#I might make these actual playlists on Spotify to help when I'm drawing

[palettepainter]

Me and the people on the Muppet Discord server I'm in have recently been tossing around songs that remind us of the band, and a few people sent in their playlists they'd made. I've never made a playlist for an OC before but it got me thinking about what songs I WOULD include if I made one for each of the cousins (I didn't get round to finishing Raph's cuz I was tired)

[ltlemon]

i only have krita on my laptop (unless you count paint 3D??)

if i'm drawing a profile then I tend to draw the right side of a persons face (their right), but it's not necessarily harder to draw their left, i just tend to do their right more, if that makes sense? I think its bc i'm right handed.

ummm, i don't know...i guess drawing mostly people, since that's also kinda all i drew as a kid.

i'm cool and different, so for me it's crowley >:) (getting a lot better though! i'm working on filling up a sketch page w/ him rn, and some of them are quite good, i think. i might be going overboard though.)

oooh, i have so many sketchbooks filled with stuff I've never posted, i only post stuff i particularly like. so probably...20% of my art is online?

my sibling, i've absorbed a lot of their style (especially their older style) without even knowing.

watercolor artists. how do they not make it run everywhere? i think they're cryptids.

at this point...? so many. i have a playlist on spotify filled with songs I want to make animatics to. It has 42 songs. and i know i'm missing some.

quite random, but usually just named after whatevers in the file, eg; aziraphale doodles, crowley scan, tma doodles scan, usually stuff like that.

don't really have one, however i do agree about the turtlenecks for crowley, i do love drawing him specifically in a turtleneck lol

either one of my spotify playlists (if i have one for the character i'm drawing than usually that! if not, then something chill, mac de marco is always an easy bet) or the magnus archives. :)

face. 100%, no doubt. everything else is a lot harder, but i can just whip out faces, no questions asked if you wanted me to.

i...can't think of anyone.

in general? not as of right now, but i do like adding little motifs to things that vary by piece.

in the house i live in, i'm almost never anywhere else. usually in one of the chairs in the living room.

i'm not sure, most of the time things turn out better if i enjoyed working on them.

tea :)

uhm, not that much, i think, at least in recent years. i did have a set of gel pens when i was about 9/10 that constantly broke, but they were quite cheap. 5%?

i don't draw inanimate objects a lot, but the few times i have, i've found that i enjoy drawing flowers. :)

...faces. they're somewhat easy for me but i love drawing them. although a lot of people struggle with them, esp. people used to drawing objects and such. i guess drawing nothing but faces and heads since you were 4 does that to you.

probably super cartoony/stylized styles, i love them dearly, but i guess they're just not how i draw.

...people exercise?

most of the time no, they intimidate me, but sometimes i'll mess around with them for my shadow layer.

yes actually! it sounds weird but they're really helpful, since there's so many of them to choose from. plus, i find them easier to draw from than reference images specifically for artists.

anime, just in general. this came from my grandmother though, who, even though she's an art teacher, has a really hard time describing styles that aren't either a.) realism or b.) classic cartoon style. so...her middle ground is anime?

mmm, can't think of anything. (probably because i only have teeny little doodles but shhh don't think about that)

ummm, i don't know...depends? if i'm drawing the thing for the first time then yes, definitely, but if i've drawn it a lot then it really depends on the day and how i'm feeling.

nope! too fresh an internet presence for that + my adhd is so strong in ma brainhole that i honestly don't know if i could reliably finish something like that.

i feel like everything has inspired me in some way, even if it's not art-style based.

most of my stuff that gets colored, if i'm being honest. a lot of the stuff that people tend to like the most are my sketches + random doodles i barely put any effort in, so it's always a bit sad when something I actually colored, lined, and spent too much time on doesn't get any attention.

Weirdly Specific Artist Ask Game

Didn't see a lot of artist ask games, wanted to make a silly one.

(I wrote this while sick out of my mind last year and it's been collecting dust in my drafts, I might as well let it run free) 1. Art programs you have but don't use

2. Is it easier to draw someone facing left or right (or forward even)

3. What ideas come from when you were little

4. Fav character/subject that's a bitch to draw

5. Estimate of how much of your art you post online vs. the art you keep for yourself

6. Anything that might inspire you subconsciously (i.e. this horse wasn't supposed to look like the Last Unicorn but I see it)

7. A medium of art you don't work in but appreciate

8. What's an old project idea that you've lost interest in

9. What are your file name conventions

10. Favorite piece of clothing to draw

11. Do you listen to anything while drawing? If so, what

12. Easiest part of body to draw

13. A creator who you admire but whose work isn't your thing

14. Any favorite motifs

15. *Where* do you draw (don't drop your ip address this just means do you doodle at a park or smth)

16. Something you are good at but don't really have fun doing

17. Do you eat/drink when drawing? if so, what

18. An estimate of how much art supplies you've broken

19. Favorite inanimate objects to draw (food, nature, etc.)

20. Something everyone else finds hard to draw but you enjoy

21. Art styles nothing like your own but you like anyways

22. What physical exercises do you do before drawing, if any

23. Do you use different layer modes

24. Do your references include stock images

25. Something your art has been compared to that you were NOT inspired by

26. What's a piece that got a wildly different interpretation from what you intended

27. Do you warm up before getting to the good stuff? If so, what is it you draw to warm up with

28. Any art events you have participated in the past (like zines)

29. Media you love, but doesn't inspire you artistically

30. What piece of yours do you think is underrated

[byersalice]

Hi, my name is Alice! ִ ࣪𖤐

I’ve been a Stranger Things fan since 2017 and a Byler shipper since season 3 (even though I always had a feeling that there was something going on under the surface.)

