the few people who actually have the power and money to change things only ever come up with short-term shit like donations and never look at the big picture. What problem are you currently grappling with? So many personal ones. But just like the recurring theme of my surveys so far, “I don’t want to get into it.”

What character in a movie could have been great, but the actor they cast didn’t fit the role? As much as I love Kristen Stewart, I heard she was cast as Princess Diana for an upcoming film and I’m not really feeling that decision. They could’ve gone with a British actress for starters?????? The movie is still in production but it is pretty annoying to think about lmao.

What game have you spent the most hours playing? Probably GTA: San Andreas as a kid.

What’s the most comfortable bed or chair you’ve ever been in? Luxury hotel beds are always so fluffy and comfortable.

What’s the craziest conversation you’ve overheard? Omg one time at a coffee shop Gabie and I sat beside this older couple that obviously was going through some heavy SHIT. There was a lot of animosity and tension between them and I caught the lady silently break into tears a few times. I never overheard anything but then again they sat in silence for hours until the lady finally walked out on him. Never knew what it was about but I’ve always guessed that the man did something crappy, like cheat, and was discovered. It was a really sad sight and a crazy situation to witness and I think I felt even more sorry because they were obviously in their 50s or 60s. I hope the woman is in a better place now as she looked rough as fuck that evening.

What’s the hardest you’ve ever worked? I wore a lot of hats when I was in my college org, and that was on top of balancing my acads as well.

What movie, picture, or video always makes you laugh no matter how often you watch it? That scene from Friends where Ross plays the keyboard for Chandler, Phoebe, Monica, and Rachel.

What artist or band do you always recommend when someone asks for a music recommendation? It depends on what music they’re into and if I have actually have a recommendation in mind for them. I obviously can’t suggest Paramore to someone who mainly listens to metal.

If you could have an all-expenses paid trip to see any famous world monument, which monument would you choose? I’m down for any monuments that are super ancient like Stonehenge or the Pyramids of Giza.

If animals could talk, which animal would be the most annoying? I’d go with frogs, but only because they get annoyingly loud in the evening.

What’s the most addicted to a game you’ve ever been? Playing The Sims, Mario Kart, Rock Band, or games in the Burnout franchise.

What’s the coldest you’ve ever been? Japan was so fucking cold when I was there. Didn’t do my research and ended up being dressed poorly, and I was so cold I could barely talk to my parents or fully enjoy my time. Sagada was also nearly unbearable in the early morning.

Which protagonist from a book or movie would make the worst roommate? Not from a book or movie, but BoJack Horseman. Diane can also be in the running as I always found her too whiny. I get that she had her personal shit to deal with, but I don’t think living with her would be good for my own sanity and mental health.

Do you eat food that’s past its expiration date if it still smells and looks fine? It annoys my chef dad to death that I don’t lol. No matter how great it looks, I’d bounce. I once ate expired Kit Kats that tasted like cardboard and that scared me off of expired food forever.

What’s the most ridiculous thing you have bought? I once bought a stupid novelty soap that to this day I’ve never even opened. It’s in one of my drawers, and I plan to just throw it out at some point.

What’s the funniest comedy skit you’ve seen? Not a fan of these but one that got to me is Dear Sister from SNL.

What’s the most depressing meal you’ve eaten? A few years ago there was a local breakfast place that offered red velvet pancakes for a limited time and I was all over that crap, so I went and ordered. The actual pancakes ended up not being any bigger than my palm, and I remember not being able to hide my disappointment once the server placed the dish on my table haha. I felt so scammed. I had to order something else to feel full, because those pancakes were stupidly small.

What tips or tricks have you picked up from your job/jobs? One of my superiors, when she was presenting a pitch to our director yesterday, kept asking questions and picking at the director’s brain so that she can get suggestions and answers straight from the director herself and so that she didn’t have to do any brainstorming anymore. I thought that was a pretty nifty and clever hack.

What outdoor activity haven’t you tried, but would like to? Hiking a mountain!

What songs hit you with a wave of nostalgia every time you hear them? Umbrella by Rihanna feat. Jay-Z.

What’s the worst backhanded compliment you could give someone? Idk, anything can be the worst depending on the context. I’m not a fan of giving those, though.

What’s the most interesting documentary you’ve ever watched? Unsolved Mysteries’ Dupont de Ligonnès episode was a lot of fun to watch.

What was the last song you sang along to? I think it was Thinking of You by Katy Perry? but I’m not entirely sure. I haven’t sung along to anything in a while.

What app can you not believe someone hasn’t made yet? I don’t really download and use a lot of apps other than the basic ones, so I don’t care too much.

When was the last time you face palmed? Last night.

If you were given five million dollars to open a small museum, what kind of museum would you create? I’d give it away to the Martial Law museum currently being made near my university so that it can do more to show the atrocities of the Marcoses. And so that I can piss off my pro-Marcos relatives.

Which of your vices or bad habits would be the hardest to give up? Uh hating myself, if that counts.

What really needs to be modernized? Public transportation systems in this country.

[rosaline-kei]

I saw your post asking for ideas to write and I would love to read more canonverse SNK fanfics that take place during the timeskip. They were all growing up together into adulthood and there weren't any titans/rumbling to worry about. Chapter 108 was the closest thing we got of the 104th squad being together. Any Eremika interactions during that period will be great to read, specifically because they weren't working back then, just acting like normal people do.

Disclaimer:I do not own Shingeki no Kyojin / Attack on Titan nor its characters. 

Title: Early Morning Conversation (EreMika)

Synopsis/Prompt: (Above; Based on Anon’s request) Mikasa struggles to fall asleep, and decided to leave her room to get some fresh air. Unexpectedly, Eren found her and they have a little talk. (Contains Manga Spoilers)

Rated: K+

Author’s Notes: I hope this was okay Anon! I tried haha, if it wasn’t what you wanted/were expecting, i apologise! I’m willing to do another prompt if so. Once again, ask box is open for requests! Or you can message me if you want a very specific scenario haha >

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It was around four in the morning. The sun had barely risen, and here was Mikasa—awake and outside seated on a bench, staring idly at the cloudless sky. She had found trouble sleeping. And surprisingly it wasn’t insomnia that was at fault. Instead, it had been a nightmare that forced her awake and made her restless.

Just yesterday, Eren had sheepishly confessed that he didn’t want anyone to inherit his titan abilities because he cared and treasured them way too much. Of course, Mikasa was touched and happy to hear this—that Eren cared about them deeply. After all, it wasn’t every day that you hear Eren be so open about his feelings… well, at least his positive feelings.

And yet, despite yesterday’s positive events, the nightmares still came and haunted Mikasa. She had thought she had shoved those fears of hers aside, so that she could be more optimistic about things… but it seemed like that that wasn’t the case. Those fears of hers, had soon morphed into those ghostly nightmares that planned to drag her down into exhaustion.

“What are you doing up so early?” A familiar voice called, and Mikasa recognized it in an instant. 

The raven snapped out of her day-dreaming, before turning towards the direction of masculine voice, to only meet Eren’s emerald orbs. “Eren…? What are you doing out here?” The raven queried back instead of replying him.

“I was woken up by Connie’s snoring, and just as I was about to go back to sleep, I glanced out the window to see you out here alone even before the sun had risen. You do know we don’t have to be up early today, right? Commander Hanji gave us an off day since we did a good job with the train tracks the other day. And even if we did, work doesn’t start at four in the morning.” Eren raised a brow before he continued, “And you still haven’t answered my question, why are you here?”

There was this particular sternness in his tone, as if he were mad at her for not getting proper rest. But Mikasa knew that underneath that was concern. How could he not be concerned, after finding her awake at such an odd time?

Mikasa sighed softly, “I just… couldn’t sleep, and decided to go outside for some fresh air.” What she said wasn’t necessarily a lie, but it wasn’t the complete truth. She didn’t feel like telling him about the nightmare she had just experienced… after all, it involved him. Though, Mikasa was sure that Eren could tell that something was off. At times like this, he could read her like an open book.

“Then do you want to go out for a walk?” Eren asked, “It’ll release stress.” He had said this as if he had read Mikasa’s mind, as if he knew that there was something heavy weighing on her shoulders and her mind.

“…Sure.” Mikasa agreed, before she stood up and went to walk alongside the brunette.

Their walk was at first, full of silence. Regardless, Mikasa didn’t seem bothered. She didn’t feel any form of awkwardness either. With Eren by her side, her heart was always at ease. And in this silence, she found some form of comforting peace—solace, perhaps? It wasn’t as if this silence was full of tension, anyway.

It had been a while since she had strolled around with Eren. A few years back, they had always been training non-stop to combat the titans and Eren had always been busy with other things regarding his titan-shifter abilities. They barely had any free time like this. Sure, titans were still an issue to them now. However, in this period of time, Mikasa couldn’t help but find some normalcy in it, especially in this moment.

It would be nice, Mikasa thought, if we could fully live normally, in complete peace.

But she knew very well, that the war wasn’t over yet.

“Is the Hizuru thing bothering you?” Eren queried as his eyes glimpsed towards her, “You know, with Azumabito, their intentions and whatnot?”

It had also been a while since Eren showed this amount of concern for her. And she wondered why. Normally, it’d be the other way around. Granted, she had always known Eren cared for her… he just never showed it so openly, not to mention he had been too fixated, distracted and obsessed over titan-killing back then.

“No…it isn’t that.” Mikasa mumbled before adjusting her red scarf a little upon feeling a cold gust of wind blowing by.

Again, there was this silence. But now, it didn’t seem so serene anymore, especially when she could feel Eren’s irritation since the raven wasn’t telling him what was wrong.

A few moments went by until Eren spoke again, “…Listen, Mikasa… I know something’s bothering you… tell me.”

It sounded more like a demand, even if he had said it in a soft way. He wanted an answer, a truthful one.

It had been quite some time that Mikasa had ever expressed her emotions to Eren, or rather, had conversations that weren’t about titan-killing and their responsibilities as soldiers. For the most part, she had always been lecturing him about his recklessness, nagging at him, telling him to be more careful and the list goes on.

The last time she had fully expressed her emotions and thoughts to him was when she had thought that they were going to be killed, or more specifically, eaten by a titan. It was that day, where she had thanked him for everything.

She wondered if he remembered that day. It wasn’t too long ago, but with everything going on regarding Paradis’s future, it wouldn’t be too surprising if Eren had forgotten what she had said. Though, she’ll be a little sad if he did, even if she claimed to herself that she didn’t mind.

Without the need of anymore persistence for the brunette’s part, Mikasa resigned. “I just had a nightmare.” She murmured and then continued, figuring that he wanted to know its contents. “About losing you… losing Armin… both of you don’t have much time left after all… especially you.”

Mikasa was undoubtedly heavy-hearted as she said this. As much as she didn’t want to show it, she couldn’t. She didn’t want to think about it when that time comes. She wished she could have a normal and joyful conversation with Eren, and not chat about heavy topics like this.

But he asked, so she answered. There wasn’t a point in hiding things from him, really.

It took Mikasa a while, but she noticed that Eren had stopped in his tracks. She turned towards him with a little worrisome look, beginning to regret informing him about her nightmares. Maybe it was a bad idea, she thought, to bring up…about his own death.

“I’m sorry.” She instantly apologised as she felt guilt pouring in. “I—”

“Don’t worry about that, Mikasa.” Eren suddenly said, with a little scold in his voice. He didn’t seem angry or irritated at all as what Mikasa had initially anticipated. He then took a few steps closer to her. “You shouldn’t worry about things like that… it’ll all work out in the end, trust me.” He reassured.

But Mikasa didn’t feel reassured, she couldn’t. She wanted to trust in his words, but she was hesitant and even afraid. How could Eren be so sure?

