#I love waking up surrounded by Kidou....

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I ♡ Kidou

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ISYT (Jushiro/F!Reader) Ch. 55.5

Teaser

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You didn’t know how you were going to fix this mess. You knew that your husband would one day sacrifice his life for the greater good of Soul Society, but it never struck you that it would be so soon. You thought you would come together after having a family and spending your remaining days happily. But life can never be that easy, & you’re well aware of that. 

As you embrace your dying husband in your arms, tears roll down your cheeks as the happiness that the two of you experienced together comes rushing back. How the two of you met in the human world before tragedy struck, how you met him after attending the Shino’o Academy; & how your fates intertwined after he approached you willingly.

The two of you pushed through sickness and hardships well. Although most of your life had him in it, you know that most of his life did not have you in it. But you were happy that most of your life surrounds him. 

As you chose to sacrifice his sacrifice for the Soul King, your Zanpakutos bid you farewell; although that wasn’t the idea you three agreed on, they seemed to agree without your knowledge. Maybe at the expense of the happy memories they chose to take with them, but they left you in Soul Society, just as another Shinigami who could only rely on their Kidou. But, their decision stripped you of your identity, which was your memories and your Zanpakuto abilities, which had stayed with you for as long as you appeared in Soul Society. They were your everything, and now they took themselves & your memory away. 

As you awoke in your husband’s arms, all you could muster was “my head hurts” & a painful sentence for your husband to bear: " Who are you?” You didn’t recall who he was, but saying that sentence made your heart sink when you saw the happiness stripped from his gentle features. 

He tried very hard to remind you, but he never gave up despite your cold approach to him, often shrugging him off. Despite not knowing who he was, you could tell that he cared about you very much. 

With him trying, you also tried. You were grateful that the old you kept a diary of your two’s past interactions. You could tell how much the old you loved him & how much he loved you as well. As years passed & the Konso Reisai was performed on the former Head Captain and Fourth Division captain, so did your memories slowly return. 

It was like a miracle that one day, you just happened to wake up, & your memories came flooding back to you. You were crying in the garden of your humble abode when your husband approached you. You cried into his arms, a mixture of happiness & sadness, apologizing for being so cold yet jubilantly telling him that your memories had returned. 

Your husband wanted to throw a party just for that, but you had to stop him. After all, 

. . .

Life is not a box of chocolate. 

Your fate was predetermined when you met Jushiro, who decided to tell you about Mimihagi & what his job was bearing such an entity in his body.

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The ending was long pre-determined. I considered your idea, Anon. I wrote it & decided that what I wrote prior should still stand. Thank you, though. It was fun to write this bit to ease my heart. Now, the following days would be the true ending. If you want a happy ending, go check out the sequel.

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Hi! I was hoping to run some maths on the ins and outs of the academy, do you have any screenshots of classrooms or the like? I really want to figure out the graduation class sizes, specifically, but I also just love the weirdness that surrounds the academy in general, so any trivia is appreciated!

First of all, THANK YOU for this ask. This is the kind of nonsense we want to dedicate every waking moment of our lives to.

When you have them, I would love to hear your speculations re: class sizes and how many classes and what the size of an Academy graduating class is! I was talking with my co-blogger about this, and given that the Gotei itself is not that large, we figured each graduating class can't be THAT big, relative to the Gotei itself, or else the size of each division would increase very quickly, given that it's not as though shinigami are aging out of service at the same rate. I mean, I'm sure a lot of them die every year even without a Blood War, but if, say, the equivalent of an entire Division is dying annually across the Gotei, that is... alarming...

Let's begin with some potentially useful group shots (left to right):

a mixed-class lecture (~200-300?). They're doing problem sets on the board, so it's not an exam, but both Renji and Rukia are in this hall, and it seems like it's before the classes have been split up. Maybe it's Introduction to Shinigami Studies or something?

the people who showed up to ogle Aizen (I didn't count these). It looks like a sparse crowd but it's over 100 people, possibly well over.

the Trauma FieldTrip (66, not including Hisagi et al), which potentially offers us a hard number on at least how many people are in Class 1.

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Of course, class instruction seems to be split into a smaller teacher/student ratio, into what appear to be classes of 20-30. The practical kidou classes seem smaller than the practical zanjutsu classes, which in turn seem smaller than the lecture/theory classes.