𖤐 My favourite character from the first second has always been Will and I’m an INFP like him but I’ve also related more and more to Mike as the years went on and as I started to recognise the patterns in his behaviour and the hidden motives that might motivate his character arch. I’ve warmed up to him quite a bit - and to think I couldn’t stand him at the beginning! 😂 (something something about finding people who are a liiitle bit too similar to us completely insufferable)

𖤐 I'm an empath so I'm always drawn to reading fics and analysis posts that bring me closer to both Mike and Will's characters and make me see the story from their point of view. I believe they should be endgame because it actually makes sense and intertwines seamlessly with the overall plot of the show, I think this definitely helps to reach a fulfilling ending, characters-wise.

𖤐 I show my love and appreciation for the show and the characters in the only way I know how - by drawing fanart, even though I wish I could also write fics (all this fandom's writers are absolutely amazing and I thank you for keeping me wonderfully occupied while we wait for season 5!) 🥹

Hope you'll enjoy spending time browsing through my blog! x

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my favourite BYLER FANART (mine and others)

PARALLELS for when I need a lil push of faith in byler

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ST5 production / speculations / photos and potential spoilers

posts divided per season > ST1 / ST2 / ST3 / ST4 

LMAO - me laughing to hide the pain of this ship or genuinely enjoying myself (who knows?)

the craziest THEORIES & ANALYSIS that could actually make a lot of sense (!!!)

FINN and NOAH - doing their thing 

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[hope-for-the-best-98]

Study Session #3 (Eddie Munson X Reader)

Previous Part Next Part Masterlist Spotify Playlist

Summary: You realise your feelings for Eddie might not be one sided.

Word Count: 3.9k

Warnings: Mature readers only (18+). Smoking. Underage drinking. Arsehole basketball players. Future chapters will have smut. No use of y/n.

A/N: Apologies for this chapter taking so long to get out. Work and life got busy, but I finally finished it before the season finale of Stranger Things! Not sure if I'm 100% happy with it but I'm actually away on holiday from Friday so if I don't post it tonight it won't be till next week, after the dreaded finale . But in other news I'M MEETING JOSEPH FREAKING QUINN NEXT WEEK. Honestly so nervous, but AH so excited! Hope everyone enjoys this chapter, and for future reference, no matter what happens to Eddie in the show I will more than likely write my own ending. Canon who?

The library is empty as you and Eddie make your way to your usual table, and just like last time, Eddie picks the seat beside you.

“You nervous?”

A quiet chuckle leaves your lips as you put your bag down in front of you. “Should I be?”

Eddie grins, putting his pile of Dungeons & Dragons books down in front of you. “Maybe a little bit.”

Your eyebrows raise as you look at the stack of books he had grabbed from his locker moments ago. “Most people have chemistry and history books in their locker.”

“Well, those people are boring.” Eddie grabs a piece of paper from one of the top books and places it in front of you. “Ready for your first lesson, Angel Face?”

You look down at the paper and realise it’s a character sheet, ready to be filled out. “Uh huh…”

“You wanna base your character off that drawing in your book? It might help.”

“Um sure.” You reach for the book, flipping through it until you find the right page.

“So,” Eddie starts, “shall we go with a high elf for her race? Make her old and wise, but still ethereal.”

“Yep, that sounds good.”

Eddie moves his player handbook closer. “So with this race you get a cantrip, which is basically a spell you can always use without using skill points. It’s got unlimited uses. Still with me?”

“I think so.” You laugh. “So do I just pick a spell from that list that I think my character would have?”

“Basically yeah.”

You scan through the spells, smiling gently as you read through them all. “I kinda like the dancing lights one.”

Eddie nods his head. “Helps you in dark places, like dungeons and caves.”

“So it was a good choice?”

“There’s not such a thing as a bad cantrip. Remember this is a roleplaying game, it’s what you make of it.”

“Okay, so I just… Write it down?”

“I’ll write your notes.” Eddie smiles, grabbing a pen and the sheet. “Just start looking through the different classes.”

“But I already know what one I want.”

Eddie looks at you, surprised. “You do?”

“It’s the class you said the other day, the um, the-“

“Druid?”

“Yeah!” You snap your fingers, grinning. “That’s the one.”

“You sure you don’t want to look at the other classes?”

“No I trust you. It sounds fun.”

He nods his head, smiling as he writes the notes on your sheet. “You’ve got a lot of faith in me, huh?”

“Well, I’m still tutoring aren’t I?” You tease.

Eddie glances up at you, and as your eyes lock you feel heat creep up your neck. 

“Yeah… That’s true.”

“So um,” you lean forward, tapping your pen to the table, “what’s next?”

“So when creating a character you need to roll 4d6 dice and those numbers make up the stats here. But normally you roll the dice and fill in as you go along, but because I’m feeling generous, we’ll roll all the dice and see what we want to put where.”

You stare down at the sheet, nodding slowly. “Uh huh.” 

“You look overwhelmed, Angel Face.”

“It’s just a lot of stuff to wrap my head around. Can’t I just… Look at your character sheet?”

Eddie dramatically gasps, reaching for a black pouch by his books. “My tutor wants to cheat? It doesn’t work like that, but I’m sure you’ll get the hang of it.”

He opens the pouch and pours the dice onto the book, rooting through them to find the right ones. You pick up one of the dice, sliding it between your fingers as you watch the light reflect the flickers of gold.

“You’ve got a lot of dice.”

“Well, it’s not all of them. Got some more at home. Always get a fresh set with a new character.” He glances up at you, rubbing the back of his neck. “Just a thing my group does.”

