#I made this unreblogable because I don't think anyone would want to reblog it

[fantasy-costco]

Can't stop thinking about the fact that I mentioned having knee problems yesterday and said 'well, obviously you already knew about that' and my professor was confused and I was like. Bro I use a cane sometimes. And he said 'I thought that was just an affectation.'

[mythicaldemigoddess-of-deltarune]

I Found Out Another Reason Why I Love Adam More Than Lilith (From Hazbin Hotel) Part 1

[Note: do NOT reblog this without my permission...I don't want to have to do what I had to do on September 2, 2024 when I couldn't message the person who reblog the post I made about Blitzo, and I wanted to ask them to unreblog it, but I couldn't cause I couldn't message them because they only accept messages from blogs they follow...so I don't wish to do the whole block thing again anytime soon...I didn't want to come to that on that day...and I'm not saying who they are and it's good that their reblog was removed from my post...also while this will talk about Adam and Lilith from Hazbin Hotel, this will get a bit off topic...this will also mention some stuff with Blitzo, Stolas and other characters from Helluva Boss and will mention some spoilers. ]

so yeah like the last few times before when trying to write some thoughts about Lilith, the page started to not respond on me...

so yeah I was writing the original version of this, and it started to be all stupid on me...and yeah got upset enough to end up crying, it was just so frustrating...

even mentioned some off topic stuff in it, like my thoughts on the True First Eve that came After Lilith But Before The Second Eve who would be known as "Eve" and who ate the forbidden fruit.

but like the First Eve, when she was made from Adam's rib, he was awake for it and had rejected her, and my thoughts is that Eve The Second Eve was made from the rib on Adam's right side, while the First Eve was made from the rib on the left side it, and well the left side is where the heart is...

my idea is that The First Eve that came before Eve, could be named Elisabeth but called Elle for short, you know like how Charlie's full name is Charlotte but she likes to be called Charlie and she prefers it.

so Elle's full name would be "Elizabeth" but spelled "Elisabeth" so it will be Elisabeth with a "S" instead of a "Z"...

like originally she didn't have a name, because Adam didn't name her and she was rejected by him, and that only happen because he was awake and witnessed how she was made.

I like the idea of Elle being maybe around Charlie's Dad Lucifer's height or like being a bit shorter than him by a few inches, so being much shorter than Adam, Lilith and Eve.

and Elle could have light orange hair, light blue eyes and rose white skin.

Elle and her "younger sister" Eve could be known by their full titles...

Elisabeth "Elle" The First Eve (Formerly Nameless The First Eve)

and Eve The Second Eve...

I also mentioned in the original version of this, that well before it became September 1, 2024...I prayed for a sign that had to do with me being either the daughter or not of Archeia Mikaela, you know the Lady Faith that is suppose to be the Feminine Counterpart of Archangel Michael...like I prayed for it to rain as a sign for "yes" on September 1, 2024...but if it is a "no" then it will just be sunny on that day and not rain at all...

and well I did that prayer on August 31, 2024...and yeah it did end up raining on September 1, but I didn't get to see it because I ended up sleeping through it and I had to ask if it had rained...

and I don't know if it was answer and reply to the sign I prayed for or if it was just a coincidence, but if it was, then I guess it would explain the whole my Mom going through Evening Sickness when she was pregnant with me...

but I think anyone could end up having their Mom going through Evening Sickness instead of Morning Sickness, so it might not of just been my Mom that went through that...

and I hope today, we can finally get around to checking my blood type again...cause we have put it off for far too long, and I want to see it coming out like it did the other two times when we were successful with it...cause the last other times before we finally were successful didn't come out so well, and I know I learned it is better for me to have my eyes closed during it, because each time I ended up feeling not so great when that whole thing happens...

I know the blood type you have is stuck with you for the rest of your life thing, but I still want to have that test thing done again so I can see it come out as "O RH D Negative" on that blood type test thing...

and hopefully either today or somewhere around this month, we can finally get to it and stop putting it off...

I might not know about the whole 100% about my soul's birth, but I'm pretty sure I may have been a Accident.

also one of the things I brought up in the original version of this, is that the incident with Abel, reminds me of the accident I had when I was maybe around almost a year old or when I was 1 year old...

I will need to ask about it again sometime, but I know I was a baby when it happen...I ended up with a scar that is a bit close to where my right eye is, like it's not on my eye but it is a bit close but a bit far away from it...

my Mom had to hold me close to stop the bl**ding, and yeah just like in the originally version of this, I had to censor the part that has the word "bl**ding"...I just thought it was better that way I guess...

I was given help on time, but I can't help but wonder what would happen if I wasn't given help on time, and well even if the whole thing that happen with Abel and Cain was different from what happen with me...

I know that me and my big brother were in another room when it happen, and we were playing and I ended up hurting my head.