This is all just for Class 1, though, which for all we know might be a different size than the other class(es), since you have to test into it. I wish we'd seen Rukia's class! Hitsugaya's zanjutsu class looks like it's basically the same size as RenjiKiraHinamori's, but I assume he was also Class 1.

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There's some shots that are mostly about architecture rather than population, but many could also give us a sense of the volume of students on campus, based on who many are in the halls, the quad, the study rooms, etc.:

[Bleach e46/DDR]

And to close, these are just pure architecture shots, because where else are we going to put them, lol, but the Academy is a pretty big-looking building. I mean, look at all those windows! And there's at least one other, separate building, which is where RenjiKiraHinamori's zanjutsu lesson was held. (Not that this matters, but Hitsugaya's is held in what appears to be a different building, re: the windows, so maybe we can say there's at least two different classroom buildings, separate from the main gold building.) The pretty green courtyard is also not the front courtyard immediately upon entering the Academy gates, because that one is just an open square.

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Hewwo, my dear nene! I hope you're doing okay and that everything is going alright for you ;3; For the ship asks... Well, no surprise: KdFd XD And uuuh... HiroAtsu, if possible? XD

Hewwo sweet any~ I’m ok more or less, trying to relax due all this stress of the moving, so thank you for the ask, it helps me a lot💗 and I hope you’re doing great as well sweetie💗💗

KDFD

Who said “I love you” firstI know it might sound strange, but it was Fudou! Kidou is far too wrapped up in his own self doubts and overthinking and that stopped him from at first even acknowledging his feelings and then to said them out loud. So one day Fudou just EXPLODED because he couldn’t wait any longer and had to speak up what was in his heart. It was very loud and messy and at first Kidou said nothing because he was paralysed and half in denial and only in a second moment did he finally manage to say “I love you” back (after seeing his silence was hurting Fudou). And even then it wasn’t without a loooooot of overthinking about his dad and family situation, what that would mean for his future etc (to know more read the “first kiss” answer👀)

Who would have the other picture as their phone backgroundMmhh they both have the potential to do it, but this more when they’re adults and spend lots of time apart, then they would totally use a pic of them together as phone background AND WITHOUT KNOWING THEY USE THE EXACT SAME ONE BECAUSE THEY’RE TO BIG DORKS!

Who leaves notes written in the fog on the bathroom mirrorFudou would write something in the fog, a flirty/dumb message probably and Kidou would replay, always writing in the fog, to not write in the fog ‘cause he’s ruining the mirror (two loaf of idiot bread)-

Who buys the other cheesy giftsNeither? But also both? I mean they usually don’t but if they’ve been apart for a really long time they would eventually meet up and have both a silly present for the other, usually something that reminds them of shared memories like “a bouquet of the first flower you ever picked for me” or “that sweet you always eye inside that bakery’s window every time we visit that one city”

Who initiated the first kissTying this to the very first question, it was Fudou once again to initiate things between them, because they’re like that example of two introverts going out and one of them having to act as an extrovert to make the other relax and feel safe while they handle everything, just that this time they’re two teenagers who don’t like to show their emotions that much ao Fudou HAS to break from his own mind state and just say stuff, take Kidou’s face in his hands and KISS HIM TO SHUT HIM UP!Because he was spiraling with doubts and stupid worries instead of giving in to what he truly wanted.The kiss was initially BAM two mouths crashing together bc of the impact but an instant later Fudou was kissing him softly, conveying all his feelings in sweet slow movements and he felt Kidou melting in his hands until he was relaxed enough to reciprocate.Fudou is Kidou’s oxygen after all ;^)

Who kisses the other awake in the morningFudou wakes up first but doesn’t wake Kidou up because he knows he’s been up until very late, so he just sneaks out of bed and does his things, starts to get breakfast ready etc.Then Kidou would sneak behind him, kiss his shoulders and neck up to his cheeks, still half asleep while Fudou cooks and they’d smile and faintly chuckles- 

Who starts tickle fightsFUDOU! FOR REVENGE!! Also because he found out Kidou is ticklish on his hips and honestly he just loves his laugh-

Who asks who if they can join the other in the showerThe both do, really, but the first time Kidou did was such a great, important step forward in their relationship! He gathered up all his courage, pushed aside all his fears and slide that door open to a very surprised Fudou.They didn’t even do anything nasty, but it was so intimate, they ran fingers across their hair, watching each other into naked eyes and exchanging soft brief butterfly kisses on lips, nose and forehead while the water poured over them...