“So if I play I need a set?” You smile, grabbing a dark red die.

Eddie’s eyebrows raise. “Yeah you will, if you wanna play. I mean, you don’t have to-”

“Do all this work and not play? C’mon Munson, I like a challenge.”

“A challenge, huh?” He grins. “Okay, you just need to roll these dice, add them all up, and take away the lowest number. We gotta do that six times.”

“Now you sound just like my math teacher…”

“I promise it’ll get more fun.” He opens his lunchbox and grabs a bag. “Pretzel?”

You smile, reaching into the bag and popping it in your mouth. “Thanks.”

You both share the bag of pretzels as you roll the dice, making a note of the numbers. 

“So uh… A band was supposed to play at the Hideout tomorrow night, but they dropped out, drummer’s sick or something, so my band’s been asked to play. Didn’t know if you’d be around.”

“I’m at a party tomorrow.” You frown. “It’s my turn to be designated driver.”

“Oh that’s cool.” He shrugs. 

“Next time though?” You say quickly. “Can meet your friends, or the fellow… Dungeon Masters.” 

“Sure.” He laughs. “They might just stare at you though, maybe drool a little. They don’t exactly get many interactions with pretty girls.” 

Eddie’s eyes are wide as he looks at the sheet, scratching the back of his head as he clears his throat. “So um, we just need to- the numbers.”

“Yeah.” You say quietly, heat blooming across your cheeks. “Fill in the blanks here. Got it.”

-

The party has already been going for an hour by the time you, Amanda & Stacey arrive. It looks like half the school is here, spilling out onto the front lawn of whoever’s house it is.

“Do you think Kyle’s already here?” Stacey asks as she checks her reflection in the rearview mirror. “Oh God, what if he’s already talking to another girl. Because, you know, we were suppose to be here thirty minutes ago.” She turns in her chair to glare at Amanda. 

“My hair didn’t look right!”

“Well we’re here now.” You sigh, parking up front. “So can you both stop fighting? It’s exhausting.”

Stacey rolls her eyes as she gets out of the car., adjusting her skirt that had ridden up in the drive “Whatever, mum.”

You bite down on your lip hard as she slams the car door shut behind her. You didn’t even want to come, but it was your turn to drive. Stacey and Amanda are dressed up to the nines, spending hours on their makeup and hair while you just changed into something that you are comfortable, and warm, in.  

“She’s just nervous about seeing Kyle.” Amanda says. “She thinks they might really hit if off. And who knows, maybe you and Chris?”

You scoff as you turn in your chair. “Chris Williams? What makes you say that?”

“Apparently he was asking about you. Stacey told me.”

You frown, looking out your window towards the party. Chris Williams, one of the most popular boys in your year, was asking for you? A part of you thinks you should be flattered, excited, but your mind wanders to a certain boy playing at a bar tonight. 

“C’mon, let’s go. Stacey’s already inside.” Amanda says, getting out of the car. You get out too, locking your car before catching up with her. 

“Try not to drink too much.” You beg as you approach the house. 

“Pfft no promises.” She grins, walking inside with you. 

‘Like a Virgin’ is blaring through the speakers as you enter. You and Amanda walk through the crowd until you find the drinks table in the kitchen. There’s a few bowls of fruit punch which you know are definitely filled with vodka so you grab a can of Dr Pepper. 

Amanda nudges your arm and points towards the living room. “Guess Stacey found Kyle.”

You turn and see Stacey leaning against the wall, twirling her hair between her fingers as she looks up at Kyle. Kyle was the ideal highschool boy. Tall, muscular, pretty blue eyes and that charming smile. Most girls in the year were chasing after him, just wanting one date with the famous Kyle Brown, captain of this years basketball team. 

“Looks like they’re hitting it off.”

Amanda scoffs. “He’s hitting it off with a new girl every week. As for me, I’ve got my eyes on Mark Steven’s.”

You glance at her. “Doesn’t he already have a girlfriend?”

She shrugs. “Doesn’t seem serious. I’m thinking if I get in there before prom, I’m set.”

You nod, quickly losing interest in the conversation as you sip your Dr Pepper. It’s always about boys, one way or another, with you, Stacey and Amanda. They crush on a new basketball player every week, feeling the need to date a popular boy before the end of high school. But you never care. You keep your head down, focusing on grades and papers and, well, how to tutor a certain rebellious student.

 You feel a knot in your stomach as you think about Eddie, playing at the Hideout on the other side of town. You hated how disappointed he looked when you told him you couldn’t’ go, but you wanted to go. The claustrophobic feeling of all these classmates around you made you feel on edge. 

“I think I’m gonna step outside for a minute. I’ll find you-“

“Mark!” Amanda yells as she moves past you, chasing after him into the living room. 

“Okay.” You sigh, walking out onto the patio in the backyard. The cold hits your flushed face and you take a deep breath. Great, your two so-called best friends abandon you at some random students house for the attention of two boys, that will be probably too drunk to remember them in the morning. So you’re now destined to stay outside, away from the crowds of drunk students playing beer pong. 

You think maybe if you stay for an hour, see if maybe they can get a ride home from-

“I wondered if you were gonna show up.”

You turn so quickly the soda nearly spills over your fingers. “Chris!”

He’s so tall is your first thought. Broad too. The letterman jacket clings to his muscular arms and shoulders, and you realise his hand covers the whole of his drink. You can see why he’s one of the best basketball players on the team.

“Hey, sorry, didn’t mean to scare you.” He smiles, holding his hand up. “I come in peace. Promise.”

