#I mean imagine her and Jia talking in sign language

[marigoldwriter]

I mean, if Jia is mute, I can add a deaf character to my fic without any problems, right? It's a genuine question because maybe it's very inconvenient for some, even though the fanfic is mine (incredible, isn't it?

[soyeonsbabygirl]

Then…Now

CW: Mentions of a mental Breakdown, Cheating, and overall very big issues that Jia has

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Jiyoung had always believed she was a nice person.

She grew up with a good childhood, her parents loved her and they even let her go to New Zealand at one point for further studies. She of course knew they only said yes since Yeojin her oldest more responsible and mature sister was going, along with her cousin Jennie, even little Sooyoung was going with them which Jia didn't mind. She’d rather not leave Sooyoung alone anyways, even when Sooyoung left going back to China, Jiyoung still stayed with Yeojin and her cousin. Maybe she should’ve gone back with Sooyoung….maybe then none of this would’ve ever happened.

Jiyoung who was only 17, waited. Being in New Zealand gave her opportunities China wouldn’t have been able to give her. She wasn’t really as good as speaking Chinese like Sooyoung and her dad despite being Chinese-Korean. But that wasn’t her fault, Korean just ended up being her first language. She had been a big fan of few Kpop groups, often singing along to the songs she would hear Yeojin play.

She would spend hours trying to learn the choreography to any of the songs she would see, it was no secret she loved Kpop. Without her sister Yeojin, she would’ve never found out about Kpop. Jiyoung looked up to her older sister, she was proud of her for being accepted by an acting agency in Korea. Yeojin had always loved acting so she would be a perfect actress.

But really…..it was Yeojin that was perfect, gorgeous face, fluent in both Korean, Chinese, and English , naturally good at school, everyone loved her, hour glass figure, smart, responsible, and naturally mature. Jiyoung wanted to be like her, but her dreams were different. She signed up for dance lessons and eventually became top of the class, she taught herself piano as well singing along to it as she would create her own melodies.

Eventually she was spotted by a scout for SM, they encouraged her to audition. She was beyond excited which led to where she was now. SM had flown her out to Korea after she passed the audition in New Zealand, now it was time for her to audition in front of the CEO.

She was nervous but it was no shock she had passed with flying colors, within a month of being at company she had made it into SM rookies. Her parents were upset she hadn’t talked to them about this but still supported her nonetheless, she became friends with a girl who shared a name with her younger sister, as well as meeting a girl who had come all the way from Canada. She had noticed Seulgi before Seulgi had even noticed her, I mean when you’re in the same entertainment for 4 months you're bound to notice someone.

Jiyoung was especially known for a distinct feature, her long hair, her dance style, and creating her own songs. Every evaluation Jiyoung would pass. She felt like she was perfect…like her sister. Only thing is Jiyoung had a girlfriend. She met her through her cousin Jennie, Kim Minji. Minji was gorgeous to Jiyoung always knowing what to say and how she was feeling. She and Minji would often sneak out alongside her and Sooyoung the trainee who shared the same name as her younger sister who became her best friend. Minji was perfect, everything anyone could ever want in a girlfriend. But maybe she was too perfect…too perfect for someone like Kim Jiyoung.

After being the highest ranking trainee well known among SM rookies and practically the whole industry, you can imagine people’s surprise when Jiyoung left SM. The announcement made multiple headlines and no one knew why. People were bound to be confused when a girl who had been training for half a year and was rumored to debut as either a soloist or a girl group that SM had been wanting to debut all because of her, a girl who had wrote and produced so many songs for the already existing groups, a girl who had the best voice out of all the trainees in her training group and could easily hit whistle notes like it was nothing whilst still having a siren like voice. Rumors speculated which were so ridiculous they would make Jiyoung scoff.

If they had known that a month prior her and Kim Minji her girlfriend of 2 months had broken up, it was Jiyoung’s choice. Minji was too perfect for someone like her, the relationship bored Jiyoung or at least that's what she told herself. Jiyoung didn’t deserve Minji’s love. That was what she believed but she never told Minji that, only telling the girl she needed to focus on training the girl nodded understandingly and the two remained friends. Jiyoung tried to distract herself but she couldn’t. Everything felt like it was too much, when she ended up coming in second in her evaluation that was when she couldn’t do it.