Eren sighed, he had already predicted that his words wouldn’t be enough to calm the raven down. He understood the limited time he had left, but now wasn’t the time to be worried about that or rather, be so fixated on that fact.

Eren still had goals to achieve, and he was more focused on that for now.

On another note, Eren had also realised how things were a little more normal now. They weren’t going on titan-killing expeditions or sending Eren out to be an experimental toy. Just yesterday, everything felt… tranquil, or at least, a little less chaotic to say the least.

And seeing Mikasa like this, made him want to help her enjoy this tranquillity while it lasted. He didn’t want her to worry about him anymore. But this time rather than yelling that to her, he went with a softer approach.

He wanted to give her as much normalcy as he could, before things would become tensed again.

“Since when did your hair get so long?” He asked, changing the topic—which had caught the raven a little off guard, but she went with it anyway. It wasn’t as if she wanted to talk about gloomy things anyway.

“…I don’t know,” She responded plainly, “I tied it up in a small ponytail anyway, so it won’t get in the way… and it’s not like we’re going to use the 3DMG gear anytime soon probably... speaking of which…” Mikasa trailed off, before taking a glance at Eren’s dark brown hair to which had grown too. Except unlike Mikasa, he didn’t bother tying it up as of now.

Subconsciously, Mikasa’s hand reached out to brush his hair a little. “You told me to cut my hair so it wouldn’t bother me… it’s ironic that you grew it out…” Eren gave a nervous chuckle in response, a little taken aback when she had touched his hair and maybe a little embarrassed. But he decided not to say anything of it.

Though before he could reply, Mikasa had continued, “Not to mention… it’s quite messy and tangled…Eren, I know you have never kept long hair before… do you not know how to maintain it—”

“Hey!” He huffed slightly before gently moving her hand away from his hair before it could’ve tangled itself. His cheeks reddened, highlighting both his embarrassment and how flustered he was over Mikasa’s little lecture. He knew his hair could be messy at times, but he didn’t think someone would’ve pointed it out. Plus he had just woken up, what did she expect? Hell, he wondered why her hair wasn’t in its usual bed-hair messy state. Did she switched shampoo or something? Who knows?

Mikasa began to chuckle and Eren noticed how the mood seemed to have lightened. “H-Hey! What are you laughing about?”

Mikasa only continued to laugh, she hadn’t seen Eren this bashful in years. It was nice to know, that even this man who shouldered the burden of the future of humanity, could still have this childish, cute little side of him. It was nice to know that he hadn’t lost himself completely in this madness… at least, not yet.

“Nothing.” Mikasa smiled, and though Eren didn’t say it out loud, he was glad that she seemed to have forgotten about her nightmare. Though, he wished she wouldn’t tease him like that… then again, seeing her smile was worth it. He never liked hurting her.

Eren gave a small roll of his eyes, before he clicked his tongue a little as he began to walk again at a quicker pace. “… I’ll have you know my hair is fine.” He grumbled slightly, still a little embarrassed.

Mikasa cackled before chasing after him, “I was only jok—”

“Hey Mikasa,” He suddenly cut her off, and it seemed like his reddened cheeks began to lighten as his tone grew a little more solemn… a little more protective, “… next time if you have any trouble… just come to me… alright? I’ll always be by your side… okay?”

Now, it was Mikasa’s turn to flush. When Eren didn’t hear a response, he turned to see the tomato coloured cheek raven. “Why are your cheeks reddening?” He asked, clueless.

It really astounded Mikasa sometimes, how he could see through her and read her like an open book when it came to her troubles. But when it came to that particular emotion to which she was feeling, he was clueless.

“It’s the sun.” She excused, though the sun had barely came out yet. Now, it was her who began to quicken her pace while she hid herself in her scarf. “Let’s… head back.” She murmured.

Eren only scoffed, not thinking too much of it. “Yeah, yeah…” He smiled, before catching up to her as they walked back to base, where a new day began.

[wonderlandmind4]

Delicate Stages Drabbles: 20

Without You...

Pairing: Bucky Barnes x OFC

Summary: Drabbles following Delicate Stages. Looking into the life of Bucky and Ana.

Warnings: Language. Angst. Sad. Fluff kinda. Trauma. 

Words: 7,330

A/N: Sorry this took forever to post, my life has had a streak of bad luck lately. But here it is! This chapter and the ones to follow will follow some canon from End Game (which goes to say, there are spoilers, but hopefully everyone has seen it by now.) I struggled a little with this one, so hopefully you like it! I feel like my writing in this one was a bit different to reflect how Ana reacts. (Do not read unless you’ve read Delicate Stages first)

Previously on Delicate Stages Drabbles:

Ana breaks eye contact, a thought crashing through the blankness in her mind. She looks down at her body, shimmering waves encase her. The rings aren’t activated. The glow is her own power source, her own energy shield. Protecting. Protection. Protection for herself. Protection to keep her safe. Protection for-

“Steve,” Ana exhales as her body begins to tremble all over. Her fists clutching at he dirt where her husband vanished before her eyes.

Her vision blurs, her head swimming. Her chest is utterly empty. She meets his gaze, a complex of emotions storming in his eyes. Ana wraps her arms around her middle. Protecting. Like she tried to do with…Bucky. Like he tried to do with her. Protecting her. Protecting them.

“I’m pregnant.”

***

Silence.

Utter, still silence. Silence is a numb caress over an empty shell; a numb empty chest, a vacant heart. Silence burns through veins like the horrors of torture. Silence is crushing. Silence is broken by mimicking sounds of thunder rolling in the thick air. Silence is tainted by horror, confusion, cries of anguish. Time slowly ticks by, seconds morphing into minutes.

Ana blinks the burning dryness from her eyes from staring unseeingly. She must have blocked her surroundings out, absently wondering if there’s an empty hole through her chest. It has taken her a good amount of time to barely register sitting on a fallen log. She must have been moved, taken her away from that spot and sat her down. Someone is next to her, their hand on her wrist; a solid comforting grip. Her right hand laid protectively over her stomach.

Fallen leaves and grass rustle to her right and a small, black hand touches her knee. Ana looks up from her lap. The talking racoon from early is there, gazing up at her with a disheartening expression. He removes his hand in favor of picking something up, holding it out to her.

It’s a gun. Bucky’s gun. He’s offering her Bucky’s gun. The one he had used to fight a war he didn’t truly want too, but did because people needed him. The one that dropped from his deteriorating fingers. If Ana could feel anything at the moment, she would probably cry.

She lifts her hands, the person beside her releasing their hold. Ana accepts the heavy M249 paratrooper gun, resting it carefully on her lap. She nods in gratitude at the little guy. He hops up next to her, placing his hand on her arm, something akin to another form of twisted comfort through grief.

“Rocket,” He supplies, speaking so quietly, she almost misses it.

“Ana,” She thinks she murmurs back.

She grips the gun with her left hand, then moves her right over her stomach once more. Tired footsteps heavily approach them, Ana suddenly staring at a dirty pair of combat boots in her line of sight. There’s a sense of failure in the stirring air, thickening the chaos; Ana ignores it.

“We should go,” Steve suggests quitely, a slight tremor in his voice. “We…we shouldn’t- I don’t think we should stay here.”

A wave of nausea curls through Ana’s stomach. Leave? Leave to go where? Leave her home? The home she and Bucky- Ana blinks. Her home is gone. Faded away. Crumbled between her fingers, helpless to prevent it.

“Ana,” That’s Natasha’s voice. Sitting to her left, squeezing her arm. How does she sound so gentle? “Do you want to stay here, or come with us?”

“Nat…”

“It’s her choice, Steve,” She tells him. To Ana she continues, “It’s up to you. I know your hom-“

“I’ll go,” Ana’s voice sounds strange in her own ears. As if someone else is speaking for her. Finally, she lifts her head to meet Natasha’s shinning green eyes. “I need to get…can I bring…”

She shakes her head, biting her lip hard. Waves of emotions rolls through her veins like ice. She ignores it once more.

“Gather some things?” Natasha supplies knowingly. “Of course.”

“I don’t want you going alone,” Steve input. He sounds so…broken.

“I can go with her,” Rocket volunteers. “Why not, I’m already hitching a ride back with you lot anyway.”

He jumps off the log, brushing his hands on his vest. Ana hasn’t moved, until Rocket firmly pats her knee twice; she feels waves of despair coming from him. Gripping the gun, she slowly stands up, swaying just slightly. Two pairs of hands quickly steady her.

Steve lifts his hands for the weapon. “Let me take this to the jet,” He coaxes gently.

She yanks it to her chest, eyes burning as she glares at him. His jaw clenches, chest stuttering. There’s a strange glow around the gun, as if a sunbeam enlightens the weapon. It takes a few seconds for Ana to realize, it’s her. Protecting a weapon. Protecting Bucky’s weapon.

A flash of hurt, pain, shines in Steve’s blue eyes. “I swear I’ll keep it safe,” He whispers.

Cautiously, he places his hand over hers. But instead of rebounding back from her own energy field, the light slowly envelops Steve. Odd. Finally, she nods and the glow fades away.

*

Walking feels like wading through a rip current, difficult and stumbling. Several times, Ana halts in her tracks, looks around, only to realize she is leading them the wrong way. Her lip quivers, her chest burns, her skin prickles, then Rocket calls her name. She inhales, her stomach churns, she exhales. Once more, her skin is glowing and everything she was trying to hold off nearly comes crashing down on her.

The entire country is in shock; horror-struck. The entire country is left in bewilderment. Left in mourning, in agony. Ana feels every single ounce of it, beginning to break apart her bones. Weighing her down into the depths of the Earth where she so temptingly wants to curl up under and never rise.

With trembling fingers, she twists each ring on, settling the chaos inside her mind, throughout her body. It only lasts a minute before the rings feel like it’s amping up her own dark energy. She doesn’t linger on the thought of how it happened, or why, she just turns the rings off, and continues walking.

They stop by the village first. Usually, a few baby goats will run right over in greeting, with older goats lazily grazing along the grass, waiting for their caretakers to return. None of the goats are in sight. No loud bleats of hellos, no soft headbutts, no inpatient baah’s.

Instead, there is only a few of the village people crying out in sobs to the sky. The children…Ana only sees two of them, in the tight clutches of not their parents’ arms, but of others. She turns away from the scene.

Walking into the hut feels empty. Quiet. Wrong. The last time she was here was when T’Challa brought Bucky his new and improved arm. Ana stares at their makeshift bed. Images of early morning giggles, mid-day exhausted cuddles and lazy nighttime kisses flash through her head.

Abruptly she turns on her heel. There is nothing but phantom memories lingering in the hut.

*

The trek to the apartment takes a longer. Twice, the heaviness of what happened, of what Thanos had succeeded in doing, finally overtakes Ana. She falls to her knees each time, digging her fingers into the soft ground of the earth. Dirt beneath her fingernails, gripping at sand and roots and the crying earth. Wishing, praying, hoping it’s all a horrible nightmare. Hoping that, when she grinds her knuckles into the ground, that she will be able to pull Bucky back from the same dirt he vanished from.

The field pluses with a wave of energy, disturbing the grass and trees in the near distance. The air ceases in her lungs, but she doesn’t try fighting to gain it back. Her husband isn’t there to help her. Her soulmate isn’t there to comfort her. Her Bucky…

Is gone.

Vaguely, she hears voices trying to speak to her, but she can’t make out the words. Instead, she attempts to focus internally. After a great deal of effort and some sort of willpower she didn’t know she still had, she pulls herself together. She channels everything she feels, the broken, defeated energy and chaotic emotions, and locks it inside. It sits heavy in her chest, but the ground has stopped shaking like an earthquake.