You know you a year ago would be internally screaming at the thought of one of the popular boys wanting to talk to you, but now you’re trying to think of an excuse to escape. “I should really-“

“You just got here, right? I saw Stacey and Amanda inside. They seem to like the punch a lot.”

You grimace at the thought of cleaning puke out of your car again, memories of last years Christmas party come flashing back to you. “Great.”

“Is that why you’re out here by yourself?”

“I just needed some air. I should probably head back inside.” You go to walk past him, but Chris steps in front of you.

“Stacey said you girls are going out Monday, celebrating your birthday. Said me and some of the boys could tag along. We can supply some party favours, y’know, booze.”

You have been so caught up in papers and tutoring that you haven’t realised it was your birthday in only a couple of days time. It was a tradition that you, Stacey and Amanda would always take the birthday girl out for dinner, and you’ve stuck to that routine since middle school. Now they’re suddenly inviting boys without even checking with you first.

“It’s suppose to be just a girl thing.”

“Well, it doesn’t have to be.” He steps closer to you. “Y’know, I always thought you and I had this… Thing.”

“Thing?”

“Oh c’mon, don’t tell me you don’t feel it.”

You wonder if he used the same lines on the girl you saw him talking to at school last week.

“Look, Chris, I think you’re really sweet, but I don’t like you that way.”

He takes another step and he’s so close that you have to strain your neck to look at his face. The way he looks at you makes your skin crawl. “You sure?”

You glare up at him, shoving your drink against his chest. “I’m positive.” 

You sidestep away, walking back inside and through the crowd until you find Amanda talking with Mark. You grab her arm, quickly pulling her away and ignoring her protests. “Well, this party is so much fun.” You say dryly. 

“Yeah it is!” She laughs. “Which is why I don’t get why you would drag me away from Mark freaking Stevens.”

You sigh. “Amanda, I-“

She stares at you expectedly. “What?”

“I feel really sick. I’m gonna have to go.”

“But we just got here, and you’re our ride home!’

“I know and I’m sorry. I wasn’t feeling right before I left. I should’ve said something. But I’m sure Kyle can give you and Stacey a ride home, y’know, when he takes his tongue out of her throat.”

“Fine. We’re still on for Monday?”

“Monday?”

Amanda frowns. “Ugh yeah, your birthday?”

“Oh yeah… It’s just gonna be us three, right? No boys. Just us going to dinner.”

Amanda’s mouth gapes like a fish as she tries to form a sentence. “Well, I mean- I might’ve mentioned it to Chris…”

“Amanda.” You say sternly. “Just us. 

“Fine whatever.” She sighs. ‘I’ll come and pick you up before school.”

“Thanks. And I’m really sorry for bailing on you tonight.”

“It’s fine!” She says quickly, walking past you to grab Mark’s attention.  

You stand there for a moment, eyes going between Amanda and Stacey. You’re sure you could have left, and they only would’ve known you weren’t here until they stumbled out to find your car. 

You walk out of the house, rooting in your bag for your keys as you near your car. “The Hideout it is.”

-

You park up outside the bar and can already hear the music blaring from inside. You get out of your car, hurrying into the bar to escape the cold. The smell of cigarettes and stale beer hits you first. But as your eyes adjust to the dim lighting, you look towards the stage and see Eddie standing up front, guitar in his hand as he performs. His face is lit by florescent red and blue lights hanging above him. You feel the butterflies again as you see him, strumming his guitar and singing into the microphone, sweat dripping from his hair and forehead  

Even as he’s singing his heart out, trying to play for the crowd, you notice most of them aren’t paying attention, slumped over in their seats, nursing their beers. You aren’t expecting this type of crowd, but how many other metalheads are there in Hawkins?

You quickly walk towards the bar, sliding in between two men slouched over the countertop. You wave your hand to get the bartenders attention. “Can I just have a coke please?”

At the sound of a feminine voice, the two mean either side of you raise their heads to look at you. You glance at them, holding your bag tighter. “Hi?”

“Don’t mind them. We don’t normally get your type in here.” The bartender says as he passes you your drink. “You lost or something?”

“No I’m here for the band. I know the singer.” 

“Eddie, huh?” He chuckles. “How’d that boy get to know a girl like you?”

“That irresistible charm I guess.”

You turn as the song comes to an end and clap. You’re the only one in the bar cheering loudly which makes Eddie pause before looking towards the bar.

 Eddie’s eyes meet yours for a moment and he has to do a double take, his eyes widening. 

“Holy shit.” He mumbles into the mic. 

You see the bass player move towards Eddie and whispers something into his ear. Whatever he says makes Eddie grin and nod.

Eddie steps closer to the mic, staring over at you. “I’m dedicating this cover to my tutor. She’s uh… Pretty cool.”

You quickly find a free table in front of the stage, wide eyed. He was playing a song for you?

As they start to play you can’t contain the grin on your face. Watching as Eddie moves around the stage before stepping towards the mic.

Oh, wow, man, I said

Wait a second, man

What do you think the teacher's gonna look like this year?

Fuck man!

You sit forward in your seat, gripping your drink in your hand and tapping your feet to the beat as they play. 

Ow! Got it bad, got it bad, got it bad

I'm hot for teacher

I've got it bad, so bad

I'm hot for teacher

Your hand freezes on your drink, eyes boring into Eddie’s as he watches you from the microphone. Fuck, if you weren’t sure on his feelings for you before, you certainly know them now. Eddie Munson isn’t just on your mind, you’re on his too. 

Eddie’s eyes stay on for the remaining of the song, and you know it’s just not the lights making your body go hot and your head dizzy. He seems in his element on stage, a natural frontman as the song comes to an end. 