I don't have a full memory of what happen or even know what happen, all I know is from the little info I was told about it.

anyway I realized that I have another reason to love Adam more than Lilith from Hazbin Hotel, and that is Lilith reminds me of my Dad.

lucky for Adam, he wasn't pregnant when Lilith left him and cheated on him when they were still technically married...

Stolas from Helluva Boss, kinda gets a half pass.

but only because Stella has been treating him badly with verbal abuse and possibly physical abuse...

but he doesn't get a full pass for how he had treated Blitz.

I mean it might be best for fans to re-watch the episodes from Season 1, even the pilot episode...

I mean Blitz when he was still in the IMP van, he was trying to keep himself from crying when trying to tell Stolas he "couldn't tonight" even if Stolas did just want to spend time with Blitz, but Blitz needed to be left alone after what happen at Ozzie's...

and those like Dennis, don't deserve any pity like at all...

since they were taking kissing advantage of a drunk and emotionally hurt and vulnerable Blitz after what happen at Ozzie's.

and yeah the fan theory I and perhaps other fans have,

is that Blitz could turn out to be Panromantic-Ace.

so he could either be Asexual or Demisexual...

the reason why he follows Millie and Moxxie, might have to do with his research he has been doing, to learn about healthy relationships, along with his other research that had to do with those pictures he took of Imps wearing horse costumes.

Blitz might come off as the worse person and Imp ever, but that might not be 100% true...

Fizz was likely lied to by Blitz's good for nothing Dad and possibly even his sister Barbie, that Blitz was jealous of Fizz.

Blitz's Dad is Pathetic, and maybe Barbie is a Daddy's Girl and probably had a good relationship with both her and Blitz's Parents.

Blitz was likely a Mommy's Boy, but had a terrible relationship with his and Barbie's Dad.

it could be possible Blitz had never caused Fizz's accident in the first place, one of the evidence being the horses with flame mane and tail that was seemingly close to where the fireworks were at.

and it could be possible Barbie may have put those fireworks there, like she could of had plans for them and forgot to move them to a safer place.

I also have a theory about Loona, Blitz and Stolas and the whole texts between Blitz and Stolas...

the theory is, that it was never Blitz doing those misspelling texts, and it was Loona the whole time...

even I can mistype something like some others have, but one of the hints could be that Loona is the one that does most of the texting for Blitz, is well...when you watch the episode where Loona goes to the party at the Gluttony Ring, she mistypes "I am here." as "I am her..."

she put "her" instead of "here" which she had to put another message to fix that mistake.

it is possible the reason why she was placed in charge of the texts to Stolas, because of the last time Stolas called Blitz when he was trying to hide from Martha.

and the only reason why Blitz agreed to Stolas's suggestion to that "once a month on the full moon" is because he was under a lot of pressure and he was trying not to get a game over by Martha.

plus Blitz had a extra hellphone and he didn't bother to go back for the one he left behind when Martha caught him...

and Stolas kept going on and on, talking dirty talk and even talking about food for some odd reason, which he was still talking even when that hellphone was on the ground and Moxxie ran past it.

it sounded like he was talking about jelly sandwiches, but I'm not 100% sure...I will have to re-watch it again sometime.

and if things are going to work out between Blitz and Stolas, then they both will need to work on themselves...

Blitz might of felt bad for hurting and breaking so many hearts, but not all of them deserve to be felt sorry for, not even Dennis who wasn't even a Ex, and he only made-out with at Bee's Party, which only happen because Blitz was drunk and emotionally hurt and vulnerable after what happen at Ozzie's.

even if Dennis did cry and got upset after being rejected by Blitz, because Blitz didn't like his name, and wanted a Alejandro or Monica.

I'm still not going to feel fully sorry for Dennis, who was making out with a emotionally hurt and vulnerable Blitz, who was getting drunk and causing problems because what happen at Ozzie's.

even if Stolas's past text message for Blitz, tried to play off the whole incident as something that wasn't too hurtful, and well you would have to pause to read it, and I can't remember if it was on that episode where Stolas ended up hurt really badly by Striker and he ended up texting Blitz (who the one that answers might be Loona, who couldn't really do much texting because of the state she was in.)

and the reason why Blitz couldn't text back to say he would or couldn't see Stolas at the hospital...

is because Blitz, likely was going through some shocking emotions after finding out that Stolas can get hurt, and the closes thing he could do is ask Loona to text to Stolas "get better soon"...

one of the times Blitz does answer Stolas, is when it's moments like when Stolas called to ask him to come save him from Striker, but he couldn't because he had to take Loona to the hospital and he needed to put her first, and Blitz couldn't just stop everything, he had to make a choice between Loona and Stolas...

he trusted Moxxie and Millie to handle saving Stolas, when he deals with making sure Loona got her Vaccine for Hellbies.

