#I might be in a tattoo hyperfocus rn :'D

[mitamicah]

Soooooo....

If you were in the käärijä watch party stream two days ago you may or may not hear me wanting to get a Paidaton Riehuja inspired tattoo

I did quickly mention it before but yeah this idea has had me in a chokehold so I'm thinking about say screw my 6 month plan and contact a tattoo studio in the new year :'D

Here is a bigger view of the concept

It is very simple really; just a flagpole with a t-shirt as the flag.

I have been having a lot very extreme feelings lately about my body - some days I sort of like it and can seem too excited about looking at myself or taking picutres. Other days I am hating it and worry about my appearance and whether or not I am "good enough".

Really, I should be doing what Jere is doing with the song: no matter how he looks he doesn't care - he has a need (not to be hot on stage) and a way to reach that need that doesn't harm anybody else (take off his shirt). This is already being conveyed in his opening monoloque where for a split second he looks subjectively at his body and worries about his looks before saying: whatever! (Iham Sama) and throwing off the shirt.

Because of this I want the words 'Ihan Sama' written on the shirt on the tattoo - it's a reminder to me that no matter if I have a good body or bad body day in the end it doesn't matter; I only have this one body and it's serving me just fine either way.

I am thinking about getting this tattoo on my stomach with the flag being around the navel (pictures above shows position) since I am definitely most dysphoric about everything from the navel down (excluding the chest area - that'll get its own tattoo in good time xD) - my hope is that by seeing the tattoo there everytime I look down I will be reminded good feelings not nesescarily connected to my body's appearance but what my body can offer me (a canvas, a way to experience käärijä's music etc.)

That is my idea - idk I was thinking about maybe making a poll so you guys could tell me if I am being too quick with this idea or not but at the same time I really want this one for what I hope it can mean to me and my body image - I am tired of these bad body days and while I know they wont probably go away because I get ink on my tummy I can't hurt to try :'D

That said if you have any thoughts about all of this feel free to share and I'll try to listen <3

I made it long again, sorry :'D