You almost forget to clap, and your hands feel clammy with sweat. Oh God, what is happening to you? No one has ever done anything like this for you before and you feel like you might just start twirling your hair around your finger. 

They play a few more songs, some covers and some of their own work. The crowd is still lifeless as they drink and drink until they’ve past out in their seats. But you stand up from your chair and cheer them on, not taking your eyes off Eddie. It’s almost like he’s just performing for you. He occasionally walks the length of the stage, but he always ends back up in front of you. 

When they wrap up the last song Eddie jumps down from the stage and grips your arms tightly.“Holy shit, you made it!”

“I couldn’t miss it.” You grin. “Nice guitar.”

He lets go, adjusting the strap around his shoulder and holding his guitar up for you to see.  “Well, what did you-“

“Gonna introduce us, Eddie?” The drummer interrupts as he and the other band members get down from the stage.

Eddie awkwardly steps back in line with his band. “Yeah they um- this is Gareth, our drummer.”

He nods his head at you, twirling one of the drumsticks between his fingers.

“This is Jeff, our bass player.” He raises a hand to and you smile.

“And finally, Kevin, our other guitarist.” Kevin simply stands there, staring at you. 

Yep, that’s the drooler. 

You wave at them before shoving your hands into your pockets. “My name’s-“

“Oh we’re already know who you are.” Jeff chuckles. 

“So you’re this infamous tutor we’ve been hearing so much about.” Gareth grins as he slaps Eddie’s back, making him step forward. 

Your eyebrows raise as you look at Eddie. “You talk about me?”

“Oh he doesn’t stop talk-“

Eddie not so subtly elbows Gareth in the gut and hands him his guitar. “And I think that’s our queue to leave. Start packing up the equipment and I’ll go and unlock the van. Give me five minutes.”

They all nod their heads and Eddie turns to you. “Follow me.”

He leads you to the back of the stage and opens the door, stepping to the side. “Ladies first.”

You chuckle, wrapping your coat around yourself tighter as you step into the alleyway. He follows behind you, lighting a cigarette before reaching for his keys and unlocking the back of the van.

“So c’mon, be honest, what did you really think?”

“You’re great!” You grin. “Felt very flattered that a song was dedicated to little ol’ me.”

Eddie rubs the back of his neck nervously. “It’s a cover of a Van Halen song.”

“Well it’s a… Cool song. You’re amazing on the guitar by the way. How long have you been playing?”

“Uh, since I was ten. My dad bought me a guitar, and I taught myself I guess.”

You nod, leaning against the wall. “Well I think you’re pretty damn talented, Munson.”

He puts his hand against the wall above you, the cigarette hanging from his lips. “So what happened to that important party?

“Wasn’t really my scene. Just a bunch of drunk basketball players looking to get lucky.” You smile, reaching up and grabbing the cigarette before placing it in your mouth and inhaling.

Eddie’s eyebrows raise. “Didn’t realise Angel Face smoked.”

You shrug, exhaling slowly. “Just socially. You haven’t corrupted me just yet.”

“Not yet, huh?”

You grin, handing him back the cigarette. “Sounds like you want to be a bad influence on me.”

“Maybe a little.” He smiles, inhaling once more before putting the cigarette out against the wall and flicking it away.

“I’m glad you made it.” He says softly.

“Me too.” You smile. “You were amazing, I didn’t realise you could sing like that, and you…” You trail off, your mouth going dry as you freeze under Eddie’s gaze. But it’s nothing like Chris’ earlier. You feel… Nervous. But in a good way. 

The mood seems to shift from friendly banter to something else, and your next inhale is shaky as he moves closer. It seems like time slows down as he pinches your chin between his thumb and finger, angling your head up to look at him. “I really wanna kiss you.”

Your gaze drops down to his lips and before you can answer him, you feel yourself moving closer, reaching to grip his shirt as you lean up.

You barley feel the brush of his lips before the backdoor of the bar flings open, light spilling onto you both like a spotlight. You step back, turning to see Gareth. 

“Ready for us to start loading up the-“ He pauses when he sees Eddie’s face.

If looks could kill, Gareth would already be ten feet under. 

“Dude, that so wasn’t five minutes.”

“We gotta pack our shit and go, man.” He says defensively.

“It’s okay. I should probably head home.” You reach for Eddie’s hand and squeeze it gently, your thumb running across his rings. “I’ll see you at school?”

“Yeah.” He grips your hand a little tighter. “Can do some studying after school Monday, maybe?”

“Oh, I uh… Kinda had plans with Stacey and Amanda…”

He nods his head, trying to hide his disappointment. “Another time then. It’s cool.”

“But, I can move it to another date.” You rush out. “We’ve got that paper due Wednesday for Miss Miller’s’ class. If you come up with a draft for Monday we can work through it.” 

“It’s okay, you don’t have to cancel plans-“

“No I want to, really.” You smile, hesitating for a moment before kissing his cheek. “I’ll see you then, Munson.”

As you turn away Eddie runs his finger across where your lips were moments ago, smiling. He turns and sees Gareth still standing in the doorway, smirking at him. 

“The fuck you looking at?”

“Nothing, just looks like you-“

 “Shut up and go and grab our shit.”

[littlejazzy]

Hi I am new to age regression but I have a lot of problems with actually letting myself get into the headspace. I don’t have anyone to look after me and I often just bully myself into slipping out of the headspace. Any tips/advice?

Hello there! I've been a regressor for about five years by now, and I haven't had a caregiver ever! So, here's me doing my best to help!

I don't know the exact way you're bullying yourself out of headspace, but I do know some basics.