Here she was now, looking in the mirror. She had dropped out of an entertainment that would’ve helped her to achieve her dreams, leaving her friends, and so many other things behind. She had already joined another entertainment and passed the audition, but no one knew that yet. Other than her older sister. The worst thing about this whole thing was what netizens said about her. She knew what netizens had to say about it since she would sometimes spend hours reading their comments, the positive ones supporting her were sweet but there were more negative ones aimed at her, those are the ones that caught her attention.

Those fucking bastards who had nothing better to do but comment on what Jiyoung decided to do with her life. Saying she had wasted her potential, calling her ungrateful, and so many other hateful words. Jiyoung looked at herself in the mirror not even realizing she was crying or when she grabbed the scissors. Everything was a blur but at the end of it, her long hair that she was complimented on for years gone now stopping at her shoulders. Now Jiyoung felt control.

SIXTEEN was a blur to her. She had gone on the survival show after her second year of being under JYP. Many netizens recognized her as the girl from SM rookies and were shocked at the 180 of her appearance. She became popular for her looks quickly. Her vocals paired with Jihyo, Sana, and a girl named Chaeyeon apparently brought many to tears.

People loved how she was able to create mainly her own material and execute it flawlessly. Her rapping also impressed people. Despite being more known for her vocals she was an amazing rapper. She would always rank first when it came to rapping on the show surprising many who only saw her as a vocalist. She had also started dating another girl named Yoo Siah around this time.

She didn’t know what it is but something about the girl attracted her, and she loved that. She had dated a Source Music trainee briefly last year for at least 3 and a half months. She couldn’t remember what was wrong with that relationship but both girls had mutually decided to break up. Which was good since the relationship bored Jiyoung by the 3rd month but again she still remained friends with the girl.

Jiyoung would watch as young girls got eliminated, some were the same as her younger sister Sooyoung if not younger. Jiyoung found herself wondering about her little sister who had also decided to become an idol. Jiyoung was angered by this screaming at her younger sister making the younger girl cry. Jiyoung didn’t mean to make the younger girl cry, she's her baby sister after all. She doesn’t want little Sooyoung to go through the same thing she did and what was worse was that Sooyoung was younger than her. Jiyoung apologized a few days later but made a mental note to look after her sister in this industry.

Jiyoung didn’t expect herself to cry as much as she did when she saw Momo someone she grew close with in the entertainment get eliminated. A river of tears made their way down Jiyoung’s face as she cried watching her leave, maybe that's why Siah broke up with her. Because she was too weak. Oh well. I guess Jiyoung was too weak for Siah to love her. Jiyoung decided she would use a different name as her stage name. She gave a slight smirk to the crowd making everyone scream as she prepared to speak. “I’m Jia, the 8th Member of twice.” Once again Jia had regained control.

The girls had just had a Japanese debut a month ago, Jia and Seulgi had been dating for 8 months now. Jia’s hair was long because Seulgi liked her with her hair long. They had been revealed after 6 months of dating, but neither cared. whoever the anonymous source was that got pictures of her and Seulgi making out needed a fucking life.

Jia loved the way Seulgi kissed her as if she was the only girl in the world. The way Seulgi’s hands would hold her waist pulling her closer. She got hate for dating Seulgi and being a lesbian overall but she didn’t care. She had Seulgi that was all she needed and cared about. Sure there would be days Seulgi would ghost her not talking to her for days sometimes weeks, but she trusted Seulgi. Seulgi would never hurt her.

She tells Jia all the time that she loves her, Jia really felt herself falling in love with Seulgi too. Seulgi had met Jia’s parents which her exes had never even come close to, her sisters though Sooyoung was nicer to her than Yeojin according to Seulgi, even posted her on her story. She truly was in love with her.

Though Seulgi would be on her phone for hours whenever they hung out and when Jia asked her about it, it would make Seulgi upset as if Jia was in the wrong for even daring to ask. “It’s like you don’t fucking trust me.” “Don’t you love me baby?” “if you love me you would trust me.” “I thought we talked about this. Stop being annoying.” Jia would apologize feeling bad for having upset her girlfriend. Even when Seulgi acted like this , Jia still loved her.

When Seulgi would ditch her to hang out with Joy or Irene she didn’t question it since it’s just group bonding. Besides whenever they had sex Seulgi was able to help Jia forget about it all. Possessive, loving, and rough sex was her favorite thing about Seulgi. Seulgi would come back from ghosting her or being late to a hangout or date and not even say a word immediately kissing Jia.