Finally, Ana breathes again, panting heavily. With stiff fingers, she releases the dirt, pulling her hands from the earth. She wipes at a wet itch on her cheek, her eyes glancing at Steve who knelt to her level. Some of the anguish Ana is feeling is reflected in his stormy blue eyes as he lifts his hand.

He gently swipes his fingers across her cheek, either wiping away the dirt track or tears, she doesn’t know. But that look in his eyes, the expression on his face; he gets it. He understands. He’s broken too. Beaten, bruised, dirty and broken. They all are.

With an odd grimace of despair, Steve offers his hand to her. Ana wraps her fingers around his, allowing him to help her up. No words are spoken, just a shared sense of heartbreak. Dropping his hand abruptly, Ana continues the way.

*

Stepping foot in the apartment feels like stepping out of her own body. Ana feels the emptiness the second she walked over the threshold. She begins to welcome it without resistance, moving through their home like she’s in a trance.

The first thing she does is enter their room, as if Bucky’s presence is beckoning her. The bedroom smells like him; strong from the shower they took just hours before. Ana clenches her fists. A pop of shattering glass snaps her out of it.

She looks at the lamp on their bedside table, broken pieces of white glass now lay at the base of the lamp. She blinks, unclenches her fists and continues. She carefully grabs Bucky’s pillow, her mind escaping as her fingers graze the fabric.

“Babe,” A chuckle leaves Bucky’s lips, “what in the hell are you doing?”

Picking her head up from his pillow on their bed, Ana grins at him. “Stealing your pillow, what does it look like?”

He lifts a skeptical eyebrow. “Looks like you were inhaling it. Creep.”

But his goofy smile looks like he found it endearing. Ana pokes her tongue out at him, climbing off their bed.

“I’m staying with Pepper for a week since she’s on bed rest and I’m going to miss you. So, I’m taking your pillow hostage. Don’t pretend you don’t do the same when I’m gone.”

Bucky catches her waist, pulling her closer and kissing her forehead. “Guilty. We’re both creeps.”

Ana smacks him with the pillow.

Swallowing the thick lump in her throat at the memory that invaded her mind, Ana moves on. She finds the small lock box they keep their marriage license, and passports in. She spots the kintsukuroi art piece, carefully wrapping one of Bucky’s shirts- the red Henley- around it. She slowly gathers a few more items and a mixture of both their clothes, ending with a stack of journals. She gently thumbs over the withered leather cover of the one she received as a gift.

Bucky hands a small, thin journal to her. Confused, Ana lowers her coffee mug and takes it. Bucky is blushing slightly as he sits next to her, a shy smile on his lips. She opens the journal to the first page, reading over the words scribbled half in cursive, half in print. Immediately her eyes begin to fill with tears. She looks up, lost for words.

“I know it’s not the greatest birthday gift, but t’s from my heart,” Bucky shrugs sheepishly. He nervously plays with her wedding bands, spinning the rings around her finger. “Not too long after I met you, Annie, I started writing letters…to my mother.”

“Bucky…”

“Sam suggested it. Figured it could help me in some way. He was right, but don’t tell him that.” He chuckles, lacing his fingers with hers. “Anyway, I started writing these little…notes, as if she could read them. I told her about you. How you made me feel, how I was beginning to fall in love with you.”

He scratches his chin. “I guess they’re really love letters to you, if you think about it. This was the only journal I never showed you. Until now.”

Ana lifts the journal, pressing it to her chest. She’s about to respond, when something falls to her lap.

“That too,” He mumbles, ducking his face into her hair.

She picks up the item from her lap, holding it between her fingers. It’s a thin gold necklace, with a tiny, delicate snowflake pendant. It’s simple, it’s beautiful, it’s making her feel emotional. Ana shifts, puts down the journal and lifts her husband’s head.

“James,” Ana sighs happily, cupping his neck. Bucky’s cheeks always turn darker and his eyes always flutter when she calls him by his first name. “This is so beautiful. Thank you for sharing this with me, it means so much to you, and me. I love you so much. Snowflake.”

Bucky beams, his eyes crinkling at the corners. He presses his forehead against hers. “Love you too, Annie. In case you didn’t know,” He laughs along with her. “Happy birthday, my love.”

Ana lightly touches the necklace hidden under her shirt. Her Snowflake. Her chest aches. She carefully puts the journals in the bag she found and quickly leaves their room. His smell is everywhere, his presence lingers in the air, his laughter and words echo through her ears. The phantom caress of his touch fades from her hands.

She stumbles into the living room, clutching at the counter of the kitchen bar for support. Her chest is constricting, her heart aching. Steve is by her side in an instant with instructions to breath slowly. His nearly bruising grip on her elbow is enough to shift her focus to the physical feeling rather than the internal ones.

Rocket has been inspecting the living room, trying to respect Ana’s space. He spots a rustic wooden frame, a date carved at the bottom. He studies the picture placed behind the glass, then carefully picks it up. He figures it’s something she may want.

“This important?” He inquires knowingly, holding the frame out.

It takes a moment for Ana to realize someone else spoke to her. She blinks slowly, regaining her breath, then turns to see what Rocket said. He’s holding up one of the pictures from their wedding day. Her favorite picture. With unstable steps and trembling hands, she reaches out to take the photo from him.

“Annie Doll,” Bucky sighs lovingly in her ear, his hand grazing her neck. She feels his ring against her skin, making her shiver. Of course, his lips grazing her skin don’t help either. “I don’t mind a few pictures.”

Ana turns her head, placing a light kiss to his jaw. “I don’t want you feeling uncomfortable, babe,” she pauses, then grins mischievously. “Plus, I spotted a supply closet earlier.”

“Шалунья,” Her husband breathes hotly in her ear. It nearly makes her moan. Abruptly, Bucky picks her up by her waist, suddenly spinning her around in the air.

“Bucky!” Ana shouts gleefully, laughing along with him.

The bright, elated smile on his beautiful face makes her heart melt. Their noses brush, Ana closes her eyes, the wind around them, making her feel like she’s flying. She’s been flying ever since she met Bucky.

“I love you, Mrs. Barnes,” Bucky says breathlessly.

Ana gently traces the picture, caught in the moment when Bucky spun her around. She grits her teeth, clenches one fist. If her heart hadn’t already faded with Bucky, it would shatter. She can’t speak, just gently places the photo it in the bag. The one filled with all the important stuff; his pillow, his soap, his journals, Nutella, their marriage certificate, five more pictures, the kintsukuroi.

Lastly, she moves to the kitchen, only taking one thing. The sonogram from the refrigerator door.

Ana can feel how soft her expression is as she stares at her husband, who squints confusingly at the picture. He tilts his head, first to the left, then right, then flips the picture over. Recognition dawns over his face, his mouth dropping in a small O.

“Now I see it,” Bucky announces, nodding determinedly.

Ana narrows her eyes, her legs over his lap and one finger playing with his hair. “No, you don’t.” She calls his bluff.

He groans in disappointment, dropping his head back with a sad pout on his lips. “No, I don’t.”

Tilting his head back up with her fingers, she takes his wrist to bring the sonogram closer to their faces. She circles the image with her finger after she releases his wrist.

“See this circle here?” She begins, then slides her finger over as he nods. “And this tiny little speck-“

“That? That little thing?”

“Yes, that little thing is the baby. Our baby.”

Bucky exhales. “Our baby,” His voice is thick with emotion. “It’s so small. Like a little bean.”

He turns to smile brightly at her, his pure blue eyes misty. Returning his smile, she pushes his hair back behind his ear, leaning forward to kiss his scruffy cheek.

“Exactly. Our little bean.”

“Ana,” Steve’s soft voice shakes slightly behind her, but he doesn’t say more.

Maybe he just called her name to comfort her, maybe he can no longer find any words to comfort her. Maybe he’s just reminding her that she isn’t alone. Whatever the reason, she’s broken out of the recent memory, pressing the sonogram to her chest.

Ana finds both Steve and Rocket staring at her with expressions she doesn’t want and can’t decipher. She nods once at them, carefully slipping the sonogram between he pages of the journal in the bag.

“Is there anything else?” Rocket questions cautiously.

Ana notices Steve from the corner of her eye, two smaller picture frames from the same display as the wedding photo. She catches a glimpse of the photos; one from the wedding of them, the other, a black and white photo from simpler times. Steve tucks them carefully his belt, his glistening eyes snapping over to her quickly before turning away.

“No,” She answers, the word barely making it past her lips.

As they silently make their way out of her and Bucky’s home, Ana spots his jacket in the corner of the couch. With her left hand over her stomach, she reaches out her right one, shaking as she grabs the jacket. It smells like Bucky. The whole apartment does. He’s everywhere and nowhere. He’s gone, vanished, faded away. Ana turns, and quickly walks out of their home, because if she stays there any longer, she will fade too.

Avengers Compound: 5 days Later

Steve stares at the holographic screens in front of him, watching as his friends, his family, pop up as missing. His eyes slide to the climbing red numbers on top of the screen; the count hasn’t stopped for days.

Shuri. Hope and Hank Pym. Peter Parker. Sam. Wanda, Scott Lang. T’Challa. The list goes on and on; , faces he’s heard of, face he knows.

An image catches the corner of his eye, moving his gaze to stare of the face of his best friend. Missing. Gone. Dusted right in front of him, right in front of Ana, and he couldn’t do anything to stop it. He lost. They lost. He failed.

His grip tightens over the edge of the table, only pulling away when he realizes his fingers made cracks in the polished wood. Steve drops his head, feeling the tension build in his shoulders and some bruises lingering from the fight. Blowing out a long breath, he pinches the bridge of his nose pressing into the corner of his eyes to fight off the sting of unshed tears.

Finally lifting his head, he looks at Natasha, staring at the screens with glassy eyes, chewing on her fingernail. Colonel Rhodes is sitting in another chair, keeping careful watch for any signals to pop up on a location device. Thor had agreed to come back with them, but the god has barely moved from the bench small back porch outside. He’s been nearly as quiet as Ana since they got back.

A new flutter of anxiety pangs through his chest, realizing he hasn’t checked on her in several minutes. He was too busy wishing the numbers would stop. Steve looks around the room to find her. She’s not in the corner she was sitting in three minutes ago, but that doesn’t surprise him. What does, is how utterly silent she’s become; entering and exiting a room without Steve even knowing. He shakes his head.

“This is a nightmare,” He sighs forlornly, his voice hardening. “A fucking nightmare.”

“I’ve had better nightmares,” Natasha mumbles behind her fingers, sounding as if she’s miles away. There’s a pause. “Ezra is gone.”

If there was one thing that could possibly give them a strange sense of comfort, it would be the cat. When they arrived back, Ana was slow to get off the jet, as if it pained her to do so. She didn’t speak a word, to anyone since they left her home, but Steve kept a close eye on her, extremely concerned about her well-being. He knew when she began looking for the cat, and he knew she couldn’t find him when she quietly sat herself in the corner by the window.

Her body keeps fading in and out of the golden light, as does some of the power. Steve wants so badly to comfort her, to give her a long overdue hug, assure her that they’ll fix this. But he can’t, because it could all be a lie. There are promises he can’t make, and he won’t give her a false hope, just to have her heart break again. She wouldn’t be able to handle it physically.

“Has she eaten?” Inquires a new voice entering the room. “Because she’s getting weaker.”

Steve turns his back on the screens, giving their new powerful friend, Carol Danvers, his full attention. She appeared up out of nowhere just two days after they arrived back to New York. She was baffled as to what happened to Earth and Nick Fury, especially after he sent her an emergency signal. Her unannounced arrival was the first time Ana spoke in 48 hours.

“Her energy…she’s powerful. Immensely. Maybe she can find Tony...if he’s alive.”

Natasha rubs her temples. “No. And she’s refusing any medical care.”