Stolas still ends up bringing up the whole fact Blitz didn't come save him from Striker, which once again he couldn't when he needed to be there for his daughter Loona...

Blitz is not the only one who needs to work on himself, because Stolas, Blitz's Exes and One-Night Stands, Dennis and Verosika Mayday need to work on themselves as well.

it's good that things are good between Blitz and Verosika now, and she isn't as bad as she seems...

but well I can't help but think the thing that she was going to say but couldn't that has to do with "love" might not be what we originally thought, but could hint in her solo song at Ozzie's, something that Blitz was not willing to do.

and because of it, it ended up causing Blitz and Verosika to break-up.

romantic partners should respect each other's thoughts and feelings, as well as boundaries, if your partner doesn't feel comfortable with something, don't make them out as the bad guy for it or scapegoat the whole thing onto their shoulders.

and yeah as much as it shocks people, there are some Aces who do have "snu-snu" with their romantic partners, like either they be boyfriends, girlfriends or spouses.

and we Aces don't need to be "fixed" and if it were possible as self defense and if I was strong enough to, I would telekinesis those disgusting jerks who get the bright idea with trying to "fix" me...

I still have my V-card, and well I have a certain phobia that also has to do with my Semi-Androphobia that has to do with the panic attack I had in 2015...and that was before I figured out I was Ace and Nonbinary, of course I was still figuring out the type of Nonbinary I am...but I know I'm a Nonbinary-Girl and still go by She/Her pronouns

and well I have been protecting myself by using gems so I don't pick up certain energies, one of them being Toxic-Lust energy...

which once again, I was apparently vulnerable to it when I sleep and had to use Dream-Catchers to protect me...

Emberlynn Pinkle should of still kept that charm on...

even I ain't that crazy of a fan girl...

also I want to say that I figured out what it is that I am when I believe in both God/Heavenly-Father and Goddess/Eathly-Mother.

it is called Bitheistic, so yeah I'm a Bitheism person...

anyway, hopefully things will work out between Blitzo and Stolas, and hopefully Stolas does work on himself...

and back to the whole Adam and Lilith thing, I guess I'm weird with the whole Lilith reminding me a bit of my Dad, who after a disagreement with my Mom who was still pregnant with me at the time, took off to another place far away where my Mom and her family lived, and never came back...

oh yeah, and he cheated on my Mom when they were still married and separated, it was either when my Mom was still pregnant with me or sometime after she had me...I will need to ask about it again sometime...

but yeah, if Adam and Lilith did have children in Hazbin Hotel Universe, like the ones from our universe...

then Adam could of had to watch over and take care of the children they had together that were born in Eden, while Lilith was having affair with Charlie's Dad...so lucky Adam wasn't pregnant when that affair was happening.

Adam might of not been perfect, but he only became a worse version of himself because of what Lilith and Lucifer...

it's too bad he might not come back in Season 2 as a Fallen Winner...

the only times he does appear as a Fallen Winner is in Fanon work by fans.

wouldn't be surprised if Charlie being all "that explains so much" and face she was making, has to do with stories she heard from her Mom about him, which I wouldn't be surprised if Lilith's stories about Adam are full of Bull Sugar Honey Ice Tea, and was full of half-truths and half-lies...

cause Miss Arrogancy Embodiment, will of course play it off like she's the full victim and Adam was "trying to control her" and make her "subservient"...but really that was just her misinterpreting.

even if the 8th and 9th Sins like Vanity and Melancholy might not appear in the canon of Hazbin Hotel and Helluva Boss, but if there was a 10th, it would be Arrogancy.

Belial is the Embodiment of Vanity, and Astaroth is the Embodiment of Melancholy.

and even if Lilith was a Man and Adam was a Woman, I'm still going to love Adam more than her...

I guess I can't help but view Adam in Hazbin Hotel, as misunderstood, who crossed lines that he shouldn't of crossed because he wasn't thinking...

he was upset that one of his Exorcist Angels were taken out, and it was one of the reasons he moved up the day to the next extermination day to the next six months.

he did it, probably not just because Sinners would figure out the ways Angels can be taken out, but because those Exorcist Angels are the closes thing to family he has...

I like to view that there are two Lutes in the Fanon, one that is the "Lute Sr." who is the Lover of Adam, while the "Lute Jr." is the daughter that Adam always wanted.

Lute Sr. could have a different Exorcist uniform that is the same as the much taller and Mom Figure Exorcist, who have what is called a voluptuous figure.

like in some fan works, Lute is either Adam's girlfriend or crush and love interest, or in others she isn't that, she and the rest of the Exorcist Angels (even Vaggie...) are his adoptive daughters, and possibly made from his DNA by some kind of magic.

so I like to view that there are Two Lutes in the Fanon, one that is Lute Sr. who is way taller than maybe Adam, maybe being around the height that comes up to Sera's shoulders, and wears armor and has a Valkyrie hybrid style of the Exorcist Angel uniforms.

like Lute Sr. is the Commander of the Valkyrie Exorcists, that make up women who are the "Mothers" of the Exorcist Angels like Lute (Lute Jr.) and Vaggie who is under the command of Adam.