You have to remember that there's nothing wrong with regression as a way to de-stress and relax. It's not dangerous or harmful to yourself or to others. In fact, it might make you feel safe or happy, which is always a good thing!

To quote a littlespacecadets post:

Going back to your childhood, either as it was or as a way to make up for a lack of one, is perfectly normal. People play games that they had when they were younger because it makes them happy. People watch old episodes of their favorite shows because they remember how much joy it brought them. People color in coloring sheets because it was a way to block out the rest of the world and focus on a single, simple task. People own and cherish stuffed animals and toys that they have never stopped loving. While they may not go back to the extent that you do, they are still, in a way, regressing. Everyone regresses; some people only vaguely, and others, like you and me, a lot more deeply. There’s nothing wrong with this, and there’s nothing wrong with you.

Everyone gets joy from things that they may have "grown out of" at some point or another. Try not to be so hard on yourself!

And if you're bullying yourself because you can't stay in headspace? It's important to always keep in mind that several regressors don't even fully regress all the time.

Like myself!

I don't put any pressure on myself to fully regress, so in the event that it does happen, it's just a pleasant surprise.

What I like to do is watch cartoons, both in headspace and out. So, when I want to regress, I put on a cartoon for my headspace - something like Blue's Clues, Little Bear, Sesame Street, or even Bluey! The important part of these shows is that I like them whether I'm little or big. That means even if I don't happen to regress, I still have a nice time!

Another thing I do is listen to children's music on Spotify! I have a playlist filled with nursery ryhmes, another filled with songs from tv shows and movies, and a couple that has songs that aren't technically specifically for kids but bring me good ~ Little Space Vibes ~. The first two are good for when I'm already in headspace and want to stay there, while the others are particularly good at easing myself closer to headspace.

I just like to listen to music when I color, draw, make regression outfits, and when I play with my toys :)

This littlespacecadets' post is about things that help when regressing alone, all of which I think should help.

Something not listed there, however, are reading stories about regressors and littles! There are tons on AO3, and I loooooove reading them. These are a godsend for me, because while I don't have a caregiver and am perfectly content with that, it is nice to read about getting taken care of, either with a reader-insert or just something that delves into the thoughts of the little character.

I keep tabs on the Non-Sexual Age Play tag, because if someone uses that, then chances are good that the content is non-sexual (not all the time, unfortunately, but it does help narrow things down). Just read the tags and check the rating before clicking on a fic, and you should be fine.

However, it's good to also check up on Age Regression/De-Aging. That tag was intended for fics where a character is physically regressed/de-aged, but over the years it's a mix of that and good ol' classic agere. Some of the physical de-aging stuff is pretty good at helping me feel little, but I guess it can vary person to person.

(fics tagged with both tend to be Safe For Littles, but again, check the tags to make sure!!)

To get the most out of navigating, I'd suggest going through the NSAP tag first, then going through the AR/DA tag with the NSAP tag marked as "excluded" - this will prevent all the fics you just went through from showing up and filling the pages. It'll mostly be physical de-aging stuff, but there are some agere fics hiding in there!

But yeah, fics are really good at helping me personally, so hopefully they'll help you! A bunch are about the littles coming to terms with being little, with can be cathartic in a nice way :)

That's all the tips and advice I've got! Remember to not stress about being in headspace, and just try to have a nice time regardless! That's when I tend to slip down, when I'm not making a big deal about it. Hopefully something here will work for you!

[polar-stars]

Hey I'm kinda dry on ideas so can you please give me ideas for a SNS AMV please?

:0? 

Oh, that’s an unique question :000 But, sure...I can try. I gotta say in advance though that I’ve never been that big of a source for music ovo;; I’m kinda one of these people who listens to the same 20 songs in a row for 3 months and then discovers one new one to add to the list. 

If anyone comes along this post and has more ideas, feel free to add them ;w;

General Songs, that I’d say might be fun to experiment editing with:

- Panic! At the Disco, I’d say has quite some AMV-Worthy songs in their repertoire :0 Like ngl, whenever I listen to their song “Victorious” I actually picture an AMV for a specific Shokugeki-Match that will take place in the future of my Next Gen Fanfic whooPS ahdshdh (Yeah, I’m an absolute nerd. You’re free to laugh) But I mean there’s also “Don’t Threaten Me With a Good Time” which SLAPS

- Songs by Fall Out Boy also tend to be used for AMVs from what I’ve seen :0 “Phoenix” is one that comes into my mind that could be used well for an AMV

- It’s not by Fall Out Boy as a band but the singer participated in it...but yeah “Summer Days” by Martin Garrix was my number one summer song last year’s summer and I like it a lot and I have a feeling it could do well as AMV

- Little Mix is also? Kind of a good source for AMVs I’d say? Like “Salute” or “That’s My Girl” are songs that would come into my mind (Those work for Girl-Power AMVs)

- There’s also this band(?) Cash-Cash that makes HELLA catchy songs. Like HELLY CATCHY songs. Which I’ve seen used for AMVs multiple times already. A lot of their texts are on the more NSFW-Side though so ovo;;; Like especially “Sexin’ On The Dancefloor” (The title alone, duh) but ahdh it’s so damn catchy and I love it being perfectly honest. But yeah that one’s text-wise more on the dirty side but I’ve seen it being used for AMVs already

- “Him & I” is a song that I just like a lot, so in case you find any use for that I’d stan that. But I can’t come up with one myself ahdhd I’m sorry

- I used “Remember Me” by Ivan Torrent for an AMV with a Fantasy-Tone once and that was really enjoyable to me :0 Maybe for inspiration search up songs that go into that direction? A start would be “Kings and Queens and Vagabonds” by Ellem

- I have a soft spot for Lana del Rey songs if you’re in the mood for something slow. “Video Games” is pretty beautiful. 