Hearing the anger in her voice, Steve speaks up. “Pepper is on her way. Maybe if Ana sees her…” He trails off, not believing his own words.

“Let’s hope,” Nat mumbles. Her eyes snaps to his. “Did you know? Did anyone know?”

Placing his hands on his hips, he swallows the thick lump in his throat, shaking his head. He’s not sure if Bucky knew.

“This isn’t healthy for her…or the baby,” Natasha finally collapses in one of the chairs.

“She’s powerful, you know,” Carol states, the tiniest smirk lifting her mouth. “More than she lets on. The energy levels admitting from her is chaotic right now, but she’s strong.” She squints her eyes in thought, appraising Steve. “Shouldn’t the baby be fine since half its DNA is from a super soldier?”

“It’s a possibility,” Natasha muses sadly. “Since a version of the serum was embedded into his genetic code.”

“But since this is the first pregnancy in this case, we won’t know unless symptoms show up,” He informs quietly. “With her or the baby.”

Before anyone else can respond, a sharp beep cuts through the air. A sense of pride and triumph flashes across Carol’s face before she across the room to another computer. She grabs the device she hooked up, turning to show them the screen.

“I found something.”

A week later:

Ana stumbles out of her bathroom, sweaty and wiping her mouth, barely making it to the bed she hasn’t slept in for two years. Pepper’s hands gently guide her down, so she doesn’t fall off. She forces a glass of water into her hand, and a piece of dry toast in the other. Her cousin doesn’t have to say anything, but the pointed glare with her pinched lips gives Ana the impression that if she doesn’t eat and drink, there will be hell to pay. So, she tries.

“I promise you’ll feel better after you eat,” Pepper assures her gently, taking away the now empty glass. “The toast really helped me when I was going through this at 9 weeks.”

Ana forces a breath from her nose, begrudgingly nibbling at the bread. She allows Pepper to hold her hand, squeezing for comfort. She’s been here for the past two days now, waiting. Waiting to see if Tony is still alive, if he didn’t get dusted like everyone else.

Tears burn at Ana’s eyes, but they don’t fall. Instead, she blinks rapidly, and takes a bigger bite. Pepper looks so stressed, worried, heartbroken. With a rather uncharacteristic like thought, Ana realizes she can feel Pepper’s emotions, and also realizes she doesn’t want to. She doesn’t want to help; use her ability to calm her cousin. She slowly pulls her hand away from Pepper’s.

“Parenting is hard,” Pepper states suddenly. Gone is her gentle tone. “It’s hard, and terrifying. You lose sleep, probably some sanity, and you might definitely need help. It’s usually a two person job, Ana.”

She takes another bite.

“But, sometimes, that second parent isn’t there, and the parent that is left has to step up and be both parents. That’s even harder. It’s double the work, double the sacrifice, and double the love. But it’s hard, and if that one parent doesn’t think they can handle it-“

“Pep,” Ana cuts her off with a warning tone. “Stop.”

Pepper’s eyes grow sad, but she keeps her words to herself. Instead, she pushes the damp hair sticking to Ana’s forehead aside as she lays back.

“Why didn’t you tell me? Or anyone else?”

“You didn’t,” Ana mumbles haughtily. “And, first trimester.”

“Please allow a doctor to look at you,” Pepper pleads softly, her eyes watering.

“Who’s that going to be?” She remarks bitterly, wincing as her stomach rolls again.

“You need to take care of yourself, Bug. All this…emotional stress can be dangerous to you both.”

“I’m tired, Pepper,” Ana sighs, only half lying as her eyes close.

She hears her cousin sigh in defeat, followed by the motion of her getting off the bed. Ana feels Pepper push back her hair once more before kissing the top of her head. She thinks she left after several long moments of quiet. Until she speaks again.

“You know Ana,” Pepper starts, a quiver in her voice. “Bucky wouldn’t want you feeling like this. He wouldn’t want to see you this sick.”

“Goodnight, Pepper,” Is Ana’s response.

The second the door clicks shut, Ana curls into a ball, hugging his pillow between her body. The sudden weight of her own feelings crushes down on her aching, empty body. The weight of the others adds to it, and rather than fighting it, she allows it to happen. For their failure to drag her down, fill her lungs with ashes until she can’t breathe. Smothering her with the phantom feel of her love between her fingers.

Ana gasps, wraps one arm over her stomach, and cries into the pillow.

*

Days pass. Nights linger. Ana can barely sleep. Every time she starts to drift off, she sees Bucky disappearing before she could even wrap her arms around him. She nearly forgets she’s pregnant one day, as she grabs on of the whiskey bottles and almost takes a long swig from the bottle itself. Until Bruce walked in at the perfect moment, quickly snatching the bottle away from her.

It resulted in a scolding, and threats of bodily harm from both Steve and Natasha, if she didn’t allow a doctor to evaluate her. It was only one day after that incident, did Ana finally agree. She gets checked over by a both a doctor and GYNO after Pepper was able to find the best of the best who had survived the Snap.

She’s put on bed rest for two weeks, as the emotional turmoil was beginning to become too much for her body. The baby, thankfully, seems to be developing perfectly. But there are times, where Ana is between being awake and sleep, she swears she hears Annie, like a whisper in the wind.

When those times happens, she gets out of bed and always ends up in front of Steve’s door. And every time, Steve always welcomes her with open arms of shared grief to sob into. Sometimes Natasha is already in his room, and the three of them sit in silence; misery loves company.

“Any word from Barton?” Steve cautiously asks one night.

Ana is half asleep, finding it just a tad easier to relax somewhat around Steve. He had set up a few pillows differently to help her get comfortable, and she had been resting a pillow on his thigh as she drifted off.

“No,” The tremor in Nat’s tone makes Steve drop the subject.

Blinking her eyes open, Ana shares a sad look with Steve. She spins her wedding rings around her finger as she shuts her eyes again, then reaches out to link her fingers with Natasha’s. She doesn’t change her energy around, but the small effort of comfort doesn’t go unnoticed.

*

Oddly, it’s Thor that seems to remain stoically calm next to Ana. So, she finds herself around him during the day. Neither say much to each other, but occasionally when she’s feeling like she’s able to, will reach out and touch him.

She feels his anger, his immense guilt, his failure in so many ways. He’s lost so much more than any of them have. But he understands their lost, he understands how Ana is truly feeling at times. Thor wasn’t around too much when Bucky lived at the compound, but when he was, he was always friendly and jubilant towards Bucky.

“He doesn’t seem to be bother by people’s past, does he?” Bucky had questioned after meeting Thor for the third time. They’re on the rooftop, lounging on a chair with his head resting against Ana’s chest.

“Not really. He’s not one to judge quickly,” Ana informed him, brushing her fingers through Bucky’s thick hair. “He must think you’re worthy.”

Bucky had held her a little tighter after that.

Ana blinks the memory away and wipes the single tear from her eye. Thor had caught this moment, his gaze lingering on her face long enough to be uncomfortable. He dropped his gaze, going back to pushing cereal around in the bowl.

“I must apologize, Ana,” Thor mumbles shamefully one day. “Your husband is gone because of me.”

“It isn’t your fault, Thor,” She responded. “I’m not the only one who lost someone.”

*

Without knowing how, another three weeks goes by. Ana didn’t really feel like it has, just trying to go through the motions of trying not to cry. She’s taken to screaming into a pillow more than not, and accidentally causes yet another power outage.

Pepper is back, by request from Bruce and Steve. A sharp pain had hindered Ana for two days, everyone concerned about her and the delicate life growing inside her. A 12 week sonogram revealed that the fetus was still developing perfectly, but Ana’s body was just taking a toll itself. Elevated hear rate, low iron levels, blood pressure going up and down.

She’s resting in bed, hoping to actually sleep, when Pepper brings her decaffeinated tea. She presses close to her cousin, Ana rubbing soothing circle over her small bump. They decided to watch a movie, something light, something uncomplicated. A quiet rattle from the window panels catch both women’s attention. Pepper stands to peak out, as Ana places the barely drank tea on the side table.

“Oh my god,” Pepper breathes. She pulls back the curtain to show Ana.

*

Everyone jogs out into the field, watching as Carol, a bright burning star in the dark sky, effortless lows a giant space ship down to the earth. Ana is the last to bring up the group, weaving through everyone to stand directly behind Pepper. The emotions from them all burns at her skin, and the relief and hope she can feel from Pepper is…painful.

The door of the ship opens with a ramp lowering down to the ground. When her eyes adjust properly to the two bodies walking off the ship, Ana gasps. It’s Tony, alive and….skin and bones. He’s being helped by a woman with blue skin, but Ana barely focuses on her as Steve rushes forward to assist them. Tony looks two seconds away from death. Their whispered words can’t be heard.

Pepper gently embraces him as he relaxes into her, grateful she’s alive. Tony’s eyes flutter open, gazing around until he spots Ana. He looks more relieved when he sees her, but his expression changes when he realizes who is missing.

As he’s helped to walk along further, he stops in front of Ana, nearly tripping over his feet to hug her. Despite everything, she allows herself to feel the amount of relief of Tony being alive.

“Bucky?” Tony questions, gripping her shoulders.

Ana shakes her head.

*

Tony is seriously malnourished and dehydrated, his muscle mass dwindled from being adrift in space for 21 days. Steve, Rhodey and Bruce quickly got Tony inside, checked his vitals and hooked up to an IV, sitting him in a wheelchair. They all gather in an open office area, close to the medical ward, while goes off to Pepper call Happy.

Ana sits quietly at the table, absentmindedly spinning her wedding ring around her finger. Murmurs can be heard if she pays close enough attention, but she doesn’t. All she’s been trying to do for the past month is ignore the near suffocating air of misery, to keep everyone else’s energies at bay. With each day that passes, it gets harder and harder, she even thinks the protective rings don’t offer much help anymore. Possibly got damaged in the fight.

“He did everything he said he would. Thanos wiped out 50% of all living creatures.” Natasha’s voice pulls Ana back into the room.

Tony’s had his hand over his mouth, as if he’s trying to hold something together. “Where is he now? Where?” He asks irritably.

“We don’t know, he just opened a portal and walked through,” Steve answers, crossing his arms.

Tony huffs, and spots Thor in the outside through the windows, sulking on a bench. “What’s wrong with him?”

Rocket pipes up. “He’s pissed. He thinks he failed, which of course he did, but ya know, there’s a lot of that going around, ain’t there?”

Ana mentally agrees with the shared failure.

“Honestly, until this exact second I thought you were build-a-bear,” Tony snarks. Ana knows it’s the trauma effecting Tony and the way he’s acting, even breathing. As if he’d ready to be strained once again.

“Maybe I am,” Rocket challenges.

“He’s not,” Bruce defends.

Steve clears his throat. “We’ve been hunting Thanos for three weeks now, deep space scans and satellites and we got nothing.” Steve pauses, “Tony you fought him.”

“Who told you that? I didn’t fight him,” He snips. “No, he wiped my face with a planet while the Bleaker Street magician gave away the stone. There’s no fight-“

“Okay-“

“There’s no people.”

“Okay,” Steve tries to be patient. “Did he give you any clues, coordinates, anything?”

Tony makes a pffft noise, motioning he’s got nothing. He looks around wildly for a moment. “I saw this coming a few years back, I had a vision, I didn’t want to believe it. Thought I was dreaming.”

Steve grits his teeth before remaing calm. “Tony, I’m gonna need you to stay focus.”

Ana feels a sharp shift in the air.

“And I needed you!” Tony snaps. “As in past tense. That trumps what you need. It’s too late buddy, sorry,”

“You know what I need?” He lashes his hand out, knocking over the glass of water and soup bowl. “I need a shave.

