#I need more horrory things in my life

[ringthief]

horrifying things make stories more interesting. - I like dark, disturbing plots that make you feel uncomfortable...

but the characters are likable and it makes you want them to have their happy ending and escape whatever horrible thing is happening to them.

[mindbrokengirl]

btw for any fellow itchio visual novel fans these are the games ive been playing in my bored and horny afternoons while YOU all are not posting enough (-_-) varying quality and cheesiness but i like them. please send me yours i adore gamified sex and body stats and etc.

Ruin Me: highest rec for a longer story focused game. love the little horrory mysteries, and the conceit about being an academic who writes porny theory monographs on the side and is easily provoked into ranting about the legitimacy of studying sex is so real. does make you take the dom role in the main story which is a little awkward for me but its cute enough that i dont mind too much, side stories mostly have you being the sub. protagonist is body and gender customizable from the start.

2. The Fixer: forcefem city!!!! they updated it so u can be a forcefemmed boy or a forcefemmed girl, this rules but honestly doesnt play into the story much. i am not going to justify liking this one to u guys. sometimes things are just better when they lean into maledom and objectification. lowkey took my online porn girl name from the protagonist.

May I Take Your Order: please play this game. im cheating this isnt porn. its guro porn kind of i guess. its my favorite video game of all time and its only like 15 minutes please play it. these two have lived in my head for years and i love them very very much. the author does actually have a genderfuck porn game but its in development so only on the patreon but thats a later problem right now u need to play this one.

Succubus Stories: cute! girly! sweet music to dumb down to! kinda repetitive but who cares! gameplay is 80% sex scenes! no but rly i love games that make the sex itself the thing that u have to strategize and do skill checks about and unlock new moves its just like real life!! im going to be unstoppable once i level up Cock Lust a few more times!!!!

[karinamay]

Writing interview tag game

Thank you @cinnamontails-ff for the taaaag now I get to ramble about writing hell yes

When did you start writing?

I've been writing stories basically as long as I can remember, and I was a very avid journal keeper between ages like 7 and 21. First time I decided I was going to "write a book" I was 10, and me and my best friend at the time got permission to spend 2 hours or so every week at school to work on it because it was a "good creative persuit", whic was pretty cool. I have been writing fiction ever since, and I think I started writing fanfic around when I was 16 or so, so about 14 yearsish ago.

Are there different themes or genres you enjoy reading than what you write?

I write (urban) fantasy/romance pretty much exclusively, but I read all sorts. I do enjoy me some good dystopian, and some scifi here and there, and from time to time I 180 into reading less fantastical literary fiction that borders on nihilistic-satire-black comedy ish (I've read Bret Easton Ellis' entire bibliography, to give an idea). In the end most of what I read is in the fantasy with either romance or found family (or, ideally, both) realm though, I love escaping to magical worlds.

Is there a writer you want to emulate or get compared to often?

I try not to compare my work actively to other writers'. Of course there are writers I admire and look up to, but there isn't a writer that I want to "write like" really. I write very much like me. And with that, I don't think I've ever specifically been compared to another author? Not that I can remember anyway.

Can you tell me a bit about your writing space?

My current writing setup is in my living room, which is not ideal, it's just because my wifi doesn't reach into my office well enough. I am in the process of moving my shit over there though, so I'm excited to turn that into a bit more of an inspiring space. The only nice thing that I currently have in my writing space is my recently spruced up "bookcase" (I'll put a picture under the cut.)

What's your most effective way to muster up a muse?

Work for it. Nine out of ten times when I sit down to write I don't already have the spark or whatever that I need. (The tenth time is a great day, but it just doesn't happen very often, and it also doesn't actually necessarily mean your writing will be better that day.) When I have sat down on the days when it's not immediately there, and I start writing, it will usually come. It's kind of a stupid writing will come from writing loop that feeds itself, if that makes sense.

Are there any recurring themes in your writing? Do they surprise you?

Healthy communication is a big one, whether that's between romantic partners or any other kind of relationships. I write a lot about power and corruption and I'm big on found family. None of this is surprising at all. What is surprising to me is that I've started leaning more into creepy/eerie/horrory realms over the past year or so, which isn't really a theme, but definitely a genre I never thought I would enjoy so much.

What is your reason for writing?

Because it's the closest we can get to magic in this world. I get to dream up worlds and people and watch them try and fail and succeed and evolve, give them life, give them reason, fear, doubt, love, everything. It's fucking brilliant, and even though I get stuck and it's frustrating, I will never be able to not do it, because I don't know how not to.

Is there any specific comment or type of comment you find particularly motivating?

"I felt like I was there" is something that will always get me, that motivates me to no end. And I love when people start theorising, trying to figure out what's going to happen next. I weirdly get drawn into the theories, even though I know what happens next. I love it.

How do you want to be thought about by your readers?

Huh, I don't know. As someone who really cares deeply about the story I'm writing, I think. And hopefully as someone who captures the voices of the characters they love and who does them justice.

What do you feel is your greatest strength as a writer?