- “Dusk Till Dawn” by ZAYN and Sia is also a song I high-key enjoy and it might be usable for AMVs as well

Uh, to be a bit more specific maybe?

- You know, Totsuki is this really high-class academy full of rich kids right? Honestly...”Beautiful, Dirty, Rich” by Lady Gaga might be a choice for like....A Totsuki-Centric AMV(?) (Personally, it always makes me think of the 114th Gen of my Next Gen in specific but shUT UP LEA.......Okay but really the 114th Gen’s Theme song is “Don’t Threaten Me With A Good Time” don’t @ me)

- “Money Honey” by Lady Gaga for EtsuNe, okay no...that’s a joke AHDHDS but really, I would laugh

- “Halo” by Beyoncé personally makes me think of SoRina....

- Maybe “Freaking Me Out” for SoRina as well

- Maybe “Prom Queen” by Molly Kate Kestner for a angsty Erina AMV? Maybe?? (I don’t know how angst works)

- I didn’t add it to my playlist back then but like “She’s Got That Light” by Orange Blue always makes me think of MarYu

- “Lighthouse” by G.R.L for EiRin....maybe? Or “Honeybee” by The Heard and the Heart

- My best friend once asked me for a joke-AMV of “7 rings” for Eizan. I refused to do this up to this point. But like....if anyone else wants to do this fucking request which only my best friend could give-

- The “Your Song” cover by Ellie Golding for TakuMegu perhaps? I think that could be cute 🤷🏻‍♀️

- uh....idk “Lover” by Taylor Swift for RyoAli or smth....I’m running out of ideas at this point. I’ve been scrolling up and down my Spotify Playlists for nearly a hour now or “Wildest Dreams” by Taylor for EtsuNe because I associate that song with them now after having played it 3 times when drawing them

- Okay last one but “Crazy in Love” by Sofia Karlberg makes me think of multiple ships actually so I’ll just leave it here ovo I can’t believe I’m ending this with a song from “Fifty Shades of Grey”

EDIT: “Point of no Return” by Starset for the RDC, “Wolf in Sheep’s Clothing” by Set it Off for the Central Elites added by @blas-i-us and welp “Rotten to the Core” from the movie Descendants added last minute by moi

THIS

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A CHALLENGE

But I hope it was at least a little helpful

[justmickeyfornow]

Ok so... I'm not rich but I'm not poor either. I have a comfortable life. Always had food on my plate, etc. I'm gay and it's a "secret" (my family doesn't know) And today, I woke up depressed. Almost 2 years ago someone broke my heart when they dumped me and it made me go into a depression spiral that just got me crazy and made me want to kill myself. Every now and then I think of them, check their social media etc and this morning I woke up feeling alone and lonely. And I just don't know :(

Not sure if I’m the best person to give advice out there, but I guess I could give it a try :)

Here’s what mostly works for me. The magic fix to all of this is just to fill your time. It worked for me and maybe it’ll work for you too. Don’t let yourself have the privilege of too much free time. Because that's your biggest enemy. The more free time you have, the more you’ll be thinking and overthinking shit. You’re either studying or you have a job right? Well the rest of those hours in the day try to fill them. Work on a project. Go to the gym. Hang out with some people. Read a book. Read Fanfiction!! Learn chess. Learn how to code (this is what I’m trying to do lately. So far, it’s fun! You should try it).

Actually the gym thing might be one of the most things that was able to keep my mind off of all the scary stuff. It’s the reason I started going to begin with. I had a lot on my mind, I was going a bit crazy and I hated sitting there and thinking about it at home. So I went for a jog and it took my mind off of it a bit. Next thing I knew, I was signing for a gym membership and going everyday ever since. It’s a huge stress reliever. Even if you’re not the type to go, do it anyway. I even pushed myself so far that I got one of those expensive memberships (That I really really couldn’t afford) just so that I would guilt myself into going everyday. And so far, I haven’t thought about that incident that shall not be talked about (scary harry potter style voice) in a long while (crap, I just thought about it now.....).

Do something that you’re good at and that you love. You’re good at drawing? Go fucking draw your heart out! Writing? Write stories until the end of time. Dancing? Singing? Playing a musical instrument? Whatever it is, do it. And there’s no such thing as “I’m not really good at anything”. So I better not hear you saying that. There’s always something that you’re really good at. Not perfect. Just good. Because if you’re just good at something, then eventually you’ll want to make it better and better until you get as close to perfect as possible. I had a friend once that lived her whole life with the notion that she wasn’t good at anything. She’s 23 and last year me and her found out - accidentally - that she can do math in her head in lightning speed. I randomly asked her what’s 12x32 and she did it in her head in less than two minutes, no pen no paper. And she was just as surprised as I was. She apparently thought everybody could do that (God knows I can’t!). So find something you’re good at and fill your time with it. I always complain about writing for Paranoia Incarnated, but the truth is it takes my mind off of the billion things that I’d rather not think about.

Social media. There's absolutely nothing wrong with cutting off from social media. Sit down and really think about it: When you browse through a certain social media account/page/thingy (I don’t even know what’s it called? I’m not really good at that stuff), what do you normally feel? Is it depression? Numbness? Endless scrolling of nothing? Jealousy? Then just delete it. It's so easy to delete an account its crazy that not more people do it. If you feel happy. You read things that make you smile. You rant about characters you like. Squeal at drawings someone drew. Smile at a cat picture. Then keep it.