“Tony-“ Rhodey tries, being ignored.

“I believe I remember telling, live and otherwise,” He suddenly grabs his IV, pulling it out of his arm as he stands up. Ana winces, more so at the anger beginning to boil her blood.

“Hey, Tony-“

“That we needed was a suit of armor around the world, remember that? Whether it impacted our precious freedoms or not that’s what we needed!“

Steve doesn’t budge as Tony limps his way right in front of his face. He looks the weak man right in the eyes. “Well that didn’t work out did it?”

Tony sways. “I said ‘we’d lose’. You said ‘we’ll do that together too’. Guess what Cap, we lost. And you weren’t there” He pokes his chest. “But that’s what we do right? Our best work after the fact. We’re the Ah-Vengers, right? Not the pre-vengers!”

Tony stumbles, Steve’s hands twitching to help. The more Tony spews, the more Ana feels the energy.

“Alright, you made your point, just need to sit down.” Rhodey demands, attempting to bring him back.

“No, no,” Tony tries to push him off, as he points to Carol. “You know what, she’s great by the way! We need you, your new blood. Bunch of tired of mills, I got nothing for you Cap!” He breaks out of Rhodey’s hold, getting in Steve’s face once more. “I got no coordinates, no clues, no strategies. No options, zero zip nada. No trust. Liar.”

Ana can’t take it anymore. The high-strung emotions, the dark tainting energy, is beginning to drive her insane. The animosity and tension building in the room, between them. All Anger and hurt and disappointment. She can barely contain the tremors throughout her body, and if she accidentally loses her own control, it won’t be good for anyone.

“Tony!” Ana sharply cuts off his insults to Steve. He sways, nearly losing his balance to face her. A spike of concern flashes through her but she ignores it.

“I know how you’re feeling, Tony. I know. I can feel you,” She informs him, keeping her voice low. “I can feel everyone in this room. I feel it in the air. I know you think you failed. I know it’s hard right now. You were strained for a month. It must be so hard. But are you honestly telling me, you are not going to help us find him? We need you.”

Tony blows a raspberry, then scoffs. “I needed you too,” He slurs irrationally. “I could’ve used your help. Drained his life force or whatever the hell you do,” He wiggles his fingers. “Instead of you running off-“

“Tony-“ Natasha warns, being ignored.

“She risked her-“ Rocket begins angrily.

Tony doesn’t stop “-to hide out in a secret country with Barnes-“ The lights begin to flicker. “Who probably refused to-“

Ana abruptly slams her hand down the one table, standing up, the chair falling over. “I. Can’t. Feel. Him!” She grits vehemently through her teeth. The power surges around the room as her eyes water. “I can’t feel him!”

The wood beneath her hand begins to sizzle. Tony’s eyes flicker to the spot then back to her. Natasha moves to either comfort her or calm her down, but Ana slaps her hands away as her chin trembles.

“I can’t! It feels like I can’t breathe! I couldn’t…I couldn’t hold him…I lost him! We!” She gestures wildly around the room. “We all lost loved ones! And I feel it! The entire world! It’s in the air, in the ground, it’s in this room.”

She inhales deeply, paying no mind to the few tears that betray her eyes. “Are you telling me, you’re just going to walk away. Just take Pepper and leave? You’re just giving up!?”

The tension between them as they glare into each other’s eyes is nearly palpable.

“Yes!” Tony spits like a curse. “In fact,” He turns to Steve again. He grabs the arc reactor on his chest, yanking it from his fragile body. He takes Steve’s hand, slapping the reactor on his palm. “You take this. You find him and you put that on,” He breathes heavily, swaying, pointing at Steve. “You hide.”

Something snaps within Ana as she leans across the table. She snatches the arc reactor from Steve, glaring at Tony. The once powered down device suddenly lights up, glowing brighter and brighter. Her palm begins to emit a strange, faint orange hue, quickly enveloping her entire body. Heat raises in her, boiling her blood, and everything she’s felt since the snap comes to the surface.

Suddenly she launches the reactor forward. It soars right over Tony’s shoulder, narrowly missing his ear, and shatters against the wall behind him. Tony flinched slightly before matching a glare with Ana. They say nothing. Seconds of utter silence, seething silence, passes. Then, Ana spins on her feet, exiting the room in rage so tangible, it stings at everyone’s skin.

Tony turns back to Steve, panting heavily as he stumbles again, pointing in his face. “You’re on your, Cap.”

He collapses to his knees, Rhodes and Steve calling his name, right before he passes out.

*

The air in the living room grows hot as Ana paces around, the lights go out, the windows rattles. She’s vaguely aware her skin is glowing. That her powers are raging, and a voice in the back of her mind tells her mind that being this high stung is not good for the delicate life inside her. She stops pacing, then notices Natasha, Carol, Nebula, Steve and Rocket have all followed her.

“Ana,” Natasha begins softly.

“Don’t.” Carol demands calmly, moving closer to Ana with a understanding loo in her eyes. “Don’t tell her to control her emotions.”

“I wasn’t…” Nat’s words die off.

At Carol’s gentle touch with her hand on Ana’s elbow, the raging wave inside her chest slowly begins to regulate. It’s an unearthly amount of power, but the powerful energy emitting from the newcomer it doesn’t control Ana’s own. Instead, it comforts it.

But Ana doesn’t want comfort. She doesn’t want to regulate energies or feel the grieving world’s emotions. She wants to protect the shattered shell of her soul, of her heart. She wants to protect the only thing of Bucky she has left. Places her hands over her slightly bulging stomach, and does something she never thought she could.

Closing her eyes, Ana inhales deeply, feeling the chaos of energy within her and from others. She finds her own emotions and concentrates until she can feel it all gather in the center of her chest. Lifting her right hand to her chest, Ana presses down, then zaps her fingers over her heart. Then…nothing.

Everything stops.

When she finally opens her eyes, she feels nothing.

“What the hell was that?” Rocket questions, baffled. Nebula looks a little sad, yet curious.

“Ana,” Natasha speaks up cautiously. “You didn’t.”

“Didn’t what?” Steve demands, an air of urgency in his tone. “What did she do?”

“She…” Carol answers, clearing her throat and takes her hand off Ana’s elbow. “Didn’t control it. She did something worse.”

“Like what?”

Ana slowly meets Steve’s worried gaze. “I shut my emotions off.” She informs him, her voice an even tone. “Now I won’t feel anything.”

Ana doesn’t bother watching Steve’s concern grow into fear. She just walks out of the room. After a few minutes of stunned quiet, Natasha breaks it.

“She never told Tony she’s pregnant.”

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Life between lives...

So, someone asked me on Twitter to delve into this subject. There was a thread on experiences like seeing ghosts, paranormal, etc... just in general. I posted about seeing my grandfather once after he passed away, and feeling my grandmother’s spirit for weeks after she passed. I also posted my dream visitation experiences/astral projection. This got into other topics, which led me to life between lives or the question of what happens when you die? What happens in the “afterlife” and if you believe the way I do...the afterlife prepares you to either be reincarnated or stay a soul with your fellow soul family. That beings said, I also believe there are dimensions. We are living many different lives at the same time, over different dimensions. I attribute this belief to explain how deja vu happens. I think sometimes me in another dimension pushes through to give me a heads up that I am either on the right path or way off of it...or that gut feeling I get, could be my soul guides (explained below) yelling at me.

  So, human beings are made up of flesh and bone and a “consciousness” that some consider a soul or spirit. Lots of people believe when you die, thats it. I used to believe that until about 15 years ago, when I started doing a lot of spiritual research and searching of my own. Life was so chaotic and hurtful and crazy that I needed answers, somehow, to make sense of it all. Now, I am NOT religious. I was brought up in a Baptist home, went to a Christian school from grade 7-12, went to church as a little kid and as a teenager and for a year or so as a married adult in my early 20′s. I didn’t go because I wanted to or truly believed in God. I went because it was required of me by my family, school, certain friends, and husband. After I had my kids and ended up getting divorced, I stopped going. I wanted to find my own way. My son had a seizure disorder and is autistic. I had reconnected with an old friend and we had become close (eventually marrying, still married 25 years later). I found my way to Wicca and paganism. I immediately connected with it. I learned everything I could. I ended up abandoning the Wicca part though. More Gods and Goddesses to “pray to” was not my thing. I focused on witchcraft. I still practice on my own. I do not like to advertise this as I get crazy responses or just disbelief. That is ok. I just don’t want to deal with “defending” it anymore. I’ve had enough of defending what I do to last a lifetime. 

  When my grandfather died, I was 17. he died suddenly of a heart attack a few days after burying his sister. He was away from home (a few hours drive) and had sent my granny (his wife) back home while he arranged care for his sister husband who had Alzheimers, and took care of legal stuff, etc. He was a drinker and he had a heart condition and he had a heart attack the night my granny had come back home. I was living with her at the time, and my uncle (their son) was staying there also. I will never forget the phone call we got telling us he had died and the screams of my granny saying, “It’s not true, tell me its not true, it can’t be true” It is something I can’t forget. we had his viewing on my birthday and the funeral the day after. My birthday had become a very sad time in our family, and would remain that way for a few years. I digress... anyway, about two years after he passed away, around the time I got pregnant with my first child (yes, I was 19) I woke up one night to go to the bathroom and immediately felt a strangeness in the air, in the way I felt, almost electric feeling, a ringing in my ears. When I came back to bed and laid down, I glanced down at the foot of my bed and my grandfather was standing there. He looked like the last time I had seen him alive, but wearing his Navy uniform, just like he was buried in. He was sort of just standing there looking at me, and then he smiled. I was not scared at that point...and just as I started to open my mouth to try to say something he disappeared. The electric feeling and ringing in my ears disappeared as suddenly as they began. When my granny was dying from complications from Alzheimer’s in 2015, I sat by her side in hospice every day for 12 days. I could feel her slipping away even though she was medically sedated with a ton of morphine to keep her comfortable. When everyone had gotten the chance to say goodbye, including our daughter over the phone that 12th day...I left for the night, but I didn’t want to. Something told me to stay, but I had our son, he was tired, cranky, and autism doesn’t like staying cooped up in the hospital for days on end no matter how much he loved his granny (they were extremely close...as I was, she pretty much raised me, and was close with both my kids). When she passed away the next morning, I woke up a couple of minutes before the phone rang at 5:45am... and I knew.My husband says she chose to go then because she didn’t want anyone to see her die. I was upset at first. I wanted to be there...for her last breath, holding her hand as I had done for almost 2 weeks. Now, I accept my husband’s explanation and its ok. I am at peace with that. For the next two to three weeks in my home, 3 and half hours from hers and where she is buried, the smell of morphine, hospital and her hand cream permeated my entire home. Every time I would lie down to sleep at night, it felt like someone would sit down beside me on the bed, and as I cried, the smell would become stronger and I would feel her presence, as if she were saying, “I am here with you”. Then, the dreams, and nightmares started. Its long and drawn out, so I won’t get into it all... I believe the stories are far back in this blog archive though... through 2015-2017 somewhere. The same kind of thing happened when my brother passed away from a drug overdose in 2017. The nightmares were much worse. The common denominator was the sleep paralysis I would experience after these dreams. That is a whole other story though.... moving forward...

  Ever since I was a kid I have had deja vu episodes. I know everyone probably has them, but I have them A LOT. I started researching deja vu and discovered so much. One theory worth exploring is that this phenomenon is a message from your higher self.  What if your soul is recalling a memory from a previous life?  This moment can be a powerful, miraculous glimpse into your own soul if you are aware enough to notice it.  This experience can help you in your current emotional healing if you are mindful enough to recognize it.  Your soul on the subconscious level may be sending messages to your conscious mind.  These messages may be the very same déjà vu moments you are experiencing. They can also be messages from your own soul, just in another dimension. The dimension theory isn’t something I am absolutely sure of, but its interesting to think about. 