Dialogue. My stories are very dialogue driven, and I take a lot of pride in how the dialogue runs. And hand in hand with that dialogue, knowing when to throw in a bit of humour, especially in a dark story, without it feeling cheap.

How do you feel about your own writing?

Depends on the day, although I'm starting to get to a place where I'm generally pretty happy with it. There are many things I know I can improve on a lot still, but in the end, I do like what I'm writing, and I do think other people do/would like to read it.

It's a work in progress but the vibes are vibing imo.

[grokebaby]

UM. CONTINUING WHERE I LEFT OFF LIKE NOTHING HAPPENED.

I'll just let those lyrics speak for themselves. Nan deserves so much better I think she deserves to go a little apeshit if she wanted I think that'd be fine... We all agree on that right. Right.

Siru:

Ooiggh the whole vibe with her being stuck in the house and locking things in there that the lyrics keep mentioning... That's really her vibe especially with how Lassi left home really young but Siru just stayed and she's just still here even after everything and everything!! And she's so quietly and lowkey self destructive bc she doesn't feel any vigor or worth to her life aside from what she can give to others and she deeply yearns to feel some kind of passion or strong emotion which is part of why she keeps coming back to Pesticinger! In short Siru is depressed. ALSO THE LAST PORTIONS OF THIS SONG. LOOK AT THIS

HER AND PESTICINGER but also lowkey her and Lassi augh.. She wants to break the monotony so bad but the way she does it is so intense bc she needs to feel something proper that it ends up making her fly too close to the sun..

Spider:

HOW DID YOU GET IT LIKE THAT HOW DID YOU DO THAT. I'VE LITERALLY DAYDREAMED SCENARIOS OF HER WI THIS SONG??

The vibe is PERFECT I'm honestly a little obsessed w this song even outside of oc associations but YES!!! When the lyrics say "It's not because I'm foolish, or naive. It just feels good lying and trick and treat" so true that is her when she's at her worse, at her most beastly. She is selective in her kindness bc the world was selective in giving her mercy and she never recovered from that. On one hand she loves to use knowledge to help and as power but she also looves wielding that power at her own crooked hands. She absolutely is calm, classy and delicate that descends into a frenzied, scratchy nightmare that doesn't care about you anymore.

I'm only recently starting to pet Spider's spines and seeing her in a more understanding light but all the horrory vibes and when the song screams "I hope you all die", is still a very deep and crucial knot of yarn in this character's heart. And she is, in her setting, sort of risen to a pseudo urban myth of a person - a minor fairytale almost, and the atmosphere in this song captures that really well.

Ofc as I said I'm recently starting to view her more kindly (as she probably needs to), not saying this to discredit the song but I am saying it bc. My heart tells me to. And I want to talk more openly about Spider. She is a very tragic character that needed more softness and when she finally got it she didn't understand it well enough to care for it (the monster partner ykno), and thus ended up adding to the amount of pain in the world. When she finally matured to understand what kindness is and how one nurtures it, she feels it's already too late. For her, that is..

HAI ITS ME AGAIN !! I come bearing gifts for youse in the form of songs :]

For Siru- I bring Be My Escape by Relient K, but specifically these lyrics bc it reminds me of her relationship with Pesticinger a little bit <33

"And this life sentence that I'm serving / I admit that I'm every bit deserving / But the beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair / 'Cause I've been housing all of this doubt and insecurity

And I've been locked inside that house / All the while You hold the key / And I've been dying to get out and that might be the death of me" me when I have to keep going back to this fucked up god of plague because I don't have anyone else and in a weird way she makes me feel like I belong somewhere, but at the same time I hate it so bad

For Nan- Down the river by The Crane Wives, because it reminds me of how Mr Varpuden was in the party and I think that'd be how she reacted to it all too. Just this sense of anger and exasperation and horror as she watches this guy fuck up beyond repair as everything keeps escalating further out of her control. Im so normal about Nan <- Liar

For Spider- Along Came A Spider by Czesław Śpiewa ! Not just because it has spider in the title I promise /silly. I think the descent of calm, gentle music into increasingly aggressive sounding lyrics and melodies is very much the kind of hubris that lady would experience tbh... also the way the singer delivers "Knock, Knock, please let us in / It's cold out here, too cold to sin" reminds me a lot of the Vibes (tm) this character has in general :3

YOOOOO THESE ARE SO GOOD I'M LOVING THE SELECTION!! I'm gonna blather about this I think it'll be a long post I got so pumped

Nan:

AND THIS LAST BIT. HEAD IN HANDS

What else is there for me to say this is on the MARK. Honestly Nan as she is could stand to be alot angrier, I think over the years she's mostly just been super super bitter and felt betrayed, this kind of quiet misery and ache over everything lost. She wants to be the same anchor of stability in her children's lives as she's been in everyone else's up to this point. If not that then who even is she. But who remembers her after everything has drifted away. ALSO I'M YELLING ABOUT THIS BC. I so deeply associate Nan with like, river motifs, like!! The song "What the water gave me" by Florence and the machine is so her and her family!!!