Who surprises the other in the middle of the day at work with lunchTwo options: 1) Kidou forgot his lunch, once again, so Fudou had to go and give it to him with a good scold but also a kiss. 2) Kidou wanted to surprise his beloved one and kidnapped him to go at their favourite place to relax a bit together!

Who was nervous and shy on the first dateGosh they were both so shy and awkward, blushing like the crazy in love teens they were but also gathering up the guts to actually hold hands in public during the local fair. It took them a while to warm up at least a bit to all that PDA and ended up enjoying the date, winning prizes for the other and eating cotton candy and chocolate banana~

Who kills/takes out the spidersThey both kill them without blinking an eye, really!

Who loudly proclaims their love when they’re drunkKidou gets whiny when drunk and a bit sad, but he constantly brags about how much he loves his husband (those rare times he did get drunk for real, so like two MAX)

HIROATSU

Who said “I love you” firstMmhh it was probably Atsuya, muttering it while blushing and looking away with a cute frown on his face because he had to master up all his courage to say those three words and he’s rather shy when it comes to these things. He honestly wasn’t expecting much but Hiroto surprised him after a moment of silence bc he looked down and blushing as well while throwing one last rock at the river (which fell this time instead of skipping on the water) and just... muttered “this is so not cool” and Atsuya confused “what?” “You beating me to this whole confession things” and then Atsuya realises what he’s saying and they both stand in awkward silence before Hiroto prompts “so wanna go on a date or what”. It’s gonna take some time before he says those words as well...

Who would have the other picture as their phone backgroundI personally can’t see them doing it bc they’re both too prideful and shy, but they do pass lots of time on the other’s Instagram or through their own phone gallery 👀

Who leaves notes written in the fog on the bathroom mirrorThey actually do it together, art competitions using the fog and mirror as their battleground. They laugh and push each other slightly while smiling both at the obscene things they draw AND at the whole complicity surrounding them.

Who buys the other cheesy giftsI think neither of them is really a cheesy romantic guy? But then again, they are both pretty shy and not at all comfortable with expressing their feelings, so they’ll probably try to convey them in dumb yet meaningful gifts?? Like, if one of them has trouble sleeping the other would buy some relaxing herbal tea but with a butt shaped mug, you feel? They care but they’re dumb.

Who initiated the first kissAtsuya confessed first, Hiroto initiated the first kiss. This because Atsuya kinda pushed him to, he kept nagging him on how he didn’t believe he had ever kissed someone before and saying he probably didn’t even know how to kiss properly, so Hiroto just kinda turned around, took a handful of those pink orangish hair and pulled him into a kiss.Spoiler: it wasn’t the first kiss he gave, but the first chaste one yes. Because for how much he wanted to prove him wrong, deep down he wanted to woo gently and a bit seductively Atsuya, not rushing things like he’d usually do...

Who kisses the other awake in the morningThey’re both grumpy sleeping in guys, so whoever opens eyes first can either decide to pepper kiss the other’s face OR to just stare in awe watching the other sleep~

Who starts tickle fightsFingers are Atsuya’s weapon, he tackles Hiroto down and get his revenge for the chestnut pudding that scarface stole 😤

Who asks who if they can join the other in the showerIt’s usually Atsuya despite the initial embarrass, and Hiroto accepts and lets him in wide eyed every time. And those are the times is Atsuya who tries to seduct Hiroto 👀

Who surprises the other in the middle of the day at work with lunchMmh probably Atsuya whenever he’s free? I think he asked Someoka some cooking advices and even if his stuff doesn’t look great like his, it tastes good and Hiroto dies internally because of the cute anxious faces Atsuya makes-

Who was nervous and shy on the first dateBOTH OMGS THEY WERE BOTH SO NERVOUS! Atsuya because he felt he had to beat all the other partners Hiroto ever had but he actually had no experience, while Hiroto was because he wanted for it to be perfect since, unknown to Atsuya, he never actually went to a date with someone he loved...

Who kills/takes out the spidersAtsuya. Hiroto just shrieks every time a spider gets at less than one meter from him and he’s lucky to have a mountain boyfriend with him~

Who loudly proclaims their love when they’re drunkThey’re both very loud drunks and those are the moments they have no inhibitions so they go all out. It’s usually a competition to whom screams more loudly and angrily that they love the other!

HOPE YOU LIKED THESE ANSWERS!