  This is where the lives in different dimensions comes in. The universe is a vast unknown. We do not know enough to say this can’t be true. Just like people who believe alien life exists somewhere (I do not believe alien life is here on earth)...we can’t dismiss the fact that certain things can be so unexplainable that you also can’t disprove the possibility either. My pull, in this life, to music, dance, song...could mean I am a dancer in another life or parallel dimension, or was one. We tend to be pulled towards the same things in each life, even if we experience it as a different gender or profession, with our “soul family” in different positions in each life.  This brings me to MY actual take...

  I believe when you die, your soul (spirit) goes through an energy transformation. We are energy. Energy does not die, it is just reformed into another thing, person, etc.. If this is your first incarnation, your soul being brand new, the transformation will be traumatic and disorienting, and you probably will either want to reincarnate quickly out of comfort or you will decided to learn what is happening to you, learn from what HAS happened, sit with your soul guides (not Gods, just helpful soul energies who are much more advanced than you are) and decide what kind of life you want next, what you want to learn differently, and how you can evolve as a soul being. If you’ve lived many many lives, your soul may already have learned what it needs to learn in this world as a human. You may decide to become a soul guide yourself. You know that little voice inside. The one thats like your “gut feeling” or someone talking in your head? THOSE are your soul guides speaking to you. Like a 6th sense for some very awake people, but guides nonetheless. Some even talk about their guides during past live and life between lives regression sessions. I find this fascinating. 

  We stick with the same soul family throughout our existence. We can choose among them who we want to be connected to in the next life (during the in between lives, of course). We can choose to be a wife or a husband or a child. We also choose the lessons we want to try to learn. Example... if I was married and an abusive husband in one life, I may choose to be reincarnated as an abused wife in the next to learn the lessons I need  to grow as a soul and not keep repeating the same mistakes. In order to heal my soul energy, this is what happens. In order to learn empathy in one life, I may choose un-empathetic parents, so I can see how NOT to be. There are so many things, people, places, and incarnations and its all a choice we make while between lives. Our soul families usually consist of us, our parents, grandparents, children, and siblings, and finally...a significant other. We also have other soul connections. They aren’t necessarily our soul family, but we are connected to them...usually close friends, acquaintances, or people that have made some kind of mark in our lives. Think of it as a tree, the universe being the trunk, you are a branch, the closest branches are your soul family and as the branches keep getting further away from the center trunk you have your soul connections. 

  I could talk forever about this, but its so much easier to read about it from the one I did...Dr. Michael Newton. He did studies over decades of past life regressions and that is how this theory evolved. Through their sessions and interviews. It was life changing for me. Everything finally made sense. My life made sense, the experiences I had made sense, the people coming in and out of my life made sense. The strong connections to certain individuals made sense, the way I made decisions made sense finally. I would LOVE to do a past life regression. 

  I really hope I explained this a bit better than I could in 128 characters on Twitter. I also hope I left you with some curiosity so you will seek out your own answers about this. Whether you believe it or not is not my goal. I am not trying to convert anyone, or push anything. This is what I believe. 

[lolbtsaus]

Dress (Werewolf!Yoongi)

Plot: 061: “I wanted to surprise you for our anniversary, but everything that could go wrong, did go wrong.” + “081: “I can’t fit into my favorite dress anymore.” with werewolf!Yoongi

Word Count: 1427

A/N: so I meant to say this yesterday but in my sleepy state I guess I forgot to mention so HAPPY NEW YEAR’S!!! I’m so beyond ready for 2017 and now it’s here, I’m ready for the next set of birthdays and holidays, I’m already pumped for my bday and that shit isn’t gonna be here for a couple of months I’m ready to go back to school but also not bc I’m taking a math class this term and that’s gonna suck major ass but onto the post, this is gonna combine husband!Yoongi (here) and werewolf!Yoongi (here) bc they were originally two requests but it was for the same thing so I figured I’d combine the two

Packs had their pros and cons. One of the upsides to having six boys, plus their spouses, siblings and parents, in your pack was you never felt alone. There was always someone in your house, someone willing to drive over at three in the morning when you felt like you heard a weird noise downstairs, someone who cooked breakfast for the entire pack every Sunday. It was a giant family, a loud, slightly chaotic family that loved each other beyond words. They took care of each other, they always knew whether they were injured physically or were going through a rough time, they could truth their pack to catch them when they fell.

There were a few cons though, such as the lack of privacy. Yoongi had been married to you for almost a year and there had only been a handful of times where you two were fully alone. Someone was always downstairs, in one of the guest rooms, out in the yard. They never realized they were doing it, it was just the way they were raised. They had done everything together, they’d lived in the same house until they’d moved out with their spouses and even then, they slept over at each others houses constantly. To them, it was second nature to be in each others space all day but to a newly married couple, it wasn’t so much fun.

You loved the pack with all of your heart, you loved each and every one of them and considered them all to be family but you wanted to spend your anniversary with Yoongi and only Yoongi. Yet there you were, sat in between Taehyung and Jungkook on the couch while they played video games. The cake you had bought for Yoongi so you could surprise him with it when he got home had quickly been wolfed down by the three maknaes, Jimin taking his “after cake” nap on your bed. There was only one piece left but in their defense, none of them knew it was for Yoongi and you. They were all just used to eating whatever was available, knowing if someone wanted to save something for themselves, they’d write their name on it. You knew none of them meant to cause any trouble, they had all apologized about a hundred times each and had offered to go buy another cake to replace it but you knew Yoongi had already made reservations at your favorite restaurant so you figured you could just get dessert there and split the one piece of cake that was left.

Things weren’t going amazing on Yoongi’s side either. He had been stuck at the pack house all day, his original intention just to drop by and pick up his gifts for you. He didn’t want you to even know he’d gotten you gifts so the pack had agreed he could use his old room to store the gifts. He already had the bouquet of flowers ready to go, he had the gifts, he had cupcakes from your favorite bakery but when he had gone to start his car, it didn’t want to cooperate. He had been sat there for a good five minutes trying to turn the car on before giving up and calling Jin to ask for a ride. Jin lived fifteen minutes away so thankfully the wait wasn’t too long but it was another fifteen minutes to get to your place and Yoongi was already running late. It felt like nothing was going right on the one day you two needed it to.

Yoongi had already texted you to tell you the situation but he couldn’t help but feel bad when he walked into the house to see the two boys on the couch. You were just glad Yoongi had made it home safely, you didn’t care about any of the other things once you saw his hair dripping wet, the bouquet of flowers in one hand and a bag with presents in the other. You hugged him as tight as you could, both of you shouting a “thank you” to Jin as he drove away.

“I’m sorry I’m late.” Yoongi apologized, his hand rubbing your back gently. “I was supposed to take an hour at the most but-”

“It’s okay, don’t worry about it. Taehyung and Jungkook have been keeping me company, I’m not mad. I’m more worried about you, you’re gonna catch a cold if you don’t go take a shower and get into some warm clothes.”

“Why don’t we both shower and get ready and just head out early? Maybe we can stop by the park on our way there, see the cherry blossom trees.”

“That sounds amazing.”

You followed Yoongi up to your room, laughing when he made Jungkook carry Jimin out of the room. You went into the bathroom to get the shower ready, setting towels and robes out while you heard Yoongi ruffle through the closet. He really felt awful about your anniversary turning out the way it did and he wanted to make you smile to make sure you weren’t angry deep down, in case you were just hiding it from him. He would never do this for anyone else but after nearly seven years of being together, he was willing to do anything for you.

During your first year of dating Yoongi, you had jokingly bought him a maid’s costume for his birthday. You really just wanted to see his reaction to it but the joke had been turned around onto you when he’d put it on right then and there. You had laughed the entire night and even though he hated every second of wearing the dress and every part of him wanted to take it off and throw it out, he couldn’t help but laugh along with you. That night was still one of your favorite memories you shared with him, the way he’d been so embarrassed about his outfit, his hand holding his skirt still the entire time, a shy gummy smile on his face. You still remembered it as the night you fell in love with him, the way he wasn’t afraid to act goofy to make you laugh, even if it was just for a few minutes.

He took a deep breath, trying to squirm his way into the costume once again, nearly seven years after the first and only time he’d worn it. Both of you had agreed to keep it purely for the memory of it but now he was thankful you’d convinced him it was a good idea. His hands couldn’t reach the zipper in the back, not used to the techniques of getting such a tight dress on. He didn’t know how anyone who wore these dresses did it, he could barely breath and he knew for damn sure he wasn’t going to be able to zip it up even halfway, let alone fully. He left it unzipped, figuring it’d add to the comedic effect.

“Oh my god.” you mumbled when you saw your husband walk into the bathroom with a faux sad look on his face.

“I can’t fit into my favorite dress anymore.” he told you, the apron that went along with the outfit still in his hand.

Those words were all you needed to start laughing, quickly forgetting about the robes in your hands as you leaned against the shower for support. Yoongi stomping into the room didn’t help your breathless laughter, only making you laugh harder as you struggled to stay upright.

“I love you so fucking much.” you laughed, your eyes tearing up at the sight of the unzipped zipper.

“Oh my god.” you heard another voice let out, looking over to see the three boys peeking into the bathroom.

They had heard the loud laughter upstairs and out of pure curiosity, they decided to go see what was so funny. They definitely didn’t expect to see their second eldest pack member in a maid costume. Jungkook’s jaw was dropped, quickly taking a picture of the scene in front of him as Taehyung and Jimin only snickered. Yoongi was quick to start chasing Jungkook for his phone, yelling some less than friendly words at him as Jimin and Taehyung both fell to the floor from laughter.

“Yoongi wait!” you called, picking up the apron that Yoongi had tossed aside in his rush to get to Jungkook as you ran out of the bathroom with a smile on your face. “You forgot your apron!”

“I’ll get it later!”

“At least let me zip you up!”

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10 Working day Egypt Explorer Tour

We have been seeking to check out Egypt for a even though now so when the prospect to get absent in excess of the Christmas and New 12 months period of time arose we knew we wanted to head there for a break. We joined Expat Discover on their 10 Working day Explorer Tour via Egypt getting in the sights of Cairo, Aswan, Luxor and Hurghada.

The reason we selected Expat Explore was that they have been the least expensive in price tag with all the very same sights and in the close we had been satisfied with our choice.

Pre-departure they emailed us our itinerary with the optional excursions and further expenses for entry service fees bundled so that we could finances adequately. As properly as following up with our pre-journey queries concerning flights, insurance and uhealth and basic safety advice.

From the start off they ended up really qualified. Landing in Cairo we were being personally greeted the working day right before our tour and transported to our City centre lodge. That travel was an eye-opener to Egypt with insane lane improvements, honking, swerving, flashing lights with animals, men and women and automobiles in all places.

El Tonsy Lodge is your base for your arrival and previous night. The good thing is we did not count on considerably as our door didn’t lock which was a bit dodgy and the rooms were freezing cold with a broken heater and only just one blanket. You would not believe you would require heat in Egypt but it was the center of winter and it was chilly at night. No grievances with the location while as we could see the Pyramids in the distance and were being only 5 minutes stroll from the Nile and 15 minutes to Tahir Sq. (correctly safe by the way). In addition they have a small bar/cafe with low-cost food items and free of charge Wi-Fi. Just get your snacks and h2o from the grocery store across the road and you will get on wonderful.

It is fairly tricky to break down a whole vacation into 1 write-up but listed here goes:

Day Just one

Your tour starts off with the best in my viewpoint by touring some sights of Cairo. The steeply angled Phase Pyramid, intellect-blowing Pyramids of Giza and the more compact than anticipated Sphinx. This working day was definitely the emphasize.