As for being tempted to check up on that person that hurt you. Now, I personally believe in the opposite of Exposure therapy (concealment therapy?). If something bothers me or tends to stir up negative feelings in me, then I just make it disappear as best as I can. If it's a real person, I avoid them. If it's someone online then I block them. If it's someone I'm following, then I just unfollow them. If it's a situation, then I make sure I’m never put in a similar situation again. Yes, I know, not really a healthy thing to do. But, again, I’m a crazy person and healthy is not really something I’m very good at. So, if you really wanna go down my slippery slope, then just either unfollow or block the URL that takes you to her page. It’ll give you some peace of mind. Whenever you’re tempted to check up on her, then just get up and do something else. Open up Paranoia Incarnated and read the fluffy happy moments! There’s an idea! (Suggestions from PI? The pancakes for dinner conversation. Two penguins getting married at the zoo. Kara taking a nap for the first time in Lena’s office which is also the first time she tells Lena she’s beautiful. Leia’s chapter! The famous scotch cookies (I love this chapter!) and last but definitely not least because I was laughing my ass off while writing it: Lena trying to tap her head and rub her stomach and failing miserably!)

Now, let’s talk music. Choose one song that calms you down. Think of one song or one singer that every time you hear, you feel your mind drift from what you were doing just to properly listen to that song. Choose one singer whose voice can literally stop you from having a panic attack. Now, convince yourself that once you hear that song/singer that you'll be alright. I swear to God it works. If it didn't work for me I wouldn't recommend it. But it works for me.

Eden is that singer for me. I have a few songs for him that if I feel like I'm having an anxiety attack or any sort of scary nervous breakdown, I can put on my headphones and just play one of his songs and it’s like I could breathe again. If you’re interested in Eden, let me know and I’ll recommend which songs you should listen to first.

(Also, here’s a link to the Paranoia Incarnated Spotify playlist. There’re some songs on there that might help too.)

Speaking of music, your ask actually reminded me of this song that I adore. Put some headphones, close your eyes and listen to it. I have a feeling it might help ya out!

As for suicide. The only reason you're thinking about it is because you're keeping it as an option. I'm a practical person. I like to keep things practical. And simply not having suicide as an option can change your whole mindset.

Think of it like a bridge with water underneath it that you have to cross. This bridge is long and old and rusty and just slowly falling apart. But you have to get across no matter what. The water underneath is calm so it’s possible to swim there but it would still be hard. Both options are difficult but still both are possible. The third option is simple. Easy. You could just fly to the other side. Except you can’t. Because it’s impossible. It’s not an option. So you don’t think about it when you’re faced with the situation of crossing the bridge. Therefore you’re left with the other two options: cross the bridge on foot, even though you might fall down and get hurt. Or swim there, even though it would be extremely tiring and exhausting and time consuming and just plain difficult. But in the end you don’t have the option of flying.

Same goes with suicide. Don’t keep it as an option in your life, and you won’t think of it. Pretend that it’s impossible to suicide. Pretend that it just doesn’t exist. You do that, and I guarantee you won’t think about it as much.

There's no such thing as a permanent problem. Keep that in mind. Whatever you're feelings are towards this girl now, chances are they're gonna change in a couple of years.

I know you don't wanna hear this, but the truth is you're probably gonna go through so much worse to a point that this problem would seem like a walk in the park. And if you've really grown, you wouldn't think of suicide then either. Because you'd realize that you got over that first problem that once upon a time seemed like the worst thing you could go through. You actually got over it. You survived it. And you'll smile and think that you'll get over this too.

There’s also nothing wrong with feeling lonely. I wish I had a fix for you, but I still haven’t figured that one out yet. I tend to just ignore it (I’m starting to realize I live life by simply ignoring many many things. Maybe not the healthiest thing in the world....) As soon as I feel myself drowning in that feeling I simply get up. Do something. Anything. Go do the dishes. Hell, I sometimes get down and do 20 pushups to get my mind off of it (That usually works, seeing that once I reach 12 pushups I’m practically dead). Actually the pushups thing also acts as a sort of response treatment. Your mind will slowly realize that everytime it feels negative feelings you start torturing it with pushups and it stops pushing negative feelings towards you. Does that make any sense? I feel like that might not be the healthiest option. Maybe consult an expert? I dunno. I sometimes do it and it helps me, but I’m just a crazy person so I what do I know.

Other random things that I’ve done that were extremely helpful in changing my mindset:

1. Drink fruit water! Yup! I know it sounds ridiculous, but it kinda works. Grab one of those big water bottles that you take with you to the gym. Cut up a lemon (I prefer half a lemon), an orange, a cucumber, and some mint. Stuff them in there and fill it with water. It actually tastes pretty good. And it washes away the toxins in your body.

2. Dark chocolate! Not only is it healthy, but it releases dopamine (the little beautiful trigger in your brain that makes you happy) and increases your serotonin levels (the little beautiful trigger in your brain that makes you calm).

3. DRINK TEA!! I CANNOT EVEN BEGIN TO EXPLAIN HOW MUCH HAPPIER IT MAKES YOU. IT’S PERFECT. IT’S GORGEOUS. IT’S TASTY. IT’S JUST..... *SIGH*

4. Buy a bulletin board. Put it up in your room and go crazy with it. Pin up your goals. Projects. Your resolutions. Whatever it is. Make sure it’s on that board so you could see it every single day.

5. Smile a lot.

I dunno if any of this is helpful. But most of this stuff worked for me so I’m hoping it’ll work for you. Just read a lot of fanfiction, spice up your life with some smutty ones too and you’ll soon forget about that girl.