Lute Sr. could be the "Mother" of Lute, Vaggie and the Other Exorcist Angels, because she helped Adam with making them, possibly through magic.

the Valkyrie Exorcist are The Matriarch Class of Exorcist Angels, who no longer go down on Extermination Day, but instead have other jobs, such as some of them being bodyguards for The Archeia.

Lute Sr. who could go by another name so not to confuse her for Lute...she could be the bodyguard of Archeia Mikaela.

I know some might think Charlie's Mom might still have some good in her, and she wasn't in Heaven by her own free will and was some kind of hostage and other fans believe she left for Heaven on purpose and abandon her family, and some fans can believe any one of those theories could be true.

Charlie clearly looks up to her Mom and views her as a Hero to all Sinners and Hellborns, but that might not be 100% true.

it is just what Charlie believes her Mother to be, and the book she was left when her Mom was gone, was all she had left of her and she believes a book that possibly holds half-truths and half-lies in it.

I mean it is kinda obvious that Charlie's Mom Lilith, seems to belittle Lucifer, even if it might not seem that way...

but the way the story plays off as "Lucifer losing all Hope" and "Lilith thrived and empowering demonkind with her songs and voice..."

and even saying that "Lilith's Hope Remained In Their Daughter" instead of it being "Lilith and Lucifer's Hope Remained In Their Daughter"...of course I'm going to question her...

there could be a reason why Lilith and Lucifer are separated and are possibly divorced or like in the process of divorced, but can't because it would mean Lilith would no longer be the Queen of Hell.

she could get her own Ring, and become the Queen of that Ring.

Lucifer might not even feel the same way he did before for Lilith when they first met, likely because he realized how manipulative she could really be and it could be possible that in the Hazbin Hotel Universe, Lilith had convinced Lucifer into going along with the plan with the apple and getting Eve to eat it.

because of how much influence has on Charlie, it is possible that Lucifer doesn't want to break his daughter's heart by telling her the truth that she really needs to hear about her Mom.

it could be possible that Lilith could manipulate Sinners with her voice, which some fans could of theorized already...

it is possible she is part of the reason things went bad between Vox and Alastor.

it might of really been Alastor's voice that came from his full power, that empowered and encouraged Sinners, Lilith could only manipulate them by changing them and making them do as she says and perhaps even brainwashing them to becoming darker versions of themself...

which she likely had done to both Vox and Valentino...

also I know Valentino has smoke that comes from him that is pink, and is supposes to control demons...

but what if that Love Potion that appears in the show, isn't just made from Valentino's Smoke alone, but also has another ingredient in it.

and that ingredient is Angel Dust's Venom that is a Pink Color.

and those two mixed together, and made into the "Love Potion" would be able to cause an affect on the two sources that the two ingredients came from...

Valentino is likely addicted to Angel because of Angel's Venom, something that Vox had figured out long before Velvette and it could be the reason why Vox isn't really a fan of Angel being close to Valentino, because of Angel's Venom.

Angel probably doesn't know his Venom causes those that are influenced by it, to become very obsessed with him.

it's possible the only way that Husk and others who Angel might kiss but accidentally got injected with Angel's Venom, is if they take a type of Antidote that is made from revers engineering the stuff from Angel's Venom...

Baxter is probably able to make a Antidote and figure out Angel's Venom causes behavior that is shown in Valentino when it comes to his obsession with Angel.

Angel would of had to learn this the hard way, if he ended up injecting Husk with his Venom, and he starts to become obsessed with him...and if they do end up together, and not just friends as they are right now...

Angel and Husk would need to go see Baxter and make sure Husk takes the Antidote to Angel's Venom, which will let him be Immune to Angel's Venom, but it could only last for 6 months.

if Valentino was given the Antidote and was made to stay away from Angel, or in this case stay a few feet away from Angel and not touch him...he could go through withdrawal systems, which Vox and Velvette would have to deal with Valentino's withdrawals from Angel's Venom.

I'm going to write a bit more of this in a part 2, that will talk a little bit more of Adam and Lilith, and the reasons why I like him more than her...

cause once again, Lilith reminds me a bit of my Dad who left when my Mom was pregnant with me and also cheated on my Mom when she was either still pregnant with me or sometime after she had me...

I'm breaking this into two parts, because I don't want to risk this going stupid on me like the last few times...

so yeah, will make part 2 of this in a a hour or few hours...

and it could be possible that both Adam and Blitzo are bad at feelings and expressing the darker parts of those feelings and they are just misunderstood by those around them that aren't Loona and Lute.