That evening is invested aboard the educate for 10-12 hours to Aswan. I highly advise the Sleeper practice for an extra £50 for every man or woman. Other individuals that caught the standard coach froze their butts off when we had a toasty slumber with a served evening meal and breakfast. Sad to say Expat Explore never ever instructed us about the supplied food so we ate just before we received on-board but what we could in good shape in was mouth watering.

Working day Two

The tour splits in Aswan as one group embarks on a River Cruise aboard a 5 star ship when the others devote time in inns and on a Felucca. No surprise that we went with the more cost-effective solution aboard the Felucca so the subsequent few times are from that issue of check out.

The afternoon is yours at Sara Hotel on the banks previously mentioned the Nile. We lapped up the gorgeous rays of the sunshine and managed to turn our pasty white bodies a more fitting somewhat white shade. The Resort was wonderful until eventually the rest room upcoming-doorway erupted sending a river of smelly squander across our bed room ground (toss your rest room paper in the bin not the bathroom)! The good thing is we woke in time to rescue our luggage from the watery mess! Not the fault of Expat Explore and we didn’t blame the Lodge either as shit happens.

Working day A few

Your working day begins by checking out the monstrous High Dam for 10 minutes (pretty dull) and a drive past the Unfinished Obelisk. While the emphasize is definitely the Philae Temple. When the sunsets throughout the Nile reflecting off the stonework it actually is fairly magical.

The evening finished with an optional meal in a traditional Nubian households household. The foods was delicious and you superior deliver your singing and dancing footwear.

Day Four

The next day and evening is put in enjoyable aboard the Felucca for a sail up the Nile for various hrs. Sleeping no extra than 8 people today you will be cosy if you deliver your own sleeping bag like us. The relaxation of our crew ended up jealous as it did get very chilly in the night nonetheless blankets have been offered.

With tasty pita bread and falafel cooked on the boat you will not be unhappy with the meals either.

The day finishes with a bonfire on the Nile shoreline as you sing and dance with the mad enjoyment Nubian crews. This was surely a person of the highlights of the overall excursion for us.

Journey Idea: Don’t be set off by undertaking your “business” amongst the reeds of the Nile. Just get pleasure from the see and bear in mind to deliver your have rest room paper (which you need everywhere in Egypt in any case).

By all accounts, from the other tour members, the River Cruise is just as fantastic with 3 evenings on-board in at ease accommodation, a pool and  buffets early morning, midday and night.

Day 5

Waking to a dawn breaking the early morning chill is a wonderful way to get started a new day. However there is tiny time for rest ahead of you are off the Felucca and on a bus to Kom Ombu and Edfu Temples. I must say, all of the transportation was much more than enough with toilets on the buses and place ample for every person. It is fortunate mainly because you do devote the vast majority of the time being pushed all-around.

The Lotus Lodge in Luxor was possibly the pick of them all. Located on the Nile lender with a swimming pool and tasty buffet breakfast.

Day Six

A person far more working day, one extra chaotic program. Hurrying to defeat the crowds at the Valley of the Kings it is another 8am start. You are only permitted to take a look at 3 tombs and we recommend the guides picks which ended up Ramses II, IV and IX.

Vacation Suggestion: You are NOT authorized to get your camera with you off the bus. You should do not ruin it for every person by having shots as you will be billed by protection when caught.

We also squeezed in the crowded rock carved Hatshepsut Temple but only drove previous Luxor Temple as we ran out of time as you will need to generate 6 hrs to reach Hurghada that night time.

Working day Seven and 8

The upcoming two days at the Purple Sea are yours to do whatsoever you like so use them properly. We joined most of our group for a place of snorkelling and diving. The dive and the personnel ended up good but the full day seemed a minimal rushed which was a disgrace. Preserve an eye out for our post on our diving practical experience in Hurghada.

So nice remaining in a position to chill out on a beach front and examine a reserve immediately after this sort of a frantic plan. It’s difficult to go away and the 6 – 8 hour bus trip again to Cairo is rough.

Travel Idea: If you approach to do the tour over New Decades Eve then you will have to depart Hurghada 50 % a working day early which sucked as it intended celebrating the New Year at the Lodge in Cairo. Little bit of a enable down but when has not New Many years Eve been!

Day 9

Your closing day of sightseeing is spent about Cairo. Our favorite section of the day was definitely the Cairo Museum with an fantastic tour guidebook. It suits completely at the finish by seeing all the history shut-up immediately after acquiring acquired about it around the previous 8 days.

By the time we strike the aged area of Cairo and the Coptic Hanging Church we ended up used on record but our manual built a excellent effort at retaining us entertained.

The very last team activity is totally free time for an hour or so at the Khan El Khalili souk markets where the touts attempt to prise your hard cash from you for the past time from every nook and cranny.

Working day Ten

With the tour in excess of it’s time to head residence. Our flight was late the next night time so we walked all around the city and Souks on our very own for the working day. Expat Examine provides transportation again to the airport which was good.

The Negatives

The journey was magnificent but we assume it is crucial to be aware the little things that could make a massive change to the all round practical experience:

It felt like we have been always hungry. Possibly it is just Kiwi’s and Aussies that try to eat all the time but it seriously felt like we have been frequently starving with lunches currently being served normally right after 4pm and meal at 9pm onwards. It may be the Egyptian way to take in at those people situations but not for us. Vacation Suggestion: Get loads of treats for the street which are quite low cost at supermarkets.

There was in some cases a absence of course in what appeared to be taking place. Everything is carried out on Egyptian time so be patient.

We were being usually delayed or driving agenda with tiny to no advice as to how extensive it would get to get from location to spot. A minor know-how goes a long was as then we can prepare ahead.

Extra absolutely free time would be fantastic to discover destinations on your individual relatively than have our palms held everywhere.

The Positives:

As we reported above, the journey was awesome and the little beneficial items significantly outweighed the negatives which assisted make it a unforgettable excursion.

Pre-departure facts and care was very very good.

The tour was remarkable value for dollars and it was the cheapest tour we could come across even nevertheless we continue to saw all the exact same sights the other groups did.

The guides have been very proficient and by no means failed to reply any queries we experienced. The insights into the every day life of the people today all over us was a awesome break from all the heritage. They also ensured you by no means felt unsafe or not comfortable.

The Felucca journey was superior than expected and all round so was the lodging and transport options.

All in all we really advocate you ebook with Expat Explore if you are contemplating a vacation by Egypt.

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Disclaimer: Expat Investigate delivered us with a low cost for our 10 working day tour of Egypt on the other hand as always our feelings are usually our own.

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10 Working day Egypt Explorer Tour

We have been seeking to check out Egypt for a even though now so when the prospect to get absent in excess of the Christmas and New 12 months period of time arose we knew we wanted to head there for a break. We joined Expat Discover on their 10 Working day Explorer Tour via Egypt getting in the sights of Cairo, Aswan, Luxor and Hurghada.

The reason we selected Expat Explore was that they have been the least expensive in price tag with all the very same sights and in the close we had been satisfied with our choice.

Pre-departure they emailed us our itinerary with the optional excursions and further expenses for entry service fees bundled so that we could finances adequately. As properly as following up with our pre-journey queries concerning flights, insurance and uhealth and basic safety advice.

From the start off they ended up really qualified. Landing in Cairo we were being personally greeted the working day right before our tour and transported to our City centre lodge. That travel was an eye-opener to Egypt with insane lane improvements, honking, swerving, flashing lights with animals, men and women and automobiles in all places.

El Tonsy Lodge is your base for your arrival and previous night. The good thing is we did not count on considerably as our door didn’t lock which was a bit dodgy and the rooms were freezing cold with a broken heater and only just one blanket. You would not believe you would require heat in Egypt but it was the center of winter and it was chilly at night. No grievances with the location while as we could see the Pyramids in the distance and were being only 5 minutes stroll from the Nile and 15 minutes to Tahir Sq. (correctly safe by the way). In addition they have a small bar/cafe with low-cost food items and free of charge Wi-Fi. Just get your snacks and h2o from the grocery store across the road and you will get on wonderful.

It is fairly tricky to break down a whole vacation into 1 write-up but listed here goes:

Day Just one

Your tour starts off with the best in my viewpoint by touring some sights of Cairo. The steeply angled Phase Pyramid, intellect-blowing Pyramids of Giza and the more compact than anticipated Sphinx. This working day was definitely the emphasize.

That evening is invested aboard the educate for 10-12 hours to Aswan. I highly advise the Sleeper practice for an extra £50 for every man or woman. Other individuals that caught the standard coach froze their butts off when we had a toasty slumber with a served evening meal and breakfast. Sad to say Expat Explore never ever instructed us about the supplied food so we ate just before we received on-board but what we could in good shape in was mouth watering.

Working day Two

The tour splits in Aswan as one group embarks on a River Cruise aboard a 5 star ship when the others devote time in inns and on a Felucca. No surprise that we went with the more cost-effective solution aboard the Felucca so the subsequent few times are from that issue of check out.

The afternoon is yours at Sara Hotel on the banks previously mentioned the Nile. We lapped up the gorgeous rays of the sunshine and managed to turn our pasty white bodies a more fitting somewhat white shade. The Resort was wonderful until eventually the rest room upcoming-doorway erupted sending a river of smelly squander across our bed room ground (toss your rest room paper in the bin not the bathroom)! The good thing is we woke in time to rescue our luggage from the watery mess! Not the fault of Expat Explore and we didn’t blame the Lodge either as shit happens.

Working day A few

Your working day begins by checking out the monstrous High Dam for 10 minutes (pretty dull) and a drive past the Unfinished Obelisk. While the emphasize is definitely the Philae Temple. When the sunsets throughout the Nile reflecting off the stonework it actually is fairly magical.

The evening finished with an optional meal in a traditional Nubian households household. The foods was delicious and you superior deliver your singing and dancing footwear.

Day Four

The next day and evening is put in enjoyable aboard the Felucca for a sail up the Nile for various hrs. Sleeping no extra than 8 people today you will be cosy if you deliver your own sleeping bag like us. The relaxation of our crew ended up jealous as it did get very chilly in the night nonetheless blankets have been offered.

With tasty pita bread and falafel cooked on the boat you will not be unhappy with the meals either.

The day finishes with a bonfire on the Nile shoreline as you sing and dance with the mad enjoyment Nubian crews. This was surely a person of the highlights of the overall excursion for us.

Journey Idea: Don’t be set off by undertaking your “business” amongst the reeds of the Nile. Just get pleasure from the see and bear in mind to deliver your have rest room paper (which you need everywhere in Egypt in any case).

By all accounts, from the other tour members, the River Cruise is just as fantastic with 3 evenings on-board in at ease accommodation, a pool and  buffets early morning, midday and night.

Day 5

Waking to a dawn breaking the early morning chill is a wonderful way to get started a new day. However there is tiny time for rest ahead of you are off the Felucca and on a bus to Kom Ombu and Edfu Temples. I must say, all of the transportation was much more than enough with toilets on the buses and place ample for every person. It is fortunate mainly because you do devote the vast majority of the time being pushed all-around.

The Lotus Lodge in Luxor was possibly the pick of them all. Located on the Nile lender with a swimming pool and tasty buffet breakfast.

Day Six

A person far more working day, one extra chaotic program. Hurrying to defeat the crowds at the Valley of the Kings it is another 8am start. You are only permitted to take a look at 3 tombs and we recommend the guides picks which ended up Ramses II, IV and IX.

Vacation Suggestion: You are NOT authorized to get your camera with you off the bus. You should do not ruin it for every person by having shots as you will be billed by protection when caught.