Hands trailing over her body as she flung Jia’s clothes off. She would run her finger over Jia’s spider tattoo on her lower hip. She would grope Jia’s tits that could barely fit in Seulgi’s hands from how big they were. No matter how Seulgi fucked Jia she would always mutter “I love you” and “you're mine” against Jia’s skin. Jia belonged to Seulgi, and Jia knew she was hers forever….

Jia’s blood ran cold as she opened as message from a random number. She watched video and it was clear who it was. Seulgi and Irene were fucking. their faces were in it, their moans were heard, along with Seulgi screaming Irene’s name. Jia couldn’t stop the screams and tears she let out as everything stopped around her. She fell to her knees having a full breakdown not even registering Jihyo and Nayeon comforting her.

They held her in their arms trying to calm her down which seemed to only make the girls screams worse. Chaeyoung had called Joy who was Jia’s best friend. Surely she could help calm her down right? when she answered she was on speaker and Jia heard the words she would never wanna hear from her best friend. “We’re not fucking friends. I was never her friend. She’s not worth it.”

Jia stopped crying briefly to stare at the phone in shock along with Chaeyoung, Momo and Sana who had just entered the room standing at the doorway, Jihyo and Nayeon whose faces were filled with anger as they stared at the phone in disbelief. After 4 seconds more tears fell from her eyes as she sobbed loudly, shaking slightly as well.

She couldn’t breathe and every touch despite it being comforting also felt almost like ice making Jia scream more. Tzuyu the maknae of the group who hated seeing Jia like this called her younger sister. Sooyoung arrived quickly rushing to her sister. Nayeon and Jihyo moved and Sooyoung held her older sister in her arms.

Jia’s screams and sobs could be heard throughout the whole dorm. Sooyoung who was only 18, had never heard her sister scream or seen her cry like this. Her screams and sobs were heard by everyone in the dorm as she clung to her baby sister being the only one to provide Jia with the comfort she needed.

It has been a month since Jia and Seulgi broke up. a month since Joy was no longer her best friend. Jia felt empty. She felt like no one could love her. Only person that did was Seulgi, she showed her the side of her no one else had seen. She loved her everyday and this is what she got in return? Fuck that. Fuck Kang Seulgi. Fuck Bae Joohyun. Fuck Park Sooyoung. She acted like a shitty friend from the start of her and Seulgi’s relationship anyways. She had turned cold and distant and barely making time to even respond to Jia’s call. The girls were about to have a Christmas comeback, Jia still had her long hair, the long hair that Seulgi loved her in. The same hair she would run her fingers through, the same hair she would tell Jia is when she looked her prettiest. Jia looked in the mirror scissors in hand, she needed to regain control. She cut her hair just above her shoulders slightly by 5 centimeters. She was not anyone’s anymore. She cut her hair severing Seulgi’s hold on her. She was no longer Seulgi’s Jia. She was Kim Fucking Jia and she belonged to no one but herself.

That was all then, but let’s talk about now. This was now: it had been 2 years since the breakup and Jia hasn’t dated anyone else since only having flings. She makes it clear what they are when she starts sleeping with someone and if they fall in love, that's their fault. That had nothing to do with Jia.

Some of them respected that, others disappointed, and then some would cry. She had just ended her recent Fling with Vivi from Loona 2 months ago. Nothing wrong with the girl, she just bored Jia and she felt Vivi falling in love with her so she broke it off before it could be anything else. Jia had made a huge name for herself in the industry.

She spoke 5 languages fluently soon to be 7, She was the 3rd most biased member, known for her producer skills, vocals, and rapping, people loved the way she danced claiming there was a certain sexiness to it, then there was her iconic “10 minutes” solo stage she did. She has the titles Nation’s Vixen, Women Attractor, China’s Golden Voice, and Daughter of YSL. She is known for being an ambassador for Ferrari, Jimmy Choo, and YSL.

Jia knew this and was proud of herself. She knew she was unlovable so she wasn’t perfect like her older sister but she wasn’t Yeojin. She was Kim Jiyoung. Despite all of this and the way Jia is……Nayeon, Momo, Dahyun, and Jihyo couldn’t help but be the first ones to fall for her.

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I hope you guys enjoyed this chapter! We will see more of Jia since she is slowly becoming my new obsession more than Sooyoung. Feel free to ask me anything you have about Jia and this chapter.