We also squeezed in the crowded rock carved Hatshepsut Temple but only drove previous Luxor Temple as we ran out of time as you will need to generate 6 hrs to reach Hurghada that night time.

Working day Seven and 8

The upcoming two days at the Purple Sea are yours to do whatsoever you like so use them properly. We joined most of our group for a place of snorkelling and diving. The dive and the personnel ended up good but the full day seemed a minimal rushed which was a disgrace. Preserve an eye out for our post on our diving practical experience in Hurghada.

So nice remaining in a position to chill out on a beach front and examine a reserve immediately after this sort of a frantic plan. It’s difficult to go away and the 6 – 8 hour bus trip again to Cairo is rough.

Travel Idea: If you approach to do the tour over New Decades Eve then you will have to depart Hurghada 50 % a working day early which sucked as it intended celebrating the New Year at the Lodge in Cairo. Little bit of a enable down but when has not New Many years Eve been!

Day 9

Your closing day of sightseeing is spent about Cairo. Our favorite section of the day was definitely the Cairo Museum with an fantastic tour guidebook. It suits completely at the finish by seeing all the history shut-up immediately after acquiring acquired about it around the previous 8 days.

By the time we strike the aged area of Cairo and the Coptic Hanging Church we ended up used on record but our manual built a excellent effort at retaining us entertained.

The very last team activity is totally free time for an hour or so at the Khan El Khalili souk markets where the touts attempt to prise your hard cash from you for the past time from every nook and cranny.

Working day Ten

With the tour in excess of it’s time to head residence. Our flight was late the next night time so we walked all around the city and Souks on our very own for the working day. Expat Examine provides transportation again to the airport which was good.

The Negatives

The journey was magnificent but we assume it is crucial to be aware the little things that could make a massive change to the all round practical experience:

It felt like we have been always hungry. Possibly it is just Kiwi’s and Aussies that try to eat all the time but it seriously felt like we have been frequently starving with lunches currently being served normally right after 4pm and meal at 9pm onwards. It may be the Egyptian way to take in at those people situations but not for us. Vacation Suggestion: Get loads of treats for the street which are quite low cost at supermarkets.

There was in some cases a absence of course in what appeared to be taking place. Everything is carried out on Egyptian time so be patient.

We were being usually delayed or driving agenda with tiny to no advice as to how extensive it would get to get from location to spot. A minor know-how goes a long was as then we can prepare ahead.

Extra absolutely free time would be fantastic to discover destinations on your individual relatively than have our palms held everywhere.

The Positives:

As we reported above, the journey was awesome and the little beneficial items significantly outweighed the negatives which assisted make it a unforgettable excursion.

Pre-departure facts and care was very very good.

The tour was remarkable value for dollars and it was the cheapest tour we could come across even nevertheless we continue to saw all the exact same sights the other groups did.

The guides have been very proficient and by no means failed to reply any queries we experienced. The insights into the every day life of the people today all over us was a awesome break from all the heritage. They also ensured you by no means felt unsafe or not comfortable.

The Felucca journey was superior than expected and all round so was the lodging and transport options.

All in all we really advocate you ebook with Expat Explore if you are contemplating a vacation by Egypt.

Make certain you subscribe now and come back again before long so you can take pleasure in looking through our new posts which will protect all the things else in far more element.

Disclaimer: Expat Investigate delivered us with a low cost for our 10 working day tour of Egypt on the other hand as always our feelings are usually our own.

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10 Working day Egypt Explorer Tour

We have been seeking to check out Egypt for a even though now so when the prospect to get absent in excess of the Christmas and New 12 months period of time arose we knew we wanted to head there for a break. We joined Expat Discover on their 10 Working day Explorer Tour via Egypt getting in the sights of Cairo, Aswan, Luxor and Hurghada.

The reason we selected Expat Explore was that they have been the least expensive in price tag with all the very same sights and in the close we had been satisfied with our choice.

Pre-departure they emailed us our itinerary with the optional excursions and further expenses for entry service fees bundled so that we could finances adequately. As properly as following up with our pre-journey queries concerning flights, insurance and uhealth and basic safety advice.

From the start off they ended up really qualified. Landing in Cairo we were being personally greeted the working day right before our tour and transported to our City centre lodge. That travel was an eye-opener to Egypt with insane lane improvements, honking, swerving, flashing lights with animals, men and women and automobiles in all places.

El Tonsy Lodge is your base for your arrival and previous night. The good thing is we did not count on considerably as our door didn’t lock which was a bit dodgy and the rooms were freezing cold with a broken heater and only just one blanket. You would not believe you would require heat in Egypt but it was the center of winter and it was chilly at night. No grievances with the location while as we could see the Pyramids in the distance and were being only 5 minutes stroll from the Nile and 15 minutes to Tahir Sq. (correctly safe by the way). In addition they have a small bar/cafe with low-cost food items and free of charge Wi-Fi. Just get your snacks and h2o from the grocery store across the road and you will get on wonderful.

It is fairly tricky to break down a whole vacation into 1 write-up but listed here goes:

Day Just one

Your tour starts off with the best in my viewpoint by touring some sights of Cairo. The steeply angled Phase Pyramid, intellect-blowing Pyramids of Giza and the more compact than anticipated Sphinx. This working day was definitely the emphasize.

That evening is invested aboard the educate for 10-12 hours to Aswan. I highly advise the Sleeper practice for an extra £50 for every man or woman. Other individuals that caught the standard coach froze their butts off when we had a toasty slumber with a served evening meal and breakfast. Sad to say Expat Explore never ever instructed us about the supplied food so we ate just before we received on-board but what we could in good shape in was mouth watering.

Working day Two

The tour splits in Aswan as one group embarks on a River Cruise aboard a 5 star ship when the others devote time in inns and on a Felucca. No surprise that we went with the more cost-effective solution aboard the Felucca so the subsequent few times are from that issue of check out.

The afternoon is yours at Sara Hotel on the banks previously mentioned the Nile. We lapped up the gorgeous rays of the sunshine and managed to turn our pasty white bodies a more fitting somewhat white shade. The Resort was wonderful until eventually the rest room upcoming-doorway erupted sending a river of smelly squander across our bed room ground (toss your rest room paper in the bin not the bathroom)! The good thing is we woke in time to rescue our luggage from the watery mess! Not the fault of Expat Explore and we didn’t blame the Lodge either as shit happens.

Working day A few

Your working day begins by checking out the monstrous High Dam for 10 minutes (pretty dull) and a drive past the Unfinished Obelisk. While the emphasize is definitely the Philae Temple. When the sunsets throughout the Nile reflecting off the stonework it actually is fairly magical.

The evening finished with an optional meal in a traditional Nubian households household. The foods was delicious and you superior deliver your singing and dancing footwear.

Day Four

The next day and evening is put in enjoyable aboard the Felucca for a sail up the Nile for various hrs. Sleeping no extra than 8 people today you will be cosy if you deliver your own sleeping bag like us. The relaxation of our crew ended up jealous as it did get very chilly in the night nonetheless blankets have been offered.

With tasty pita bread and falafel cooked on the boat you will not be unhappy with the meals either.

The day finishes with a bonfire on the Nile shoreline as you sing and dance with the mad enjoyment Nubian crews. This was surely a person of the highlights of the overall excursion for us.

Journey Idea: Don’t be set off by undertaking your “business” amongst the reeds of the Nile. Just get pleasure from the see and bear in mind to deliver your have rest room paper (which you need everywhere in Egypt in any case).

By all accounts, from the other tour members, the River Cruise is just as fantastic with 3 evenings on-board in at ease accommodation, a pool and  buffets early morning, midday and night.

Day 5

Waking to a dawn breaking the early morning chill is a wonderful way to get started a new day. However there is tiny time for rest ahead of you are off the Felucca and on a bus to Kom Ombu and Edfu Temples. I must say, all of the transportation was much more than enough with toilets on the buses and place ample for every person. It is fortunate mainly because you do devote the vast majority of the time being pushed all-around.

The Lotus Lodge in Luxor was possibly the pick of them all. Located on the Nile lender with a swimming pool and tasty buffet breakfast.

Day Six

A person far more working day, one extra chaotic program. Hurrying to defeat the crowds at the Valley of the Kings it is another 8am start. You are only permitted to take a look at 3 tombs and we recommend the guides picks which ended up Ramses II, IV and IX.

Vacation Suggestion: You are NOT authorized to get your camera with you off the bus. You should do not ruin it for every person by having shots as you will be billed by protection when caught.

We also squeezed in the crowded rock carved Hatshepsut Temple but only drove previous Luxor Temple as we ran out of time as you will need to generate 6 hrs to reach Hurghada that night time.

Working day Seven and 8

The upcoming two days at the Purple Sea are yours to do whatsoever you like so use them properly. We joined most of our group for a place of snorkelling and diving. The dive and the personnel ended up good but the full day seemed a minimal rushed which was a disgrace. Preserve an eye out for our post on our diving practical experience in Hurghada.

So nice remaining in a position to chill out on a beach front and examine a reserve immediately after this sort of a frantic plan. It’s difficult to go away and the 6 – 8 hour bus trip again to Cairo is rough.

Travel Idea: If you approach to do the tour over New Decades Eve then you will have to depart Hurghada 50 % a working day early which sucked as it intended celebrating the New Year at the Lodge in Cairo. Little bit of a enable down but when has not New Many years Eve been!

Day 9

Your closing day of sightseeing is spent about Cairo. Our favorite section of the day was definitely the Cairo Museum with an fantastic tour guidebook. It suits completely at the finish by seeing all the history shut-up immediately after acquiring acquired about it around the previous 8 days.

By the time we strike the aged area of Cairo and the Coptic Hanging Church we ended up used on record but our manual built a excellent effort at retaining us entertained.

The very last team activity is totally free time for an hour or so at the Khan El Khalili souk markets where the touts attempt to prise your hard cash from you for the past time from every nook and cranny.

Working day Ten

With the tour in excess of it’s time to head residence. Our flight was late the next night time so we walked all around the city and Souks on our very own for the working day. Expat Examine provides transportation again to the airport which was good.

The Negatives

The journey was magnificent but we assume it is crucial to be aware the little things that could make a massive change to the all round practical experience:

It felt like we have been always hungry. Possibly it is just Kiwi’s and Aussies that try to eat all the time but it seriously felt like we have been frequently starving with lunches currently being served normally right after 4pm and meal at 9pm onwards. It may be the Egyptian way to take in at those people situations but not for us. Vacation Suggestion: Get loads of treats for the street which are quite low cost at supermarkets.

There was in some cases a absence of course in what appeared to be taking place. Everything is carried out on Egyptian time so be patient.

We were being usually delayed or driving agenda with tiny to no advice as to how extensive it would get to get from location to spot. A minor know-how goes a long was as then we can prepare ahead.

Extra absolutely free time would be fantastic to discover destinations on your individual relatively than have our palms held everywhere.

The Positives:

As we reported above, the journey was awesome and the little beneficial items significantly outweighed the negatives which assisted make it a unforgettable excursion.

Pre-departure facts and care was very very good.

The tour was remarkable value for dollars and it was the cheapest tour we could come across even nevertheless we continue to saw all the exact same sights the other groups did.

The guides have been very proficient and by no means failed to reply any queries we experienced. The insights into the every day life of the people today all over us was a awesome break from all the heritage. They also ensured you by no means felt unsafe or not comfortable.

The Felucca journey was superior than expected and all round so was the lodging and transport options.

All in all we really advocate you ebook with Expat Explore if you are contemplating a vacation by Egypt.

Make certain you subscribe now and come back again before long so you can take pleasure in looking through our new posts which will protect all the things else in far more element.

Disclaimer: Expat Investigate delivered us with a low cost for our 10 working day tour of Egypt on the other hand as always our feelings are usually our own.

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